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It’s Makes Your Feel Alive But It Steals Your Dreams.

You are broke.
You are lost.
You feel like there is no way out of the rut that you are in.
You keep thinking about your bills, your responsibilities and they are overwhelming. There is so much out pour to your current life picture. You are energetically, financially, emotionally in the red. And it seems that no matter what you attempt to do to get things moving the other direction,
it just turns too shiz.

You want so very badly to live a life where this worry and fear is no more.
You want to authentically smile and laugh again.
You have felt this joy.
This comfort, before.
There is still a faint flavor on your lips if you sit real still and let yourself taste it.
But there is no time to sit still.
There is no time to breathe.
There are only bills, and creditors, responsibilities and mouths to feed.

Everything you hear tells you to calm yourself.
All the spiritual texts tell you to steady yourself in your faith.
You want to believe that you have faith.
You know that it is somewhere inside of you.
But right now you are addicted to the fear.
You are addicted to the not having,
and you are caught in this crazy loop of emotion where you bounce from fearing of loosing everything and what are you going to do to prevent it from happening to okay I got this and then sadness over runs you and then anger about nothing working and no one caring, back to overwhelm and fear you go.

Your boat is sinking and the sharks are hungrily awaiting.
But what can you do.

You hear the advice.
You feel the call.
You logically get it, and yet not.
You doubt it.
You don’t truly believe that it is that simple,
and you do not believe it because you have not allowed yourself the time to reprogram your thoughts and beliefs.
You make these half ass attempts to do the work,
the true work,
the inner work.
But then you forget.
You get to busy, too caught up in this or that and you let the chaos over take you. All the while you internally stand in fear.

But that voice,
that quiet little voice of peace whispers to you.
I know you know the voice.
You don’t believe that it is correct,
but what if it is?

What if all you have had to do this entire time is to free fall into life.
What if all you ever had to do was the trust exercise.
Yes that’s what it is always about.
It is never about anything else beautiful.
It is just one big trust exercise.
God wants you to put your life in his hands.
God wants you to just rest in trust.

can you do that?
Do you have enough faith?
Does your desire, your dream life enough,
mean enough to TRUST?

Or…
Are you going to remain stubborn and sacrifice EVERYTHING?

The trust that God wants from you is not just to let go and do nothing,
No.
You still must apply yourself.
You still must take action.
You still must do the work.
The inner work.
The mindset work.
The emotional frequency work.
The action of opening up door ways,
accessing opportunities.
Saying YES to yourself.
And allowing your abundance to come to you.

This is what you have been resisting.
This is what you have been sacrificing.
And why?

Because you feel alive in your resistance.
The resistance makes you feel more,
want more, desire more.
Look at the adventures you are having in your resistance.
Look at what you are learning about your desire.
Look at the beauty of what you consider struggle.
You NEED to feel alive.
You need to find your alignment to everything that you want,
but to do this you MUST first know what you do not want.
You must learn to feel what your lack of resistance feels like.
By feeling your resistance.

And from this place of breathing in life.
feeling alive in what you are perceiving,
you get to learn more about your faith.
And letting go.

Yes God wants you to LET GO.
Let GO in faith,
and stop resisting your abundance.

Say YES to that SOUL CALL to take the action to do the THING that you know that you must do.

Stop the EXCUSES that you are making around doing the THING that you know you must do.

Know that it is selfish and irresponsible to NOT do the THING that you feel most called to do by SOUL.

When you SAY YES to what your SOUL leads and guides you to do, no matter how crazy, silly or irresponsible it may feel, if it is SOUL led,
then it will support your abundance. It will open you to less and less resistance.

But this is having FAITH.
This is standing in SOUL GUIDANCE.

Are you willing to leap?
Are you willing to listen to your soul’s call and guidance?

Will you SAY YES to your abundance and stop making excuses?

Or will you settle for what you have been creating as your norm?

The choice is yours.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.

I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.

But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.

Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.

Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.

What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?

You can have this.
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This Is What Men Have Taught Me About Money, Abundance, Goals and Happiness.

This Is What Men Have Taught Me About Money, Abundance, Goals and Happiness.

Years ago, I was married.
I was married at age 18.
I had five children.
Struggled, lost homes, was burred under debt, my health suffered, my marriage suffered, my sex was nothing but duty. I hated my life! I was focused on the NOT having and I was buying into the concept of this is just how it was. This was normal and I had to just suck it up.

My husband then was in financial services, he worked for Primerica which was part of Travelers Group, originally Art Williams created the company back in the 1970’s and it was known as A.L. Williams Life Insurance Group. It was about term insurance and investments.

I met my husband in the company as I was working on my licenses to become a representative to sell for them and was interested in the structure of the system.

Well, fast forward past all that and the wedding and the child birth stuff and you found us BROKE. Chasing our dreams of becoming financially free. Our goal back then was to become Vice Presidents of the company and make a six figure income. Get the ring to show how great we were and the rewards of trips and such.

And so we listened to ALL the motivational stuff.
We went to the seminars.
We made the cold calls and followed the sales scripts.
We worked, worked , worked.
And occasionally made some sales.
Some would charge back, which put us in debt with the company and had to be taken out of future commissions.
some would stick.

For years we chased the DREAM.
For years we struggled.
We comforted ourselves with the concept that we were building a beautiful tale of overcoming the feats and obstacles but in the end succeeded.
We imagined walking on the stage and telling the story.
OUR STORY.

