Throne-tood! – Get Some.

Throne-tood!

It’s a THING.

And it’s a thing that you gotta get some of if you want to have the life that you claim that you want.

 

We have been raised to have shame over loving ourselves.

We have been raised to believe that it is wrong or even bad to think highly of ourselves,

or to brag.

And it is “selfish” ( meaning bad) to ask for what we want, need or desire.

 

But instead the correct path to happiness is to look like this so we have been raised to believe…

 

Talk like shit about yourself,

hate on your body,

on your thoughts,

in your life.

 

Be SUPER effing critical about everything and never admit to your glory.

 

Downplay everything good and hype up everything that is not perfect in your life.

 

Make sure that you are NEVER offending everyone else,

because YOU….

yes you are  responsible for everyone else’s feelings, ideas, perceptions, thoughts and actions,

so make sure to never mess up or have an opinion that does not match whomever you are with.

 

Put others before yourself at all costs.

Exhaust yourself and keep giving,

but don’t bitch that you are at your breaking point.

 

Suck it up.

Don’t show your emotions,

any of them but “blase.”

Indifference is the best path,

even if it’s not true.

 

Your anger,

your sadness,

your joy,

hide because it is too effing much for the world around you.

 

Fear everything.

And know that you are most likely at fault for the crap no matter what,

and if it’s not you then feel offended instantly,

if anyone says different or God forbid

goes against all of these rules of how to live a happy successful life.

 

And just be happy with it already,

‘cus this baby is what life is all about.

 

This is living the dream.

This is success.

 

F-cking crazy as all hell is’nt it?

I mean when I write it out  like that,

unless you are blind, dumb and stupid,

then you have to admit that anyone who actually thinks or feels this way is NEVER going to be thriving,

going to experience success or empowerment,

never going to feel confident.

Most likely only be used and hurt frequently,

will have a crappy backbone,

will not know themselves or anyone else for that matter,

and will simply not ever touch happiness.

 

So what is the answer?

 

Get a f-cking THRONE-TOOD!

 

There I said it.

It is high time that you started to value yourself.

Claiming your life, ‘calling in your blessings,

being a conscious co-creator,

manifesting a life that is full of wonder, love and success,

REQUIRES YOU TO PUT YOUR CROWN ON.

 

 

As long as you keep disrespecting God’s glory and power and not allowing his power and will to move through your life,

then you will keep falling prey to this stinking thinking love.

 

As long as you keep believing that God wants you to walk looking down at the ground,

tripping in misery over all that you have lost and ignoring the joy that your life could be,

then you will never feel the wonder of walking with you head held high,

your eyes meeting others in unconditional love and acceptance,

or the witnessing of the miracles that happen daily,

IN YOUR LIFE.

 

As long as you keep being available for scarcity,

and never picking up that crown that God has handed you,

then you will continue to suffer by your own hand.

 

And you will forever remain a slave to the enemy known as fear.

 

Oh, beautiful, don’t you see the path that you are too walk.

Can you not feel the call in your soul?

 

Now in our world we need more than ever before for you to RISE UP….

SPEAK UP…

LIGHT UP….

 

But that means that you have to accept that many who choose to remain in darkness and pain will be disgusted by your choice.

 

They will call you names,

they will hate on you and shame you,

they will want to tear you down in any way they can,

and they will make you doubt your path.

 

It will require you to have courage,

to love yourself more than you thought possible and to walk in FAITH.

 

And if you choose to step away from the many who still remain in fear,

if you choose to instead embrace your power,

and the love that the universe/God has for you,

then your life will be one of bliss and glory.

 

And THAT…

THAT is what we are each to do.

That is how we celebrate life,

honor God,

and THRIVE.

 

Are you ready, love?

Are you ready to finally say F-ck Yes! to yourself and your dreams and stop making excuses and sharing the thousands of reasons as to why you cannot do/be/have?

But instead just step firmly in faith on this path before you that is calling you?

 

Are you ready to stop giving your power just lip service but acting in faith on it?

 

I can tell you that many people say they are light workers,

they claim to be abundant,

they proclaim their faith,

and they say they believe in magic and miracles,

they even proudly state that they get manifesting and that they are powerful manifestors….

 

and they are.

For sure.

 

But, if you are struggling,

if you are suffering,

if you are feeling lost, tired and lonely…

 

Then baby, you are not really claiming your crown.

If you are not happy, (truly)

then you still have not figured it out,

and it YOU that this is written for.

It is you that need to KNOW YOUR WORTH.

 

It’s time to pick that crown up and have a THRONE-TOOD….

Because the life that you want for DEMANDS IT!

 

So Get One.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

Ready to step forward and say yes to your crown love?

Ready to stop being available for suffering, pain and misfortune?

 

Let’s speak today about no more reasons and excuses,

and get that crown picked up and put where it rightfully goes.

 

Message for deet’s.

Looking For A Reason To Just F-cking Be You? Here is the Answer Luv.

I absolutely HATE being controlled.
I dislike having to seek approval from another to just f-cking be me.

You know what I mean?

How do you feel about that?
Needing validation from another to be/do/have the things in your life that you just want.
That you enjoy.
That makes your life yours.
That make you,
you?

But this is how we live out our lives.
We run around seeking for validation,
which is just another way of saying that we are asking for others permission to live our life,
or to be us.

