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Are You Enjoying Remaining A Broke A*s Bitch?

You will remain a BROKE A*S B*TCH until you actually accept the fact that you can have it.
 
It’s called commitment.
It’s called courage to say yes to self.
It’s called take no more of your own bullsh*t.
It’s called responsibility.
 
But the reality is that most people will never do these things and instead will just continue to sit around and feel like sh*t about themselves.
Will continue to blame outside influences for them not having or succeeding.
Will remain stuck in the land of comfort.
 
Because that is what it adds up too beautiful.
You are too effing comfortable to say yes to your dreams.
 
That suffering that you keep complaining about you have a deeply intimate realtionship with it as well.
 
If you get real with yourself,
which will be very hard to do,
because getting real with self is one of the toughest truth tells one can do.
Its a scary place in there.
You know your mind,
your heart,
your soul.
 
But if you muster up the courage to actually look yourself in the eyes and listen to the voice deep within,
you will discover that you have given up in some fashion.
You are simply not willing to stand out there on the ledge and take the first step in faith.
 
You may proclaim to believe,
you may make big statements of your commitment,
your faith, and your desire.
 
But it is all a BIG EFFING lie you tell self.
 
And somewhere inside of yourself you know that this is true.
 
You know that if you really had the faith,
or at least the courage to JUST COMMIT.
And take that step,
 
that your life would unfold before you like magic.
 
And here you sit,
reading these words,
and feeling a stir in your gut.
Perhaps tears are swelling at the truth I write you this morning,
perhaps you have a desire to name call,
to flip off the screen,
to make your case even about me not understanding,
how could I?
I am not in your shoes.
 
And you are right.
 
I am not in your shoes beautiful.
I have no understanding of your unique human experience.
No one does.
 
But what I can share with you is fact….
 
YOUR SOUL WANTS YOU TO LISTEN.
GOD WANTS YOU TO HAVE FAITH.
 
 
And for any of us who question this,
its like the air that we breathe.
 
We cannot see it,
it is possible that it does not exists even if we only rely on our eye’s,
But whether you believe in the air or not,
it still is.
 
And the TRUTH OF YOUR SOUL,
is the same.
 
The truth of SOUL is the same for all of us.
 
And it has everything to do with FAITH.
 
It has everything to do with LISTENING TO THE CALL.
 
You have been trained through your life to ignore SOUL.
You have been taught to not take heed to your emotions and feeling.
You have been brainwashed into believing that the only thing that matters is your reality.
You have been lied too.
 
Your reality is a manifestation of your past thoughts and feelings.
 
It is NOT evidence of what your future is or can be.
 
YOU….
 
AND ONLY YOU…
 
Are in control of that beautiful.
 
But you have to believe that you are worthy.
You have to want your dreams more than your comfort.
You have to take the first step in FAITH.
And you have to realize that reality is not what you think it is.
 
 
Are you ready to STOP being a broke a*s bitch?
Are you ready to stop the insanity of not having?
Are you ready to claim that life that you hear calling you from deep within?
 
 
You realize that the reason you want for what you want is because it wants you too, right?
 
Take the first step in FAITH beautiful.
 
And Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
 
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I have been in those shoes before all too many time.
But that fear is not going to stop you.
You are powerful.
 
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Rules of My Tribe Plus Why It’s Important To Leap In Faith

A year ago I took a leap of faith and I made a commitment to join a 6 week workshop that my mentor was putting on. It came to me at a time that I was freakin’ out.
I was making good money,
doing what I loved,
but was still not fully stepping all the way into my practice in all the ways that I could.
 
My soul craved so much more.
And so I leaped!
I signed up for this $13,000 dollar 6-week workshop that was designed to kick my a*s and get me moving, get me aligned to my soul message and making money.
 
Now, at this point in time I was consistently making $10,000 to $12,000 a month in my practice working an average of 10-15 hours a week doing what I loved. It was sweet but I desired sweeter and more of me showing up.
I knew that I had more to give,
that I was meant to help more people up-level their lives and success as well.
 
But I did not have an extra $13k laying around, I was just making ends meet.
 
And so the workshop began.
And I was in it.
I FOUND A WAY because I WANTED MORE for ME.
 
My mentor gave some intense homework and I was eating it up. UNTIL she gave a prompt about writing on the RULES of MY TRIBE.
 
I hated this concept of RULES.
I fought against it and I could not wrap my head around it.
And so it has stood that I have not done that bit of homework for a YEAR NOW.
 