And we struggled.
Living on what averaged out to be $17,000 a year.
Raising children, scrimping buy.
Food Stamps, Evictions, State insurance, borrowing whatever we could from family to make ends meet and even sleeping on families couches when things got REALLY bad.

But we kept chasing that dream.

Until one day, I could not chase it anymore.
I was burned out. I hated my life.
I wanted it all to end.
And I spent the next two years of my life in the middle of deep dark depression, that still today I wonder how I made it through alive. I acted out, I drank too much alcohol. We fought like wild raging animals.

It was toxic.
It was unhealthy for everyone.
And it had to come to an end.

Fast forward.
I decided I was done.
I decided that I wanted a divorce.
I decided that we had too much water under our bridge.
And I chose to burn the bridge.

I decided that if it was up to me, it was going to be my freedom, my way, my flow, my self-discovery, my healing.

And so it was.

I had to let go of all the old ways though.
And I did, for the most part.
I dug in and started to do the inner work.
I decided that I was the most important person in the room.
In my life.
That if I wanted to be an AMAZING mom, I needed to feed my SOUL.

I reinvented myself.

So I started my practice,
it was nothing like it is today,
but it was my foundation grounds.
My learning grounds.
My healing grounds.
And with my practice came a desire to date and explore the masculine because I had never done that before.
I only had explored three men intimately up to this point and I knew I had a bunch of shame, guilt, self-image and fear wrapped around this area of life.

I was not overly caught up on dating.
It was just a desire that I had and if it came along,
then it came along.
I created some doorways for opportunities to happen and I did not really apply my focus there too much. I just knew what I wanted and let it be.
Something about dating and men felt easy to me.
Even with my fear.
I had a fascination, a curiosity that overcame the fear.
Men and dating felt playful to me.
It was a game,
new ground to explore.
An adventure.
My ONLY expectation was to enjoy it and learn.

And so I decided in that moment that I would NEVER chase men. There was no need. Because I wanted it to just be FUN.

And so it was.

As with men, I quickly discovered that money, abundance, goals and happiness were no different.

If I chased them.
They ran from me.

If I turned them into a fun game,
an adventure and let my curiosity run free,
then they flowed.

My advice to you today BABY is simple.

Stop chasing everything!

Wonder why it is running from you?
Well it’s not rocket science BABY.
It is running from you because you are chasing it.

I know that you have been told to chase your dreams.
I know that you have been told to make your goals happen.
I know that you have heard that there is no gain without the pain.

Yeah I understand.
I lived that way for so many years.
I still have those nasty lies pop up in my mind today and try and take me down.
Try and steal my joy.

But today I see them for the wolves they are.
And I know what to do to get back into my FLOW.

That is the power of doing the inner work.
That is the purpose of having a mentor.
That is why we who crave the f-ck yes lifestyle that is so much more than money,
its all about FREEDOM and HAPPINESS.

It’s about SOUL.

Yes we know the power of saying YES to ourselves and taking the ACTION to do the things that must be done.

Those things are internal 80% of the time.
Those things are the things that we AVOID.
We hide from.

But as long as you keep choosing to chase your dreams the old fashioned way, you will remain the predator to that, that you so desire and it will keep running from you.

Sure you can succeed this way.
You can keep chasing.
You can capture your dreams and goals and MAKE THEM HAPPEN.

But at what cost?

How much of YOU will be left?
And will you be truly happy, fulfilled and healthy?

There is an easier way BABY.
It’s called Ease and Flow.
It’s called SOUL Guidance.
But first you must learn to listen.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

It’s my specialty beautiful!
It’s my purpose work.
My calling and my passion.
When I chose all those years ago to step into who I was and step into my ease and flow,
I chose to live a life of service and help YOU find your ease and flow.

But to do that you have to want it.
You have to be ready to get ready to RECEIVE it.
And that mean creating doorways for it to come through and releasing you from the predatory chains of your current beliefs and habits.

You can keep doing what you are doing.
Or you can grab a consult with me and make a different choice.
You can reinvent YOURSELF.
Which is actually just unveiling YOURSELF.

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If You Were Ready Then It Would Be Happening! Here is What To Do.

I know what you want.
I totally get it beautiful.
You want to just skip to the finish line.
You want to avoid the struggle,
avoid the work.
Move quickly past all that stuff that you keep getting told you need to do but that you have been doing,
you did it all last year,
the year before even.
And this year it is simply just too much to do more of that.
So much like a kid fresh out of high school,
the temptation of taking a year off from schooling,
with the claims of coming back,
you too are wanting to just take some time off.
 
Yet, life seem’s to be nagging at you.
Life is disrupted,
you are getting more and more out of alignment.
And with the turbulence that you face day after day,
you feel more drained.
There is no energy to do the things that you think about doing.
There is no time to get started on that project,
to step into the things that you were doing or the things that you know that you need to be doing or that you feel called to do.
It’s all just so difficult.
You feel meh about it.
 
Don’t you?
 
But then as you sit back and you look at everything,
you wonder how,
how can I go from here to there?
How can I do it without having to apply myself any more than what I have already done?
How can I get what I want,
have what I desire,
but not have to go through the grounds of learning anymore.
 
I mean I am good right where I am at.
I can do that.
I can do this.
I may not understand what I am to do with any of it,
I might be feeling lost,
and uncertain.
But do I really need to ask for help?
Do I really need guidance of any sort?
Do I really need to “learn” or “study” for anything else?
 
