THE PULL OF SOMETHING THAT YOU CANNOT RESIST.
Gravity just is.
You can argue it,
you can try and fight against it.
Resist with all your might.
And much like mother nature,
the sea and the sky,
gravity does not care what is going on in your life, in your emotions, your bank account or with much of anything.
Gravity just is.
You can walk through life unconscious.
You can move with logic and reason,
creating the safest environment possible,
dotting all your “i” and crossing all your “t”
you can be smart AF and do it all right,
but no matter what,
gravity is always there,
and when it wants you to pay attention,
when your soul has had enough of your nonsense of ignoring your path,
denying yourself and your heart,
gravity will come along and quickly remind you of everything that you desire and long for.
Gravity is there pulling you back home.
We humans are really good at separation,
at stepping outside of ourselves,
away from our feelings and hearts,
We are great at saying that things don’t matter.
We do so with wonderful reason of not wanting to be selfish,
not wanting to be “that person” who is an asshole who disregaurds others for the sake of going after the life, the love, the wealth, the whatever we are being pulled toward.
And so we wonder our days shut down and closed off to the beauty of what life has to offer us.
We wonder in fear,
and we repress ourselves into spiritual starvation until we are diseased, depressed, lost and frustrated with no idea of who we are any longer.
And then gravity is there to catch us.
Into its grip we fall from our slumber of avoidance.
And we fall hard most often.
Often we don’t even see gravity coming for us.
It just happens one day.
We wake one morning and we view life differently.
We meet people differently,
our hunger for who we are is just there,
in our face screaming at us and having us do things that we typically would not do.
Having us take action and make plans,
and we still fear the loss of our world that we have created,
but thanks to gravity we are strangely okay with whatever needs to happen, happening.
Gravity has us stop making excuses.
Gravity has us look in the mirror and say who the f-ck are you anyway?
Gravity awakens us to our next best step.
Gravity sets us on our path.
It puts us back to where we need to be.
Here, EMBODIED in self.
Because THIS life,
it’s not anyone else’s life but our own.
We are reminded by these gravitational points in life where we get our polarity adjusted to where it needs to be,
that we are here to live for self.
And in attempting to live for everyone else,
in putting ourselves on the back burner,
on turning or fires down,
on hiding our light,
our hearts, our passions and desires,
that we do no one any favors.
Because we live in a weakened state of being.
We give all our power over to others,
and we no longer remain.
All that we came here to be, to share, to experience in our life vanishes when we stop living for ourselves.
And with it we stay just out of the grasp of what we crave the most.
OUR OWN HAPPINESS.
Living for others and by others will and desires will never bring us happiness.
Living with the fear of the “what if I am who I am,”
no one will accept me here,
no one will love me here,
no one can handle me here.
Living in this fear,
where the only solution is to hide self.
and pretend to be whatever we perceive will keep the peace,
make others happy in the pursuit to make ourselves feel safe and hopefully happy because we feel safe,
simply will not bring what we desire at the end of our days.
Gravity when we open ourselves to those things that pull us in,
calls to us from the wild,
“Come over here.”
And when we listen to the pull,
we move toward the pull,
we run toward the pull,
Those things are catalysts to the life and joy,
the sheer ecstasy that we crave.
Gravity is a sign of our path home to self.
Back to our power.
Back to our souls and hearts.
Pay attention to the gravitational pull,
it is there for a significant reason.
It is calling you home.
Few things in this life will have a strong gravitational pull,
but those that do are worth the attention,
Run toward them.
You will discover the life, the love, the wealth that you have always dreamed of here,
here in your home.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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It’s time to stop fearing the what ifs.
It’s time to say yes to your F-ck Yes Life,
Now and forever more.
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WTF Did you do over the weekend?
Did you live?
Did you THRIVE?
Each day we gain a new opportunity to do just these things.
And each day so many people choose to just get by.
To survive the day.
Does that sound fun to you?
“I am going to survive this day.”
What have you got going on?
So you see luv,
if you desire to live that F-ck Yes Life,
then you have to flip the switch to living it….
cuz surviving your life is never going to happen,
and no moment is ever promised to us.
If you don’t choose to flip that switch to living the life of your dreams,
regardless of what your friends and family say or think,
no matter what is happening in our governments, economy, or what debates are up,
then you will simply NEVER,
let me repeat that for you….
NEVER have the life that you claim that you desire.
Matter of fact you may even find yourself among the many who sit back and dissect and analyze all those who are out there living.
You may discover yourself so far out of alignment with your truth and your worthiness that you get caught up being a judgy, critical and even upset about others lives, person.
