Why I always called my ex-husband after having HIGH VIBE sex….
Okay today I am going to share an intimacy tale with you that I have shared with very few, but it is time for me to be vulnerable and share this as so often we are guilty of doing this very thing in different ways.
Let me paint you a picture.🌃
” My hands take his face and pulls him close for a kiss that not only is connective but penetrates my heart and soul. Our breath intertwines in this moment and becomes one. I can feel our souls dancing in this celebration of love and my body opens to him. My legs soften and open wider, my pelvis tilts as I pull him in. I can feel him enter me and we both gasp with pleasure from the sensation that pours through our beings, the sensation of coming home.
He moves his body in gentle thrusts while holding me. Hand in my hair, hand on my hip. My hips and whole body fluidly moves with each of his thrusts as we gaze deeply into each others eyes, amazed at how connected we are; how our hearts long to orgasm into rapture with each other. He presses deeper into my pussy as though he want to touch my heart with his cock. His pelvis rubs on my clit, his breath comes down on my neck and with each stroke I feel myself surrendering at intense levels. My pussy now wants to devour him, wants to swallow him as she pulls him to the deepest levels possible and the head of his cock rubs gently on my cervix.
Minutes turn into hours, orgasmic waves roll through my whole being and force me into greater ecstasy as he fiercely but gently fucks me open. Here we are two flesh’s, two hearts, two souls yet married together through our sexing. The spiritual dance and penetration that we give to each other is untouchable. Our breathing becomes united, my pussy clenches then pushes, quivers then squirts its sweet amrita. His cock becomes harder in these moments and the vibrations of his love expand out and penetrate my pelvis. I can feel the intensity of his love and the orgasmic energy coming up my spine. He pulls me in, holds my hands down and firmly whispers his demand in my ear, “ Give me your orgasm.“
“Give me your orgasm. Give it to me. I want to feel you cum on my cock.”
My body quivers, my breathing becomes short and tense for a moment. The building of climax that was there, is now at its peak. I can feel the sharpness of orgasm trying to escape from my clit as he rubs across it. My nipples are swollen and his chest hair is almost to much sensation, but as they tickle my flesh the shaking of my thighs and pussy bursts into bliss. Air is released from my mouth, my chest softens, my hands drop down to the bed and he continues to stroke.
Each stroke although soft and delicate in this moment does not let me relax but keeps my orgasm in a soft wave where he can play me like an instrument beneath him to his will and desire. Where he can command me with his divine masculine to give him my orgasm. Over and over again, he strokes me into submission.”
Okay so you get the picture, right?
It was hot.
It was intense.
It was f-cking AMAZING!
It was passionate, present, INTIMATE and HIGH VIBE!
So much so that with this particular lover,
we were in such alignment,
the love was so deep and penetrative,
we had many moments where the smell of roses would waft up from our love making as though were making love in a bed of them.
Not a rose in sight…🌹🌹🌹
~That is HIGH VIBE SEX~
Now here is where things get interesting though.
Here is where I sorta loose my mind.
After such a deeply intimate high vibe experience with my lover,
for a few years I felt drawn to call my ex-husband while driving home from my lovers house back to mine.
it was no matter the hour of the day or night,
I would find myself being guided off to call my ex.
Logically I would tell myself,
“You are on top of the world right now. You need to check in with him in regards to the children or what have you ANYWAY, and RIGHT NOW nothing can get you down. You can handle his low energy, and can maybe even give him a positive boost. Call.”
And so I would call him.
And we would speak. And we would talk about what ever.
He quickly picked up on the fact that I was calling after being with this particular lover who would have my heart and soul hanging from the heavens in ecstasy and I think he got to a point where he consciously allowed himself to bask in that turned on, pumped up HIGH VIBE I was offering.
But what it took me a few years to grasp was WHY I was being called to reach out to him after having these powerful emotional, sexual, energetic experiences with my lover?
You see, after I got about three quarts of the way in on a phone call to my ex-husband, my HIGH VIBE would not be nearly as HIGH.
