You were born to fish.

Somethings just feels wrong.

 
Don’t they?
 
In life we come up on these points in our live’s where we REALLY want something and it is stripped away, right in what seem’s like the most beautiful part of the experience.
 
You know what I am talking about.
It is the moments that make a significant impact on your heart,
on the course of your life even.
 
It is the moments that break you down to nothing,
leaving you fully exposed and raw.
 
It is the moments where you feel lost without hope,
searching for any little crumb of hope to keep you going.
 
Yes these moments.
 
These moments that you wonder why.
These moments that tear you apart and make you weep for all that is lost, all that will never be experienced, all the dreams that will never come to pass…
 
These are game changing moments of the soul.
 
And on the front side of these moments,
and through the healing process of them,
they feel effing wrong.
 
They feel as though they should not be happening.
That God got it all wrong on this one.
We find ourselves in these moments questioning our hearts, our intuition, our thoughts, our faith, our everything.
 
And the only logical answer yet illogical in the same is that
“I must not deserve this thing I have lost.”
“I must have screwed up and did something wrong.”
“I must have not been good enough.”
 
And so we sit an torture ourselves about how bad a person we are.
 
We come up with lists of things that we need to change,
promises to ourselves about how we will never allow this or that to happen to us again,
we confirm to ourselves that the only safe thing is to shut down.
 
And so we shutdown to love.
And it feels all wrong.
 
The universe is a funny place,
where when these occurrences happen,
we find ourselves haunted by the what if’s, the could have been’s, the dreams and desires that we once had and that still reside inside us deep down.
 
They haunt us like the ghosts of Christmas past, present and future.
 
They haunt us and share with us the things that we still desire.
That our heart cries out for.
That is not.
That cannot be in current.
 
And it feels all wrong.
 
But what if…
WHAT IF?
 
These haunting’s were actually signs from our soul.
Revealing to us that the desires that we had are still there and a possibility,
 
perhaps not in the fashion we had originally intended,
but that they are there and they are ours to manifest.
 
These THINGS that our hearts crave,
that our soul has set it’s eye on,
that God has in store for us.
 
These THINGS.
These BLESSINGS.
 
And the reason that they did not happen the way that we had originally planned was because those events, those people, those things were not in alignment to our highest and best life experience.
 
We had to grow!
Not do something to become worthy.
Not become a better person.
 
No.
We had to grow into the person that could hold those blessings,
 
and share of them the way that God intends for each of us to share.
 
It comes down to the wise statement from Chinese philosopher Lao Tzu, founder of Taoism
“Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach him how to fish and you feed him for a lifetime”
 
 
If we had continued to be given the blessings freely as we were living them, then we never would have learned how to handle them properly or gain them in faith and surrender.
 
We would never have expanded our souls ability to receive the beauty of all that is offered to us in this life.
 
No one took anything away from us.
This is the truth.
What you may feel you have lost.
Is not gone.
 
You tasted of its sweetness and now you must go and earn it.
You must go and learn how to fish.
 
In the learning,
you will expand yourself to capacities you can not currently imagine.
 
You will grow.
You will once again gain,
your hearts desires.
Your souls cravings.
 
They are all there waiting for you.
But first you must fish.
 
The lessons of fishing, will lead you to the life that you desire.
You were born worthy of this life.
You must though build your being strong enough to carry all the blessing that is awaiting you.
 

And it feels right.

You were born to fish.

 

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THIS is the THING that will prevent you from having it all.

The reason you will never have the relationships,
the lifestyle, the money or anything else that you really want is because your f-cking scared to death to call it in.
 
to ask for it.
To set the stage for it.
Your f-cking scared to death,
that if you actually just let it rip,
that the world would run away from you and that you would loose all that you have,
and having what you have is better than not having anything at all,
even though it is a long shot from what your soul desires.
 
 

Isn’t that right Baby?

 
So you sit there in your suffering.
In your fear of making changes,
taking steps,
and sharing your heart and soul.
 
 
The comforts of your dis-satisfaction and smallness with life,
is something that you cannot seem to let go of.
 
And THIS,
 

This is the THING,

that will will prevent you every God damn day from having what you really want in your:
 
Finances
Career
Relationships
Sex
Health
Lifestyle
Faith
 
 
This morning I sat down to checked into my email, like I do every morning around 10am. My phone had been popping off with text messages from five old lovers and I questioned what the heck was going on in my energy to call in all this attention from relationships of the past.
 
I questioned if I was stepping down in my vibe?
I questioned if I was feeling un-seen, unloved or something else?
Was I simply needing attention?
Or was I getting so TURNED ON TO LIFE that my vibe was magnetizing and calling in those who desired the turn on as well?
Who need the feminine creative flow and surrender to take them to that level of depth within themselves to manifest a life that they want more than what they have within the comforts of the now.
 
