NO ONE GETS TO DECIDE IF YOU ARE WORTHY! YOU JUST ARE ALREADY.
Yes that thing that you may think you are lacking in or don’t even have any of.
But the reality love is that you were born with a massive amount of it.
So much so that it’s not in question,
not even a smidgen in question.
Not by God love.
ONLY BY YOU.
And that is what is holding you back.
It’s your lack of belief in your worthiness.
You for some reason think that your worthiness is up for debate,
that you have to earn it somehow.
That if you run around like a chicken with its head cut off that you will get more of it.
That if you live for everyone else,
and put yourself behind them all that THEN ,
then you will be a step closer to earning a little worthiness.
But even then,
even after you have buried yourself in commitments and exhausted yourself in the keeping of everyone else’s expectations and idea’s of you and for them,
YOU STILL FEEL without it.
I get it love.
I truly do.
It’s a daily battle you could say,
to wake the f-ck up and KNOW YOU ARE WORTHY without question.
But if you want all that you want.
If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired.
If you are READY to BE READY.
Then it time that you accept that you were born WORTHY AF!!!
Don’t you get it love?
God moves through you and I.
God creates with your hands.
Unfolds the evolution of this planet and its people through you and I.
This world moves forward because of what we manifest into existence.
And we can only create what we do with the guidance of SOUL.
And soul is the voice of God in us.
Together we create all that is and all that ever will be.
But is a joint work.
And because of this very factor and the nature of you and I being co-creators with God,
makes us worthy of all of our desires.
The desires that you want to manifest into existence were put there by the creator.
It is your hands,
your voice and eye’s,
that make it happen though.
It is through you that God has concentrated focus.
It is by your viewing of the world,
and you feeling of life,
and how it unfolds,
that desire is birthed.
And opportunity is seen.
As you move through this existence,
and you feel the ebbs and flows of all that can be created,
you gain a hunger for something beautiful to unfold.
You crave more.
You smile and you cry.
You get frustrated and you excited.
These are the emotions of creation,
because they birth desire.
And in the desire becoming aware in YOU,
God see’s it,
and evolution happens.
YOU WILL NEVER BE CONTENT.
You will never reach a point in your life where you desire for no more.
You will always want to create MORE.
This is the desire of God,
The greatest artist.
Working with you,
to paint a breath taking picture,
And because you are breathing love.
You need not ever question your worthiness.
Because you are hungry,
you need not ever question your potential.
Because you are feeling pushed and pulled,
you need not ever question your footing.
God is there love.
You just need to surrender to the path that is before you.
It is yours.
And in your stepping forward,
God will paint the path.
God does not make unworthy things.
And God does not work hand in hand or through unworthy things.
God is working through you,
So stop questioning so much.
Allow your blessings to flow.
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living – YOU ARE WORTH IT!
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What are you holding on for?
Why won’t you just simply let go and let it flow?
It really is not that difficult.
No, there you are fighting it.
There you are hanging on because you cannot let go.
You say that you are in flow,
you say that you got this alignment thing down.
You say that you are feeling good about it.
Don’t be trying to fool the world,
cuz’ the world sees you.
You know how you are seen?
Through the eye’s that you see yourself with,
this is how the world sees you too.
It’s in your walk,
it’s in your talk,
your body language,
how you sit,
how you shake hands,
the faces you make,
the tone of voice you have.
You think no one can see that constriction?
Let’s be real,
let’s have some respect for each other and self here,
and just state the facts.
You are scared that if you let go,
and let life catch you,
that you just trust that God has your back,
that you will fall.
That you will fail.
That you will die somehow.
You feel the pain,
the suffering right now,
from this fear.
I mean look here it is the day after Thanksgiving,
it’s the coming of the end of the year.
The holiday’s are upon you,
the demands are many,
the fininances required to make it through the next 30, 45, or 60 days is massive.
You have choices.
You can go into debt some more,
you can just say,
“No, I am broke, I can’t.”
You can ignore the whole damn thing and drink,
or you can figure out a way to make sh*t happen.
And you want to make sh*t happen.
You want to have a killer holiday season.
You don’t want it to be last year,
or the last ten years.
You want it be fantastic.
You want to wake up on Christmas morning to the faces of your loved one’s and feel good,
you want to experience the love,
You want to feel proud.
But what will it take?
What will it cost you?
Yeah, all of that is true.
The real cost though is not these things.
The real cost is something far greater.
The cost is why you are not doing it yet.
