Tired of Wonderland? Exhausted from Crazy? – Just Own Who You Are!

Some days you feel like you are running around like Alice in wonderland,
not knowing what direction to go or what the best choice could be. You start out on one path only to find yourself running down another,
and feeling as though it is never ending and only making you more lost in life.

No matter what you attempt,
things go to hell. But you put your head down and you just keep going. Each step forward seems to be ten steps back and around and around you go,
in this land of nowhere,
feeling lost but looking for something more.

You know that feeling.
That feeling of uncertainty.
That feeling of overwhelm.
You are damned if you do and damned if you don’t,
so why bother?
But you must bother because someone, somewhere is waiting on you.
And you have responsibilities.
People, bills and time to think of.
But there you are a circus in your own head,
and you just keep going, lost and confused as if on some psychedelic trip,
that lost its luster many years ago.

Fear is permeating from your bones.
Your flesh reeks of your uncertainty.
Your head lowers, your back hunches.
You are scared.
Scared in this darkness that you have created.
It’s a mad house in here.

And so,
so you focus in.
You get dedicated,
committed and claim that you know.
You know that things MUST change.
You know that this cannot continue.
You know that you are drowning,
no matter how pretty the picture may be that the world around see’s,
you are drowning.
And so things must change.
And you claim that they will.
You look for guidance.
You beg for direction.
You fall to your knee’s and pray.

But there you are,
another day.
Waking up in stillness.
Waking up to the madness that is lurking.
Hiding from view,
until you look the other way.
Buried there in the mess of your life.
You choose to ignore.
And just as quickly as you had committed,
to focus,
to conquer,
to make that change.
You find yourself drifting,
in a lull that this life can offer.
A lull of comfort.
Of average and ordinary.
There you are, dancing in the midst of the circus.

Until one day, when once again,
you cannot help but look deeper.
A whisper, a ghost from yesterday,
something magical alerts you to look into the chaos.
To explore.
And then you discover.
You discover the wonder,
of why?
Why are you on this never ending ride,
this ride that keep taking you,
far from what you desire.
It side tracks you and comforts you,
it scares you and spins.
Until you once again,
cannot tell what is up or down.
You are dizzy.
You are fearful.
You are lost once again.

Falling,
falling to the ground,
you make the commitment again.
To focus,
to stop settling,
stop avoiding and forgetting.
You are sick of this ride.
This nightmare you are living.
It is time to proclaim.
Time to not forget.

It is time that you stand firmly.
Decide what you want.
Climb up and out,
out of this chaos,
out of this circus,
this mad house in your head.
The suffering,
the shaming,
the guilt and the fear.
They are nothing more than words,
words that you give life to and dance with.
You are the gate keeper, the ring leader and owner.
You are the BOSS.
The Queen and the creator.
So stand up right there.
Stand there in your POWER.
Claim once and for all,
you will take no more of the misery.
No more excuses, no more ignoring,
no more story telling,
no more lies and regrets.

It is time for you,
for you to OWN WHO YOU ARE.
It is time!
Let go of that ticket,
its a circus you have been too,
one you need no longer attend.
So step away from this story line,
and write the one from your SOUL.

What does your SOUL expression truly look like?
If people, opinions, judgments and fears no longer stood in your way, what would your life look like and who would you be?

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Do you relate to having the crazy run your world?
Cannot seem to find the motivation, dedication, or certainty to step fully into all that you know you were born to be? And yet the desire to become something so much more is just there CALLING to you. Begging you to take the step.

I fully understand this fear, this chaos and crazy.
It is a path that many have walked, have had to conquer, but when you taste who you really are, experience your truth and start stepping into this you will discover a courage, a passion and faith that you did not know that you had.

You deserve to live a beautiful life.
A life of THRIVING!

Let’s explore the steps to greatness today.

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The Good Life.

The good life.
Never missing an opportunity to reconnect.
Never missing an opportunity to lean in and heal.
Never missing an opportunity to hear a message from spirit.
The things we need confirmed ALWAYS come to us if open to recieving them. 
The messages of support from God always is speaking to us if we are willing to listen.

