GET OUT OF YOUR OWN LIGHT.

THE FUTURE IS ALWAYS BRIGHT…. NO MATTER THE SHADOW OF THE MOUNTAIN.

 

Recently my life partner and I drove up to Pikes Peak in Colorado together. It was bitter cold out, the fresh snow lay everywhere. People flocked to sled and enjoy snow ball fights.

The crisp winter wind felt amazing on my flesh as I stood there looking out over the valley that lay at the base of the peak.

 

I recall at one moment, standing with my partner’s arms around me. We looked out at the vastness before us,

and I could feel the message of the universe in that moment.

There we were, in the shadow of Pikes Peak, a great mountain blocking the rays of the warm sun, a crisp snowy breeze blowing around us, and we felt limitless in that space.

 

We felt grounded.

Stroung.

and in love with life.

Clarity in what we wanted and the path that we had chosen together was our guiding light.

Just like the miles that stretched out in front of this mountain were sunstruck, warm and bright, so was our future.

 

And I was reminded…

That you cannot always pre-map out the journey.

Often great things come unexpected.

However,

 

YOU WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU BELIEVE IS YOURS.

 

If you believe that your possibilities are limitless,

then they are.

If you believe that you are surrounded and held in love,

then you are.

If you believe that you can live a life of abundance, adventure and joy,

then you can.

 

The problem is that so often we choose to own our worst nightmares.

 

We choose to focus in on what we don’t have and accept it as our reality,

we purchase that for our life destination and journey instead of what we claim that we hunger for at our souls level.

 

And THIS REALITY IS SO THEN.

You may say that you did not plan for all the shit to happen,

that its not in your plan or picture to stand there without a great love in your life,

or to believe that you always lose in love.

You may claim that its not in your agenda to create financial destruction,

the loss of house and home,

divorce, strife and health issues,

but honey, the reality is that you are looking for it.

 

This time of Covid has proven to me just how many people leap at the opportunity to jump into their victim status,

I see so many people wanting to test positive for the Rona,

saying,

” I am sick. I must have the Rone.”

 

or blaming the economy because of critical times for their financial pictures,

their relationship stress.

Their “inability” to get out and do things,

for their weight gain, poor eating and sluggish habits.

 

Well if your hidden agenda is to be a victim,

then guess what luv,

YOU WILL BE A MF VICTIM.

 

And you will stay in the shadow of life,

in the shadow of all those who choose differently.

You will stand there,

and be a spectator to others thriving,

because you planned to be limited by life.

 

YOU EXPECT TO BE LIMITED.

 

And you will only ever get as far as you plan.

Or you could open up those plans to the possibilities that YOU ARE IN FACT LIMITLESS.

 

Unless, that scares you too much, of course.

Because that might require you to step out of the herd,

and grow a pair.

That might demand of you to go digging deeper inside yourself then you have ever gone before.

That might require you to look good and hard at your inner demons ,

those thoughts, fears, desires, and opinions,

that are holding you the f-ck back.

 

Now granted you can continue down that path you are on,

you can plot it out,

step by step,

and you can prepare for the worst case scenarios in every which way possible,

and you can stand guard.

Pick your MF armour up and be ready to battle life at every perceived turn,

and sure that might not be bad,

if your goal in life is to survive it long enough to die anyway,

and look back at a empty path,

where you retreated and warred with anything that caused you to expand.

With anything that asked you to trust in your heart and soul.

That required you to have it to leap and open your wings.

 

Sure you can get by like that.

The majority of folks do.

 

But thats all they do,

GET BY.

 

And sit there in the land of spectatorship.

Wishing for something more.

Questioning why others always have, do and create.

Not feeling fulfilled.

Seen.

Truly loved.

 

Or…

 

You could do something a bit differently and step out of the crowd.

You could realize that the valley before you lit up with all that radiant glory,

is yours for the taking.

 

It will just require you to have a higher perspective on life.

To tap the f-ck into your truth,

and to have enough courage to say F-ck Yes! To You.

 

This Is not average and ordinary living.

No.

What I am proclaiming and believe is accessible and our right as humans is to live limitless and THRIVE.

 

That we each are worthy beyond measure of just that.

That our dreams and desires are set before us not to tease us,

not to cause us disappointment in life and self,

or point out our lack or inabilities,

but instead they are put there,

 

FOR THE TAKING.

 

They are there because they are rightfully ours to begin with.

 

They WILL REQUIRE us to become a match to them.

 

They will require that we step out of our comfort zones.

They will require that we expand,

that we open ourselves up to our limitlessness.

 

They will without a doubt require that WE KNOW WHAT WE WANT.

 

And the courage to gain all that we want and feel that depth and level of fulfillment,

well it will only come when we stop standing in the way of our own sunshine as Waldo Emerson said.

 

Because the reality is….

That most of the mountains that we believe are blocking our path and our great plans,

are only us standing in our own sunshine.

 

 

Time to set yourself free baby.

Time to know your truth.

 

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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Randevuing With The Sweetest Parts Of Life – No Matter The Pain they Cause Us.