And that has ALWAYS seemed a bit crazy to me.
10 year old Kendal, did not want to do this.
16 year old Kendal, certainly did not want to do this,
to the point that I found away to get homeschooled when homeschool was not a thing.
20 year old Kendal, figuring out the adulting thing did not enjoy this and quit her job because of this.
34 year old Kendal hated it so much that she left her husband for it.
And today,
well yeah… that shiz just don’t fly.

I still hate being controlled,
if you want me to do something,
control me in the opposite and I am sure to move the direction away from the control ( unless I see the manipulation and that is a totally different story),
But in truth what I dislike is not so much the control, but having to do what I don’t want to do.

I do not like having to do things that do not feel good to me for where I am at RIGHT NOW.

If it feels good and in alignment,
THEN SIGN ME THE F-CK UP!

If not then know I will change directions on you so quick your head will spin.
And I have been guilty of this all my life.
I have been called naive,
I have been told that I am flighty and flaky,
that I have commitment issues,
that I am lost.

The reality is far simpler than any of these options,
the truth is, I know, like I have always known that if I am not a F-ck Yes! to it then why do it.
And I change gears based on my authentic yes or no to something.

Sometimes that means that I cancel things.
Sometimes that means that I say I am going to get something done and then I do something else.
Sometimes it means that I have to own where I am at that I simply am no longer in alignment to whatever it was that I had agreed too.

And I get that the world does not like it when people operate on these sort of guidelines that I do.,
I understand that it goes compleletly against what we are taught.

But it works.
And for those of us out there that are self learners and thinkers,
that know beyond a doubt that our feelings and thoughts are what create our reality, that are not average and ordinary,
well guess what?

This is often what you will get.

What is often perceived as:

*IRRESPONSIBLE
*IRRATIONAL
*CHAOTIC
*NIEVE
*FLIGHTY
*FLAKY
*COMMITMENT ISSUES
*ATTITUDE
*SELFISH

Because we get that what makes us feel good,
that living according to our souls calling and being fully in alignment to that,
is ALL the F-ck that matters.

We get that being selfish is where it is at.
Because selfishness is not evil,
What is evil is living in fear and scarcity.
That is not of God.

We understand that yes it takes courage to live like this, because the world has not been raised to handle our kind,
the world focused on the sheeple mentality,
the mentality of keeping you in fear and scarcity.
On the concept that you are to put EVERYONE before you and that some effing way THIS will bring you joy, happiness and all your heart desires,
But don’t you ask for anything because that’s wrong.
Think of others ALWAYS first.

Drain yourself.
Take from self until you have nothing more to give.
Until your vessel is so empty you are lost.

This is what you are here for.

And that is all wrong I tell you.

God does not want you living in fear and scarcity.
God wants you to be wanting.
It is in your wanting that the universe expands and evolves,
it is through you that we all grow.

And if you fall prey to the concept that living your life based on the permission of someone else is what you are to do,
that validating yourself through the ideas, beliefs and desires of another is what you are here for,
to be servant to them and cast yourself aside,
then well baby you are simply wrong.

You can never fill another’s glass from your empty pitcher.

This means you MUST approach life from a more selfish manner and learn how to take care of you.

You say that you want to manifest all this abundance,
the love and connection,
the freedom and opportunities,
you say that you want to be able to make a massive impact on the world,
to touch lives,
to help others heal,
or to lead the people in your life to a happy way of being.

Well then you gotta quit on this concept of living from the permission of others.

You will NEVER know your own worthiness or value if you rely on somelese to tell it to you.

If you are looking for the pat on the head from another to tell you that you are on the right path or doing good,
needing that validation,
then you will forever fall for whatever someone else deems acceptable for your life.

Sad but true.

Cuz’ you see baby,
it’s all up to you loving you enough to stop the crazy concept that you need validated and permission for being you.

You were born worthy luv.
You were.
But you gotta accept that.
And it starts with you knowing that by doing all the damn things that you keep doing that you hate,
that makes you feel like shit about yourself,
that makes you fear,
that causes you separation from your truth,
is the culprit to the suffering and void that you feel.

You must start living according to you.
For you.

And no one else.

You see when you feel those negative emotions,
you know,
shame
guilt
anger
jealousy
bitterness
fear
loss
confusion
prejudice
blame
suffering

those emotions are ONLY there to tell you one MF thing.

YOU ARE NOT IN YOUR TRUTH.
YOU ARE NOT LIVING ACCORDING TO YOUR SOUL.
YOU ARE OUT OF ALIGNMENT WITH GOD.

These are not you and they are not for you,
that is why you are feeling like shit baby.

But you have to start interpreting these emotions correctly in order to navigate yourself the right direction.

You must realize that you are here to want and desire.
You are here to love.
You are here to experience.
You are here to connect.
You are here to share.
You are here to BE YOU.

And if you can get this point, ‘then you join the 0.01% of the world that gets it.

You join those of us who are THRIVING and LIVING as intended.

And if you continue to choose otherwise,
but expect different results,
well let’s just say that, that might be kind of silly, right?

Because as long as you keep doing your stinking thinking and needing someone else to validate your existence for you then you will remain unhappy and lost and most likely not very successful in many subject areas of your life.

And I don’t want that for you.
I believe you are worthy.
That we all are worthy.

And that God wants you to THRIVE.

But you have to believe it too.
And want it.
And have the COURAGE to claim it.

