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April 2, 2020April 2, 2020

Vehicular Assault In The Bedroom – Is It Acceptable?

A man is out with his buddies after a long day at the office. They stop into a local pub to have a drink or two and shoot the shit. A few hours go by, they root for the sports team, throw about some “F” bombs, share about the days and the stupid people at work. The man starts to feel tired so decides it’s time to head home to his family.

On his drive home he gets more exhausted and his eyes are heavy. The couple of drinks although they don’t significant impact him are not making things any better right now.

He comes up to an intersection and does not slow down in time, thinking there is not really traffic at this hour and is not overly concerned about running a stop sign in his quiet neighborhood.

Unfortunately, as he roles through the stop sign he hits a pedestrian.

He did not see this person out walking and somehow completely missed their presence on the curb as they stepped off the curb to cross the road.

The man is later charged with vehicular assault. He has his driver’s license taken from him, serves time in jail and pays a hefty fine. He has this mark on his record for some time to come.

Is this right?

Does he deserve to have his whole life tipped upside down over an accident. He was not drunk. He was not speeding. He was not deliberately trying to harm another human.

Yet his life is upside down from this event.

Seriously now, ponder this.

Does he deserve to be punished as the law states?

If he had killed this pedestrian his punishment would have been worse.

Now if you are like most people,

you may say,

“Yes he deserves the punishment.”

–>He was being clumsy and not responsible in his actions.

–>He should have not had as much to drink as he did, stopped sooner, ate some food to offset his alcohol.

–>He should have just gone home in the first place since he was tired.

–>He knew his state of being and should have worked harder at being more present while driving.

–>He knew the streets in his neighborhood well, he knew that the stop sign was there, so he should have stopped.

–> Etc. Etc.

You may also think it brutal that his whole world get’s halted and goes into chaos from the accident, thinking that may be a little harsh BUT, it was ultimately his fault. His mistake and look at what he did to the pedestrian and their life? Can they function fully? Do they need surgery? What came of their life?

Now let’s look at the this same man,

same tail,

He is out to the pub with his buddies, he gets tired and he decides to go home to his loving family. He goes home with no issues. His children greet him on their way to bed, his wife has saved him dinner in the microwave and kisses him hello.

She inquires about his day and he says it was okay, just a bunch of stupid people to deal with as usual.

They settle into watching a TV show and news.

All seems happy and normal.

They go to bed and the man snuggles up behind his wife rubbing her hip and butt a little. He kisses her softly on the neck a couple times. He slips his hand down between her legs from behind to touch her pussy. Tapps it softly with his fingers. Brings his hand back up, spits in his hand and rubs his spit on her vulva that is exposed from this position. He is hard and ready, she is laying on her side holding her breath. She knows what is coming and even though she does not want it, she says nothing. Hoping that maybe he won’t. Maybe he will see that she is not interested.

He rubs the spit around a bit more, grabs his erection and without word sticks it into her. He is on his knees, holding her hip down to hold her on her side. He is forceful, fast and deep in his penetration. He is moaning in pleasure and giving primal earthy groans as he fucks her. She does not move. He continues until he cums.

He lays down behind her, kisses her on the cheek and says,

” I love you. Good night.”

She stays still as he drifts off to sleep and starts to snore.

When he is snoring, she gets up and goes to the bathroom.

His cum is dripping out of her.

She sits to pee.

As she pee’s her vulva and labia burn from the friction of the sex that her body was not ready for.

Her gut hurts from the anxiety and pain of going through this.

And tears stream down her cheeks as she softly sobbs, hoping no one will hear her, hoping that she can just make it through the night and next day.

The morning comes,

the sun rises.

her husband is rested and ready for his work day.

He grabs coffee and breakfast,

kisses the kids and her goodbye,

wishes them all a good day and tells her that he loves her.

She gets the kids ready and out the door for school,

darts to the shower where she washes herself diligently because she feels so filthy and disgusting. She weeps as the whole event and every event before it no matter from her husband or another man plays in her head like some morbid cruel reality show. She gets out of the shower, telling herself its time to put the game face on. She has a family that needs her and work to get done. No time for this pity party and after all he is her husband and he is a man and it just is the way it is. After all, he loves her. He is a good provider, a good father.

She has nothing to want for.

But she wants.

She wants for the pain to go away.

She wants to feel loved, not used.