About what they choose to do or not to do.
You may discover that you are caught in the drama and chaos of the world that is always around us,
falling prey to its life stealing ways,
believing that, that is what you are to focus on.
Never realizing that it’s sabotaging you from the gift that you were given from God….
YOUR LIFE TO LIVE.
And living is not about just getting through the day and paying your bills,
about appearing to do what is expected,
or about people pleasing to the degree that you have nothing left to give to yourself.
Living is not about you doing anything that someone else deems appropriate or right for you.
Did you get that luv?
Living IS NOT about you doing what someone else “thinks or believes” is right for you.
They are not living your life.
And if you believe that you are here to please and be liked by everyone else,
then you’re simply being silly.
This way of “wantabe living” will only land you in a depression, exhaustion, emptiness, lost, and feeling unworthy, unloved, and broken.
It may feel good to help others,
and don’t get me wrong,
It’s a damn good thing to be compassionate and helpful.
But, if you are being helpful to the point that you have lost your boundaries and value,
then you are not helping anymore.
You cannot help those around you when you yourself are empty.
And the way that you fill yourself is by LIVING.
Is by THRIVING.
The more you do this,
the more you have to give.
The more you can be compassionate and in love with all.
I am a firm believer that the reason there is so much anger, hatred and jealousy in our world,
is because we have been raised to believe that loving ourselves, giving to ourselves, taking care of self first makes us a bad person. However, we crave just that at our core.
And so we hate ourselves.
ANd when we feel this shitty about ourselves we have no space for love for someone else.
We have no tolerance for our differences,
no ability to agree that we can disagree and still remain friends or lovers.
You see it is impossible to see clearly the world around us, when we are not thriving.
Any point outside of thriving, (which BTW is exactly what your life was intended to be about, it’s your set point if you allow it),
Any point other than thriving is you viewing the world from your pain body. From your trauma, your fear, your ego, your need to control, because you cannot fathom letting go of the suffering.
Thriving is a foregin concept to the majority of the world.
To the point that we finger point, try and shame, hate on and dissect those that are doing it. It scares our ego’s.
Because thriving means that you fully accept yourself, love yourself and KNOW WHO YOU ARE. You also, get that you cannot control others, nor should you desire too, that’s not loving….
That you cannot give to the point of exhaustion and crossing your own boundaries.
You understand that the best you,
is the you that loves you.
And that you are not going to be a wonderful person to the majority, simply because you are not doing what they want you to do.
THRIVING my love is about you expanding horizons,
getting to know yourself and falling in love with that amazing soul who looks back at you in the mirror,
NO EFFING matters what anyone else says or thinks about you on this planet.
THRIVING is about you surrendering to your heart,
and enjoying your life to the fullest.
THRIVING is about you accessing your DESIRE and knowing that you can have it,
that what you desire, desires you as well.
THRIVING is about being in alignment to God/Universe.
There are only two kinds of people on this planet….
Those that are in alignment.
Those that are not in alignment.
We are all both of these at times, the true question comes down to where to reside most of your life?
If you have no clue….
look at your world.
Let yourself get real with how you perceive this world,
how you truly feel about it.
Are you in love with your life?
or something other than?
It’s time to JUMP INTO THRIVING.
You are so worthy.
You are so ready.
Make the leap now and claim it for yourself.
The magic is all you baby.
***Side note: This picture was taken yesterday during my first jump, such a thrilling experience that I aim to repeat in the near future 🙂 but the weekend was loaded with adventure, from doing a ghost hunt in an 1845 jail, to exploring deep connection with my lover, staying in VRBO chicken coop, just because it sounded interesting, showering outside under the starry sky and more…No matter your life situation love, you can live an adventure, I know because I have done so. I have had to raise five children on $17k a year, I have been homeless and camped for months pretending that we were just having a summer adventure when in truth I could not afford a roof over our head or food, I have stood over the ER bed of my child who was in a sever accident and wondered if there were a God, I have been diagnosed with painful illnesses, been through miscarriages, years of depression, divorce, rape, physical violence that broke my body, and more…. and you know what? My spirit said, “LETS THRIVE! You are worthy.”
And today, my life is totally different. So different that people dislike and judge me for THRIVING and sharing it.
So much so different, that I think about something and it easily manifests in days. My life is now magical because I get that thriving is who I AM.
And you are too.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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Lets connect and get you expanding and saying F-ck Yes! to your thriving life now.
It’s time you stop just getting by.
You are worth so much.