LATELY I WAS GIFTED THE FREEDOM TO FULLY FEEL BACK INTO ME, BACK INTO WHAT I WANT FOR, CRAVE FOR, DEMAND IN LIFE AND RELATIONSHIP.
I have been sitting with this feeling of peace with elation now for a couple of weeks,
where if you had asked me a few weeks prior what I was feeling I would have shared that I felt like I was on uncertain grounds, a feeling of egg shells and anxiety which is nothing of the sort of person I am or in alignment to the life that I desire.
I knew that things were about to change,
This shift was upon me.
My energy had been quaking for months to be set free.
Transformation was in the cards you could say and I knew that when the momentum was fully upon it that there would be no turning back,
no side stepping out of the way and that my world would forever change.
I felt fear and doubt.
I felt as though I should try and hide,
to shut down this immense urge to just run forward and let gravity take me.
I had been restricting for so long,
putting up walls and barriers as to hold in place the container that I had built.
A beautiful, fun and loving container,
but one that had become harnessing of the energy that was birthing in me.
And so I felt the doubt rise up in me,
I felt afraid to move forward.
I thought that I had it under control…lol
And like every soul who says “I got this,” and turns their back on transformation, God steps in and reminds us that we have so much more to live for, so much more to do and share and that our turn away is unacceptable, for we are his chosen one’s. We are the ones that must feel into our hearts and face the fears, expand our vessels and step forward in faith, in truth and with our core desires.
And here I am…
A few weeks later after yet another beautiful upheaval of revealing truth, authenticity and power.
Leaning into the new territory which bears with it an awakening of my past revelations of self that I had closed myself off too.
All my excuses, all my denials, all my “hope that things could be or would be,” –GONE!
Replaced with peace,
replaced with elation,
replaced with love, true love and allowance of the self.
Replaced with desire.
Replaced with direction.
And guess what…
a feeling of ease and flow,
the realization that all that other stuff that I had been doing for the last little bit of my life was me trying to make something happen,
trying to fit in a container that did not fit me,
trying to push things to my will,
or sacrifice myself despite my core.
No f-cking big shocker there as to why there was anxiety, constraint and egg shells.
No wonder I was not expanding, stretching and feeling fully seen or accepted.
I had settled in certain ways for something less of myself then what and who I am.
The revelation that when we are in alignment to soul and God that our worlds just collide with exactly what we need and desire,
that things manifest with ease and f-cking speed.
It is us that slows it down.
Through our fear.
Through our attempts to control it and make it fit prettily in a box that is not even our own.
And then God comes through with a clean up crew,
he strikes us down so it often appears so that we can rise stronger,
more certain and knowing in who we are.
And our rise stems from how we choose to handle the strike down.
It is here in the randevu with something that is less than wonderful appearing, that we discover the sweetest of gifts that life has to offer us.
Because it is here that we experience expansion.
So it always comes down to how we take the sweetness of all of it and not freak the f-ck out in what could feel terrifying, scary, painful and not what we had necessarily wanted for.
You see it is the freaking out in these soul appointments with expansion that feel like the absence of something that we want for that can hold us in a setback. That can lock us into a wound and keep our pain anchored and us unable to move forward and breathe into the gift that is being offered.
Our capacity to randevu with the sweetest parts of life is immense,
but we have to be willing to let go of the things that we hold onto out of fear that we will receive no more than just that.
And here my dear reader is where I find myself the last two plus weeks of my world.
Breathing into this space,
receiving in truth every f-cking thing that my heart has wanted for for some time,
stepping back into what I know is true and my core,
asking for life to give me my desires and being willing to see them manifest before my eyes in ease and with great speed,
putting down the “what if splat scenarios” and just leaning into it.
Showing up in all areas,
my business…
my health…
my family…
my relationships….
my sex and love…
in FAITH.
And actually more than faith….
CERTAINTY that as long as I stay true to my core,
and aligned to my heart which is my communication source to my soul and thus to God,
that everything,
every aspect of life is perfect and sweet.
And that the sweetest moments are here before me just awaiting my sipping of them.
I bring this 6-AM revelation to you now.
I bring to you the possibility that what you have been feeling to push on, to make happen, to direct and do the work around is actually the reason that you are still locked down where you are at.
I bring to you the concept that sometimes it’s in the letting go,
truly letting go and letting yourself fall so that you can rise again renewed that is the things we must do to have the life that we want for.
I speak to you the idea,
that maybe, just maybe everything is perfect. Even though you are scared, feeling lost, in pain, sitting in suffering that it is just what you need to become exactly who you were meant to be,
and that your power is just there under the surface of that dynamic beautiful person that you are.
Perhaps it is time that you allow yourself opportunities to be, have and do what your soul craves for.
Perhaps it is time to give yourself permission, love to know yourself and love yourself fully.
So that forever more you will be able to lean into the gravity that calls you forward and not fear the surrender but welcome the lifting.
In deep love for you today,
during our worlds topsy turvy energies and changes,
I share this little tale and pray that you take a moment in your busy day to be with the most important person in your world and ask yourself, “Who am I truly? and what do a want for sincerely?”
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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Let’s Be Real…. YOU HAVE TRUST ISSUES.

IT’S YOUR BITCHIN’ MOANING AND COMPLAINING.

 

Truth Time Baby!

 

I get that 2020 has been a rocky sorta year so far and it looks like the fun is not coming to a stop anytime soon.

 

I get that you have been just surviving up to this point,

that the news you are listening too has you scared shitless most days,

and questioning what is going on in our world.

Are these the end of days?

Is this how our world goes down?

How humanity comes to an end?

 

I get that you have been watching all the negative reports about COVID spikes,

about racial issues and wrong doings,

about possible wars,

and let’s not forget the horrors of child sex trafficing and Hollywood.

 

It’s all just a bunch of hopeless suffering that causes you upset and torment,

makes your heart crumble and makes you want to not believe that it is so.

