The Pendulum of Your Momentum Is Based In Your KNOWING.

It feels so great when at your core you KNOW,
not just think,
not just feel good,
but KNOW….
 
You know that feeling of knowing.
Knowing that it will happen.
Knowing that you have come through the toughest portion of something,
Knowing that it is down hill from here.
That you avoided being taken over by your fears,
Your doubts and that you GOT THIS THING.
 
It’s the THING that your SOUL cannot let you let go of.
It’s the THING that keeps you walking your path.
It’s the THING that scares the utter shiz out of you but also makes your feel more alive than anything else.
YES that THING.
 
And Now,
NOW you just KNOW.
You KNOW that you have it at your finger tips.
You can feel the shift of the momentum.
The pendulum was swinging the opposite direction before,
It use to feel like everything was wagered against you,
that you had no luck,
that your guardian angels all went to the bar and forgot about you or are laughing at your illusions of grandeur.
But NOW…..
 
Now there is something different going on.
You feel that beautiful.
That feeling of excitement.
That feeling of champagne bubbles in your gut,
that creative flow that is just lingering,
begging for you to play with it some more.
That feeling of joy.
That smile that you cannot let go of.
That giggle,
that tone change in your voice.
 
Yes YOU.
You are walking different now.
You are speaking different now.
You are showing up in your life with PURPOSE again.
 
It’s sort of like you rediscovered yourself.
 
Right?
 
I know.
I can feel it too beautiful.
You are radiant.
You are glowing.
Your turn on for all that you can give this world.
and for how life just simply LOVES you….
 
It’s all over you.
 
And it is your KNOWING,
that is causing it.
 
It is your passion,
It is your playfulness,
it is that radiant joy.
 
Yes that is the KNOWING.
It has been buried and hidden within your fear,
it has been covered by all the muck that you picked up on your journey,
those things that meant nothing,
but you chose to focus on anyway.
Yes you know the things.
 
Those very things,
they stole your momentum.
They took from you your joy.
They tossed you down another path.
And that path was comfortable,
was it not?
It felt familiar.
It felt like you had strolled there once before.
But as you walked it a bit,
your comfort in it reminded you of the suffering that it brought to you as well.
It was a path that was based on comfort,
based on average and ordinary.
It was your old path.
And old version of you.
 
But Beautiful you are far from that version anymore,
you no longer need to hide,
to fear or doubt.
and you KNOW this.
 
So here you are.
Feeling,
feeling confident and passionate,
tapping into your joy and play,
discovering a deeper version of who you are meant to be,
and reaching into yourself,
tapping into that SOUL that guides you.
Here you are,
facing your fear.
And instead standing in your KNOWING.
 
You got this!
 
Yes in deed you do.
So set aside anything that says else wise.
Keep your pendulum swinging into your abundance.
Keep it tilted to your SOUL alignment.
Listen to what your CORE says.
 
Here is where your momentum resides.
Here is where you gain your energy.
It’s all about YOU TAPPING IN.
And LETTING GO.
 
Yes you got this
Breathe beautiful.
Breathe it in and stay true.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
I know that you may be scared.
I have been in those shoes before all too many time.
But that fear is not going to stop you.
You are powerful.
Introducing 12- weeks of “Unstoppable Power – It’s My Time To Fly!”
This is a once in a life time to work with me 1:1 from anywhere in the world.
If you are a man or a woman who is looking for a powerful game-changing opportunity to claim the life that you desire in FAITH and learn how you can access your dreams quickly by releasing old programs based in fear and shame around your worthiness, joy and abundance then this 12-weeks is for you.
Stop letting everything be an excuse!
You deserve better than those reasons you have to stay trapped in your comfort bubble of suffering.
Let’s level up your life over summer.
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Step The F-ck Into Your Life Ans STOP Making Excuses.

Get off your A*s and Get VIBING the way you know you need too.
 
When are you going to get sick and tired of being sick and tired of not living the life that you want?
 
You do realize that the ONLY thing preventing you from having it the way you want it is YOU.
 
It is those damn thoughts of sabotage and fear.
Those beliefs that you are not worthy.
The objections of not having enough money, time or support….
Energy.
 
This is what is holding you back.
It clearly tells God and Universal forces that you are not yet ready to call it in.
It says that you are more content being comfortable in your suffering then committing to what you claim you desire to have for a life.
 
The only question that you every really need to ask yourself on this topic is,
 
” Am I ready to get ready?”
 
And until you are ready to get ready,
you will not have.
 
It is that simple beautiful.
Until you are ready to commit,
and stop your blaming and excuse making,
you will continue to have exactly what you have RIGHT NOW.
 
And if you are not happy with what your life is RIGHT NOW,
then tough.
 
Because obviously you want it to remain the same.
 
You have settled into it and you have made it home.
Perhaps you find some value or excitement in the settling,
the drama that you muster up to make yourself feel alive.
Or the stories that you manifest into your reality to give reason as to WHY you cannot or do not have.
 
You can continue to point out into this world,
and proclaim that you are not THRIVING because of this or that,
or you can find the spaces in your life that you do have it happening.
 
Its all about:
COMMITMENT
FOCUS
APPRECIATION
ACTION
SOUL
 
 
When you get these things,
when you slow down and tap into the messages that you are getting every day from your SOUL,
when you COMMIT to the inner work, and the listening to SOUL,
When you choose to FOCUS on what you want instead of the not having of what you want,
When you APPRECIATE all that you do have,
And when you choose to take ACTION toward what you want,
 
Then you will CALL IT INTO CREATION.
 