Tonight I find myself in just this.
Tonight i craved masculine energy.
Originaly blocking the night out for one,
Then moving my focus to another,
Then landing on the one I was to connect with.
The one who in his oh so cool fashion, his deep respecting of the energy just held the space.
Held the moment.
Listened.
Inquired.
And shared.
In his sharing and listening
Spoke a truth i so needed to hear for my soul.

In gratitude as always.
Gratitude for this beautiful life.
Gratitude for this connection.
Graditude for the presence.
Graditude for the message.

This is the good life.
Every moment that we share
I find myself blessed.
Truly.
The good life.
Where we share
We listen
We hold space
We bless each other.

And we drink TEQUILA!!! 
Stop Existing & Start Living

Freedom Based Living Is What We Are Born For.

What is freedom to you?
I coach a lot on freedom based living.
It is a passion of mine you could say.
Since I was a small child I knew that I wanted to be free in all that I do. I could feel the constrictions of society even then and I knew they were not cut out for me.

I knew that there was something more to me than to just live for the junk that society, my church, school and friends were telling me.

I knew that I was special in some way, but not the sort of special that we preach to our children today which does not teach them about the realities of life and that sometime loosing is in our story line.

No, not that special where there are no losers, there are no last places.

That is not special.
That does not show us our true light.
Or bring about our gifts.
It does not teach us to be the leaders of our stories.
It does not create a foundation for freedom based living,
it actually only teaches us how to be in service to the under lining communist ways of our current world.
This life was intended to be fair.
Fairness is not about everyone getting everything the same,
It is not about equal shares. Fairness is about each soul having an opportunity to create the life that they are in alignment to.

That is it.
That’s what fair is.

In raising my seven children, I get yelped at all the time about that’s not fair mom. And my response is always the same, ” Yes it is. According to actions and attitude shared it is fair.”

I am teaching my children about the laws of the universe.
God’s laws.
These laws go far beyond any man made law.
God’s fairness is about alignment to our soul.

By truly stepping closer to ourselves we get into this alignment and we can hear God’s voice with greater ease.

When we are handed everything in equality for the sake of not hurting anyone else’s feelings or making it “fair,” then we are not learning about alignment, we are learning how to be a good sheeple.

There is nothing wrong with sheeple.
Most of the population is just this.
But a soul that is in alignment to itself and to God can never accept this state of being.

Freedom based living is all that our souls can accept when we are fully in tune.

God wants our greatness,
God wants us to surrender to our greatness through his blessings.
God wants us to get in the flow of his magnitude and power where nothing is impossible.

When we restrict our natural creative nature and emotions,
when we constrict our power and light,
when we settle for so much less than than what/who we were born to be,

We step out of God’s flow,
out of alignment.

And we accept what is provided for us through our human limitations.

I am not 100% free.
None of us ever will be.
We are prisoners to this thing called life,
to being human.
Only when we are back in the full presence of our creator will we be fully free again.

However, freedom is at our core.
It is what we all desire and hunger for.

That is why Sunday night so many of you look at your clocks and calendars and dread having to go to bed because the next day you are back to the life that you are not in alignment to.

That is why Wednesday so many say with a sigh of relief and hope that, “yeah it is hump day.” Middle of the road a, only 2 more days till I get to live again.

That is why Friday rolls around and so many get turned on and start to smile. This is the day that you can just be you come 5pm.

This is no way to live folks.
We were born for more.
This is existing at best.

It is not about the money.
The house.
The car.
Or any other “thing.”

Freedom is a state ob being.
It is a feeling.

As a woman who lived this life in this fashion for so many years,
who lived pay to paycheck,
wished I could more, have more, share more.
Wished I could just feel good about who I was and my life.

I can tell you that until you have this feeling of freedom,
you will never feel fulfilled, happy or aligned.

You will always be waiting for the other shoe to drop and question everything that is given to you.

We were built for fairness.
And that fairness is based in our freedom to choose.

That is what God meant by free will.
But we have destroyed our free will and replaced it with an illusion of unearned liberties that do nothing more than cage us in our earthy prison even more.