 

And so it is that you are finding yourself in 2020 saying that it is a raging shit show of a year,

feeling like our economy is forever changed ( and it is),

and not knowing if you will make it through or if you will become one of the millions who find themselves drowning in the hysteria,

in the loss of a job, savings, house, car and relationship,

and maybe even health.

 

There is one thing though that can change all of this for you.

 

It’s something that no one can ever take away,

it’s something that you can always be in control of,

and it is the deciding factor if you are in SOUL ALIGNMENT or NOT.

 

And that is your ATTITUDE.

 

Your attitude dictates your emotional response patterns to outside events and to what you are thinking.

 

Most people react from an emotional level,

they live in a reactive state instead of a proactive state of living.

 

Most people never realize that they can choose their emotional response to situations,

 

ANY SITUATION.

 

Including how 2020 is manifesting for our world.

Choosing to focus on feeling good,

on living a life of thriving and love,

abundance and connection,

living your TRUTH is nothing more than a commitment to SELF and a TRUST in the universe/God to deliver it outside of what the world is moving through.

 

It is choosing to not fall prey to all the negativity.

 

Now, don’t get me wrong this is not saying to close your eyes and ignore the world topics that are at hand,

often we believe that positivity means to ignore pain, stress and issues and to just put our attention on the good or the desire for good,

 

but that is not realistic.

You can choose to have an attitude of love, beauty and good vibes and still be AWARE and even outspoken about issues and causes that tug at your heart and soul.

 

You can still spread knowledge,

be a crusader,

a patriot,

and see the changes that need to occur.

 

But you will find yourself coming at these things from a different space than those who are focused on complaining, bitching, moaning and fearing about life.

 

You will be able to stand strong in knowing that YOU…

 

you are the co-creator of your life expression,

that you get to choose your thoughts,

you get to choose what you apply your focus too,

you get to choose your reactions,

and your feelings.

 

And you will KNOW that by staying in SOUL ALIGNMENT that your life will be evidence that none of us were ever born to live a life of suffering.

 

Because you will be walking through this year,

seeing all of its horrors,

counting your blessings from a place of love and gratitude,

not from a place of fear.

You will be connecting to loved ones and strangers,

you will be exploring life as it was always intended in its newness of each day,

you will not be terrified to wake up and feel like you must hide from your life to survive,

but instead you will see the sun shining and breathe deep in the crisp morning air.

You will be making plans of travels and community,

looking at family events and business possibilities,

you will know that you are supported in your TRUST that God/Universe has your back and that by making your ALIGNMENT the most important thing,

that your life will be one of THRIVING in this time of chaos.

 

But the THRIVING only comes from the alignment to the soul.

And your state of mind and emotion tells you EXACTLY where you are at at any given moment in time.

 

If you are among the millions who are bitchin’, moaning and complaining,

who are pointing fingers and shaming,

judging and hating,

fearing their neighbours and relatives,

looking at anyone who comes within eyesight range as though they have a gun to your head,

then it’s time that you get real about where your alignment is actually at.

 

DO YOU FEEL THAT FEAR AND UNREST IN YOUR BEING?

 

That is a sign that your SOUL feels differently than your fear based ego mind.

 

That is a sign that you are calling to you all that you do not want for,

but what you fear instead.

 

That is sign that it’s time love to start TRUSTING in God,

trusting in the laws of the universe,

and in your deepest self wisdom.

 

It is a sign to stop the insanity and stop adding to the pot of chaos and suffering for 2020 and the future.

 

It is your bitchin, moaning and complaining that is keeping your desired life of abundance, joy, pleasure, connection and heath at bay.

 

And you love…

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN CHANGE IT.

 

Are you ready to take responsibility for your life and what your experiences are or are you content in the comforts of your suffering?

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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Question Your Reality and Logic Always.

Yesterday I learned something new about our pandemic….

 

Okay so it’s not really new.

But it was certainly made very aware to me multiple times in a few hours of my day and adventure with family.

 

As you know,

This whole thing has not set off my go-go attitude or adventure and experience for self and my family.

 

My children will not recall this crazy time in our history as a time when they were trapped in the house, unable to play or see loved one’s.

 

But instead they will look at it as another year that mom was sharing life with them,

ton’s of adventures, laughter, fun and growing.

They will look back and be able to recall chasing crabs at midnight on the beach after a late night under the stars BBQ.

They will look back and recall the horseback riding and firefly catching in the Ozarks as well as facing their fears of jumping off 20 foot cliffs into rivers of water.

They will recall the late night backyard fires and roasting marshmallows,

the many camp trips where they fished, hiked and told shadow stories at bedtime,

they will recall all the outside roller skating, bike riding, gardening and building.

They will think on laughter with family and friends,

ton’s of social activity,

birthdays abound with joy.

 

My children will not understand what quarantine is,

nor the depression or fear of this world at this time.

 

But, yesterday I was made aware of the truth yet again,

and this truth that keeps ringing,

supports my freedom based views and living.

 

Adventures to waterparks and rides,

from some of Texas’s biggest amusement parks,

back to back playing in one day to learn all about this new covid way.

 

The truth on healing covid was made aware to me as I placed my mask on all my family to enter a burger place for lunch in the amusement park,

We stood in line 4 to 6 feet from anyone else,

table all around us with people eating, drinking and chatting ( no masks on at tables because that was a covid safe space),

Just 4 feet from where I stand in line, mask on face.

I get my food from workers who wear masks under their noses and chins,

and walk outside to sit down to eat.

