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Laughter, Crisis and How To Move Forward.

Laughter is like a windshield wiper,
it doesn’t stop the rain but it allows us to go on.
 
In times like these it is vitally important to the well-being of your mental, emotional and physical health as well as the world’s energy to find joy and laughter in each day.
 
I cannot stress enough that THIS is how we heal this crisis situation.
 
Through finding the blessing in the cloud that is raining on our earth today.
 
THIS is how we move forward.
And we only ever have today to live,
so why make it a day that is fearful?
Why not focus on beauty?
Why not focus on connection?
Why not focus on your dreams and goals?
 
You can have your best life TODAY.
 
But you must look for it.
You must allow it.
You must give yourself permission to feel it.
 
I don’t know about you,
but it has been a rough few weeks.
It has been trying,
and hard to not get caught up in all the fear.
It is so easy to loose sight of hope when the storm clouds just will not go away.
 
But sadly if we focus on the storm and the floods that it is creating with fear,
then we never will be able to see the opportunities that are being presented by them.
 
And I promise you this….
There is ALWAYS an opportunity in the storm.
 
In order to find hope again,
we must first recognize where we have turned our attention.
And then guide our thoughts toward those that serve our best outcome instead of feeding our fear.
 
By applying our attention like this we open up the flood gates to creative thinking,
which allows us OPPORTUNITY to find solutions.
 
Much like the rain on our windshiled,
we cannot see the road before us or the turns that we must make if we get caught on the rain drops.
 
The rain drops that encompass our path today,
are our thoughts.
 
And these thoughts dictate our feelings,
and send us down the rabbit holes that we choose.
 
To clear that path,
to clear the fear,
the limiting thoughts and the seperation from our truth,
we must break the chaos with joy.
 
The little moments.
If we each take this time of isolation as an opportunity to reconnect to who we each are,
what really matters to us,
and become more present in our lives and bodies,
in our relationships and ideas,
then we WILL come out of this storm,
our fires will not be put out but instead we will be purged of all that does not serve us any longer and moved forward on our path as individuals and as a world society.
 
The stillness and silence that so many are fearful of is a beautiful mediative space to go within,
the slower life is an opportunity to do the things that you have put off,
to do self-improvement work,
to change habits to ones that support the life that you want.
A time to catch up on things that you have not had an opportunity for,
and to set goals for the back half of the year and for the next five years.
 
The slower lifestyle,
the “forced” staying at home and being with family is an opportunity to build strong family relationships,
to actually get to know those that you are sharing your world with,
and to take a moment to share with them.
 
The isolation that we have in current is a great opportunity to see what matteres most and start to focus more on just that.
The seemingly simple little things are actually the BIG things.
 
Smiling at a stranger,
making eye contact and allowing yourself to feel your heart,
Playing with your child.
Holding hands with your lover.
Laughing.
Breathing in the cool air on a sunny day.
Family dinners.
and so much more.
 
Today I encourage you to focus on the life that you want.
To bring your thoughts into alignment with what you desire instead of what you fear.
 
And remember that TODAY is all you ever have,
so why not make it the day that you want.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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The Importance of Social Media for Happiness Today.

Caught up in your phone.
Caught up with that small screen of yours.
It is so important isn’t it?
 
It holds your life.
Checking your bank account.
Checking your emails.
Personal and business.
It comes to this one small little world capturing device.
 
What’s happening on Facebook?
On Instagram?
Twitter?
Snap chat?
Whats new on Pinterest and what have you pinned today?
 
This world of ours it is all scrolling by on our wall and here we are missing each other for it.
 
I know how it is.
I really do.
I am oh so guilty of just this,
loosing myself to the mini screen in my hand.
 
And what I have noticed is that when I allow this screen to own my day,
my thoughts and time.
I am more anxious, I am more lost, more insecure.
It’s like my personal value and worth is somehow wrapped up in how many likes, loves or shares my messages gain.
 
I am curious as to what those I follow and learn from are doing, experiencing and enjoying.
 
I might be guilty even of comparing at times.
And here we go baby,
its the social media platform life.
It’s the modern world.
And its like never escaping high school on some days.
 
With all the communication,
all the personal shares and picture posting.
All the debates and livestreams,
you would think that we would grow to be a world society that loves deeper and greater and has better social skills because we have at our finger tips the world that so many of us will never actually be able to go explore to any level.
 