And so you sit.
You sit and you wish.
You ponder.
You question.
But take action????
 
LOL…
That was a thing for last year.
 
This year, action is taking a break.
And with it so is your momentum.
You are certainly filling up your desire boat with things you want.
You are learning about what you do not want.
But action is out to sea and is not in your scope of concern yet.
 
And so you shall sit and watch your life move by in slow motion.
You will see your goals rise up and sink back down,
because the momentum that was there to manifest them is slowing. The focus and love and care that you were giving them in positive attention is not there.
It cannot be there.
Your focus is on the not having of them.
Your focus is on what is not happening.
Your focus is on your lostness.
Your dismay.
Your fatigue.
Your fear.
You mehness.
 
Try and truly feel into that desire for whatever it is that you crave. Can you feel the desire? Can you really?
Or is it just a thought that has you believing that you are desiring, but there is no emotion attached to it?
Or the emotion is of the not having it.
The sadness of what has not shown up in your life.
It’s time to get truthful with yourself.
It’s time to realize that the reality that you are living is nothing more than what you have created from your feeling of not wanting to step in fully.
Of wanting to just take the year off.
To avoid it.
 
Life is just fine as it is right now, right?
 
If that was so, then you would not have that underlying feeling.
You know the feeling that I speak of.
The feeling that is slowly eating away at you from deep within.
That feeling.
Yes that feeling right there.
the one that you try and cover up,
you try and hide with food, movies, entertainment, family activities, alcohol, drugs, illness, busy work.
Yes that feeling.
 
You cannot hide your feeling from God.
God knows you at a DNA vibrational level.
There is no hiding your truth.
That fear,
that depression,
those negative idea’s and thoughts that just keep popping up and destroying your day,
yes they are all over you beautiful.
You are bathed in them and they are repulsive.
They are keeping you away from your desired life experience.
 
But if you want to change it,
then you are the ONLY ONE who can change it.
You must choose to take ACTION.
Stop sitting there in that low vibe energy beautiful,
stop focusing on the addictive energy of crashing and burning, of loosing and leaving, of not having.
Stop focusing in on all that you do not see manifesting.
And TAKE effing action toward what you want.
 
You say you want to have a thriving business?
Then get a mentor. Get your message out there DAILY.
Be seen and heard or shut up and let go of this dream.
 
You say you want a better body?
Then stop eating fast food and soda, drink more water, eat more healthy foods and get your a*s working out DAILY.
 
You say that you want better sex?
Then start having more sex. Speak your needs, your boundaries and ASK for what you want DAILY.
 
You say that you want to find your soulmate?
Then look within and do some deep work on yourself. Get a coach or a mentor and gain some clarity, let go of the past, do the work to manifest the soulmate DAILY.
 
You say you want more money?
Then stop thinking about the money that you do not have.
Don’t start your day with looking at your bank and confirming that you don’t have it. Instead do the mindset work, the manifestation work to call in the money that you want. Get a coach or a mentor and ask for help DAILY.
 
It’s a choice.
It’s a commitment.
It’s you calling it in.
We live in an attraction based world beautiful.
You attract to you what you think and feel about most.
You want what you want,
but you seem to be under the misconception that you can just ignore it, just not do anything to change your thinking,
your feeling or attention and that it will happen.
Yes life is magical,
yes you can manifest that shiz overnight.
But you have to FOCUS on what you want from a place of having, loving and not in fear.
 
It’s about time that you stop wanting to avoid the stretch.
It time you stop avoiding the field of learning and growing that makes you READY to have what you want.
 
Think of it like this,
It’s sorta like you want to be a yoga teacher but you never want to take a yoga class. You just want to get paid and have the body without the training.
 
That is goofy right?
 
Yet that is what you are doing when you try and skip any piece of your process.
When you try and avoid the perceived pain,
the perceived stretching that will be required of you to gain your dreams and desires.
 
In your current condition,
YOU ARE NOT READY TO RECEIVE.
 
But you can be!
Make the choice.
Make the decision.
Make the commitment.
And TAKE THE EFFING ACTION.
 

Stop F-cking around with this year and your life!

 
And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
 
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So stop dreaming and take action.
Let’s make 2019 YOUR Year of Miracles.
 
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The Soul Sucking That You Are Addicted To.

I remember the days when I had to almost literally be drug out of bed to go to my J-O-B.

I am serious.
I was drug like a kid out of my bed.
The last “real” job I had was back in the 1990’s when I sold large appliances for Circuit City. I was 18 years old and fresh out in the world. Planning my wedding and working 40+ hours each week at a job that I hated.
I remember looking at my pay checks,
part of me proud and part of me so frustrated.
Two weeks worth of work.
80+ hours of my time and energy.
Living at a place that my heart and soul hated,
learning to sell extended service programs that I did not believe in.
And all of this soul sucking for a whopping $650 every two weeks!

WTF!
I look back at those days and I wonder how I survived such disgust. But I did.
Until one day, a week before my wedding when I had a meeting with my manager ( who was so very grumpy herself, a woman who was owned by the company).
She pulled me in her office to informed me that even though I had requested a week off to get married and enjoy a few days honeymoon months before,
and we are talking many months before,
matter a fact it was at my hire.
That after consideration, management had decided that I could not have the time off as I had not worked there long enough to take a vacation…

Excuse me?