She wants to not feel the anxiety around going to bed every night or waking up in the morning to the same event.

She wants for him to see that what he is doing is not okay.

That her world internally is upside down and she is slowly falling apart.

–>Her work life is stressful.

–>She cannot stay focused.

–>Her physical body is always sick and hurting.

–>Her hormones are out of balance.

–>She is exhausted physically and emotionally.

–>She is irritable.

–>She cries for what seems like no reason randomly.

–>She has no real interest in life.

–>She appears to be depressed.

–>She gained a bunch of weight.

–>She is drinking more and popping pills to sleep, to wake up, to keep her going and keep her mood somewhat stabilized.

Now I want you to ponder this scenario.

What comes up for you?

Is this acceptable?

Is it okay that her world is upside down and that she is living in this state?

Is it ok that her husband just continues on like this?

I mean after all,

–> He had a tough day at the office.

–> He was tired and most likely just did not realize what he was doing.

–> He had a few drinks so he was not fully aware and did not catch that she was not into it.

–>If she was into it she would have said something or pushed him away, right? So its her fault.

–>He needed the release to help him sleep, to help him destress.

–>Men need sex more than women.

–>Most women are never into it and are none orgasmic unless drunk so this is normal.

–> She just needs to get over it, its not that big of a deal, its just a little sex.

–> He does everything for her, there is no question of his love.

–>Its not like he physically broke her or tried to kill her. He did not hit her with a car.

–> His actions were not on purpose. His intent was not to harm, he thought she was okay with it.

So that makes his actions of flipping her life upside down acceptable?

But if he hits a pedestrian then he should have been more present,

he should have paid more attention and known where he was at and what the dangers were.

He hit a pedestrian and now they cannot function clearly, they are in pain, they are emotionally messed up, their home and work life are in shambles.

So for that yes, he needs to be punished for harming another human even though it was not on purpose.

Really?

I want you today to sit with these tales.

I want you to go deep inside yourself and ask yourself why one is okay and the other is not?

I want you to ask yourself why excuses and lack of understanding and presence should be easily forgiven or not even considered when we speak about raping a partner but it is different for other events?

And then I want you to realize that 74% of married/coupled women go through this weekly or monthly.

And if you are a man who is married or coupled with a woman I want you to examine your choices and get real.

Stop accepting excuses from self and others.

The damage caused from moments like this is not small and most of the time cannot be repaired fully. This sort of event tears apart the foundations of love and trust.

And if you think differently then you are a fool.

It’s time to wake up men.

It’s time to stop being blind to your haphazard self centered ways and its time to actually love your woman.

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers.”

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April 1, 2020April 1, 2020

Ignorance Is Not Permission

Most men cannot fathom what sex is like for a woman in any possible fashion.

The link between the emotional,

the mental and the physical is not something a man typically can understand to the depths of the feminine.

It is truly a rare masculine who obtains this sort of awareness and understanding and then adhears to it.

Most men are boys in their sexing,

allowing ignorance to rule thier love making and haphazardly moving forward in it.

Unfortunately this style of relating to the feminine only ends in the cause of severe trauma to the female and frustration and shut down to both parties.

In sexing it is often assumed that sex is just sex.

And it most certainly can be.

That is why one night stands can be fantastic,

we can walk into a sexual encounter,

being open, playful and wanting to simply have fun and a good orgasm. Typically both parties are very present in these moments and the ego nature of us humans being have us wanting to show what we can do, so we make sure to leave a promising memory with this person to that we feel proud about when they look back at this memory they will still carry a “Wow, that lover was great!” vibe.

Unfortunately we don’t bring this same sort of concept into our long term relationships.

Here we focus more on what commitment means to us and how we can best get our needs met over all.

Accepting mediocre connection time, intimacy and sex until it wears one or both parties out and empties the relationship of all the glue that was holding it together.

The allowance of mediocre sexing and intimacy in our relationships is the succumbing to hopelessness and thus the enabling of blind trauma to occur.

How is this possible if both parties seemingly agree to have the mediocre sexing though?

A few things are happening:

1) Most women do not know how to ask for what they need in sex and have ton’s of shame wrapped up around sex in general, believing that it is mostly for the man and his pleasure as well as a frustration to their own pleasure because it “takes too long” for her to achieve any result.