Because the universe will bend to your will.
You can command in everything that you desire with a short time frame.
You are WORTHY and POWERFUL.
And what you want, wants you too.
 
But you have to take the first step in FAITH.
 
BABY YOU HAVE TO PUT YOUR A*S ON THE LINE AND STEP THE F-CK IN ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!
 
This is you getting ready to get ready.
 
Most will continue to choose to not step in.
That is the small minded, sheeple of our world.
That is the way of the Average and Ordinary,
In the box thinkers.
 
These same souls will never know the JOY and ABUNDANCE that this life can offer.
 
They will never taste the FREEDOM.
And they will die with REGRET.
 
But that is not you!!!!
 
You are a crusader.
You are a powerful soul who desires to THRIVE.
You insist on greatness from life and from yourself.
And you feel it deep in your core.
It keeps you up at night.
It pains you to see yourself caving to the average way of thinking and being.
You KNOW that God gave you a purpose and you feel like you will loose your life if you die with this music still in you.
 
So what are you waiting for beautiful?
 
Say YES,
Say F-ck YES! To YOU RIGHT NOW.
 
Claim Your Life Today and step the f-ck in.
 
All the way in.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
Coaching for Grown A*s Believers
 
I know that you may be scared.
I have been in those shoes before all too many time.
But that fear is not going to stop you.
You are powerful.
Introducing 12- weeks of “Unstoppable Power – It’s My Time To Fly!”
This is a once in a life time to work with me 1:1 from anywhere in the world.
If you are a man or a woman who is looking for a powerful game-changing opportunity to claim the life that you desire in FAITH and learn how you can access your dreams quickly by releasing old programs based in fear and shame around your worthiness, joy and abundance then this 12-weeks is for you.
Stop letting everything be an excuse!
You deserve better than those reasons you have to stay trapped in your comfort bubble of suffering.
Let’s level up your life over summer.
Message me for deet’s or leave a comment here.

Are You Enjoying Remaining A Broke A*s Bitch?

You will remain a BROKE A*S B*TCH until you actually accept the fact that you can have it.
 
It’s called commitment.
It’s called courage to say yes to self.
It’s called take no more of your own bullsh*t.
It’s called responsibility.
 
But the reality is that most people will never do these things and instead will just continue to sit around and feel like sh*t about themselves.
Will continue to blame outside influences for them not having or succeeding.
Will remain stuck in the land of comfort.
 
Because that is what it adds up too beautiful.
You are too effing comfortable to say yes to your dreams.
 
That suffering that you keep complaining about you have a deeply intimate realtionship with it as well.
 
If you get real with yourself,
which will be very hard to do,
because getting real with self is one of the toughest truth tells one can do.
Its a scary place in there.
You know your mind,
your heart,
your soul.
 
But if you muster up the courage to actually look yourself in the eyes and listen to the voice deep within,
you will discover that you have given up in some fashion.
You are simply not willing to stand out there on the ledge and take the first step in faith.
 
You may proclaim to believe,
you may make big statements of your commitment,
your faith, and your desire.
 
But it is all a BIG EFFING lie you tell self.
 
And somewhere inside of yourself you know that this is true.
 
You know that if you really had the faith,
or at least the courage to JUST COMMIT.
And take that step,
 
that your life would unfold before you like magic.
 
And here you sit,
reading these words,
and feeling a stir in your gut.
Perhaps tears are swelling at the truth I write you this morning,
perhaps you have a desire to name call,
to flip off the screen,
to make your case even about me not understanding,
how could I?
I am not in your shoes.
 
And you are right.
 
I am not in your shoes beautiful.
I have no understanding of your unique human experience.
No one does.
 
But what I can share with you is fact….
 
YOUR SOUL WANTS YOU TO LISTEN.
GOD WANTS YOU TO HAVE FAITH.
 
 
And for any of us who question this,
its like the air that we breathe.
 
We cannot see it,
it is possible that it does not exists even if we only rely on our eye’s,
But whether you believe in the air or not,
it still is.
 
And the TRUTH OF YOUR SOUL,
is the same.
 
The truth of SOUL is the same for all of us.
 
And it has everything to do with FAITH.
 
It has everything to do with LISTENING TO THE CALL.
 
You have been trained through your life to ignore SOUL.
You have been taught to not take heed to your emotions and feeling.
You have been brainwashed into believing that the only thing that matters is your reality.
You have been lied too.
 
Your reality is a manifestation of your past thoughts and feelings.
 
It is NOT evidence of what your future is or can be.
 
YOU….
 
AND ONLY YOU…
 
Are in control of that beautiful.
 
But you have to believe that you are worthy.
You have to want your dreams more than your comfort.
You have to take the first step in FAITH.
And you have to realize that reality is not what you think it is.
 
 
Are you ready to STOP being a broke a*s bitch?
Are you ready to stop the insanity of not having?
Are you ready to claim that life that you hear calling you from deep within?
 
 
You realize that the reason you want for what you want is because it wants you too, right?
 
Take the first step in FAITH beautiful.
 
And Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
 
I know that you may be scared.
I have been in those shoes before all too many time.
But that fear is not going to stop you.
You are powerful.
 