As I have been sitting here analyzing these messages,
these men, and all the emotion and feelings that come up for me, I see many things.
 
To start with my judgments.
My fears.
My patterns.
My love that I hold for each of them still today.
 
And all of these things play a role in my lessons.
And in who I have become.
In gratitude and with the help of each of these gentlemen.
 
SO as I sit here and look at what the potential message is,
I see that there are some factors to what I am needing in my current life that these men could fill for me,
 
However, the question comes,
Do I open an old door that did not work back then and try again or do I keep it shut?
 
It comes down to my current needs, desires and boundaries.
In this particular case I will focus in on my boundaries as boundaries are something that MUST be developed, reevaluated and adjusted often. What is a boundary in one case may not be in another and as we learn and grow,
as we come more into who we really are and get into greater alignment with our soul,
 
our boundaries change.
 
Boundaries are part of CALLING IN what we want into our lives.
 
Without healthy boundaries, we never gain the life that we really want. Instead we push it away from us in one way or another.
 
You know what I am speaking of,
Don’t you?
 
You are a doormat.
The go to person, who never feels appreciated,
just used.
 
This is boundary issue.
 
You are the center of attention, always.
You have no space.
You are fearful of saying no,
for whatever reason.
So you are fatigued and worn out emotionally, mentally and physically.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
You feel alone.
You look around you and you have no real relationships.
You hate people, because in your view, “they are all stupid.”
So you sacrifice relationship for the most part to avoid the drama of others.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
If it is going to be, it is up to me.
You cannot rely on anyone but yourself.
You don’t even want to.
So you keep things nice and tidy,
limited relationships, outings or anything.
And you play within your own means,
never asking for shit.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
You expect that others should just do/act/love/need as you do.
You think that by always doing what is needed for another,
always making yourself available,
and being a yes, is good.
will get you what you want.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
You don’t think that boundaries are that important.
You think that others need to just relax and chill.
Stop being so serious.
And you don’t see yourself over stepping,
getting shocked when someone claims you did.
 
This is a boundary issue.
 
To name a few.
 
We are all in need of understanding our boundaries and learning how to play within the multiple relationships of our lives, boundaries as well.
 
But the tale of today,
is to make you aware that BOUNDARIES are a vital part of your manifestation process.
 
It is important for you to explore what you are needing, wanting and feel good about in any given situation.
 
And here is the real kicker….
 
If you feel uncertain,
negative,
like you want to say no,
have fear, doubt or some other ill sensation or emotion,
then what you need to get right with is this:
 

THAT IS YOUR SOUL SAYING F-CK NO!!!!!

So Listen Damn It.

 
If you want to create that #freedombasedlife that #fuckyeslifestlye then you have to HONOR your boundaries.
 
You will NEVER call in what you want to manifest.
You will NEVER vibrate at the frequency that you want or need to have the life that you desire, as long as you are saying yes when you are actually a
 

F-CK NO!!!!

 
What will I do with these five old lovers?
I will listen to my soul.
 
That is what I will do.
Each man presents a different boundary to set,
to feel into,
to learn more about myself with.
 
Each man is here offering me an opportunity to get deeper into SOUL ALIGNMENT.
 
And so I will.
That is what I will do.
 
How about you?
What will you do with the boundary lessons offered you today?
 

And as always,

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How to attain true success.

You want to know the secret to your SUCCESS?

It is the same as the secret to my success,
or anyone’s success.

I am not speaking about the sort of success that is just about material items, although we love a nice house and car.
We all want the finer things in life, or at least those things that we crave, enjoy and make us feel a certain way. Provide us with the comforts that we desire.

Success is more than that.
A truly successful life is about feeling good about every aspect of your life even if it is not ideal in the moment you know that it is part of your harmonic flow. You see its vital impact on moving you toward your deeper self.

Notice I said deeper self not next level self.

True success,
is about having all of the material things you desire but also the relationships that you want. The connections to others that open you further and further and help you connect even more to who you truly are.

True success,
is about accessing the feelings and thoughts that keep you in your harmonic flow and recognizing them, being in gratitude for them, and focusing in on allowing more of them to manifest into your life.

True success,
Is about….

are you ready?

% Soul Connection!

This is where you become the alchemist of your life.

This is how you command down the blessings that you know at your core that are yours.

This is how you fully step into your worthiness.

But you have to clear out ANYTHING that does not align to your Soul Connection.

And here is where us humans run into our resistance.
It can be referred to as “fear of success” or “self sabotage”
because it is both of those things.

It is one of the most difficult things to do because it requires us to face the reality of what our soul wants. It means that we have to become selfish. That we have to CLAIM our lives in full and without doubt of the future or loss.

