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The Story You Need To Tell Yourself Daily.

I am worthy!

The story of today that I choose to focus on and expand in.

 

I am worthy!

It often feels like a lie to write those words and there is resistance in my claiming of them.

 

I am worthy!

At writing them my gut turns over,

I feel butterflies and my heart feels constricted.

 

I am worthy!

I can hear the yelling in my head that it is not so.

Who am I to try and claim such nonsense.

 

I am worthy!

My eyes tear up as I write the statement more and more.

I feel the emotion attached.

 

I am worthy!

Breathing deep, allowing my chest to expand,

my heart says allow,

my mind screams in opposition.

 

I am worthy!

The struggle is real.

And I am at war within myself.

It’s crazy to listen to the clambering of my negativity.

 

I am worthy!

The seed has been planted.

Its taking root,

perhaps a sprout will appear.

There is hope.

 

I am worthy!

Anxiety in the possibility.

I can feel a tug at my core pulling me to something.

Something I want to label the truth,

but scares me still.

 

I am worthy!

I breathe deep again.

Feeling my body rise and fall.

The tears are there,

but now I feel a gentle comfort as though I am being held by something I cannot see.

 

I am worthy!

I want to be.

And so we have the breaking of the soil and a sprout.

 

I am worthy!

Looking around,

I see my material world,

my home that I love and maintain with ease,

my car that I am grateful for,

a house full of comforts, luxuries and food.

All that seems stable,

and constant in my life experience.

I do not struggle.

I move with ease.

Life always is providing for me.

There is proof around every corner.

 

I am worthy!

Perhaps I already know it is true?

Perhaps, I have known forever even.

Perhaps under all the chaos and noise of outside influences,

of fear and judgement,

there is a knowing.

Can it be true?

 

I am worthy!

Of course I am.

Just look and feel.

Breathe deeper and let the body speak,

move past the reservation,

the constriction,

and feel the heart.

The soul.

There is a budding there.

There is truth.

God does not give to us a desire that cannot be.

And what we desire is already granted,

we must just believe to receive.

 

I am worthy!

And so are you.

 

Say it with me this morning…..

 

I AM WORTHY!

I AM WORTHY!

I AM WORTHY!

 

YES YOU ARE.

 

And As Always,

 

Stop Existing & Start Living

 

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You were born worthy of so much more than what you are allowing right now.

 

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When My Dreams Show Up To Quickly – I Get Scared!

How dare you give me what I want so quickly!
 
There has got to be some sorta catch if what I want is just showing up without me having to earn it.
 
I mean how is it possible that I speak about something and then not days later it reveals itself in my life?
 
I know that it is possible but it just does not feel right.
I truly believe that I need to work for this or its not real,
I will loose it for sure.
I am really afraid of saying YES…
What if I say yes and it all goes wrong?
What if I say YES and it’s the wrong choice to make?
 
I think I am better off just saying NO.
Even though I really want it,
and its wonderful that it has shown up like this so quickly,
I think I am going to have to pass.
 
It’s just not for me,
right now.
 
Thinking about saying YES to this has my stomach in knots.
There is just something off about it.
I know that this is not right for me,
because I can feel it in my gut.
 
When something shows up like this and it’s too good to be true,
well life has taught me that it most likely is,
so I don’t want to feel those pains again.
I am a NO.
 
I just don’t have the time right now to take this by the horns and do what I want with it.
So I think I will have to pass.
 
These and so many more EXCUSES are what we speak out loud or in our own heads to ourselves when we allow fear of stepping forward into our dreams to control us.
 
Don’t you get it luv?
That uneasy feeling that you got in your gut,
that’s not always your gut telling you that its a bad choice or that something is going to go wrong,
that uncertainty and anxiousness that you have is not always telling you that you are a no, or that it is a no for you.
That feeling of overwhelm or disbelief,
those feelings of I have been stun before and so I am not going to have it happen here,
this can all be signs that you need to step away from something,
YES.
 
They can be signs that you are a NO.
 
OR….
 
if you dig a little deeper,
can be signs that FEAR has you by the balls and if you let it run you will steal your dreams from you.
 
How can you know the difference?
How can you be certain that if you take that leap that you will be safe and that it will not be a wrong move in your life?
 
Number one,
you may never be certain that its right.
Number two,
you could make the wrong move.
 
But what I can promise you is that if you keep letting yourself be a NO to things that you will never gain the life that you want.
 
If you keep letting this crazy ass fear of yours run you silly and blind you from the opportunities that knock,
that you are making a wrong choice,
Then you definitely have something to fear.
because you are choosing to not live,
to not expand,
to not experience.
 
Well not experience anything but FEAR.
 
And if fear floats your boat baby,
well then have at it.
But if you hungry and wanting for more,
then maybe its time that you start to say YES.
 
Yes to opportunity.
Yes to experiences.
Yes to love, no matter how long it hangs out.
Yes to joy, play, laughter.
Yes to trusting that God has your back baby.
 