Why you feel that tugging in your gut,
that constriction in your chest,
the reason why you are not sleeping so well,
the reason why you are drinking more,
the reason you are distant,
That is the reason.
That is the THING.
And you know the THING.
The THING that is bringing you the suffering.
That premature suffering for things that have not manifested yet.
Yeppers, that is it.
So why are you giving yourself,
your life to this THING?
Oh you say you have too.
You say that if you let go of that THING that you would perish for sure,
you say that focusing in on this THING is what is going to guarantee you not to experience it?
Whatever you say.
And with that we have the truth.
It is whatever you say,
In your own f-cking head.
Yes, that is what shall be.
And what are you saying?
Oh, you are worried about that THING are you.
That beast that you have yet to come up against.
That event that will take you out,
well NEWS FLASH!!!!!!!
It already has destroyed you.
Look at you.
You are stressed out to the max,
and all over that THING that has not happened,
and guess what most likely an 80% + chance that it won’t ever happen either.
But it has already knocked you down.
Because you are sitting around agonizing over IT.
So STOP that Mother F-cking Sh*t,
and LET GO.
go DO-BE-HAVE the life that you know you crave.
It is all up to you.
It is all up to where you choose to apply your focus.
You want the glass to be half empty,
then so be it.
And you know what that will get you…
the same thing you have been suffering through already.
You can opt to look at all that you have,
all the blessings,
all the joys,
all the love,
all the abundance.
It is all over you.
If you will just open up to it.
So change that stinking thinking,
and EMBRACE your TRUTH.
The CHOICE is up to you,
It always has been.
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He wants my surrender.
I can feel it at my greatest depths.
He wants me fully.
Open and inviting to his everything.
He wants my surrender,
and he is willing to work for it.
He is willing to take the journey into the depths of my being,
where he will uncover my hidden treasures,
which I fear may seem like dragons,
yet he assures me in his holding,
that he does not want to slay my dragons,
he only want to bask in their beauty,
he wants to sit with them in moments of stillness,
and he wants to just take them in.
He wants to see their beauty,
that beauty that only a deep understanding of love can handle,
that beauty that is so revealing of the soul.
Most are not strong enough within themselves to face this beauty,
Most fear being devoured by it.
What they begin in the courting process admiring from a afar,
they end with wanting to own and control.
Because it scares them.
It is wild,
it is fierce,
it is powerful beyond measure,
and desires to conquer the hearts of its admirers.
Few are able to hold themselves,
within the presence of this beast.
But, every now and then,
a gentleman comes about,
makes himself known,
and smiles in the presence of the magic he has found in caverns of the goddess.
And this gentleman,
ignites the goddesses soul.
Sets it on fire.
And she desires to dance for him.
She desires to open herself for him,
and let him in.
Yet she is scared beyond measure,
her past tells of beautiful love saga’s,
intense love and loss.
She is fearful to become vulnerable with this man.
Because of the pain,
the pain that her heart will endure.
Yet she desires it all.
The love and depth,
are worth the pain.
Are worth the standing before her own dragon,
and smiling within its flames.
She know’s that this man,
is rare, and unique.
That he is one who can hold her fire.
At least for a time.
And she wants to surrender.
She craves the intimacy.
She craves the revealing.
She craves the integrity.
And the opening.
She leans in.
And she drops into his arms,
resting in his strength.
Resting in his admiration.
She let’s her emotions be seen.
and she opens a bit more.
This cavern is deep.
And she realizes,
that her dragon is not to be feared.
She now understands what this gentleman has known,
the fire of her dragon will not harm when lifted in love,
it will only light the way to more caverns for them to explore.
The depths of their souls.
And so she looks at the gentleman,
with tears streaming from her eye’s,
and she say’s yes to the opening.
They lay together, enwrapped in the moment,
and they smile.
Blessed be to all of you who read this and venture into the depths of the goddesses caverns with hearts on fire,
and souls ignited.
Be wise in your journey and know that the dragon is there to protect the goddess from those that are unworthy,
and there to guild those who are,
into her surrender.
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Tears are on the cusp of escaping my eye’s today.
I feel this heaviness on my chest,
my heart feels constricted and tight, like it is being held in a metal clasp with daggers penetrating it.
I want to cry.
I want to be washed clean of this pain.
My mind keeps running through all the memories,
all the experiences. Those seemingly precious moments where intimacies were shared. Where I felt like I was being held in a new place of truth and love.
Those moments where I found myself exploring adventures and concepts that I never would have thought up on my own.
I find myself in gratitude and disgust.
I find myself in fear and disbelief.
