WHAT YOU WANT YOU CAN’T GIVE 100% OF THE TIME.

You know what you are looking for in your life?
You know what you are wanting in your relationships?
 
It’s the very thing that is so hard to give.
We all have trouble offering it 100% of the time.
And in truth we simply will never be it 100%.
 
We can’t be it all the time,
because we are works in progress,
always getting to know ourselves a tad bit deeper.
And it is a scary ground to walk on.
But geeze do our souls desire it so.
 
What could I be speaking of beautiful?
 
Well its not more sex.
It’s not even love.
It’s not a pat on the back.
Or more money.
 
No.
 
The thing that we often desire is a little thing that you can not hold in your hands,
you can feel with your skin,
you cannot guarantee ever.
But you want it.
You want it, this I am sure.
 
That thing I speak of beautiful is:
 
TRUTH.
INTEGRITY.
HONESTY.
AUTHENTICITY.
 
So often I hear people say,
” I am an honest person.”
 
” All I want is to know the truth.”
” I hate drama and manipulation.”
” I am a person of their word.”
” I am just being me.”
 
Mmmm- Hmmmmm….
 
Is that so?
Is that true?
 
Perhaps it may feel that way to you.
And perhaps you may actually believe that you are.
And in many moments you most likely are.
But today I offer up the pondering of the possibility that maybe, just maybe you are not as authentically honest and truthful as you believe you are.
 
Perhaps you are human,
just like the rest of us out here.
Perhaps you are on a journey to discover who you are and even though you think you know,
you still find yourself waking up to new aspects of who you actually are each time the shiz hits the fan and you are triggered.
 
Every time someone asks something of you and you make an excuse.
Every time, someone shares something with you in confidence and you share it just once with this good friend over here.
Every time you get triggered and your words escape your mouth before you have thought them through.
Every time you blame and point that finger.
Every time you weep in feeling you are alone and story tell to yourself the lies that support.
Every time someone does not react the way that you desire and so you say something to make them change their mind…
 
Yes every time.
 
Every time you tell your lover something that is not true.
Every time you look down from yourself in the mirror.
Every time you shut down your heart from feeling what you said.
Every time YOU ARE ASKED TO STEP UP and speak your truth.
 
Oh, beautiful every time.
 
These are all moments when we choose to step back from that which we desire so deeply to have.
 
And by stepping back from our own truth,
we lean just a tad into that vibe of illusion.
And we lie to ourselves.
We lie to others as well.
It often feel’s so small,
it should not matter.
But each time we step away from our truth,
we close off AUTHENTIC COMMUNICATION.
 
We shut ourselves down to love.
Because often beautiful,
in moment like these,
love is there.
Just on the other side of our illusions,
where we choose to lift our head,
say no to the ego of trying to get out of something or to manipulate.
 
Yes on the other side we find love.
We find freedom.
We find confidence.
And we regain trust.
 
You will never be a trustworthy person if you cannot stand in your own integrity,
even when you have fallen,
to stand in integrity is to give yourself grace enough to say,
“I was wrong.”
 
Where have you stepped away from that which you desire so much?
 
And how can you step back into authentic relating with those you love and care for?
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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STOP BEING A YES WHORE.

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STOP BEING A YES WHORE.

Wow! Kendal that is a harsh statement for a Friday morning.

What do you mean by, “Yes Whore?”

You are guilty beautiful of doing just this.
I am guilty too.
There is not a soul on this planet that has not fallen into the illusion of being a yes whore and believing that it is the road to our happiness.

Every time you say YES to someone and you actually mean NO, you are in an essence whoring yourself out and dishonoring self and the relationship that you are YESSING all over.

Every time that inauthentic YES pops out of your mouth and you find yourself swallowing your own needs, desires, ideas, and value because you feel that you “should” do this or that to be a nice person, to be helpful, to offer support, to show you love, etc. etc.

You sabotage yourself!
You sabotage the relationship.
And you loose respect.

I have been in the business of relationship coaching in one facet or another for two decades now and the one thing that I hear repeatedly is, ” I can’t say no, that would be mean.”

“He is my husband… I love him, I can’t say no.”
“She is so sweet and working so hard, she needs this/needs me… I can’t say no.”
“They are really struggling right now, I can’t say no.”
“They need me.”
“I don’t know how I am going to do it but I can’t say no.”

And following these wonderful words of what seem’s like love and support come…

” I am so exhausted, I just don’t have anything left to give, why can’t they/he/she see that?”

“I just feel like a all people ever want me for is ___________________.”

“You know, I have had it… I have been busting myself open here, doing everything I can, to show how much I care and I ask for one small thing and get told no after everything that I have done.”

“Doesn’t he/she see that I really don’t want to do that/feel like it?

“I would be all alone if I said what I really want or need.”

These and so many other things in so many subjects of our lives.

Just think about all the moments that you actually wanted to respond with NO but opted to say yes because you did not want to hurt the relationship, the other persons feelings or damage your value in the relationship.

Think of all those moments that if you get real with yourself you answered YES because you were answering out of fear and/or lack of self-worth.

Well you see beautiful,
these are the times that you were whoring yourself out.

There is no honor or respect in being out of integrity and not being honest with your answer.

You answered YES in exchange for something that you wanted or needed. You put little value on what is so precious and worth so much in hopes that you could,
if but only for a short time,
buy someones love, time, appreciation,
so that you would feel good.

