I remember the days when I had to almost literally be drug out of bed to go to my J-O-B.
I am serious.
I was drug like a kid out of my bed.
The last “real” job I had was back in the 1990’s when I sold large appliances for Circuit City. I was 18 years old and fresh out in the world. Planning my wedding and working 40+ hours each week at a job that I hated.
I remember looking at my pay checks,
part of me proud and part of me so frustrated.
Two weeks worth of work.
80+ hours of my time and energy.
Living at a place that my heart and soul hated,
learning to sell extended service programs that I did not believe in.
And all of this soul sucking for a whopping $650 every two weeks!
I look back at those days and I wonder how I survived such disgust. But I did.
Until one day, a week before my wedding when I had a meeting with my manager ( who was so very grumpy herself, a woman who was owned by the company).
She pulled me in her office to informed me that even though I had requested a week off to get married and enjoy a few days honeymoon months before,
and we are talking many months before,
matter a fact it was at my hire.
That after consideration, management had decided that I could not have the time off as I had not worked there long enough to take a vacation…
I had been giving all my time and energy to this place.
I had made good sales,
sold the freaking extended service programs that were crap even, and was now informed that I had to choose between my job and my wedding….
Yeppers I chose my wedding.
I watched all my fellow colleagues work their bumbs off,
and sacrifice their families, their holidays, events and very life to make sure to be there for this place of business.
They felt that it was a duty, it was loyalty, it was responsible.
They had too.
And I saw these same people a few years later,
looking for anything to ease them.
Alcohol. Drugs. Sex.
The addictions grew and they stayed addicted to this soul sucking life experience, called their J-O-B.
As time went on, I learned and grew.
I got education around psychology, mindset, habits and so much more.
I explored multiple opportunities to expand myself and my pocket book. Hoping to get rich overnight almost ( with a little hard work of course too). Some were partially successful, some not so much. All had a system, a pre-created pattern to success in this business or that.
None felt in alignment to my soul or heart, but I kept trying to drink the Koolade.
No matter what I tried, if it was not in alignment it did not take long for my whole being to feel drained and lost in life.
I could not figure out what was wrong with me.
Surely not all of these opportunities were bad.
It must be something I was doing.
And it was something that I was doing.
I was sacrificing my soul,
my life for something that someone else had built, created and told me was the way to get what I wanted, instead of following my heart.
Soul suck after soul suck,
I felt addicted to trying this or that out in the attempt to achieve SUCCESS.
I wanted nothing more than to just be me.
I wanted to be a BIG earner in some company.
I wanted to speak and share, educate and help others in some fashion or form.
Be a thought leader.
I wanted to make positive changes in this world, and help people feel good, live an abundant life. And I truly believed that I had to do this through someone else’s way. That I did not have the skills, ideas, education, know how to be an influencer.
And so I continued for years to explore companies that promised so many beautiful things but all felt so empty to my soul at the end of the day because they were selling something that in my opinion did not really change lives the way that I desired to change lives.
They were not my purpose work.
My soul was not captivated by any of them.
But they did soul suck the life out of me and I was honestly addicted to this process without really realizing it.
Much like many are addicted to going to the J-O-B and making sure the BOSS man is happy, or that the company is taken care of but not even truly believing in what they are doing. Or perhaps one day many years ago they believed in the greatness of this or that company, they were on board with the mission, but now today, it is a paycheck. It is a bonus check. It is relatively easy work, but still empty.
And they feel drained.
Lost in their lives and choose to mask and cover the pain of a life that is empty with something that eases the pain.
Proclaiming that one day, one day they will do that thing.
That thing that they would love to do.
You know the thing.
The thing you desire.
The thing that turns you on.
The things that makes you wish you could be working at it, creating it, building it, putting yourself into it.
Yes that thing.
Not a thing that is soul sucking,
but is life giving.
Will make you THRIVE.
And if you applied yourself to this thing,
would not only make your soul sing,
but bring you abundance in so many ways and HAPPINESS.
Yes that thing.
Well that is where I got to pretty damn quick in my life.
I looked out at this world of lost souls, hungry people who craved more but was addicted to the suffering.
Who did not know how to change.
How to escape this track they had gotten on.
Where they would find their happiness, or if it was even okay to contemplate happiness.
I could not do it!
I could not settle.
I could not sell my soul to this way of existing.
I had to speak who I was, be me and do my own thing.
Feed my soul.
