IT COULD HAVE BEEN EASIER.
HOLDING SPACE FOR SELF AND DESIRES IS F-CKING HARD SH*T!
CAN WE JUST F-CKING STOP WITH BEAUTIFUL.
CAN WE JUST F-CKING STOP WITH BEAUTIFUL.
Seriously,
you say that word so often I do not think it is achieving the results that you think it is achieving.
On any day of the week,
I get the comment of “Beautiful” at least ten times from random people ( mostly men) who want to share it with me.
And the reality is this,
The statement of “Beautiful.”
Is a surface AF statement.
It will get you nowhere in a hurry with a woman who values herself,
who understands that her true beauty is not something you appreciate just from her skin that is barred or the clothes that she has on,
it has nothing to do with the smile on her face,
or if she is nice to you.
Beauty is something so much deeper.
It comes from a place of knowing oneself.
Of loving oneself,
even the shadow lands of our character.
Beauty comes from feeling good in our own skin,
and when someone over uses such a compliment,
it actually starts to rub raw,
and cause you to not take in the compliment.
Every human being NEEDS to have words of affirmation.
Every human being needs to learn how to breathe into compliments and own their worth,
but surface AF statement that are easy to say and show that you know NOTHING about the person,
are not anything to sport about saying.
Especially with a woman.
SO this musing is going out to all you gents who tell me and other amazing AF powerful women that you find us BEAUTIFUL.
That you would love to show us what you can do with your whatever you desire to touch and taste us with,
That you love how our hair looks,
our clothes fit us,
or the angle we opted to take a picture from.
Yeah those comments that you believe will land you in our panties and hearts,
HA! We think not.
For a true compliment is spoken from a place of presence,
it is stated about a person’s depth and light.
A compliment that makes you stand out in the crowd of all those fools who think that some cartoon dog blowing random AF kisses, or I love you’s is going to get somewhere other than an eye roll and quickening in our scroll,
if you truly desire to make an impression…
THEN SLOW THE F-CK DOWN….
and pay some attention.
You need to actually listen,
watch and read,
you need to make statements that show that you were into what that person was sharing,
you need to let yourself absorb who you are watching,
and not from a place where she gets me off to watch.
This also applies to anyone who is taking a woman to bed,
if you are so lucky to have her open herself to you,
then remember this….
You can leave a good impression,
a bad impression ,
or a F-cking Spectacular impression.
The choice is yours.
And it all comes down to how you slow the f-ck down and get present with her.
If you think you know a woman,
and how to f-ck her wide open,
awesome…. but I question your cockiness.
Because I know women,
and we bore easily and rarely want to hurt your delicate ego’s, so we let you believe that you know,
and then roll our eyes and share our frustrations with our friends about how clueless you are,
and how surface AF our sex is with you.
A woman who loves herself and knows her value,
will not keep around a man or partner for any amount of real time who cannot prove that they can go deep with her.
If our partner is not willing to slow the f-ck down and value us the way that we know we should be,
then “bye, bye… don’t let the door hit you on your way out of my life.”
A woman who keeps a surface level lover around,
is a woman who does not know herself yet and has not learned her value.
The facts are simple and they start with how we relate outside the bedroom.
Ladies if you feel all fluttery and excited about that want to be average joe who said beautiful on one of your pictures,
then I question how much love you have for self.
Because that man… that man is a little boy who has not learned how to be with a woman yet and cannot handle his own depth or the light that you have to offer.
And gents,
if you are one of these dudes that offer up easy to spell one word comments, but then turn around and ask a woman a question that you already have access to the answer of…
(by taking the time in our social media world… and I mean like maybe 2 minutes of time….you can discover how old someone is, where they are from or live, if they are single or coupled, open or not, kids, what they do and even their likes)
THEN JUST F-CKING STOP ALREADY.
Your words are wasted on those of us who value ourselves.
We do not need your statements of beautiful or what you desire to do to us or with us,
we laugh at you,
we shake our heads at your silliness and we keep scrolling.
You don’t have a chance,
so go find someone who may better suit you.
There is someone for everyone,
or so they say.
But I,
I am not the one who will fall prey to your mediocre compliments with no depth or care.
Just like all the other queens out there who get what I am sharing here in this musing today.
Level up your relating guys!
Level up who you are.
You want to attract a MF Queen….
Then you cannot just pretend to play King….