Yes here is my confession to you.
 
I miss ” Do Your Homework and You Will See Miracles”
is openly confessing that I have been procrastinating and avoiding with a passion this homework from a workshop that has long been over. But here I sit, KNOWING that it is time,
time to write the RULES of MY TRIBE.
 
Before I do that here and now for you,
I want to share with you something that makes my heart and soul smile and is the reason I do what I do.
 
Today I share with you a text thread between myself and one of my elite coaching clients who is working on her coaching business. I share this with you because I could not be prouder of her and all that she has focused in on and made happen for herself.
 
I share this with you because I believe that if I had NOT taken that leap last year and committed to that 6-week workshop with my mentor that this beautiful coach would not have made in two weeks what that workshop cost me a year ago. I would not have been able to coach her to it. To support her the way that I have and give her the guidance that she needed this year.
 
My message here,
is simple.
 
When one leaps in FAITH,
they carry so many with them,
and raise up a community to the heavens of possibility.
 
I believe that we each have a mission to be our best.
To make ton’s of money doing it.
To live in abundance in all things of goodness.
When we walk in faith,
and share and live from our soul mission,
opening ourselves to abundance and rewards,
we put ourselves into a position to help others do the same.
 
—RULES OF MY TRIBE—
 
1.) DESIRE to be the best you that you feel asking to be seen and felt at your SOUL level.
 
2.) WILLINGNESS to look yourself in the eye, heart and ego and get real with yourself, no matter what you may discover.
 
3.) COURAGE to leap when everything is against you.
4.) COACH-ABILITY to not just hear the advice and guidance but to take the action no matter how it terrifies you or how goofy it may seem and JUST DO IT in FAITH.
 
5.) INTEGRITY and AUTHENTICITY. These may be the most difficult in truth. As we all feel that we exhibit them. The RULE here is to be willing to SEE that you are not always in integrity or being authentic and to love yourself through it, to open into it and to call yourself out when you realize where/how you were not .
 
6.) ACCEPTANCE. Accept that you are human. Accept that we are not always going to agree or get along. Accept that I am human. Accept that others are human. Accept that the ONLY THING you can control is YOU.
 
7.) PLAY. My tribe gets that humor heals. That laughter, goofiness, silliness, and mishaps are beautiful pieces of life and ourselves and should NEVER be hidden or shamed.
 
8.) RESPECT. Self, others and life. Respect the energy that moves through you by living as true to self as you can. Respect others by allowing them to be human and themselves no matter how you feel about their message or looks or anything. Respect the coaching, the sharing, the rawness and never shame someone for revealing any intimacy they need to or asking for help that they may have.
 
9.) BELIEF. It is a major requirement, not just a RULE that if you have a desire to truly be part of my tribe that you BELIEVE. You believe not in my way or in my faith, but that you have a belief in SOUL. You believe that there is something more than just we live, we die and that’s it. No matter your faith, your religion or spiritual guidelines, no matter your race or sex, financial status or relationship views. I have no care here. The requirement is that you believe in a CREATOR, a SOURCE, God and SOUL. Because without this value, life is meaningless and there is no reason to trust, to expand, to move mountains or let our greatness shine.
 
10.) OPEN MINDED. If you hang with me in any fashion, you better have an open mind. I preach and I teach on matters and subjects that can rock your boat and make you sick sometimes. I am not too cautious about my words, I do not aim to please anyone or control, but I will share my views and lessons that I have learned unapologetically with the hope and desire that you too will expand, grow and live in abundance and faith.
 
11.) COMMITMENT. You know that you are the 1%. You know that you are valuable and worthy. You know that even though you have fear and doubt, many reasons to say no to SELF and GROWTH that you still WILL NOT. You say F-ck YES!!!! to SELF. You COMMIT with a crazy desire, a passion, a playfulness. You commit with your open heart, your belief in self and SOUL. You commit with great courage, with an authentic hunger to see your true self and live ABUNDANTLY doing it. You COMMIT to THRIVING. Money, sex, relationship, health, success, soul expansion, healing and so much more. You commit to BEING YOUR BEST and NEVER Saying NO to what YOU KNOW SOUL wants revealed and embraced.
 
12.) ACTION BASED. You know what you want and you take the action needed to get it. Spiritually, energetically, emotionally, mentally and physically.
 
 
Are you part of my tribe?
 
I love you all the same.
Thank you for the follow,
the shares,
the support.
 
