Random Naked Thoughts from the Key’s.

Today I visited Hemingway’s home here in Key West.
I love Hemingway’s work.
And after listening to the tour guide share tidbits from Hemingway’s history,
I can now understand why I love his writings.
The statement that rang so true and beared power with it was,
“He liked to write from experience. Hemingway was a man who craved adventure and went to find it. His stories come from those experiences.”
As I work with people,
and I move through my own life and just witness,
What I see often is the reverse of this for so many people.
Perhaps you know what I speak of.
So many people choose to not live.
Choose to not be part of THEIR own life in many ways.
Choose to not experience.
However, instead live their lives vicariously from a place separated from life.
They live watching others.
And they sit in judgment over these people that they sit and watch.
I have been around sports fans all my life,
my ex-husband is a HUMONGOUS football fan.
It’s hard to communicate with him during football season,
because NOTHING matters more than who is on the field and the decisions that they are making.
I have often wondered watching him,
sit in the living room or at a bar,
drinking, rooting, cussing and getting really upset at times over a penalty or a poor play,
what his fascination is in watching someone else play the game.
I mean I understand that they are talented.
I get that there is a world watching with him, and there may be money on the line,
but why just watch.
If you love the game so damn much,
Why won’t you go throw the ball with your kid?
Why don’t you want to play it yourself,
push your own edges,
make your own calls,
and feel the adrenaline of winning or losing.
Why just kick back and WATCH?
This Is not being an active participant in the thing you have so much passion and love for.
It would be like ( and I know that some actually choose this – no shame in it, you do you.) ….
It would be like you getting married to someone that you simply adore, love with everything but then have someone else step in and do the actual act of relationship for you.
So they have sex with your partner and you just watch,
never experience,
they raise your children,
you just watch never state your feelings about parenting and what is right and good or not,
they buy your house and choose the furniture,
they choose how the relationship with your husband/wife goes.
You just watch.
Never participate.
Never experience.
You get to witness it all,
but you never engage.
And then you say,
” I love being married. My partner is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. We are best friends. My kids are amazing. The sex is hot AF.”
Seriously?
Well we in truth actually do this to degrees.
We hire nannies.
We hire interior decorators.
We hire teachers.
We hire cleaners.
We may even activate a swingers lifestyle because we cannot fulfill in some ways and just request that our partner do everything in front of us,
so we can watch.
So we can see but not engage.
As we do with all the other areas.
And what are we doing in truth?
Not that any of the things that I shared above are bad,
so please don’t think I am saying that they are….
but that if we are doing these things to AVOID,
or to make it where we do not have to be responsible for…
then perhaps we need to question our WHY.
Perhaps it is time for us to ask ourselves,
Why are we so eager and comfortable to step out of our own life experiences?
What are we avoiding?
What are we shutting ourselves down for?
Fear.
Fear that we may get it wrong.
Fear that we could get hurt.
Fear that we may harm someone.
Fear that we may love and lose.
Fear of not being worthy of it.
SO much fear in living is what so many have,
and despite how much money is in the bank,
how big the house is,
how many cool cars you own,
you find yourself fearing connection and love.
The things that you crave so deeply for.
And you crave play and adventure.
You crave the feeling,
the true feeling of life moving through you in all it’s magical ways,
but you deny it daily.
You turn your back to it in the small things,
like football.
and you think nothing of it.
That is just a game,
everyone is watching it.
If you are a fan,
then THIS is what fans do.
They live through the players who are out on the court and playing…
LIVING.
And that is why the palyers get paid the BIG BUCKS.
So they can live.
Because you won’t.
Because you are f-cking terrified of living,
so you buy a jersey,
you upgrade your TV accounts to catch every game,
you go to the games and you get all the best tickets so that you can breathe it all in.
But when when it comes to you living your life,
and speaking from the space of actually experiencing life,
like Hemingway did…
well that is not for you.
That is for anyone but you.
And you look at those who have the balls to do it and you hunger to feel what they feel.
You love their sharing,
you love-hate that they are turned on to life and thriving,
but you still repeatedly say no to your dreams,
your desires,
your life that is asking you to live it.
And why?
Fear.
SO today as I bounce around Key West,
as I plan out the rest on my days here,
and all the really cool shit I have done and will continue to do,
as I look forward to my next adventure week after next and then again in two weeks and so on,
I sit back for a second in this moment and I feel compassion for you.
I feel a desire to impress on you that this is your life,
stop watching everyone else live why you sit back and make excuses as to why you cannot.
But what do I know right?
Life is not about you loving it and living,
life so I hear is about you listening to how to remain in a box and staying safe… HA! If that is a thing even. It is about you being responsible, because I guess if you are thriving that you are not responsible….
Not my experience.
But what some might say.
Share your thoughts if you dare.
Just mine as I sit here nude on my deck writing during an island thunder storm.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
Ready to start saying yes? Ready to activate your life and thrive? I sure wish you would say yes,
it would be cool to hang with you.
to share with you.
To walk this magical journey with you.
But the first step is the step of saying F-ck Fear!
Reach out to me if you dare to say yes to your dreams and want to know how you can accomplish them.