My turned on state would not be turned on, it would be maybe comfortable, happy but not ecstatic any longer.
My focus, my clarity and creativity that the love making had opened up to me would dissipate.
I was in an essence GIVING MY POWER.
MY TURNED ON ENERGY.
MY HIGH VIBE away for free to him.
So why would I do this?
I did it because as much as I enjoyed all that I was feeling,
all the creative flow and open heartedness. The spiritual alignment.
I was UNCOMFORTABLE holding this energy in my being.
It was still foreign to feel so good.
I almost had shame wrapped up around my feel good.
Guilt in the fact that I was so happy, turned on, orgasmic.
As though I did not deserve it.
And because FEELING GOOD was so hard to hold in my body, I did what I had to do to get back into my comfort zone. I drained myself.
And this is the point I want to share with you today.
So often we humans are more comfortable with LOW VIBE than HIGH VIBE.
We may question ourselves or others as to,
“Why are you so happy?”
We make statements such as,
“What have you been smoking?”
If someone brags a little too much about themselves or shows a little too much pride in something of theirs our response is,
“Think much of yourself?”
We have been programmed to believe that being to happy,
being in love with ourselves,
being proud of ourselves,
Thus when we access these higher levels of vibration,
energy, emotion, alignment,
we feel uncomfortable.
We look for what is wrong with it.
We expect the bottom to drop out.
For it to be hoax.
It cannot be right, true or our norm.
And so, before we can experience a let down.
Before it is taken from us.
We subconsciously look for ways to off set it.
To level ourselves out.
When if we wanted to grow ourselves,
to be more comfortable in HIGH VIBE,
and live an ecstatic life,
that F-ck YES! Life I am always preaching about,
what one would need to do,
would instead of letting the energy out in some way,
would be to HOLD the experience.
Hold the FEELING.
Hold the EMOTION.
Hold the DESIRE to SHARE.
Build up your ENERGETIC Muscles you could say.
GROW your SPIRITUAL BODY.
And in growing your spiritual body and energetic muscles,
you get more and more comfortable with HIGH VIBE Living.
You grow to expect it.
To desire it.
And guess what?
You start to manifest more of it.
Because it becomes your norm.
And whatever your normal is,
Is exactly what you get more of.
Because it is what you expect to get.
Where are you draining your HIGH VIBE?
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
Why are you settling for a small lifeless life? Are you sitting back night after night, watching Netflix and the news, playing games on Facebook and scrolling through your feed, wishing that you knew what to do and how to achieve something MORE. In the back of your mind is there a small voice whispering that it is possible, but the world around you is screaming that it is absurd to want anything other than what you already have?
So do you continue on with your lifeless life and allow the beauty of what could be, to be stripped away from your soul yet another year?
Living for the weekends.
Living for the holidays.
Living for that 2 weeks of vacation.
Living for the 5 o’clock hour where we can dart off to our local little watering hole and sit with others who are in the same constricting shoes of this life.
This is NOT Orgasmic Freedom Based Living!
This sure the effing is NOT!
We have grown so comfortable to reside here in hell. We actually have brainwashed ourselves to BELIEVE that this is what living is. We have come to terms with the supposed facts of this delusional state of existing and many of us have no clue how to live outside of this illusion.
So we sign another year long lease and get comfortable in our suffering.
It does not have to be this way though. At any given moment in time we have the ability and choice to WAKE THE F*CK UP! and choose differently. God gave us free will so that we could overcome the evils of this land. The only thing asked of us is to BECOME CONSCIOUS. This is the only step needed to turn the corner to a new life and RECEIVE all the blessings that you crave.
YES! all you have to do to live in orgasm every day and in every moment is to become conscious and choose differently.
You must choose the higher ground which is the ground of not accepting a small life. Not accepting AVERAGE and ORDINARY. Not accepting what the evils of the world would have you believe is living.
*Thank you Photographyinwonderland. for the photoshoot