Introducing 12- weeks of “Unstoppable Power – It’s My Time To Fly!”
 
This is a once in a life time to work with me 1:1 from anywhere in the world.
 
If you are a man or a woman who is looking for a powerful game-changing opportunity to claim the life that you desire in FAITH and learn how you can access your dreams quickly by releasing old programs based in fear and shame around your worthiness, joy and abundance then this 12-weeks is for you.
 
Stop letting everything be an excuse!
You deserve better than those reasons you have to stay trapped in your comfort bubble of suffering.
 
Let’s level up your life over summer.
 
Message me for deet’s or leave a comment here.
 
 

It’s Time to STOP Effing Around and Listen to SOUL.

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If you really wanted it then you would have it wouldn’t you?
 
And it feels like you are wanting it.
It feels like you are operating from your core.
It feels like you should just be living that life that you feel so called to live,
and yet you are not.
 
How can it be so?
Why is it that you just keep tackling problem after problem and not seeming to make way to what you really want for your life?
 
It’s because you are not ready beautiful.
You simply are not yet ready.
 
But you could be ready,
if you really wanted to that is.
 
The only challenge with being ready is YOU.
 
??????????
 
Yeah YOU are your challenge.
 
You have to….
 
1. Make a effing decision to be ready.
2. Stop stopping yourself from being ready with all your petty little reasons and fears.
3. Stop thinking you will have the germination time that you have deemed for yourself.
4. Allow yourself to receive the opportunities that will lead you to what you want.
 
 
This all means that you need to start listening beautiful.
 
But to whom?
 
Well sure as f-ck not to everyone who has not walked in yours shoes.
 
And not those who are less successful than yourself.
And not to your fear.
Or your doubts or any of those negative thoughts that you are thinking.
 
 
No.
 
Don’t listen to that shiz!
 
 
Do Listen to YOUR SOUL.
 
If you have not a clue or maybe just a faint clue as to what I am speaking of when I say SOUL…
 
It’s that quiet little voice.
It’s that nagging at your core.
It’s that desire,
that hunger that will not leave you.
It’s that knowing that points out the opportunities, the synchronicity and coincidences.
It’s the reactions that your body and emotions are trying to make you more aware of.
 
 
This is SOUL.
 
Your SOUL.
 
And if you want to have that THING,
That thing that you have been wanting for so long.
That lifestyle that your heart craves for yourself,
for your children,
your family,
your people.
 
Well that THING, wants you to pay attention to what will lead you to it.
 
Your SOUL.
 
It’s the path of least resistance beautiful.
Its the path that will feed you,
fulfill you, and bring you joy.
 
But you have to WANT IT.
 
And in your wanting of it you will be asked to focus on it.
You be required to do the inner mindset and emotional harmonizing work that you need to do.
You be required to make yourself available for what you are wanting.
And if you are not doing this,
then you will not have it until you do these things.
 
Until you are ready.
No matter how much you b*tch, moan and complain,
no matter how much suffering you choose to go through,
you will not get access to your dreamed life UNTIL you are READY.
 
And to be ready, you must show up.
You must open up.
You must be available and take advantage of the opportunities that show themselves to you and ask for your commitment.
 
Because if your SOUL tells you to take on that commitment,
that opportunity,
then that is YOUR SOUL guiding you to your highest and best.
That is your soul leading you on your path to your truth.
To your best life.
 
The question only comes down to the question of,
 
WILL YOU LISTEN TO SOUL?
 
Or will you continue to ignore?
 
You know what ignoring or half a*s listening has gotten you so far….
 
Why not try something new?
 
 
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.
I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.
But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.
Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.
Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.
What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?
You can have this.
Message me for deet’s on 1:1 Private mentoring and coaching today.

It’s Makes Your Feel Alive But It Steals Your Dreams.

You are broke.
You are lost.
You feel like there is no way out of the rut that you are in.
You keep thinking about your bills, your responsibilities and they are overwhelming. There is so much out pour to your current life picture. You are energetically, financially, emotionally in the red. And it seems that no matter what you attempt to do to get things moving the other direction,
it just turns too shiz.

You want so very badly to live a life where this worry and fear is no more.
You want to authentically smile and laugh again.
You have felt this joy.
This comfort, before.
There is still a faint flavor on your lips if you sit real still and let yourself taste it.
But there is no time to sit still.
There is no time to breathe.
There are only bills, and creditors, responsibilities and mouths to feed.

Everything you hear tells you to calm yourself.
All the spiritual texts tell you to steady yourself in your faith.
You want to believe that you have faith.
You know that it is somewhere inside of you.
But right now you are addicted to the fear.
You are addicted to the not having,
and you are caught in this crazy loop of emotion where you bounce from fearing of loosing everything and what are you going to do to prevent it from happening to okay I got this and then sadness over runs you and then anger about nothing working and no one caring, back to overwhelm and fear you go.

Your boat is sinking and the sharks are hungrily awaiting.
But what can you do.

You hear the advice.
You feel the call.
You logically get it, and yet not.
You doubt it.
You don’t truly believe that it is that simple,
and you do not believe it because you have not allowed yourself the time to reprogram your thoughts and beliefs.
You make these half ass attempts to do the work,
the true work,
the inner work.
But then you forget.
You get to busy, too caught up in this or that and you let the chaos over take you. All the while you internally stand in fear.

But that voice,
that quiet little voice of peace whispers to you.
I know you know the voice.
You don’t believe that it is correct,
but what if it is?

