What You Are Accpeting For Your Norm, Is NOT Who You Are.

It’s not your NORM.
But it feels like it is.
It may be common,
it may be abundant in your life,
But I swear to you…

It’s not your NORM.

And what am I referring too?
I am referring to that feeling of anger.
That feeling of fear.
That feeling of judgment, bitterness, shame, guilt,
Or even questioning.

Your worry is not normal.
Your suffering is not normal.
No matter how prevalent it may seem,
It’s still is not your NORM.

I tell you this with certainly,
That when you feel out of sorts,
when you are caught in negative emotion,
When you feel rageful, vengeful and vindictive.
This is not normal.
This is not who you are.

You sit in such comfort with your chronic ideas of what just is. Accepting life for how you have been told to view it. You watch your life drift by never fully engaging with ALL that you are.

Always searching for happiness,
But only ever gaining small morsels of it at best.

Believing that the drama is normal.
That its just how life is.

But you KNOW at your core its not true.
You know because you are looking for who you are always. You feel the seperation from your truth.
From your SOUL.

There is this strange calling inside of you.
A feeling of something more.
A sensation of your greatness.
But you are trapped under the misery that feels like the reality you must live.

It’s not your NORM.
Your norm is that of love.
Of feeling good.

Now that may sound a bit 60’s flowers child for you.
A little too new age even.
But its the actual truth of who you are and what your state of normal is to be and always is at your SOUL level.
The discord you feel is simply because you are not looking at any given situation through the eyes of God or SOUL. You are viewing it from the disadvantage point of forgetfulness of who YOU ARE.

You have turned your back and closed your eyes to love and THIS is what is causing your worry, fear and suffering.

But there is blessing in your pain

The blessing is the lesson of learning what you do mot want from life and the building of desire for what you do want.

All you need do to embrace the life you want so badly for is to STOP ACCEPTING this ill state of feeling.
Stop allowing yourself to fall prey to what you have always perceived as normal and instead see it for the blessing that it is.

There to reveal to you that you are out of alignment with SOUL.

That you are buying into a faulse reality instead of what is true and you are putting value on things that do not matter nearly as much as you believe.

Soul is not upset about that car cutting you off on the highway.
Soul is not upset that your child drew on the wall.
Soul is not upset that your spouse is not acting the way you want or think you need.
Soul is not upset that the government is doing what it is doing or that your friends said the things they said.

Soul knows that all happens for a reason.
That each event in life is stepping you closer to what you want and that the ONLY thing holding you back is this crazy concept of what you call normal.

Are you ready to embrace the truth?
Are you ready to finally say YES TO SOUL?
Then take the step needed.
The only step ever needed and let go of upur suffering.
Your worry and fear.
Your regrets and your shame.
Let go of your needing someone or something to be different then what it is.
Let go of your you negative vibe.
And JUST LET YOUR HEART BE FELT.
Your soul lead.

You know who you are.
Be you.

And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers “`

YOUR NEGATIVE FEEDBACK SHOWS JUST HOW OUT OF ALIGNMENT YOU TRULY ARE.

YOUR NEGATIVE FEEDBACK SHOWS JUST HOW OUT OF ALIGNMENT YOU TRULY ARE.
 
But thank you anyway for sharing it.
 
Many moon’s ago I learned this little bit of spiritual wisdom and it has made all the difference in how I deal with others and has helped me to soften my reaction to other as well.
 
After learning it,
I became more compassionate as I simply saw their judgments, opinions, criticisms and ideas about my life and ways,
even who I was or was not,
as a message as to how they actually saw themselves and just did not recognize it.
 
It is always so much easier to witness in others,
that, that we have challenges with ourselves on the most.
 
We see this all the time while driving.
People with road rage,
or people who quickly get defensive or frustrated on the road typically are the one’s who are not wanting to drive,
believe that people are bad drivers always,
believe that there is always way too much traffic,
that people don’t know how to merge.
And you catch these individuals yelping about everything negative on the road.
They also are the one’s who will get right up on your ass and honk,
will flip you off for no good reason,
will pass you quickly and push their way in to exit instead of just moving with the flow of traffic.
 
They enter the experience of driving with an energy about them.
 
It is the energy of pissed off frustration.
And they drive accordingly.
And they see it in all their fellow drivers even more so.
 
And it is just this way,
because THIS is what they are FOCUSED ON.
 
Focused on the negativity.
Focused on the anger that they feel.
They will say, ” I just don’t like crowds or people.”
But what they are saying is, ” I don’t like myself.”
or ” I am nervous, insecure around people.”
 
And their focus on the negativity,
on the fear,
the uncertainty,
the control that they desire,
makes them judgmental of everyone around them and keeps their eye’s open to only THAT that they are looking most for.
 
WHAT IS WRONG IN THIS WORLD.
 
What is wrong with you.
What is wrong with anyone.
 