2) Most women will test their men, as the feminine does to see how present the man is and how much he really wants to give to her or how much she means to him so will not communicate what is needed because she wants and needs his penatrative inquiry.

3) If a woman has shared her needs and desires with a man, she is now looking for him to make the appropraite calibration and show that he was being present with her in his listening and has a desire to please her.

4) If mediocre sexing continues typically a woman will just give up. In her giving up she shuts down her sex even more as well as her heart to her man. Her trust in him has been so far breached from his haphazord pushing forward and ignorant resisance to listening and applying what has been shared that she knows now that he is untrustworthy of holding her heart and love. So even though she may remain with him physically he slowly and often quiet quickly looses her heart forever.

5) Men focus on the number of thrusts and the speed they can move in sexing, thinking that changing position every 3 minutes is an ideal, when in fact a woman needs her lover to slow down, focus in on certain spots with attention and care not force and speed. If men were to treat a womans whole body as a sexual organ then he would be able to bring her attention to openning up sexually and ignite her sexual juices

6) Men typically get focused on the genitals, especailly their genitals and forget all about the females body. Ignoring what the body reactions are and even block out what the woman is saying during sex whether with her voice or with her hands and body language. This is where he becomes blind to her requests to stay in one place, to keep that rhythm, to give more or less. In the ignoring of what her body and voice are asking for he often without realization ends up either hurting her phsyically or leaving her hanging on the brink of orgasm with no release causing female blue balls and over a time frame sexual shut down which leads to emotional distancing and hormone disturbance.

7) Women often tell their man that they would never say no to him sexually. On the front side of a relationship this is stated in playfulness and is meant full heartedly. But the woman is also most likely getting fed orgasm by her man as well. Once the tides turn and she is no longer being cared for sexually, she may adhear to this statement but every time a man assumes that it is okay to just push for sex in this way he is causing physical/emotional and mental trauma to his female partner.

8) If your woman is not having real orgasms, not just a few clitorial ones, but real deep G-spot or cervical orgasms blended with the clitorial ones then it is pretty simple to assume that at some point she will start to feel like a masturbation tool for you, and that she does not matter to you as a person or as your woman. Every sexual encounter will turn into a rape trauma for her no matter how great it felt for you as the man. The more this happens, the deeper she will burry herself from you to protect her heart. No amount of flowers, trips, gifts or sweet “I love you’s and you are world to me.” will matter, because the evidence of how much she really matters shows between the sheets in your sexing.

So what is the solution?

How can Mr. Fix It – fix it?

Listen to your woman.

–>Inquire with the questions that your ego is scared to ask.

–>Don’t accept the answer,

“I am fine, we are fine/good.” – “Our sex is good.”

If you think your woman is having an orgasm in sex, question what orgasm really is and what it looks and feels like when you are with her.

–>Read my article – 90 Days Without Orgasm https://www.tantrictransformation.com/90-days-of-no-orgasm-say-what/

and pay attention to the list of 29 things that happen to women when they don’t have reeal orgasm in their life, if your woman has these things or just some of them, do the reeality check with yourself as to what the truth is no matter what she says to save your delicate ego, ( because yes, all of us women believe that men cannot handle the truth in this department and that if we tell them the truth then love will be retracted from us or that our man will become distant or anger, guilt or shame us and that its just better an easier if we go along without sharing the truth.)

–> Slow down in the bedroom.

–> Make love to her vulva and breasts first.

–> Always, always, always get permission for sex!

–> Make sure she cums first and if possible multiple times.

–> Be present with her whole body not just what face she is making, her face can lie to you.

–> Listen to her requests and do as directed.

–> Don’t make everything about the sex. You woman needs communication, connection and your time and presence outside of sexing as well.

–> Check your ego FREQUENTLY.

–> Stop accepting average and ordinary sexing in your life and relationship.

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

Want to learn more about female sexuality and how to achieve deep connective states of being with a woman? Want to learn the secrets of superiour love making and relating? Reach out to me for individual or couples coaching now. It is a perfect time to save your relationship and reignite the passion. I work with people globally.

March 31, 2020

How Prince Charming Looses His Charm.

Alright gents,

here is a little musing that you need to read if you have a lady love or you ever want to be in a relationship with a woman and keep it sizzeling.

Relationships on the front side can be so playful, adventurous, passionate, hot, caring, supportive and can make you feel like the other person “just get’s you.”

This is how we start.