What if all you have had to do this entire time is to free fall into life.
What if all you ever had to do was the trust exercise.
Yes that’s what it is always about.
It is never about anything else beautiful.
It is just one big trust exercise.
God wants you to put your life in his hands.
God wants you to just rest in trust.

can you do that?
Do you have enough faith?
Does your desire, your dream life enough,
mean enough to TRUST?

Or…
Are you going to remain stubborn and sacrifice EVERYTHING?

The trust that God wants from you is not just to let go and do nothing,
No.
You still must apply yourself.
You still must take action.
You still must do the work.
The inner work.
The mindset work.
The emotional frequency work.
The action of opening up door ways,
accessing opportunities.
Saying YES to yourself.
And allowing your abundance to come to you.

This is what you have been resisting.
This is what you have been sacrificing.
And why?

Because you feel alive in your resistance.
The resistance makes you feel more,
want more, desire more.
Look at the adventures you are having in your resistance.
Look at what you are learning about your desire.
Look at the beauty of what you consider struggle.
You NEED to feel alive.
You need to find your alignment to everything that you want,
but to do this you MUST first know what you do not want.
You must learn to feel what your lack of resistance feels like.
By feeling your resistance.

And from this place of breathing in life.
feeling alive in what you are perceiving,
you get to learn more about your faith.
And letting go.

Yes God wants you to LET GO.
Let GO in faith,
and stop resisting your abundance.

Say YES to that SOUL CALL to take the action to do the THING that you know that you must do.

Stop the EXCUSES that you are making around doing the THING that you know you must do.

Know that it is selfish and irresponsible to NOT do the THING that you feel most called to do by SOUL.

When you SAY YES to what your SOUL leads and guides you to do, no matter how crazy, silly or irresponsible it may feel, if it is SOUL led,
then it will support your abundance. It will open you to less and less resistance.

But this is having FAITH.
This is standing in SOUL GUIDANCE.

Are you willing to leap?
Are you willing to listen to your soul’s call and guidance?

Will you SAY YES to your abundance and stop making excuses?

Or will you settle for what you have been creating as your norm?

The choice is yours.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.

I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.

But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.

Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.

Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.

What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?

You can have this.
Message me for deet’s on 1:1 Private mentoring and coaching today.

GO IN EASE – RESISTANCE IN FUTILE.

GO IN EASE – RESISTANCE IS FUTILE
 
You hold on for dear life.
You know that you just need to let go,
you know how important it is to your whole future,
to your success, your love, your happiness, your fulfillment.
And yet you find yourself white knuckling everything.
Holding on with a fierce grip to everything that you know at your core is holding you back, preventing you from living life fulling out loud and unapologetic the way that SOUL demands of you.
You ponder the questions,
you look deep within, and you sit and analyze.
In all your questioning you find yourself even more lost then when you got started. And to make matters even worse you also can now see your fault in everything.
You can see how you are the cause for your suffering.
You pain, your lack of not having. It is in no one else’s hands but your very own and you see it clearly. But, still do not know how to let go.
 
And so you blame.
You feel shame for the things that you are causing,
that you are allowing, and for how you are not stepping fully the f-ck into your life.
You feel guilt for letting those you love down,
and have trouble looking yourself in the eye’s in the morning.
You want to run, you desire to hide.
You have thoughts of quitting.
You feel as though everything you touch turns to crap.
And yet still you hold onto everything you have with gusto.
 
The more you squeeze the life out of your dreams and goals,
the more you try and force them to manifest.
You dig in deeper,
you root your heals into the earth and you proclaim that you will work harder, show up more often, try new things, refocus your energy this way or that.
You feel the call at your core to simply LET GO.
You know that this can all be dealt with in no time flat.
Miracles are at your door step asking to be received,
but you turn them away because YOU MUST WORK FOR THIS THING. YOU MUST EARN IT.
 
You hear the words of ease and flow.
You believe it for everyone but YOU.
You see it working.
But you cave to your addiction of looking for the results and applying all your focus on what is not showing up.
Only turn inward and get angry, upset and depressed at your actions, at what you are causing.
 
This is all your fault and you know it at your core.
 
Those negative thoughts,
that doubt and fear.
They yell at you in the damnedest of times,
it’s hard to laugh, to play, to enjoy.
It difficult to enjoy the connection, the love, the support.
You see it.
You are grateful for it.
But it is fleeting.
Much like your faith in yourself.
But what is strong is your disgust.
Your anger and fear.
These negative emotions they know how to comfort you.
They support you,
or so it feels.
And you lay down with them and curl up in their arms.
Promising yourself that you will stop doing this.
Assuring yourself that you will do the damn thing that you know that you MUST DO, to have the life that is calling to you.
 
Your SOUL is crying out.
And you feel even more lost,
even in the comfort of this suffering you know that you are lost. You know that it is not suppose to be this hard.
You know that the challenge is self-created.
 
And to LET GO is the only thing that you must do.
In letting go, you will discover all your power, you will commit to who you truly are.
Here you will discover your natural way,
and get caught in the currents of abundance and love.
You will have no resistance,
because you have FINALLY chosen what you have always known and finally done the damn thing that has been calling to you.
 
It is this moment.
It is this moment where you find yourself on your knees,
your eye’s are welled up with tears and your hands are open wide.
Here you are FINALLY READY to be READY to receive.
And God desires to open the heavens to you beautiful.
 