I had been told by park attendants left and right to keep my mask on myself and my small children,

they hammered strong words of YOU MUST WEAR YOUR MASK…

and I abided (for the most part, except for when my children looked like they were going to pass out),

 

but here we were eating lunch,

passer bys looked at us as we sat in the middle of everything MASK FREE eating for 30 minutes.

Fellow people consuming beverages and food sat anywhere from 3 to 6 feet away as well MASK FREE eating for the same time frames….

Here in this space of eating,

WE WERE SAFE,

safe from contracting,

safe from passing,

safe in our open air eating space.

It was like as long as I sat here eating or drinking,

or as long as I had food or drink in my hand then I was safe to not wear a mask,

I was suddenly allowed and healed even from this illness that I could have and could kill some innocent person with unknowingly,

and then a few hours later I found myself and family at a large water park…..

 

Here we MUST WEAR A MASK TO ENTER….

and as soon as we passed the gates….

 

You are FREE TO GO WITHOUT.

Play in the water,

sit and eat,

stand in a line upon each other, float, swim, ride….

all mask free because here at the water park you are safe from Covid.

You cannot pass it,

you can not get it.

You are safe….

 

awe, but NO you are not.

If you need to pee,

well now,

now you may carry it,

you may catch it,

so grab that mask because it’s a must.

You may have sat a table for an hour next to that person in front of you mask free,

but now in this moment where you are toilets or showers apart you are suddenly ill and contagious.

Take heed…

The mandate is in place.

 

And so, the solution to curing Coivd is keep eating and drinking,

go to water parks abound.

You will never catch covid as long as you do this,

but if you are fishing on a stream by yourself,

or if you stand in your own back yard or walk in your community park or store,

lord help you luv,

because suddenly you are dangerous and weak,

You might kill an innocent stranger or obtain this illness yourself.

 

Perhaps we should all start to drink Starbucks while shopping so we are Covid safe.

And too all you fishermen and hikers, bikers and joggers…. Wear your masks and be safe. 

Mother nature is out to get you.

 

 

Now I know that this little musing may have pissed some of you off. 

And for this I do not apologize but instead ask you to question the reality of what I shared from my adventure yesterday. 

Start to question the logic behind all the mandates and rules. 

Start to ask yourself why this is okay, but this is not. 

And if you find yourself feeling angry and hateful toward myself and this share, 

Then please just delete me if you are not willing to see reason. 

 

We can have different views and not be right. 

For what is right for you, 

Does not have to be for all, 

Just as what is right for me, 

You do not have to agree with or understand. 

 

The point of my share is simple….

Question those that control your life experience, 

Question your reality and the logic behind it. 

 

And know that you are worthy of thriving, 

And worthy of a life full of love, abundance and connection. 

It is always and will forever remain your choice as to what you perceive and live. 

 

Live free. 

Thrive. 

Dream. 

Live.

 

 

As Always, 

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

THIS is My Tagline To Life and HERE IS WHY.

“CBD lovin’, anti-vaxxing, interracial family, sexually open and confident, slutty AF some may say, freedom focused, excepting of all.”

 

THIS is my lifestyle tagline.

THIS is my family tagline.

THIS is my belief’s tagline.

 

And why would this be my tag line?

Because I believe in freedom of speach, love, sex, religion,choices in life and believe that no matter who you are, ( race, religion, polical views, sex, sexual preferences, economic standing or other) that WE ARE ALL WORTHY.

 

Worthy of what you may ask?

 

Worthy of  living.

Not just existing.

Worthy of all the things stated above.

Worthy of having our own opinions.

Worthy of not being shamed or stoned by others ideas, judgements, opinions or fears.

Worthy of just being us.

 

Many disagree with me on many topics.

And the thing that comes through the most in the conversations and debates is a desire to shush me.

To the point that recently I was multiple times told that I was a bad citizen for my views, that I was not compassionate and did not care for others, that I was a horrible human being, that I should shut up, and that if I get sick to not waste the medical systems time but to just die at home.

 

All of these statements came because of a disagreement in ideas and beliefs.

 

Differences of views.

 

All of these stones thrown had the strong feeling of wanting to shame, control and silence what did not align to their beliefs and views of current.

 

And as I read through comments of over a hundred plus,

I found myself sitting in gratitude for these individuals’ truth shares.

 

I am not a person that has an issue with seeing things differently then the masses,

differently then my lover, my child or my friend.

And I know that my views on life are a far cry from average and ordinary.

 

And it is beautiful to me that we humans are so diverse in our desires, our feelings and beliefs.

It’s what makes us each so unique.

But typically we deeply fear what is not like us.

What is not common or what we perceive as normal.

Our fear makes us want to eradicate whatever is not perceived the same as us.

 

And this has been our human nature forever.

The reason I do not lay claim to a religion is because religion is a prime example of this belief structure that there is ONLY ONE WAY.

 

I believe that we are all truly children of God no matter our race, belief, sex or preferences.

I believe that the creator moves through us all.

And that our differences are revealing how diverse God truly is.

I believe that “made in his image” does not refer to our race, sex or other but is actaully speaking of the energy, the life and consciousness, the love that resides in all of us.

 

I believe that we are each here to learn from one another and that one of our biggest life lessons is to learn to love our differences.

 

The only way that we can ever do this though is to learn to love ourselves at a deep level first.

To strip ourselves from this concept that we are here to please others ideas, views or beliefs about us.

Self-love comes from seeing our light and darkness and making peace with them both.