SAY AMEN OR YES IN THE COMMENTS IF YOU WANT TO CLAIM THAT LIFE OF YES FOR YOU NOW.

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Let’s get you saying yes to you once and for all .
You can have it.
You can.
Message me for deet’s on my coaching opportunities available worldwide now.

Watch: HUSTLE ENERGY! This is where the MAGIC is.

THIS IS HOW YOU MOVE THE MOUNTAINS IN YOUR LIFE.

YOU ARE NEVER CALLED TO DO SOMETHING THAT YOU ARE NOT READY TO DO!

 

That’s right luv,

I am speaking to you.

 

You say that you are feeling called to make that change.

You know the change….

That DAMN THING in your life that is NOT “fine.”

That you are not happy with,

that has been causing you remorse for so long,

and you just cannot seem to change it.

 

You say that you are WILLING and motivated to make the change,

that you know that if you do not do something now then life will just continue to be the same and that you are not good with that.

 

You say that you are sick and tired of being sick and tired.

That this shiz has got to stop!

 

But is that true luv?

 

Is it?

 

 

Let’s be real…..

 

All this claiming.

All this believing that you are actually wanting it.

All this knowing that now is the effing time.

And yet….

 

What do you do?

 

Make excuses. Want it to be handed to you on a silver plate without you having to actually step the f-ck up and claim it?

 

Really?

 

Are you being for real right now, luv?

Cuz’ that is sheer crazy thinking.

 

ANd so what do you believe?

What do you tell yourself?

 

“It must not be the right time.”

“If it were the right time then everything would just fall into place. I would not have to show up like this for it. I would not have to make that commitment to my calling like that.”

 

Well luv,

that is nothing but utter bullshiz right there.

 

The thing sthat you feel the most called too,

will show up for you in the perfect time.

However the perfect time does not mean that you won’t have to show up and commit yourself to them in some fashion that WILL TEST your desire.

 

Test your courage and your faith.

 

If you want to move the mountains in your life then you are going to have to do the DAMN THING that you feel challenged by to get them to move,

you are going to have to commit your energy, your time, your money, your focus to them.

 

And you are going to feel a tug and a push.

You are going to doubt if its possible,

if you can do it or if the time or situation is right.

You are going to question a hell of a lot of things luv.

 

But those of us who have done the DAMN THING,

KNOW….

 

we KNOW that if you are feeling called to do something then

IT IS TIME to act on it without reservation or hesitation.

 

That is your SOUL knocking and guiding you to your desired life and dreams.

 

It has certainty that you can do it and that the path is set before you.

You may not be able to see it from where you stand right now,

but the path is there and everything that you need to accomplish your dreams,

that f-ck yes life that you want for….

 

it’s all right there waiting for you to COMMIT yourself to taking that step toward it.

 

But as long as you choose the reasons and excuses as to why you cannot take that step,

then all you will ever succeed at is having what you have.

 

So get use to the world that you are living in baby,

cuz’ it won’t change till you take action and commit to making it happen.

To do the damn work.

To step out in faith and lean toward what you are feeling called toward.

 

This is your moment luv.

You are so worthy of that life,

that love,

the success and money,

the health that you desire and feel called toward.

It is there waiting on you to say YES to it.

 

 

So what are you going to do?

 

Say yes to the reasons and excuses or yes to the life that you want?

 

 

It’s decision time.

 

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

 

Ready to take that step luv?

Let me guide you through the simple process of saying YES to your SOUL based life.  Message me for deet’s on coaching today.

YOU WILL NEVER HAVE THE RESOURCES IF YOU DON’T COMMIT!

YOU WILL NEVER HAVE THE RESOURCES IF YOU DON’T COMMIT!

 

This is the simple truth.

We are given the opportunity, repeatedly to commit to things that can forever change our lives and worlds for the better,

but in order to achieve the results that we desire,

we MUST COMMIT.

 

Commitment will push you to go past the point that you feel you can stretch.

 

Commitment will often cause you to feel nervous about saying yes to your dreams and desires, because you fear failure.

 

Commitment will cause you to know your truth to greater levels,

because until you actually commit the DAMN THING that you want so badly for,

you will forever feel empty around it.

 

Because you see,

the biggest gift that our commitment offers each of us,

is GROWTH.

 

COMMITMENT = EXPANSION

 

Expansion is what you are here for.

It is your SOUL calling you could say.

The universe/God lives and breathes,

expands through YOU.

 

By you expanding yourself,

pushing yourself to do what you are called to do from deep within, you honor life.

You honor God.

 

And you know what is even more important to understand about commitment?

 

You will never be called to do something you are not ready to do.

 

But you will be asked to step up,

to level up your vibe to meet it.

Because what you want for requires YOU to expand more into your power,

into your trust of the universe.

 

And you will never exercise your trust in the universe/God by

arguing for your limitations.

 

As long as you say that you:

👉Have no time.

👉Don’t have the funds.

👉Don’t have the energy.

👉Are unsupported by family, partner, friends, etc.

👉Dependant on others thoughts about whatever IT is…

 

You are spitting in the eye of life.

You are disrespecting your desires, your soul, God.

Because honey, that THING that you want for,

it wants you too,

but it is outside of the low vibe that you are currently residing in,

it is asking you to step into your truth,

into your worthiness,

into trusting your resources.

