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God is living vicariously through YOU.

God is living vicariously through YOU!

Yes you read that right.
God is living out what God cannot do on his own. 
He needs YOU to do it for him.

Crazy huh?
But look at this thing called life.
It is all about experience. 
It is all about learning. 
Evolving.
Expanding.

Life is a beautiful gift.
And it is a gift that has been given for us to enjoy to the fullest. 
On top of it we have all the power. 
It is called FREE WILL.

What an amazing gift.

And you know what else?

It was given so that we can experience and expand to our greatest levels just like God does.

God is everywhere.
God is within everything.
The conscious creator of all. 

But the ONE thing God cannot do, 
is LIVE as a human. 

Which means God cannot experience like a human.
And God wants glory.
God wants love.
God wants respect.
God wants joy.
God wants our rapture.

Just like a lover, 
God want to bask in our beauty.

And therefore God wants to feel our full expression in everything that we do. 

You want to give God glory?
You want to show your worth?
You want to show God how deeply you love him?
You want to show your FAITH?

Well the best way to accomplish any and all of these, 
is to fully turn yourself over to the mystery.

Let GO and LET God.

This is where FAITH is shown.
Live unbound and to your fullest, 
this is where you show God’s glory.
Live in complete unconditional love, 
for self, for life, for everyone, 
Live authentically, 
this is where respect and love come from.
It is called integrity my sweet.
Live prosperous, 
Be wealthy.
Be sexual.
Be orgasmic.
Fall in love.
Laugh.
Play.
Allow abundance and blessing to wash all over you.

Because God is counting on you.
God wants to FEEL all of these mysteries.
But he needs YOU to open up and let HIS GREATNESS move through you. 

You are not doing anyone any favors by playing small.
Seriously, how is always accepting less,
always saying no to your heart and soul, 
always turning away from yourself,
serving YOU OR GOD?

It’s not.
Let imagine if Jesus turned away from himself. 
Turned away from God.

Lets imagine if Jesus coward in the face of his own greatness, 
which he KNEW was all God’s.

Lets imagine Jesus being small.

LOL…
That’s just silliness, 
right?

He took on the weight of everything.
And he did it in JOY.
He did it by revealing unconditional love.
He walked in FAITH.
And he let his fathers GLORY be witnessed by all. 
He did this by letting his light SHINE.
He did it by letting God work through him.

Because even the son of God, 
had to open himself to the mysteries of God. 

Had to open himself to the POWER of God. 
And what was the message he left us with my love?

“I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” – John 14:6

The message is clear no matter your faith.

If nothing else, Jesus was a man of leadership and deep understanding of the ways of God.

He was on the mission to reveal the truth.
And he stood in the power that he had been given.
He let his light shine.
And he has made it into our history and spiritual beliefs for over 2000 years because of his teachings.

So why not LISTEN?

Why not stand in your own RIGHT.
In your own POWER.
And Let God move through you. 
Let his glory be seen, 
by living your life UNBOUND.

No FEAR.
No DOUBT.
Only CERTAINTY.

Because God is counting on YOU my love. 
God wants to experience this thing called LIFE, 
but he does not want to just get through it….

Hell NO!
He want’s to THRIVE in ABUNDANCE.
He wants the JOY, 
The PROSPERITY,
The LOVE, 
The ORGASM.

So stop effing around already. 
Stop living in shame and misery.

You have all that you need on your side love. 

Just LET GO.
Leap.

Leap into the arms of the greatest lover of all. 
Leap and let God catch you. 

He wants to feel your rapture.

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Your Ripple Matters. So Make It Count.

“You are an inspiration to me.

You are beautiful in every sense of the word.

Look at how you radiate love into this world.

Look at all those you touch with your words.

The way that you live, so open, authentic and true.


Yes, you.

You are an inspiration to me.”

– This was written to me from a lover once.


And just today I had two men in my life reach out to share something similar.
In moments when people share how I touch them, how I make them want to be better, how I push them, and even though they may want to tell me to f-ck off, here and there, they still want more.


And you know what?That is what being inspiring is all about.

Having that more flavor in who you are.

In what you stand for.In what you do.

And how you live in this world of ours.


When we are inspiring,

we make others want for more.


And when this happens in my life, I find myself sometimes wondering…


Wondering how this is possible?