But what has actually occurred is a separation.
We have forgotten our humanness for all the distance between our screens.
 
We now think that it is okay to take the easy route and to be rude, hurtful, deceitful and immature.
We have forgotten that our actions, our words, and how we choose to show up impacts those around us,
and now more so than ever before those around us is a mass.
 
It is the WORLD beautiful that see’s you.
No matter how small a circle you have here in social media land,
your words have a bigger impact then they would have 50 years ago or even a decade.
Because we like, love, angry face and share.
We spread our infections to so many more then we use too.
 
It use to be just a small village that would hold space or burn us at the stake,
but today…
today the village is the WORLD.
 
Today it is even more important then ever before to sharpen up on your social skills.
 
Today it is even more vital to your business,
your personal life,
and the lives of those that you live and share your inner world with,
it is more important today to make sure as f-ck that YOU are being authentic and REAL.
That you are choosing to stand in your truth.
That you are confident in who you are and what you believe,
and that you are walking the path that your CORE,
your SOUL desires.
 
Because as this world has grown ever so disconnected.
The tribes that we build will only have loyalty beautiful,
if they can feel who you are.
 
And if you are weak in who you are,
you will get lost in today’s social media world,
washed up and lost beautiful.
 
And what will come of you,
will be suffering.
You will start to believe that what the WORLD thinks,
what the WORLD says of you is true.
And you will no more be your beautiful self.
 
So today commit to being YOU.
Authentically YOU in this crazy online world of ours.
Today commit to get up to speed on some old school social skills,
like being kind,
being respectful,
being YOU.
Stop with the manipulation, the lies and rude ways that you feel oh so safe in acting on because this small screen of yours is your shield.
 
Time to STEP UP and be Authentically YOU beautiful.
BE YOU and let your SOUL be felt.
Not your fear ego and jealousy.
 
This new world of ours will either make or break you.
 
Now like or love this musing beautiful and make me smile. 😁
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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MY INTIMACY SHARE ON CURRENT FAMILY LIFE BLESSINGS – FROM A MOTHERS HEART- WHAT I HAVE LEARNED

MY INTIMACY SHARE ON CURRENT FAMILY LIFE BLESSINGS- FROM A MOTHERS HEART – WHAT I HAVE LEARNED

Feeling in love this morning as I get ready for the day and the next two weeks of adventure. I am in gratitude for the lessons and experiences of my past,

as without them I would not appreciate that which is with me today in my relationships, lifestyle, and being. It is so obvious to me how easy it is to take things for granted until we are faced with the not having them and sometimes we have to go through great suffering to appreciate that which our heart desires.

The simple little things mean so much.
It’s the smile from your child when they see you walk in the door.
It’s the warm embrace from your partner for no reason.
It’s the kind acts of service, no matter how small that show such care.
It’s the time taken for a conversation without attention to some device.
It’s the snuggling before bed or the good morning kiss.

When Levi makes me breakfast unexpectedly my heart smiles and I feel so blessed.

Every day when Zach chooses to stop in and chat with me before going home, I feel blessed.

When Sam comes and shares her awe over Dameion’s newest milestones or just sits and has a beautiful deep conversation with me about women-hood, I feel blessed.

When Rebekah comes in and shares her latest mommy experience or challenge, or when she just walks up to me and gives me a big hug and say, “I love you., ” I feel blessed.

When Jules asks to go out with me for whatever reason but I can tell she actually needs to just have a moment with mom to share something happening and is uncertain how else to ask for it, I feel blessed.

When Zak Miller, rounds the corner in my house and walks over to me and gives me a big hug before anything else or sits and talks from his beautiful heart, I feel blessed.

When Eniqueo and I tease each other and we laugh, or we compete in love over a good game of darts, I feel blessed.

When Gabe, wakes up in the morning and snuggles next to me and says, “I want you to be my snuggle buddy.” or rushes to help me do something without being asked, I feel blessed.

When Rowan grabs me and hugs so tight I can barely breathe and claims me all for himself, ” My mommy!” or takes my hand and asks me to read him a story and snuggle, I feel blessed.

When Kia, Andrew and J storm in my home and run to me with smiles and big hugs, I feel blessed.