 

I know how scary it can be to say yes to what you are called for. I get that feeling at the pit of your stomach,

when something comes up and you get a tug from your core followed up with fear that you can’t have/do it or possibly even worse you eff up your whole world by “committing” and then realize that you OVERCOMMITTED.

 

And of course all the people in your life who know about all the stuff in your life,

they will only be ever so quick to support that you overcommitted, and that will only make you feel sicker to your tummy,

right?

 

So you are right….

WHY THE F-CK BOTHER?

 

Just keep waiting till the right time comes around for you to commit.  I mean surely if you keep waiting and fighting for your limitations,

SOMEDAY….. yes someday, the right time to commit to you will happen.

 

But just not TODAY….

 

Because of (fill in the stupid blank reason here.)

 

Do you feel better honey?

Does it feel better to get permission to give up on your dreams for the time being and to keep struggling the way that you are,

but hey, check out that list of limitations you got there…

 

They are some mighty fine reasons as to WHY you cannot say YES TO YOU NOW.

 

And those reasons, they are not going anywhere.

That I do promise you.

Those reasons, logical as they may be, will always be there because you are focused on holding on to them no matter what,

say WTF?

 

Yeah you are honey.

You are holding on with dear life because you are speaking about them loud and clear, ‘telling everyone about them,

painting those tales,

looking for where they are at any given moment,

fearful of them never going away,

or it taking too long for life to change,

so that you can ……

 

FINALLY SAY YES TO YOUR DESIRED LIFE.

 

LOL….

Good luck with that.

 

Every soul who ever achieved their dreams,

who ever felt a calling and felt that tug of fear that came with it but SUCCEEDED at making it happen….

 

Said F-ck the FEAR!

F-ck the OPINIONS of others.

F-ck my LIMITATIONS.

 

I AM DOING IT ANYWAY.

 

I believe in ME.

I believe in God.

I believe in the UNIVERSE.

 

I trust that this is here because I AM READY TO SAY YES TO IT NOW.

 

And everyone else,

well they are still fighting for their limitations,

and getting by in their struggles.

They are where they are,

hopeful maybe,

but not THRIVING.

 

The time is now love.

Say YES.

Say YES TO YOU.

 

No matter your background,

no matter your race,

no matter your religion,

no matter how much money you have in the bank or debt you have,

no matter your sex,

no matter your relationship status,

no matter your health,

or age…..

 

 

YOU ARE WORTHY.

WE ARE A CHOSEN PEOPLE.

 

All of US.

HUMANS.

 

YOU.

ME.

 

We are in a time in our world that WE need to realize this.

More than ever before.

 

With all my love today and always to YOU my fellow HUMAN.

YOU ARE WORTHY OF SAYING YES TO YOUR DREAMS.

 

And As Always,

 

 

Stop Existing & Start Living

 

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

 

 

Let’s do this!

 

You and me,

 

this summer.

 

Break free from your shiz once and for all and fall in love with the dynamic, powerhouse that YOU are.

 

No one is like you.

 

And you have a life worth sharing,

 

worth enjoying.

 

You have one life love.

 

One.

 

Let’s make it a F-ck Yes! One NOW.

 

Message me for deet’s on how to do this.

Speak Up Your Life.