There Are Only Two Kinds Of People… Which Are You?

WTF Did you do over the weekend?

Did you live?

Did you THRIVE?

 

Each day we gain a new opportunity to do just these things.

And each day so many people choose to just get by.

To survive the day.

Does that sound fun to you?

 

“I am going to survive this day.”

 

What have you got going on?

“Nothin’ much.”

 

So you see luv,

if you desire to live that F-ck Yes Life,

then you have to flip the switch to living it….

cuz surviving your life is never going to happen,

and no moment is ever promised to us.

 

If you don’t choose to flip that switch to living the life of your dreams,

regardless of what your friends and family say or think,

no matter what is happening in our governments, economy, or what debates are up,

then you will simply NEVER,

let me repeat that for you….

 

NEVER have the life that you claim that you desire.

 

Matter of fact you may even find yourself among the many who sit back and dissect and analyze all those who are out there living.

 

You may discover yourself so far out of alignment with your truth and your worthiness that you get caught up being a judgy, critical and even upset about others lives, person.

About what they choose to do or not to do.

 

You may discover that you are caught in the drama and chaos of the world that is always around us,

falling prey to its life stealing ways,

believing that, that is what you are to focus on.

Never realizing that it’s sabotaging you from the gift that you were given from God….

 

YOUR LIFE TO LIVE.

 

And living is not about just getting through the day and paying your bills,

about appearing to do what is expected,

or about people pleasing to the degree that you have nothing left to give to yourself.

 

Living is not about you doing anything that someone else deems appropriate or right for you.

 

Did you get that luv?

 

Living IS NOT about you doing what someone else “thinks or believes” is right for you.

 

They are not living your life.

And if you believe that you are here to please and be liked by everyone else,

then you’re simply being silly.

 

This way of “wantabe living” will only land you in a depression, exhaustion, emptiness, lost, and feeling unworthy, unloved, and broken.

 

It may feel good to help others,

and don’t get me wrong,

It’s a damn good thing to be compassionate and helpful.

But, if you are being helpful to the point that you have lost your boundaries and value,

then you are not helping anymore.

You cannot help those around you when you yourself are empty.

 

And the way that you fill yourself is by LIVING.

Is by THRIVING.

 

The more you do this,

the more you have to give.

The more you can be compassionate and in love with all.

 

I am a firm believer that the reason there is so much anger, hatred and jealousy in our world,

is because we have been raised to believe that loving ourselves, giving to ourselves, taking care of self first makes us a bad person. However, we crave just that at our core.

And so we hate ourselves.

ANd when we feel this shitty about ourselves we have no space for love for someone else.

We have no tolerance for our differences,

no ability to agree that we can disagree and still remain friends or lovers.

 

You see it is impossible to see clearly the world around us, when we are not thriving.

 

Any point outside of thriving, (which BTW is exactly what your life was intended to be about, it’s your set point if you allow it),

 

Any point other than thriving is you viewing the world from your pain body. From your trauma, your fear, your ego, your need to control, because you cannot fathom letting go of the suffering.

 

Thriving is a foregin concept to the majority of the world.

To the point that we finger point, try and shame, hate on and dissect those that are doing it. It scares our ego’s.

Because thriving means that you fully accept yourself, love yourself and KNOW WHO YOU ARE. You also, get that you cannot control others, nor should you desire too, that’s not loving….

 

That you cannot give to the point of exhaustion and crossing your own boundaries.

 

You understand that the best you,

is the you that loves you.

And that you are not going to be a wonderful person to the majority, simply because you are not doing what they want you to do.

 

THRIVING my love is about you expanding horizons,

getting to know yourself and falling in love with that amazing soul who looks back at you in the mirror,

NO EFFING matters what anyone else says or thinks about you on this planet.

 

THRIVING is about you surrendering to your heart,

and enjoying your life to the fullest.

 

THRIVING is about you accessing your DESIRE and knowing that you can have it,

that what you desire, desires you as well.