When Dameion looks with his big eye’s up at me while I am feeding him his bottle and smiles while slurping back his milk, I feel blessed.

When Steve stops everything he is doing because he noticed that something was not right with me without me saying anything and gives me a hug or when he does all the little things that are actually big things to take things off my table, I feel blessed.

When I catch that mental snapshot of a moment that is awe inspiring of my family connecting and loving, laughing and being them, I feel blessed.

My life is so crazy busy.
My life has so many beautiful souls,
these that I shared a fragment of what I am blessed by and so many other dear friends and sister/brother souls who just light up my world with them just being in it and choosing to share pieces of their life with me.

It is mornings like this morning,
that I am reminded that life has not always been like this.
Life has always been full,
and there is always drama.
But not that very long ago,
my children wanted to be around me but the energy in our home was not supportive.
The laughter and joy,
the deep connective moments,
the conversations,
the family enviroment,
the thought to another,
the connection between myself and my partner,
the love that I so badly wanted to feel,
it was not there.

It was vacant.
And my heart hurt because of it.
My children suffered for the lack of it.
And my lesson is to never settle for so little of such a valuable thing again.

One of the biggest blessing that our lives can have is the blessing of connection.

The blessing that people,
the people that we cherish want to be with us,
JUST BECAUSE.

From my blessed mama heart to yours,
appreciate your blessings and put your focus on them.
They are what make life so beautiful.

As Always,
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Scale Up Your Business NOW with THIS #1 TRIBE Building Hack

Up-level your business they say.
Scaling it up they say.
Have BIG goals they say.
Know your numbers they say.
Build a BIG following they say.
It’s all about your data base, your newsletter sign ups.
It’s all about your likes, your follows, and your conversion rates.
What funnel works best for you?
 
OMG! I can tell you from one mompreneur or entrepreneur to another I am effing sick and tired of all the numbers focus.
 
The other day I shared with a fellow coaching friend some of my recent growth numbers for my business. I was sharing the rapid growth that I am having around a few things that I am doing and the positive rewards that I am getting.
 
Now I shared my numbers growth as to follows and interactions not the dollar amount that anything is converting to in sales.
 
This coaches response was, “Yeah that’s great but is it converting to sales?”
 
With this singular statement I was allowed to see where her focus is at and what she is doing her coaching for…
 
THE MONEY.
Not the TRIBE.
 
And that is fine and dandy.
Don’t get me wrong,
anyone who says that they are not wanting financial reward from a business is full of bunk,
after all money is what allows us to keep doing what we love and do best.
Money is what provides us the freedom to live the lives that we want.
Money is a symbol of our alignment to what we are doing and the universes support of our efforts.
It is good to want money, to gain money and to want to grow our pot of gold.
 
But what I am talking about is not MONEY.
I am talking about TRIBE.
I am talking about IMPACT.
I am talking about being the change that you want to see in this world and making it so.
 
So when I speak about leveling up my business,
do I have money goals ?
F-ck yes! I do!!!
 
But my goals are based on the EMPIRE I desire to build
a.k.a. TRIBE
 
And what does tribe really mean to me?
Tribe means like minded, soul aligned people who want similar things and want to expand their lives to THRIVING in work, love and life in general.
 
So all the funnels and conversion talk irritates me after a bit even though I watch my conversion rates like a crazed golden retriever on too much caffeine.
 
Here is what I have learned,
and if you are anything like me and wanting to live a freedom based lifestyle making a positive impact on this beautiful world of ours and creating a dynamic future for yourself and your babies then you may want to LISTEN UP NOW….
 
Money will come when you feel good about money coming.
When you create a positive space for it to come into.
When you are not hunting it, attacking it and searching for it.
But instead when you ALLOW yourself to have it.
 
And if your WHY around your business is solely focused on the money that you will make,
you can make BIG money for sure,
but you will NOT be loving your life that you created and therefore you will find yourself trapped by the very WHY that you were doing it for.
 
Your WHY must be something more purposeful,
than money.
 
Those numbers they will convert to money as long as you stay committed to your message alignment.
 
Those numbers will convert to sales as long as you stay true and let your energy be seen and felt.
 
Those numbers will convert to profits as long as you have fun with them and build a TRIBE.
 