I had been giving all my time and energy to this place.
I had made good sales,
sold the freaking extended service programs that were crap even, and was now informed that I had to choose between my job and my wedding….

LOL.

Yeppers I chose my wedding.

I watched all my fellow colleagues work their bumbs off,
and sacrifice their families, their holidays, events and very life to make sure to be there for this place of business.
They felt that it was a duty, it was loyalty, it was responsible.

They had too.
And I saw these same people a few years later,
looking for anything to ease them.
Alcohol. Drugs. Sex.

The addictions grew and they stayed addicted to this soul sucking life experience, called their J-O-B.

As time went on, I learned and grew.
I got education around psychology, mindset, habits and so much more.
I explored multiple opportunities to expand myself and my pocket book. Hoping to get rich overnight almost ( with a little hard work of course too). Some were partially successful, some not so much. All had a system, a pre-created pattern to success in this business or that.
None felt in alignment to my soul or heart, but I kept trying to drink the Koolade.

No matter what I tried, if it was not in alignment it did not take long for my whole being to feel drained and lost in life.
I could not figure out what was wrong with me.
Surely not all of these opportunities were bad.
It must be something I was doing.

And it was something that I was doing.
I was sacrificing my soul,
my life for something that someone else had built, created and told me was the way to get what I wanted, instead of following my heart.

Soul suck after soul suck,
I felt addicted to trying this or that out in the attempt to achieve SUCCESS.

I wanted nothing more than to just be me.
I wanted to be a BIG earner in some company.
I wanted to speak and share, educate and help others in some fashion or form.
Be a thought leader.
A visionary.
A crusader.

I wanted to make positive changes in this world, and help people feel good, live an abundant life. And I truly believed that I had to do this through someone else’s way. That I did not have the skills, ideas, education, know how to be an influencer.

And so I continued for years to explore companies that promised so many beautiful things but all felt so empty to my soul at the end of the day because they were selling something that in my opinion did not really change lives the way that I desired to change lives.

They were not my purpose work.
My soul was not captivated by any of them.
But they did soul suck the life out of me and I was honestly addicted to this process without really realizing it.

Much like many are addicted to going to the J-O-B and making sure the BOSS man is happy, or that the company is taken care of but not even truly believing in what they are doing. Or perhaps one day many years ago they believed in the greatness of this or that company, they were on board with the mission, but now today, it is a paycheck. It is a bonus check. It is relatively easy work, but still empty.

And they feel drained.
Lost in their lives and choose to mask and cover the pain of a life that is empty with something that eases the pain.
Proclaiming that one day, one day they will do that thing.
That thing that they would love to do.
You know the thing.
The thing you desire.
The thing that turns you on.
The things that makes you wish you could be working at it, creating it, building it, putting yourself into it.
FULLY.

Yes that thing.
Not a thing that is soul sucking,
but is life giving.
Will make you THRIVE.
And if you applied yourself to this thing,
would not only make your soul sing,
but bring you abundance in so many ways and HAPPINESS.

Yes that thing.

Well that is where I got to pretty damn quick in my life.
I looked out at this world of lost souls, hungry people who craved more but was addicted to the suffering.
Who did not know how to change.
How to escape this track they had gotten on.
Where they would find their happiness, or if it was even okay to contemplate happiness.

I could not do it!
I could not settle.
I could not sell my soul to this way of existing.
I had to speak who I was, be me and do my own thing.
Feed my soul.

And I want you to know that you too can feed your soul.
I want you to know that if you are one of the very many people out there that want for so much more in life, dislike where you are sitting at in your life, in your work, your relationships, your happiness level or anything else, but feel CALLED to go another path. To be something that you have always wanted but are unsure as to how….

That you are only a decision away.
You do not have to give up everything you currently have and do to have it either, but you MUST be willing to STEP FULLY into who you are.
To listen to your SOUL and to stop hiding.
Stop masking and avoiding.

The steps to a fulfilling life, a life that you have claimed and are living authentically may not mean to quite your job, or move states or countries, or change partners. No it may not mean any of that. It more than likely means none of that. But what it does mean is that you stop taking your own crap. Stop hiding from your desire to be something you know you were born to be.

Do you have a calling that you have been avoiding?
A mission that your soul knows is yours?
A passion that ignites your very soul, but currently you are lost as to how to expand it, make its successful, make it stand out and touch lives? Touch this world?
You can have it.
You can.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Want to know how I help people move from a soul sucking existence into living their calling and speaking from their soul? I help mompreneur and entrepreneurs of all back ground not just create a freedom based life but live a F-ck YES! Lifestyle doing whatever their SOUL calls them to.

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Reasons or Results – Which Is Your Life About?

Just this morning I was walking my kindergartner into his school. There I was in yoga pants, a tank top and sweat shirt off one shoulder. My hawaii flip flops on my feet and my hair tossed up in a pony tail. My son and I were goofing around like we do every morning, laughing and hugging, picking on each other as we crossed the parking lot and walked down the entry way of the school.

It was just another morning in truth.
And yet it was not.
Because this morning I was people watching more so than what I normally do for some reason.
And as always with people watching I always feel so separated from those around me.
I feel judgmental.
Almost critical.
And maybe I should be ashamed to admit that here publicly, but living by my true style I am going to stand in my raw truth with you and just speak it.
I mean we are all judgmental and critical.
And anyone who claims to not be is hiding or lying.