 

THRIVING is about being in alignment to God/Universe.

 

There are only two kinds of people on this planet….

 

Those that are in alignment.

and….

Those that are not in alignment.

 

We are all both of these at times, the true question comes down to where to reside most of your life?

 

If you have no clue….

look at your world.

Let yourself get real with how you perceive this world,

your life,

how you truly feel about it.

Are you in love with your life?

or something other than?

 

It’s time to JUMP INTO THRIVING.

You are so worthy.

You are so ready.

 

Make the leap now and claim it for yourself.

The magic is all you baby.

 

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***Side note: This picture was taken yesterday during my first jump, such a thrilling experience that I aim to repeat in the near future ๐Ÿ™‚ but the weekend was loaded with adventure, from doing a ghost hunt in an 1845 jail, to exploring deep connection with my lover, staying in VRBO chicken coop, just because it sounded interesting, showering outside under the starry sky and more…No matter your life situation love, you can live an adventure, I know because I have done so. I have had to raise five children on $17k a year, I have been homeless and camped for months pretending that we were just having a summer adventure when in truth I could not afford a roof over our head or food, I have stood over the ER bed of my child who was in a sever accident and wondered if there were a God, I have been diagnosed with painful illnesses, been through miscarriages, years of depression, divorce, rape, physical violence that broke my body, and more…. and you know what? My spirit said, “LETS THRIVE! You are worthy.”

And today, my life is totally different. So different that people dislike and judge me for THRIVING and sharing it.

So much so different, that I think about something and it easily manifests in days. My life is now magical because I get that thriving is who I AM.

 

And you are too.

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As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

Ready to leap into a life that you love?

Lets connect and get you expanding and saying F-ck Yes! to your thriving life now.

It’s time you stop just getting by.

 

You are worth so much.

Message me for deet’s.

Is there “Life” in Your Years? Or Are You Just Shifting Paperwork?

Keeping it all together can be effing difficult,
can it not?
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2020 has started with a BIG BANG,
and not the kind that equates to eye’s rolling in the back of your head as you gasp for air and claw at sheets while calling out OMG! in a state of orgasm or ecstasy.
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The last ten days had been a roller coaster ride of emotions, events, must do’s, drama, hustle and a packed schedule plus a 23 hour road trip home from Tahoe to Dallas.
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But I would not change it for the world.
And from the looks of my calander I would say that things are not going to chill out any time in the near future either.
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Now I am a person who thrives in hustle and bustle.
I also thrive in calm and peace, with limited movement.
And I have learned that in order for me to be living at my maximum potential that I do best with a 70/30 split on these two.
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Life has not always been like this though,
a little over a decade ago, maybe 13 or 14 years back,
(and thank you Facebook for your memories that you share)
I had more of the nothing happening then the hustle and bustle of todays busy schedule and family. What I also had more of was toxic thinking,
limited acting on goals and desires,
a feeling of lostness and emptiness,
a not knowing of self,
and limited “happy” moments.
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Today, as I have been up since 5-AM and going strong,
I have been pondering this 70/30 balance of my current life and what it has to offer my desired dreams and lifestyle. What would I change? What do I crave more or less of?
Where am I not showing up the way that I want? Where am I allowing myself to be limited?
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I was reminded by a quote I posted 9 years ago by Abraham Lincoln, ” And in the end, itโ€™s not the years in your life that count. Itโ€™s the life in your years.”
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About the importance of remembering to LIVE.
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It’s not even about the hustle and bustle as I call it,
because we can get caught up in this hustle and bustle and busy work and “think” that it is living when in fact we are just shifting papers on the desk of life and getting no where in a hurry.
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Living is not about business.
Living is about breathing in the moments.
Feeling fulfilled, connected, happy, sad, orgasmic, empty, creative, adventurous.
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Living is about FEELING life move through you.
And when we are just shifting papers on our desk of life,
we are not living.
Sure we may have a clean home and our bills paid.
We may have three masters degrees and all the fancy electronic devices known to man.
But can you say you feel fullfilled?
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Most people cannot.
Most people feel lost and without life purpose.
Searching for the elusive thing called happiness.
And this is because they are not focusing on putting life into their years.
They are filling years with busy work.
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So what can you do to not expereince this empty hustle and bustle but instead put life into your years?
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You can start with these basic focal points:
๐Ÿ”ฅGet Clarity Into Who You Want To Be In Life-
Who do I want to become as a person, and what do I really want right now in my personal and professional life?
What areas of my lacking in and why?
Where do I feel certainty at in my life right now?
๐Ÿ”ฅGet Real About Your Energy Levels-
Do I have the physical stamina and vibrancy to accomplish my goals and feel energized about life every day?
What are major factors contributing to the way I feel?
๐Ÿ”ฅCheck In On Your Personal Courage –
Where am I stepping up and leaning in on my edge right now in life? Wheree am I backing down?
๐Ÿ”ฅGet Real About What Your Productivity Really Is-
Where am I getting sucked into distraction?
Where am I holding my focus and crushing it with my dreams, desires and goals?
How can I get better?
๐Ÿ”ฅWhat Does Your Impact/Influence Say About Your Life-
Do I have the level of influence/respect/intimacy that I need and want to accomplish my goals and dreams with my family, lover, friends, business co-workers/partners or anyone that I need for support to make my dreams/goals happen?
What areas of my life am I lacking influence/impact/respect/intimacy in that I need to accomplish my desired life?
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I don’t know about you,
but I want to CRUSH 2020.
I want to totally ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ’ƒ ROCK OUT the year!!!
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And in order to do that I know that my CERTAINTY and CLARITY in myself and my desired outcome needs to be formulated.
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That means that in reality,
there is no effing time for the busy work of shifting papers on my life desk.
There is ONLY time to focus on LIVING, EXPANDING and ENJOYING.
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And the successful one’s know this.
We get it.
You may wonder how we do it?
How do we balance and harmonize family, business, spiritual, health, travel, romance and all the other little shiz,
it’s simple….
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We focus on putting life into our years instead of getting caught up on the dust in the corners of the desk.
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We focus on being present, active and taking NO EXCUSES.
Especially from ourselves.
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We know what we want.
And we don’t just give it lip service.
We step the F-ck IN on our desires and MAKE THEM HAPPEN.
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I want your 2020 to be effing AMAZING too.
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๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‰Are you ready to make it a year full of living?๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‰
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As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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5 Seconds to Wake the F*ck Up!