Let’s make this year one FOCUSED ON YOUR GREATNESS!
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Stop Fearing Your SOUL! and Step the F-ck Into Your Life Baby!

You say you are not afraid.
You say that you can feel the call,
that the desire is alive in you and that you truly WANT for something more in your life.
You say that you are not afraid, that you know that you must make these things happen.
You say that you are COMMITTED,
that you are READY.

You say that you WILL FIND a way, no matter what.
You say that you know,
you know how critical this is to your life.
Your SUCCESS.
Your HAPPINESS.

You say a lot for someone who is doing NOTHING!
Just sitting there on the fence line of life,
waiting for something to change.
Waiting for life to improve enough for you to get committed and do the things,
the things that your SOUL is calling you to do.

And yet there you are beautiful,
proclaiming all of that.
Wanting all of that.
And still doing NOTHING.

The thing is baby,
what you are not fully grasping is that YOU are scared as F-ck about actually just leaning into your SOUL guidance and LETTING GO!
You are scared as F-ck to finally CLAIM YOUR LIFE!
Making it happen by having FAITH.

Yes! You claim a lot for someone who is scared of SOUL.
Who wants for so much,
but won’t actually STEP the F-ck into what YOU want.
You try and get the world to believe that you don’t know what you need to do,
or that you are already doing it all.
But at your very core,
you know the THING,
the thing that you must do.
That thing to step the F-ck all the way in on your life.

And yet,
there you sit.
Another day.
another worry.
Another avoidance.
Saying that you need to do this or that,
saying that you feel the call.
The call of your SOUL.
And knowing that you are but one small yet HUMONGOUS step away from having all your dreams and desire manifest like magic.

But there on the fence,
you sit.

Scared of saying YES!
Scared of Stepping the F-ck in.
Scared of your SOUL.
Sacred of your DREAMS.

Oh, BABY…
If only you fully understood the power of LETTING GO.
If only you fully believed in your POWER.
In your WORTH.
In Just Stepping the F-ck IN.

But there is hesitation is there not?

You may claim that there is not.
And so if that is what you say,
what you truly think.
Then ask yourself,
“What then is holding me back from living the life that I feel called to live?”

I guarantee,
that it is not money.
That it is not time.
That it is not luck.
That it has nothing to do with your education.
Or your work, relationship or even the amount of sex that you are having or not.
Nope,
it is not body image.
It is not your religious beliefs.
It has nothing to do with your childhood wounding,
your phobias,
or who your parents are,
or how they treated you.

None of this is the REASON.
Some of it is the RESULT,
the result of what is actually holding you the f-ck back.

And you do know the THING,
the THING that is holding you back.
It is the same thing,
the only thing,
that ever holds you back.

But no,
it cannot be.
But yes,
it is just so.
You must SURRENDER yourself,
once and for all to your SOUL.
Stop fearing it.
Stop hiding from it.
Just STOP and LISTEN.
Listen and Act.
Act only from here beautiful.
It is the space of all knowing.
It holds all your answers,
all your power.
Yes here beautiful is what you MUST do.
Once and for all.

Stop FEARING YOUR SOUL.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Want to take that step?
I sure hope that you have come to realize that this fence that you are sitting on is not a fence of safety,
but a fence of saying no to self,
saying no to your dreams and desires and living the way God intended on you living.
THRIVING.

Yes BABY.
It is time that you decide..
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Pick Me While I Am Ripe!

Pick me while I am ripe!
Suck all the juices from my flesh.
Let not a drop of me go to waist.

I want to fill you full of all I have,
all I can give and all you desire.
Sweet nectar pours from me,
each moment that I allow.

Sticky, sweet and refreshing.
This is how I want you to remember me.
Organic, raw and pure.
Yet satisfying and delicate.
A taste that make you crave more.
A taste of something rare.

Yes this is how I want you to enjoy me.
Pick me while I am ripe.
And let not a drop fall from this life,
without fully being consumed, devoured and enjoyed.
My life is worth nothing,
if not for the tasting.

Let your lips and mouth remember,
my flesh beneath them once more.
No moment can ever last forever,
no taste can be the same twice.
But this I promise you my love,
this taste will delight.

As long as you choose wisely,
let my juices flow from me,
without containment,
or control.
Enjoy the sweetness they offer,
enjoy this moment.

Our lives are nothing,
they are worth not even a breath,
if we do not bask in the freshness,
the flavors that wash through.
Delightful,
sweet and juicy.
Is the only way to live.