Your first step to this SURRENDER is to go in ease with yourself.
 
Realize that you are human,
that you have an ego,
that you are learning how these moments,
like all moments are opportunities to know yourself better,
to heal deeper and to open wider.
The first step to your path has always been,
and will always remain the same,
BE IN EASE.
 
The ease of embracing yourself.
The ease of surrendering to your flow.
The ease of opening and receiving.
The ease of accepting that this too shall pass.
The ease of NOT making mountains out of mole hills.
The ease of just BEING YOU.
 
Let go in EASE Beautiful.
Let go and let your SOUL move you to your next step.
Let SOUL bring you to the path that will have the least amount of resistance.
Let go and watch the miracles form.
 
Let go of that death grip that YOU have on your heart and soul. On your dreams and goals.
On your abundance.
Your joy.
 
You ,
yes you are smothering yourself.
And ONLY YOU can let go.
But you must do it in EASE.
Have compassion beautiful for yourself.
Give love to yourself for walking the journey that you have.
 
You are YOU because of the steps that you have walked.
Appreciate each and every one.
And LET GO.
God has your back.
 
As Always
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful.
It’s time that you accept your worth,
and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.
I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful,
that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.
But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.
Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.
Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.
What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?
You can have this.
Message me for deet’s on 1:1 Private mentoring and coaching today.

This Is What Men Have Taught Me About Money, Abundance, Goals and Happiness.

This Is What Men Have Taught Me About Money, Abundance, Goals and Happiness.

Years ago, I was married.
I was married at age 18.
I had five children.
Struggled, lost homes, was burred under debt, my health suffered, my marriage suffered, my sex was nothing but duty. I hated my life! I was focused on the NOT having and I was buying into the concept of this is just how it was. This was normal and I had to just suck it up.

My husband then was in financial services, he worked for Primerica which was part of Travelers Group, originally Art Williams created the company back in the 1970’s and it was known as A.L. Williams Life Insurance Group. It was about term insurance and investments.

I met my husband in the company as I was working on my licenses to become a representative to sell for them and was interested in the structure of the system.

Well, fast forward past all that and the wedding and the child birth stuff and you found us BROKE. Chasing our dreams of becoming financially free. Our goal back then was to become Vice Presidents of the company and make a six figure income. Get the ring to show how great we were and the rewards of trips and such.

And so we listened to ALL the motivational stuff.
We went to the seminars.
We made the cold calls and followed the sales scripts.
We worked, worked , worked.
And occasionally made some sales.
Some would charge back, which put us in debt with the company and had to be taken out of future commissions.
some would stick.

For years we chased the DREAM.
For years we struggled.
We comforted ourselves with the concept that we were building a beautiful tale of overcoming the feats and obstacles but in the end succeeded.
We imagined walking on the stage and telling the story.
OUR STORY.

And we struggled.
Living on what averaged out to be $17,000 a year.
Raising children, scrimping buy.
Food Stamps, Evictions, State insurance, borrowing whatever we could from family to make ends meet and even sleeping on families couches when things got REALLY bad.

But we kept chasing that dream.

Until one day, I could not chase it anymore.
I was burned out. I hated my life.
I wanted it all to end.
And I spent the next two years of my life in the middle of deep dark depression, that still today I wonder how I made it through alive. I acted out, I drank too much alcohol. We fought like wild raging animals.

It was toxic.
It was unhealthy for everyone.
And it had to come to an end.

Fast forward.
I decided I was done.
I decided that I wanted a divorce.
I decided that we had too much water under our bridge.
And I chose to burn the bridge.

I decided that if it was up to me, it was going to be my freedom, my way, my flow, my self-discovery, my healing.

And so it was.

I had to let go of all the old ways though.
And I did, for the most part.
I dug in and started to do the inner work.
I decided that I was the most important person in the room.
In my life.
That if I wanted to be an AMAZING mom, I needed to feed my SOUL.

I reinvented myself.

So I started my practice,
it was nothing like it is today,
but it was my foundation grounds.
My learning grounds.
My healing grounds.
And with my practice came a desire to date and explore the masculine because I had never done that before.
I only had explored three men intimately up to this point and I knew I had a bunch of shame, guilt, self-image and fear wrapped around this area of life.

I was not overly caught up on dating.
It was just a desire that I had and if it came along,
then it came along.
I created some doorways for opportunities to happen and I did not really apply my focus there too much. I just knew what I wanted and let it be.
Something about dating and men felt easy to me.
Even with my fear.
I had a fascination, a curiosity that overcame the fear.
Men and dating felt playful to me.
It was a game,
new ground to explore.
An adventure.
My ONLY expectation was to enjoy it and learn.

And so I decided in that moment that I would NEVER chase men. There was no need. Because I wanted it to just be FUN.

And so it was.

As with men, I quickly discovered that money, abundance, goals and happiness were no different.

If I chased them.
They ran from me.

If I turned them into a fun game,
an adventure and let my curiosity run free,
then they flowed.

My advice to you today BABY is simple.

Stop chasing everything!

Wonder why it is running from you?
Well it’s not rocket science BABY.
It is running from you because you are chasing it.

I know that you have been told to chase your dreams.
I know that you have been told to make your goals happen.
I know that you have heard that there is no gain without the pain.