And to make matters even more worse,
these fine folks with their critical eye want to help FIX IT.
And they KNOW they have the answer needed,
because they have been on the outside looking in and they see how to go about it.
 
They see the TRUTH.
Your TRUTH.
They have it all figured out.
And they WANT TO HELP.
 
Never realizing that they cannot help from the place that they are witnessing from,
because they are witnessing an illusion,
or at best an old version of the situation or of you.
They are witnessing the events from a place of scarcity, doubt,
a need to control.
They are witnessing from a place that is not whole.
That place being themselves.
And because their focus in on the negative and a need to fix, control, change things,
they are revealing just how they feel about themselves at the deepest of levels.
 
Because you see a person who LOVES THEMSELVES,
a person who is connected and aligned to SOUL,
a person who is respectful of being human,
a person who is compassionate,
a person who has true confidence and self-esteem,
who know’s how powerful they really are,
that sort of person has…
 
NO DESIRE TO JUDGE OR CRITICIZE.
 
When we judge.
When we criticize.
When we try and change or tell another how or who they are.
When we try and convince another that they are wrong on their path.
We in fact are attempting to CONTROL them.
And not loving them for just who they are, as is.
 
When we do these things,
we may use tactics such as guilt, shame or fear to get the results that we feel are right,
and in so doing so,
we cut down the heart and soul of the other person.
And if you get right with yourself,
you will realize just how crappy that actually feels to bring someone down.
 
No matter how good your reasoning may be,
it does not feel good.
 
And that is because
YOU ARE OUT OF YOUR OWN SOUL ALIGNMENT
in these moments.
 
So what do you do when you find yourself wanting to fix, judge or change someone?
 
You breathe and look at what is really coming up for you.
Instead ask yourself,
 
” How do I truly feel about myself right now?”
 
I mean really go there.
Don’t take that first response of,
” I feel great!”
That your ego will spout off.
 
If you want to connect to people.
If you want to enjoy life.
Be happy.
Be received from others.
If you want to know yourself and feel good about who you are.
To be loved and to love.
 
Then you owe yourself the TRUTH.
 
How do you feel about the person you are right now?
How do you feel about the life that you have right now?
 
Start there beautiful.
And take your focus off of everyone’s challenges.
Because whether they have them or not,
it does not matter.
 
Those challenges and issues,
those problems and wrong doings or beings,
that you perceive.
Are NOT YOURS to fix in any other than YOURSELF.
 
Start There.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Stop Feeling Cowering and Shaming Your Greatness! – Let Your LIGHT SHINE Baby.

Oh baby you know you can do it!
You are truly unstoppable when you put your mind to it.
When you commit and allow yourself to SHINE,
when you feel that passion,
that excitement and you take that leap into what you know will expand you,
carry you,
level you up to WHO YOU KNOW YOU ARE.
 
Yes, Baby…
Yes,
you are truly unstoppable.
I love witnessing your passion,
I adore watching you create.
 
That sparkle in your eye,
that smirk on you face,
I can feel the enthusiasm,
the joy lights up your face.
 
Yes, this unstoppable version of you is so beautiful.
So truly amazing.
And when you let this version of you SHINE,
the heavens rejoice in your spender.
 
because it is here….
 
HERE…
this wonder and beauty that you allow the world to see’
it is YOU.
 
It is here is this magnificence that you open up to your greatest manifestations.
 
It is in this state of being,
that YOU,
yes you…..
FEEL YOUR POWER.
 
And Baby,
You are UNSTOPPABLE!
 
You know what I speak of.
I know that you do.
Don’t hide your face,
don’t cower to your greatness,
there is no shame in showing your LIGHT.
You my beautiful were born for greatness,
and those of us who know that we were born for a greater calling,
that we have something special inside of ourselves to offer this world,
yes we know the importance of letting our magic be seen and felt.
 
So whatever you do gorgeous,
do not hide.
Stop questioning your greatness.
Stop denying your worthiness.
Your presence,
your gifts,
your voice is needed.
 
It is expected of you to SHINE.
You have upon you a massive calling that this world cannot go without beautiful.
And you FEEL IT.
 
I know you do.
Any of us who have this calling cannot ignore this feeling.
It is the feeling of I must….
It is the feeling of knowing…
It is the feeling of burning passion coming from your depths,
it is the feeling that you cannot, not speak it, sing it, play it, share it, write it, be it….
 
Although you may have spent years trying to disregard,
you have spent a decade ignoring it,
you may have run from that which you know,
and you may have tried to settle into that THING called average and ordinary,
 
But no matter what you have done,
no matter how you hide,
how you fear this FEELING,
 
it just continues to tug at your SOUL.
And NOW….
 
Now you just know,
because you have tasted,
you have tasted your own wonder,
you have tasted your own power,
you know that the same power that moved through Moses to part the seas is moving through you as well.
 
You FEEL IT.
 
I know you do beautiful.
And if you do not bow to this power,
if you continue to not surrender yourself to it,
you will suffer.
 