In the beginning we are focused on discovery of each other,

we are focused on courting and sharing.

We are facinated by this person that has walked into our lives and we find ourselves being deeply vulnerable and open with them.

It’s beautiful.

And we feel like this is love.

In fact it is NRE – new relationship energy.

After a period of time however, this NRE starts to dwindle.

It dies down and we start to meet the real person,

which can be nice but it can also shed some light on all that we had not noticed and that we don’t align too as well.

On top of that, with the NRE dwindling down so does the sexual chemistry.

What was once a hot turned on relationship with ton’s of playful sex and intimacy,

can quickly turn the corner to boring and dull,

effortless friction based sexing.

Then unfortunatley,

both parties allow for this to happen,

making excuses along the way for why it is,

“Work has been exhuasting.”

“I am just tired all the time.”

“Kids and family.”

“We just can’t find the time to squeeze out anymore.”

And with the excuses years pass.

As time goes on,

and connective turned on sex becomes less and less of a thing, the bonding chemicals between the couple become depleted. If one partner is still getting orgasm while the other is not (typically this shows up as the man having an orgasm and the woman going months or even years without) then bittnerness and frustration start to form.

If we look at the typical relationship out there,

what ends up happening is that the sex becomes what is referred to as ABC Sex – Anniversary, Birthday and Christmas. And for some “lucky gents” they get it once or twice a month. Believing that this is just how relationship is to be, that this is couplehood, its normal, its natural.

And that the relationship is still doing good.

But what they may not understand is the subtle change in personality in their female partner.

The once bubbly, playful, connective, confident woman who could light up a room is now sour to life, irritable, moody, depressed, tired, sick and insecure.

Again excuses get made.

“Its money worries.”

“Its exhaustion over the kids.”

“Its her age.”

“Its this disease that she has.”

“Its her work stress.”

And with this sublte personality change your lady love goes from looking at you as her prince charming to viewing you as her keeper, her controller, her boss, her child, an irritation in her life.

She is quick to attack,

she is easy to offend,

she is critical and judgemental.

She is tired and frustrated.

She does not want to be touched.

She does not want to play and gets irritated at your play.

She no longer see’s the humor in things.

She burries herself in her work or in the home or a TV show or book.

And when she is sexing with you…

she either fakes it or goes limp without much response.

But you are happy and you are grateful.

You got yours my sweet prince.

The sex was amazing,

maybe not the best you have had,

but some sort of sex is better then no sex,

and she is such a doll for taking care of you.

But with each giving of herself,

she empties her very soul,

she dims her light,

to keep the peace.

As she awaits for her knight to awaken and see that she needs saving.

And with each thrust that you provide,

you fall futher and further off your horse.

Your charm is no longer seen,

for the pain of her emptiness is all she can feel.

So if you desire to not loose your charm with your lady love,

then take heed to this musing,

and realize that the true knight in shining armor will conconquer the nights of empty sexing by applying his focus to making sure that she cums first and cums a few times,

by not accepting her willingness to just give herself up for your pleasure alone, will not support the trauma of her emotions or body with a lack of depth in presence or orgasm.

A true prince charming understands that in order for him to succeed at winning and keeping his ladies heart that he MUST educate himself on the ways of the feminine.

And not deny them or ignore.

So if you claim to love your woman,

then take on the mission of filling her up with orgasm.

Deep.

Connective.

Multiple.

Rich.

Orgasm.

Will you take on the mission of your woman’s pleasure and joy?

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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February 26, 2020February 26, 2020

Compassion, Gratitude + Vagus Nerve: The Components to Your Mind, Body, Soul Connection

Do you ever have a moment in your life where you find your heart swelling with gratitude and love?

Where you are sitting in a state of awe over how effing blessed you are?

Do you ever just find yourself in tears to the magic that this life has to offer?

I have this frequently.
Just this morning my alarm went off a little after 5-AM.
I stretched, drank some water, went to the bathroom.
I came back to bed, snuggled under my furry blanket and wrapped myself up in my satin sheets.
My hand rested beside me and I felt my lovers erection,
he was sleeping, but his member was awake.

I smiled from within,
as I had a hunger to connect with him.

And so we made sweet love.
Wispers of pleasure,
my body was happy to receive him.
I joked that he needed to get going and shower, and get out the door to work,
but that I first demanded that he take care of me as I grabbed him.