But the funny thing is,
much like a whore who is just selling off their sex and not looking for anything real, lasting or of value,
you find yourself having to consistently whore yourself out to the point of being used up just to get a taste of what you are actually wanting.
And much like the client of the whore who is trying to fill a void and is just buying the illusion of the intimacy and connection,
you are finding yourself feeling used, abused and alone.

The relationships that you are doing this with are the relationships that you need to GET REAL with yourself on.

If you want to experience true happiness.
If you want to be respected.
If you want to have that soulmate relationship based in love,
if you want to feel supported, safe, understood,
If you want to stop questioning yourself and the relationships that you have,
and just BE YOU-
and THRIVE.

if you want that F-ck YES! Life…

Well is starts by you STOPPING YOURSELF FROM BEING A YES WHORE.

The ONLY person you need to answer YES to ALWAYS….

Is YOU.

And you see, if you answer yes to you 100% of the time,
you will find that you will be living authentically and in integrity.
And guess what that means beautiful?

It means you will gain trust, respect, real love and support.
It means that you will NOT ALWAYS make someone else happy,
that you will respect and love yourself enough to know that you are not responsible for anyone else’s emotional response, mental thoughts or even physical actions.
It means that you will no longer be enabling another’s victim mindset in their unconscious maneuver to control you and feel loved themselves.

It means that you will be one step closer to manifesting the life that you are worthy of.

So Stop Being a YES WHORE and Release Yourself from That Which Binds You.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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This is why life is not working for you.

I hear often from people that they love my open, authentic, unapologetic fashion and way of being. So many people come to me and say, “Wow, Kendal I can’t imagine being so out there like you are on these topics. How do you do it?”
 
The truth of my being is this and of my reality as I create it.
I have to be open, authentic and unapologetic in my messaging, coaching and just simply living. If I were being any other way I would not be me.
 
And I don’t try to be like anyone else.
Because there is ONLY one me.
 
I use to sit around and twiddle my thumbs and desire to have or be or do things that someone else was doing. I wanted for this or that person’s life. I would dream about living in the freedom and flexibility of how those I followed and looked up to were living.
 
What I discovered was that in my wanting I was also searching.
 
I was searching for WHO I WAS.
 
I had an identity issue.
I took on other peoples ideas, concepts and roles that they had for me.
I took on the perceptions and images that I was seeing were successful for others.
I would mimic their attitude, their facial expressions, the way they sat or moved their hands and even the things they said and how they said it.
I would mimic their very beliefs.
 
I would mimic anything I could.
 
And to a degree it was good.
Because I was being a student,
I was hungry to learn.
To grow and to discover what worked.
I wanted change.
I wanted to find myself.
And in wanting that I searched through exploration and trying on other peoples personalities and habits.
 
Unfortunately, after a bit of learning all these amazing habits and ways of being, I felt even more lost. I started to loose the luster for life, for my work, the way I was existing and living.
 
I was exhausted.
And my body and emotions were screaming it loud and clear as I started to fall apart at the seams.
 
Why was this?
 
Why in my improving of myself,
in my exploration and focus of taking on better habits,
habits of success and abundance in ways I saw it working was my very body and being fighting me?
 
Here is the issue with what I was doing and perhaps you can relate a tad to my tale today. The answer was pretty simple….
 
I was withering away because I was not being TRUE TO ME.
 
Sure i had some great habits.
I had some awesome beliefs.
I was doing the work.
I was invested in my change.
 
But I was FIGHTING MY TRUTH.
 
And when we play pretend for too long,
our SOUL get’s sick and tired of our nonsense and it decides to give us a wake up call.
 
Get in alignment or else.
 
We can learn from others.
and in order to fully tap into who we are each meant to be,
we MUST BE STUDENTS.
 
We must learn to adapt certain traits and successful mindset programs,
but it must be done without the loss of our SOUL.
 
How can I message, coach and live so open, authentically and unapologetically the way that I do?
 
How can I speak from this real and raw place from deep within and look you in the eye with love and acceptance while revealing intimate aspects of who I am?
 
Because I CHOSE TO FIND MYSELF.
I made a decision to BE ME.
I COMMITTED to stop mimicking everyone else in hopes that their way was my way and that it/them would save me.
 
I decided that I was the most important person in my life and that in order for me to serve this world the best way I could and to THRIVE in life, to have my dreams and desires manifest that I had to simply let go of any desire to try and be something or someone that I was not.
 
I stopped caring what the world thought of me.
I put down the fears,
the concerns and worries of loosing people in my life if I decided to just be me.
I got real with myself.
And I fell in love with who I was.
WHO I AM.
 
If life is not manifesting the way you want it.
If your abundance is falling short like your time, your energy and your focus, then perhaps its time that you stop the insanity of playing the roles that you have painted for yourself in the image of another and just BE YOU.
 
I know how scary that may sound.
I know that you may have no real clue as to who you are even.
But realize that these obstacles are nothing more than a mirage to your truth.
Don’t let your SOUL light burn out because you are too scared to pull back the curtains on your life and reveal your beauty,
your thoughts,
your feelings,
your opinions,
and ideas.
 
You know who you are.
You just have to be willing to slow down enough to spend time with yourself to feel into yourself.
 
And then have the COURAGE to make yourself the most important person in your life.
 
Do this and watch miracles and abundance in all juicy good things flood into your here and now.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.
I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.
But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.
Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.
Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.
What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?
You can have this.
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You Are Worthy Of Authentic Love.

 
It’s high time beautiful that you STOP the silliness of always saying yes when you mean no.
 