But you cannot, not surrender.
Your SOUL is demanding your release.
It is demanding its RAPTURE.
 
And you are scared.
But beautiful,
this is the path of every soul warrior,
this is the path of the greatest souls that walk this earth.
You will loose yourself.
You will feel like death is at your doorstep.
You will never be the same once you surrender.
 
And it will be perfection.
It will be the glory that your SOUL desires.
 
Because baby,
you are UNSTOPPABLE.
 
In your alignment with all that you feel called.
In your attention to who you really are,
you will fly.
 
And your magic will change this world.
The changes that you desire to see in this world,
will seep first from you.
 
Its is upon you beautiful,
to speak your message,
to let your voice be heard,
to let your calling be felt.
You are UNSTOPPABLE.
 
So STEP now and forever more into WHO YOU TRULY ARE.
 
You know what to do.
You know the step to take.
The step that you cannot, not take.
 
Yes, that step.
 
And become UNSTOPPABLE.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Price is NEVER the Objection – It’s That You Don’t Value It.

Value.
What each of us values is certainly unique to ourselves.
Unique to our life situation.
Unique to our pocket books too. – LOL
 
Today I was out with my six year old son on a birthday date with him. He has been so excited about this date with mommy and he has been planning what he wanted to go get and do. When it came down to today, he woke up and excitedly told me that he wanted to go to Target and get Ryan’s Family Mystery Egg and then Starbucks or lunch out.
 
And so it was.
 
Here we are in Target searching for this mystery egg,
we finally find it, only two left on this shelf of Ryan’s Family toys and then I look at the price….
 
$39.95!!!!
 
For a big plastic egg.
Filled with like six or seven dollar store toys in it???
 
Oh the excitement.
Oh the wonder of what mystery toys my son was getting in this BIG egg.
 
He was so joyous.
Lite up like a Christmas Tree,
the biggest smile you can imagine on a six year old’s face.
 
He had been dreaming of this moment.
“Thank you, Thank you Mom!”
 
Never would I have ever believed that I would search a store and then actually purchase a BIG plastic Easter egg looking thing full of dollar store toys for such a ridiculous price.
 
Now here is the thing folks,
It has NOTHING to do with the price.
 
It has EVERYTHING to do with the VALUE.
 
I looked at the quality of what we were getting,
I looked at the reality that I could get the same or similar things for one tenth the price if I wanted,
and I just simply find zero to no value in this plastic egg.
 
EXCEPT that is…
my son’s JOY.
 
That I value over everything else.
And that is why I bought it.
It was because he desired it so much,
his expression,
his wonder,
his pleasure in RECEIVING.
 
When it comes down to purchases it never is about the money.
Sure we may toss out the objection,
“How much does this cost?”
 
And we may quickly come back with,
“Oh, I cannot afford that!”
 
But money is NEVER the objection.
That is basic sales understanding and marketing knowledge there.
 
We use the price to avoid things.
 
In truth,
whatever we are using price to say no too is simply not valuable enough to us to figure out how to make happen.
 
Now I know you may say that this is not so,
that your situation is different.
That I just don’t understand.
 
And maybe you are the one in a thousand cases that this may not apply too,
but even then I can assure you that if you REALLY valued whatever this was that you are saying no too but did interest you enough to get you to inquire, to search out, to explore,
 
that YOU WOULD FIND A WAY.
 
I have been down to my last few dollars in the bank and committed to a $13,000 coaching intensive that was only six weeks long.
 
I have been homeless, broke and not knowing how to put food on the table and registered for that next level of growth certification,
 
I have been at the end of the cash flow in my bank with only pennies left after my bills and found away to get my a*s to Hawaii for a 10 day Shamanic Retreat.
 
Did I sacrifice other things to make this happen?
 
Yes.
I had to reevaluate what was most important to my over all life picture.
 
I had to look at the long term rewards, not just the immediate lack of comfort or push that I was feeling.
 
I had to COMMIT to something far bigger than the moment.
 
It was a COMMITMENT to the future.
To long term happiness.
To a game changing experience.
To leveling up my life by having FAITH that in my commitment that everything would fall into place.
 
I had to VALUE what was going to expand me.
Bring me joy.
And I had to VALUE MYSELF.
 
No matter what it is that we purchase,
we have to find value in it.
We have to BELIEVE in what we are gaining from it.
If we do not,
then the price is ALWAYS too much.
 
So the next time you go searching for something,
the next time you go investigating something,
or think you want something and then “change your mind or heart” on it,
don’t step away from your truth and say that it’s about the price.
 
Own your TRUTH.
 
“I don’t VALUE this enough to find a way.”
 
This statement keeps you in your personal power and owning where you are at and what you desire and value clear.
 
If you want to be a great manifestor,
if you want to be the BOSS of your life in any fashion,
if you want to have respect,
and be trustworthy,
THEN OWN WHAT YOU VALUE OR NOT.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.
I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.
But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.
Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.
Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.
What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?
You can have this.
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It’s Time to STOP Effing Around and Listen to SOUL.