The moment was playful,
it was loving and primal.
It was most of all connective,
and more so connective for me to embody myself then to even connect with him.

I found myself needing him to touch me,
needing him to bring me back to my breath,
needing ME to get present in my own flesh,
with my emotions,
and out of my head.

And this moment blessed me with just that.

Afterward, we kissed and he got me my morning coffee.
I sat in bed, breathed deep into my womb and relaxed my chest.
I found myself feeling so much gratitude for my life,
for him,
for the opportunities that I have,
I was grateful for the messes that I need to clean up today,
my home that needs tidied for a 3-day event happening in it this coming weekend,
for my children,
their laughter and joy.
I opened up my facebook and I scrolled through pictures and events that happened over the last eight weeks.
I looked at the travel, the birthdays, the dinners, the family and friends,
the laughter,
the authentic smiles,
the connection.

I saw the blessings and felt JOY.
I felt INSPIRED to focus on just that and keep manifesting more of what feels so good.
I felt PEACE for where I am,
and EXCITEMENT for the path before me.
I felt GRATITUDE for being in my body and the messages that my SOUL shares through my body.
and I felt COMPASSION for self,
and UNDERSTANDING that I am just human.

This is how we create.
This is how we manifest our lives.
We grow and we manifest through being EMBODIED.
But so often we do not fathom what embodiment means,
let along how to achieve it.
We hide in our heads,
where the clutter and chaos of our fears and worries drown out our truth.
We run from our bodies,
and our emotions,
in belief that they will mislead us,
that they are weak and not to be listened too.

Yet as our world evolves,
science is pointing back to what we call spiritualism,
that crazy mystic shiz,
and it is revealing that thier is so much to the
MIND< BODY<SOUL connection.
That in order for us to truly live to our full capasity and expereince maximum well-being that we MUST embody ourselves and not exclude any aspect of this triad.

It is our ability to connect the dots of this three parts that enable us to be the alchemists of our lives.

When we are lost,
when we are full of anxiety,
our pathway of communication between
MIND<BODY<SOUL is disrupted.
Making it it virtually impossible to make correct life choices for ourselves.
We hinder our selves through disassociation to the body and the emotions.
This disassociation causes us to have life happen to us,
verses us creating the life that we want.

In today’s world there are new sciences being created to study just this MIND<BODY<SOUL connection and the pathways that create the communication needed to achieve our full capacity.

The medical field of bioelectronics was formulated just for this sole purpose.

And in it’s study,
the pathway of the Vagus nerve is a focus.
This is just what I speak of today,
and how I have intuitively created my F-ck Yes! Lifestyle.
Through a consistent practicec of activaing, and paying attention to this communication freeway.
Listening to its messages from SOUL to Body, to mind and acting from this KNOWING space.

You can do the same.
SImple steps and unederstanding,
following the guidance of vagus nerve coaching and practices to live your best life.

Simple.

It really is.
And YOU can expereince the rewards.

Breathe.
Slow down.
Meditate.
Conscious Focus on Appreciation and Compassion.
Letting go of Control Based Thinking.
Becoming Body Present.

These are the steps.
Ready?

Get activated now.
And THRIVE.

How do you support your MIND<BODY<SOUL Connection?

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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February 24, 2020

I Would Do ANything For Love! – But, I Won’t Do THAT.

I would do anything for love!

But, I won’t do THAT.

Just like the song,

so our relationships unwind.

We have these THINGS in relationship that we refuse to do,

and some with good reason,

some because they are personal boundaries,

some because it is totally self-sacrificial to do and will only create far worse repercussions than saying, “No.”

Relationships are most certainly not about one partner always caving to the other.

It is not about always getting what you want.

Relationships are not about even making you feel happy, safe or comfortable.

Love just an FYI, is not about comfort.

Or getting what we want.

It is about getting what we need.

And when we think about what we need,

it is not that we “need” the other person to act, do, be some specific way for us.

No the “need” that relationship provides, is the support for us to expand and grow into who we truly are as souls.

Therefore, often us getting what we need will feel like a challenge in the relationship.

It will feel uncomfortable.

It will feel testing, scary even and we will feel pushed to breathe into events and moments with our partner.

We will be asked to face our internal structures and inquire,

“Is this true?”

Is this really how I feel or am I living according to societal structures that have been put on me?

Am I leaning into my fear right now? or am I truly coming from my truth?

