Commitment to Your Nightmare or Your Dream?

There are moments in our lives that we just KNOW without a doubt that its TIME.
 
It’s time to shut up and CHOOSE instead to SHOW up.
It’s time to STOP putting in empty action but instead CALL from within our truth,
our deisre, our KNOWING.
 
Yes these are the times that we encounter repeatedly in our lives in so many areas.
 
However, only a small chosen few actually realize these moments. The rest choose to ignore what their inner knowing has to say and completely disregard the urges from SOUL.
 
Thus, leading them down a bleak and dim life path filled with anxiety, fear, doubt, shame and discord. They turn and avoid the images of their dreams,
they make light and joke about the horrors that they are facing,
they gossip and get caught up in immaturities,
they finger point and focus on what is wrong.
And they do it because they are afraid.
Afraid to say YES…
 
Yes to SOUL.
 
Instead choosing to beleive the bogus tales of keeping themselves so busy that they have no time to expand,
to grow, to enjoy the life that is offered them,
and they beleive that by remaining so busy that they will lessen the pain of not having the life that they desire.
When in truth what they are accomplishing is the very creation of more pain.
Vaster seperations.
Deeper versions of bondage.
And they are sacrificing themselves,
their dreams,
their SOULS to Average and Ordinary.
 
They are committing to NOT HAVING.
And they are committing with all the best intentions and ideas.
The self emposed limitations that they have been raised to be their truth,
hold them in captivity from everything.
They believe that life is unsafe and non-supportive to what their hearts desire might be.
They fall prey to the beliefs of their parents,
thier grandparents and society,
both church and state.
Picking up the shakles and locking them on themselves,
in the effort to do what is right.
To be responsible.
Mature.
A good citizen.
A good parent, friend, partner, daughter, brother, etc.
They establish the boundaries that have always been there,
committing to this old paradime,
and closing their eye’s to all other possibilities.
 
KNOWING what they know,
believing what they know.
They look to the future as something outside of themselves,
they look at thier dreams with a light huff,
a tad bit of hope,
and a deep knowing that it won’t happen,
at least not NOW.
 
In this they are committing to never having.
Because SOMEDAY never comes.
and the reson they want what they want is to make themselves happier, feel more complete,
feel free, connected, joy, satisfied.
 
The commitment is intense.
The belief of what IS is powerful.
And the creation of their nightmares is real.
 
But here it is beautiful,
YOU are in charge.
You get to commit to what you want,
if you will only choose to focus your energy and your actions on what your SOUL is leaading you too,
instead of what your fear is dictating to you,
you will realize quickly that you are POWERFUL.
 
Because You Are!
So I ask you today beautiful….
Are you committed to your dream or your nightmare?
 
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time for you to say yes to who you really are beautiful. It s time for you to commit to who you are,
to your soul and say YES.
 
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How Does Your Garden Grow Baby?

I like to move it…
move it…
 
I like to move it, move it…
 
I really do.
I like to move it,
until I don’t like to move it no more.
I push,
I run,
I jump,
I leap forward without thinking often.
My SOUL just get’s a hold of me and blurts stuff out and I am like,
“Well, I guess that is what we are doing now.”
 
And then once cast out there into the sea of the universe for all to hear and see,
and for God to deliver back to me,
I sometimes loose my luster and joy for it.
I sometimes go,
“Well, F-ck! I am just not feeling it now.”
 
And so I start to procrastinate.
I start to change my focus to something else.
I feel that the splash of passion that I had in that moment of alignment,
is gone.
 
And I feel constriction.
I might even feel a low grade sadness.
You could say depression even.
And I count myself lazy AF.
And then the fear kicks in even more so,
it kicks in because now what was just a mood of not feelin’ it in that moment has turned into me becoming certain that I am not good enough,
that I am to lazy to make it happen,
don’t really know what I am doing,
that what I am doing is a bad idea and that no one even want’s it.
 
And once taken hold,
this thought,
this fear it steals the fire right out of who I am at my core,
it steals the passion from feeling good,
from making it happen.
And in turn it applies all that passion,
all that focus onto what I fear the most.
 
The not happening of it.
The lack of moving it.
The lack of not getting,
and I step fully into scarcity.
Here then is where my passion is focused.
Here is where I am applying myself,
and here is what happens…
 
I GET EXACTLY WHAT I AM FOCUSED ON.
 
I get exactly what I am applying myself too.
 
I get exactly what I am putting my passion toward.
 
I am a MOFO Amazing manifestor!
 
Can you relate beautiful?
 
I bet you can.
We all do this.
The question comes as to what extent we manifest our fears vs. our dreams.
 
