WHEN I MAKE LOVE TO YOU.

WHEN I MAKE LOVE TO YOU.

 

I make love to me as well.

You open me to depths of my soul that no other has even come close.

I witness my joy,

my warmth,

my desire,

all in your arms,

and I feel carried in your presence.

 

As you look at me,

with eyes on fire with passion and admiration,

I feel the sweetness of your heart,

as well as its hunger.

 

When my breasts touch your chest,

and you pull me closer,

I feel decades passing through us.

There is no time nor space,

it is but only the here and now.

 

As you enter my body with yours,

I breathe deep with anticipation,

I feel athirst for your nectors that feed my soul.

My chest expands as I surrender,

softly, fiercely,

at your hand,

I am breathless with your touch.

 

My eagerness to be taken by you is never ending.

My body aches and yearns for your devouring.

And as you breathe,

my flesh tingles,

my mouth waters,

and I am wet.

 

I am now the ravenous one.

And you are my home.

 

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To all my followers who crave a relationship, a love that penetrates them to their core.

 

Yearning for the entwinement with “the one” that twin soul, that soulmate, that knows you beyond words or life memories of this time.

 

These are the images, the feelings and vibrations that we were born to expereince and we are in search for in our love, in our sex, in our relating. We do not hunger for surface level, superficial relationships, no matter how often we choose to settle for them.

What we desire is the fulfillment of what we know is our home.

And you my dear follower/reader can have just this.

 

But how you may wonder?

If you currently are not looking into the eyes of home, ‘then how can you call that sort of love in?

 

It’s all about authenticity and integrity with self.

It’s all about loving self beyond your darkness and mistakes.

It’s all about KNOWING that YOU ARE WORTHY,

worthy of this connection.

 

And in these things your vibrations will meet.

And you too my dear will experience home.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

2020 was a nasty year for relationships.

Couples and singles alike.

Hard to meet new people.

Difficult to do anything with your current partner.

The stress and worry exhausted many relationships,

and I am here to share with you that 2021 does not have to be the same.

Reach out to me today for my exclusive offers for 2021 for couples to bring back the passion, singles to find true love and more.

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I CAN’T SEE PAST YOU.

 

I CAN’T SEE PAST YOU.

 

I am going to get real with you, raw with you, vulnerable and share something that scares the shit out of me today in this musing.

 

Ready?

I sure am not, but here we go anyway 🙂

 

I recently let down my guards.

I recently decided to just drop the fear of letting love penetrate me to my core,

I recently took down my shield that was protecting my delicate hungry heart,

and I allowed my soul to lead me right into possibly the last relationship of my life.

 

I possibly opened the floodgates to something that I have craved for, desired and sampled in ways in the past but did not actually believe was possible,

or thought oh that will happen in my golden years if I am lucky.

 

Folks, I can’t see past him.

WTF am I to do with that?

 

Never before have I not been able to see a life past someone.

Even my deepest loves in my past I could see life past them,

without them, it may not have been what I wanted for or desired but I could still look past them and know that there was more,

something greater, deeper, more elevating and penetrating.

 

And here I sit today with the realization that I can’t see past him.

I can’t keep ignoring the words and feelings that rise up in my core,

my soul screams them, my eyes communicate them, my heart shakes and makes me know its desire and to make matters worse he just keeps confirming all of it to me in soft ways and direct ways.

 

I am done with looking for the gotcha’s.

Done with trying to find what’s wrong, why it would not work, should not work, cannot happen. Done with giving a shit about what the world says….

 

Sorta taking a Bonnie Raitt approach to this and just going with,

“Let’s give them something to talk about.”

 

Because the alignment is too f-cking damn good to ignore and turn away from any longer.

 

I AM ALL ABOUT THE ENERGY.

 

Everything is energy.

It’s the most potent, important thing when we are looking at anything in our lives. Especially when we are looking at relationships and building a F-ck Yes! Life.

 

It’s not just chemistry.

Chemistry can fade.

There is New Relationship Energy (NRE) that we all have on the front side of getting together with someone, and it typically lasts anywhere from six months to 3 years if we are lucky, but then it fades and we start to see our partners clearly and as the humans that they are.

 

We can feel alignment when we are meeting in the wounds of our life and they are sinking up with someone else’s,

We can feel energy when we have physical attraction, mental stimulation, emotional bonding or a feeling that someone “gets us” but true energetic connection goes deeper than all of this.

Real soul alignment is more than that feeling like you are seen or understood.

 

Energetic Alignment in Intimate relationships is about elevation of the souls.

 

And it comes from a place of your core.

It comes from two individuals being aligned to who they are first without each other.

Not needing each other, but choosing to add the cherry of the relationship into their already damn good life picture.

 

True soul alignment is a feeling of coming home.

And when you reach that feeling of coming home you most likely will not be able to see a relationship past this one that elevates you into wanting so much more from life and yourself.

 

Soul based relating is about expansion in love.

It is about reaching your edge and knowing that you can go further because you are limitless and together you are limitless.