Self- love comes from knowing our own value.

Self- love comes from respecting ourselves enough to not sway to the worlds ideas and perceptions, nor to just give up ourselves because we make another uncomfortable with our views and beliefs.

Self- love is mandatory if we are to ever have true unconditional love for any other human as well.

And compassion can only come when we have it for ourselves first.

Same for any positive characteristic that we value such as respect or understanding.

 

If we believe that we are responsible for everyone elses everything and they for our feelings, fears and hopes then all we are showing is our lack of clarity within who we are.

 

To have understanding,

we need to listen,

we need to inquire,

we need to learn to breathe and not be so reactive,

jumping to conclusions.

We need to realize that this person that we want to have understand us,

desires the same.

The majority of our fights in our world and in our own homes comes about because we suck at communication skills.

And the ones listed above are the highlighted ones that need attention from all of us.

 

The radical conversations that are traveling around the world right now are just highlighting the true poison that resides within each of our lives.

 

It is fear.

And it is fear of differences more than anything else.

And so we run around pointing fingers and laying blame on everyone who thinks differently or looks differently proclaiming that we love unconditionally, stating that we are wanting peace, freedom, well being for all but continuing the blame game as we spew out our hatred and lack of toleration or desire to understand our fellow human beings.

 

All the while believing that we love ourselves and that is why we are fighting and hating.

 

When we speak such poison as some of the things I have heard the last few weeks it saddens my soul at how many people truly are lost within themselves and hold so much anger and hatred.

 

When we can get to a point where we can agree to disagree and still love our fellow human despite the difference,

then we will be in a place where we can heal and make true change in our world as well as in our communities and home.

 

But this will only happen when we can learn to love ourselves deeply. To look within ourselves and love all our flaws, all our sins, all our wounds as well as our beauty.

 

Until then,

we will remain lost and hateful.

 

To freedom.

To love.

To all our beautiful differences.

 

Be the change, start loving unconditionally today, ‘starting with yourself.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

Want to learn more about self-love practices that can transform your reality from average and ordinary to a F-ck Yes Life? Message me today.

 

Too Many Tabs Open Will Cause You To Stop Feeling Your Life.

I have too many tabs open.

I cannot compute any longer.

My breaker box is on overload and it’s causing me to numb out.

 

Just this morning I was explaining to my lover that I am a person who does not do well with a bunch of unfinished projects just sitting around. It causes me stress and if I cannot get them completed by myself, if they are out of my control then I end up numbing myself out to them and thus to life.

 

I love dreaming things into reality.

There is no better feeling than to witness the birth of a dream being realized.

 

I love seeing things being built.

Coming together,

watching the walls of a project go up and picking out all the little details to make it my own.

I love seeing something come into reality.

 

Don’t you?

 

It feels good.

It feels fulfilling.

It has a certain charge to it.

And it makes you want to explore more,

dream more, feel more, witness more.

 

But when you get too many tabs open,

you end up with chaos.

And I don’t know about you but when my outside world has too many projects to complete and I look around,

I feel overwhelmed and anxious.

I don’t know where to start and I start to doubt myself.

All my self sabotage programs come up and I start to hear the roar of you are not good enough, there is not enough of you to go around, get your shit together, you are messy, you are scattered, you are lost.

 

And to a degree these programs are damn f-cking correct.

 

I am feeling chaotic, lost and like there  is not enough of me to go around.

 

And so, I turn myself off to feeling it.

These thoughts create a mindset that I know at my core will not do me any favors, so it is best to just disconnect from them. Shut that shit down or go into a panic or a rage about the mess of life.

 

My head in these times gets so overloaded with thoughts and my internal check list is longer than you can imagine.

 

So I attempt to shut it all down and turn away from it.

But there is a mighty big issue with this attitude that I am prone to.

 

You see you don’t get to just shut down one feeling.

or one thought line.

You don’t get to just turn away from this one thing,

or detach from it and look another direction without the same distancing happening there too.

 

That background thought processor is on overdrive and it’s running crazy.

The checklist is flashing warning lights at you when you close your eyes.

And you wake up and what are you greeted with?

 

The chaos.

All the tabs that you left open that were draining your energy even though you closed the lid to the computer to let it rest.

 

Closing the lid,  or detaching yourself from the list of chaos that is causing you overwhelm and anxiety can work in short spurts IF…

 

IF you open back up shortly thereafter and get the shit taken care of.

 

But if you just bounce from project to project ( tab to tab)

and never finish it up you drain yourself and never allow yourself to shut fully down to recharge.

 

In this case recharging means,

projects complete to you can be PRESENT in the moment with whatever you are doing to relax, to step away, to charge yourself.

 

This includes your sex life,

playful events, dates, experiences and just chilling with the family or friends.

 

Lately, I have noticed that I have too many tabs open.

And it’s causing me to numb out to everything because I am burned out mentally and emotionally with things.

I am starting to feel the spin of constant thoughts that won’t leave me to rest no matter what I try to do to step away and give myself a break.

 

My mind is on hyper drive.

And without rest I am having trouble being present in my life,

in my sex, in my work, in my daily yoga or just watching a movie.

 

This lack of presence and hyperdrive of thoughts has the nasty effect of stunting desire.

And leaves you with a feeling of, “I am bored.”

 

And when you are bored and desireless,

you don’t have much motivation,

much turn on for life or love or creation,

you don’t really care because caring would start up those engines of anxiety and overwhelm and your tank is empty to why bother.