Yet so many may dislike our fruit we bare.
Call it evil,
dirty and sinful.
How can anyone enjoy such rapture?
How can anyone delight in this flavor?
It reeks,
it is so putrid.
How can one swallow this?
It has contaminated our SOUL.

But this contamination,
this discomfort that you feel,
it comes not from the fruit or the juices,
in was here on your lips my dear.
This flavor that makes you ill,
was only brought to your taste,
by the sweetness that this life can offer,
but your fear will steal away.

Pick me when I am ripe,
let not any juice escape.
This life was for the rapture.
The pure delight of such.
When one who stands in their juiciness,
comes forth and speaks the truth,
the SOUL is contaminated.
Not of evil or sin,
but of its very TRUTH,
the truth that it is RIPE and waiting,
waiting to be enjoyed.
Consumed as a lover would wish,
enjoyed as the sweetness the angels bare true.

But you may fear this juice,
this truth and your SOUL.
Hide from it yet one more moment,
until it feel rotten,
lost and unworthy.
But never understand,
that this cannot be.
Your SOUL,
your essence,
it is still connected to the vine,
the vine that has been blessed.
And all you need to ever do,
is taste it here,
taste its juice,
its love,
in delight.

And yes my dear,
it is uncomfortable to know your truth this day,
to stand here in the garden,
and look the other way.

But know that you are juicy.
You are sweet and ripe.
Your fruit is for the taking,
and life will bare it.
Your choices,
your thoughts and feelings,
are what keeps your vine alive,
but so many are uprooted,
so many are frightened and hungry.
Thirsty for a purpose.
Lost in this garden.

Wake up beautiful,
wake up and feel your ripeness.
Let yourself leak your juices into your lovers mouth,
let your flesh be seen,
and tasted.
Your lover,
this life,
awaits you.

So water the roots,
water the vines,
water the fruit.
Open yourself to faith.
And let yourself be consumed.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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On This Ledge I Found Who I Was.

Stepping out on a ledge I found myself.
Sitting on the edge of everything I thought I knew,
but discovered was wrong.
Not true to who I really am or ever was.
Breathing deep into my flesh,
lost in this world of who I thought I was to be,
only to turn a corner as I fall into who I am.

Yes there,
there on this ledge,
this space where there is no room to move.
I found whom I was.
But it was not like this just yesterday.
Yesterday I was still lost in my shame,
I was lost in my judgments and fears of what others expectations were,
I knew not of who I was,
but only of whom I was to be,
for them.

And today,
as I stepped out on this ledge,
I met my truth.
I met my soul,
and I was blessed,
as if overcome by sweet raptures from deep within,
these messages from somewhere out there,
that space that we might perceive to be heaven,
but none know certain of what it is.
Yes, from this space emerged my truth.
It has always been here.

God, has been whispering my name,
whispering to me all that I am to be.
Calling out of my soul,
the music that must be set free.
Yes here on this ledge,
God has spoken.
And I have finally listened.
Not run.
As before,
when I went into hiding,
my soul screaming as I ran.
But today,
today I chose differently.
Today I chose to open my body,
my mind, and my heart.
I chose to be embraced by something more than self could ever realize.

Today I was awakened.
On this ledge as I over looked the woods that stood before me,
I saw not all that blocked my sight,
but instead saw the beauty.
The beauty of all that had been given.
The opportunities that asked to be taken.
The breaths that begged to be breathed,
deep into my soul,
and exhaled into the world.

Yes this ledge.
It has been a pivotal point upon my journey.
As I lean out and breath deep,
I know that it is time,
it is time that I set my shame free,
I set loose all those fears,
and instead turn and step forward as God has been asking.
To not walk another day,
in this misery,
to not remain allowing of such suffering,
but to step,
step forward into his guidance,
and command with certainty all that I am blessed with.
These blessings,
these blessings from somewhere out there.

Cascading down,
over my flesh,
onto my path,
these blessings.
They may only be held,
only retrieved,
when shame,
when judgement and fear,
expectations and doubt,
no longer rule this path that I was walking.
But instead,
looking out over this ledge,
I open my whole body,
I open my whole soul,
and ask to be penetrated deeply,
with faith,
with love,
the deep penetration of spirit.
Yes, embrace me now,
once and forever more.
I open myself to the mysteries,
to the calling,
of my SOUL.

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I share this after a day of orgasmic rush,
after a day that I felt supported, loved and open, ‘but also met my fear, met my shame, and found hesitation on my path.

I realized today, the many blockages that still remain.
I realized today, the fear that I have been dragging around with me.