Why would someone want to listen to me?

After all, I am only human. I am only a mom, a daughter, a sister, an ex-wife, a lover, a friend, a woman who gets lost just like anyone else.

I am no one.
Right?

I often feel like I have nothing to offer.

And then God speaks through someone and says,

” Hey Kendal, you are needed. – Your words have value. – Your thoughts change lives.”


And I smile as I ponder the reality of changing lives.

Having an IMPACT.

An impact on this world.


The reality baby is simple, we are all influencer’s.
We influence someone, all the time. If no one outside of ourselves, then realize this…

we are constantly influencing ourselves through the thoughts we choose to think and the feelings we choose to have.
And when we choose these thoughts and feelings, we in turn touch others lives as well. Because it is through our thoughts and feelings that we choose how to show up and interact with others.


So we are ALWAYS influencing.


You are an Influencer.


The only question any of us need to ask ourselves is,

” What kind of influence am I?”


Am I a positive or negative inspiration.

Because you could easily be either.


The word inspiration sounds pretty.

Doesn’t it
And it can be.

But we have to be cautious in what we inspire others to believe and desire.
Your words just like mine carry a powerful message within them.


Words do not teach.

But words do make us inquire.


They bring attention to what matters.
We influence through our words.

We influence through our actions.

We influence by the way we live.


And this baby is what you need to embrace.

You must embrace that you matter.

And you must embrace that how you live matters.

You are not too small to be of value. You are not too under educated to not have enlightenment. You are not too young or old to be able to speak the truth. You are not too sinful to be worthy.


No you matter.

And so do your thoughts, feelings, actions.


You matter love.

And you must embrace this fact.
Embrace it in love.

Embrace it with fierceness.

You matter.

And so do your words.


So what does your life message say of you?

Who are the one’s that you touch with your words, actions and thoughts the most?


And how do you witness that which you share with them ripple out into their lives, and thus out into our world?


Every stone you cast has an effect on the pool of life.


Make it count.


As Always,

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Why Are You Settling For Less?

Sitting here in my favorite salon in Dallas.
The only place I go to get my hair done, matter fact.
I love Marcos and Jo so much if I ever move someplace outside of the big D, I will be flying back every couple months to get my hair done.

Seriously love Delilahs.
But this is not a testimony share for my amazing beautician.
It is however a writing of awareness.
Awareness to the reality that in life there are those things that we simply cannot settle for anything less with.
Its about the connection.
Its about the service.
Its about the care.
Its about the quality.

And once we find our home in something,
We don’t want to change it up for any reason.
Much like myself when it comes to my hair.

I feel this way about many things.
Like my office building.
My health care providers.

Why would I settle for anything less than the greatness that these souls offer in their work and service?

Why would I ever desire to go with something less than GREATNESS?

Sure I could get the services for less.
Probably a lot less.
If we get real.

But at what cost would those dollars saved actually cost me?

This is the truth that we tend to over look.

I am reminded about the true cost of our decisions and choices often.
From my hair appointment in this moment,
To my children’s schooling and long term educational rewards or disabilities that can come from my parental choices,
To my choice to remain
Or separate in a relationship.

If we are willing to do whatever it takes to get the best hair care, dental work, or schooling for our children.
If we are willing to attain the best real estate agent, attorney or even find ourselves going to the same pub over and over again because the bar tender is phenomenal and great to talk too,
Then why the f-ck do we settle in love.
Settle in our work.
Settle with our health.
Settle with our financial situations.

Why do we in these important areas of life allow for less than ideal?

I believe that because these areas are so important to our overall well being and life happiness,
That we find ourselves not feeling worthy of the greatness that we desire.
So we remain quiet.
We accept whatever we get.
We maintain and allow the cards to fall wherever they will.
We make statements like:
” Our relationship is great everywhere else, its just this one area. We can make due.”

” I have responsibilities. I can’t just do what I want. Who would pay my bills?”

” I don’t have the time. The money. The resources to go do….. or have ….”

” He/she loves me though. Loves the kids. Are a good person. ”

These statements of justification as to why…
Why we are choosing to settle.

Why we are allowing less than greatness into our lives.
All the while,
not embracing our truth.

The truth that we are terrified of something more.
Terrified of who we might be if we allowed better into our lives.
If we not just allowed
But commanded it into our lives.