DCIM100SPORT
If you really wanted it then you would have it wouldn’t you?
 
And it feels like you are wanting it.
It feels like you are operating from your core.
It feels like you should just be living that life that you feel so called to live,
and yet you are not.
 
How can it be so?
Why is it that you just keep tackling problem after problem and not seeming to make way to what you really want for your life?
 
It’s because you are not ready beautiful.
You simply are not yet ready.
 
But you could be ready,
if you really wanted to that is.
 
The only challenge with being ready is YOU.
 
??????????
 
Yeah YOU are your challenge.
 
You have to….
 
1. Make a effing decision to be ready.
2. Stop stopping yourself from being ready with all your petty little reasons and fears.
3. Stop thinking you will have the germination time that you have deemed for yourself.
4. Allow yourself to receive the opportunities that will lead you to what you want.
 
 
This all means that you need to start listening beautiful.
 
But to whom?
 
Well sure as f-ck not to everyone who has not walked in yours shoes.
 
And not those who are less successful than yourself.
And not to your fear.
Or your doubts or any of those negative thoughts that you are thinking.
 
 
No.
 
Don’t listen to that shiz!
 
 
Do Listen to YOUR SOUL.
 
If you have not a clue or maybe just a faint clue as to what I am speaking of when I say SOUL…
 
It’s that quiet little voice.
It’s that nagging at your core.
It’s that desire,
that hunger that will not leave you.
It’s that knowing that points out the opportunities, the synchronicity and coincidences.
It’s the reactions that your body and emotions are trying to make you more aware of.
 
 
This is SOUL.
 
Your SOUL.
 
And if you want to have that THING,
That thing that you have been wanting for so long.
That lifestyle that your heart craves for yourself,
for your children,
your family,
your people.
 
Well that THING, wants you to pay attention to what will lead you to it.
 
Your SOUL.
 
It’s the path of least resistance beautiful.
Its the path that will feed you,
fulfill you, and bring you joy.
 
But you have to WANT IT.
 
And in your wanting of it you will be asked to focus on it.
You be required to do the inner mindset and emotional harmonizing work that you need to do.
You be required to make yourself available for what you are wanting.
And if you are not doing this,
then you will not have it until you do these things.
 
Until you are ready.
No matter how much you b*tch, moan and complain,
no matter how much suffering you choose to go through,
you will not get access to your dreamed life UNTIL you are READY.
 
And to be ready, you must show up.
You must open up.
You must be available and take advantage of the opportunities that show themselves to you and ask for your commitment.
 
Because if your SOUL tells you to take on that commitment,
that opportunity,
then that is YOUR SOUL guiding you to your highest and best.
That is your soul leading you on your path to your truth.
To your best life.
 
The question only comes down to the question of,
 
WILL YOU LISTEN TO SOUL?
 
Or will you continue to ignore?
 
You know what ignoring or half a*s listening has gotten you so far….
 
Why not try something new?
 
 
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.
I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.
But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.
Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.
Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.
What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?
You can have this.
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Is Your Dream Killing You?

Are you a dreamer?
I sure am.

You have dreams.
You have BIG dreams.
I know you do.
Everyone does.

But the thing about dreams is that they are just that,
DREAMS.
When we speak of our dreams,
we have the feeling of something that may never happen,
they are set off into the distance of time and space,
they are something that we might “wish” for,
but in our core feel they are unattainable.

That is why they are dreams after all.
Just like the dreams that we have in our sleep,
our waking dreams are fleeting in the moments of life,
they come in and they squeeze us,
make us want for something more,
may even cause us suffering and pain for not having them.

Dreams blossom in our minds and heart
and they beg for us to pay attention,
but life feeds us evidence quiet often,
showing us just how hard it is to achieve these dreams,
or how goofy we are to believe that we can ever get them to manifest.

And so we are dreamers.
And even in writing this statement,
and perhaps for you to read it,
there is a negative charge around the word,
there is hesitation,
pain and discomfort,
there is a sensation of tightness in the reality,
that dreamers just dream.

It is through hard work,
being practical,
and settling into what life is really about that you succeed.
That you SURVIVE.

Dreamers are fun and all.
Dreaming is beautiful, creative and gives us hope.
But it is not logical.

Or so we are brainwashed into believing.
We are daily hounded into the practiced thinking of this.
We are reminded,
by what we have been practicing by the evidence of our lives and how things unfold and manifest.
So we put more into the thinking and feeling of what is before us,
without the trust that we can change our tomorrow by changing our mindset.

But the truth is,
that dreams do come true.
And they are gifted to you to become reality through your abilities, your focus, your energy.
That is why you have the dreams that you have.
You and ONLY you are meant to manifest them.
However, you will never achieve those manifestations without clarity, joy and trust.
You must LET GO of all those things that cause resistance to the creation of your dreams.
You must embrace the fact that your true work is from within.
It is in focusing on the thoughts and feelings that stir in you.
It is the realization that yes perhaps your BIG dreams are too big for you,
but NOT because they are actually too big,
but because of the practiced thoughts that you have around achieving them.