Today, I met my old self as I stood in the shoes of my new.
And I realized how certain I had become, of whom I am and all I am to be.

Now I share this poetry,
I share my intimacy,
I share myself with you,
like any given day,
but today I share from a place of deeper understanding.
A place that honors the shame,
honors the fear and the doubt,
and thanks it for all the protection that it has given,
but commands it on it way.
Expansion, growth and certainty.
Faith, compassion and love.
These are the things that take its place.
These are the things I ask you to embrace.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grow A*s Believers”

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Walk in Faith. Not Fear.

I have a fantasy.
I am sure you do too.
I sit with it daily,
get lost in it frequently.
I can feel my heart, my soul, my whole being wanting it to just be.
And here I am this afternoon,
wanting it still and wanting it BAD.

I know it is possible.
I know it can be so.
I know it because I feel it.
And it feels right.
It feels good.
It feels true to my SOUL.

You got that fantasy over there,
you know the one,
the one that you say will never happen,
that it cannot happen.
The one that you do not yet feel worthy of.
The one that you question how it could ever be.
Yes that is the one.

But you say,
it’s not about better sex.
Its not wild, and frisky, adventure or anything of the sort.
No that is not what it is at all.
Sure you have those fantasies as well,
you may want to explore them or not.
But the fantasies that truly call to you at all hours have nothing to do with your bedroom activity.
They have everything to do with your SOULS desire.

And your very SOUL is what is calling you in.
It wants you to explore it more.
It wants you to stop resisting,
and instead allow it to reveal to you all that you long for.
Your SOUL knows what is needed,
it see’s the path before you,
matter a fact it is far down the path,
it is clearing it,
asking you to follow.

But here you are,
turning away from that fantasy.
Turning away from your guidance.
You give it a glimpse,
you smile in its directions,
and then you turn away.
You fear what it may bring you.
The changes you will have to make.
You fear that all that you want,
may not be all that you think it is.
You hear the stories of caution.
You feel the anxiety of not knowing for certain.
You want it,
and because of your up bringing it feels wrong to want such greatness for your life.
It feels to big of you,
the shame grabs hold and buries itself into your core.
It covers your eyes and tells you to ignore.

Do not risk.
Do not turn that way.
You are not worthy.
Live in your shame.

The shame will protect you.
The guilt will keep you in line.
You are not worthy anyway,
so let go of the idea.
Let go of the desire.
and just be happy with what you have.
Be happy living out your days,
average and ordinary.
The way that you were born.
Born for nothing more than this.

But your gut churns.
Your heart pounds in fear of the loss of this thing.
Your SOUL screams,
it screams for you to RUN toward it.
To stay in alignment with it.
To TRUST something greater than this bout with your ego,
then the temptations of fear.

You SOUL shining it’s light down your path.
Showing you the steps.
Asking you to walk.
Walk in FAITH.
And LISTEN.
God is leading your way.
God is by your side.
But you must be the one to walk,
and step in FAITH not FEAR.

Imagine my love,
Imagine if Jesus,
Imagine if Buddha,
Imagine if Gandhi,
Imagine if Mother Teresa,
Imagine if Martin Luther King,
Imagine if Abraham Lincoln
or any other great visionary,
great leader,
great game changer,
chose FEAR over FAITH.

How would that have changed YOUR world?
Our world?

You too have a GREAT PURPOSE.
You will not know it until you ACCEPT it.

And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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Feel the call from your SOUL, but feel the fear biting at your heels as well?

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It’s As Easy As Walking In Faith And Saying YES To SOUL.

You are doing it because you think you should.
You are doing it because you feel you have too.
You just keep doing the damn thing that you know at your core is nothing but pain and suffering,
causing you anxiety, holding you in stress and fear because you don’t know what else to do other than to keep doing it in hopes that something,
yes that something will change.
 
But things just don’t change.
Year after year,
there you are beautiful.
Just doing the thing.
As if life will get better,
all while you are hating on it.
All while you are stressing about it.
Fearful of what will be.
 
But you keep doing do it, don’t you?
And why?
 
Because that is what a responsible person does.
That is what society says that you must do.
That is why you went to college,
got that degree,
got this job.
 