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So there I was leg up on the lip of my shower,
shaving the back of my thigh,
hot water washing down my back,
irritating me because it was washing out my conditioner prematurely,
when it came to me.
I figured out why I have a resistance to love.
Not just to love,
but to allowing myself to fall deeply,
penetratively in love with my man,
with my life,
I was flabbergasted at my realization. 🤦♀️
How could I be so silly to not have caught this before.
Perhaps I was just unwilling to see it.
Perhaps I was not ready to fully let go.
Perhaps a whole lot of shit to be frank about it,
and the reality is simple.
have been holding myself back from the feelings and experiences that I have desired for the last two plus years almost.
Crazy as it sounds.
It is true.
And thanks to my shower today and now nicely shaved legs,
I was blessed with the ability to change it.
Because you see you cannot change something until you awaken to the fact that it needs changed in the first place.
Which is why life is the way that it is.
Sure we get ample opportunity to see what needs to happen,
we feel it at our cores often,
but we humans tend to disregard anything that is not smack dab in our faces presenting a challenge.
AKA a PROBLEM.
Which is why we create problems for ourselves.
We need them to expand.
To grow and to create the life that we are called to live.
Problems allow us to witness what needs attention,
what needs improvement,
And often they rise up from our “feelings”
yes those nasty things that we are told to not pay much attention too because they will misguide us.
But the reality is that our feelings are there to guide us.
They are there to tell us when we are not in alignment to our souls path.
And that causes us pain.
Of some sort.
So what do we do?
We get into a sticky painful situation,
and we COMMIT to change our evil ways.
We commit to work harder.
To not trust so easily.
To take better care of our bodies and our hearts.
We commit to trying harder.
And the list goes on.
And don’t get me wrong, commitments make our realities.
However, the trick is knowing what you committed to and if the commitment is in alignment with your soul’s desire.
You see, this commitment that I made about two and half years ago, was not ultimately in alignment with my heart or soul. It was a commitment made out of pain.
Intense pain, my heart was breaking and I was scared and angry at this for happening. I was not understanding why it was happening or how this could even be. And in my suffering I stated to the person who I blamed with great emotional attachment,
” I will NEVER love again.”
I went on to tell him that I would never trust a man again or surrender the way I had with him, that if this is what it got me then it was too big a price to pay and I was committing to not not allow myself to get hurt again at this level.
You may think that those were just words,
that I could just ignore and carry on.
That someone awesome could turn around and walk into my life and change my commitment.
perhaps that might be so.
But it has not been so for me.
Instead my other commitments to myself that I wrote down prior to this one above, started to knock heads with this commitment and even though I had manifested a wonderful man into my world,
not just any man BTW,
but a man that I scripted out in my journal and who has 75% of my list of desires in a man,
yeah… not bad for a day’s worth of journaling work.
Yeah, not even he could break through this commitment to love.
And so, it has been that the last two years I have consistently kept myself “safe from love” not allowing myself to feel what I have wanted to feel fully and getting repeatedly upset with the world and my life and soul because of it but not catching the root of my issue.
This morning as I thought about it,
and as life would have it all week long,
I have had plenty of opportunity to read through old journal entries as I clean up areas of my home.
My soul most certainly is on a mission to CONFIRM to me that I am really great at holding commitment to myself.
Especially commitments made with strong emotional attachment.
A few years back,
when I was struggling financially to get over the $100k a year mark in my practice, I committed to myself and wrote it faithfully for months on end in my journal that,
“I commit to make no less than $95,000 a year from this moment forward.”
That year I made $146k.
And I have not looked back since.
I also wrote,
” I commit to having my schedule booking out 4 months in advance.”
And it still remains so that my schedule is booking 4 to 6 month in advance.
” I commit to being recognized on TV.”
And shortly thereafter, was called by Lifetime TV to work on an episode of Married at First Sight.
My list of commitments is long.
My list of emotionally supported commitments is long.
Some emotions however, support my soul’s desires.
And some do not.
My shower realization is that although commitments are thought to be a good thing,
and they most certainly do mean the world.
That what we as individuals need to understand,
is the true power of our words.
Of our commitments to self.
And what we say in passion sticks with us and sometimes can get buried under our day to day lives and thoughts.
Sometimes these commitments we carry for a lifetime,
and they can be the root cause to us not thriving no matter how hard we work,
to not feeling love, no matter how hard we love,
to not feeling safe,
no matter how hard we try and make ourselves trust.
Commitments make our realities.
Let’s start being conscious of them,
and changing the ones that no longer serve.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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