It means that we must step fully onto the soul path and become that soul crusader where we learn ONLY TO SAY YES to our soul and have the courage, stamina and strength of heart to say no to all other calls that our world will try and enforce on us. This means that we will find ourselves in positions where we must break hearts, not show up the way others may expect or require for a relationship, and that we may have to even say goodbye to people, ways, systems and patterns that we have enjoyed but no longer serve our soul path.

Most people choose to stick with what has been.
Most people choose to stick with old relationships,
patterns, habits, feelings and comforts.

All the while “wishing” for something more because they feel the emptiness,
the lostness, of what they could be, do, have
if they just listened to soul and got in alignment to that.

But that would require a fierce connection to soul,
where hesitation to make changes did not exist or could quickly be overcome.

That would require a love for self-
and a self-worth that most do not posses.

This is why a true soul crusader is hard o find.
This is why it is the .01% of people who actually have TRUE SUCCESS in life.

Who die without or at least limited regret.
Who can say that they followed their hearts
feel like they are connected to the divine,
and living on purpose.

Is this you?
Is this what you crave?
DO you feel a warmth in your core,
a desire in your inner most being?

Does your heart tighten at the fear that you may let this life,
this precious gift that you have been given slip by without fully SAYING YES to your SOUL?

To God’s call on your life?

Then STOP saying no.
You were born for greatness baby.

It is all about you.
It always has been.
You are the center of your world and you are the ONLY ONE
who can CLAIM YOUR LIFE.

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YOU ARE THE MOTHER F-CKING BOSS OF YOUR WORLD!!!!

If your happy and you know it…

Oh baby you know it is exactly what you crave.

It is what your soul wants for you in every waking moment and with every breath you take.

It is your birth right.
It is how you were designed to be.

And yet you do not have it.

You instead choose to suffer.
You choose to ignore your truth.
You choose to say NO.

And you fall asleep at night wondering why this life does not support you the way you need or desire.

You wake in the mornings with thoughts of fear, stress, and frustration.

Never realizing that YOU,
Yes YOU…

have all the mother f-cking power.

You always have had it.
It has never been any other way.
You are the one.

You are the BOSS.
SO why do you keep allowing what you allow?

Why do you keep disapproving of everything that your soul craves,
that your heart wants.

Why do you turn away from what ignites you?

You know what I am speaking of,
that thing,

that thing that causes a great stir in your core,

that thing that makes your gut burn when you think about it,

that thing that if you leaning a little more into it and you admitted it,

TURNS YOU THE F-CK ON!!!!!

Yes that thing.
That thing that if you allow it to just f-cking sit there for the rest of your life like you have done since its conception so far, will LITERALLY
eat away at your soul.

So why are you willing to sacrifice your everything to avoid that which is your life mission?

Your calling.

Are you really the sort of person who is okay with walking away from your hearts truth?

Are you really good with dying with this sort of regret?

Are you really so f-cking content with your life of scarcity, fear and average and ordinary that you are going to continue to say no?

Or are you one of the .01% who decide to CLAIM THEIR LIVES?

I personally really don’t care what you decide,
I can hope for you,
like I do for everyone,
that you do what is best for your soul,
and in turn that will be best for everyone in your life,
and in our world.

But at the end of the day,
I know that there is no one that can get you to do it,

there is no one that can make a decision for you,

you can blame others,
you can sit around and say,
“Well if so and so had told me, had texted me, had spent more time with me, then I would have the passion, the drive, the knowing, the blah..blah..blah. that I need to embrace the life that I want. To do the things I know I need.”

The reality though is this:

YOU ARE THE MOTHER F-CKING BOSS OF YOUR WORLD!!!!

So start acting like it or don’t.
You can continue to sit around on your thumbs and blame, point fingers and cry in your whatever.

It won’t get you anywhere.
But you can certainly do it.

I can tell you that I won’t be there to support it though.

I won’t feel bad about it either.
I may empathize with you, as I have had plenty of moments like that myself,

but sympathy is a gift I will not bestow on you for your choice to remain a victim to your ego.

We all come into this world with the same opportunities.

You may disagree with me,
because you may look at the material world and think that just because someone is born into a life with money, more freedoms and liberties than another that they have some advantage over you.

But that is not so. 
That is not what I speak of this morning.

Sure those luxuries are nice and may help make one’s experience on the front side more pleasurable,
But they do not make a person

HAPPY.

And they do not guarantee that a person will live their

TRUTH
PURPOSE
or BLISS.

And these are the things your soul wants for you.

These are the things that keep you up,
make you feel the way that you do,
cause you pain, from not living.

Make you wonder if you know yourself,
or if happiness will ever happen for you,
have you feeling lost and though there is always something you must attain more of to try and fill this void that is with in you.

Baby you are wanting what all of us are wanting.

HAPPINESS.

And you are the only person who can provide it for yourself.

You must learn to allow it.
and here is another secret for you,
(since I like to share little secrets with you)

That happiness that you crave from a deep soul level is

THE THING

the very thing…
yeah remember that thing?

the thing that will give you all the abundance,

all the blessing,
that you desire as well.