Do you believe that you must work hard for your dreams?
Do you believe that you must suffer in some way?
Pay a price to have your dream?
That you must earn it and become worthy of it?
Do you believe that you are being too selfish or greedy in wanting it?
Do you believe that dreamers only dream?

For decades I too have fought with these paralyzing beliefs. I grew up poor, my family struggled to make ends meet and my parents told me consistently that I could not have. My teachers and friends, society all supported these statements and educated me into believing that hard work, suffering and compromise was what had to happen and even with those things that at best I would live pay check to pay check.

Don’t think you can only work 8 hour a week Kendal.
Don’t think you can do something you love and get paid well for it.
Don’t think you can have a multi-six business with no college education.
Don’t think that you can travel the world.
Don’t think that you have a strong support system.
Don’t think that you can ever be loved.
Don’t…
Don’t…
Don’t….

STOP your dreaming, it will get you know where.
Those DREAMS are unrealistic, let’s bring it back a notch.

Yes here is what I was told.
Here are some of the thoughts that still pop up in my psyche today,
that have hindered me through the years.

Sound familiar?

Well REALITY CHECK….

The ONLY f-cking reason any dream is ever too BIG,
is because you believe it is too big for you and you look daily for evidence to support this stinking thinking.

That is it.
God gifted you with those dreams,
and God does not make mistakes.

You have those desires,
those dreams,
for a reason.

You and ONLY YOU,
are meant to manifest them.

You say you want to be worthy of them,
then act on them.
And you will be worthy.
Stop talking about it.

The BIGGEST action you need to take for your dreams manifestation is to come to terms with the fact that YOU ARE IN CONTROL of what you think about.

You can change your thoughts and your feelings,
thus your vibe,
and manifest anything you desire.

It all starts with what you are focusing on.

Stop being so serious about everything.
Dreaming is fun.
Dreaming is playful.
Dreaming is creative.

So why are you making it all out to be such a BIG chore?
Oh, because you have to suffer,
you have to turn it into work.

Well F-ck that sh*t!!!!

Dreams come into reality when you let go of all the drama and chaos.
When you embrace the JOY.
Do you really think that you are going to find the motivation to deliberately create your dream life when you are dreading taking action to do it?

Do you really believe that the answer to creating that freedom based life is to cause yourself more suffering and agony?

Do you really think that you are going to call into your world all the joy, love and abundance by fixating on worry and fear of not having enough?

I can tell you one thing for certain,
If you are not living your F-ck YES! Life right now in any way,
then you,
and only you,
can change it.

The answer is simple,
when you are in alignment to your soul,
you will feel good and the results will unfold like magic before you.

If you are not having these two things happen,
then you are NOT in alignment with soul.

You are denying who you really are.
And you are stepping away from your power.

Most likely because you were told you had too,
and it was the way to success,
somewhere along the journey,
you bought this lie.

And NOW you wake everyday,
looking for supportive evidence to make it a reality.

Consciously or not.
You are doing it.
And you can change it.

TODAY.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Money, Money, Money! Are You In Alignment to It?

Money, Money, Money!

We love it.
We hate it.
We want more of it.
We are shamed by it.
We don’t understand it.
We desire it.
We are told it is the root of all evil.
We are told that we are bad if we have too much,
or not enough.
It’s how we support our lives,
the people we care about.
It brings us pleasure.
It causes us pain and stress.

The money saga is real.

You know what I speak of today.
I remember all too vividly the days of waking up,
praying that my power was still on, because I was uncertain that there was enough money to clear the debit in my account.
Raising five children and trying to stretch a couple hundred books on food for the month.
The school would send home science fair project material,
or book fair announcements, have my child all hyper about some new book – THAT I COULD NOT AFFORD.

I remember the days of needing to borrow from parents,
friends and anyone that would loan.

The creditors calling what seemed like 24/7.
All yelping for something that I never seemed to have enough of,
and could not get more of.
As quickly as life demanded it.

The countless moves.
Upheavals in life.
And EXCUSES.

Excuses because of the shame.
The shame that we did not have enough.
That we were always broke.
That I had to even borrow from my children’s babysitting stash.

Excuses, based in shame.
Yes those days.
Those days of bankruptcy, frustration, fear and overwhelm.

You know what I learned from those days?
I learned to live according t o my souls desire.
To get my ass in alignment to what my soul wanted instead of trying to make money.

Have you noticed that the more you do something JUST to make money that the more you don’t really enjoy it, or life.
And then suddenly, the money slows down or even stops flowing?

Or something astronomical happens.
Something that you can’t afford,
that will break the bank to what you have,
and give you another REASON as to WHY you don’t have.

Have you noticed that?
I sure have.