What it comes down to in my opinion, is what you choose to do with the judgments and thoughts that come up.
Do you choose to observe them,
do some good inquiry around them,
and discover deeper messages about yourself?
Or do you choose to pick apart others and find fault and reason as to why you are suffering or how you are better than another in order to justify your worth or reasons?

So here I was,
walking in the school with my son like fifty other women,
and what I noticed was the lack of connection between these parents and their children. There was no laughter, only seriousness and rushing.
There were no smiles even, just pissed off turned down expressions.
Most walked quickly and with a hunched over frame, as though they were trying to hide.
And then there were a few who bee-bopped by looking like they had been up for 3 hours already. Very well put together, but walking in haste.
Entering the school,
music playing, teachers singing and welcoming children, I noticed how the kids lit up as they entered the school because the teachers were appearing excited and happy to start the day with them. The upbeat music caught your ear and made you want to sing along, which is what I do every morning.

But I was alone.
and parents looked at me,
casting their own judgement back.
Most likely wondering who this crazy woman is who dares be happy and sing out loud to her child and shake her hips at the front door as she kisses her kid good by and gives a big hug, then turns and chats with a teacher or two?

Yes, so there I was judging and being judged.
And as I turned and walked back to my car, I noticed how so many parents just seemed lifeless.
Now I was feeling pity.
And I don’t do pity very well.
My pity quickly turned to irritation and disgust.
I looked at these people,
and in my belief they each have a purpose.
They each have a talent.
They are each born for greatness.
They are worthy.
But all I see here is a lack of worth.
And the only effing reason for it is that they are allowing it.
And what are they teaching their children by accepting such a life of low vibe, low energy, dullness and disconnect?

They are teaching them to be the same.
Because our children 90 % of the time do not learn from what we tell them to do, but from what we show them we are doing.

You want an honest child.
Be honest with your child and others.

You want a compassionate child.
Be compassionate with your child and others.

You want a child that can stand on their own two feel and is not easily lead astray.
Then be strong in who you are and have good boundaries and speak your truth.

Whatever you are desiring your child to grow up to be,
realize that you are an example to them.

So back to my point.

Here as I walked I saw a bunch of people who had somewhere along the life trail gotten good with just existing.
Gotten good with their reasons,
their excuses and why’s.
They had settled into not having.
Settled into average.

And had forgotten that they could define what their average looked and felt like.

It’s crazy to think how close to all that we want each and everyone of us truly is.
And yet it is so.
It is no further away then what we are willing to accept for ourselves.
Willing to believe for ourselves.
Willing to expect for ourselves.

But WE have to actually want it bad enough to stop calling in all the reasons that we don’t have it or cannot have it.

Our reasons have got to mean less to us then our DESIRE.

So what are you settling for?
What are the core beliefs that you have that are creating things that you don’t want?
And are you conscious to them?

Let’s get real.
Let’s get raw.
Let’s define.

And As Always,
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Bored with Yourself? Here is How To Tell.

Oh girl you look out into your life and you just feel no sizzle.
You just feel little excitement.
You think to yourself,
why?
As you look around and you see all this good shit happening but it just seems sorta boring.
You know what I mean.
The more comfortable you seem to get the more average and ordinary tends to seep into your daily life and practices.
And the more average your life is,
the more it looses its luster.
But that’s what you have wanted for so long…

NOT the average.
NOT the ordinary.
F-ck NO!!!!!
Never!

But you want the comfort.
The stability.

And now you have it.
So now what?

There is not a whole lot happening is there?
There is just your daily tasks.
That thousand long list of things to get done.
The bills to pay,
and they are on auto pilot so no real interaction there.
They just seem to happen.
Your kids come and go from school.
There is the grocery shopping.
The sports events.
Choir.
The gym.
Woohoo!!!

Oh yeah, there is this guy or that guy.
You know the one’s that hold your attention for a second.
Or even longer.
They are great…
Sometimes.
They are sweet and all wrapped up in you.
But seriously…

You are bored!
You are F-CKING BORED with BEING YOU.

And it is showing up in how you react to experiences.
It is revealing itself in how you choose to show up each day of your life.
It is making itself know in your lack of orgasmic sex,
your lack of depth and surface level blah blah in intimacy…

HaHa… Intimacy.

What is that these days?
It is nothing.
Because you are bored with the level of life that you have been allowing yourself to play at.

You are lusterless.
You are not shining.
You are dull.
And YOU my beautiful are the ONLY mother f-cker that can do anything about it.

It’s high f-cking time that you STOP accepting so little from yourself.
You know you have so much more inside of you.
You know that your voice was meant to be heard.
That your words were meant to touch millions.
You know that you get things at a different level than most.
And this is your effing SUPER POWER.

Yet you keep choosing to play is safe.
To focus on stability.
To be comfortable.
And that is leaving you with this bland taste in your mouth.
It is leaving you wanting for more.
And what once seemed like so much to desire,
now is nothing.
And you are almost ready to shake the boat and if you have to,
tip the mother f-cking thing over so that you can clean yourself off from all of the shit that you have been feeding yourself and crap that you have been living.

Because you were born for so much more.
And many say that they are,
but few actually believe it to a level to do something with it.
To actually make a mother f-cking decision to and CLAIM IT.

And this has somehow become you.
But it hurts.
It is agonizing at a deep soul level.
As it should be.