After all if we started asking for this level of F-ck Yes! In all areas of our lives
Including the important ones,
We would have to acknowledge our weaknesses,
Our shadows,
And all the places we clutter up with fear and ego.
We would,
If we started to demand greatness in,
Have to transform ourselves into the person
Who can handle it.
Who can open up to it
And say,
F-ck YES!! I deserve this blessing.
I deserve this fairy tale life.

I am more than average and ordinary.
I am a child of God,
And God wants for his greatness to manifest
In all things.

It is my choice to open up to this greatness
Or to close myself to it.

It is up to me
To CLAIM My Life.
And STOP SETTLING,
For anything less than what God would want for me.

When we settle,
When we walk in fear,
When we doubt our worth,
We deny the greatness of God.
We deny Gods ability to move mountains,
And instead we proclaim him weak.

Your worthiness is never in question.
It is only your acceptance of your worthiness that needs worked on.

Stop settling for anything less than,
Stop living a life of existence.

This is your time,
Your moment to say,
F-ck YES!!!
I am a child of God.
And I am worthy of blessing.
Of his favor.

As always,
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My Simple Secret that Took Me from $17k Year to Multi-Six Figures

Living for the weekends.

This was a shirt I saw on a woman this morning at Starbucks.

Yesterday, I was working with a gentleman and he looked at me as he left my office and said, “Thank goodness it is Friday.”

My attorney for my custody case with my ex texted me, “His attorney has not responded yet, so I called and found out that her office closes at 1pm on Fridays. Must be nice.”

Weekends.
Is that when your life begins?
Weekends.
Is then when you decide to allow joy in? Connect? Do the things you want?
Weekends.

Okay so maybe it is not just weekends.
I bet you are more like….

Weekends.
Friday at 5pm. ( or whatever your 5pm end of the workday is)
Holidays.
Vacation days.
And an occasion fake sick day.

Does that sound more like it?
Do you live for that two or three weeks of vacation you get every year. Planning out where you are going to park your ass. Thinking about how much down time you can handle. And what you will do with it.

Does this sound like LIVING?

It sure the f-ck does not to me.
It never has.
I have never been a good employee.
Which is why I gave being one up at the ripe old age of 23.
Almost 20 years later and I can honestly tell you that even with all the trials, the suffering, the stress of what came because I chose a path to follow my heart and soul that I would not play my cards any different.
I would not choose to sell my life off by the hour to some corporation.
It just is not me.
I am my own BOSS.
Always have been.

The trick to being my own BOSS and being good at it has been the learning of what it means to get daily more and more into soul alignment.
To not allow my fear,
my doubt,
or anyone else’s to get in the way of what I am being called to do.

This is the toughest thing to do and yet it is so simple.

I cannot share with you my gratitude for the life that I have manifested for myself and my family.

I watch it blossom into something that I could never have imagined possible.

The relationships.
The experiences.
The love.
The abundance.

All because I CLAIMED IT.
I CHOOSE it.

And it is true choosing.
That is the lesson I want to express to you today.

You cannot just give it lip service.
You must COMMIT to it.
Commit to yourself.
Commit to the JOURNEY.

The journey is one that will test you.
It is one that will make you weep,
give you butterflies in your stomach,
make you ache and shudder in fear.
It will captivate you if you let it.
And this will be the only path that you can take once you venture far enough down the trail to your SOUL.

But the expression of your soul,
it is so beautiful.
So strong.
Powerful.
Magnificent.

It is the light that this world,
that the people you love and cherish,
MUST WITNESS.

That is IF….
if you CHOOSE to reveal yourself.
And to CLAIM YOUR LIFE.

Which means that the weekends will no longer mean anything.
It will cast out the five o’clock hour, because it is pointless and control that you will no longer live by.
It will say PTO days…Bah-hahaha.
It will look at your schedule, your vacations which will now just be your life,
and it will smile at its splendor.
Your soul expression will carry you to the heights that God wants you to be living at.

It is there.
It is there that you will find your happiness.
Not a step in any other direction.

But will you say YES?
Will you step into this greatness?
Will you build your legacy?

Or will you just continue on this path that society has set out for you,
living for the weekends?
Living according to someone else’s agenda?