Those of us who get it,
like you and I, we know our power.
We know our strength,
and we BELIEVE.
 
That’s what makes us unique.
We are not blind.
With this sight of knowing though,
it’s all the more important for us to pay attention,
to do our inner work,
to listen the eff to our SOUL,
and to get into alignment with it.
 
It’s important because we have this thing,
this thing called our message.
It’s what we cannot, not do in this life if we are to feel complete.
 
It is our ART.
 
You have it beautiful.
You feel it at your SOUL.
And you know.
I know you know that you MUST,
you must do this THING.
And the only thing holding you back beautiful,
is this focus gig you got goin’ on.
It’s time that you accept your power beautiful.
It’s time that you realize once and for all that you are pulling yourself under the currents of restriction,
you are the ONLY ONE not allowing yourself to have all that you want.
And you are doing it by applying yourself to that, that you fear.
By having more passion toward what you do not want,
then what you desire with your heart and soul.
 
You are a powerful manifestor BABY.
 
And because of your power,
you create so quickly.
You know you do.
The evidence is all around you.
And your focus is intense.
 
Yes beautiful,
you know who you are.
It’s time for you to EMBRACE YOUR POWER.
 
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It’s f-cking AMAZING to be able to say that you live life the way you want to.
 
It’s f-cking AMAZING to be able to look into someone’s eye’s and just drop down into your body and show up however you may feel, without any fear of being accepted or not.
 
It’s f-cking AMAZING to embrace your gift’s and talents and experience God/Universe supporting you in your commitment to soul alignment.
 
It’s f-cking AMAZING to wake up and to feel proud of yourself for the decisions that you have made and for the results that life is giving you because of them.
THIS IS MY LIFE.
Can you say the same of your’s?
Do you live like this?
How would you describe your life?
Are you a .01%er person who COMMANDS in your life experience and blessing or do you just settle in and let life wash over you however it feels?
Do you look for opportunities to grow, expand and heal or do you surrender yourself to blame, guild, shame and regret?
What is your norm?
 
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MY INTIMACY SHARE ON CURRENT FAMILY LIFE BLESSINGS – FROM A MOTHERS HEART- WHAT I HAVE LEARNED

MY INTIMACY SHARE ON CURRENT FAMILY LIFE BLESSINGS- FROM A MOTHERS HEART – WHAT I HAVE LEARNED

Feeling in love this morning as I get ready for the day and the next two weeks of adventure. I am in gratitude for the lessons and experiences of my past,

as without them I would not appreciate that which is with me today in my relationships, lifestyle, and being. It is so obvious to me how easy it is to take things for granted until we are faced with the not having them and sometimes we have to go through great suffering to appreciate that which our heart desires.

The simple little things mean so much.
It’s the smile from your child when they see you walk in the door.
It’s the warm embrace from your partner for no reason.
It’s the kind acts of service, no matter how small that show such care.
It’s the time taken for a conversation without attention to some device.
It’s the snuggling before bed or the good morning kiss.

When Levi makes me breakfast unexpectedly my heart smiles and I feel so blessed.

Every day when Zach chooses to stop in and chat with me before going home, I feel blessed.

When Sam comes and shares her awe over Dameion’s newest milestones or just sits and has a beautiful deep conversation with me about women-hood, I feel blessed.

When Rebekah comes in and shares her latest mommy experience or challenge, or when she just walks up to me and gives me a big hug and say, “I love you., ” I feel blessed.

When Jules asks to go out with me for whatever reason but I can tell she actually needs to just have a moment with mom to share something happening and is uncertain how else to ask for it, I feel blessed.

When Zak Miller, rounds the corner in my house and walks over to me and gives me a big hug before anything else or sits and talks from his beautiful heart, I feel blessed.

When Eniqueo and I tease each other and we laugh, or we compete in love over a good game of darts, I feel blessed.

When Gabe, wakes up in the morning and snuggles next to me and says, “I want you to be my snuggle buddy.” or rushes to help me do something without being asked, I feel blessed.

When Rowan grabs me and hugs so tight I can barely breathe and claims me all for himself, ” My mommy!” or takes my hand and asks me to read him a story and snuggle, I feel blessed.

When Kia, Andrew and J storm in my home and run to me with smiles and big hugs, I feel blessed.

When Dameion looks with his big eye’s up at me while I am feeding him his bottle and smiles while slurping back his milk, I feel blessed.

When Steve stops everything he is doing because he noticed that something was not right with me without me saying anything and gives me a hug or when he does all the little things that are actually big things to take things off my table, I feel blessed.