Because God does.
And your SOUL knows this.
 
Those feeling of not feeling right,
are VERY right.
They are telling you that your SOUL knows differently about something then what you think you know.
 
Your SOUL is 100 steps down the path before and has been through all that stuff and knows the steps that you need to take to get the the life that you want,
the quickest,
the smoothest,
and in flow.
 
But baby,
when you question why your dreams are just showing up in ease and with speed,
when you sit back and look for the gotcha in your goals,
realize that you are now questioning the power of God’s hand in creating.
 
You think that God has some timeline that he is following?
You think that if our creator wants to create something that it cannot just happen with a swipe of a hand.
 
You are the co-creator of your life and you are moving with speed because you are partnered up with the most powerful, potent force out there.
 
And God/Universe is all about speed.
 
You may not think it possible.
You may think that you gotta earn this shiz,
become worthy of it by serving your time and paying your dues.
 
Buy baby,
that’s all human made beliefs that are locking down the creative time and force that God has given you.
 
So stop the crazy ideas of questioning everything.
Stop the distrust of listening in past the fear.
Quit numbing yourself to your power by fidgeting around with such doubt.
 
Baby you got this.
But you gotta believe that you got this.
You gotta understand your power.
And CLAIM IT TODAY.
 
Say YES!
 
And As Always, Stop Existing & Start Living
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Life, Death and Authentically Being You.

Life, Death and Being Authentically YOU.
 
The last two weeks of my life have been a roller coaster of life changes. Some have a direct impact on my world, some not so much but do because they effect my children or my extended family.
 
Two weeks ago my eldest daughter gave birth to her little boy.
 
Last week, my youngest two son’s grandfather passed away.
 
And today,
Today I sit and desire nothing more than to just continue being authentically me.
 
I look at the changes, the life, the death and I know it is all beautiful. But there is this sense that I get that I am expected to be more emotional about things then what I really am. As though I am not putting on a grand enough show for my world.
 
Silly as that may sound, it does come in to me from outside sources and these little obnoxious voices that sound off in my head here and there that want me to focus on things that really have no significant impact on my life joy or happiness or fear for that matter.
 
Since the birth of my grandson two weeks ago I have been hit with the question, ” How does it feel to be old enough to be a grandma?”
 
And “Wow! Top of the totem pole. Enjoy him while you have the energy.”
 
It is like because I am a grandmother now,
even though there is the blessing of this sweet baby in my life that society believes that life is all down hill when this milestone happens. That you are almost around the corner from the grave.
 
And then,
last week my kids grandfather passes away unexpectedly from heart failure.
 
The thing society worries about.
DEATH.
Croaking.
 
And as a grandparent one must add this fear to the daily worry list I assume….
 
I think NOT!
 
But if we did not fear death enough as it is,
such events as a birth and then a death can bounce it around a tad more than normal.
 
It is my opinion that the reason we fear death so much is because we do not believe in who we really are. We give lip service to this thing called SOUL or SPIRIT and to the desire to believe in something greater than ourselves such as source, divine or God. But when we really get into it,
when we are faced with it, we question our belief and we find ourselves in a negative vibe of “hope.”
 
Now many believe that hope is a positive.
I not so much so.
 
To me hope is a negative word,
with negative energy attachments.
It is disempowering.
 
Just feel these statement-
 
” I hope I get a new job.”
” I hope I overcome this illness.”
” I hope she graduates school.”
“I hope nothing bad has happened.”
 
verses
 
“I know that the perfect job for me is around the corner.”
“I know I just need to support my body and take some time for me.”
“I know she is working hard to achieve her goals.”
“I know that things always work out for everyone’s highest and best good.”
 
Which side of the fence feels better to you?
Which side feels stronger?
More powerful?
More like it is focusing good vibes toward something vs. negative vibes?
 
 
We do this in so many ways.
Bring ourselves down.
Bring others down ( often without realizing the power of our words)
and focusing in on the negative all the while BELIEVING we are giving our best wishes or highest vibrational thoughts and focus.
 
But it ain’t true.
 
If we really believed we had a SOUL.
If we really believed that there was a God or something greater than self and it has a plan,
then we would only desire to live our life to the fullest and that has nothing to do with living in fear of death.
 
Fearing death disables us from being present in our life.
It has us act from a place of scarcity.
A place of disembodiment.
We tap out and try and hide from life.
All in the pursuit to live longer.
To not feel pain.
To not suffer.
To not have bad things happen.
 
But this is sheer craziness.
These suppose bad things are here to help us clarify what we want in life and from life.
 
These “bad” things help us discover who we are, want to be and they are blessings.
 
Not all blessings come in pretty little boxes.
Not all are sweet and sugar topped.
 
Without the contrast we never truly authentically get a chance to meet who we are.
 