And I want you to know that you too can feed your soul.
I want you to know that if you are one of the very many people out there that want for so much more in life, dislike where you are sitting at in your life, in your work, your relationships, your happiness level or anything else, but feel CALLED to go another path. To be something that you have always wanted but are unsure as to how….
That you are only a decision away.
You do not have to give up everything you currently have and do to have it either, but you MUST be willing to STEP FULLY into who you are.
To listen to your SOUL and to stop hiding.
Stop masking and avoiding.
The steps to a fulfilling life, a life that you have claimed and are living authentically may not mean to quite your job, or move states or countries, or change partners. No it may not mean any of that. It more than likely means none of that. But what it does mean is that you stop taking your own crap. Stop hiding from your desire to be something you know you were born to be.
Do you have a calling that you have been avoiding?
A mission that your soul knows is yours?
A passion that ignites your very soul, but currently you are lost as to how to expand it, make its successful, make it stand out and touch lives? Touch this world?
You can have it.
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Living for the weekends.
This was a shirt I saw on a woman this morning at Starbucks.
Yesterday, I was working with a gentleman and he looked at me as he left my office and said, “Thank goodness it is Friday.”
My attorney for my custody case with my ex texted me, “His attorney has not responded yet, so I called and found out that her office closes at 1pm on Fridays. Must be nice.”
Is that when your life begins?
Is then when you decide to allow joy in? Connect? Do the things you want?
Okay so maybe it is not just weekends.
I bet you are more like….
Friday at 5pm. ( or whatever your 5pm end of the workday is)
And an occasion fake sick day.
Does that sound more like it?
Do you live for that two or three weeks of vacation you get every year. Planning out where you are going to park your ass. Thinking about how much down time you can handle. And what you will do with it.
Does this sound like LIVING?
It sure the f-ck does not to me.
It never has.
I have never been a good employee.
Which is why I gave being one up at the ripe old age of 23.
Almost 20 years later and I can honestly tell you that even with all the trials, the suffering, the stress of what came because I chose a path to follow my heart and soul that I would not play my cards any different.
I would not choose to sell my life off by the hour to some corporation.
It just is not me.
I am my own BOSS.
Always have been.
The trick to being my own BOSS and being good at it has been the learning of what it means to get daily more and more into soul alignment.
To not allow my fear,
or anyone else’s to get in the way of what I am being called to do.
This is the toughest thing to do and yet it is so simple.
I cannot share with you my gratitude for the life that I have manifested for myself and my family.
I watch it blossom into something that I could never have imagined possible.
All because I CLAIMED IT.
I CHOOSE it.
And it is true choosing.
That is the lesson I want to express to you today.
You cannot just give it lip service.
You must COMMIT to it.
Commit to yourself.
Commit to the JOURNEY.
The journey is one that will test you.
It is one that will make you weep,
give you butterflies in your stomach,
make you ache and shudder in fear.
It will captivate you if you let it.
And this will be the only path that you can take once you venture far enough down the trail to your SOUL.
But the expression of your soul,
it is so beautiful.
It is the light that this world,
that the people you love and cherish,
That is IF….
if you CHOOSE to reveal yourself.
And to CLAIM YOUR LIFE.
Which means that the weekends will no longer mean anything.
It will cast out the five o’clock hour, because it is pointless and control that you will no longer live by.
It will say PTO days…Bah-hahaha.
It will look at your schedule, your vacations which will now just be your life,
and it will smile at its splendor.
Your soul expression will carry you to the heights that God wants you to be living at.
It is there.
It is there that you will find your happiness.
Not a step in any other direction.
But will you say YES?
Will you step into this greatness?
Will you build your legacy?
Or will you just continue on this path that society has set out for you,
living for the weekends?
Living according to someone else’s agenda?
I am here to tell you that if I can go from raising five children on $17k a year and getting government assistance to traveling the world, working an average of 15 hours a week from anywhere that I proclaim, and making a multi-six figure income as a single mom to seven. That YOU CAN have your dreams too.
And no I did not do this in some MLM company.
I do not work for anyone but myself.
All I ever do,
is show up as me.
Live as my soul desires.
Share what I am called to share.
And reveal my SOUL EXPRESSION.
I continuously CHOOSE to step more into alignment with who I am.
And THAT is ALL I do.
Moment by Moment.
What will you Choose?
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It’s My Why.
Everyone need’s a why to make BIG changes and find the courage needed to do the things that we really desire deep down to do.