And building tribe is NOT about gaining BIG follows and likes.
It’s about quality and alignment not quantity.
 
I recently looked at a fellow coaches business page on Facebook and I was like,
 
” Holy crap! she went from zero to 9k likes! HOW?”
 
I wanted to know how she did it overnight basically.
Admittedly I felt a tad jealous for a half of a second.
 
LOL…
 
But then I did some detective work and I simply clicked on the fans of her page under one of her most viewed recent posts.
 
What I saw was a bunch a fans that were not real.
 
They were obviously low vibe,
not aligned mindset,
bought and paid for numbers,
that will NEVER CONVERT to anything other that irritation.
 
The hype of reach 10k biz fans on social media and it’s all over you will never have to look back is true and not true.
 
Because it is about quality and TRIBE ( aligned followers)
NOT quantity of trash followers or unaligned peeps.
 
So this message today is to all you beautiful souls who want that freedom based laptop lifestyle.
 
You can have it.
 
Yes you can.
 
But keep the focus NOT on the money goal but on the aligned tribe goal and the consistency of showing up daily in your messaging to them.
 
From that the MONEY will just show up.
 
Remember that people don’t buy a product,
they buy you.
 
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Life Lives Through Us For No Other Reason Than This.

“Emotion rising up,
I can feel it strong in my chest.
Tears want to stream from my eye’s
and escape down my cheeks.
My heart is beating just a bit faster than before.
I am nervous,
I am excited,
I am feeling out of control of the situation.
I can do nothing to help truly,
but be arms to support
and words to hopefully lighten your heart.
Your fear.
My sweet,
I love you so dearly.
And all I can do is tell you this.”
 
It is moments such as this,
that I find myself being reminded of how powerful life is,
how it grabs hold of us and let’s us know it’s hunger.
It hungers for our depth.
It hungers for our passion.
It wants us to claim the moment.
To be present
and attentive.
 
This is where life LIVES.
 
These moments,
fleeting and yet lingering,
as they happen to each and every one of us.
We dance in and out of fear.
Even in the most beautiful space that we might find ourselves,
even in the moments when all that we have worked for
finally seem’s to be manifesting,
fear comes in.
It bares itself to us and makes us aware of how small we are.
How timeless each moment is,
how delicate each breath can be.
Our teacher.
Our conqueror,
it is there by our side.
A friend and foe.
 
And what must we do to escape it’s grip?
There is only one thing,
in any moment that must happen for us to awaken to our truth and lean out of the hold of fear in our life.
 
We must,
with certainty,
and no doubt,
we must feel deeply and know who we are.
For at our core,
at our deep soul level is where we discover all.
It is here in these caverns of our true self that we find all the armor that we need,
which is not armor at all,
but instead a revealing.
An allowing of our true divine selves to be unmasked and revealed, in true raw authenticity and truth.
 
Yes here,
here is where we rule.
Here is where we find our strength.
In all moments in life,
we are meant to expand,
we were born to breathe,
and to feel life living through us.
Only in our unmasking,
and accepting of our depth and truth,
can we do this and conquer fear.
 
But to step firmly into living a life on purpose,
one must consistently be getting ready,
to be ready.
 
And what does this mean?
 
To BREATHE.
To do the mindset work,
to consistently challenge ourselves to be all of who we are.
Not side stepping our truth,
not hiding from our feelings,
not masking our light.
 
No we might have been born to run,
but not to run away from life.
Only to run into its arms,
to have it wash over us,
and through us in each moment of our experience.
From our first breaths to our last,
life is here to cradle us and move through us.
Our only mission is to be it’s vessel in it’s eternal quest to feel what it cannot without us.
 
Yes,
moments such as the one that is breathing through me right now are what expands our potential,
opens our hearts,
teaches us our strength,
and reveals our soul.
 
Moments are all that we ever have.
And each moment is a footstep on our souls journey.
The end will be the arrival back to it’s beginning.
Full and complete.
Expanded into more.
Life living through us,
for no reason other than to feel.
 
And here my love,
is what you must remember,
the desire you feel in your heart,
deep down into your bones,
the passion,
the fear,
the certainty,
the courage,
the vastness and the tightening,
it is all your soul,
begging you to become your truth.
And just FEEL.
Allow yourself to FEEL GOOD NOW,
as your soul desires,
where all your dreams can be realized.
 