When I am out of alignment.
When I am not living in my joy,
not looking for the blessings with enthusiasm and exception,
then money basically say eff you.
And does not show up with ease any longer.

When I step into my soul’s alignment,
and simply surrender to it.
Enjoy my day,
My life,
and the process of creating the opportunities to enjoy flow,
when I look for my blessings,
with the excitement of a child on Christmas morning,
and share of them freely,
not worrying about the bottom lines,
and just having certainty in the process,
in the alignment,
in the joy,
then money flows through me with ease and plenitude.

When we hold shame or guilt around our money,
we restrict it from coming to us,
we prevent our natural flow of abundance.

When we focus on how much we need money,
we restrict the flow of it as well.

When we say such things as,
” I never have enough.”
” I can’t seem to get a head.”
“Money is coming.”
“I want to make $$$$ amount in the next 6 months.”

We push money away from us.
The same is true with anything that we want to manifest into our lives.

When we act from a place of not having,
and we think thoughts of not having,
or that its coming but it’s no currently here,
or we feel into our moment from a place of scarcity,
we continue to not have.
We restrict it from coming into our lives.

Money.
We need it.
We want it.
We feel bad about it.

It’s the programs that we grew up with,
that were set in us to make us ‘good’ people.
That cause us so many issues.
These programs of,
money don’t grow on tree’s,
Money is the root of all evil,
Money is hard to come by.
etc.
etc.
What they were meant to teach was,
respect money,
in the wrong hands, money can support the wrong things,
have a good work ethic,
don’t waist.

But these same statements have lead to your lack as well.
Creating a belief structure around your money that tells you that you cannot have easily,
that if you love it you are bad,
and many other things.

None of which are true.

Money is nothing more than a physical manifestation of energy.
It is an energy based currency.
Based not on what kind of person you are or you are not,
but based on if you believe that you are abundant in it.

That is really it.
It is that simple.

What is your expectation around money?
Around you having it or not?

If you believe that you are abundant than you are.
If you think you believe you are abundant, but are always proclaiming that it is not yet there, then you will not have it.
If you believe that you are living pay check to pay check then that is what you will live.

You make up the flow by your beliefs.

Your world is the manifestation of those beliefs.

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THIS is the THING that will prevent you from having it all.

The reason you will never have the relationships,
the lifestyle, the money or anything else that you really want is because your f-cking scared to death to call it in.
 
to ask for it.
To set the stage for it.
Your f-cking scared to death,
that if you actually just let it rip,
that the world would run away from you and that you would loose all that you have,
and having what you have is better than not having anything at all,
even though it is a long shot from what your soul desires.
 
 

Isn’t that right Baby?

 
So you sit there in your suffering.
In your fear of making changes,
taking steps,
and sharing your heart and soul.
 
 
The comforts of your dis-satisfaction and smallness with life,
is something that you cannot seem to let go of.
 
And THIS,
 

This is the THING,

that will will prevent you every God damn day from having what you really want in your:
 
Finances
Career
Relationships
Sex
Health
Lifestyle
Faith
 
 
This morning I sat down to checked into my email, like I do every morning around 10am. My phone had been popping off with text messages from five old lovers and I questioned what the heck was going on in my energy to call in all this attention from relationships of the past.
 
I questioned if I was stepping down in my vibe?
I questioned if I was feeling un-seen, unloved or something else?
Was I simply needing attention?
Or was I getting so TURNED ON TO LIFE that my vibe was magnetizing and calling in those who desired the turn on as well?
Who need the feminine creative flow and surrender to take them to that level of depth within themselves to manifest a life that they want more than what they have within the comforts of the now.
 
As I have been sitting here analyzing these messages,
these men, and all the emotion and feelings that come up for me, I see many things.
 
To start with my judgments.
My fears.
My patterns.
My love that I hold for each of them still today.
 
And all of these things play a role in my lessons.
And in who I have become.
In gratitude and with the help of each of these gentlemen.
 
SO as I sit here and look at what the potential message is,
I see that there are some factors to what I am needing in my current life that these men could fill for me,
 
However, the question comes,
Do I open an old door that did not work back then and try again or do I keep it shut?
 
It comes down to my current needs, desires and boundaries.
In this particular case I will focus in on my boundaries as boundaries are something that MUST be developed, reevaluated and adjusted often. What is a boundary in one case may not be in another and as we learn and grow,
as we come more into who we really are and get into greater alignment with our soul,
 
our boundaries change.
 
Boundaries are part of CALLING IN what we want into our lives.
 
Without healthy boundaries, we never gain the life that we really want. Instead we push it away from us in one way or another.
 
You know what I am speaking of,
Don’t you?
 
You are a doormat.
The go to person, who never feels appreciated,
just used.
 
This is boundary issue.
 