โ˜€Sometimes waking up is so f*cking hard to do.โ˜€

Have you had one of those mornings where you just want to continue to hit snooze no matter whatย ๐Ÿ˜ดBut you know if you do that you will not get to adulting today and instead just be a lump in your bed or on the couch?ย ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆ๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿซ๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿ’ผ

Yeah that is where I was at this morning.ย 
The last f*cking thing I wanted to do was get up when my 5:45AM alarm went off. I woke up exhausted from not sleeping well due to my 3 year old son who had a rough night with an upset tummy and bad dreams.

All he wanted was to be held in mommies arms.
But that meant this mommy was not sleeping to well herself. Especially with the consistent up’s and downs.

At 5:45AM I was not thinking about being a good mom.
I was not thinking about my soul’s calling or purpose.
I was not thinking about my responsibilities, my desires, my goals.
I was not thinking about any of this.
No.

What I was thinking about was S-L-E-E-P!!!!!
And how could I get more of it.

But there I lay, saying my morning gratitude prayer instead of doing what I wanted so badly to do.

There I lay focusing my attention into the blessings and opportunities that the day was waiting to gift me with. Instead of the worry, frustration and desire to sleep it off and avoid life.

This was a 5 second decision that changed my life.

Yes my whole life.

If I had fallen prey to that calling of sleep and let myself drift off instead of activating my TRUE desire I would have lost the whole day.ย ๐ŸŒž

The first 3-4 hours after we wake make or break our days. It is the mindset work. It is the consciousness training. It is the positive infusion of GRATITUDE and INTENTION setting that we do that creates the tone of the day and the tone of our lives.

We have a choice to allow ourselves to be lead away from our true desires and purpose or not.

We each have a choice EVERY morning to slay the day with our hearts and the divine guidance that they give us or to allow AVERAGE and ORDINARY to slay us and our dreams.

Every time we set up the day by hitting snooze.
Every time that we start our day in fear, worry, anger, panic, negative thoughts.
Every time we wake up not blessing ourselves.

We are ALLOWING the day to slay us.
We are PERMITTING our pain and suffering to rule us.
We are committing to a life of LIMITED LIVING.

Today, I committed, made the 5 second executive decision to STEP yet again AWAY from AVERAGE and into my GREATNESS.

I chose my SOUL.๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ’ƒ
I chose my HEART.ย ๐Ÿ’–
I chose my PASSION.๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ
I chose GRATITUDE, BLESSINGย ๐Ÿ™and the

Fu*k YES! Life!!!!!

What did you choose?

And Remember,

Stop Existing & Start Living!