I am here to tell you that if I can go from raising five children on $17k a year and getting government assistance to traveling the world, working an average of 15 hours a week from anywhere that I proclaim, and making a multi-six figure income as a single mom to seven. That YOU CAN have your dreams too.

And no I did not do this in some MLM company.
I do not work for anyone but myself.
All I ever do,
is show up as me.
Live as my soul desires.
Share what I am called to share.
And reveal my SOUL EXPRESSION.

I continuously CHOOSE to step more into alignment with who I am.

And THAT is ALL I do.
Daily.
Moment by Moment.

What will you Choose?

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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NEWS FLASH!!! You Can’t Do It For ANYONE else but YOU.

You Can’t Do It For ANYONE else but YOU.

 
You really are the center of the universe.
 
I know that may sound like a ego based statement,
it may appear to be selfish, self centered and even “wrong” in some fashion to think this way about ourselves.
 
But leave it to me to be the
📢📢📢F-cking NEWS FLASH of reality….
 
If you make anyone else more important than you,
If you make anyone else’s business your responsibility,
If you worry more about anyone else more,
If you want it more for them then they do….
 
Then you are sacrificing your EVERYTHING.
 
I am always telling my clients,
” I am in this to level that you are.”
 
Meaning, if you think it is my responsibility as your coach to do/push or want your success more than you do, then you will be sadly let down and mistaken.
 
If you believe that you need someone else to push you,
Give you motivation,
Reason,
Courage,
or FAITH,
 
to take the steps that you need to take.

to REMIND you to DO THE Mother F-cking things that you know you need to do.

 
Then you are going to always have less than what you are worth.
You will always be a victim to life,
a victim to circumstance.
 
You will continually be lost,
feel unloved,
unseen,
and like you do not matter.
 
It is no one else’s job to make you
FEEL
or DO
ANYTHING.
 

This is your effing life.

🔥🔥🔥If you want it than CLAIM IT!🔥🔥🔥
 
What if….
 
What if you just finally started saying YES to yourself,
and stopped being the doormat to everything and everyone else?
 
What if you made yourself,
 

🙄WAIT FOR IT…..

 
 

…..THE F-cking Priority. 📢🎆🎆

 
WHOA!!!! What a concept.
 
So back to my original statement of today…
 
You really are the center of the universe.
YOUR Universe.
 
YOUR WORLD! 🌏
 

💯% of the TIME.

 
No one else.
 
This is called having
DRIVE
DIRECTION
COMMITMENT
SELF-LOVE
 
PURPOSE!!!!!!!!
 
Very few people actually have these things.
Most people opt for average and ordinary.
They opt to remain in the confines of the beliefs that they are responsible for someone else’s thoughts, feelings, actions.
 
That it is their responsibility to try and control an outcome.
 
Many people SACRIFICE their lives
for others….
 
WHO never realize that they have done this,
and don’t even want them to do this.
 
Many people,
believe that this makes them ” a good person.”
 
A Godly person, even.
 
When in fact,
all it does is STEAL their JOY.
 
Want to know why you suffer so GREATLY?
Want to know why you feel lost?
Want to know why your always unhappy,
never satisfied,
have limited DESIRE 🔥🔥🔥
 
BECAUSE You are Living for Someone Else.
You are NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE.
 
You have made someone else your EVERYTHING.
And You have GIVEN Your Life for it.
 
So F-cking STOP!!!
 
Instead look in the mirror and start telling the most important person in your life how
 
AMAZING they are.
That YOU LOVE 💖 Them.
That they are WORTHY.
That they CAN HAVE IT ALL!!!!
 

Start with you Baby!

You were born for GREATNESS.

 
But You have to CLAIM IT for Yourself.
No One Else can do this for you.
 

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What is stopping you? You KNOW you are Worthy at your Core.

Can you say that you are living up to your worthiness?

 
This was a question that I posed to myself this weekend as I moved through some self-inquiry around my current blockages to to my desires.
 
Yes we all have blockages.
No matter who we are, we are still human and we fall prey to our ego’s, our fear, our doubt and the patterns and programs that we have lived thus far in this life.
 
The difference between so many people is not that some have privileged lives and others don’t.
 
It is not that some are smarter, better educated or better looking than others.
 
The one difference that makes ALL the difference is if we stand up to the CALL OF OUR WORTHINESS.
 