 

So hands go up to the heaven,

you drop to your knees,

leane back on the floor and say….

 

“F-ck It!”

 

Too many tabs open.

It’s not a great space.

But right now in our world, I believe that many of us are feeling this way. We have been busy entertaining ourselves with home repairs, projects galore, picking up extra work, etc, etc,

and we have been more aware of all the spots in our life that we are not satisfied, that perhaps we feel blaise, or that we are just settling, just getting by.

 

Our souls are not designed for blaise or getting by.

We were not born with the desire to settle in life.

We are all creators.

We are all born to LIVE.

 

So what is the answer to, too many tabs open and what it causes in the long haul?

 

Close the effing tabs!

Deal with your shit.

and then allow yourself a reboot.

Give your mental, emotional and physical bodies a break.

It does not take long to recharge,

but if you keep those tabs open and just go through the motions of taking a break then you are doing yourself a disservice.

 

Today I encourage you to take things off your mental list by delegating, writing it down and hiring out what you can. Looking at what you actually need to get done and what you “think” you need to get done and letting go of anything that is causing you mental or emotional stress that is NOT NEEDED.

Then DO THE DAMN THINGS that will clear your tabs.

Once that’s done, go find humor.

Go find play.

Laugh.

And make your work be about being present in your body.

You have not allowed yourself to embody yourself all this time because your internal space was taken up with chaos and overwhelm, but now you can.

 

Give yourself permission to breathe into YOU.

 

You are worthy of THRIVING.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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Is there “Life” in Your Years? Or Are You Just Shifting Paperwork?

Keeping it all together can be effing difficult,
can it not?
 
2020 has started with a BIG BANG,
and not the kind that equates to eye’s rolling in the back of your head as you gasp for air and claw at sheets while calling out OMG! in a state of orgasm or ecstasy.
 
The last ten days had been a roller coaster ride of emotions, events, must do’s, drama, hustle and a packed schedule plus a 23 hour road trip home from Tahoe to Dallas.
 
But I would not change it for the world.
And from the looks of my calander I would say that things are not going to chill out any time in the near future either.
 
Now I am a person who thrives in hustle and bustle.
I also thrive in calm and peace, with limited movement.
And I have learned that in order for me to be living at my maximum potential that I do best with a 70/30 split on these two.
 
Life has not always been like this though,
a little over a decade ago, maybe 13 or 14 years back,
(and thank you Facebook for your memories that you share)
I had more of the nothing happening then the hustle and bustle of todays busy schedule and family. What I also had more of was toxic thinking,
limited acting on goals and desires,
a feeling of lostness and emptiness,
a not knowing of self,
and limited “happy” moments.
 
Today, as I have been up since 5-AM and going strong,
I have been pondering this 70/30 balance of my current life and what it has to offer my desired dreams and lifestyle. What would I change? What do I crave more or less of?
Where am I not showing up the way that I want? Where am I allowing myself to be limited?
 
I was reminded by a quote I posted 9 years ago by Abraham Lincoln, ” And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.”
 
About the importance of remembering to LIVE.
 
It’s not even about the hustle and bustle as I call it,
because we can get caught up in this hustle and bustle and busy work and “think” that it is living when in fact we are just shifting papers on the desk of life and getting no where in a hurry.
 
Living is not about business.
Living is about breathing in the moments.
Feeling fulfilled, connected, happy, sad, orgasmic, empty, creative, adventurous.
 
Living is about FEELING life move through you.
And when we are just shifting papers on our desk of life,
we are not living.
Sure we may have a clean home and our bills paid.
We may have three masters degrees and all the fancy electronic devices known to man.
But can you say you feel fullfilled?
 
Most people cannot.
Most people feel lost and without life purpose.
Searching for the elusive thing called happiness.
And this is because they are not focusing on putting life into their years.
They are filling years with busy work.
 
So what can you do to not expereince this empty hustle and bustle but instead put life into your years?
 
You can start with these basic focal points:
🔥Get Clarity Into Who You Want To Be In Life-
Who do I want to become as a person, and what do I really want right now in my personal and professional life?
What areas of my lacking in and why?
Where do I feel certainty at in my life right now?
🔥Get Real About Your Energy Levels-
Do I have the physical stamina and vibrancy to accomplish my goals and feel energized about life every day?
What are major factors contributing to the way I feel?
🔥Check In On Your Personal Courage –
Where am I stepping up and leaning in on my edge right now in life? Wheree am I backing down?
🔥Get Real About What Your Productivity Really Is-
Where am I getting sucked into distraction?
Where am I holding my focus and crushing it with my dreams, desires and goals?
How can I get better?
🔥What Does Your Impact/Influence Say About Your Life-
Do I have the level of influence/respect/intimacy that I need and want to accomplish my goals and dreams with my family, lover, friends, business co-workers/partners or anyone that I need for support to make my dreams/goals happen?
What areas of my life am I lacking influence/impact/respect/intimacy in that I need to accomplish my desired life?
 
I don’t know about you,
but I want to CRUSH 2020.
I want to totally 💃💃💃 ROCK OUT the year!!!
 
And in order to do that I know that my CERTAINTY and CLARITY in myself and my desired outcome needs to be formulated.
 
That means that in reality,
there is no effing time for the busy work of shifting papers on my life desk.
There is ONLY time to focus on LIVING, EXPANDING and ENJOYING.
 
And the successful one’s know this.
We get it.
You may wonder how we do it?
How do we balance and harmonize family, business, spiritual, health, travel, romance and all the other little shiz,
it’s simple….
 