Its so you can do the damn thing.
It has nothing to do with what you want.
It has nothing to do with what you enjoy,
what you feel called to do at your SOUL level.
But it has everything to do with what you “think”
you need to do,
based on what your mommy and daddy told you all those years ago.
What your teachers, pastors and media all said was true.
And now,
now you are living it.
Trying to enjoy that dream life that has nothing to do with your dreams at all.
But everything to do with what makes you hate on your days, your years and your life.
Living for the weekends, the holidays.
Yes you keep doing the damn thing because everyone is doing the damn thing.
And you look around and see that it is just this way.
So it must be so.
 
But something inside of you is calling you to question all of this.
Something inside of you is just not feeling like this is how God wanted you to live.
 
You feel different.
You feel unique.
But you feel silly for thinking that you could be something more than what you are.
And yet you do.
 
You hear that call from deep down with in.
It is calling you to do something more with your life,
it is yelling at you to be true to your SOUL.
It sounds crazy scary,
but you also are bit turned on to the idea that you could have your dreams.
That you can desire more.
That you are unique.
And that God wants more for you too.
 
It makes sense doesn’t it.
Sense that you were born to stand out.
Sense that you were born to step fully the f-ck into who you are.
Sense that God wants you,
yes YOU to listen to your soul.
And beautiful,
when you look in that mirror each morning,
what feels better to your heart and soul?
 
To look into those big eye’s of yours and see all that you have been hiding from, all that you have been denying for your life and self?
 
Or…
To see that light,
that power,
that creative spirit.
And see it all flying free.
Being true.
Being powerful.
Making it’s mark on this world of ours.
 
What does it feel like to say yes to yourself?
What does it feel like to step forward in certainty and faith that God has your back?
 
Just pause and sit with that for a moment love,
feel the power that runs through your being when you feel into living that sort of faith.
Feel the love that pours through your veins when you just let your heart be seen and felt.
It feel’s good.
Damn good, to be YOU.
 
Unlike doing that damn thing,
that damn thing that is stealing your life from you.
That has you hiding over there,
uncertain as to what move to make,
fearful of who you are.
Not knowing if you are good enough.
Second guessing your choices,
your life,
your everything.
 
Realize this though.
YOU can have it all.
You can live authentically in all areas of your life.
You don’t have to keep doing the damn things that are holding you in this suffering.
You, yes you can live that exceptional life.
That life that God see’s is for you,
that life that you are being called to.
Let yourself feel into living that life,
if not but just for this second in time.
Let yourself feel it.
Truly feel it.
And embrace it.
Now KNOW this love,
YOU have the power in this moment to make this your reality.
 
All you have to do, all you ever had to do was want it.
Want it bad enough to actually CLAIM IT.
Claiming this life that has always been yours,
might sound scary at first,
but I promise you this,
it will become addictive to live this way.
To say yes to yourself.
To live according to your authentic self.
Your SOUL.
You will find yourself living in blessings and wonder if you take this challenge.
But you have to want it.
You cannot do it just because it sounds cool.
Or because john, or Jim, Beth or Mary want you to want it.
No, the only way that you can CLAIM IT is to want it for yourself.
and allow yourself to have it.
Allow yourself to step forward,
and SAY YES.
 
You will stand out from the masses.
The crowds will look at you in judgment.
You will be questioned.
And many will try to knock you off of your alignment.
But if you stay true,
true to yourself,
then you will live that life of your dreams.
You will have all that your heart and soul have wanted for.
You will know what your purpose is,
and it will be birthed from your breath each day.
 
There will be no doubt,
that you are unique.
There will be no question that you were born for greatness.
Your life will be proof.
Your happiness contagious.
But, first you must DECIDE.
 
Which path do you take?
Do you remain on this path with the damn thing that you have been doing for all this time, that consistently gives you what you don’t want but keeps you safe?
 
or…
 
Do you dare and step on the path of SOUL and follow the calling from deep within, walk in FAITH and FINALLY say F-ck YES! To YOU?
 
The choice is yours,
it has always been so.
 
May you make the choice that makes you happy at your deepest cellular level.
 
Your are WORTH IT!
 
As always,
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“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Your Attachment is Holding You Back, Why Are You Allowing This?

You ebb and you flow.
You wake up feeling effing amazing one day and then as if some sort of curse that you have no control of,
something happens.
Something takes over.
And you are lost within your own crazy chaotic brilliant disaster of a mind that is scared out of its comfort zone that it will loose itself.
That you will plummet into the rocks.

It’s like the scene from Princess Bride where Fezzik and Inigo Montoya are just setting off in the boat and enjoying a bit of rhyme,
“Are there rocks ahead?”
“If there are we’ll all be dead.”