When I catch that mental snapshot of a moment that is awe inspiring of my family connecting and loving, laughing and being them, I feel blessed.

My life is so crazy busy.
My life has so many beautiful souls,
these that I shared a fragment of what I am blessed by and so many other dear friends and sister/brother souls who just light up my world with them just being in it and choosing to share pieces of their life with me.

It is mornings like this morning,
that I am reminded that life has not always been like this.
Life has always been full,
and there is always drama.
But not that very long ago,
my children wanted to be around me but the energy in our home was not supportive.
The laughter and joy,
the deep connective moments,
the conversations,
the family enviroment,
the thought to another,
the connection between myself and my partner,
the love that I so badly wanted to feel,
it was not there.

It was vacant.
And my heart hurt because of it.
My children suffered for the lack of it.
And my lesson is to never settle for so little of such a valuable thing again.

One of the biggest blessing that our lives can have is the blessing of connection.

The blessing that people,
the people that we cherish want to be with us,
JUST BECAUSE.

From my blessed mama heart to yours,
appreciate your blessings and put your focus on them.
They are what make life so beautiful.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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Do You Know Your Pleasure Threshold?

Do you know what your pleasure threshold is?
 
For years I had no clue what that even meant.
I did not think of life, let alone my goals in terms of pleasure.
I mean you live,
you struggle,
you captivate a few precious moments,
you love,
you loose,
and you put your head down and do what you need to do.
 
That is how I was raised.
I was raised to believe that you must put EVERYTHING in front of yourself,
and for sure not focus on what felt good or turned you on.
That way of living was for whores, addicts and the not so responsible people who were selfish and immature.
 
Fast forward through a 20 year marriage,
the loss of houses, jobs and a bunch of debt,
the raising of at that time five children,
then a divorce,
a new relationship plus two more babies plus a bunch of other struggles and more stress,
and you find me believing another way.
 
That idea of pleasure is something now that I realize is a more accurate way of living and it is what God actually intended for us to live in.
 
Not the saga of suffering and loss.
Not the not having of our dreams and desires.
 
When we study the quantum field,
we learn that life moves with ease.
It is about getting into the flow of life,
the flow of soul.
And we do this with this thing called pleasure.
When we are allowing ourselves to receive pleasure we increase our vibration and we open up to the potential of miracles.
 
You have to realize that what you want, wants you too.
But it will not change it’s vibration to get you.
That is what your work is.
To increase your vibration and allow life to serve up your dreams to you.
AKA SOUL GOALS.
 
Think about it…
 
When you feel passionate about something,
when you feel those butterflies in your tummy,
when you feel turned on by something,
you are craving it.
But what are you actually craving?
 
Is it, it or is it the pleasure that it provides you?
 
It’s the pleasure baby.
You want whatever you want for how it makes you feel.
The feeling of something is the ONLY reason we go after it.
 
And what we are wanting is happiness.
Connection. Love. Intimacy. Joy.
 
All of these things equal pleasure.
It’s a different sort of pleasure though,
its SOUL based.
 
It comes from our SOUL not from the EGO.
The ego wants to experience pleasure to hide us from our truth and power.
The ego wants to enjoy pleasure to mask our short falls instead of focus us on our path.
The ego uses negative forms,
very 2D-3D forms of pleasure to derail us from success.
 
But why would the ego do this you may wonder?
 
Ego is trying to protect us.
It does have a purpose.
And that is a purpose of protection,
it is fear based.
And anything that is based in fear is not from the SOUL,
and not from God/Universe.
It is out of flow and it is a low vibration.
 
The ego does what it does because it fears change.
Change means transformation.
Change means expansion.
Change means growth.
And change can mean increased vibration.
 
But as your vibration grow’s so does your determination to remain in this thing called flow.
 
Because is FEELS SO DAMN GOOD.
And miracles happen here.
 
You think about something,
you feel how good it is,
you focus in on gratitude for being already in the flow that you are and BAM! you are given more to support that feeling.
 
But here is the thing that YOU MUST understand BABY.
 
And I want you to really pay attention to this.
 
Your goals can only manifest up to your pleasure threshold.
 
So if you are not yet manifesting like MOFO BOSS,
then look at how much pleasure you are allowing into your life experience.
 
Look at where you are denying yourself the simple joys,
where are you holding yourself back by continuing to buy into the bullsh*t concept that you are to suffer for a time frame in order to achieve your dreams.
 
You will be required to step the f-ck out of your comfort zone.
You will be required to make changes.
To transform and level up.
You will be required to break old habits and beliefs.
You will never be able to achieve that desired life you want in the same old shoes you have been walking this path so far.
 