Yeah I understand.
I lived that way for so many years.
I still have those nasty lies pop up in my mind today and try and take me down.
Try and steal my joy.

But today I see them for the wolves they are.
And I know what to do to get back into my FLOW.

That is the power of doing the inner work.
That is the purpose of having a mentor.
That is why we who crave the f-ck yes lifestyle that is so much more than money,
its all about FREEDOM and HAPPINESS.

It’s about SOUL.

Yes we know the power of saying YES to ourselves and taking the ACTION to do the things that must be done.

Those things are internal 80% of the time.
Those things are the things that we AVOID.
We hide from.

But as long as you keep choosing to chase your dreams the old fashioned way, you will remain the predator to that, that you so desire and it will keep running from you.

Sure you can succeed this way.
You can keep chasing.
You can capture your dreams and goals and MAKE THEM HAPPEN.

But at what cost?

How much of YOU will be left?
And will you be truly happy, fulfilled and healthy?

There is an easier way BABY.
It’s called Ease and Flow.
It’s called SOUL Guidance.
But first you must learn to listen.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

It’s my specialty beautiful!
It’s my purpose work.
My calling and my passion.
When I chose all those years ago to step into who I was and step into my ease and flow,
I chose to live a life of service and help YOU find your ease and flow.

But to do that you have to want it.
You have to be ready to get ready to RECEIVE it.
And that mean creating doorways for it to come through and releasing you from the predatory chains of your current beliefs and habits.

You can keep doing what you are doing.
Or you can grab a consult with me and make a different choice.
You can reinvent YOURSELF.
Which is actually just unveiling YOURSELF.

Claim Your Life Today.

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If You Were Ready Then It Would Be Happening! Here is What To Do.

I know what you want.
I totally get it beautiful.
You want to just skip to the finish line.
You want to avoid the struggle,
avoid the work.
Move quickly past all that stuff that you keep getting told you need to do but that you have been doing,
you did it all last year,
the year before even.
And this year it is simply just too much to do more of that.
So much like a kid fresh out of high school,
the temptation of taking a year off from schooling,
with the claims of coming back,
you too are wanting to just take some time off.
 
Yet, life seem’s to be nagging at you.
Life is disrupted,
you are getting more and more out of alignment.
And with the turbulence that you face day after day,
you feel more drained.
There is no energy to do the things that you think about doing.
There is no time to get started on that project,
to step into the things that you were doing or the things that you know that you need to be doing or that you feel called to do.
It’s all just so difficult.
You feel meh about it.
 
Don’t you?
 
But then as you sit back and you look at everything,
you wonder how,
how can I go from here to there?
How can I do it without having to apply myself any more than what I have already done?
How can I get what I want,
have what I desire,
but not have to go through the grounds of learning anymore.
 
I mean I am good right where I am at.
I can do that.
I can do this.
I may not understand what I am to do with any of it,
I might be feeling lost,
and uncertain.
But do I really need to ask for help?
Do I really need guidance of any sort?
Do I really need to “learn” or “study” for anything else?
 
And so you sit.
You sit and you wish.
You ponder.
You question.
But take action????
 
LOL…
That was a thing for last year.
 
This year, action is taking a break.
And with it so is your momentum.
You are certainly filling up your desire boat with things you want.
You are learning about what you do not want.
But action is out to sea and is not in your scope of concern yet.
 
And so you shall sit and watch your life move by in slow motion.
You will see your goals rise up and sink back down,
because the momentum that was there to manifest them is slowing. The focus and love and care that you were giving them in positive attention is not there.
It cannot be there.
Your focus is on the not having of them.
Your focus is on what is not happening.
Your focus is on your lostness.
Your dismay.
Your fatigue.
Your fear.
You mehness.
 
Try and truly feel into that desire for whatever it is that you crave. Can you feel the desire? Can you really?
Or is it just a thought that has you believing that you are desiring, but there is no emotion attached to it?
Or the emotion is of the not having it.
The sadness of what has not shown up in your life.
It’s time to get truthful with yourself.
It’s time to realize that the reality that you are living is nothing more than what you have created from your feeling of not wanting to step in fully.
Of wanting to just take the year off.
To avoid it.
 
Life is just fine as it is right now, right?
 
If that was so, then you would not have that underlying feeling.
You know the feeling that I speak of.
The feeling that is slowly eating away at you from deep within.
That feeling.
Yes that feeling right there.
the one that you try and cover up,
you try and hide with food, movies, entertainment, family activities, alcohol, drugs, illness, busy work.
Yes that feeling.
 
You cannot hide your feeling from God.
God knows you at a DNA vibrational level.
There is no hiding your truth.
That fear,
that depression,
those negative idea’s and thoughts that just keep popping up and destroying your day,
yes they are all over you beautiful.
You are bathed in them and they are repulsive.
They are keeping you away from your desired life experience.
 
But if you want to change it,
then you are the ONLY ONE who can change it.
You must choose to take ACTION.
Stop sitting there in that low vibe energy beautiful,
stop focusing on the addictive energy of crashing and burning, of loosing and leaving, of not having.
Stop focusing in on all that you do not see manifesting.
And TAKE effing action toward what you want.
 
You say you want to have a thriving business?
Then get a mentor. Get your message out there DAILY.
Be seen and heard or shut up and let go of this dream.
 
You say you want a better body?
Then stop eating fast food and soda, drink more water, eat more healthy foods and get your a*s working out DAILY.
 