Love is testing.

Love will require us to have courage.

To have blind faith.

To open the door to trust.

And to evolve our beliefs.

So often though, we address love differently.

We tell our beloveds that we are:

👉Unconditional in our love – when in fact it is built on conditions.

👉That we would do “ANYTHING” for them – when in fact that means anything within my comfort box only, ask me to push myself a little into uncharted waters, well forget about that, I won’t do it.

👉That we want for their happiness no matter the cost – when in fact we require that happiness to fit into the picture that we have painted instead of holding space for what our partner actually needs

👉That we want them to grow, to be empowered, feel safe – when in fact yet again we only want this IF it is how we perceive that to be, NOT PUSHING US OUT OF COMFORT.

👉That we want to support them, help them achieve their dreams and become so much – when in fact even though that sounds great and groovy, we are not willing or understanding that if our partner chooses to grow and be all that, that it will require us as well to step in and do the same if we desire to keep the relationship. If one partner grows and the other does not, then the relationship WILL end.

👉That we want them to heal – I love this one. Over almost two decades I have sat with thousands of couples who proclaim how they desire their partner to heal. How they just want the best life for them, for them to not live in the emotional/psychological and event physical pain/trauma anymore. But when faced with the road it will require to get their partner there, they instead choose to shame, guilt, even abandon and divorce. Proclaiming that they can’t do that. They cannot support that sort of healing and there has to be some other way.

Many years ago,

I had a lovely couple come to me.

I will never forget their consultation…

The man sat there,

so wild eyed and excited about the possibilities that laid before them as a couple.

He spoke of his desire to support his wife to become empowered,

to tap into her feminine energy again as their polarities were out of whack and she was more the man then he,

he excitedly shared how he wanted deep intimacy with her,

how he wanted to have connective sex again,

and have her into it.

He wanted her to have less stress in life and with family and that he wanted the opportunity to support her here as well,

he wanted her to have passion for life,

purpose in something she loved,

and of course he wanted her to be the sexual goddess that he knew was in there.

They signed up for my couple’s coaching and so the process began to “fix” his wife….lol

No such thing as fixing your partner people.

There is only unveiling and that is something only they can do for themselves.

The coaching process is about offering tools and guidance to achieve and support someone in their efforts to rebirth themselves.

That’s all.

No fixing.

Anyway, they became my clients and we started doing the deep awakening work to help them and her get the results that they wanted.

Fast forward 18 months,

I met with the couple and she was now glowing, radiant and happy, laughing and so full of life.

Where once I looked into eyes that were lost, empty and on the cusp of death of soul, with no ability to answer clearly anything or speak her truth,

now sat a woman on fire for life.

I looked at him,

He was still bubbly and happy in appearance.

He was still supporting her,

but he too was different.

He had, had an awakening of his own.

and was still in his desire to assist his beloved to heal and grow,

to come out of her shell, ‘to see her own worth and radiate the beauty that she had,

that he had to take on the mission to become the man that could hold that space for her.

Meaning he had to rebirth himself as well.

He had to face his inner demons head on,

and get real with the fact that he was not good often with what it was being required of him and them to get her to where she was going.

I watched this couple struggle for three years with this birthing process.

They came close a few times to divorce and throwing the towel in.

He weeped to me in session repeatedly about how he just could not support what she was doing.

He swore that it was not okay.

That if she loved him, that she would stop doing these things to him.

And yet, he saw her more radiant than ever before.

He saw her thriving.

But her thriving, (well what it took to get her there) went against almost EVERY cellular belief structure that this man had about life, relationship, marriage, men, women, love,and healing.

Now this couple is a success story,

he stuck it out.

She stuck it out.

They pushed through and each expanded, grew as individuals and challenged themselves to reprogram the beliefs that were holding them back in so many areas.

And today when I check up on them a decade or so later they are deeply in love, happy, connected and have gotten there because they chose LOVE.

They chose each other and they chose to not get stuck in the quicksand of old habits, fears and societal beliefs.

That being said,

This is not the case for most relationships proclaiming that they would do anything for love.

Most relationships are like the Meatloaf song.

They will do anything for love, but they won’t do THAT.

THAT thing that the song speaks of is different for all,

yet the same.

THAT is fear.

THAT is ego.

THAT is getting out of the box of comfort.

