It’s time to get real and stop all the effing excuses.
You can keep up with the blah, blah cheap talk that you are giving them but you know that you are still not 100% committed to them.
Cuz if you were then this shiz would be majorly different,
But it ain’t.
And that is because you are effing scared to fully step in and have what you want.
Be who you were called to be.
And own your MOFO power.
So what is the hold back beautiful?
What has you consistently denying your dream life?
You say that it is because you don’t have the resources at this time that you need to make it happen.
You claim that its a timing thing,
a money thing,
a space thing,
a focus thing,
a some dumb f-ck thing….
But none of that is true,
and you know it.
It’s because some where back there in your history,
you got really angry with it.
You got so angry with your dreams for letting you down,
for not manifesting the way that you wanted them too,
for allowing you,
and leading you into what you perceive as suffering and loss.
You got so upset with them BABY,
that part of you divorced them.
And you have been teetering on finalizing that divorce or recommitting ever since.
It hurts doesn’t it?
That feeling that you carry with you.
That weight on your shoulders that just will not go away.
That pain in your chest that feels like a constant throb of anxiety,
and that tension in your gut.
It’s been there now for so long,
you are almost scared that if you let go of it,
that, that void from it will be too much for you to bare.
And you fear that if you let go and forgive yourself and your dreams for things not turning out just how you once thought would be perfect and a fairy tale happy ending,
that you will never feel so deeply in love with them or with life again.
You fear that you will never have what you once believed was possible and you are caught up on the not having of that perfect picture you were creating when they let you down in that brutal fashion that caused all this turbulence to start with.
You are blaming your dreams.
You are holding your dreams responsible for YOU not staying committed to them.
And that is a chicken shit move.
No matter what happened back there when you originally let go of them and started your path of sabotage,
no matter how hurt or scorned you may have felt or still do today,
shiz don’t always go exactly the way we want it too.
You know that.
You gotta put your big girl panties on and you gotta let go and commit back to your faith.
That faith that carried you into all that beauty.
That faith that ignited your SOUL.
That faith that was your MOFO wings gorgeous.
Your worthiness never changed because your heart got stung.
That has nothing to do with your worthiness.
And most certainly is not good enough a reason to live at half mast.
When you are in your light,
when you are turned on and fully embracing of your worth,
when you are in love with life,
YOU ARE UNSTOPPABLE.
But in order for you to regain that power,
you have to get back to YOU.
And that means to let go of your pain,
and stop blaming your dreams for everything.
They are only the wind beneath those powerful wings of yours,
not the arrows that knocked you down.
Those came from your fear.
Your fear of not being good enough.
Your fear of being too much.
Your fear of your own inner radiance.
But god does not make unworthy things.
And you beautiful are unstoppable.