And that will most likely scare the sh*t out of you BABY.
It may even feel too difficult.
It may even feel bad at points,
and you may “think” that is its painful to make these changes and build these muscles.
 
But if you don’t do the inner training,
if you don’t look into those shadows of self,
if you don’t learn to level up and get into flow,
then you cannot have what you want with ease.
 
You will STRUGGLE or you will SETTLE.
 
Either way it will not be in PLEASURE.
And that threshold will hold right where it is or even shrink.
 
The choice though is always yours.
I know that you are worthy of your dreams and living a high vibe pleasure threshold.
 
God does not make unworthy things.
and YOU BABY, are WORTHY.
 
Level Up Your Pleasure Threshold – Level Up Your Life.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 

Will You Recognize It?

Opportunities are like babies.
And now as a grandmother (OMFG! I just wrote that…yes I did. Breathing….🤯 Milestone!!!!! in my life here folks.)
As I look into the eye’s of my one week old grandson,
I have a whole new awareness for life come through me.
And it is all about the many beautiful, chilling, scary, and exciting opportunities that life provides us.
 
Holding this sweet angel in my arms just last night,
it came into my heart 💞
that opportunities are always all around us.
Years back,
in my twenties when I was part of a financial service company I was big into self-growth. I was off to all the major players events. Reading their books, listening to their audios and absorbing everything that I could.
 
There was this statement that was often said that I felt like I “should” believe.
 
But my SOUL always and still does say eff that sh*t!
 
The statement was,
“You only get two major opportunities in life. If you miss the first you better recognize the second, because otherwise it will be too late. Which is this one?”
 
I looked out at the people all around me.
My elders.
The leaders.
I saw so many people scrambling around,
working their bums off in a hasty attempt to make sure they did not miss the boat.
 
They were drenched in fear.
Their actions all came from this same place.
And they wondered why they were not being blessed with more abundance manifesting in their lives.
 
So they worked harder.
and harder.
They door knocked.
They went to every event they could that sold them on if you do this and this then all your dreams will happen.
They studied,
got all the licenses they needed,
they set daily, weekly, monthly, annual, ten year GOALS.
They happily got their a*s kicking in from the leaders.
The one’s who were making sh*t happen.
 
And they jumped into the game of healthy competition.
 
Ask someone back then in my circle how they were and you would get a script Tom Hopkins response, “Unbelievable!”
 
LOL.
 
But internally, behind the BIG effing smile.
Behind the BIG lofty GOALS.
Behind all the training’s and workshops.
Was a scared human being who desperately desired to just be seen, to be embraced.
Loved for who they were.
and PAID effing great for it too.
 
And they feared they were not WORTHY.
They feared they were not GOOD ENOUGH.
They feared that they were not SMART enough.
They feared so much.
 
But what they feared more than anything,
was that this was their second BIG opportunity to CLAIM their LIFE.
 
To make sh*t happen FINALLY.
To once and for all live life the way that God had intended for them.
The way that their SOUL wanted.
It was the CALL from deep withing that they feared.
They feared that they could not answer it.
That they would miss it.
And that all would be lost.
 
And you know what the sad truth is and was?
 
They were correct.
 
They were correct,
not because this was the last opportunity.
Not because we are only offered two opportunities in our life.
(that is sheer craziness anyway)
but because they were coming at life,
coming at this opportunity,
from FEAR.
And because they focused so hard on what they feared.
They created just that in their lives.
 
As I sat here last night at my daughters home,
children playing all around me.
Laughter in the air.
Good food and wine on the table.
And this sweet little blessing in my arms.
I realized that no matter how hard we try and eff it up,
no matter how often we turn our back on our SOUL CALLING.
No matter how much we fear life or the loss of it.
 
We are NEVER more that a thought,
an inspired feeling,
away from OPPORTUNITY.
 
From GETTING IT ALL RIGHT.
And what does getting it all right mean,
when you cannot get it wrong?
 
It means that you STOP FEARING,
and you simply START ACTING from HEART and SOUL.
 
Just as a baby nuzzles it’s face around looking for milk,
searching with anticipation,
hungry for satisfaction.
We too, must do the same with life.
 
The statement about opportunity is correct about one thing though.
 
“Will you recognize it?”
 
Well will you?
 
The main issue we have in our humanness is that we miss all the blessings,
all the opportunities that around us,
because we are blinded by our fear.
 
The only answer to you ever need really get,
if you are wanting to create a life of abundance.
A life worthy of your SOUL.
Is to STOP overly examining the IS that is in your current time frame. And start applying yourself to the life that you want.
 
