That melancholy feeling.

A state of nothing.
Yep that is where I am today.

One could view it as a peaceful place.
There is not a lot happening.
Except for all those crazy ass thoughts. 
Those fears and frustrations.
Oh yeah those things that prevented me from even having a good meditation today. 
Those things that for some reason I am insisting on carrying around today.

You know, 
when I first awoke at 7-am today none of this crap was with me. I woke up, felt great and then fell back asleep. 
That was the issue. 
I feel asleep. 
Perhaps this melancholy feeling is coming from some dream that I am not recalling. 
Perhaps it is because of the events of my morning. 
Maybe it is not even mine.

I have no clue. 
All I can share is that I am in a mood. 
I am in this mood of melancholy.
Where my brain will not shut up about how I will fail. 
How bad of a person I am. 
How I should do this or that. 
And will not allow me the space to just breathe. 
To just be and to have some freaking clarity. 
Or hope.

You know as I sit here this afternoon and write this message to you, I also realize that i am bored.

Yes bored and melancholy. 
Ooooh… it’s getting better is it not. 
Can you feel me love?

Can you feel the lull of my energy. 
Can you recognize it within yourself?

What is up with this new year?
I am seeing so many of my clients right now simply getting side tracked. 
Not wanting to do their work. 
Claiming they have no time. 
No energy. 
No direction. 
No drive.

And I get it!

I really do. 
I am feeling it too. 
But you know what?

It is still a choice.

Last week I joined a millionaire mastermind group. 
I took a stand for myself. 
For the life I want to have .
For my family. 
For my freedom.

I know that the only way that I can expand into the person that I want to be, to have the relationships that I want to have and to be free in all ways that I desire that I have to be willing to level up my life RIGHT NOW.

I have to be willing to say YES even though I am feeling bored and melancholy.

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This was my intimate share Saturday that never made its way live to you.

I spent the day in this state. 
I did a a powerful workshop for a beautiful group of souls in this state of being.
I stayed raw, authentic and in my truth, 
about this state of being.

And you know what. 
It is still slightly lingering.

It is holding on to all that it can. 
It is begging for me to keep it alive today by focusing in on yesterday.

Well F-ck That!

Yet this is where we get to make a choice. 
Yes you and I, 
we can each choose what we want in our lives by deciding RIGHT NOW what we really want. 
And all we have to do is FOCUS on that that we desire. 
And focus with the intent and feeling that we already have it.

That state of melancholy is nothing more than our soul saying WAKE THE F-CK UP LOVE!!!

You have grown tired of the life you are living and the way that you are living it.

You are tired because it is no longer who you really are. 
Sure it may be comfortable to live this life, 
but is there passion in it?

Do you feel called?
Curious?
Challenged?

If you are anything like me,
and I am going to go out a limb and say you must be something like me if you are following me and reading this, 
then you need to feel challenged. 
You crave the playfulness. 
The possibilities. 
You want to feel your heart beat rise a tad as you lean in a bit further to your AUTHENTIC self.

You want to step in and you want to feel the breeze under your beautiful wings.

But something has changed over the year.
Sure 2018 was powerful. 
It had lots of turbulence, chaos and transformation. 
It most certainly got you clear on what you no longer vibe with and what you do not want to create in your life. 
It got you to see what you do want and has you focused on that. 
But something is different.
The lull is here. 
In your heart. 
In your mind.
In your actions.

And that is no good. 
You will get no where in the lull, RIGHT?

No the lull is perfect love.
It is space that is needed for you to clean your internal house up. For you to take a moment to breathe and get things sorted.

The lull is Gods precious gift to you to realign. 
And that is what you are doing.

You are being requested to PAUSE.
To know that 2018 was setting you free, 
and now all you need do is rest into the lull and have FAITH.

Let God carry you for this next segment of the trail as you get things settled and organized. As you take the rest of the trash out and step back from the PUSH.

You are safe.
You are loved. 
You are worthy.
And you can FLY.

Have FAITH baby that those wings you have been building all these years will open and carry you.

And they will.
The way through the melancholy is to LEAP into FAITH.

Here is the action.
You must do.

As always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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