You will not get the abundance and blessing first.

No you must first find your JOY.
Find your happiness.

And the money,
the sex,
the travel,
the material items,
the relationships,
will then follow.

It does not go the other way.
It is that simple.

SO why the f-ck are you denying yourself of what you were born to live?

Don’t worry, be happy 

Just be it.
Be it now.

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$22,000 at 2:22-AM.

🔥🔥$22,000 at 2:22-AM with 22% on my phone.🔥🔥

 
Yes manifesting $22k in less than 12 hours is exactly the vibration I f-cking love having.
Don’t you?
 
Its an AMAZING feeling to wake up in the morning to this and know that this is ONLY the f-cking beginning.
 
I mean imagine if you believed that there were no limitations to the things that you could call into your life.
 
Imagine if all you ever had to do was allow abundance to flow to you,
 
by just keeping yourself in alignment to your soul.
 
Well that is where it is at baby.
It truly is that simple.
 
I am not going to lie,
you are not going to generate that sort of income or any income at all just laying on the couch thinking about it,
or feeling into how effing great it “would” be to have it.
 
No you will not manifest anything that way.
In order to get results of this kind or better,
then one HAS to not just allow abundance to flow to them,
but also, do the God damn f-cking work to have the doorways open for the abundance to flow.
 
I mean it would be crazy to think that you can call in any sort of blessing if you are closed down to the pathway of the blessing.
 
Just think about it…
Imagine you are wanting your ideal lover to come into your life,
yet you do not go on any dates,
you hardly leave your home,
you have no real social life,
or much of anything.
 
How the f-ck are you to CALL IN a lover?
Maybe if this is the sort of person that you are,
you are hoping that your mail man will deliver this lover to you,
or you will just get lucky and somehow they will end up lost on your doorstep…
 
Knock.
Knock.
OMFG! It’s Mr. or Mrs. Perfect.
Here on my door step.
Ready to be part of the rest of my life.
 
LOL….😂
 
Okay so that is ridiculous, right?
I mean no one actually thinks this can happen,
well I guess there is a possibility,
but let’s be real.
 
The odds are not in your favor no matter how much luck you have on your side.
 
So why the f-ck do you think that you can have a land fall of abundance or anything you desire come to you without the mother f-cking work.
 
That work is multi-folded too.
It is not JUST about actual work.
You know that building or going and doing something.
No it is not about that.
In truth that work most likely only equates out to maybe 15% of the actual work.
I know it is that way for me.
And for my mentors and other people who are living a freedom based life where they are just calling in their desires.
 
But when we do, do that work, we do it hard core.
We give our all.
We focus like there is no tomorrow.
And you know what?
One of the secrets to the work here,
is that it does not feel like work.
It just is.
 
It is part of who we are.
We cannot help but do the work.
Because it just is us.
It is what we would do whether we were paid or not.
It is the music in our being that has to be set free.
It feels good.
Good to do the work.
 
It is actually impossible to not do the work.
This is how you know that you have found your path….
Your calling.
 
But then there is the other 85% of the REAL WORK.
Now there is where you will meet resistance.
 
This is the land of resistance.
This is the internal, mindset work.
This is the work that your ego will have you believe is not the work and that you are not in need of.
It is where your doubt,
your fear,
your discomfort of whatever is not your norm,
holds you back from all of your mother f-cking dreams.
 
It is the internal work that is actually a game with your
CURRENT IS.
 
You must first recognize what you are accepting as your norm in your life so that you can change it to what you want it to be.
 
Then you must have the strength,
the desire,
and the courage,
to HOLD to that CHANGE.
 
Because the old norm that had you living the life you were unsatisfied with,
will call to you.
It will tell you that you are not deserving,
you are not worthy,
that you cannot repeat the greatness.
That you will loose it all just like blah…blah….blah.
It will tempt you to become lazy,
and it will remind you of how comfortable good feels.
 
because yeah you may be calling in all this GREATNESS,
 
F-ck NO!!!!
Greatness,
Abundance in the masses that your soul effing wants,
the revealing of who you really are,
and letting that light shine brighter than any lighthouse could try for,
is NOT COMFORTABLE.
No it is f-cking hard as hell.
 
But you know what?
YOU ARE WORTH IT.
You just have to love yourself enough to CLAIM IT.
Claim your life.
Claim your bliss.
Claim your abundance.
 
Take that step onto your path.

You got this baby!!!

 

And as always,

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What is stopping you? You KNOW you are Worthy at your Core.

Can you say that you are living up to your worthiness?

 
This was a question that I posed to myself this weekend as I moved through some self-inquiry around my current blockages to to my desires.
 
Yes we all have blockages.
No matter who we are, we are still human and we fall prey to our ego’s, our fear, our doubt and the patterns and programs that we have lived thus far in this life.
 