 

It’s a love that extends past time and space.

 

My experience over the last six weeks of my life is one of great momentum.

Going zero to 300 you could say.

A hundred years traveled in a little over a month,

the feeling of making up for lifetimes of lost time.

A merger of energy so great that I simply don’t have words to describe.

A shattering of my heart that is breathtaking and welcoming.

And here is something I have recognized in my work with thousands of people through the years who have been through this process of coming into soul aligned relationships of this depth and magnitude:

 

You can see the steps as to how you arrived right where you are at and how f-cking perfect everything is. How the synchronicities, the crazy little coincidences, how people, places and timelines guided you to this moment, to this relationship and how had you chosen differently you would have set things back or even missed it.

 

YOU HAD TO BECOME A MATCH TO THIS ENERGY.

 

And that is the truth.

 

We forget how WE,

Yes, we and only we can do this for ourselves. That we have to become a match to the person that we want to call into our lives.

All this talk about soulmates, twin flames, etc….

and the thing that we forget to realize is that we only get to have these powerful, dynamic fully turned on passionate and limitless relationships WHEN we choose to do our damn work and get rock solid in our core as to who the f-ck we are and what we want in life.

 

We have to be unwavering and selfish MF’s to get our energy aligned to this kind of empowered relationship.

 

Until we do so,

we spend our time learning about ourselves,

about what we want and what we do not want.

We take ourselves through the school of love and relationship and gain our education into SELF.

 

And then if we become self-aware.

If we become “woke” as some would say,

then without reservation, without even trying you find yourself just lined up to the most precious, yummy, juicy, fully absorbing, ignited relationship that you can imagine.

 

You will see how you were sampling pieces of it in previous experiences. You were being given the gift of being able to recognize this relationship quickly when you finally decided to become a match to it.

 

And when it comes for you,

there will just be a KNOWING.

 

The questions stop.

Your ego may try to put up a fight,

it may attempt to sabotage out of fear of getting hurt again,

but under that you will still have this undeniable feeling of CERTAINTY.

 

And the world won’t matter.

Your fears will not hold a candle to the power of your heart.

Other opinions, judgement, perceptions you will just turn away from without worry,

because you will just KNOW.

Like you know yourself,

you will recognize this soul aligned relationship.

And you will continue to run forward in faith and enthusiasm.

 

And you most likely will not be able to look past this relationship.

 

Beautiful isn’t it?

 

Intimacy share dear reader:

I sat here the other morning, alone, drinking my coffee, breathing in the crisp morning air, feeling this soul with me energetically even though we were not physically together. I closed my eyes and saw his. And with a breath I fast forwarded through this life,

I sat at the doorstep of death and I took it in.

I felt the goodbye of the physical and I felt his hand in mine.

And I welcomed it because it was a spectacular sharing of a lifetime,

and I knew that not even death could take this from us.

 

Soul alignment.

It’s powerful and pure.

It’s limitless and it is what we all crave and desire.

We may settle for logical, smart and fun.

We may settle for “good enough.”

But we always remain hungry until we access our core and get aligned and right with self.

With soul.

And then leap in faith into life and let ourselves be carried to what we KNOW is home.

 

“I can see the rest of my breaths in this lifetime in your arms.”

 

Yes I can.

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I encourage you today my love, to look deep within yourself and ask yourself if you are settling or contemplating settling for just “good enough” in your relationship, in your love?

 

How does that knowing that you are settling make you feel?

 

Sit with that for a second if you can.

Stop making excuses.

Stop looking for the reasons and focusing on the fear of what if…

 

Instead know that you are worthy of a great penetrative love.

You are worthy of accessing heaven and experiencing a soul merger that you know at your core can be so,

but you currently have no knowledge or relationship with.

 

You must be willing to meet yourself though.

You must be willing to let go of your ego based loving ways,

you’re codependent habits and desires,

and you must be willing to be complete and whole in WHO YOU ARE FIRST.

 

This is your work.

This is the only earning you will ever have to do.

Become elevated to who you are and that soul aligned relationship will magically appear overnight.

 

Trust me,

what you desire and want,

wants and desires you too.

 

It’s time that you say F-ck Yes To YOU Love.

 

Today.

 

Elevate your love.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

Ready to elevate your love and life in 2021?

Ready to call in that soul aligned relationship that you cannot see past?

 

Let’s get you aligned to your core love.

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Is Your Relationship a KNOWING One?

Opening up.
Vulnerability.
Sharing our truth.
Our emotions and our thoughts.
As we share our bodies.
 
We crave the relationship that we can have and do all of this in and yet we never give ourselves the opportunity to truly expereince what this sort of relationship is like.
 
I may have had a few relationships of many lables and kinds through my adult years.
 
And as I sit here thinking on them,
I see a common factor in them.
I see my hunger for depth.
 
Some provided a richness of the mind.
These were the relationships that stimulated me and made me ponder deep and wondereful things. They were phylosophical, complex, logical and smooth.
 