THAT is letting go of the concept that controlling our beloveds actions through our fear and not opening up to the possibilities of “What if, or maybe…”

Yes most relationships,

won’t do THAT.

Instead they will finger point,

blame and guilt, shame and play victim.

They will turn things around and say,

“But if YOU loved me then you would not need to do/be/act that way.”

They refuse to let go of past,

they refuse to compromise,

they refuse to just love their partner and trust in them,

and in God/Universe.

Most relationships opt for supporting old patterns of sabotage and trauma.

Supporting their triggers around abandonment,

around need instead of love.

And they try to force their beloveds hand, heart and life back into that comfortable little box that feels so good.

The logical mind in these moments support with tons of evidence as to why you want to keep that box,

it tells us why the growth,

The change is so dangerous.

And so the mission of saving self,

saving themselves from a feeling of discomfort,

turns into war with partner,

guilting and often separation.

My question to you today sweet reader,

is if you would do anything for love,

and you fear that by doing THAT thing that causes your heart to feel like it may stop beating if you do,

but your beloved is asking it of you so they can become full again, healed, and who they really are, so they can find their truth,

if THAT thing in your mind is going to kill the relationship,

but you saying “NO I won’t do that for love” will certainly kill the relationship, or you would rather opt for the death of relationship then doing THAT thing…

Then why not,

I mean let’s just go out on a limb here today….

Why not at least DO THAT THING and see where it takes you?

Worst case scenario is that you land where you were willing to go anyway.

Call me crazy,

but if you truly love and not need the person and the relationship,

then you have nothing to lose and everything to gain in exploring this life a bit and expanding yourself and your relationship through the support of your beloved.

What would you do for love?

As Always,

stop Existing & Start living

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February 23, 2020

A Letter To My Mr. Forever.

A Letter To My Mr. Forever:

I already know who you are,

you have come to me in a dream long ago.

I have sampled our life together,

through relationships of the past.

I have felt your soft touch upon my skin,

the tickle of your finger tips as they profess their love,

I have felt your breath against my flesh,

breathing in the moments together.

I have felt your force,

your strength and determination,

your passion and hunger.

As you devour me with life itself.

I have watched you my love,

your heart expanding,

your kindness, compassion and fiercness.

I have laughed and danced with you.

Loving each twirl that you lead.

I have embraced the moments of powerful emotion,

sitting in your lap,

our hearts beating as one,

eye’s gazing into forever,

tears steaming from our blended joy.

I have felt you penetrate me,

holding me deep commanding my surrender to your presence.

I have witnessed the magic,

and felt it move through my veins in our loving of our flesh,

the loving that trandscends,

both time and space.

I have heard you sing to me,

eternal love songs,

smiling with your ocean eye’s,

and letting me know that I am your queen.

I have shuddered from your touch,

and pushed myself past boundaries I never knew existed.

I have explored raptures that only few will ever know.

I have witnessed the depth of your soul,

and felt the elation of my own,

united with yours.

Becoming one.

I have been blessed to feel the presence of heaven and of God,

in our union.

The scent of fresh roses wafting about the room,

as if manifest from thin air.

I have felt the magnitude of your love.

I see the man that you are,

and because I see you so clearly,

and feel you so deep,

I know the woman that you demand me to become.

And I am not yet your woman,

I am not yet the one for you.

I hold you close and yet at arms length,

because I know.

I know who I must become,

not for you my love,

but for myself.

You demand of me to become ALL of me.

You call me from the future,

reminding me of the woman that I truly am.

You lead me now,

in the moments that my heart awakens,

that my body explores,

you guide me with your patience,

and smile from afar.

I see you watching me.

Yours eye’s following my moves.

I see your pleasure in your witnessing of my birth,

waiting.

Waiting for me to relaize.

And this my love,

shows the man that you are.

You will never cave or be something that you are not.

You will never step out of your superiour masculine energy to beg me, or taunt me, or lead me to believe it is our time yet,

when it is not.

You get the value of trust and what it takes to have it truly with another.

You are not fearful of your desires,

you embrace them as you will one day embrace me.

You penetrate this world with purpose, passion, play and confidence,

and you wait to take my heart, body and soul in the same measure.

I can feel you here and now.

Your presence grows closer by the day,

and I foretaste of your love in my current.

I am in gratitude for the man that awaits me,

the man that holds me,

the man that guides from time and space.

I am coming.