This morning I sit here on my back patio, drinking my coffee, writing in my creation flow journal.
I sit here enjoying the morning sun. The breeze that blows through the trees.

It is Saturday, but it is no different than any other morning for me.
I sit here as my children come out and snuggle with me, ask me to get them things and play with each other and the dog.

I sit here and I smile because even though it is Saturday it could be Monday, Tuesday or Friday.

My life does not revolve around what day of the week it is.
I do not take vacations from my life.
I do not feel any dread over any day.
I have no annual reviews that dictate what I will get or loose.

I just live.
I live in joy.
I live in abundance.
I connect consistently with those I love.
My income grow’s or decreases based on my alignment and actions taken when in this flow.
I do not work.
I let my essence out and I share.

And SHARE I do daily.
Not from a place of what I think is society correct or a fear of what someone will think, but ONLY from a place of my authentic soul. It is where I am in the moment, what my soul wants to express and what I feel called to.

I do not do anything based on anyone else.
My soul flies free like a willow tree.
Rooted, stable, strong, drinking from the spring of God’s blessings and flexible and flowing.
Here is freedom based living.
Here is our truth.

Here I sit this morning watching my children play.
Here I basking in the moment of this magical life,
where anyone can create what they want.

Life is VERY FAIR.
You get what you focus on.

The only question for any of us today is,
” What am I in alignment to?”

You will know pretty quickly, because it is at your doorstep.
It will show itself to you with every step you take today.

So be in gratitude for EVERYTHING that comes to you today and always.

Because you asked for it with your focus.
You called it in BABY.

You are the creator of your life.
No matter the man made laws,
God’s are far greater and God is ever flowing and abundant,
Always providing you with EXACTLY what you believe you need.

So remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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You Are Right, You Do Not Deserve It!

Let me ask you this, are you:

Shamelessly stepping into your success?

Shamelessly stepping into your abundance?

Shamelessly Saying YES to Yourself?

At our core if we don’t feel worthy, then we are not going to receive. Because we are not going to allow ourselves to receive.

We all battle worthiness issues. I know I do.

We are told that we should not focus on self. To love self is almost condemned in our society. It is crazy to think that it is far more accepted  to hate on yourself than to love yourself. But we are shamed for doing just this.

If we “think to much of ourselves.”

If we ” love on ourselves.”

If we ” speak to highly of ourselves.” 

We are shamed.

Don’t be selfish.

Don’t be self-centered.

Many of us were told that to be self-less was the desired path.

That we are to give of ourselves until we can give no more.

And that we should be able to keep giving and not need any replenishment of any kind, especially any self- love, care or acceptance.

And MOST certainly NO BRAGGING!

The thing is, you cannot consistently give at any decent level if you are not receiving some form of nurturing, love or pleasure. You must receive and feed yourself in order to be able to take care of others or achieve any sort of result you may desire in life.

You must allow yourself to receive love, care and other things in order to keep yourself in a state of being able to give and do.

And RECEIVE.

So here you go.  What I am speaking about is worthiness.

And what that comes down too is being selfish.

At our core we HAVE to have worthiness in order to create all our dreams, accept love, receive any abundance or success.

Even most of your needs will not come to you if you have worthiness issues.

Have you ever noticed that when something good just happens out of the blue, you know when you have that really good luck drop on you, how it is hard to believe that it did.

You cant believe that you had that sort of good luck.

You cant believe that you got that blessing.

You cant believe that you had that miracle happen.

Do you feel like these events are coincidences?

Or do you send out gratitude and stand in expectation for more because you KNOW  that you are worthy?

If your anything like the majority of peeps out there you most likely live in a state of lack of belief that you deserve anything. Which is where the shock of the good shit happening to you comes in. That is that, “Woohoo, OMG! moment.” Yes in this moment of praise you are excited but unbelieving that you are worthy of such yummie gifts from God. When we step into this pattern of disbelief and say such things as, “ I cannot believe this happened to me.” you are showing your lack of worthiness in the blessing.

Well, is it your true lack of worthiness or is it your belief that you are not worthy?

In those experiences and events you are stating that you don’t deserve this goodness to come into your lives.