You gotta be one.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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F-ck Yes!
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The Land Of Nobody…
Good Morning Beautiful!
How did you sleep?
Were your slumbers restful and pleasant or did they have you tossing in your bed?
Did you wake refreshed, vibrant and charged for this day or are you among the many of the walking dead,
those who cannot bear the idea of waking because it’s just another groundhog day?
Day in and day out,
the same events,
the same stories,
the same people.
Waking with a feeling of “why?”
And does any of it,
Especially me, even matter?
Looking about your life and questioning if anyone truly cares.
Or are they only there for what you have to offer,
at their convenience.
Yes, you know that feeling.
That feeling of,
“Nobody sees me. Nobody loves me. Nobody cares.”
This beautiful is the Land of Nobody.
And it is not a pretty place to reside.
It is not a place that you can manifest your dreams from,
it will never call into your life your ideal lover,
the money that you crave for,
the health or success.
It will never bear the fruit of happiness.
Because you see beautiful,
the Land of Nobody,
is a fictitious land that you have created your misery from.
It is a land that you have bought into,
because it is what you feel comfortable in.
Oh yes,
I just said that beautiful.
The Land of Nobody is one that brings you comfort.
That is a hard pill to swallow I know.
But it is so true.
Just as true as it is that this land will not bring you what you claim you want for,
and most certainly will not bring you what your soul is calling you toward,
and you see THAT is exactly why you are feeling so lost in yourself,
so alone,
so unloved,
so fearful,
so unseen,
unheard,
uncared for or valued.
And it is from this place of “UN” that you keep calling in the evidence to support your comfort in suffering.
You feel all the “UN” because IT IS NOT TRUE.
Your soul KNOWS differently.
Your soul see’s who you really are and what your life has to offer,
but you are withholding yourself from all your glory by focusing in on the finding of the evidence,
the proving to yourself and anyone who will listen,
that you are in the Land of Nobody wants me.
And the sad truth beautiful is that as long as you sit here,
focused on the “UN” and the nobody with such passion,
you will NEVER be able to “fix” the problem of what you are manifesting.
You will never feel loved.
You will never feel valued.
You will never feel wanted.
From this space.
And you will certainly not attract anyone into your world that will “MAKE YOU” feel that way.
Because you have created and keep creating a great momentum around not having it show up for you,
that even when the universe/God sends things into your life,
to show you how abundant and loved you really are,
you reject them by looking the other way,
or pushing your will onto life in an attempt to control it and “make it” happen,
thus supporting your need to show that you can’t have it without a fight.
Your belief is that life is hard.
That you must suffer.
That you have to work hard to get things that you want.
Your belief is that life is out to get you in some fashion and does not have your back.
But that belief is just a thought that you keep active by focusing on finding evidence for it.
You “think” it is such and therefore it is.
But you have to change the thoughts in your head,
and the way you are feeling about your life.
You have the WAKE THE F-CK UP.
And start witnessing what could be by putting your focus on that and then not trying to force it into existence.
God/Universe does not like being controlled like that,
Does not like having its hands tied,
and if you keep tieing them then you will keep getting what you have been,
because what you want for gets offered day in and day out,
opportunities to have it knock at your door,
but you keep your door locked up tight not allowing the Universe/God to reveal to you your value, your worthiness.
So if you won’t let the energy that has created universes to show you a brilliant life worth living and enjoying,
and all your dreams manifesting,
then how the f-ck do you ever expect the people in your life to show it to you?
YOU BEAUTIFUL have to open up to it.
You are the only one who can access any of it.
Putting your needs and desires onto others and then getting mad that they won;t do what you want,
when you want,
how you want,
is a self-centered, spoiled, egotistical action.
And will only keep providing you with not having.
So if you are among the millions who woke up today,
focused on not having what you want in life,
feeling like you are unloved,
unappreciated,
“UN” somethinged….
Then this message is directed at you.
Because I fully understand that feeling of “UN”
that feeling of walking around the Land of Nobody,
and I can tell you that no solution or joy ever came from this place.
And we each may venture into this land every now and then,
but it is up to us,
and ONLY US,
venture right back out.
So take back your power beautiful,
stop handing it over to the ebbs of your life,
stop looking to not be supported,
and instead KNOW that you are with certainty.
Know that you are loved,
because you love yourself enough to wake the f-ck up and feel it for yourself,
you love yourself enough to stop disrespecting your life,
and instead to open up to it and receive its glory.