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This musing goes out to all the ladies in waiting,

whether you be single or coupled in current,

if you are lacking or looking,

if you cannot find “the one” and wonder,

where is that man of my dreams?

If you are with a love, but it s not true,

you feel lost still to your core,

and you have tasted of the love that you desire,

this musing is for you.

Love my beautiful,

is for the expanding not the shutting down.

Love is for the healing and the recognizing,

not the wounding and the masking,

Love elevates not deflates.

Love holds your truth,

and smiles as you discover it.

Love does not fear loosing,

because it knows it has everything you need.

Love watches your dance,

embraces your play and your fear,

Love knows who you are,

and guides you just to that.

Love does not control.

Love does not run.

Love does not waiver.

And this my beautiful,

is who is calling you from the future.

This is your Mr. Forever.

But first my dear,

you must recognize,

the Queen that YOU ARE.

To unit with this sort of love,

the demand is for you to receive YOURSELF,

in all your emotion,

all your joy,

all your fear,

all your beauty,

seen and unseen.

You MUST be ready my beautiful,

to become the match for this man.

Go.

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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February 22, 2020

Why Women Don’t Trust Men.

Tears that cannot be seen are still tears felt.

Often I meet people in some of the most difficult spaces of their lives.

They come to me in thier wounding,

in their fear,

in their bitterness and revenge.

Trauma masks them from their truth.

They are lost.

And with thier lostness they have comfort.

It is this way for anyone who has experienced pain.

And the pain much of the time is rooted in our thoughts of ego,

which continues to trap us in a nasty loop of past fears, thoughts, feelings and expereinces.

Due to this loop we feel comfort, but we never feel fulfilled or happy as well.

Abandonment is one of the the major culprits to this pain.

To these tears that are unseen.

Abandonment happens when we least expect it too, does it not?

Last night I was having a discussion with a close friend about this very topic. We sat over a bottle of guava rum and had some deep dives into vulnerable shares around relationships and how we could each see a pattern in our past relationships with men. The men that touched us in such a power way, the one’s who openned our hearts, expanded our thinking and taught us incredible lessons about our lives and who we are as women.

I sat there and shared about the four past relationships that I find most significant and that I can say that three of them I was deeply and still am today even (if I am real with you and I in this moment) in love with. These men awakened the woman that I am today. And I am ever grateful for them blessing my life as they had.

All four of these relationships, professed their undying love for me.

They all asked me to marry.

They all went deep into my heart and soul and penetrated me like no other. Each built on the one before,

taking me into new relams of love.

Oh the stories I could share, and have in other musings.

These four men,

they changed my world forever and taught me to love.

They also crushed me in ways that I am sure none of them ever intended of.

Their words of, ” I will fight for you.” – ” I love you unconditionally and want nothing more than your happiness.” – “I can see forever with you.” – “I would NEVER do anything to hurt you.” – You are my world.”

Yes, these words as if from a storybook romance,

so lovely, so enticing.

So real for the moment they were spoken,

were the words that also crushed me after a period of time.

These words became poison and what they all loved – me,

they tried to kill in their own way by severing through retraction, removal, disposal and even physically action down the road of our relationship.

Now, here is the thing I want you to get from this musing:

Was there pain? yes.

Is there still pain? In moments, yes.

But I am more in gratitude than pain at this point, some of these relationship I speak of were from 20 years past even.

Some just a few years back.

It is the lessons, the patterns that I see and want to share with you today.

All four men chose to say good bye.

All four shared this pattern in that good bye,

the pattern of not speaking their integrity.

They chose to hide from me,

from thier hearts truth.

They chose to lie to my face day in and day out,

even when I inquired directly about what I was feeling from them.

They chose to run and hide instead of face me and say goodbye with clarity and heart.

They chose to abandon.

And this lack of integrity,

caused unfinished business between us,

and shame for them.

They supported my programs of:

” I am not good enough.”

“I am unlovable.”

” I am disposable like trash.”

“I am not worthy of true love or even truth.”

“I am not worthy to have someone fight for me.”

“I cannot trust men.”

“I am not safe.”

What I see often in my couples work with clients are all these programed statements and beliefs in women and the men not underestanding why she feels this way or what he has done to cause it.

I tell you sweet men of the world,

it is your lack of integrity.

When you do not stand in your truth to your core,

when you waiver,

when you hide like a little boy behind your mother’s skirts,