As always,

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You Must Change Up Your Vibe Tribe.

Am I vibing with you?

I sure hope I am.

Or maybe I hope I am not.


It really depends on where you are vibing at.And I say this, because we often do not pay attention to our vibe, let alone other people’s vibe.
But I can tell you this. VIBE is where it is at baby!
If you want to have that F-ck Yes Life, If you want to call in THE ONE, If you want to have blessings wash all over you, then you better be vibing in the same frequency as them. The things we desire the most are often high hanging fruit, and this high hanging fruit will not come down to us.

And if it does…..
Then it has lowered its VIBE.And you most likely won’t want it so much anymore.
This happens in relationship all the time.
We humans have the power to increase or decrease our vibe in no time flat.
It all stems from the thoughts we are thinking, the emotions we are feeling, and thus the actions we are taking.
High vibing people, you know the one’s…

You may even be one of the one’s.
And I hope that you are luv.But either way, you may want to know how to determine if someone is high vibe or low vibe.
RIGHT?


High Vibe peep’s are radiant,

they are turned on to life,

they are self-motivated,

they do not mask life or the experiences that life offers them.

They are not living in a victim mentality.

They are proactive.

They love forward movement,

They value alone time.

They know that more is always possible.

They see the interconnectedness of things.

They are grateful.

They are grounded.

They bounce out of negative thinking quickly.

They smile – A LOT!

They are easy to be around.

They have healthy, strong boundaries.

They don’t give a sh*t what you think of them.

They are abundant.

Blessings flow to them with ease.

They are not needy, but they do desire much.

They are in integrity with self.


High VIBE is where it is at baby!

Living a high VIBE life is what you were born to do.


It is where you will discover everything that you want the most.
And you can get there.This you can.
But you are not going to get there, if you are still trying to get your needs met by everyone else who is low vibing it.
You won’t get there if you are caught in worry, or anxiety and fear.
You won’t get there if you are giving to many f-cks about everyone else’s opinions and judgements.


You won’t get there if you insist on hanging with low vibing friends, family and lovers.
And this can cause some mighty BIG issues in life, the main one being that you MUST realize that many of the people you have in your life RIGHT NOW,
won’t follow you up in VIBE.


And you will loose these people in some fashion.

So that alone may stop you.

You may not want to loose this person, or that one.

You may say it’s not worth it.

You may think I am wrong and try and drag their sweet ass along.

And you can for a bit, although the dragging of dead weight will certainly drain you at some point,

and then you will either drop them, or surrender to creeping back down into lower vibe, where life was…..


well….


BLAH.

And difficult.

Where you were not happy.

And you may say that it is worth it.

As long as you can keep these peep’s in your life, then it is worth it to be low VIBE.
And that is fine.

That is your choice.

And you will make this choice many, many multiple times throughout your life.
Just know though, that if you want to have that F-ck Yes! Lifestyle, you want abundance, deep love, and happiness.

That you will have to make changes in whom you choose to hang around.
Because the saying is so true,

“You become like those you hang around.”


So if you look at your top five people in your life, how are they VIBING?


And if we look just at the income of these five…how abundant are they?

You want to know where you are headed in the next 12 months.You will be about 50-70% of the median of these five in total.
Is that satisfactory to you?Then great.
carry on.
If not.

Time to change your VIBE TRIBE.


We all have to level up our relationships as we grow, some come back around as they grow with us in vibe, some we revisit and feel the constriction in our bodies.

While others are lost forever.
And still others Climb beside us.


What does your VIBE TRIBE say about you?


As always, Stop Existing & Start Living

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siSTAR Tribe- Heal Thy Selves

As a woman you would think it easy for me to be open and vulnerable, trusting even of the feminine. Of other women. That sisterhood would just come naturally and easily.

As a woman who is a mother of 7 souls, three of which are daughters and spends her day’s reaching out into the world and helping other women, other people and sharing of herself as vulnerably as I can in any given moment. That female connection and understanding would just be a reality. A norm for me.

The truth is though that I have had a lifetime of shut down around the feminine. Around trusting the feminine. Trusting my fellow sisters. Just calling other women my sisters causes a nagging nausea in my gut. It rises up an uncertainty of if I can trust women. If I can lean in here.

Do I even want to?