How is it possible that two people can come together,
experience such beauty, and at the end of the cycle wish to destroy?
How can love and friendship turn to hatred and rage?
How can you one moment proclaim that you love someone more than you have ever loved before and then moments later turn around and speak disgust about them behind their backs.
creating false realities and condemning,
all the while pretending that you want to be with them?
This is my morning of tears.
This is my morning of reality as I uncover the truth of all that I thought that was,
that NEVER was.
The issue with these events is not the break up.
The issue is not even the lies and pain that they cause.
The issues is not the physical damage that we may take on from it or the new reality that we are thrown into at the awareness that the love was all fake.
No the issue is TRUST.
And the trust breech that we face and fear even more when we come face to face with things is OUR OWN.
How could we not see it?
How could we be so blind?
If we could not pick up on this then how will we protect ourselves from it in the future?
The writing is always on the walls. And if I am horribly honest with myself then even I have to admit that in my case, I KNEW.
I knew the sort of man he was.
I new his need to control.
I knew his closed down heart.
I new his disrespect for emotions.
I knew his hatred toward women.
I knew his insecurities as a man.
But I believed that I could love him through it.
I believed that he just had never been given the opportunity to heal these things before and that I was STRONG enough, OPEN enough and PATIENT enough.
All of these things only made him feel weaker.
All of these things only back fired on me and made him hate me more, destroy me more.
And so the rumors fly.
And so he attempts to crush what he hates in all the ways his ego directs. Standing firm in his right to make a point, be right, to control the situation, he alpha dogs yet again.
remaining true to his character.
True to his past.
True to all that he believes of himself.
I remain in LOVE.
And I dig a little deeper into my pain.
And yet deeper into my fear.
And even deeper into my wound.
This wound that keeps being carved open further as the days go by and the lies make themselves known.
At the bottom of it all still remains my TRUST.
Do I allow this moment…
this lost soul…
to destroy the beauty of my FAITH in God?
Do I CHOOSE to allow it to take me further into a DEEPER TRUST?
A fuller FAITH.
It is always our choice what we do with the drama and trauma of our lives.
Many of us choose to allow it to harbor us from the joy and bliss that is on the other side.
Many of us choose to allow it to mask our hearts and souls.
Many of us choose to pretend it never happened even.
Hoping that if we just ignore it will somehow magically go away.
This never works.
It only turns us into what we are fearful of.
It turns us into those that create this sort of shit.
Life is about owning your own crap but KNOWING what is ours and what is not.
Every event in our life is an OPPORTUNITY to get closer to God or to turn away from God.
It is in our CHOOSING that we decide our futures.
It is our CHOOSING that we manifest our curses or our blessings.
This is SOUL ALIGNMENT.
This is where you decide what you want to call into the next chapter of your life.
Falling into the arms of HATRED, ANGER, EGO and CONTROL will always only lead you one place….
A land of self made misery.
One’s own inner hell where no one can help you escape but yourself.
Ask yourself this:
“Am I happy with whom I am TODAY?”
Now look into your eye’s in the mirror and ask:
” Is this true?”
Wait for the response from your soul.
That soul that is quiet and meek, but strong and truthful.
Here is your path.
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Have you ever had one of the moments where you feel like you just KNOW what is going to happen before it does?
One of those moments where you could swear you were psychic even?
Where for whatever reason, God blessed you with a KNOWING?
I get these often in life.
The more alignment I get with my soul,
the more they happen too.
I should be grateful for them,
and often I am.
However the pain that comes from some of them is never much fun.
In some crazy way, it does allow for me to prepare for storms.
The thing that many of my “psychic” moments predict is a loss of integrity in relationships.
It is as though those that are the closest to me, also believe that they will not be seen for their truth. And perhaps they would not if there were not these messages being received.
I am amazed in moment’s like this, of how accurate and quick formulating some things are.
It never fails, I always think I am having some crazy ass thought, that makes no sense. I question myself as to where the heck such an image or thought would come from, and then BAM just hours or a few days later these events come to pass. And i am given confirmation.
It is soul alignment.
It is a message from soul, alerting us to become more of a witness.
To pay closer attention to what is happening in our midst, and to TRUST.
Trust out intuition.
Trust our gut reactions.
And lean in.
These messages are here to help us prepare.
Help guide us.
So that we are not always operating from a place reaction,
but can become more proactive and on purpose in our dealings.
Now, I get these messages, these soul observations on “good” and “bad”events.
They come through in feelings,
They come through in visions,
They come through in dreams,
They come through in written words,
or even what you could say are signs.