You are worthy beautiful.
You are loved.
You are appreciated and valued.
Venture In Certainty for what you want not what you fear.
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
Let’s do this!
You and me,
this summer.
Break free from your shiz once and for all and fall in love with the dynamic, powerhouse that YOU are.
No one is like you.
And you have a life worth sharing,
worth enjoying.
You have one life love.
One.
Let’s make it a F-ck Yes! One NOW.
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“I love You. Just As You Are.”
Bob Marley once said:
“You may not be her first,
her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She’s not perfect—you aren’t either,
and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh,
cause you to think twice,
and admit to being human and making mistakes,
hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break—her heart.
So don’t hurt her,
don’t change her,
don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”
And he was a wise man in his lyrics.
The Jamaican artist who grew up on the concept of One Love,
and to love without fear,
without reservation,
and condition,
spoke the truth in his words about loving a woman,
but his words ring true in general.
His words on love are words that we could all gain wisdom from when looking at relationships in general.
Can you imagine a world where we spoke our truth.
Where we told our feelings without expectation,
where we related because that is what humans do…
Can you imagine a world where love was not based on what you can do for me,
or I for you,
but on the actual feeling of love.
Can you imagine a world where love was not captivated and crucified at every upset in the day,
a world where loving each other was normal and not judged or shamed,
can you imagine a world where we each had respect for self,
compassion for self,
love for self,
and thus could freely offer the same to another.
Can you imagine a world where saying “I love you” did not bear with it the weight of marriage, commitment of a lifetime, legal documents or looks of concern.
Can you imagine being loved just for being you?
This is the love that Marley was speaking of.
This is the message that we all need to hear,
and this morning as I sit here and am blessed with the words,
“I love you.”
I feel called to share the importance that they actually hold.
I love you is a statement of acceptance.
A statement of respect and care,
I love you means that I do not want to control you,
that I appreciate you JUST AS YOU ARE.
I love you means that I am not expecting anything in return,
there are no conditions,
there are no rules or obligations,
I love you means that I SEE YOU.
JUST AS YOU ARE.
And when these words are uttered,
they should not hold the reins on our heart,
they should not be spoken in shame or in fear,
but instead be words that frees our soul.
I love you means that I love me too.
Because I could not feel this feeling,
pure and authentically,
if you were not mirroring the love that I feel for self.
That is what it is a message of.
When we feel deep love for another,
without control or possession of any sort,
without jealousy or fear of losing,
without expectation,
we are feeling true love.
And true love can only emerge when we feel the same for self.
Others that we feel this radiance for,
ignite the truth of our souls,
allow us to embrace our bigness,
our beauty, and truth.
When love is authentic and not based in need,
It is a sign of who we really are.
And at our cores,
WE ARE LOVE.
We taste it juiciness.
We bathe in its sweetness,
We dance freely in its light,
and we expand within its breath.
Without love life is empty.
And with false love,
control masked as such,
we hunger to hold on,
we fear its loss,
we hand over our power to whomever we deem our point of focus,
and lose who we are.
To love someone…
You may not be the first person to love them,
or the last,
not even the only one.
They have loved before,
they will love again,
But if they are loving you now,
What else matters?
They are not perfect – you aren’t either,
and the two of you may never have the perfect relationship together, no matter its label,
but if they make you smile and laugh,
cause you to think twice,
and admit to being human and making mistakes,
hold onto that love and give it the most you have.
They may not be thinking of you every moment of the day,
but that love will open you to your life,
that love will offer you something special,
something that you must respect, — your truth.
So don’t judge and shame your love,
don’t try and change it,
don’t analyze and
don’t expect more than what is shown.
Smile when you are happy,
let your feelings be known, even when mad,
let your words and actions be authentic.
Love with your whole being when you receive love,
Know that it is available at any moment,
it is your truth,
there is no such thing as perfect,
but there will always be love,
and it is all that matters.
How are you penetrating your life,
this world with your love?
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Say It With Me! Commitment Is Everything.
OMFG!
So there I was leg up on the lip of my shower,
shaving the back of my thigh,
hot water washing down my back,
irritating me because it was washing out my conditioner prematurely,
when it came to me.
I figured out why I have a resistance to love.
Not just to love,
but to allowing myself to fall deeply,
penetratively in love with my man,
with my life,
with ME.