Yeah I see you over there.
faking that smile.
Faking that reaction.
Feeling like you have too,
when in truth you just simply are not all that in to that shiz.
 
But you still say yes.
You say yes because its programmed into you to say yes.
You say yes because you don’t want to rock the boat,
you do not want to cause a confrontation,
you most certainly don’t want to feel separation.
 
What does it matter any way?
Your opinion, your needs or desires.
You are a nice person.
You are not greedy.
You are not selfish.
You put other’s first.
Just the way you were taught.
 
I get it.
 
The issue is that you are dried up.
You are worn out.
You just keep saying yes and thinking that your yes will fill you up because giving is so good.
 
Except you forgot to give to the most important person beautiful.
 
You forgot to take care of the most valuable player in your life.
 
YOU.
 
And so you now have so little of you left to give.
You are fatigued,
lost and off centered.
You don’t have the stamina or energy to keep going and you most likely are questioning if you can.
 
But you just said another inauthentic yes to someone,
and so you must.
You must keep your head up and smile.
 
You are afraid that if you state your truth.
If you say NO –
that this relationship you are giving yourself away for will be no more.
You are afraid you will be judged, criticized, hurt someones feelings, or worse yet be abandoned by them.
 
If you really stop and feel into this,
you should see the silliness of this idea.
If this relationship is meant to be,
if it is a friendship,
a love based relationship,
a relationship that is based on truth and trust…
then why would it go away just because you are a no to something?
 
Now, if the relationship is based simply on you doing what the other wants and needs at all cost,
and you not getting your needs met,
or there is zero allowance for your authenticity,
then perhaps it is high time that you reconsider the value of this relationship in your life.
 
Perhaps you should look at this relationship and question what exactly you are making yourself available for and WHY?
 
Does this relationship make you happy?
Does it fulfill you?
Do you feel like this relationship is equally yoked?
 
Or are you just bending over backward out of fear of being alone.
Out of fear of loss.
Fear that there is nothing better than this,
that you are not deserving of it?
 
Well, I want you to realize that YOU ARE WORTHY of love.
 
And any relationship that says that it is love but demands you to NOT be authentic to get this love, is NOT LOVE.
 
It’s a LIE.
 
You deserve much better than this.
And deep in your heart you know it is true.
It is what pulls at you when you find yourself holding yourself and trying to comfort yourself when you actually need the arms of your relationship.
 
It is that sick feeling that comes up in your stomach when you say yes to something but you know that it is not really for you, but you do it anyway.
 
It is that nervousness or that physical constriction that manifests itself when you agree and push yourself to be/do something that you are not.
 
YES YOU KNOW.
 
And it is truly high time that you STOP the silliness of saying yes when you are actually a no.
 
In saying your authentic truth you will gain respect,
you will feel more confidence,
you will be embraced more by life and others,
you will be trustworthy.
And guess what those people that DO LOVE YOU,
will still be there.
The one’s who were only there for your hand outs, your service and how you made them feel without care of you,
well they will no longer be there.
 
Or they will see you differently and love you for your truth.
 
Either way,
you are worthy of true love.
But in order for you to have it,
you have to start being true to yourself.
And love yourself enough to speak your heart.
 
Say YES.
Say YES to YOU.
Not to everyone else.
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.
I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.
But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.
Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.
Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.
What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?
You can have this.
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You Offend Me. – Stop It!

That is IT!
I am DONE!!!!!
Done you hear me.
 
I cannot stomach it any longer.
Just the fact that you think that way and have the nerve to state it openly on top of everything.
 
So frustrating.
It should not be allowed.
I mean seriously,
you have no clue.
 
ARGH.
 
Stop already.
That is it!
I am clicking report and then I am unfriending you.
It sickens me that you shared that.
 
How little do you think of yourself to just put yourself out there like that?
 
Do you have no self-respect.
Self-care?
I bet you do this because you think you are oh so cool or hot, right?
Well it is obvious that you are just another attention hungry bottom of the pool feeder who has no real understanding about anything and just wants us all to bask in your glory.
 
Seriously.
I am DONE.
This whole thing is offensive to me.
It is offensive to all of your followers and friends.
How can you just keep sharing?
How do I make you STOP?
 
Don’t you see yourself?
Geeze….
 
Think much of yourself?
There you go again posting.
 
I cannot take it.
Seriously, I am going to unfriend you.
I am.
 
What’s this?
These people here are agreeing with you?
 
W-H-A-T?????
 
Come on people you are going to buy into this rubbish?
Really?
 
Okay now that is pushing it.
Now you have done it.
You are now making others believe this crap like you do.
Will you stop at nothing?
 
and on,
and on,
and on,
we go.
 
 
Okay dear reader, PLEASE don’t believe that any of the above is anything that I have personally outside of this post here ever written and meant or written at all.
 
Matter a fact just today I was doing a livestream and you could see my nipples I guess under my my shirt and a man responded, “nice nipples.” in the comments section.
Of which I said nothing to.
 
Then later a man private messaged me and asked if this other man’s comment offended me.
 
LOL.
 
F-ck No!
 
In order for his comment or anyone’s comment to offend me,
it would mean that their opinion of me mattered somehow.
As though how they judged me, viewed me or what they translated from my image or words had some effect on my self-worth, esteem or confidence.
As though their opinion should cause me to second guess, judge or love myself less.
 
That is funny.
I tell you I am laughing at a deep soul core level over thinking that someone making any comment, or doing something even as distastefulness as some of the pictures I receive or random advances that I get daily should have a true effect on who I am or how I feel about me is CRAZY.
 