Yes this is the tale of the story of worry and fear that plays in your head love.

I know.
I know how scary it can be.
I know how sh*tty it makes you feel.
The tension in your muscles.
The agonizing heaviness in your gut.
The NOT KNOWING.

And you hold your breath.
You FREEZE.
But all you truly want to do is run and hide.
To hide and cry.

You can feel that you are holding yourself back.
You are conscious of the thoughts and feelings that are swimming through you.
Its a mad house,
or maybe a war zone.
You want to try and control them.
You can sense the damage that they are causing.
You know the power of thoughts let loose.

What are you to do?
How do gain control again?

How can you go from this ill state,
and YES it is an ill state of being.
You are feeling ill are you not?
Your tummy is tight,
your breath is held.
Your palms are reacting,
you can not relax,
and that sadness that dances between depression and anger,
anger and fear,
fear and bitterness.

How do you escape this space that you have manifested?
How do you move back into that beautiful turned on space where life was in flow?
Where you were turned on.
Happy.
Full of creativity.
Love.
and
you could see all your dreams manifesting.
QUICKLY.

How?

You want to analyze how you arrived here.
You want to dissect it.
And try and fix it.
But you know that the more focus you apply to this dreary state of being the longer you will reside here.

The best you can do is LET GO.
The best you can do is LEARN.
Take note.
But DO NOT ATTACH.
Your attachment to this fear is what will hold you in this space for all if eternity of you allow it to persist.

SO STEP THE F-CK AWAY FROM IT NOW BEAUTIFUL.

Let go of this attachment.

Just lift up your hands,
do the scary,
seemingly impossible thing that you know you must do,
SURRENDER.

Surrender it all over to God.
Let is all go.
THIS IS THE MOMENT…

You must show your CERTAINTY.
You must show your FAITH.

You must LET GO.

You may not think that you are attached to the fear.
Attached to the these bad ideas, fears and thoughts.
I know it sounds crazy to be attached to such things,
but…
I assure you,
that you are beautiful.

It is so obvious.
You are attached because it is what you are holding on too.
It is what you are carrying in your arms,
you hold it out like a trophy,
this fear.
This wound.
This emptiness.

Yet it fills you.
It makes you feel alive.

Doesn’t it?

What would you do if you did not have to FIGHT for your breath?

What would you do if you did not have to scrap after everything,
and it did not take until the very last possible second for you to be saved?

WHAT IF?

And I am getting crazy now….
I get it I am.

What if,
You did not ever need to be saved?

Then what?
Then what would your life be like beautiful?

Would you seize to feel alive anymore?
Would you be bored?

I am pretty sure that you could find something else to entertain yourself with if you were not running around putting out fires all the time.

I am damn sure that you could feel just as a live THRIVING as you do SUFFERING.

But at the end of the day,
its all up to you beautiful.
It is a CHOICE.

How badly do you want to be HAPPY?
How badly do you want to live in ease and flow verse what ya’ got going on?

Sure there might be rocks ahead.
But you are steering your boat babe.

You can avoid those rocks with one simple maneuver.

FAITH.

Know you are beautiful.
Know you are brilliant in all you do.
Know you don’t need to become worthy,
you were born that way.

Know thyself.
And Claim Your Life Today.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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Our Vineyards Speak Our Truth.

Wine.
Grapes.
Grapevines.
Vineyards and vineyards of depth, complexity, sweet and earthy aromas.
 
Staring down the rows of grapes,
I ponder the truths of where my life is and where it is going.
I stand there, with my ego screaming at me one thing and my heart basking in the beauty and perfection of the moment.
 
There are inner voices ( my ego) yelping that I should respond to my ex about this or that, and how or why is this happening? They screech at me about the stresses that billow around life and want me to pull my attention to these things.
 
These things that make me not feel good.
These things that guide me down a rabbit hole of negativity.
Of scarcity and fear.
Here is my ego.
Here is the demon of fear that is making use of anything or anyone that it can to show me evidence of what it wants me to believe which is nothing more than an illusion to my soul truth.
 
In this,
I remember the words that I have expressed to so many clients, friends and family through the years in times of stress and ego.
 
Just breathe.
And so I breathe.
 
I stand here in the sunshine that peaks out from behind the clouds on this marvelous day in the Texas wine country and I breathe.
 
I allow myself to feel all this fear as it dances around inside my being.
I feel the emotions that come up with it.
I feel my body wanting to take ownership of it and manifest suffering in some fashion.
 