The difference between so many people is not that some have privileged lives and others don’t.
 
It is not that some are smarter, better educated or better looking than others.
 
The one difference that makes ALL the difference is if we stand up to the CALL OF OUR WORTHINESS.
 
I often ask my clients to share a brag with me in their coaching appointments. I ask them to tell me something that makes them in AWE of themselves.
 
And the response is normally,
“WHAT?”
” Wow, this is strange. I don’t know what to say”
 
I watch them squirm.
I watch as they readjust their legs, try and get centered on the chair.
Look any direction but upward or into my eye’s.
I watch their face become flushed, their chest turn red.
 
So many little things happen as they start to grasp that the request is real.
 
F-CK YES!!!!! I want to know what you are PROUD of.
I want you to CLAIM IT.
CALL IT IN DAMN IT!!!!!
 
How do we ever expect to have anything that we are not calling in with passion, certainty and turn on.
 
You have to BELIEVE that you are WORTH it and the thing about worthiness is that we are consistently told that we are not worthy. That instead we are guilty. We should feel shame for this or that and all of our ancestors shit too.
 
Just pile on the bullshit.
 
Whatever you do,
DO NOT BELIEVE that God wants you BLESSED.
 
Our world and teachings have created a bunch of believers in God NOT FAVORING US,
 
FAVORING YOU.
 
We are repeatedly told not to think to much of ourselves.
To not own our power.
To not shine bringht.
 
Well ONLY do these things in the way that are socially acceptable.
 
Not the way that your soul calls you too.
 
The problem with this idea is that anytime we stop listening to our soul and try and follow anything other, we step out of alignment and favor with God’s desire for our life.
 
We say no to our WORTHINESS.
We prevent ourselves from STEPPING INTO OUR GREATNESS.
 
and no duh,
this my love is the reason you are not living the F-ck YES! Life that you claim you want so badly.
 
It is because you are attempting to live YOUR F-CK YES! Life according to someone else’s beliefs, desires, boundaries, ideas and blockages.
 
How are you ever going to CLAIM YOUR Life if you are ALWAYS living through someone else’s?
 
Now you may say,
“Kendal, I don’t do that.”
” I live for me and me alone. ”
” I know my worth. I know who I am. I know what I desire.”
” I believe that I am in God’s favor.”
 
I call bullshit to that statement,
and here is why…..
 
Because if you REALLY did all of these things then your life experience would be different.
 
The life that is showing up in your daily experience is the life that YOU and ONLY YOU are MANIFESTING in your HEART AND MIND.
 
So if you want to have that F-ck YES! Life then you need to start FEELING and THINKING about it ASAP like your Motherf-cking Life depended on it, BECAUSE it does!!!!!
 
And it all starts with your idea’s, beliefs around WORTHINESS.
 
It is not good enough to say that you know you are worthy.
It is not good enough to put in the actions to prove that you are worthy.
It is not good enough to examine why you are worthy.
 
The ONLY thing that matters is CLAIMING IT.
KNOWING IT.
 
UNDERSTAND love that you were born worthy.
You don’t have to act some special way,
look some way,
go to some special training,
or be this or that.
 
YOU DO NOT!!!!!!
( I am screaming this at you now)
 

YOU MOST CERTAINLY DO NOT have to PROVE your worthiness.

 
Just ACCEPT it.
 
That is all God wants you to do,
is to step into your power by accepting your birth right and living up to your worthiness.
 
If you strive to live up to your worthiness, you WILL ALWAYS….
 
A-L-W-A-Y-S…
 
Be enough,
have enough,
share enough,
do the right things,
and live a F-ck YES! Life.
 
Baby you born for greatness!!!!!!
 

Just ACCEPT it.

 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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Electric Shock and My Pussy

SO this happened.
 
Are you ready for a good laugh,
are you ready to scratch your head,
and some eye popping?
 
Because here is my most recent masturbation share.
 
It only took me about five years of owning this little sex toy for me to actually try it.
 
I have been scared in all truth to try it.
I have held it in my hand,
felt its electric pulses move through my hand and arms with generous voltage,
felt the discomfort of it.
 
The thought of placing this little gizmo where it was intended made my stomach churn and my heart race.
 
If it felt like I was sticking my hand and fingers into an open electrical breaker then what the f-ck would it feel like in my most intimate, delicate location?
 
My pussy.
Would she like it?
 
So this really happened,
one night,
not so many nights ago…
 
I found myself exploring this little electric shock love toy.
I found myself finding the courage,
to push past the fear of possibly electrocuting my pussy.
 
You could say that curiosity got the best of me.
 
Because it did.
 
I placed this little bundle of shock inside my pussy,
AND
 
I turned it on.
 
OMFG!!!!!
It zapped, it shocked,
it rubbed my G-spot and with each pulse,
I moved deeper into orgasm.
 