Offended?
 
What does it take to offend one?
Well for some in today’s world it takes VERY little.
And for those poor saps who live in a world that is out to get them I feel pity, because they will never bask in the beauty and joy that life has to offer.
They will never be able to fully trust life.
Themselves. or anyone.
It is sad to watch so many people go straight into defense at the slightest little thing that ruffles their feathers.
And without any concept of what they are really doing.
 
Standing about,
pointing fingers,
getting mad at pictures,
at opinions of other’s,
at debates,
or feelings,
that are not theirs to begin with,
and truly believing that it is everyone’s else’s responsibility to make them happy, keep then safe from things that pull up fears, or trigger them in some fashion, or to make them feel anything at all.
 
Here is the cold hard reality.
NO ONE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR YOU BUT YOU!
 
And nothing can MAKE.YOU.FEEL
anything.
 
That is all an inside game.
The only thing you do when you feel offended is cower into the corner of the victim mindset and turn over your power to everything/one else,
putting them in charge of your happiness.
 
And then acting like a spoiled kid when you don’t get what you expect.
 
Sheer silliness.
Laziness too.
and emotional immaturity above everything else.
 
It is most certainly the topic of today.
Even a fellow coach/friend had a share of theirs taken down because it went against community guideline.
 
?????
Did she get naked and share a video or pic that was to out there like some of the things I see come through in some of the groups?
 
NO.
 
Did she cuss people out or call people prejudges names?
 
No.
 
Did she slander someone?
 
No.
 
Did she do ANYTHING offensive?
Well, yes.
Yes she did.
Well she must have.
Because her livestream was deleted for such.
 
It was not a community that she offended.
No.
She offended one person more than likely.
And much like my writing above,
this one took it upon themselves to save everyone from such nonsense that was in this livestream.
 
Mean while,
we have video’s running around with violent scenes,
men are sending very unattractive and unwanted pictures to random women in messenger,
people are being called names because of how they look,
or what race they are or church they go too.
We can openly watch a video with a squirrel having its nut’s ( yes actual nuts/balls/testicle’s) caught in a fence and we laugh it off.
 
All of this is okay.
Why because of the number of likes it has below it?
Or because it’s not happening to you.
Or you just don’t see it.
 
And still even all of this…
 

GUESS WHAT?

 
Yes even my fellow coach video being taken down.
None of it is offensive.
 
UNLESS YOU MAKE IT SO IN YOUR OWN HEAD.
 
Again…
No one is responsible for your happiness,
your feelings,
your thought,
or judgments,
other than YOU.
 
So why the rant today?
Because it is silly.
And as I shared on a comment thread about this very thing,
 
“It is a shame that our society is focused on being on the attack and can’t stand behind our right of speech and to share our options and thoughts. It is crazy, back in the 1950’s doing Roasts were so popular and it took a strong and stable person to be able to sit through the ego breaking moments of a roast. today’s society cannot handle someone just glancing over at them for no reason without feeling offended. Crazy it is. We have raised a weak society of wantabe adults.”
 
Today society cannot handle a ROAST.
Or a wrong look.
Or your opinion.
 
Let along your life.
Your hobbies.
Your likes.
Dislikes.
Beliefs.
The color of your hair.
or how you choose to dress.
 
We have become a weak culture.
We in WHO WE ARE.
Knowing ourselves.
And loving who we are.
We are weak in just allowing each to their own.
We have become STRONG in becoming the police for everything that has nothing to do with us.
We have become STRONG in sticking our nose into everything and playing the blame game.
 
Gotta Love the Blame Game.
Right?
 
 
Not.
So how do you rank love?
How easily offended are you?
Have I pushed you to the point of no return in this share and made you one of my haters?
 
Or are you EMPOWERED and conscious?
 
Share your thoughts below.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Don’t wait another one, two, five, ten years to start THRIVING.
Make 2019 the year of you claiming YOU.

Open and Shut – How do you cope with transformation?

Open and Shut.

The lesson of my year.
When this year got started I looked at it and just knew that it was going to be transformational.
Now I am not an overly superstitious person or one that listens strongly to “hocus pocus” sorts of things, but I do pay attention to energy and take it all in.

Born in the year of the fire dragon according to Chinese astrology, the year of the dog that we are in typically brings in relationship transformation items for me.

You can call this bogus, and I often do myself in my own head.
Questioning things as they do not line up to my logical, scientific, realist thinking and understanding, however there are times that I see that these “mystical, spiritual” sorts of things actually do shine a light on potential energy of the moment.

This all being said, the year of the dog has proven once again to be a year that is reorganizing my life in ways I never anticipated.

The last year of the dog I told my now ex-husband that I wanted a divorce.

This year both my over 6 year intimate relationships came to an end suddenly and friendships are changing right before my eye’s as well. My family is growing in number, orchestrating itself, I feel pulled away from my mother and I am questioning some relationships that are lingering.

The year of the dog is all about relationship.
Loyalty.
Family.
Brotherhood-sisterhood.

And for us dragon’s it reveals the truth in these areas.

Change is always difficult.
The feeling of loosing those who have been closest to you is never easy and is painful at a level that I do not believe I have words to express.

Yet I am reminded in these times of relationship transformation, the wisdom and comfort of Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

” To every thing there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.”

As I move through this year,
I feel my ego wanting me to shut the doorways on life,
to fully retract from things that I enjoy,
form the relationships that I do have,
or to shut down from the people that I am in a relationship transformation with.