Some provided a richness of the emotions.
These held me in a sea of emotion,
they taught me it was safe to weep in a lovers arms,
they taught me it was beautiful to witness another share from their heart the things they feared to reveal anywhere else.
These relationships were based in feeling emotion.
Both positive and negative.
They were chaotic, moody, edgy and ever changing.
 
Some provided a richness of the body.
These ignited my flesh consistently.
I would find myself lighting up and being taken into a desire without any thought,
just a hunger.
These I could feel my whole body open into and drink up the tender and playful moments shared.
These relationships were based in passion, touch, action, play and chemistry. They were triggering, expansive, educational, playful and hot.
 
But none of these beautiful relationships,
just based in the area that it landed offered what I wanted the most for.
 
DEPTH.
 
You can go deep with someone in thought.
You can go deep with them emotionally.
You can go deep physically with them in exploration and play.
 
But that is not the depth that we crave in relationship.
 
For us to know what depth is,
we must first have a taste of it with self.
As it is like with anything worth wanting for,
first you must know it from within.
 
All good shiz starts within.
And depth in relationship is no different.
 
What makes up a deep relationship though?
 
Its all of the above,
and its also spiritual depth.
You have to feel it at a SOUL level.
There is a KNOWING.
 
It is where our souls unit and they just KNOW that they are two branches on the same tree you could say.
 
This spiritual depth takes you into a land where conversations move past the mental, emotional and physical constraints.
We speak about lifetimes of connection and feeling.
We meld ourselves together in the knowing of each other and we can’t do anything else but smile.
 
Even if the relationship comes to an end,
we cannot say anything other than our gratitude for having expereinced it.
 
You will know when you are in a relationship of this sort,
by tapping into your truth.
 
You must be willing to embrace the possibility that it is not a KNOWING relationship.
That you may not have the depth that you crave and may never have it with the person that you have your eye’s set on in current,
but you can feel into the relationship you have and figure out if it is based in this KNOWING or not.
 
The steps to the KNOWING are simple:
 
🔥 You have what some would say a blind love. You truly are unconditional with this person. They can do NOTHING that will ever make you turn from them, that you could not forgive them for. You see them only in love. Many relationships claim to have this, however when you examine it you will find that the parties want each other to act, look, be a certain way so that they pleasently feed the others needs for comfort and safety.
 
🔥 Synchronicities and coincindeses just happen at high intensity when you are together or thinking about this person. To the point that its like the universe is always sending you memo’s on your deep connection and alignment with this other person.
 
🔥 If you are having sex, its without question the best you have ever had. Mind blowing, connective, emotional, with spiritual overplay at every gasp. You cannot get enough of each other and you feel like you just keep finding a new universe to explore each time you are together within this person.
 
🔥 Triggering. The KNOWING relationship is one that will feel triggering in many moments as the person will mirror you and at the same time ask that you go deeper into them to see yourself. They will without consciously knowing or trying say and do things that will cause you to pause and breathe. The end result will always be the same, where you find yourself exploring deeper aspects of self because of what they revealed.
 
🔥 Psychic connections. This may seem silly to some, but its the KNOWING relationship that has some feeling like they have been together for a thousand years over, they feel each others thoughts and emotions almost too accuratly some days. Hard to keep secrets in a knowing relationship as all is constantly revealed.
 
🔥 Gut wrenching. A Soul Knowing relationship has you wrapped up in a constant battle of uncharted waters of vulnerabilty. You find yourself diving into waters with this person on small and big matters without care or second thought. You have the certainty that they will love you through it no matter what, because they do.
 
🔥 Both parties feel all the above.
This is where the rarety comes in. Many people may sit and read these words and say, “Yes. Yes.Yes. I have all of that with my partner.” But would your partner feel and think the same? If two come together but only one see’s and feels, then it is not a KNOWING relationship for this moment in time or perhaps even this life. We can have many beautiful moments and memories with many kidred souls. We may think of them even as soulmates, and this all of them are. But the KNOWING is one that is without question, or doubt from either side. It just is.
 
We can all call in this beautiful fulfilling relationship,
we may be in a KNOWING right now. You may have had a relationship of the past be all the above and lost it.
You will know if you still love unconditionally and smaile at the fact that at least you loved and lost, then never have been able to taste the KNOWING at all.
 
Often our fear blocks us from this vulnerable deep sort of relationship. We meet someone and our souls KNOW…
but due to whatever fears and repression we may have we may block it from being lived out at this time.
 
That is why…
To have a KNOWING relationship,
you must first look within.
 
The one’s who know themselves,
love themselvevs purely and without constraight,
the ones who lean into their fears,
push past thier triggers,
and allow themselves to SEE and be SEEN.
 
These are the one’s who open the doorway to DEPTH that we all crave.
 
I ask you today,
Are you willing to stand before the mirror of all time and space and go deep within to manifest the relationship your heart and SOUL crave for?
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Message me about opportunities to learn how to go deep with self, clear your blockages and open the doorway to love.