But was this possible?
Was it possible that electric shock therapy for my pussy could help open me up more,
could help stimulate,
activate,
AND
 
EVEN FEEL GREAT,
in my pussy.
 
Or to my body?
 

The answer:

F-ck YES!

 
To my surprise, this little love shock device really felt great.
It was not painful,
well unless I touched my labia with it,
then OMFG!!!! that was a no effing way.
 

BOUNDARY.

 
But inserted this little egg shaped zapper, ‘sent all the pulses of increased orgasm to where I needed them.
 
But why stop there?
 
So anyone who has followed my sex coaching long, know’s that I am not a big advocate of vibrators because of the addiction and harm they can cause to nerves if over used.
 
However, I do always say that every now and then,
there is a time and a place for vibrators and they can really spice things up and be playful.
 
For someone like myself, who uses a vibrator on her clit maybe three times a year at best (because I prefer the touch of my partners lips and tongue , pubic bone and fingers) the added pleasure of a vibrator with this little electric shock therapy device was AMAZING and sent me quickly over the edge of pleasure.
 
WOW!!!!
 
So what is the moral of my tale today you may ask?
 
The moral is,
EXPLORE your body.
EXPLORE your mind.
EXPLORE imagination.
EXPLORE play.
 
Sex whether it is with someone or by ourselves is to be about embodyment of self,
connection to bliss,
an opening to rapture,
and DISCOVERY of self.
 
 
Sex is a beautiful way to explore our levels of pleasure.
So what is holding you back from saying YES to yourself?
 
What is preventing you from fully embracing your JOY,
Your PLEASURE.
Your ORGASM.
 
Is it fear, like it was for me around the exploration of something new?
 
As my 21 year old daughter always says, ” You can’t knock it until you have tried it at least once.”
 
I fully agree and actually believe that we should allow for two times of trying something new before knocking it.
 
Why?
 
Because the first time, our limbic systems are not at ease, we are caught in our heads and over thinking things too much, like I did for 5 years around this toy, we are not present in the moment for many reasons.
 
The second time, we have a better chance of being present and feeling into the event because we sorta know what to expect.
 
Now we can actually experience it,
and make a decision.
 
So don’t knock something, just because it sounds strange,
makes you go WTF? or even causes you a little concern.
 
If it is safe, if your boundaries are kept, then be a YES to yourself.
 

A yes to your pleasure.

 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
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Never ask me to do this…

My mentor recently wrote about how if you ask her to give up her art then you will never know her heart, because without the art there is no heart.
 
I sat with this thought all day yesterday after reading her words ( which I will share in full shortly for you). I sat with it because as I read them, my heart gasp in enthusiasm of being understood FINALLY.
 
So often I find myself being asked to sacrifice my work,
my writing, my sharing with you for something else. For a relationship. For false stability.
 
I find my art getting smashed down and hidden under rugs and in corners because it is not perceived as IMPORTANT or it is “just my j-o-b.”
 
I find these same things that request I sacrifice my art, to also desire to become closer to me, to take up valuable space in my life, in my days and weeks. They want time and energy from me, they want my attention but they deny my art and the love I have for it.
 
As I read her words, I realized that out of all the things and people that have pushed my art to the side, that I was by far the worst. It is ONLY me who ever say’s yes or no to my art.
 
It is only me who ever set’s the boundaries around my time, my energy, my life….
 
My art.
 
And it is my doing that at points in life that I allow it to be stolen from me. Hidden and handicapped.
 
I want to share my heart.
I want to share my passion.
I want to reveal all that I know at my deepest core.
At my soul.
 
So why do I allow it to be ignored and put on the back burner?
For the same reason’s that you do!
 

FEAR.

 
Fear of loss of all those that take it’s place.
Fear of not being worthy.
Fear of being too much.
 
Yes that is why we hide from our art at times and allow the loss of it to form in my life until we feel like our lives are no more.
 
Until we can no longer breathe,
because our heart has been squished.
Has lost its life.
 
My art is not my j-o-b.
I do not have a j-o-b.
My message, my mission, my sharing and teaching.
My writing and speaking,
this is all my art.
 
My art comes from my heart.
It comes from that centered place deep withing my soul where I feel the divine speaking and calling out.
 
Using my hands,
my mouth,
my whole being….
 
for not my art.
but God’s Art.
 
If you ask me to choose between my art and you, I’ll choose my art
 
And if you think it’s not a big deal to speak to me or draw my attention in any way while I’m in that art, you break my heart
 
Soon enough then, there’ll be nothing left to give you anyway, because my art is my heart and only from my art beats my heart so if you break it –
 
And you continually show you don’t get that it’s always art first –
 
I have to remove myself or there will be no more art
 
And no more heart
 
For anyone” — Katrina Ruth
 
So why the f-ck ever choose ANYTHING other than your art?
 