I have observed that as these changes occur that my fellow transformation warriors often choose to shut themselves down and out.

Making what seem’s like a public display of their pain by closing the doors to what not is, but what could be.

The pain of transformation effects everyone differently,
and I am not proclaiming that there is any right or wrong way to go about it.

It is nothing more than a noticing of these times.

My way has always been about opening.
Just because a relationship is evolving,
just because new boundaries are being established,
just because truths have been spoken,
lies broken,
and hearts revealed,
that in my humble opinion does not mean that one must shut down to the relationship and close it fully out UNLESS,

Unless….
That is that the vibration between souls is so great of a difference that they cannot co-habitat in any fashion or sense.

Then a full closing must happen.
At least for a time frame.

In this case, I am reminded of the wisdom ,
“Time heals all wounds.”

I use to say this was rubbish.
But now in my 40’s I know that it is truth.

I have had my heart broken in many ways,
by those I never thought would and I have done my fair share of breaking of other’s.
This process will never end,
but what I have learned is that over the course of time,
Time will heal the woulds.

Time allows for us to move if we desire from a state of closed to a state of open.

It allows us to educate ourselves about the lessons that we practiced in these past relationships and to expand ourselves more, yet always offering a deeper realization of ourselves.

Relationship is all about us meeting ourselves at a more intimate level.

Our relationships with others reveals to us our internal relationship with ourselves and with God.

As we step forward on this path of transformation,
we find our guidance here.

The steps we are to take will be lit by blessings that will guide us and desires that will call to us.

Do we choose to open or shut to them?
The answer to this question makes all the difference on our path of understanding and healing.

We are always being offered a choice.
It is always ours to make.

What manifests in our life experience comes from these choices and the energy of opening or shutting in any given moment.

It is truly only by leaning into love,
and remaining open through the pain of the transofmration,
that we expand to our deeper self.

In loving gratitude for all those relationships through my life that have offered these lessons and I have been able to take part in. May we all move toward a deeper union with our truth.

And as always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!

I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!
That was how I approached a group of 50+ people last night who have reached out to me about getting help with their sex, their relationships and their wantabe f-ck yes lives.

My lover read the title and said, I don’t know too many people who can get away with making that their subject line of an email and get a positive response back.

The truth is, not too many people can.
The reason is that most people, coaches included are masking their truth.

Are scared of saying something to piss someone off.
Of not appearing “professional“.

Then you have this .01% of us out there that are living our raw, authentic truth and have no shame for just being ourselves and stating the truth.

After sharing my thoughts with 50+ people last night and hopefully providing them with a good asskickery, it came to me that I should share with you as well. Because many of you too, reach out in many forms asking for help. Guidance and coaching but seem to never follow through for yourselves.

So here is an incomplete taste of what my message to these peeps was and now it is going out to you as well. 

Kendal’s Thoughts on Not Claiming Your Life. – The decisions we sometimes make and why.

Yes you reached out to me.

Maybe you have forgotten even that you wanted help around those delicate matters that cause you stress, make your life a little less pleasurable and you secretly wish you had not chickened out or copped some lame ass excuse for not taking by them by horns and dealing with them once and for all.

Maybe you simple believe that by ignoring your issues, they will some how magically just be gone and everything will fix itself.

Maybe you think that you got it all dealt with now, and you don’t need help.
Maybe you feel like:

You don’t have the time
You don’t have the money
You don’t have the energy
You don’t have the support
It does not matter anyway.
You will be FINE.

Okay, you keep telling yourself all that bull bunk, and the rest of us who instead have chosen to push the play button for our lives will go live.

Go have a F-ck YES! Life and enjoy the bliss that we want, not just fantasize about it.

Right about now you are most likely asking yourself:

Who the f-ck is this chick with attitude and why is she dropping in on my doorstep?

Well, if you recall or care to refresh your memory, 
my name is Kendal Williams.
You reached out to me because I have the ability to take you from where you are at, 
to where you want to be.

I am a coach that specializes in an intimate part of life, 
one of the parts of life that we all wish was better, or we had more going on in.

That would be,

SEX and Relationship.

Now granted over 2018, I have taken the last 20+ years of my coaching practice where I have helped countless people with many things from nutrition, parenting, body image, dreams, spiritual life, business, sex, relationship, to orgasm issues and have started converting my strategies, education and skills over to a passion of mine.

That being: 
Prosperity Coaching, focused on Abundance, Success, Money, Business + Sex and Play.

I call it F-ck YES Life Coaching and Freedom Based Life Coaching.

But you contacted me for the sex and relationship, ‘and sex and relationship is a vital piece of life and plays a significant role in all areas of our life including these above. That is why I can never stop coaching on it.

With that said, 
By the first of the year you will see my coaching totally merge over to the above and I will no longer be claiming the title of Sex & Relationship Coach.

That is WHY I am sending this email out to you.
RIGHT NOW – I am collecting my end of the year VIP clients to work with for the remainder of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019. These VIP clients will have the dedicated focus and attention around the above matters. Around what you originally reached out to me to discuss.

And after that?

Well you will have to work withing the new perimeters of my practice.

It’s NEVER to late to start. 
It is never too late to say YES to yourself, 
to your dreams.

The ONLY thing ever stopping any of us, 
Is OURSELVES.

So, yes I am tired of everyone’s bullsh*t of stating what they do not have and focusing in on the shit. I am exhausted from having hundreds of people reach out to me, but not TAKE ACTION.