You say that you want better sex?
Then start having more sex. Speak your needs, your boundaries and ASK for what you want DAILY.
 
You say that you want to find your soulmate?
Then look within and do some deep work on yourself. Get a coach or a mentor and gain some clarity, let go of the past, do the work to manifest the soulmate DAILY.
 
You say you want more money?
Then stop thinking about the money that you do not have.
Don’t start your day with looking at your bank and confirming that you don’t have it. Instead do the mindset work, the manifestation work to call in the money that you want. Get a coach or a mentor and ask for help DAILY.
 
It’s a choice.
It’s a commitment.
It’s you calling it in.
We live in an attraction based world beautiful.
You attract to you what you think and feel about most.
You want what you want,
but you seem to be under the misconception that you can just ignore it, just not do anything to change your thinking,
your feeling or attention and that it will happen.
Yes life is magical,
yes you can manifest that shiz overnight.
But you have to FOCUS on what you want from a place of having, loving and not in fear.
 
It’s about time that you stop wanting to avoid the stretch.
It time you stop avoiding the field of learning and growing that makes you READY to have what you want.
 
Think of it like this,
It’s sorta like you want to be a yoga teacher but you never want to take a yoga class. You just want to get paid and have the body without the training.
 
That is goofy right?
 
Yet that is what you are doing when you try and skip any piece of your process.
When you try and avoid the perceived pain,
the perceived stretching that will be required of you to gain your dreams and desires.
 
In your current condition,
YOU ARE NOT READY TO RECEIVE.
 
But you can be!
Make the choice.
Make the decision.
Make the commitment.
And TAKE THE EFFING ACTION.
 

Stop F-cking around with this year and your life!

 
And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
 
It’s not too late to reach out and get the coaching and mentoring that you need to have that F-ck Yes! lifestyle and live in total yumminess. You have been wanting to step up and have the money, love, health, wellbeing and abundance that you have been dreaming about.
 
So stop dreaming and take action.
Let’s make 2019 YOUR Year of Miracles.
 
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The Soul Sucking That You Are Addicted To.

I remember the days when I had to almost literally be drug out of bed to go to my J-O-B.

I am serious.
I was drug like a kid out of my bed.
The last “real” job I had was back in the 1990’s when I sold large appliances for Circuit City. I was 18 years old and fresh out in the world. Planning my wedding and working 40+ hours each week at a job that I hated.
I remember looking at my pay checks,
part of me proud and part of me so frustrated.
Two weeks worth of work.
80+ hours of my time and energy.
Living at a place that my heart and soul hated,
learning to sell extended service programs that I did not believe in.
And all of this soul sucking for a whopping $650 every two weeks!

WTF!
I look back at those days and I wonder how I survived such disgust. But I did.
Until one day, a week before my wedding when I had a meeting with my manager ( who was so very grumpy herself, a woman who was owned by the company).
She pulled me in her office to informed me that even though I had requested a week off to get married and enjoy a few days honeymoon months before,
and we are talking many months before,
matter a fact it was at my hire.
That after consideration, management had decided that I could not have the time off as I had not worked there long enough to take a vacation…

Excuse me?

I had been giving all my time and energy to this place.
I had made good sales,
sold the freaking extended service programs that were crap even, and was now informed that I had to choose between my job and my wedding….

LOL.

Yeppers I chose my wedding.

I watched all my fellow colleagues work their bumbs off,
and sacrifice their families, their holidays, events and very life to make sure to be there for this place of business.
They felt that it was a duty, it was loyalty, it was responsible.

They had too.
And I saw these same people a few years later,
looking for anything to ease them.
Alcohol. Drugs. Sex.

The addictions grew and they stayed addicted to this soul sucking life experience, called their J-O-B.

As time went on, I learned and grew.
I got education around psychology, mindset, habits and so much more.
I explored multiple opportunities to expand myself and my pocket book. Hoping to get rich overnight almost ( with a little hard work of course too). Some were partially successful, some not so much. All had a system, a pre-created pattern to success in this business or that.
None felt in alignment to my soul or heart, but I kept trying to drink the Koolade.

No matter what I tried, if it was not in alignment it did not take long for my whole being to feel drained and lost in life.
I could not figure out what was wrong with me.
Surely not all of these opportunities were bad.
It must be something I was doing.

And it was something that I was doing.
I was sacrificing my soul,
my life for something that someone else had built, created and told me was the way to get what I wanted, instead of following my heart.

Soul suck after soul suck,
I felt addicted to trying this or that out in the attempt to achieve SUCCESS.

I wanted nothing more than to just be me.
I wanted to be a BIG earner in some company.
I wanted to speak and share, educate and help others in some fashion or form.
Be a thought leader.
A visionary.
A crusader.

I wanted to make positive changes in this world, and help people feel good, live an abundant life. And I truly believed that I had to do this through someone else’s way. That I did not have the skills, ideas, education, know how to be an influencer.

And so I continued for years to explore companies that promised so many beautiful things but all felt so empty to my soul at the end of the day because they were selling something that in my opinion did not really change lives the way that I desired to change lives.

They were not my purpose work.
My soul was not captivated by any of them.
But they did soul suck the life out of me and I was honestly addicted to this process without really realizing it.

Much like many are addicted to going to the J-O-B and making sure the BOSS man is happy, or that the company is taken care of but not even truly believing in what they are doing. Or perhaps one day many years ago they believed in the greatness of this or that company, they were on board with the mission, but now today, it is a paycheck. It is a bonus check. It is relatively easy work, but still empty.