I was flabbergasted at my realization. 🤦♀️
How could I be so silly to not have caught this before.
Perhaps I was just unwilling to see it.
Perhaps I was not ready to fully let go.
Perhaps a whole lot of shit to be frank about it,
and the reality is simple.
I,
Me,
have been holding myself back from the feelings and experiences that I have desired for the last two plus years almost.
Crazy as it sounds.
It is true.
And thanks to my shower today and now nicely shaved legs,
I was blessed with the ability to change it.
Because you see you cannot change something until you awaken to the fact that it needs changed in the first place.
Which is why life is the way that it is.
Sure we get ample opportunity to see what needs to happen,
we feel it at our cores often,
but we humans tend to disregard anything that is not smack dab in our faces presenting a challenge.
AKA a PROBLEM.
Which is why we create problems for ourselves.
We need them to expand.
To grow and to create the life that we are called to live.
Problems allow us to witness what needs attention,
what needs improvement,
change.
And often they rise up from our “feelings”
yes those nasty things that we are told to not pay much attention too because they will misguide us.
But the reality is that our feelings are there to guide us.
They are there to tell us when we are not in alignment to our souls path.
And that causes us pain.
Of some sort.
So what do we do?
We get into a sticky painful situation,
and we COMMIT to change our evil ways.
We commit to work harder.
Work smarter.
To not trust so easily.
To take better care of our bodies and our hearts.
We commit to trying harder.
And the list goes on.
And don’t get me wrong, commitments make our realities.
However, the trick is knowing what you committed to and if the commitment is in alignment with your soul’s desire.
You see, this commitment that I made about two and half years ago, was not ultimately in alignment with my heart or soul. It was a commitment made out of pain.
Intense pain, my heart was breaking and I was scared and angry at this for happening. I was not understanding why it was happening or how this could even be. And in my suffering I stated to the person who I blamed with great emotional attachment,
” I will NEVER love again.”
I went on to tell him that I would never trust a man again or surrender the way I had with him, that if this is what it got me then it was too big a price to pay and I was committing to not not allow myself to get hurt again at this level.
You may think that those were just words,
that I could just ignore and carry on.
That someone awesome could turn around and walk into my life and change my commitment.
And perhaps,
perhaps that might be so.
But it has not been so for me.
Instead my other commitments to myself that I wrote down prior to this one above, started to knock heads with this commitment and even though I had manifested a wonderful man into my world,
not just any man BTW,
but a man that I scripted out in my journal and who has 75% of my list of desires in a man,
yeah… not bad for a day’s worth of journaling work.
Yeah, not even he could break through this commitment to love.
And so, it has been that the last two years I have consistently kept myself “safe from love” not allowing myself to feel what I have wanted to feel fully and getting repeatedly upset with the world and my life and soul because of it but not catching the root of my issue.
MY COMMITMENT.
This morning as I thought about it,
and as life would have it all week long,
I have had plenty of opportunity to read through old journal entries as I clean up areas of my home.
My soul most certainly is on a mission to CONFIRM to me that I am really great at holding commitment to myself.
Especially commitments made with strong emotional attachment.
A few years back,
when I was struggling financially to get over the $100k a year mark in my practice, I committed to myself and wrote it faithfully for months on end in my journal that,
“I commit to make no less than $95,000 a year from this moment forward.”
That year I made $146k.
And I have not looked back since.
I also wrote,
” I commit to having my schedule booking out 4 months in advance.”
And it still remains so that my schedule is booking 4 to 6 month in advance.
” I commit to being recognized on TV.”
And shortly thereafter, was called by Lifetime TV to work on an episode of Married at First Sight.
My list of commitments is long.
My list of emotionally supported commitments is long.
Some emotions however, support my soul’s desires.
And some do not.
My shower realization is that although commitments are thought to be a good thing,
and they most certainly do mean the world.
That what we as individuals need to understand,
is the true power of our words.
Of our commitments to self.
And what we say in passion sticks with us and sometimes can get buried under our day to day lives and thoughts.
Sometimes these commitments we carry for a lifetime,
and they can be the root cause to us not thriving no matter how hard we work,
to not feeling love, no matter how hard we love,
to not feeling safe,
no matter how hard we try and make ourselves trust.
Commitments make our realities.
Let’s start being conscious of them,
and changing the ones that no longer serve.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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