BUT in TRUTH YOU DO!

When I use words such as gratitude and expectation or child like enthusiasm what I am saying to you is that THIS is a true state of worthiness. It is the act of receiving our blessings and knowing that there is more to come, because more is already coming.

The ONLY way those blessings will not show up is if you have doubt that they will. If you believe that God will not provide for you and that God is somehow wanting you to suffer.

Imagine if you put as much faith and expectation into having abundance in life as you do about living in scarcity?

What would your life be like?

I can tell you what it would be like because I have shifted my own personal shit around this topic and went from raising five children on welfare, in a bad marriage, starting to have health issues, and only having a household income of $17,000. Constantly struggling, moving from house to house, never knowing if the power or water would be on or if I could afford the basics for my family to having stability, savings, debt freedom, incredible loving relationships all around, a multi-six figure income, travel, a clean bill of health and living what I call a F*ck YES! life

This is what happens when you start to love yourself.

This is what happens when you start  to appreciate yourself.

This is what happens when you understand that God is great and wants your greatness to shine as well.

This is what happens when you heal your shame and embrace your worthiness.

You MUST CLAIM YOUR LIFE though.

You MUST start to say yes to taking care of yourself and STOP holding on so firmly to the reigns of fearful control and instead open your arms up and embrace the blessings that are falling all around you.

If you continue to condemn yourself then you will continue to remain in victim status in your life and will NEVER reap the bounties of joy, love, abundance and health that is RIGHT before you.  You will continue to feel disconnected, unloved, unworthy, lost and even forgotten.

Life will become all about duty and responsibility.

It will be filled with stress, anxiety, fear and depression.

But it does not have to be that way!

NO!!!!!! 

You can have everything RIGHT NOW by simply loving yourself and expecting miracles, expecting blessings, expecting in FAITH that it is not just coming, but already here.

That is the ONLY trick that you have to learn.

In order to achieve this though you must do these three things:

  1. Pay attention to the mental masturbation you have going on. The chaotic, fear based thoughts that you find yourself dancing with all day. Do you wake up to these thoughts? Do you fall asleep to them? Today commit to starting your day by saying 5 things you are grateful for and end the day as you lay your head down to sleep with five things that you are in gratitude for having happen in the day. This simple practice will change your world and quickly help you feel more worth in receiving abundance.
  2. You must accept RIGHT NOW that self-esteem comes from no where else but inside you.  You must accept yourself without complaint and be willing to work on all aspects of self without contempt or lapse into negativity. This means take FULL responsibility for your life and what is and is not in it.  Focus on removing your ego’s dominant need to cast blame.
  3. Stop feeling guilty about having good shit happen. Stop shrinking down your blessings and feeling like you “should” not have what you have.  You must commit to no longer accept guilt into your life. If you are feeling guilty about things that you have done in  your past dig a little deeper and realize that what you most likely are calling guilt may be remorse instead. With regret we gain a learning opportunity, with guilt we are in a state of reproach.

CLAIM YOUR LIFE TODAY!

Claim your worthiness by saying YES to yourself NOW

Love yourself one mustard seed worth of what God loves you and watch abundance fill your life. 

 

-KW

 

 

 

Stop Existing & Start Living

Often I use the words. “Orgasmic Living,” and many people question what I mean by this or assume that I am only speaking of intimate matters when in fact what I am saying is that life can be like an orgasm. It is this sensation of orgasm that we find ourselves searching for in all that we do.

We might call it by many other names such as desire, hunger, passion, purpose, love and even adrenaline.  What we are saying in all of these is that we are craving ORGASM.

I love this time of the year for this very fact.

As a new year rolls around, we humans naturally crave change and the adventure and hope that it brings with it. We openly state our desires because they are masked under the “safety” of resolutions and intentions. Yet, it truly does not matter what we label something, the truth is still the same. We are DESIRING something and at the start of a fresh year we are less fearful to ASK for it. We are less fearful to SEEK it out. We are less fearful to KNOCK on doors of opportunity and to open ourselves to possibilities.

However, as the weeks and months go by,  we find ourselves in doubt.