Speak Your Vibe Up!
Speak it,
yell it,
talk about it.
You speak things into existence.
So be effing conscious of what you are manifesting.
The last few days I have been working with a bunch of people,
beautiful souls each and every one of them,
intelligent, courageous, strong, passionate, spiritual, loving people.
This is my tribe.
These are my clients.
And I am so proud of where each of them are and how they keep witnessing themselves and loving themselves into greatness.
However, the last few weeks there is a running theme.
And the theme is shitty talking,
I mean trash talk. Not smut talk, not crazy sexual talk,
but sheer trash thoughts that don’t make them feel good about life or self.
I see them getting caught up in loops of pain and suffering,
using terms such as,
“I can’t.”
“I tried.”
“I am stuck.”
And so many others.
These words are speaking them down.
Down in vibration.
Down in thought.
Down in emotion.
Down in movement and growth,
healing.
My response typically lands me a middle finger response or a “F – You!” as they don’t enjoy being told to STOP IT.
It’s not that easy to just STOP IT.
Beacuse these words are so natural and they are clarity based on relaity. There is passion around these words of “I can’t and I tried.”
It is a natural statement and feels so authentic.
But I want to bring you into a different reality,
the reality that if you are going through something similar as my client shere and feel like you are struggling, that you have been working your butt off but barely making it, that you have tried and tried and tried, but life just keeps showing you pain and struggle,
that you can change it.
You can speak up your vibration.
You can focus your words into creating a different reality for you to observe.
So instead of saying “I can’t”
Try saying “OMG! this _______________ is so amazing. It is the most magnificent thing.”
Skip the I can and go straight to the creation of what you are wanting.
For instance….
Say you are making $50,000 a year but you want to make more. You are putting in the time and effort but you are not seeing any change in income yet,
instead of saying,
” I am trying to figure out a way to make extra money to offset things but nothing seems to be popping for me.”
Say…(to yourself outloud in the mirror)
“I am so excited, I just made an extra $500 this week!”
“I am earning $75,000) this year, it’s magnificent.”
When we use words such as magnificent, fantastic, wonderful, beautiful, incredible they carry with them a higher vibration. We instantly change our energy.
But what is more important to realize here is that our words,
all of them CREATE.
They are the nails, the boards and the glue of our lives manifestations. From our words we build what our life experience is. And this is why so many people are struggling with their health, wealth and relationships.
Just yesterday I was speaking with a beautiful young woman that I am currently working with and I shared with her that when I turned 30 years old everyone around me told me how it was all downhill from here. That I was going to feel the age, I was going to gain weight and could not lose it, that I would start to get sick more and end up on medications and that I was now old.
I laughed about that and said, “That’s not my reality. My 30’s are going to be magnificent. Playful, healthy and strong.” I told myself how beautiful I was and how great I felt.
And guess what, it was so.
When I turned 40 I heard all the same shiz.
Except people told me that I was lucky that it did not happen in my 30’s, but now….
now it was for sure going to happen.
I was on the back side of my life.
And here I am at 44, mother to seven, and I feel great.
I get told all the time I don’t look my age,
I have vitality.
I take no medications.
And I still speak up my vibration to,
“That’s not my reality.”
I keep speaking my reality to what I want and I speak it daily in my thoughts,
to myself in the mirror,
I allow myself to act youthful,
I play,
I enjoy adventures,
I enjoy life.
And so it is that my life experience corresponds to what I am speaking into existence.
So many folks do the opposite though and they grow old and sickly just because they believe that when they hit a certain number of age that that’s the way it is supposed to be and they speak their lives down.
This is true with any subject area of our lives.
We can speak it up or we can speak it down.
So if you are one of the naysayers to your life and you are speaking about how you can’t, or how you are struggling,
how life is hard, how much pain you are in, how much crap keeps happening to you,
then all I can say is….
STOP IT!
Stop creating your misery.
Life is not doing anything to you that you are not asking for.
That you are not speaking into your experience.
And the more you play those negative records on replay,
the more you emotionalize the fear and pain, the struggle and drama,
and believe that its normal,
that its just the way it is because of your age, your income status, your sex, your country or religion,
the more you create with certainty.
It does not have to be that way though.
You can SPEAK UP YOUR VIBRATION,
thus the things that attract into your life expereince.
But you have to be willing to take responsibility for what you are saying to self and to everyone you come into conversation with.
You must watch your words.
They have power.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Want to learn how to Speak Up Your Vibe to Manifest the Life that You Really want to be living?
Message me on deet’s for my 1:1 coaching opportunities now.

I Am Unavailable for That and You Should Be Too.

Driving to Corpus Christie for Mothers Day weekend and as I sit here a passenger in my own car,
looking out the window at the fields and rolling hills of southern Texas,
cars passing by,
children chit chatting and humming in the back seat,
spouts of laughter with an occasional,
“Stop it! Don’t touch me.”
I realize that I am simply unavailable for not living my life the way I desire.

So much so, that I have created a new belief structure around what is my normal.

Even in the midst of a world pandemic,
My world remains unrocked.
My home is happy, stable and full of life.
There is laughter, joy, deep connection and adventure in each day.
We plan for the day and for our future.
We laugh and delight in the little moments together,
Never allowing space for just existing or getting by.

I was looking through pictures that I have taken over the last 90 days and it shows a life lived.
It shows many lives lived and enjoyed.

And I realize I am not available for just getting by, nor are my children or my man.

No, this idea that our lives must go on hold for a pandemic, for stay at home laws, masks, and at the base of it all for fear,
It does not stand in my life,
In my world or family.
Because at my core I have become unavailable for anything less than what feels good and in my life flow.

It was not always this way though,
Not all that long ago I was still available for chaos, for scarcity and even the belief that I must sacrifice myself to get by.

Before that I believed that life was a struggle,
That money was hard to come by,
That stability was something you long for but would never be,
That marriage, relationship was blah and that was normal,
That sex was non-orgasmic and that what I wanted did not matter. My words were never heard, my heart never felt, and that this was just normal.

I believed that I was an option,
And an option that I could never choose.

I believed that happiness was an option,
And one that I could never choose.

I believed that stability was an option,
And wealth was too,
But I could never choose these options because life was against me.

Life dictated my outcomes,
And it seemed like the harder I tried to achieve them, the more distant they became.

I believed that I had not suffered enough or proven myself enough, to have these luxuries.

And so it was,
Because back then…
I was so very available to all that I did not want.

I was available to making things an option,
And making them an option that I could not choose.

Life experiences and the people in my world supported this belief.

I never had to look far to see the evidence that what I thought was true,
Was.

But today…
Today this belief does not hold water.

Today I know different.
Today the evidence reveals something different,
Because that truth of before changed.

And I was the alchemist who changed it.

I did it by simply becoming unavailable to the things that I did not enjoy or want.

I did it by not making myself,
Or money, or happiness a choice.

They became mandatory.
They became what was natural and normal to my life.

I chose differently.
I went against my grain,
That, that I was taught.

I decided to create my own truth.
Can you believe that?

How ridiculous.
I chose my own truth.
I decided to stop buying into what this world wanted me to believe,
I decided to not let others ideas, beliefs, fears, perceptions define my truth.

And when I took back my truth,
And chose to not make myself or my happiness an option any longer,
My world changed and with it my life experiences that provided me the evidence that I was worthy without sacrificing my soul,
Without the need to suffer.

Yeah crazy I know.
But true.