We focus on putting life into our years instead of getting caught up on the dust in the corners of the desk.
 
We focus on being present, active and taking NO EXCUSES.
Especially from ourselves.
 
We know what we want.
And we don’t just give it lip service.
We step the F-ck IN on our desires and MAKE THEM HAPPEN.
 
I want your 2020 to be effing AMAZING too.
 
🎉🎉Are you ready to make it a year full of living?🎉🎉
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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WHY I DO SEX DAILY.

WHY I DO SEX DAILY….
 
I have sex almost daily.
It’s just my THING.
I do sex daily yes because I love sex,
but more so for what sex gives me.
And I am not referring to the mind blowing orgasms that only happen here and there.
 
Okay so it’s truth time folks,
yes ME,
the sex expert and coach that helps thousands of people have better and more sex DOES NOT have mind blowing, earth shaking orgasm daily.
Actually most days, its pretty meh…
The sex is just normal,
and even boring at times.
But I still do sex almost daily,
and some days if the opportunity presents itself two or three times.
 
Just a week ago I spent about 7 hours out of 24 having sex.
Now that was yummy.
But why was it yummy?
Why did I want to have 7 hours of sex?
or have it daily, especially if I am not having mind blowing sex or even an orgasm most of the time?
 
The simple truth is that SEX ignites my creative juices.
Sex allows me a medative state, no matter the outcome to work on embodying myself,
sex allows me practice time to get out of my head and FEEL myself at a deep level.
I get to practice letting go,
I get to practice vulnerability,
I get to practice surrender,
I get to see where I am challenged and through the rhythm of my sex,
the consistent allowance of letting myself feel and stepping away from the idea of cumming,
but just BEING instead,
I get to connect to my CORE and thus feel my partner at a deeper level.
 
I have discovered through the years,
that our SEX is linked to so many things.
Self-confidence,
self-love,
boundaries,
ability to receive and give,
thinking patterns,
fear,
DESIRE,
passion,
VITALITY,
a feeling of freedom,
a feeling of peace,
centeredness,
physical well-being,
mental well-being,
and expanded spiritual depth.
 
To just name a few.
Yet we are taught to shame our sex,
to hide from it,
to ignore it,
to STARVE IT.
We are taught that our sex is evil.
And that it should only be used to make babies, or relieve stress QUICKLY.
 
And this way of thinking about our sex,
has us shut down,
fearful,
and not having sex.
It has us feeling disconnected from life, ourselves and the people we love.
It has us feeling insecure and angry,
depressed and lost.
And it has us trying to achieve what we have a void in through any means possible.
It has us acting out and traumatizing ourselves and others.
 
Instead of loving ourselves,
being responsible,
compassionate,
mature people,
we are like caged, starving, beaten wild animals.
This is what our world has become when we DO SEX.
And it’s all because we have such a limited, repressed view and understanding of this beautiful gift from God.
 
Sex and finances are the top two reasons marriages break up.
Sex actually out weights money,
because when the sex is crap,
when the sex is disconnected and toxic,
when sex is just about the get off,
then you have a partner being used and abused.
You have trauma setting in and the relationship is TOXIC.
No amount of money can heal that.
That is all about embodiment.
That is all about connection.
 
And you can ONLY CONNECT to your partner if you know how to connect to yourself first.
 
THAT IS WHY I DO SEX DAILY.
 
The consistent practice of leaning more into ME.
 
How does your sex feel to you?
Connected and deep?
Expansive and full?
or shallow, empty and about the release?
 
Want to learn how you have beautiful sexing all the time and access these states of peace, joy and connection.
Enjoy intimacy no matter what is going on in your life?
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And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Weak Boundaries? No Problem. Do These 2 Things to Overcome Your Shiz NOW!

You have a lack of boundaries with yourself beautiful.

Say what?

Your boundaries for self SUCK.
You cannot even deny it.
You may be under the impression that you got all your shiz together,
that boundaries are goofy or not really needed,
I mean you hear people say all the time with pride that they have none,
or perhaps you have what you consider very hard boundaries,
but baby I got news for you.
Porous or solid,
your self- boundaries suck.

And here is my observation and reasoning for you.

You refuse to commit.
You refuse to stay consistent.
You refuse to do the DAMN THING that you KNOW you must do for yourself.
You keep turning your back on YOU.
And then you have the gumption to b*itch about it and proclaim,

I took that class…
I got that help…
I tried that…
I had patience…
I pushed myself…
I focused on that…
I did that meditation, journaling, “work”….

I did it,
BUT….
“IT” did not help me.

“IT” did not give me the results that I wanted or expected it too.

Okay beautiful,
you are full of crap right now.
This is all bullsh*t!

“IT” whatever “IT” is or was has NOTHING to do with you having success.

The thing that determines your success is YOU.
Doing this THING that you “tried” is not ever going to get you the results that you want.

“IT” is support, education, a new viewpoint, system, guidance to help you achieve what you want IF….

YOU do the damn THING that you need to do.

And that THING is COMMIT.
That thing is staying consistent.

COMMITMENT + CONSISTENCY
to YOU beautiful.

And what does that look like? 🤔

➡️It looks like you getting up in the morning and stretching,
breathing into your beautiful body and feeling the gratitude that your body supported your life all night without any conscious effort from you instead of dreading the day ahead.

➡️It looks like you NOT choosing to look at the money you do not have in your bank account before you drink your first morning coffee or shower.