We find ourselves questioning if the life and desires that we claimed we wanted at the birthing of the new year are even out there and we begin to SETTLE for something LESS.

We sit back night after night, watching our Netflix and the news, playing games on Facebook and scrolling through our feed, wishing that we knew what to do and how to achieve something MORE. In the back of our minds a small voice whispers that it is possible, but the world around us is screaming that it is absurd to want anything other than what we already have. After all, who are we any way?

So we continue on with our lifeless life and allow the beauty of what could be, to be stripped away from our souls yet another year.

Living for the weekends.

Living for the holidays.

Living for that 2 weeks of vacation.

Living for the 5 o’clock hour where we can dart off to our local little watering hole and sit with others who are in the same constricting shoes of this life.

This is NOT Orgasmic Living!

This sure the effing is NOT!

Just writing these words makes my heart hurt like it is caught in chains of eternal torment with satan himself spitting in my face and laughing at the misery. Yet there you have it. There is what it truly is. It is HELL.

We have grown so comfortable to reside here in hell.  We actually have brainwashed ourselves to BELIEVE that this is what living is. We have come to terms with the supposed facts of this delusional state of existing and many of us have no clue how to live outside of this illusion.

So we sign another year long lease and get comfortable in our suffering.

It does not have to be this way though. At any given moment in time we have the ability and choice to WAKE THE F*CK UP! and choose differently. God gave us free will so that we could overcome the evils of this land. The only thing asked of us is to BECOME CONSCIOUS. This is the only step needed to turn the corner to a new life and RECEIVE all the blessings that you crave.

YES! all you have to do to live in orgasm every day and in every moment is to become conscious and choose differently.

You must choose the higher ground which is the ground of not accepting a small life. Not accepting AVERAGE and ORDINARY. Not accepting what the evils of the world would have you believe is living.

You were born for GREATNESS.

You were born for a PURPOSE.

You were born to have DESIRE.

Your were born to ASK.

You were born to SEEK.

You were born to KNOCK.

YOU WERE BORN TO RECEIVE!!!!!

But there is ONE caveat to this,  you must BELIEVE it.

All the desire and want in the world without belief that you can have it, deserve it and that it is your birth right to CLAIM THIS LIFE you were meant for will only lead to the pain of not getting it.

You cannot just say that you believe it either. You must take action, hold strong when times get dim, surrender deeper into your FAITH when you find yourself in the arms of fear. You must shine a bright light on the enemy of doubt and command it to walk away from your presence. You must turn yourself over to the process of receiving, because anytime we ask WE ARE HEARD, and the answers will bring forth great changes in our lives.

Asking God to grant our desires is the surrender that God desires from us. It is our humbleness to say, ” I cannot achieve this on my own, I need your hand to move this mountain, “ that captures the eye of the divine and gets the ball moving. DOUBT in it happening or if we have been heard only muffles the request and makes the journey of receiving more difficult.

The doorway to our FREEDOM is in our LETTING GO.

Once we let go, we fully surrender and receive. In this state of knowing we become the co-creators of our lives and the benefactors of the blessings that we never knew existed.

YOU MUST LET GO.

And fall into the flow of your living through heavens eyes.

This does not mean to just let life take you. NO! Those who just let life take them are guilty of denying their desires and not asking.

Letting go, is surrender to your desires through the hands of God.

STOP buying into the BULLSHIT of the societal norm.

STOP allowing someone else’s beliefs to be your own.

STOP trying to control the outcome of every aspect ( You have no ability to see your life from heavens eyes)

STOP resisting that inner calling and voice.

STOP doubting God.

Instead….

START Living a life of freedom.

START being in who you really are.

START looking for the miracles ( they are everywhere)

START living in gratitude.

START finding a reason to smile.

START loving who you are.

START embracing your power as a co-creator.

START letting go in faith.

Make 2018 a year of you being different. Make 2018 a year where you not just talk about living the life that you desire, but actually open yourself to receiving it. Just the asking for it makes the whole world rearrange itself JUST FOR YOU. So don’t waist the energy of God by doubting.

You are worthy of the blessing!

–Kendal