And the even crazier thing is it truly happened over night almost.
My life results shifted instantly.

So I ask you today,
What are you available too?
And what are you unavailable too?

Perhaps these things need to flip flop so you can start living your truth,
Your happiness.

But what do I know?
It’s just my reality and I believe it could be yours too.

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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Say It With Me! Commitment Is Everything.

OMFG!

So there I was leg up on the lip of my shower,

shaving the back of my thigh,

hot water washing down my back,

irritating me because it was washing out my conditioner prematurely,

when it came to me.

 

I figured out why I have a resistance to love.

Not just to love,

but to allowing myself to fall deeply,

penetratively in love with my man,

with my life,

with ME.

 

I was flabbergasted at my realization. 🤦‍♀️

 

How could I be so silly to not have caught this before.

Perhaps I was just unwilling to see it.

Perhaps I was not ready to fully let go.

Perhaps a whole lot of shit to be frank about it,

and the reality is simple.

 

I,

Me,

have been holding myself back from the feelings and experiences that I have desired for the last two plus years almost.

 

Crazy as it sounds.

It is true.

And thanks to my shower today and now nicely shaved legs,

I was blessed with the ability to change it.

Because you see you cannot change something until you awaken to the fact that it needs changed in the first place.

Which is why life is the way that it is.

Sure we get ample opportunity to see what needs to happen,

we feel it at our cores often,

but we humans tend to disregard anything that is not smack dab in our faces presenting a challenge.

AKA a PROBLEM.

 

Which is why we create problems for ourselves.

We need them to expand.

To grow and to create the life that we are called to live.

 

Problems allow us to witness what needs attention,

what needs improvement,

change.

 

And often they rise up from our “feelings”

yes those nasty things that we are told to not pay much attention too because they will misguide us.

But the reality is that our feelings are there to guide us.

They are there to tell us when we are not in alignment to our souls path.

 

And that causes us pain.

Of some sort.

 

So what do we do?

We get into a sticky painful situation,

and we COMMIT to change our evil ways.

We commit to work harder.

Work smarter.

To not trust so easily.

To take better care of our bodies and our hearts.

We commit to trying harder.

And the list goes on.

 

And don’t get me wrong, commitments make our realities.

 

However, the trick is knowing what you committed to and if the commitment is in alignment with your soul’s desire.

 

You see, this commitment that I made about two and half years ago, was not ultimately in alignment with my heart or soul. It was a commitment made out of pain.

Intense pain, my heart was breaking and I was scared and angry at this for happening. I was not understanding why it was happening or how this could even be. And in my suffering I stated to the person who I blamed with great emotional attachment,

” I will NEVER love again.”

I went on to tell him that I would never trust a man again or surrender the way I had with him, that if this is what it got me then it was too big a price to pay and I was committing to not not allow myself to get hurt again at this level.

 

You may think that those were just words,

that I could just ignore and carry on.

That someone awesome could turn around and walk into my life and change my commitment.

 

And perhaps,

perhaps that might be so.

 

But it has not been so for me.

Instead my other commitments to myself that I wrote down prior to this one above, started to knock heads with this commitment and even though I had manifested a wonderful man into my world,

not just any man BTW,

but a man that I scripted out in my journal and who has 75% of my list of desires in a man,

yeah… not bad for a day’s worth of journaling work.

 

Yeah, not even he could break through this commitment to love.

And so, it has been that the last two years I have consistently kept myself “safe from love” not allowing myself to feel what I have wanted to feel fully and getting repeatedly upset with the world and my life and soul because of it but not catching the root of my issue.

 

MY COMMITMENT.

 

This morning as I thought about it,

and as life would have it all week long,

I have had plenty of opportunity to read through old journal entries as I clean up areas of my home.

 

My soul most certainly is on a mission to CONFIRM to me that I am really great at holding commitment to myself.

Especially commitments made with strong emotional attachment.

 

A few years back,

when I was struggling financially to get over the $100k a year mark in my practice, I committed to myself and wrote it faithfully for months on end in my journal that,

 

“I commit to make no less than $95,000 a year from this moment forward.”

 

That year I made $146k.

And I have not looked back since.

 

I also wrote,

” I commit to having my schedule booking out 4 months in advance.”

 

And it still remains so that my schedule is booking 4 to 6 month in advance.

 

” I commit to being recognized on TV.”

 

And shortly thereafter, was called by Lifetime TV to work on an episode of Married at First Sight.

 

My list of commitments is long.

My list of emotionally supported commitments is long.

Some emotions however, support my soul’s desires.

And some do not.

 

My shower realization is that although commitments are thought to be a good thing,

and they most certainly do mean the world.

That what we as individuals need to understand,

is the true power of our words.

 

Of our commitments to self.

And what we say in passion sticks with us and sometimes can get buried under our day to day lives and thoughts.

 

Sometimes these commitments we carry for a lifetime,

and they can be the root cause to us not thriving no matter how hard we work,

to not feeling love, no matter how hard we love,

to not feeling safe,

no matter how hard we try and make ourselves trust.

 

Commitments make our realities.

Let’s start being conscious of them,

and changing the ones that no longer serve.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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Here Is Why You Are Not Receiving Your Blessings.

 

Blessings are abound my love,

but you refuse to see them.