You know too much.
You understand too much.
You have see the magic that life has to offer.
And you KNOW YOUR POWER.

Turning your back on your power and on your core,
stepping out of your SOULS light is what is causing all this muckiness in your energy.

So just stop it already!

Yes you are bored.
Yes you are bored with yourself.
Yes you are too comfortable.
Even in the bad shit, you are comfortable.
Yes ALLOWING who you really are to be seen is scary.
Yes you want it and you doubt.
But YOU KNOW.

And if you know then all you need do is SAY F-CK YES!!!!! To YOU.

So what is holding you back beautiful?
This comfort of average and ordinary.
This entrapment of what you have.
The fear of loosing what you have so far,
OR….
of becoming EVERYTHING you WANT?

I double dog dare ( yes I just said that… because our 4th grade selves had it right about something, DARE…)
you to SHINE.
To fully step into who you are and stop accepting this piss poor version of you.
Because sure it may feel safer to linger here and be real nice and comfortable,
but I promise you this,
it won’t last.
Because what you are not aware of is that reality that in your comfort you are also fearful of loosing it all.
And this fear will out weigh everything else and make itself a reality.

At the end of the day,
you might as well just step the f-ck up and claim what you want,
take the risk to loose it by asking for it all,
then sitting around and spinning on your average and ordinary f-cking thumbs and loosing it anyway,
because honey,
that is what can happen.
And does OFTEN.
We get stable.
We start to play it safe.
Too safe.
And we get comfortable.
We settle.
And we start to take it all for granted.
Then we fear loosing it.
And BAM as if someone cast some magic spell on us or cursed us,
it is all gone.

But you my love have a choice.
You can grab this magic moment and you can step all the f-ck in on your life.
Without hesitation.
You can get CLEAR.
NOW.

You can set the tone of your day.
Of your mood.
Your week.
And your whole life.
But playing small,
playing safe,
is for those who are pansies.
Who enjoy the average and ordinary,
not YOU!

Your soul wants to take that dare.
It wants to show itself off.
Stand out.
Be BRIGHT.
STUNNING like the diamond that it is.
And it wants it all NOW.

Your SOUL does not need faith.
It resides in the greatness of the eternal.
It KNOWS its power.
Its purpose.

Will you follow your SOULS LEAD?
Claim Your Life Today.

And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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So You Want Me To Coach You.

Ouch!
Ouch!
Ouch!
Alright.
I get it.
Really I do.
I know that I don’t act like I do.
I know that these lessons just keep knocking me in the head,
year after year,
but truly I get it.
I just cannot seem to act on it.
I try.
REALLY I DO.
I mean I do the work.
I do it daily.
I faithfully do it.
I think I am showing up.
I think I am in living in alignment to my soul.
I think I am authentic.
But ya know,
things just are not coming through the way that I hoped.
The money is not washing in like a great river yet.
My body still feels fatigued and overwhelmed.
My mind has a lot in it.
I mean look at all that is on my plate.
I have so much responsibility.
Half the time I don’t know what end is up.
I have success.
I have some really good sh*t in my life.
And I stay focused on my gratitude for it all.
But I feel like I really have to struggle to get anything to manifest.
I have to make it happen,
and if I pause to try and enjoy my life at all,
then everything that I have been working so hard at just crashes.
It is ridiculous really.
Why even bother.
Why do I work so damn hard if it all can be washed up into nothing overnight pretty much?
Oh gosh gally geeze,
I cannot help it though.
There is this pull inside of me.
This desire for something more.
It is like I am forever hungry and no matter how much I consume I wan for more.
I am being pulled this way,
but it scares me.
It terrifies me.
I don’t think that I am ready.
I mean do I know enough?
Am I good enough?
Can I really live that life?
You ask me what it would be like if I just stopped living in accordance to everyone else’s expectations and opinions of what I should be doing?
You ask me what I truly believe about myself and my life at my core?
And I shake inside.
And yet cannot grasp the sensation of what it would be like if I just let go of what everyone else wanted of me.
How could I do that?
Wouldn’t that be wrong in some fashion?
Make me a bad person?
Sh*t IDK….
It feels good.
It does.
But it also rattles me.
It feels so strange.
You make it all seem so simple.
It has to be harder than this.
Right?
I mean how can it be this effing simple?
And yet I watch you.
I watch so many others live,
no not just live but THRIVE and they seem to do it with hardly any effort.
No struggle.
It is just them.
To THRIVE.
Everything flows to them.
They have lady luck on their side without a doubt.
God favors them.
And then there are those of us who work our a*sses off,
day in and day out.
Living for the weekends.
Our holidays and bonuses.
And we wake up with struggle on our mind,
fearful of what will happen in our day.
With our work.
With our spouses.
Our children.
Our health.
and we fear the day.
But then,
I look….
I look out and I see you.
I see you in ease THRIVING.
How can this be?
How do you do it all with such grace,
such love,
in joy and abundance always.
Why do things just seem to come to you?
Is it really as simple as you share in our work together?
Can I really have it too?
And quickly?
Okay,
I get it.
Okay, not really.
But I want too.
I desire change.
I want to be coachable.
I will surrender to the process and I will not just do the work externally,
I will be absorbed by it.
I will breathe it.
I will soften into myself,
in faith and I will allow myself to be seen more and more each day as you tell me too.
No longer will I hide my greatness out of fear of others thoughts.
No longer will I move in the shadows of my ego.
I will take your hand and let you lead me to all that i want.
Applying with certainty all that you share.
Yes.
Yes.
I get it.
Coachability.
Surrender.
Certainty.
Authenticity.
Yes I am ready.
Lead me.
Sign Me Up.
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As Always,
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When Too Much isn’t Enough.