I often ask my clients to share a brag with me in their coaching appointments. I ask them to tell me something that makes them in AWE of themselves.
 
And the response is normally,
“WHAT?”
” Wow, this is strange. I don’t know what to say”
 
I watch them squirm.
I watch as they readjust their legs, try and get centered on the chair.
Look any direction but upward or into my eye’s.
I watch their face become flushed, their chest turn red.
 
So many little things happen as they start to grasp that the request is real.
 
F-CK YES!!!!! I want to know what you are PROUD of.
I want you to CLAIM IT.
CALL IT IN DAMN IT!!!!!
 
How do we ever expect to have anything that we are not calling in with passion, certainty and turn on.
 
You have to BELIEVE that you are WORTH it and the thing about worthiness is that we are consistently told that we are not worthy. That instead we are guilty. We should feel shame for this or that and all of our ancestors shit too.
 
Just pile on the bullshit.
 
Whatever you do,
DO NOT BELIEVE that God wants you BLESSED.
 
Our world and teachings have created a bunch of believers in God NOT FAVORING US,
 
FAVORING YOU.
 
We are repeatedly told not to think to much of ourselves.
To not own our power.
To not shine bringht.
 
Well ONLY do these things in the way that are socially acceptable.
 
Not the way that your soul calls you too.
 
The problem with this idea is that anytime we stop listening to our soul and try and follow anything other, we step out of alignment and favor with God’s desire for our life.
 
We say no to our WORTHINESS.
We prevent ourselves from STEPPING INTO OUR GREATNESS.
 
and no duh,
this my love is the reason you are not living the F-ck YES! Life that you claim you want so badly.
 
It is because you are attempting to live YOUR F-CK YES! Life according to someone else’s beliefs, desires, boundaries, ideas and blockages.
 
How are you ever going to CLAIM YOUR Life if you are ALWAYS living through someone else’s?
 
Now you may say,
“Kendal, I don’t do that.”
” I live for me and me alone. ”
” I know my worth. I know who I am. I know what I desire.”
” I believe that I am in God’s favor.”
 
I call bullshit to that statement,
and here is why…..
 
Because if you REALLY did all of these things then your life experience would be different.
 
The life that is showing up in your daily experience is the life that YOU and ONLY YOU are MANIFESTING in your HEART AND MIND.
 
So if you want to have that F-ck YES! Life then you need to start FEELING and THINKING about it ASAP like your Motherf-cking Life depended on it, BECAUSE it does!!!!!
 
And it all starts with your idea’s, beliefs around WORTHINESS.
 
It is not good enough to say that you know you are worthy.
It is not good enough to put in the actions to prove that you are worthy.
It is not good enough to examine why you are worthy.
 
The ONLY thing that matters is CLAIMING IT.
KNOWING IT.
 
UNDERSTAND love that you were born worthy.
You don’t have to act some special way,
look some way,
go to some special training,
or be this or that.
 
YOU DO NOT!!!!!!
( I am screaming this at you now)
 

YOU MOST CERTAINLY DO NOT have to PROVE your worthiness.

 
Just ACCEPT it.
 
That is all God wants you to do,
is to step into your power by accepting your birth right and living up to your worthiness.
 
If you strive to live up to your worthiness, you WILL ALWAYS….
 
A-L-W-A-Y-S…
 
Be enough,
have enough,
share enough,
do the right things,
and live a F-ck YES! Life.
 
Baby you born for greatness!!!!!!
 

Just ACCEPT it.

 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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Your Perception Does Not Define Me.

It’s your impression of me that shuts me down.

It’s your view of who you think I am that prevents you from seeing whom I really am.

It’s your ideas about what I am thinking,
feeling that create this space between us.

It’s your fear of my inner world that holds your authentic self from coming out.

STOP.

Stop putting your idea’s,
your feelings,
your fears,
on me.

They are not mine.
Do not shut me out
because it is easier than feeling into me.

Do not disconnect and not speak,
because you already know what I will respond with.

Do not retract your love,
because you are certain you heard me say one thing when
IN FACT you were not listening.

All you hear is your program.
All you hear is your past trauma.
All you hear is your baggage.

You think you see me clearly.
But you only see my reflection.
The one that you have painted.

None of this is true.