 

Your life is expanding,

your fortune is growing,

your soul is speaking to you and guiding you with each breath that you take,

but you my love,

ignore and choose to focus on things of past that do not matter.

You choose to pull forth your fears instead of your blessings and desires.

Why my love?

Why do you insist on living a saga instead of a dream?

Why do you choose to suffer and rage,

to fear and struggle instead just simply letting go of all of those things that you were caught up in yesterday and last month or year,

and instead firmly step into what you want and who you truly are?

 

You question and huff why good things happen to everyone else and not to you,

you fixate on life being hard.

And ignore the blessings and abundance,

the quick manifestation,

the miracles that just seem to happen each day,

you ask for help and it is always there,

always showing up for you and never being acknowledged,

yet you say how important gratitude is to you,

you say that you are awakened,

you say that you are doing your best,

you say so much,

but what you are doing much of is fearing life.

 

And that, that you fear will continue to scare you.

You give it reason,

you give it purpose and strength.

You give it life my love.

And no one on this planet can ever help you out of this drama that you so eagerly keep yourself in.

 

The excuses and reasons,

the finger pointing.

The blame and bitterness,

it is nothing more than resistance to your blessings.

To your worthiness and an ignoring of the glory that is all about you.

 

Today.

And Always.

 

But you turn away.

You close your eyes,

just as you may choose to disregard this message and blame the economy,

the government,

the world crisis,

your health or another human.

you may blame your broken heart,

or your upbringing,

but all of that blame,

yes all of it,

is your resistance to your birth right of worthiness and well being.

 

You were not born to struggle.

You were not born to fear.

You were not born to live in such drama and pain.

 

Wellbeing is who you are.

Wellbeing is what life’s all about,

It is the natural flow of our lives as abundance in all things that we love, and bringing us joy are part of the natural tides of our lives.

 

So why do you resist your nature my love?

Why do you desire so to not live the glory that God wants for you and offers each moment?

Why do you keep fighting for your lack?

 

When all you ever need to do is say yes to your blessings.

Yes to you.

yes to everything that is always being offered to best support and love  you now.

 

Get out of your past failures and fears,

step away from the pain and know that you can put it down,

put your attention on what you want.

Bring your heart into alignment with joy.

Into alignment with love.

And let yourself triumph over the fear of yesterday.

 

You are a king.

You are a queen.

You are the creator of your day.

 

Today.

And Always.

 

So say goodbye to reasons and excuses.

Claim your life now,

the way that it has always been intended.

 

Say Yes — To YOU!

 

And As Always,

 

Stop Existing & Start Living

 

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Life Circumstances Getting To You? Here is what to realize.

The grass is always greener where you choose to water it.

 

This statement came up on my Facebook memories from 2009.

 

I read it and smiled.

It was not just a smile to acknowledge a good and accurate statement, but a smile to my deepest self to say,

“You even got it back then.”

 

And because of this understanding back in 2009,

when my life was completely opposite of what it is today,

I created the circumstances that I am now living.

 

And I did so consciously.

I did so on purpose.

 

Prior to 2009 however I was consistently teetering back and forth in my ability to create my circumstances.

I was still playing the blame game and finding great reasons as to why my life was the way it was.

I was still feeling as though life was uncertain and consistently liked to change it up on me.

I found myself asking, “Can I just catch a break already?”

 

Not embracing my worthiness to live the life that was being called forth from deep within me.

Not realizing that I did not have to react to the circumstances that were all about me and get caught up in their mess,

because the circumstances that I was reacting too,

were only there to show me what I had been focused on in days gone by.

You see I had created those circumstances too.

I was choosing to look at the money that I did not have.

I was choosing to look at my hardships and my pain.

I was choosing to wake up each morning and ponder why life was so effing difficult and questioned its purpose even.

I was the one who was holding myself in this way of living.

I was the one who was holding myself in my suffering.

 

But something happened in 2009.

It was spectacular and at the same time miniscule.

 

I woke up!

 

Now I am not saying that my eyes opened up and I realized it was daytime so I got to work.

No I woke up to what I had always known,

but kept forgetting and kept allowing everything and everyone else to get in the way of.

I woke up and realized that my life was moving forward with or without my attention to it.

My life was happening.

I could try and push pause all day long,

I could sit and have deep debates and contemplate the what ifs and shoulds and woulds.

But none of that mattered.

I could sit and shame and guilt myself for everything I had done wrong or where I could have done better,

and I could really sink into all of that suffering and regret,

but my life….

 

my life was still moving along.

It had no care if I was caught on those items or not.

It was just going.

And with it, my opportunity to LIVE was going as well.

 

I looked out over the span of all the years that I had struggling and harping on myself and others to try and get things to go the way I wanted.  I looked at what I was doing with myself each day, at the seeds I was planting and the care I was giving them.

 

And what I discovered was that I was a great seed planter.

I had big and loft dreams for abundance in all good things.

I wanted the castle in the sky and the knight in shining armour to boot. I wanted the health, the joy, the connection.

I wanted it all for self and for my loved ones and I wanted to leave my mark on this planet.

I wanted to touch people’s lives in a positive way.

And I looked to soil to plant in,

I found it often.

Opportunity was around every corner.

And I was great at having hope in it.

I was good at tilling the dirt and planting the seeds.

Doing what was required to build that life that I wanted.

And knew I could have.

 

But you know what I discovered that I sucked at?

Watering.

 

I forgot to water my grass.