Avoiding the contrast is for the weak.
It is for those who believe that they can somehow outsmart death.
They think that death is an ending.
When what if….
Croaking just was another step on our life path for our soul?
 
But hoping for survival in our current state of experience is silly.
What one can do,
is COMMIT to LIVING presently.
To loving this moment.
To expanding into their fullest potential and giving this amazing world their VERY BEST.
 
You will never achieve that,
living in FEAR.
You will never have that presence if you are trying to avoid death.
But you will miss out on all your BLESSINGS.
No matter how you perceive them.
 
And the even worse part is that you will never taste the raptures of your AUTHENTIC SELF.
 
You are beautiful.
You are powerful.
You are amazing.
You have so much to give this world.
 
Don’t let fear and worry of what you cannot avoid,
what you have no control over hide your light any longer love.
 
It is time for you to step up.
Claim Your Life.
And Stop Existing & Start Living
 
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Are you ready to commit to your SOUL?
Desiring something more in your life?
 
If you are someone who looks in the mirror every day and knows that you have so much more to offer this world, but feels stuck in how to go about revealing it, then perhaps we should speak.
 
If you feel a call in your gut and you know you need to just get the tools and find the support to step the eff up in your life once and for all and let your light shine in…
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work.
purpose.
 
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What is Your Desire?

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“I want for nothing. I desire everything.” – Kendal Williams

The other day I was listening to Alexander Brighton speaking during a coaching circle and he was sharing the concept of living in a state of gratitude while remaining hungry for life. This is exactly the high ground of manifestation that we need to come from but we are taught in this life that you must always want more and never be content with where you are. Now I can feel a bunch of people saying, “No, your wrong Kendal, we are not taught this. I was not taught this. I do not teach my children this.” But we are and we do. If it were not the case and we were all living from a state of gratitude and still full of desire then we would not see the rapid onslaught of people self medicating, taking multiple anti-depressants, hiding in video games or TV show’s or walking through their days looking like zombies. Instead we would all be welcoming the start of a new day, we would hungrily charge forth into our activities and rejoice for all the blessing that we have and all those that are still coming to us. We would REALIZE our true divinity and power and accept with a smile the fact that we are creating our reality each moment. We would be teaching our children these universal truths instead of telling them to just get a degree for a white collar job (that may not even be around when they graduate) so that they can pay the bills and survive.

How many times this last month did you feel like you were JUST surviving?

Being a survivor says that you are yes getting by, but not living to your full life capacity. Your not being challenged by life. Your not even really wanting the challenge and your shut down to your bliss. Survival in any form is about suppressing your true authentic divine self. It is about wearing the armor that you feel you need to protect yourself from life’s pains instead of allowing for the full flow of life to carry you into greatness. Surviving is the opposite of living.

If we actually believed that living from a grateful heart was one of the main key points to having and creating a life that we wanted then wouldn’t you think we would do just that. Be grateful. We do “tell” our children to be grateful for the food on the table, the roof over their head, clothes on their backs, etc. But are we modeling this gratitude?

As we “tell” our children to be grateful we also say to them, “be happy with what you have and STOP wanting,” yet we constantly exhibit in our own actions the reverse. We are not completely wrong in this attitude. If we could just get down the gratitude and change the unhappy wanting (unhappy wanting is wanting with the belief that we cannot have, or should not have/want, believing that we are not good enough to be/do/have, belief that things have always been one way and therefore cannot be another, etc.) to desire.

Desire is not about “hoping” that something will happen, it is not even dreaming about something, it is about going deeper to a soul level where we connect to the Source (god, the light, the creator, etc.) and feeling at our core what our life is to be like. What our soul KNOW’S we can achieve and should have. Desire is about living fully and every desire that we have is there to awaken us to what our potential is in this life. When we focus on these soul desires we start to attract to us the people and situations needed to help them materialize. The more we release our old programming (beliefs, thoughts and feelings) toward these desires the quicker we pull them into our life.

Allowing ourselves to experience more bliss in our day to day life instead of focusing on what we do not have and living in a state of scarcity helps put us into the vortex of abundance. There are many ways to get into this state of being:

  • Treat yourself to small luxuries each week
  • Stop announcing that you are broke. Instead say nothing.
  • When you find a penny or a dollar, say aloud, ” I am a money magnet.”
  • Smile often.
  • Except the kindness of a stranger, friend, lover or other.
  • Do not jump out of bed in the morning, instead breathe and paint a picture in your head of how you want your day to go.
  • Eliminate these words from your vocabulary: hope, I wish, fine, broke, I don’t have…, I can’t, luck, and if.
  • Flirt often and LOT’s.
  • Do one thing each week that scares you in a good way.
  • Have more orgasms. (to obtain optimal joy the suggested amount of orgasms to have in a week is at least 3, one a day is best.)
  • Tell yourself that you love yourself.

And BE in GRATITUDE for and with each breath.

–KW