How the eff do you expect to be happy, 
truly happy and to have the life that you desire IF you refuse to make the changes, get the help and lean in?

How?

Let’s get real. 
And tell ourselves the truth.

You got SCARED.
Doubt popped into your head.
Hopelessness stands at your gate.

And you are SETTLING.
Settling for what you have, 
It’s SAFE
It’s COMFORTABLE
You know what to expect.

But are you HAPPY?

This is the ONLY Question You need address.

If you answer it honestly, 
then you effing NEED TO message me back ASAP.

Before things have fully transformed over here in my green pasture of pleasure.

SO take that step to your desired life.
You are worth it.

Don’t be like so many poor saps out there that thinks you have time, 
thinks it can wait till next year, 
thinks its all okay and you don’t need help.

Those people never really live. 
They die long before their bodies ever give out on them.

I pray you will not be that person. 
But if you do,

God Bless.

If not….
email me back and let’s get you ROCKIN’ out your life now!!!!

LISTEN TO THIS NOW!

So where the F-ck Are You At?
Are you ready to claim your life, your orgasm, your abundance?

Or are you SETTLING?

As always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Are You A Fuck Yes to Your Relationship?

209787-Live-A-Fuck-Yes-LifeFUCK YES OR NO

Think about this for a moment: Why would you ever choose to be with someone who is not excited to be with you?

There’s a grey area in dating many people get hung up on — a grey area where feelings are ambiguous or one person has stronger feelings than the other. This grey area causes real, tangible issues. As a man, a huge question is often whether to be persistent and continue pursuing a woman even when she seems lukewarm or hot/cold on your advances. For women, a common question is what to do with men who make their feelings ambiguous.

“She said she’s not interested, but she still flirts with me, so what do I need to do to get her?”
“Well, I know she likes me, but she didn’t call me back last weekend, what should I do?”
“He treats me well when he’s around, but he’s hardly around. What does that mean?”

Most dating advice exists to “solve” this grey area for people. Say this line. Text her this. Call him this many times. Wear that.

Much of it gets exceedingly analytical, to the point where some men and women actually spend more time analyzing behaviors than actually, you know, behaving.

Frustration with this grey area also drives many people to unnecessary manipulation, drama and game-playing. This is where you get rules about making men pay for this many dates before you can become intimate. Or how men need to transition from attraction phase to comfort phase by qualifying three times before they’re allowed to commence an escalation ladder.

These things may seem clever and exciting to some people who are stuck or frustrated. But this dating advice misses the point. If you’re in the grey area to begin with, you’ve already lost.

Let me ask again: Why would you ever be excited to be with someone who is not excited to be with you? If they’re not happy with you now, what makes you think they’ll be happy to be with you later? Why do you make an effort to convince someone to date you when they make no effort to convince you?

What does that say about you? That you believe you need to convince people to be with you?

You wouldn’t buy a dog that bites you all the time. And you wouldn’t be friends with someone who regularly ditches you. You wouldn’t work a job that doesn’t pay you. Then why the hell are you trying to make a girlfriend out of a woman who doesn’t want to date you? Where’s your self-respect?

The entrepreneur Derek Sivers once wrote a blog post where he said, “If I’m not saying ‘Hell Yeah!’ to something, then I say no.” It served him well in the business world and now I’d like to apply it to the dating world. And because I’m more of a vulgar asshole than Derek is, I’ll christen mine The Law of “Fuck Yes or No.”

The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, they must inspire you to say “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them.

The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” also states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, THEY must respond with a “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them.

As you can see, The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” implies that both parties must be enthusiastic about the prospect of one another’s company. Why? Because attractive, non-needy, high self-worth people don’t have time for people who they are not excited to be with and who are not excited to be with them.

This may sound a bit idealistic to some. But The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” has many tangible benefits on your dating life:

  1. No longer be strung along by people who aren’t that into you. End all of the headaches. End the wishing and hoping. End the disappoint and anger that inevitably follows. Start practicing self-respect. Become the rejector, not the rejected.
  2. No longer pursue people you are so-so on for ego purposes. We’ve all been there. We were so-so about somebody, but we went along with it because nothing better was around. And we all have a few we’d like to take back. No more.
  3. Consent issues are instantly resolved. If someone is playing games with you, playing hard to get, or pressuring you into doing something you’re unsure about, your answer is now easy. Or as I often like to say in regards to dating, “If you have to ask, then that’s your answer.”
  4. Establish strong personal boundaries and enforce them. Maintaining strong boundaries not only makes one more confident and attractive, but also helps to preserve one’s sanity in the long-run.
  5. Always know where you stand with the other person. Since you’re now freeing up so much time and energy from people you’re not that into, and people who are not that into you, you now find yourself perpetually in interactions where people’s intentions are clear and enthusiastic. Sweet!

The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” is applicable to dating, sex, relationships, even friendships. You may have absolutely nothing in common with that bartender. But they’re hot and are interested in getting down. Is it a “Fuck Yes!” for sex? It is? Then game on.

Wrapped up in that sweet guy who treats you so well, except goes weeks without calling you and suddenly disappears after a couple drinks and a round of the horizontal polka? Been wondering if he really likes you? Do his excuses of being so busy all the time seem legit? It doesn’t sound like the answer is a “Fuck yes.” Then it’s time to move on.