➡️It looks like you applying your focus to positive affirmations instead of looking at the bank account.

➡️It looks like you expanding your knowledge around things that turn you on instead of spending your time with things that drain you.

➡️It looks like you believing that you are worthy of love, success, a beautiful body, abundance and safety instead of focusing your fear on the opposite.

➡️It looks like you committing to YOU and not being the people pleaser that you feel you need to be in order to feel connection, love and gain success in any subject of your life.

➡️ It looks like you not making excuses about your money, your emotions, your responsibilities, your health, your support, your time, your vibration or the economy and JUST DOING THE DAMN THING!

➡️It looks like you being strong in who you are and what you want instead making allowances for being weak and stupid and letting your fears and worries dictate you results.

That is what it looks like beautiful.

But no one,
no program,
no coach, educator, marketing system or therapist,
no healer or medication,
no system,
no nothing…

But your COMMITMENT + CONSISTENCY can get you this.

So back to those boundaries that you seem to be having issues with and you want to ignore so fiercely.

Back to making some things nonnegotiable to your life and how you choose to show up and claim it.

Back to getting real and raw,
that is the hard thing.
That is the challenge.
To recognize and accept that YOU.
you are the one holding the map.
It’s your decision what way to go each step of your path.
And even when you feel like you have some great reason as to why you are going a direction that you know is out of alignment,
that ONLY YOU are making that decision.
And it is NEVER forced on you.
You CHOOSE how you react to any given experience or moment in your timeline.
You CHOOSE what you apply your attention and energy too.
You CHOOSE what you commit too.
But always remember that…

YOU ARE COMMITTING TO SOMETHING.

Where does your commitment lie?

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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Until you DO THIS THING you will never succeed in any area you want. Jacked but true!

What if I told you that the one thing you are sitting around and contemplating,
the one thing that you are procrastinating on,
and have been this whole time,
is the THING.
 
The THING that until you deal with it,
until you put your head down and JUST DO,
until you STOP the insanity of attempting to ignore it,
when your SOUL is screaming,
begging and doing everything it can,
to get you to pay attention and JUST DO IT.
Is holding you back.
 
Yes beautiful!
 
This THING,
and you know the thing.
You know you know the thing.
 
Until you do the THING,
you will not have success anywhere else.
 
That is a hard pill to swallow.
And you may say, but the thing is so small.
The thing has NOTHING to do with anything else.
The thing is unimportant.
The thing cannot have that big of an impact on my life.
No the thing,
it cannot be that THING.
That is just silly.
 
But what if….
Seriously now,
what if this thing IS the reason that you are struggling so damn hard in the areas of your life that you are?
 
What if the procrastination,
the excuses,
the fears and worries about this thing,
and the avoidance of doing this thing,
is truly enough kink in your abundance hose,
your ability to manifest the life that you want in all areas.
To make it seem like you are not worthy.
Not good enough.
Not whatever….
 
What if it’s like setting the coordinates of an airplane off by one degree?
 
Can you imagine where a plane would end up if that happened.
 
One degree over the course of time,
just a short period of time at that,
would make the planes destination completely change.
The goal may be New York,
but they might land in Beijing.
And what challenges would come of this one degree difference on the set path?
Perhaps not having enough gas.
Among many other issues.
And then they would land at a destination they were not wanting.
 
Yes, beautiful.
What if you thought about the THING that you have been procrastinating on like this.
What if you just for a few days, a month or whatever time needed to see results, changes happen, did a little experiment with this THING.
 
What if….
What if you just did the THING?
 
Crazy.
 
What if you did the thing,
and in doing the thing,
all your other things,
magically fixed themselves.
The things you wanted to manifest,
just happened to manifest with ease.
 
What if because you no longer were procrastinating about this thing,
were no longer running from it,
hiding from it,
as if it were some monster,
that you looked in the mirror now with confidence.
With certainty.
With love.
 
What if this very THING,
is what is holding you back from THRIVING beautiful?
What if it is the ONLY effing reason that you are not living the life that you want right now?
 
Is this thing worthy of stealing your greatest life ever?
It is worth you sacrificing your joy,
your love,
your abundance over?
 
Is it?
 
Well is it?
 
Go and ponder this thing today beautiful.
Look at it truly and ask yourself if it is that big of a mountain to climb,
that scaring of a feat to tackle,
that enormous of whatever the eff it is,
that you are going to continue even for the rest of this beautiful day,
full of life and opportunity,
allow….
 
Allow it to take away everything that you desire and want for yourself.
 
You have the power beautiful.
It is nothing more than a choice.
It is your choice.
No one else’s.
 
You cannot keep making the excuses that you have been making and avoiding this thing any longer,
if you step into listening to that beautiful heart of yours.
You say that you are committed.
You say that you really want it.
You are doing all the work that it takes.
You are so focused.
So motivated.
So brilliant.
 
But beautiful,
your f-cking it all up.
 
By NOT doing this thing!
 
So take a big breath right now,
stand up from where you are at,
and take no more crap from yourself.
 
And do the THING that you have been procrastinating on all this time.
 
Destroy what is holding you back,
by stepping into yourself that much more.
 
Bye bye avoidance.
Bye bye procrastination.
Hello SOUL.
Hello manifestation.
 
You are magic.
 
And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Want to take that step?
I sure hope that you have come to realize that this fence that you are sitting on is not a fence of safety,
but a fence of saying no to self,
saying no to your dreams and desires and living the way God intended on you living.
THRIVING.
 
Yes BABY.
It is time that you decide..
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