I told a close friend yesterday that I was scared to put my attention toward what I “thought” I might be wanting right now because I was afraid that I would get it….
That sounds crazy,
Scared to get what I want because I might actually get it.
But it is true.
I am consciously holding back my manifesting right now out of fear of getting it.
How can I be certain that I would manifest it even,
you may ask?
You see over the last few weeks of staying at home in the midst of our worlds chaos,
I have been working with clients and clients need homework and sometimes I have to go searching in my own personal journals to look up prompts and exercises that moved me through similar situations that they are experiencing.
So I have been looking through a bunch of old journalling.
and geeze has it pulled up some emotion and made me aware of my desires and how great a manifestor I really am.
I have looked at the last few years of my life and see clearly how I created things to a T.
The things I was wanting just 18 months to 3 years ago are here with me now by about 75%.
There are still things in the making,
but I can feel them blooming even as I share this tale with you today. And the universe has brought me multiple messengers in the last few weeks to confirm that you can have EXACTLY what you desire.
SO that should be exciting to me,
I have so much confirmation of my creative abilities,
I can see my path,
I can even see the gestation time,
and how it came together,
If I get really present in my heart,
I can even tap into my feelings around one thing and I can take notice as to how I was aligned or not,
witnessing the emotion that truly called it into my life experience.
And this is wonderful.
This is powerful.
And scary as F-ck!
Because now I know.
I know my power.
I thought I knew prior to this my power but now I really know.
And with this knowing comes a desire to make sure that I get it right,
that I don;t f-ck up what I currently have and love by creating something that is not in alignment to my life right now.
There is a strange feeling of responsibility around manifesting that has made itself know to me in recent,
where in the past I would have just wrote my dreams and goals down and not looked at the repercussions of what I was saying that I wanted to call into my life picture,
Now I am so in love with my current life that I don’t want to rock the boat in a way that is not needed.
But you want to know a secret?
Sure you do. 🙂
I am WRONG.
I am so wrong for doing this.
I am so wrong for using “responsibility” as an excuse for creating my dream life even more so.
I am wrong for fearing what my soul is calling me toward.
I am wrong for thinking that I can keep everything the way that is currently is,
in all of its glory and somehow create that next level life that I am feeling pulled toward.
Now, there is something else that I am wrong about…
I am wrong in thinking that if I apply my intent on what I am wanting for that I have to have chaos or crap hit the fan in my beautiful life picture,
you don’t always have to destroy something to gain something else.
We humans have a tough time with this concept,
We do it in so many ways.
We think we cannot build something new while enjoying something of current.
But that is a falsity.
We can have our cake and we can eat it too.
But we have to believe that we can.
We have to trust in our soul,
in our path,
We have to have faith that we are always moving toward our best life,
and that is the way that life is designed,
to constantly evolve.
To grow and expand and to never remain the same.
The relationships that we have today are not the same relationships that we will have in a few years,
even if with the same people,
the relationships will change.
Because people are always changing.
Life moves us.
But we feel scared at moving with life.
It is uncertain and we never know what is coming.
We want to know what is ahead of us and we desire to control it someway,
we fear change more than anything,
and it is what we crave the most,
because it is our nature.
It is our nature to always want for something more.
We will never be satisfied.
And this is how we are designed.
But that is a tough thing to embrace because we are taught that we need to just be content with what we get,
what we have and who we are,
that we need to stop trying to gain more of anything.
When the truth is that this desire to have more and this feeling of never being satisfied is what makes us move forward and take action in life is what we are to be following,
This is how our universe expands.
This is how life grows and experiences this physical existence.
To fear change,
to fear growth,
to fear our hunger for more,
is silly and immature.
We were born to create.
And we were born to follow the call of this wild energy known as soul.
We are here in this life to evolve ourselves,
and evolution means change,
change of who we are,
what our lives look and feel like,
and if we get very real with ourselves,
then we KNOW that we cannot have what we want thinking, acting, speaking, living the way that we are now.
The way we are now has gotten us the life that we have RIGHT NOW.
And if we are wanting to have something richer, deeper, more satisfying then the simple truth is that we MUST EVOLVE.
We must change.
And so we must allow ourselves to want for that, that we fear.
We must allow ourselves to feel our hungers,
our cravings, and desires for that better life,
and we must allow ourselves to put our hearts toward it,
we must also let go of the reigns on our current and not hinder its ability to adapt and move with us as it needs,
because it is going to change,
it must change,
for us to become more of who we each are.
So my message to you today is to breathe into that space of fear of allowing yourself to have what you are being called toward.
Breathe into it and face those inner monsters of your ego that are causing separation in who you are and preventing you from fully stepping forward in your power.
Because you are worthy beyond reason.
You were born to live the life that you are hungry for.
It is time to say yes to you.
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You were born worthy of so much more than what you are allowing right now.
It is time that you say YES to you.
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