I am too much.
Truly I am.
The way I share,
the way I love,
the way I enjoy,
the way I act,
the way I sex,
the way I can let go,
the way I parent,
the way I live.
 
It is all too much and then some.
Yet I am happy being too much.
Even though it costs me relationships,
arguments, hurt feelings and lot’s of change.
I am too much,
and it is just who I am.
 
But my too much,
is still not enough,
because my too much,
won’t give you what you want and may need.
 
How can this be?
Too much is not enough???🤔
 
You see it is the very fact that in being too much,
I push the limits.
I push the limits on everything,
especially on love, on relationship, on sex and my over all way of living.
Too much means that I am demanding in these things.
Too much means that I know what I want,
and I am not afraid to go after it.
Too much means that if I feel like I need more of something or that I cannot achieve it in the way before me that I will go and get it another way,
and tell you about it.
Too much means that I share.
I share in massive amounts,
because I want you to know.
I want you to step into the pool of living with me,
in integrity.
I want to grow,
and experience,
and I want to do it with those who want it too.
The other too muchers out there.
 
Yes, too much means that I understand that life is very polyamorous in so many ways. I know that my heart can expand to the depths, to the horizons that I choose. I know that I can love many and deeply. And I do.
 
I do this daily.
I do it openly,
and it makes me too much.
For many.
 
My too much is not enough,
even though you proclaim it is everything.
My too much is not enough,
even though you claim not to want to change me.
My too much is not enough,
even though you enjoy when it suites your desires.
My too much is not enough,
because it will push you to your limits.
It will make you uncomfortable.
It will test your heart.
It will call to your soul.
It will demand for you to fly or to walk away.
 
I am too much,
and it is a life long heartache,
as I share of my too muchness,
with those who love it and then hate it.
I am too much and with it comes the pain of loss,
as people ebb and flow,
and say they cannot do it.
With feeble excuses,
they move into knew life choices,
they run away from my too much,
to all that is comforting and less challenging.
 
Here is the reality of life for anyone who is truly too much.
We share deeply of ourselves,
we love deeply of those who dance with us in moments of our lives,
and we know that our too much will burn them.
And with the fire they will run.
Run into the arms of another.
Run into the comforts of average.
Run into the excuses of ego,
of jealous,
pride,
fear.
Run.
Run.
Run.
 
Yes that is what will happen,
because my too much is not enough.
And it will push you into the pain of reality.
The pain that you cannot hold me.
You cannot control me.
You cannot conquer me.
You can only dance with me.
And dance I will for hours and days,
for months and years,
and even decades.
But it is ultimately your choice,
how long the dance lasts.
 
Grow and expand.
Breathe in the feelings.
Breathe in the beauty,
the boldness,
the joy,
the play,
the adventure.
But heed the desire to stop it’s flow,
for in that moment is when the dance will end.
 
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
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Never ask me to do this…

My mentor recently wrote about how if you ask her to give up her art then you will never know her heart, because without the art there is no heart.
 
I sat with this thought all day yesterday after reading her words ( which I will share in full shortly for you). I sat with it because as I read them, my heart gasp in enthusiasm of being understood FINALLY.
 
So often I find myself being asked to sacrifice my work,
my writing, my sharing with you for something else. For a relationship. For false stability.
 
I find my art getting smashed down and hidden under rugs and in corners because it is not perceived as IMPORTANT or it is “just my j-o-b.”
 
I find these same things that request I sacrifice my art, to also desire to become closer to me, to take up valuable space in my life, in my days and weeks. They want time and energy from me, they want my attention but they deny my art and the love I have for it.
 
As I read her words, I realized that out of all the things and people that have pushed my art to the side, that I was by far the worst. It is ONLY me who ever say’s yes or no to my art.
 
It is only me who ever set’s the boundaries around my time, my energy, my life….
 
My art.
 
And it is my doing that at points in life that I allow it to be stolen from me. Hidden and handicapped.
 
I want to share my heart.
I want to share my passion.
I want to reveal all that I know at my deepest core.
At my soul.
 
So why do I allow it to be ignored and put on the back burner?
For the same reason’s that you do!
 

FEAR.

 
Fear of loss of all those that take it’s place.
Fear of not being worthy.
Fear of being too much.
 
Yes that is why we hide from our art at times and allow the loss of it to form in my life until we feel like our lives are no more.
 
Until we can no longer breathe,
because our heart has been squished.
Has lost its life.
 
My art is not my j-o-b.
I do not have a j-o-b.
My message, my mission, my sharing and teaching.
My writing and speaking,
this is all my art.
 
My art comes from my heart.
It comes from that centered place deep withing my soul where I feel the divine speaking and calling out.
 
Using my hands,
my mouth,
my whole being….
 
for not my art.
but God’s Art.
 
“If you ask me to choose between my art and you, I’ll choose my art
 
And if you think it’s not a big deal to speak to me or draw my attention in any way while I’m in that art, you break my heart
 
Soon enough then, there’ll be nothing left to give you anyway, because my art is my heart and only from my art beats my heart so if you break it –
 
And you continually show you don’t get that it’s always art first –
 
I have to remove myself or there will be no more art
 
And no more heart
 
For anyone” — Katrina Ruth
 
So why the f-ck ever choose ANYTHING other than your art?
 