Making out with a girl at your house and every time you go to take her shirt off she swats your hands away? That is not a “Fuck Yes,” my friend, therefore, it’s a no and you shouldn’t pressure her. The best sex is “Fuck Yes” sex — i.e., both people are shouting “Fuck Yes” as they hop between the sheets together. If she’s not hopping, then there’s no fucking.

(Hint Fellas: This is a great time to ask the girl why she’s not comfortable, and what she’s looking for from you. That, by itself — you know, treating her like a human and empathizing with her — often solves this “problem.”)

Want to date that woman you met last weekend but she keeps ignoring your texts and calls? Not sure what to say or do, especially since she seemed so happy to go out with you when you initially met her? Well, my friend, this is obviously not a “Fuck Yes.” Therefore, it is a “No.” Delete her number and move on.

Fuck Yes or No applies to relationships as well. My girlfriend works with a guy who got married because “it seemed like the right thing to do.” Four years later, he was cheating on his wife every chance he got. The marriage was not a Fuck Yes for him, therefore it should have been a No.

Sometimes The Law of Fuck Yes or No will apply differently on different levels. You may be a “Fuck Yes” for friendship with someone, but mildly excited to have sex with them. Therefore, it’s a no. You may be a “Fuck Yes” on banging someone’s brains out, but a definite “No” on actually spending any time with them. Apply the law to your decision-making as it suits your current needs.

Fuck Yes or No doesn’t necessarily mean you have to be falling in knee-wobbling love at first sight. It doesn’t even mean you have be completely convinced that someone is right for you. You can be “Fuck Yes” about getting to know someone better. You can be “Fuck Yes” about seeing someone again because you think there’s something there. You can be “Fuck Yes” about giving things a few months to pan out and see if you can fix the problems in the relationship.

The point is: both you and the other person need to be fuck yes about something, otherwise you’re just wasting your time.

A common Fuck Yes response from a woman. Flowers and all.
A common Fuck Yes response from a woman. Flowers and all.

But the real beauty of The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” is that it simplifies the problems you can have in your dating life. When applying the Law of “Fuck Yes or No,” there are really only two problems one can have.

The first problem is people who never feel a “Fuck Yes” for anybody they meet. If you are lukewarm on absolutely everyone you meet, then either your demographics are way off, or you suffer from a lack of vulnerability and are protecting yourself by remaining indifferent and unenthused by all of those around you.

Remember, it’s your job to look for something cool in everyone you meet; it’s not their job to show you. This is life, not a fucking sales convention. Learning to appreciate people you meet is a skill you cultivate. So get on it. This doesn’t mean you have to fall in love with everyone who breathes in your direction. It just means you need to take responsibility for your ability to connect with the people you are meeting.

The second problem is people who never meet others who feel a “Fuck Yes” for them. If all of the people you pursue give you a mild response, or outright rejections, then it’s time to focus on improving yourself. Ask yourself, what is it about yourself that would inspire others to say “Fuck Yes” about you? If the answer is not obvious, then you get to work. Build yourself into a person others would say “Fuck Yes” to.

And this is the ultimate dating advice lesson — man, woman, gay, straight, trans, furry, whatever — the only real dating advice is self improvement. Everything else is a distraction, a futile battle in the grey area, a prolonged ego trip. Because, yes, with the right tools and performance, you may be able to con somebody into sleeping with you, dating you, even marrying you. But you will have won the battle by sacrificing the war, the war of long-term happiness.

Sexuality & Tantra (AKA – The Art of Living Fully)

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Often I am asked “What is Tantra?” my answer to this question is – “Tantra is everything!”

But that answer is often to simple yet complex for many people to truly grasp what I am saying. So I have decided to take a moment and share what I mean in this statement of “tantra is everything.”

Tantra is about weaving together all parts of our life. That is why when we teachers/practitioners speak about improving our sexuality and sex lives that we also say that this will affect all other areas of our lives such as our relationships with our parents, siblings, children, co-workers and anyone who walks into our lives. Yet Tantra is NOT about sex alone. Matter a fact if you truly studied tantra and the teachings of the Dali Lama on the matter you would discover that sex is only about 5% to 10% at best of Tantra.

Why does sex get focused on then when we speak about Tantra?

There are a few reasons for this.

1. Sex sells! – Now I know that many of my fellow teachers out there just cringed at me saying this, but I am a realist in many ways and the facts are the facts. Sex is sexy. Sex is captivating and interesting. Sex is something we all desire more of and we are all under educated in. Sex is something that we know at our core is good for us for more reasons then procreation. Sex sells because it turns us on at our deepest levels. It always has and it always will.
2. Sex is normally the final frontier to tackle for even the most spiritual, self-growth focused, courageous, driven soul out there. And it is the one that is most interconnected to every aspect of our lives and to the world in general. Our sexing affects everything. That is why we focus on sexuality when we speak Tantra. Tantra in this area is about making our sex conscious.

Now this may seem different then what you were expecting. Hopefully it is comforting to know that Tantra and sex are NOT about prostitution (although those in this line of work who understand certain groundwork, certainly are sexual healers and not just working to make a quick buck so someone else can relieve some stress). Tantra does not make use of our sexuality so that one can experience a hot “body to body rub” either. Tantra makes use of our sexuality because through our sexing we create or lives. We create the structures of our futures. We manifest our desires, dreams and goals. We learn to face our shadows as well as our light and we learn how to fully love, accept and live in gratitude. Through our sexing we learn the importance of Living Fully, and this is Tantra.

This is why you will hear me speak about Gourmet Sexing verses Fast Food Sexing.