I believe that God is always speaking to us.
His guidance is always with us.
We close ourselves to these messages because they make zero to no sense to our logical mind,
We cannot understand how they are possible so we disregard them,
then act in shock when things come to pass.
These KNOWING moments.
They are a blessings.
Even when they hurt.
It is said that all the great visionaries, leaders and game changers of time learned to trust these events.
SO why don’t we?
Why do we hide from our inner knowing?
Allowing our ego’s to mask what our soul knows.
Here is yet, one more thing.
One more opening,
For personal growth.
God has our back and speaks to us daily.
The only question to ever ask is,
“Am I open to hear what God has to share?”
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Something we long to have,
something we long for other’s to have in us and us in them.
It is given freely and in boat loads at the beginning of a relationship and THEN as time moves forward we break our trust with others and we have our trust broken.
The small little moments when we don’t hold space,
where we choose to not be authentic,
where we mask our feelings,
These all tear away at trust.
Then we have those bigger moments, where trust crashes on the shores of a disaster and we feel ourselves overtaken by the pain of what we believed we had that we quickly discover was misplaced.
One of the most beautiful aspects of life,
providing us with a strength to lean in and embrace all that we crave,
all that we hunger for.
All that we want to be and want to experience.
the surrender of TRUST.
It is a giving of our deepest selves,
and this is why when it is breached it hurts so effing much.
This is why we fear listening to that inner voice,
opening our hearts and revealing ourselves at any depth.
So we starve ourselves.
We keep things at the surface and we do not venture down the rabbit hole of true relationship.
I find myself this morning looking at this word with great love,
with great hatred and fear,
with a reality that for all the trust that I have,
I trust VERY little.
And the message from my SOUL that I aim to share here with you, is that we all have these feelings. We all fear TRUST.
The bigger issue is that we fear trust more with ourselves,
more with GOD than we do with other’s in our life.
The trust that we give or don’t give to other’s is nothing more than a reflection of the trust that we give to ourselves and thus to God.
We are always being met with a reflection of something inside ourselves, and it is the awareness that the reflection is there to serve us, to heal us, to open us and to connect us to ourselves and all that is, IS THE LESSON.
Trust is a main area in which we must awaken to our core issues to alignment.
We want for so much in life.
We desire more abundance, more money, more sex, better health, better relationships, more fun, adventure, opportunity.
Yet we DO NOT TRUST that we are WORTHY of it or that we CAN HAVE IT.
Therefore we consistently look for how it is not showing up.
We manage to lean into self-sabotage when the beauty of all that we want is offered, we find our way home to the comfort of our pain body and we give reason to NOT TRUST or be trustworthy.
It is a two way street.
As everything in life is about relationship.
No matter what we are desiring we are in a relationship with it.
And in order to go deeper into a SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP we must be able to trust ourselves and to trust those that are in alignment to us.
This morning I sit here with issues based just in this word.
I write this note from a deep place in my heart and soul. A place that desires to trust but is constantly awakening to the reality that I have challenges in this department.
I have powerful reason’s as to why I should not trust,
why I should not lean in, ‘why I should not offer up my truth.
I feel myself wanting to hide.
Wanting to disregard what I know at my core.
Wanting to act as though the reality of this current moment is something else, when in fact I am being given an opportunity within this problem around trust to see clearer.
To offer compassion.
To offer love so that all can heal.
This requires authentic relating.
This requires INTEGRITY.
Trusts is given freely and in boat loads at the beginning of a relationship.
Then we manage to f-ck it up from all the little and not so little choices that we make.
Within the f-ck up we are given an opportunity to stand in INTEGRITY. And with integrity we open the doorway again to
When we choose to be authentic,
to come clean with ourselves,
and with the relationships in our life,
we access a deeper version of our SOUL.
We embrace our humanness.
We embrace love.
We show God that we trust that we will be held,
and that we can heal.
We open ourselves to MORE.
And here we align to soul.
Here we access our TRUTH.
Here we EXPAND and LIVE.
Anything else is an illusion of the life we create through our fear, through our ego.
Anything else is self-sabotage.
If you want to TRUST, and be trusted, then you MUST at all cost stand in INTEGRITY.
You MUST show up as your authentic self.
And you must EMBRACE your humanness and what you may perceive as flaws as spaces for growth.
TRUST your core.
TRUST your soul.
TRUST your heart.
Stand there, in that meadow.
With SELF first.
Can you look in the mirror and say that you stand in integrity?
And as always,
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