Your perception of me,
is NOT my reality.

That fear,
that doubt,
that anger you hold.

It is in you.
It is not mine.

That blame you are trying to hand to me,
it is yours my love.

It is not mine.

All this viewing of a shadow I never cast,
has you seeing an image of me that never has been.

It is your impression of me that shuts me down.

I feel you judging.
I feel you closing me out.
I feel you hiding.
I feel you poking at me,
hoping to see me,
but not willing to stand with me.

Confirmation of your inability to stand,
comes from your actions.
Those actions you claim you have no choice but to make.
Those actions which you initiated,
initiated with your fear,
your anger,
your doubt,
your lack of feeling worthy.

That self-hatred,
you cast it onto me.
You see me in the blinding light of your self rage,
and you mistake me for the devil.

That devil that resides deep withing each of us.
That devil that has brainwashed you,
you into believing you are not doing anything,
but that everything is happening to you.

You are the driver of your life.
These are your choices.

This is our path.
The journey we have chosen to share.

It is your impression of me that keep’s me locked out of your castle gates.
It is your fear of being loved that keep’s you from feeling me.
It is your anger of the reflection that I provide that has the inner devil dancing in rage.

It is you my love.
It is you.

I will not own this image that you have gifted me with.
I will not claim it as my own.

I CHOOSE love.
I CHOOSE growth.
I CHOOSE soul.
I CHOOSE to see the light.

The light in me.
The light in you.

This I honor.
This I am in gratitude for.

Put down your armor,
let your warrior rest.
It is time to embrace the truth.
Time to SEE your TRUTH.

You are WORTHY.
Stand in your FEAR and cast out the devils there.

This is your calling.

And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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God Bless My Ego.

It is one of those days.
One of those days where I find myself wrapped in a cover of doubt. Fear. Overwhelm. Exhaustion.

Uncertainty knocking at my door,
Screaming at me that I will fail.

Screaming at me that there is no f*cking way that I can do this.
Can have this.
Can be this.

My ego parading around in my head taking front row center stage, announcing its victory of kicking me while it perceives I should be down.

It woke me numerous times last night to tell me how shitty I was. To share with me its concerns and fears. To announce to me how everything that I wanted I could not have and how I was not good enough to have it.

My ego.
God bless my ego.

Standing in the shower just moments ago, I found myself being taken on another ego trip.

Feeling like I was scrooge being drug through my life of what had happened, what was happening and what would be.

My ego painted nothing but the most gloomy of pictures.
Assuring me that this was sure to happen.

Telling me that my life would NEVER be what I wanted.
I was for certain not to be HAPPY.
Not to find true LOVE.
Not to HEAL.
Physically or emotionally.
Not to LIVE UNBOUND, full and free.
Telling me that the F*ck Yes! Life that I prescribe too,
PREACH about,
and have been living,
was all a figment of my imagination.

My ego.
God Bless my ego.

Yes it shared with me that ADVENTURE was gone for this lifetime. Only work, work, and more work was in my future.

Yes it shared with me that PLAY was not to be had. Instead it is time to put on my BIG GIRL pants and get serious and STOP desiring play, fun, joy, and bliss.

Yes it shared with me that LOVE was nothing to desire. It does not exist. No one will ever love me. Will ever honor me. Will ever hold space for me. Will ever see me. No, this man does not exist. My SOUL MATCH does not exist. He is a figment of my imagination. I will have to just SETTLE for meeting fragments of him in other men and make due with what I get.

Yes my ego shared that I was stupid.
That I was unhealthy.
That my body now was f*cked up and ugly.
That I looked old, tired, worn out and should just settle for the reality that my light had been squished.

My wings clipped.
Yes it shared that my words, my truth, my message was unwanted and not needed. That it to was stupid, not good enough and silly.

My ego. 
God Bless my ego.

This morning my ego has had a Raging Dance Party in my psyche.

It has been shacking its booty in my face,
Rubbing itself up and down my sides like a horny, drunk person.
It has been pointing its fingers and laughing at my dreams and desires.
It has been taunting me, seducing me and scaring me.

It has been lude, crude and tempting.
It makes its case like the best attorney in court.
Showing evidence of my lack of worthiness.
My lack of FAITH.

Showing me how BAD I have been in life and how I deserve to FAIL.