You are the center of attention, always.
You have no space.
You are fearful of saying no,
for whatever reason.
So you are fatigued and worn out emotionally, mentally and physically.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
You feel alone.
You look around you and you have no real relationships.
You hate people, because in your view, “they are all stupid.”
So you sacrifice relationship for the most part to avoid the drama of others.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
If it is going to be, it is up to me.
You cannot rely on anyone but yourself.
You don’t even want to.
So you keep things nice and tidy,
limited relationships, outings or anything.
And you play within your own means,
never asking for shit.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
You expect that others should just do/act/love/need as you do.
You think that by always doing what is needed for another,
always making yourself available,
and being a yes, is good.
will get you what you want.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
You don’t think that boundaries are that important.
You think that others need to just relax and chill.
Stop being so serious.
And you don’t see yourself over stepping,
getting shocked when someone claims you did.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
To name a few.
 
We are all in need of understanding our boundaries and learning how to play within the multiple relationships of our lives, boundaries as well.
 
But the tale of today,
is to make you aware that BOUNDARIES are a vital part of your manifestation process.
 
It is important for you to explore what you are needing, wanting and feel good about in any given situation.
 
And here is the real kicker….
 
If you feel uncertain,
negative,
like you want to say no,
have fear, doubt or some other ill sensation or emotion,
then what you need to get right with is this:
 

THAT IS YOUR SOUL SAYING F-CK NO!!!!!

So Listen Damn It.

 
If you want to create that #freedombasedlife that #fuckyeslifestlye then you have to HONOR your boundaries.
 
You will NEVER call in what you want to manifest.
You will NEVER vibrate at the frequency that you want or need to have the life that you desire, as long as you are saying yes when you are actually a
 

F-CK NO!!!!

 
What will I do with these five old lovers?
I will listen to my soul.
 
That is what I will do.
Each man presents a different boundary to set,
to feel into,
to learn more about myself with.
 
Each man is here offering me an opportunity to get deeper into SOUL ALIGNMENT.
 
And so I will.
That is what I will do.
 
How about you?
What will you do with the boundary lessons offered you today?
 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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Living Your Insanity.

Reality is THIS.

Look at your world.
Look at your experiences,
RIGHT NOW.

What are you living?
How are you feeling?
Who are you associating with?

Are you happy?
Are you thriving?

Or are you feeling
dull,
irritable,
depressed,
angry,
lost?

Reality is THIS.
What you think about you become.

What you consistently feed your mind,
your mind will feed your body and emotions,
and you WILL become it.

So what are you consuming TODAY?

In this moment.

If you claim you have no effing clue, then look no further than your life.

Your own back yard.
Whatever is showing up is what you are focusing in on in some fashion.

And by fashion I mean energetically.
You may not be conscious of your fears, your worries, your negativity,
but if that is what you are being shown in your life expereinces THEN GUESS WHAT?

That is exactly what you are focusing on.

That is where you are vibrating.

It really is not that difficult.
So many times we make life harder than what it was ever intended on being.

We try to hard.
It is not about the trying.

It is ALL about the DOING.

Just remember that ACTION is what makes things move.

You want more:
JOY
HAPPINESS
SEX
Better Relationship
MONEY
HEALTH

or whatever those desires are,
well all you need to do to get them is to focus on FEELING GOOD NOW!

And go do just that!!!

How is feeling bad,
being a victim to your life,
looking at what is always wrong with your life serving you anyway?

I mean have you ever REALLY asked yourself this?

You may say that you are a realist.
And reality is that life is shit right now.

Well woohoo! I am so happy that you have discovered that your life is shit right now.

Is focusing on the shit helping you move through it any quicker?

Is worrying on why the shit is there or if more is coming preventing you from having more shit show up?

Has being a realist and fixating on the shit EVER been the action that was required to get you to the life that you actually DESIRE?

Or is the truth that when you allow yourself to feel good,
to feel love,
to laugh,
to play,
to smile,
to enjoy,

when good shit happens?

I want you to really look at the actions or lack of actions that you are taking in your life today and see how they are supporting your desired life?

If you want to get real about something, get real about THIS.

Living a F*ck YES! Life is no harder than the food you feed your vibration.

STOP the INSANITY of focusing on the negative and expecting positive.

It WILL NEVER HAPPEN this way.

N-E-V-E-R

Take the actions that will carry you into abundance and joy.

By allowing yourself to get into the flow, you will never go hungry for anything again.

But the trick to any of this F*ck YES!! Lifestyle is ALLOWING yourself into the FLOW through YOUR OWN JOY.

Start there.
Or stop complaining.

And as always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Don’t Get Pissed About Being Treated Like A Dog If Your Acting Liking A Puppy.

Don’t Get Pissed About Being Treated Like A Dog If Your Acting Liking A Puppy.
 
We all know people like this.
And in many cases we have all been puppy dogs at some point in our lives.
 
I know I sure have.
Years back, when I was in my teens and early 20’s I was for a sure a puppy dog in some instances.
I felt horribly insecure.
I felt like I was stupid and silly.
I felt like I was not worthy of anything in my life and that I NEEDED approval.
I NEEDED a pat on the head telling me that I was doing good.
That I was seen.
That I was loved.
 