Consistently I would get side tracked by the weeds in my life.

And without realizing it I would start to water them.

I would wake up each morning thinking and worrying about the weeds,

I would talk about the weeds all day and share my opinions about them with others,

I would point them out and get everyone else’s thoughts about my weeds,

and I would go to sleep stressed and anxious over the damn weeds,

and do it all over again the next day.

 

This was me watering the weeds.

And forgetting all about my grass,

Yet if someone had asked me if I was tending to the grass and my garden, I would have confidently assured them that I was.

Because I was making sure that those weeds were being dealt with, I knew I had a great opportunity in this and I knew what I wanted to achieve and there was no effing way that I was going to let those damn weeds mess up what I was working on,

However sadly, everytime the weeds took over and my garden failed and I suffered. I was hungry and broke. I was lost and worn out. I was exhausted from all these weeds that mother nature just kept tossing my way, and even though I was a believer that these weeds were trying to teach me a lesson, that I was to grasp delayed gratification, that I had to have patience and that hard work would get me there,

I questioned just how long and how much paying the price I would have to do and if I could withstand it,

or if I was going to just be broken from the whole thing?

 

Well in 2009, I realized what the lesson of the weeds was.

 

They were there not trying to build my stamina,

not trying to get me through all the hurdles and teach me a plethora of lessons so I could be my best,

it was not about paying some price or proving myself or even earning it,

The weeds were there because I was feeding them.

I was focusing on them with more passion and care then what I was giving to my dreams.

 

And you know what I chose to do?

 

Yep you guessed it.

I changed my focus.

I took my attention and I started to apply that same passion and consistent time toward what I wanted.

I started creating opportunities to sit and ponder the joyous moments, the laughter and happiness.

I started to look at how awesome my kids and family were,

I allowed myself to get caught up in health and fitness,

I allowed myself to date, to enjoy sex and to fall in love.

I allowed myself to explore me.

And I appreciated all the goodness and abundance that started to flow in.

 

Now I was watering my grass and garden.

And mother nature did a really cool thing once I started doing this,

mother nature expanded my garden,

my grass started taking over more land,

it called for more and more of my attention because it was no longer a small plot of land in my life, it was now everywhere.

And flowers were blooming that I had only dreamt of.

 

I had created new circumstances.

And I am living those circumstances today,

at this moment.

 

Now there are plenty of weeds for me to look at if I choose,

but I am choosing to water my garden and grass instead and in turn I consistently keep reaping a plentiful harvest in all areas of life.

 

I chose to LIVE.

I chose to CREATE.

I chose to not be reactive but instead to know my power and worthiness and plant more of what I want each day.

 

My question to you sweet reader is simple…

 

 

Are you being reactive to circumstances or are you creating them?

 

Weeds or Grass,

Where is your focus?

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers

 

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Show Me Your World & I Will Show You Where Your Attention Is Focused.

Show me the money!
Show me your love!
Show me your attention….
 
Yes,
show me your attention.
Because the money and the love,
they will come or they will go,
based on where your attention is.
 
You can claim all damn day long that you are dreaming about the positives.
You can say that you love this and that about your life or your partner,
you can say,
“But, Kendal, I AM – REALLY- I am looking at all my blessings.”
 
And I will look at you and smile.
Because the reality is just such,
if your world is not what you want it to be in love or money,
or any other subject for that matter,
then the ONLY reason that it is not…
 
Is because you BABY,
are looking for the evidence that those things are not there instead of living as though they already are.
 
This is the hardest concept for us humans to get.
We set our goals,
we feel our desires,
we hunger and thirst for them,
we search, chase and keep our head down to the ground working our bumbs off to make it happen.
And we consistently look for our good efforts to reap the rewards that we want.
 
We consistently,
dig those seeds that we are planting up and ask of them,
 
“WHY have you little seed I planted just this morning, foresaken me? Why have you not sprouted?”
 
And this is the issue that we have with goals and dreams.
We keep digging them up.
We keep unearthing them and not having patience for them to sprout.
Something inside of us makes us believe that if we keep looking at what has not sprouted that it will magically make it sprout,
and not just sprout….
 
No it will magically go from seed to full grown tree bearing a whole crop of all the fruit that we hunger for.
 
And when it does not…
we get ill spirited and frustrated,
we go into victim mode.
We point to the lack of sprouting and proclaim,
“You see…. the evidence always shows me the same thing. No sprouts.”
 
And so we support our self-sabotagging beliefs of lack of worthiness, and love. We support the ideas that we cannot have and that we are just not good enough.
 
We tell ourselves,
we are looking at what we want in the positive.
That we are counting our blessings,
showing our gratitude and not having expectations or a need to control how we gain what we desire.
 
Yes, we tell ourselves all of this and more.
But our outside world shows the TRUTH.
 
I ask and encourage you today beautiful,
to take a moment to get REAL,
real with self.
Real with where your true attention is.
Because I promise you that God does not make unworthy things,
it is our powerful ability to create anything that we focus on.
And if you desire to speak into reality a life that is full of magic, love and money,
then speak it baby.
But speak it with the intent,
the words,
and the feeling that it is,
and stop your ill concepts of looking for it to not be there.
 
Watch your words my love.
Watch your actions and your feelings about that,
that you desire so.
 
Show me your world and I will show you where your attention is focused.
 
 
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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