I feel it.
Deep down in my gut.
The rumble.
The bloated nasty feeling.
A need perhaps to excuse myself to the restroom.
My chest feels tight as well.
I feel distant yet embodied.
But I feel like I want to run from it all.
My heart is holding.
And it is mourning.
 
These are all brought on my my emotions.
By the fear that is currently possessing my being.
I allow myself to feel it,
and I stare out over the vineyards of grapes.
I sip my port,
And I breathe.
 
I breathe as deep as I possibly can.
From the dungeons of this fear my soul charges forth,
it claws its way back up into my heart.
It grabs a hold of me,
I now feel really sick.
The awakening of all that I was falling prisoner to comes forth in my mind.
I see how this fear,
this emotion that longs to control my expression,
my actions and my life,
how it cannot happen unless I choose to let go of everything that I desire for myself, my life and for the one’s I love.
 
I see it.
And I breathe.
I breathe deeply into the awareness.
The awareness that I cannot let this happen.
I must let go of the hand of fear, all though there is comfort in it, it just does not serve my life.
It would be me settling for all that I do not want.
 
So what is the answer?
The answer to this vineyard tale,
is that as I stood there my soul chose a new path.
And I listened.
I leaned into my soul and I aligned back with it.
I allowed myself to be led back to my joy.
 
The suffering,
the fear and scarcity thinking lasted only perhaps a moment in time, but it was a moment of awareness that I could not link up with it or it would devour me like it does so many in our world.
 
As I breathed deep and drank my wine,
I consciously turned my attention to something more.
I turned my thoughts and thus my feelings to joy, to gratitude, to the beauty in this moment and in my life.
 
I looked out with fresh eye’s and I gasped at the beauty that was planted before me.
 
SO much potential from something so small.
The grape.
 
The complexity that we all crave,
the ease that we enjoy its flavors with,
sweet,
earthy,
crisp,
tangy,
oakey,
spicy.
 
There is so much that a glass of wine can bring into your experience.
It offers you new flavors with every sip.
Depending on what you eat with it,
the flavors will change,
some things will be enhanced,
some will be muted.
Sometimes a wonderful glass of wine can be destroyed by the bite of a food that does not compliment it making you choose which you will give up.
 
Much like our lives,
wine brings to us pleasure,
when we allow it to and when it is paired with the right things.
 
When we align to our souls,
and we step into what we know is true and in our best,
we honor our own vineyard.
Where there is so much possibility.
There is so much joy,
SO much hope.
So much love.
and abundance.
 
It is all here in the vines of our lives,
in the vines of our expressions,
our experiences,
and how we choose to develop them.
 
So I ask you this today on this lovely Sunday morning,
What vineyard will you plant for your life and what wine will it bear for you tomorrow?
 
Remember this!
The branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you or I unless we abide in our truth.
 
This truth,
no matter your faith, is the truth of your soul alignment.
 
Are you aligned to your soul?
Your bearing of fruit will tell you your answer.
 
Choose wisely.
Choose abundance.
Choose love.
Choose joy.
Choose a FREEDOM BASED LIFE.
 
Cheers.
 
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
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My False NEED to Control…

BOOM!!!! My Observation of the darkness and my truth…

“OMFG! Here is my ego. Here are my blocks.”

Last night I sat in bed listening to training video’s and working through mindset practices and journaling to level up my work. I know that I am not in full alignment at this moment with who I really am and my desires. So there I sat till almost 2AM doing the REAL effing work. You know what I am talking about. The INTERNAL work.
And because I am a mom of a 5 year old and a 3 year old, I found my bed invaded by little people who were struggling with their sleep. This made me keep my room dim where I could barely see the words that I was writing in my journal.
I noticed quickly my struggle for control.
My need to make sure that my words were forming correctly.
As though my soul would form them wrong…lol
I noticed that I was struggling to just go with my flow,
and ALLOW.
As I moved more into this observation, I started to desire to just LET IT GO.
But my EGO,
my effing EGO.
It fought.
It wanted me to control.
To think I was doing something incomplete,
not good enough,
not right.
All because I could not see clearly the space I was writing in and the entirety of what I was calling in through my words.
How eye opening this was.
My lesson of the early morning.
Here was a major block.
Here was how my EGO had me by the balls currently.
It was happening not just in my journaling,
but in my life.
My false NEED to know the path.
To see the STEPS.
To try and control what is not mine to control.
My lack of FAITH….
WOW!!!!
Time to let that shit go!
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Stop Existing & Start Living