My wounds with the feminine stem back to my early childhood where my mother would talk radically negative about my father to me on hour long walks with our German Shepard and myself. She would tell me how awful my dad was. How she wanted out of the relationship. She would dream of finding a suitcase full of money on our walk and escaping life with him. She wanted to run away from him. She wanted her freedom but at the cost of choosing daily to stay settled and just bitch to 5 year old me on our evening walk about it.

Then came her co-dependent nature. Always attached at my hip, like an infant to it’s mother. It seemed often like I was the mother. She could not make a move without my support.

Then came her crazy ass stories of her past, where she shared all too much with me about how she manipulated this or that.

How she was wounded from WWII and the bombings.
How she was angry at her father for being killed during the war when she was eight.
How she was angry with her mother for doing the things that she had to at that point to survive and support two little girls.
She told me about her abuse in her first marriage.
She tried to teach me how to steal from stores.
How to lie well and hold my poker face.
She showed me how to disconnect from my heart and SURVIVE.
She taught me that women are not to be trusted.
She taught me that women manipulate.

She told me that I was different though.
That I could walk on water.
But I was her air.
So don’t run away.
Don’t abandon her.

Then came school. My girl friends once made would randomly choose to no longer be my friends. They would make up stories, would gossip if I shared anything vulnerable. They would steal my clothes, cheat off my tests and then point the finger back at me.

But I craved friendship.
I craved sisterhood.
I craved to be one of the girls.
I craved to fit in.

Then came high school. I chose to go to a high school that was actually not in my district so that I could remain with my best friends. They were a grade ahead of me, but we were besties and they WANTED me to come to that school. It was going to be great. Until school started that was.

Now they were too busy for me. They had boyfriends. Sisterhood no longer mattered. It was every girl for herself.
And lord help me if one of their guys spoke or looked at me.

Now I was a threat.
Now I was the enemy.

Ice cream hurdled across the hallway, hitting my brand new leather jacket.
Laughter ringing out.
The call of “You Slut!” from the mouth of my once best friend. The girl who wept her tears of pain when her parents divorced into my arms. The girl who we “twinned” once a week together and sunbathed on the roof of her house every summer day we could grab together.

The girl who begged me to come to this school.
It was going to be great.
We were besties.
We had each others back.

Yes here, here is where it all started.
Repeatedly I witnessed the whirlwind of emotional instability from the feminine.
Repeatedly I was daggered by my sisters as though I was a vampire out to steal their lives.
Repeatedly I was wounded, shamed, disowned by the feminine.
I was lied too.
I was lied about.

My besties, my sisters had been taken over by the mean girl syndrome.

But we were young.
We were just children still.
Things would change once I was an adult.

Women don’t act like this.
Women know how to support each other.
Women understand the pains of our adolescent years and we overcome them and heal. We rise about the mean girl syndrome and we become radiant, supportive siSTARS.

Right?

Then came my adult years.
I shut down in my twenties. I kept my friendships limited. I kept my heart limited. I focused on my family. My children. My husband. My life. My education.

The things I felt I could control.
I had a siSTAR in my life. She was amazing. Supportive. Trustworthy. She had my back. I was certain.

And I was right.
She still today, even with miles apart, years between. Words rarely shared has my back and I have her’s. There is no doubt in my mind or heart that I could call her at 2AM from anywhere in this world and cry on her shoulder, ask to stay the night, and I would do the same for her.

She is my soul siSTAR.
She is a rare light.
25 years of friendship proves this.

Then came my 30’s. I was eager, hungry and full of desire. I wanted to take on the world. I wanted to expand. I wanted to meet myself and I wanted a sisterhood. I entered the state of Texas with a mission to have just this. ALL OF THIS.

And so I did.
Or so I thought.

Quickly I had a large group of feminine support. This was my tribe. These were my sisters. We were all mom’s, we lived close to each other. We enjoyed similar things. We celebrated life weekly together. It was amazing.

The laughter.
The tears.
The sharing.
The holding space for each other when shit went down with our spouses or kids.
The sharing of our fears and our desires.
This was sisterhood.

Then came the day that my dear friend said, “You know what you did. We can’t be friends anymore.”

And with her went the whole tribe.
Poof!
Gone in a second.
And for what?

Still to this day, almost 10 years later I have no certain closure on this.