That becomes the question.
There is NEVER a reason good enough if you look at it like this.
 

What is your art?

Choose it today.

Claim Your Life.

 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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Living Your Insanity.

Reality is THIS.

Look at your world.
Look at your experiences,
RIGHT NOW.

What are you living?
How are you feeling?
Who are you associating with?

Are you happy?
Are you thriving?

Or are you feeling
dull,
irritable,
depressed,
angry,
lost?

Reality is THIS.
What you think about you become.

What you consistently feed your mind,
your mind will feed your body and emotions,
and you WILL become it.

So what are you consuming TODAY?

In this moment.

If you claim you have no effing clue, then look no further than your life.

Your own back yard.
Whatever is showing up is what you are focusing in on in some fashion.

And by fashion I mean energetically.
You may not be conscious of your fears, your worries, your negativity,
but if that is what you are being shown in your life expereinces THEN GUESS WHAT?

That is exactly what you are focusing on.

That is where you are vibrating.

It really is not that difficult.
So many times we make life harder than what it was ever intended on being.

We try to hard.
It is not about the trying.

It is ALL about the DOING.

Just remember that ACTION is what makes things move.

You want more:
JOY
HAPPINESS
SEX
Better Relationship
MONEY
HEALTH

or whatever those desires are,
well all you need to do to get them is to focus on FEELING GOOD NOW!

And go do just that!!!

How is feeling bad,
being a victim to your life,
looking at what is always wrong with your life serving you anyway?

I mean have you ever REALLY asked yourself this?

You may say that you are a realist.
And reality is that life is shit right now.

Well woohoo! I am so happy that you have discovered that your life is shit right now.

Is focusing on the shit helping you move through it any quicker?

Is worrying on why the shit is there or if more is coming preventing you from having more shit show up?

Has being a realist and fixating on the shit EVER been the action that was required to get you to the life that you actually DESIRE?

Or is the truth that when you allow yourself to feel good,
to feel love,
to laugh,
to play,
to smile,
to enjoy,

when good shit happens?

I want you to really look at the actions or lack of actions that you are taking in your life today and see how they are supporting your desired life?

If you want to get real about something, get real about THIS.

Living a F*ck YES! Life is no harder than the food you feed your vibration.

STOP the INSANITY of focusing on the negative and expecting positive.

It WILL NEVER HAPPEN this way.

N-E-V-E-R

Take the actions that will carry you into abundance and joy.

By allowing yourself to get into the flow, you will never go hungry for anything again.

But the trick to any of this F*ck YES!! Lifestyle is ALLOWING yourself into the FLOW through YOUR OWN JOY.

Start there.
Or stop complaining.

And as always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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The Epidemic of “Most Likely Not.”

Most likely not, but who the f-ck knows, right?

 
Most likely not the right time.
Most likely not the right person.
Most likely not the right opportunity.
Most likely not the right energy.
Most likely not the blah, blah, blah.
 
I am speaking to you today about just this epidemic of, “Most Likely Not.”
 
It is an epidemic.
I shit you not.
It has taken over your mind.
It has stolen your hearts desires.
It has cast fear into your soul.
 
The epidemic of most likely not.
It is what makes the one’s who actually do,
so f-cking rare.
It is what makes so many so ill in their lives.
 
Most likely not my time.
Perhaps I “should” just wait a little longer,
get a better plan,
be smart about this move,
stick it out and see what happens,
be responsible.
 
Are you one of those people who need a plan for everything.
Need to have your ducks lined up first before making a move.
 
Are you one of those folks who always see’s everything that could go wrong with a choice, a situation.
Examining all possible roads before making a commitment to something.
 
Are you one of those peep’s who is always saying that you want something or are going to do something, but then has no clue where to start or how to get there so takes months, maybe years to ever act on your hearts desires, and when you FINALLY take the f-cking leap crash because you really did miss your timing.
 

Well are you?

 
Let’s be real here.
Let’s get down to the nitty gritty truth of why the f-ck you are not living the life that you were born to live.
 

Are you ready?

Are you?

 
Are you sure you want to hear this?
 
Well, even if you don’t that is just TOUGH SH*T BABY,
because I will yell it from the roof tops as to the reason you are not living your life the way you want.
 
I have no issue standing before you and writing it out for you to examine, ponder, try to figure out a way around and cringe over.
 
I love you.
I want to see you become the shining start that God wants you to be.
I want to see you in all of your glory.
You were born for greatness.
 
We all know it.
You can feel it.
 

Stop what you are doing RIGHT NOW.

S-T-O-P!

 
Seriously, pause a moment and take your right hand and place it on your chest. Put your effing hand on your heart.
 
Don’t worry, yeah sure this is one of those love yourself, catch the feels for yourself moments. Tap into your emotions.
 