Yes, my ego.
God Bless my ego.

And F*CK MY EGO!!!!

I watch it dance before me. I hear its serenade.

The reality.
MY REALITY.

Is that a life of EGO is NO LIFE AT ALL.

I know the wolf that is underneath that cloak.
It hungers for my life.
It craves to steal my breath.
It craves to steal my LIGHT.
It tells me my wings are clipped when in FACT my wings are stretched out so far I cannot see their tips.
It tells me I cannot FLY.
That God will not carry me.

My SOUL KNOWS different.
My HEART is CERTAIN of different.

I do not have to look far to SEE the TRUTH.
My TRUTH.

My TRUTH, that is all around me.
Comes through my words.
Through my messages.
Through my energy.
Through the light in my eye’s.

My TRUTH,
that comes through the messages that my TRIBE shares with me.
The vulnerability of not just my expression but that of those I connect with, share with and hold space for.

Yes, my truth.
God Bless my truth.

I will NEVER STOP.
DREAMING.
SHARING.
LIVING.
BELIEVING.

I will NEVER STOP.
LOVING.
OFFERING.
OPENING.
BEING ME.

The ego will try and strip us of our life.
It will try and scare us into submission.
It has tactics that make us feel like we should do this or that.
It will tell us how to be a good person.
It will tell us this is what God wants from you.
It will make us prideful and strip us of our pride all in the same sentence.

None of which is coming from God or our soul.

No.
F*ck the EGO and it’s satanic ways of making us fear LIVING.

F*ck the EGO for attempting to steal our lives and dreams.

Our desires.
Our TRUTH.

I don’t know about you,
But I can tell you that I for one REFUSE to let the EGO LIVE MY LIFE.

This life is mine to live.
This breath is mine to breathe.
This heart is mine to share.

I am Claiming My Life.
Will You Claim Your’s?

Remember,
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Popcorn Moments

These moments… Popcorn Moments.

 
These moment’s they tend to drive me effing crazy while they are happening.
 
You most likely know the moments.
It is the times when you are focused, determined, aware and taking action,
 
But there is still no pop corn popped.
You can hear the sizzle in the pan of the kernels getting ready.
You can feel the heat of the fire that you have built and keep tending too.
 
You can smell the warming oil.
And feel the excitement of how good it will be when they pop.
 
Yes the yummieness of the fresh pop corn, its buttery flavor, its comfort and simple complexity.
 

Yes you know these popcorn moments.

 
Every time you make your mind up that you are going to
 
Get serious.
Make it happen.
Plant your stake.
Get COMMITTED.
Become more than what/who you are.
Access your FLOW.
And become ABUNDANT.
 
Yes these moments.
 
This is what I am speaking of.
 
And then what happen’s?
 

I will tell you what happen’s…

Your child comes to you and asks if he can purchase a game online. It is only this small amount of funds.
 
But you find yourself CLAIMING that you don’t have it.
 
Your kid comes to you and ask’s if they can go here or there with a friend and they need just $20, NOW.
 
But you find yourself CLAIMING that you don’t have it.
 
You open your refrigerator or pantry and see that it is time to go grocery shopping again, and you feel this drop in your gut.
 
Because you find yourself CLAIMING that you don’t have it.
 
Your friend say’s let’s grab lunch, and you really need away from everything and get excited about the connection and sharing.
 
But you find yourself CLAIMING that you don’t have it.
 
You really need to take a moment for some self-care and get a massage. You have been working so hard, and you know it is almost mandatory for you to do.
 
But you find yourself CLAIMING that you don’t have it.
 
Your lover snuggle’s up and say’s, “Let’s grab dinner and a movie, go for drinks and chat.” You see the sparkle and turn on in their eye, you feel the need for connection.
 
But you find yourself CLAIMING that you don’t have it.
 

Yes here is what happens.

 
We reach for our goals.
Our dreams and desires.
 
We PROCLAIM that we want them,
That we will DO ANYTHING to achieve them.
 
We send out our rockets of desire and watch as they his they pass through the atmosphere into the hands of God.
 
And then we promptly, swiftly,
 
CLAIM that we don’t have it.
 
It is in our words,
Our actions,
Our thoughts.
 
And all of this makes up our ENERGY.
 