Accusations made while I was away on summer holiday with my family. Lies told. Stories conjured. Truth lost. Friendship lost.

Told I was guilty.
Told I was a slut.
Told I was horrible.
Told I was not fit to be in the tribe.

Abandoned by my sisters and never offered a space to speak my truth. To get answers. To set things right.

Mean girls knocking at my door again.
Statements made on social media.
Accusations and allegations of false truths.
Lord help me.

So I shut down.
I closed myself off and I isolated myself from the feminine.
I opened and did my work around the masculine.
I danced and blossomed with the help of the great men who stepped up in my life. Who held space for me.
I stepped into my goddess-hood.
Claiming I did not need the feminine.
It was not to be trusted.
It disliked me.
It hated me.
I was alone.
There was no sisterhood for me.

All but one siSTAR.
Who still remains after 10 years of friendship.
My Hawaiian goddess siSTAR. Who holds space, who laughs and shares her wisdom in times needed. Who shares her pain, her fear and tears. Her joy, her dreams, her spirit with me. Yes she has my back. This I know. This I am certain.
She is a rare light.

The masculine.
It holds me.
It adores me.
It craves me.
It eats me up and helps me to fly.

It scorns me.
It scares me.
It bruises my being.
It rips my heart out like a ravenous beast.
It breaks my body and stomps on my boundaries then blames me for being a woman.

The masculine.
I love the masculine.
I hate the masculine.

I need the feminine.
I crave my sisters.
I crave the support.
I hunger for the light.
I want to be seen as a woman and understood.
Seen that my crazy girl moments are normal.
I want to cry and not be fixed.
And just be okay.

In steps my siSTAR.
She is a rare light.

She supports me by just being.
She see’s my pain and she wants to fight for my hearts pain.
She stands firm in the wake of my storm and she casts a line to help me find harmony once again.
She uproots her whole life,
She turns herself inside out,
She shares her fears,
Her pain,
She holds space when she is not even trying.
She is a rare light indeed.
She is a Goddess.
She has my back and I have her’s.
This I am certain.

This is what friends do for friends, she says.
This is not what I am accustom too.
She and my fellow siSTARS through the last 25 years,
though they may be few,
they are strong,
they are Mother F*cking Goddesses.

They aim to heal them selves.
They aim to heal other’s.
They are kindred souls.
They are true siSTARS.

This is the relationships that I crave with my fellow women.
This is my tribe of goddesses.
This is my healing of wounds from my youth and wounds from theirs.
This is our life path.
This is SiSTARHOOD.

Embracing the fierceness of sisterhood.
Today.
Tomorrow.
And ALWAYS.

Healing the feminine.
By allowing myself to be healed by the feminine.

Remember my fellow siSTAR Goddess,
You are worthy.
You are a rare light.
You are loved.
You are a Mother F*cking Goddess.

Always,
Stop Existing- Start Living

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Permission & Commitment for the F*ck YES! Life

 
I am abundant in all things.
I am radiant, on purpose, magnetic and full of joy.
I am perfect just the way I am,
Worthy without explanation.
 
I commit to show up every moment of every day from a deep place vulnerable and centered place in my soul.
 
I commit to surrender to the call of my soul,
to my hearts desire.
Because my hearts desire is God’s desire.
 
I commit to breathe in the abundance and joy of this life.
Fully expressing myself.
Because there is but only one expression of me.
 
I commit to love openly, authentically and fully.
I commit to be unapologetic in all that I do.

 

I give myself full permission to live a F*ck YES! Life.

A life based in freedom.
Based in heart.
Based in flow.
 
I give myself full permission to HAVE IT ALL.
 
I commit to allowing my soul to guide my words, hands, and actions.
 
I commit to being unapologetically me.

Un-f*cking STOPPABLE BadA*s Me!

 
I commit to share my message daily from here.
And attract a tribe that desires and aligns to the same calling.
 
–KW

And Remember,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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I am here for YOU!!!

Soul Crusader: A person who know’s they are called to be more and is willing to step into their power and answer the call of their soul.  At all cost!

I am here to support, ignite and cheer YOU on!

Yes You, the Soul Crusader.

You know who you are.

You are the one’s who long to stand out and shine BRIGHT as the star’s in the sky,

You are the one’s who have been told for so long that you are

TOO MUCH.