I wanted the pat on my head so badly that I ran behind foot of my friends, my teachers and even my husband.
 
I recall him telling me how insecure I appeared.
He pointed out my pigeon toed stance.
He pointed out my slouching shoulders.
My inability to make let alone keep eye contact.
My fear to go out and be too social.
I clung to his arm like a lost little girl.
I feared being seen for who I was because I did not know who I was and I was scared that who I was was not good enough for this world.
Or for him.
I could not understand why he loved me.
Wanted to be with me.
And why he said he was not worthy of me.
 
This then.
This was a Kendal that was scared of her life.
Scared of her choices.
Scared of her own shadow.
 
Perhaps hard to believe.
But still true.
 
Even though I made my whole existence about my husband and family,
Even though I begged for approval,
begged for that pat on the head like a good puppy.
 
I was irritate when he treated me like a child.
When he scolded me.
When he fathered me.
When he would basically pat his knees and say, “Come here puppy. Aren’t you a sweet girl.”
 
Granted he never actually did this, but it was an energy that was passed between us.
It was him trying to reassure me that I was doing good,
asking for what he wanted, expecting to get it, without realizing guilting me in different ways, and treating me the way you would your pet.
 
I felt often like I was a trophy.
Not a human.
Not a woman.
Not his wife.
But an object.
 
The sick thing is that I asked for this treatment.
I encouraged it even.
 
It was the way I believed I could feel loved.
I was lost and uncertain.
I had no clue who I was and therefore I needed him to tell me who I was and to pat me on the back for being what he said.
 
I wanted to know I was doing good.
Making him happy in my efforts to be what he needed/wanted.
 
But I hated the belittling feeling that came with it.
I hated how I felt inside.
I hated not really being me.
But being something for someone else.
 
SO I bitched about being treated like this,
NEVER realizing until years later that I had done it all to myself.
 
Crazy huh?
 
The thing that I figured out about 10 years into this experience was that I always knew who I was.
 
I was just afraid to express myself.
I was just afraid that if I allowed myself to be seen that I would scare off people in my life that I currently had and I did not want to loose.
So instead of being me,
I hid me from the world and myself,
until I could no longer cope with the pain.
 
My physical body decided one day that I was going to STOP the insanity of hiding from myself or I would be in physical pain.
 
I developed Chrones.
 
Let me tell you, Chrones is not a fun dis-ease.
I spent a few years in horrible pain,
struggling to figure out how to naturally heal myself,
struggling to gain my stamina back for life,
I lived a fatigued existence,
where I started to question if I wanted to go on.
Thank goodness for my babies.
They have always been my reason for everything.
My joy.
But the pain of living with Chrones,
the uncertainty of what it would lead too.
The unstableness of my body EVERYDAY.
I felt like a prisoner in my own flesh.
 
I tried everything to heal myself.
And at the end of it all, I sat there hopeless.
Here I was in my early thirties.
Mom of five.
The prime of my life.
And I was feeling dead.
 
Lost.
Dead.
Hopeless.
Sick.
 
I felt ugly in every sense of the word.
 
But here, here is where God came in.
I knew there was something I was missing.
And one day I ended up at a church event,
it was a book release for a female author that my church was hosting. I went to the talk and listened to this woman share her story.
 
She shared her drama of finding herself.
She shared her trials and tribulations.
She shared that she realized that after the blessing of motherhood that God was offering her the most prize of all possessions.
The most joyous experience of anything.
 
And that was the birthing of herself.
 
This was what I was needing to hear.
Needing to accept.
 
This pain that I was feeling.
This struggle that I was in with my body.
With my mind, my heart, my soul.
 
It was JUST THIS.
 
I was BIRTHING MYSELF.
 
My soul was COMMANDING ME to stop being a puppy dog to others and to start being my own WOMAN.
 
My soul wanted me to CLAIM MY LIFE.
Wanted me to STOP trying to always please others,
stop looking for approval,
but instead give myself approval.
 
The more I stepped into my
POWER,
my STRENGTH,
my TRUTH,
and just allowed myself to be revealed no matter what that meant. No matter if that meant I was going to loose people in my life or not, the quicker my body healed.
The more I embraced myself, the more my SOUL acknowledged me by healing my physical body.
 
Such gratitude I hold for the woman who spoke that day at that event.
 
She made me aware of the bitch I was being.
She made me aware that my neediness was killing me.
She made me aware that I was better than what I had accepted for myself.
And she made me aware that the pain I was experiencing was an opportunity to connect,
to myself.
to God.
To my truth.
 
It was a birthing process.
 
So throw yourself a bone today.
Look at your life,
and see where you may be guilty of being a puppy dog.
Look and see how you are holding yourself back by begging like a hungry dog,
and instead of begging,
FEED YOURSELF.
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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