And they feel drained.
Lost in their lives and choose to mask and cover the pain of a life that is empty with something that eases the pain.
Proclaiming that one day, one day they will do that thing.
That thing that they would love to do.
You know the thing.
The thing you desire.
The thing that turns you on.
The things that makes you wish you could be working at it, creating it, building it, putting yourself into it.
FULLY.

Yes that thing.
Not a thing that is soul sucking,
but is life giving.
Will make you THRIVE.
And if you applied yourself to this thing,
would not only make your soul sing,
but bring you abundance in so many ways and HAPPINESS.

Yes that thing.

Well that is where I got to pretty damn quick in my life.
I looked out at this world of lost souls, hungry people who craved more but was addicted to the suffering.
Who did not know how to change.
How to escape this track they had gotten on.
Where they would find their happiness, or if it was even okay to contemplate happiness.

I could not do it!
I could not settle.
I could not sell my soul to this way of existing.
I had to speak who I was, be me and do my own thing.
Feed my soul.

And I want you to know that you too can feed your soul.
I want you to know that if you are one of the very many people out there that want for so much more in life, dislike where you are sitting at in your life, in your work, your relationships, your happiness level or anything else, but feel CALLED to go another path. To be something that you have always wanted but are unsure as to how….

That you are only a decision away.
You do not have to give up everything you currently have and do to have it either, but you MUST be willing to STEP FULLY into who you are.
To listen to your SOUL and to stop hiding.
Stop masking and avoiding.

The steps to a fulfilling life, a life that you have claimed and are living authentically may not mean to quite your job, or move states or countries, or change partners. No it may not mean any of that. It more than likely means none of that. But what it does mean is that you stop taking your own crap. Stop hiding from your desire to be something you know you were born to be.

Do you have a calling that you have been avoiding?
A mission that your soul knows is yours?
A passion that ignites your very soul, but currently you are lost as to how to expand it, make its successful, make it stand out and touch lives? Touch this world?
You can have it.
You can.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Want to know how I help people move from a soul sucking existence into living their calling and speaking from their soul? I help mompreneur and entrepreneurs of all back ground not just create a freedom based life but live a F-ck YES! Lifestyle doing whatever their SOUL calls them to.

Let’s explore this for you.
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Pick Me While I Am Ripe!

Pick me while I am ripe!
Suck all the juices from my flesh.
Let not a drop of me go to waist.

I want to fill you full of all I have,
all I can give and all you desire.
Sweet nectar pours from me,
each moment that I allow.

Sticky, sweet and refreshing.
This is how I want you to remember me.
Organic, raw and pure.
Yet satisfying and delicate.
A taste that make you crave more.
A taste of something rare.

Yes this is how I want you to enjoy me.
Pick me while I am ripe.
And let not a drop fall from this life,
without fully being consumed, devoured and enjoyed.
My life is worth nothing,
if not for the tasting.

Let your lips and mouth remember,
my flesh beneath them once more.
No moment can ever last forever,
no taste can be the same twice.
But this I promise you my love,
this taste will delight.

As long as you choose wisely,
let my juices flow from me,
without containment,
or control.
Enjoy the sweetness they offer,
enjoy this moment.

Our lives are nothing,
they are worth not even a breath,
if we do not bask in the freshness,
the flavors that wash through.
Delightful,
sweet and juicy.
Is the only way to live.

Yet so many may dislike our fruit we bare.
Call it evil,
dirty and sinful.
How can anyone enjoy such rapture?
How can anyone delight in this flavor?
It reeks,
it is so putrid.
How can one swallow this?
It has contaminated our SOUL.

But this contamination,
this discomfort that you feel,
it comes not from the fruit or the juices,
in was here on your lips my dear.
This flavor that makes you ill,
was only brought to your taste,
by the sweetness that this life can offer,
but your fear will steal away.

Pick me when I am ripe,
let not any juice escape.
This life was for the rapture.
The pure delight of such.
When one who stands in their juiciness,
comes forth and speaks the truth,
the SOUL is contaminated.
Not of evil or sin,
but of its very TRUTH,
the truth that it is RIPE and waiting,
waiting to be enjoyed.
Consumed as a lover would wish,
enjoyed as the sweetness the angels bare true.

But you may fear this juice,
this truth and your SOUL.
Hide from it yet one more moment,
until it feel rotten,
lost and unworthy.
But never understand,
that this cannot be.
Your SOUL,
your essence,
it is still connected to the vine,
the vine that has been blessed.
And all you need to ever do,
is taste it here,
taste its juice,
its love,
in delight.

And yes my dear,
it is uncomfortable to know your truth this day,
to stand here in the garden,
and look the other way.

But know that you are juicy.
You are sweet and ripe.
Your fruit is for the taking,
and life will bare it.
Your choices,
your thoughts and feelings,
are what keeps your vine alive,
but so many are uprooted,
so many are frightened and hungry.
Thirsty for a purpose.
Lost in this garden.

Wake up beautiful,
wake up and feel your ripeness.
Let yourself leak your juices into your lovers mouth,
let your flesh be seen,
and tasted.
Your lover,
this life,
awaits you.

So water the roots,
water the vines,
water the fruit.
Open yourself to faith.
And let yourself be consumed.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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