Gourmet sexing is a spiritual practice of deep love and acceptance. Not only of our partner but of ourselves and of all of life.

Gourmet sexing is healing. It can help us to release past programs, trauma and suffering. It can be the creative spark that changes everything and helps us to transform our very existence. Through gourmet sexing we find peace and bliss. This is Conscious Sex!

Fast food sexing is all about using ourselves or another for stress release or power. It is about controlling another. It is about quick fixes, disconnectedness, limited to no intimacy and remaining unconscious to all our levels of being. Fast food sexing is a short circuit to living fully. It prevents us from ever achieving the beauty, connection and authentic loving that we so desire. It disenables us from our true power and thus from bliss.

Perhaps these terms will help you to understand a bit better the significant role that sex plays on our lives and that through the art of Tantra we can achieve what we all desire. A live lived well and full. A life of appreciation, love, acceptance, honor and conscious bliss.

So what is Tantra?

Tantra is the Art of Living Life Fully!

Now the only question is. “Will you accept the journey of conscious living?”

I sure hope so because you my friend ARE WORTH IT!!!!

–KW

Two Keys to Relating

intimacyspiritualIntimacy and trust. The two key ingredients to a healthy, strong, loving and passionate relationship. These two items go hand in hand and are a catch 22 in relating. If you start to loose one the other is right behind it and vise verse, you also need one to make the other happen.

Intimacy is not just about sex either, although in our world today when someone speaks of intimacy they are speaking of sexual intimacy often. It is valuable to truly understand that intimacy is something that is needed to feel connected, understood, valued and secure in all relating.

Just this last weekend we had a dear friend come to the Orgasm Camp workshop and stay after for socializing and dinner. She is an Intimacy Coach and during our dinner preparations I was playing with our 15 month old son, Jessica (our friend) made the comment that she could tell that I was not just a parent to my children that I was also their friend. She stated that we treated the children like real people not “kids.” What she was seeing was the intimacy shared between parent and child. Something that I have been conscious of harvesting in my relationships with all six of my children. It is something that when I look out into the world I do not see in the paradigm of parent/child. The average parenting structure has the child as a lower species of human-hood, there are walls that are put in place, things that are not discussed because a child could never understand this or that and children are talked down to instead of communicated with in authenticity. Parents try to hide their own short comings and mistakes and even try to repair what they feel they did wrong in their youth by “protecting” otherwise known as controlling their own children from doing the same instead of openly communicating with them and building trust and intimacy. Here is where I strongly differ (granted I may be wrong in my beliefs but parenting truly is a science where we all wager our upbringing skills on a hypothesis), I believe in building intimacy and trust. This comes through authentic living which transfers as authentic relating even with my child. Never shutting down about where I am , what is happening, and never shaming or having misguided expectations. Recognizing that my child has to make mistakes no matter their age in order to learn and grow. Supporting individualism. Communicating life lessons at a level that each of my children can understand for where they are at, EVEN if that is having a sex talk with them.

Through this sort of authentic relating I have preventing many barriers from forming and have kept the communication lines open. So much so that my oldest two daughters (now 17 and 19) have had the ability to trust in me enough and know that we share the intimacy needed for them to bring difficult issues into the court, from the first time they had sex, to things they have experimented with, sexual trauma, jealousy issues, physical changes happening, and even their first G-spot orgasm. Most parents in todays culture would have a tough time hearing their daughter speak openly about the pleasure they experienced and how amazing it was during a G-spot orgasm, they certainly would not want to have to give further advise as to how to achieve this state again. Yet in my household, these two young women get the opportunity to grow, question, experience and be supported instead of being shamed for their sexuality as women.

I have always stated that I am a realist. I know that our youth is a time of great exploration and teenagers and young adults will certainly experiment and learn things from somewhere, so why not support healthy exploration backed by authentic, unconditional loving instead of shaming, guilting and disconnecting?

This same dynamic can be brought into our intimate affairs with a lover. How do we communicate with them? Do we allow them to be of individual thought, need and life experience without shaming, guilting or disconnecting no matter how they choose to show up in the moment or do we try and change them and make our expectations and needs greater then what they can deliver? DO we hold space for our lover to experience what they need in any given moment or do we demand for things to be as we believe they should?

I am not saying that we have to support without end a decision or action of a loved one, child or lover alike. I am not saying that we have to agree or even pretend to agree with them. What I am saying is that we need to open the channels of authentic communication and hold our hearts open in the most challenging of times. This is true unconditional loving, something that the majority of relationships have never experienced, because what we think is love is actually need, and in our needing we distort our partners, or anyone else that we are in a love based relationships with and put false hopes and expectations on them that they CANNOT often meet. We are dependent on them to make us happy instead of taking care of our own happiness. When our needs are suddenly not met and the veil of illusion that WE ourselves put there starts to come down, we loose trust and intimacy and point the finger at the other blaming them for the suffering that we are now feeling. This is where we loose ourselves further, often find that our relationship was built on sand with no stable foundation and question why we even trusted in this person.

Building true intimacy and trust is not easy but it is simple.

There are steps for building the foundation for authentic loving and relating so that we can have a sacred relationship with all the people in our lives.

Among these steps are:

Conscious Living = Conscious Relating
Appreciation
Integrity in Action and Communication
Holding Space
Standing in the Fire
Exploration
Dedication to Life and Unconditional Love before the Relationship

Learn more on how you can have an Authentic, Sacred Relationship in your Love Life and in ALL relating on October 1st, 2014…

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