NOT ENOUGH.

The one’s who don’t fit the mold your career, your relationship, your desires, passions, thoughts.

The one’s who have always cried for more, but was uncertain as to how to ask for it.

I AM HERE to support, ignite and cheer YOU on!

Yes You, the Soul Crusader.

The one who hears the rustle and agony of your soul.

The one who feel’s the passion and fear.

The one who WANTS it all,

but has no clue as to whom YOU can TRULY be.

Who can feel their beauty, but can not fully see it yet.

YES YOU!!!

The one’s who  crave FULFILLMENT,

LOVE

PASSION

and

PURPOSE.

Who NEVER fell in love with the idea’s of giving away their hearts and souls to pay the bills and just be responsible, AVERAGE and ORDINARY.

I AM HERE to support, ignite and cheer YOU on!

Yes You, the Soul Crusader.

The one’s who even though they wake in doubt and fear

take the leap into their greatness.

That blind FAITH leap.

Stepping off the cliff of average with a one foot planted in a courage like no other.

A courage springing forward from soul.

From heart.

From God.

Because these are the people of my TRIBE!

These are the people who want to CLAIM their Lives,

Make changes,

Touch the world.

Expand their wings.

and FLY.

This TRIBE, this tribe know’s it is WORTHY at it’s core. Beside the fear, the doubt, the path they cannot yet see, they KNOW that they have GREATNESS inside of them. They know that they, have music that must be played, words that must be written, talks that must be given, teaching that must be shared, love that must be offered and hearts that must sore!!!!

These are the SOUL CRUSADERS.

I AM here for the one’s who want to be F*cked Wide Open by life and fully expressed in this life time.

I AM here for YOU.

Stop Existing & Start Living!

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10,000 Reasons

I feel so f*cking good, do you?

I sure hope you do.

I feel so AMAZING.

FREE.

EXCITED.

IN LOVE.

And most of all in GRATITUDE.

Guess what for?

YOU.

Yes, YOU.

Your determination, curiosity, passion and desire to make this world a better place makes every moment here on this earth more valuable.

Your creative flow, deep emotions and craving for something more than average and ordinary excites my soul as it does many other’s that you touch without ever realizing.

Your strength, vulnerability and turn on to experience life fully and embrace all the blessings that God has in store for you shines  brighter than the brightest star and ignites my soul to hold my arms wide in support for you.

Your wild and crazy heart that you so badly long to follow but find yourself stepping gingerly forward on the path that you cannot really see yet, brings a sweet smile to my face as I feel your fear, your nervousness and excitement and commend your courage for taking that step in faith.

Your ability to always remain a student to yourself, continuously  searching for new treasures to be uncovered is a reason for the sun to rise everyday and this world to keep spinning.

As you spread your wings to allow the breath of God to carry you to your true destiny and you seek deeper and fiercer within it, is reason for the angels to sing of your glory, your worthiness to live a life of fullness and blessing.

You know at your core you are NOT average and ordinary.

You know who you are.

You are so much more than what you have been showing up as so far.

Open your wings BABY!

10,000 way’s you grace this world with your love, your passion, and your soul.

10,0000 reason’s for you to embrace who you are meant to be.

10,000 reason’s that I say THANK YOU and find my heart and soul in complete rapture for love of how miraculous you are.

Yes YOU.

You are the ONE,

The one that makes me smile when you share your growth.

Your fear.

Your heart and soul.

You are the one that makes my heart sore when you message me in surrender to your soul’s calling and take that leap.

Yes, BABY, you got this!

You deserve this!

You are love.

And you are loved.

Feel that excitement to take that step forward…

Feel the rush of joy and fear as they blend in your belly when you take that leap into your great unknown and say YES to yourself.

YES to the Life that you were called to live.

Yes to your well-being.

Yes to the relationship you crave.

Yes to the abundance that wants to flow through you.

Yes to the life where you are no longer surviving, but you are turned-on, tapped in and in your flow.

10,000 reasons my beautiful that you can have it, were born for it and that I am thankful for YOU being you.

COME NOW and walk with me, let us see a new day dawning.

YOUR DAY.

Will you say YES?

YES to the most important person here.

You were born for the F*ck YES Life.

Stop Existing & Start Living!