That becomes the question.
There is NEVER a reason good enough if you look at it like this.
 

What is your art?

Choose it today.

Claim Your Life.

 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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Freedom Based Living Is What We Are Born For.

What is freedom to you?
I coach a lot on freedom based living.
It is a passion of mine you could say.
Since I was a small child I knew that I wanted to be free in all that I do. I could feel the constrictions of society even then and I knew they were not cut out for me.

I knew that there was something more to me than to just live for the junk that society, my church, school and friends were telling me.

I knew that I was special in some way, but not the sort of special that we preach to our children today which does not teach them about the realities of life and that sometime loosing is in our story line.

No, not that special where there are no losers, there are no last places.

That is not special.
That does not show us our true light.
Or bring about our gifts.
It does not teach us to be the leaders of our stories.
It does not create a foundation for freedom based living,
it actually only teaches us how to be in service to the under lining communist ways of our current world.
This life was intended to be fair.
Fairness is not about everyone getting everything the same,
It is not about equal shares. Fairness is about each soul having an opportunity to create the life that they are in alignment to.

That is it.
That’s what fair is.

In raising my seven children, I get yelped at all the time about that’s not fair mom. And my response is always the same, ” Yes it is. According to actions and attitude shared it is fair.”

I am teaching my children about the laws of the universe.
God’s laws.
These laws go far beyond any man made law.
God’s fairness is about alignment to our soul.

By truly stepping closer to ourselves we get into this alignment and we can hear God’s voice with greater ease.

When we are handed everything in equality for the sake of not hurting anyone else’s feelings or making it “fair,” then we are not learning about alignment, we are learning how to be a good sheeple.

There is nothing wrong with sheeple.
Most of the population is just this.
But a soul that is in alignment to itself and to God can never accept this state of being.

Freedom based living is all that our souls can accept when we are fully in tune.

God wants our greatness,
God wants us to surrender to our greatness through his blessings.
God wants us to get in the flow of his magnitude and power where nothing is impossible.

When we restrict our natural creative nature and emotions,
when we constrict our power and light,
when we settle for so much less than than what/who we were born to be,

We step out of God’s flow,
out of alignment.

And we accept what is provided for us through our human limitations.

I am not 100% free.
None of us ever will be.
We are prisoners to this thing called life,
to being human.
Only when we are back in the full presence of our creator will we be fully free again.

However, freedom is at our core.
It is what we all desire and hunger for.

That is why Sunday night so many of you look at your clocks and calendars and dread having to go to bed because the next day you are back to the life that you are not in alignment to.

That is why Wednesday so many say with a sigh of relief and hope that, “yeah it is hump day.” Middle of the road a, only 2 more days till I get to live again.

That is why Friday rolls around and so many get turned on and start to smile. This is the day that you can just be you come 5pm.

This is no way to live folks.
We were born for more.
This is existing at best.

It is not about the money.
The house.
The car.
Or any other “thing.”

Freedom is a state ob being.
It is a feeling.

As a woman who lived this life in this fashion for so many years,
who lived pay to paycheck,
wished I could more, have more, share more.
Wished I could just feel good about who I was and my life.

I can tell you that until you have this feeling of freedom,
you will never feel fulfilled, happy or aligned.

You will always be waiting for the other shoe to drop and question everything that is given to you.

We were built for fairness.
And that fairness is based in our freedom to choose.

That is what God meant by free will.
But we have destroyed our free will and replaced it with an illusion of unearned liberties that do nothing more than cage us in our earthy prison even more.

This morning I sit here on my back patio, drinking my coffee, writing in my creation flow journal.
I sit here enjoying the morning sun. The breeze that blows through the trees.

It is Saturday, but it is no different than any other morning for me.
I sit here as my children come out and snuggle with me, ask me to get them things and play with each other and the dog.

I sit here and I smile because even though it is Saturday it could be Monday, Tuesday or Friday.

My life does not revolve around what day of the week it is.
I do not take vacations from my life.
I do not feel any dread over any day.
I have no annual reviews that dictate what I will get or loose.

I just live.
I live in joy.
I live in abundance.
I connect consistently with those I love.
My income grow’s or decreases based on my alignment and actions taken when in this flow.
I do not work.
I let my essence out and I share.

And SHARE I do daily.
Not from a place of what I think is society correct or a fear of what someone will think, but ONLY from a place of my authentic soul. It is where I am in the moment, what my soul wants to express and what I feel called to.

I do not do anything based on anyone else.
My soul flies free like a willow tree.
Rooted, stable, strong, drinking from the spring of God’s blessings and flexible and flowing.
Here is freedom based living.
Here is our truth.

Here I sit this morning watching my children play.
Here I basking in the moment of this magical life,
where anyone can create what they want.

Life is VERY FAIR.
You get what you focus on.

The only question for any of us today is,
” What am I in alignment to?”

You will know pretty quickly, because it is at your doorstep.
It will show itself to you with every step you take today.

So be in gratitude for EVERYTHING that comes to you today and always.

Because you asked for it with your focus.
You called it in BABY.

You are the creator of your life.
No matter the man made laws,
God’s are far greater and God is ever flowing and abundant,
Always providing you with EXACTLY what you believe you need.

So remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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