Yep I said that.
Tap into your effing emotions.
Now, I want you to take your left hand and place it on your groin.
 
You know down there.
On your crotch.
Your junk.
Your genitals.
 
No not to masturbate, silly.
Take your hand off from doing that and just let your hand comfortably rest on your genitals.
 
Now close your damn eye’s.
 
Close them.
And BREATHE.
 
Deep into your stomach.
Not your f-cking chest!
Your stomach.
Relax your tight ass and allow your stomach to expand.
Stop worrying about how you look right now.
 
Just BREATHE.
Feel that heart beating in your chest.
Feel that breath filling your body.
Feel the warmth in your groin.
 
Feel your f-cking self!!!!
 
Does this scare the shit out of you?
Are you feeling uncomfortable in your own skin right now?
Wondering WTF you are suppose to be getting from this little exercise?
 
Find yourself in your head?
That is you running from your TRUTH.
 
Want to know WTF you are not living that life that you really want?
 
Why you cannot seem to ever have the relationships you want?
 
Why your bank account is always less than what you want?
Why you are not happy?
 
Well are you ready now?
Yeah most likely not.
 
It is so f-cking simple you don’t want to accept it.
You want it to be hard.
That is the truth, you want it to be difficult to achieve because then….
 
Then you have an excuse,
a reason,
as to why the f-ck you don’t have it.
 
So you are going to continue to create difficulties in your life to make sure you have lot’s of excuses and reasons as to WHY you cannot have, do not have the life that you claim you desire and want.
 
But the truth is having all that you want is easy as hell.
It does not take much at all.
It is just about getting into your mother f-cking flow.
 
That is it.
And does FLOW sound like it should be difficult?
 
No, of course not.
If it was difficult then it would not be flow.
 
Does a river have a difficult time flowing.
Nope not unless someone damns it up.
 
Well you are the one,
the only effing one who is damning up your flow.
 
You have no one to blame but you baby.
 
So are you ready to hear the truth now?
Are you ready to receive the answer that you do not want, because hiding is so much more comfortable than actually stepping into your flow.
 
You are comfortable with your suffering,
that is why you still are living it.
 

O-K-A-Y…..

 
We are ready, not really but I am going to share it now anyway.
Here is the reason,
Here is the thing that you don’t want to hear.
Here is the mother f-cking truth of your life.
 
Ready….
 
#truthbomb
#realitycheck
 

Your lazy as f-ck and don’t believe it is for you.

 
There I said it.
You are lazy as f-ck and don’t believe it is for you.
 
Now the lazy as f-ck thing is really not the problem’
I am lazy as f-ck,
that is why I designed my life the way that I have.
That is exactly why I created my mother f-cking F-ck Yes Life!
(WOW! that was a bunch of the f word there, oh well, not very professional of me or Godly of me, huh. Oh, well, get the f-ck over it baby, it is just me being authentically me and preaching the f-cking truth to you on WTF you are tired, disillusioned, depressed, sick, angry and fearful of living your f-cking life.)
 
The TRUTH is that lazy is NOT your issue.
 
No the TRUTH is that you don’t believe that you can.
 
Therfore you are trying to control everything instead of just LETTING GO and LETTING God’s Flow Happen.
 
You claim you believe in something greater than yourself.
You claim you believe that God has your back.
You claim that you believe that you are saved.
You claim that you believe that God can move mountains.
You claim all this stuff.
 
But that is the issue.
It is STUFF.
And you don’t really believe it.
You are faking your belief.
 
If you REALLY had a drop of belief you would just simply step into your flow and stop resisting it.
 
But you don’t.
 
Which is why those of us who choose to step into the river of blessings and just open ourselves up are so f-cking rare.
 
This river is ever flowing.
There is more than enough with plenty left over.
We could jump and frolic, laugh and play in this abundance together.
 
But you don’t believe you can have it.
You are to caught up on everything else that you are trying to control instead of just reaping the blessings that this phenomenal life has to offer.
 
I wish it were different.
And it is for some.
About 0.01% of some that is.
 
But is that 0.01% you?
You may feel that stir in your gut.
Butterflies in your tummy.
Warmth in your chest.
Pulsing in your genitals.
 
But is it REALLY you?
Only YOU can answer this.
 
Until you get around to answer it,
I am going to be over here in the sparkling, cool, relaxing waters of abundance.
Enjoying my life.
My day.
My blessings.
I am going to bask in the sunshine of this life and just breathe it in.
Follow my bliss and get lost in life’s rapture.
 
I will be here.
Waiting for you to come join.
 
Say yes to you.
You deserve to live.
 
I love you.
 

And remember,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 
PS – Yesterday I launched my newest online workshop.
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Do you crave an authentic, blissed out life?
Do you have ton’s of creative energy but no clue what to do with them?
Do you feel like you have tried all these things but are still just standing at the side lines of your life?
 
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