If we are not in the energy of certainty,
the energy of enthusiasm,
the energy of allowing ourselves to receive our desired life.
 
Then can we ever REALLY expect that we will create it.
That the BLESSINGS will come down on us?
 
No, Because it is like looking at that popcorn, sizzling away.
Smelling it getting ready, hearing the kernels in the hot oil.
Even seeing and hearing a few pop,
 

And THEN…

 
Removing it from the heat,
And PROCLAIMING that it was NEVER going to happen.
 
In this we not just take our popcorn off the heat,
we toss it in the trash can.
 
And cry about the waist.
 
We blame the popcorn.
We blame the stove.
We blame the oil.
We say the oil got to hot or not hot enough.
 
And then we land on, ” I did not want popcorn anyway.”
 
Sound familiar?
 
We are all guilty of doing this somewhere.
I write this because I caught myself in my own little popcorn moment this morning.
 
Funny how we sabotage that, that we want so much.
So that we can continue to SETTLE for something less.
 
Our comfort is in the LESS though.
Our SUCCESS is in the MORE.
In the anticipation.
In the waiting with intent.
In the energy of IT IS ALREADY HERE.
 

Where are you coming from this day?

Will you ALLOW your popcorn to pop?

 

And Remember,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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Risk It All – You Are Worth It

This morning I find myself sitting here feeling some uncalled for tension in my shoulder and neck. I did not wake with it. I was not consciously thinking thoughts of stress, negativity or scarcity. Yet here I sit.
 
I sit in this place and even as I type, I feel tears wanting to come up and be released.
 
The more I inquire and search within for
 
where they are coming from?
why am I feeling this tension?
 
I discover an emptiness.
A lost-ness.
 
There is no answer rising to the surface. Just emotion and physical repercussions of the emotion.
 
So I write.
I turn on one of my favorite Binaural Beats music sound tracks and I listen.
 
Hoping to change my frequency.
Hoping to release this charge of energy that is causing this.
Hoping that my energy will switch back to where I was at waking.
 
So I share.
I share with you to share my intimacy of being human.
I share with you to show that we all have internal work to do.
I share with you to say, it’s okay.
 
It’s okay to get tripped up.
It’s okay to feel pain.
It’s okay to not have the answers.
 
So I feel.
I feel into this space of not knowing and even though it is scary to not know I do KNOW that everything always happens for a reason and works out for my highest and best good.
 
I feel into this dark closet of my emotions and breathe deep and MAKE A DECISION to hold space for myself.
 
I feel into this uncomfortable vibration and realize that it is here to tell me an important message.
 
The message?
The message is that I allowed myself to step out of alignment with God.
 
Out of alignment with my core.
Out of alignment with my joy and well-being.

 

The message is that when we are in alignment, life will flow and FEEL GOOD.

 
The message is that we are ALWAYS being guided,
We often do not see the path,
However we are ALWAYS being guided.
 
The message is to TRUST.
What does Alignment look and feel like?
 
It looks and feels like TRUST.
It looks and feels like SURRENDER.
It looks and feels like LETTING GO.
 
Alignment will appear as RISK.
On the front side I have noticed that anytime I lean in more, trust more, surrender more, that I feel like I am risking everything.
 
And I am risking EVERYTHING.
I am risking what I have ALWAYS KNOWN
for EVERYTHING I HAVE ALWAYS DESIRED.
 
So I write.
I write this to help myself come back into that space of KNOWING.
I write this to support my core and to see the steps that I must take, I am already taking.
I write this because my SOUL needed to SPEAK to my MIND.
 
So I share.
I share this with you this morning to GIVE YOU INSIGHT.
I share this with you this morning to remind you to have compassion for yourself.
I share this with you this morning to remind you that YOU HAVE ALL the answers within you.
 
Is it as easy as just making your mind up to TRUST
To SURRENDER,
To LET GO?
 

Yeppers.

It is!

 

Only in committing to yourself will you ever BECOME who you were BORN TO BE.

 
Trust in your day.
Trust in your heart.
Trust in your soul.
Trust in God.
 
And Risk all that you are COMFORTABLE with For ALL THAT YOU ARE.
 
Stop Settling for Less.
You are WORTH MORE.
 

Leap this morning into the life that your heart desires.

 

It wants you!!!!

 

And Remember,

Stop Existing & Start Living!

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