Just like Einstein said, “Attention goes where energy flows.”
 
This is perhaps one of the most obvious manifestation tools.
It is foundational.
We claim to get it.
It makes logical sense. But we consistently have the greatest trouble grasping it truly.
 
But if you want to design the life of your dreams,
then you have to stop observing the life of your nightmares or your boredom.
 
What you focus on become’s prominent.
 
Opportunities are like babies.
Babies focus only on the moment and what they need to feel satisfied.
 
You and I both have many blessings around us.
We have much satisfaction.
Yet we often choose to focus on all that we do not have instead and then bi*ch about more of that showing the eff up.
 
Become like a baby in your focus on your dreams.
Nuzzle up to them and stay close.
Take everything else out of your mind and just sip away at all that life has to offer you.
 
Because it is so yummy.
And good for YOU.
Good for your SOUL.
 
This is alignment love.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Well here is your opportunity love.
Will you recognize it? 😛
 
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Change Your Focus.

The leap of faith.
The leap of inspired action.
The leap of true love.
The leap.

That is what we crave.
That is what we want.
That is what we fear.

When we leap, we also risk.
And there is this feeling that we could die.
This feeling of jumping out of a plane, 
into the unknown, 
and we question if our shoot will open, 
or worse yet if we remembered to put our shoot on even.

So we focus on all that could go wrong.
We focus on all that is not happening.
We look at the evidence, 
and we get caught up in the strings of what is not even reality.

Talk a big game.
Speak of soul alignment.
Say that we have prayed about it.
Share our faith about our success with everyone we can.

But internally, we are anxious.
Nervous.
Fearful.
And full of doubt.

We can taste the joy of our success.
We can feel the excitement of FINALLY having what we want to manifest so bad, 
but that damn little voice in our head, 
that voice that wants to sabotage us.

SHUT UP!

Alright, alright, I hear you.
I get it.
I am stupid.
I am ugly.
I am not worthy.
I an pathetic.
I am a bad person.
I don’t know what to do.

And we weep.
We shake in fear of all the crap that we feed ourselves. 
The words. 
The statements.
The imagery.

We are sure to fail.

But NO.
We must try.
We owe it to ourselves.
To our loved ones.
We want so badly to prove that we are worthy.

And so we listen to a guru.
We sign up for a program.
We get serious!
We put our head down, 
and we get to work.

WORK.
WORK.
WORK.

Yes we must write down our goals.
We must focus on our weak muscles and build them stronger by knowing our weakness.
And overcoming it.
We must get up earlier.
Stay up later.
Do everything that feels forced, scary, and hard.
We must MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!

And so we struggle a bit longer. 
And we prove to ourselves how undeserving and stupid we are. 
How success is not meant for us. 
We look out into the world and we see everyone doing so great, 
but we fully understand that we don’t have the skills to make it happen.

So we lower our heads.
We take our loss.
And we put the ball down on what we are so called too.
We turn away from our dreams. 
And we make excuses.
Logical excuses.

Yes here is where so many people are RIGHT NOW.
As I sit here a third of the way through the first month of the new year, I see so many of you beautiful people struggling.

Companies are laying off.
Pink slips are hitting so many people without any fair warning.
The government is under challenges.
Causing issues with our taxes, 
causing issues with our mail, 
with so many things.

We have come through the joy and stress of the holidays
we have hopes and goals for the new year, 
and we are loosing focus already.

I hear so many speaking about what they cannot have.
Settling already for another year of the SAME.

But there is no FAITH in this.
There is no GROWTH in this.
There is no JOY/HAPPINESS in this.
And there is for sure no SOUL in this.

No your soul my love, 
has all the certainty that you need to make your dreams come true. 
All you need do is get in alignment to it and STOP focusing on what is not happening.

Don’t turn away from your dreams.
Don’t get discouraged about what you want that is not happening.

No instead, 
FOCUS on what you do have.
Focus on the joy, love, good stuff that IS in your world.
Even if it is just a small little moment. 
Lean into it love.
Here is the doorway to your greatness.

Calm your mind each day.
Make space for SOUL to speak to you.
Make time for yourself to connect to God.
LISTEN.

Soul alignment ONLY comes from creating a space of stillness and listening.

Here is where you GAIN EVERYTHING.

And when you hear the call
you feel the turn on.

Then you can LEAP with Inspired Guidance and take Inspired Action.

Here is where you will discover that as you take your focus off of all that you think you should be doing, 
and you simply create space for it to happen, 
that is will just manifest with ease and speed.

Silence.
Openness.
A focus on feeling good.
Change your focus. 
Change your life.

As always, 
Stop existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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