If you are an entrepreneur then a question that often get’s asked is just that,
‘What’s your why?”
Your why has to be strong enough to get you through the discomfort,
The uncomfortable changes,
and the failures.
Yep the WHY has to be so strong that it forces you to BREATHE deep into your full capacity of BECOMING.
The why has to embody you.
It has to capture your heart.
And make you MOVE your ASS.
Without a strong why, then one just gives up.
We are more likely to allow life to over throw us and to steal our dreams.
On day’s like TODAY, I am reminded how lucky I am to have the WHY that I do.
I know that I am BLESSED.
My WHY is my children.
They are my HOME TEAM.
I know that many parents say that their why is their family.
And I am sure that it is.
It is a marvelous why to have.
Looking into the eye’s of your children and knowing that the reason you dare step out of your comfort zone and go against the grain of society, because the last thing you would ever want for them to do was to be, do or have a life that they were not fully turned on too or in love with.
Moment’s of laughter and joy with my kids make me grateful that I am among the lucky one’s who have chosen to create their own LUCK and not accept the bullsh*t structures of a life that is dictated to me, but a life that allows me to be present with my children, spend as much time as I want with them and be able to be there for the REALLY IMPORTANT moments.
Because the important moments are not just the school awards and graduations, or the sports tournaments or choir state finals.
The important moments are the one’s where a child just needs a shoulder to cry on, a hug at the end of a rough day, a ear that can just listen, or some good laughs in the most unexpected times.
Every time I get to listen at midnight to my 18 year old son sit and share with me conspiracy theory thoughts and as he call’s it “geek talk,” I find myself smiling at my WHY.
Every time my 15 year old daughter casually shares with me her private life and asks permission to rebel, and we laugh about the fact that she is rebelling but asking for permission, I find myself smiling at my WHY.
Every time I go for frappuccino’s with my 12 year old son and he smiles and run’s to get the door for me as he is sharing his deep thoughts on world history or science, I find myself smiling at my WHY.
Every time I find myself being asked to throw water on the trampoline as my 5 year old son bounces happily naked as a jay bird and say’s, “Thank you madriella’s.” as he squeals with delight, I find myself smiling at my WHY.
Every time my 3 year old son, bats his big blue eye’s at me and throw’s his arms open wide as I am leaving to go to a client appointment or get on a coaching call, then pushes out his bottom lip and says, “Kissies, huggies.” I smile at my WHY.
Every time my 21 year old daughter, post’s some of her amazing photography work or breaks down and share’s a deep intimacy about what is troubling her and how hard adulting is, I smile at my WHY.
Every time my 22 year old daughter stands strong as the woman that she is, not letting the world bully her but instead commanding from it what she know’s she is worth and not letting go of her dream’s or who she TRULY is, I smile at my WHY.
Yes, this is my WHY.
This is my HOME TEAM.
I have been BLESSED to have had a Home Team since I was 19 in my life. Although, I would not recommend motherhood at a young age for most, perhaps not even for myself, as I had much growing up to do when my eldest was born. I would not change a moment of my life as the mother to these 7 soul’s.
My WHY is not to bless these soul’s with more money, a bigger house or better car’s. My why is not to show them what a responsible adult does and lives like. My why is not to show them that you sacrifice the life that longs to be lived inside you for the life that you are handed from your outside influences.
My WHY, is to show my HOME TEAM who has supported me through the toughest of days, through home losses, relationship break ups, health issues, rape and even miscarriage and more.
That, living a courageous life,
A Life on Purpose.
A life unappologetically and true
is what living is about.
Life may blow it’s scary storms around you, but if you stand strong like a mountain it will not destroy you.
The storm of life can whip around and feel like it might over take you, it may have you consider sacrificing your heart and soul, but when you have a strong enough WHY you can bend as needed but not break like a willow tree.
My WHY is to see my children stand strong in who they truly are.
To be able to provide them with the support that they have given me and more.
My WHY is let them feel what unconditional love and acceptance really is.
My WHY is to show them a world that is here for them to enjoy.
My WHY is to show them that you can have YOUR DREAMS and still have your FAMILY.
My WHY is to ALWAYS show them that by just being YOU, that it is enough.
My WHY is to show them that we are each the CREATOR’S of our own destiny. That we are NOT victim’s to chance or fate, but that have FREE WILL and free will is the most powerful force when blended with self-love.
It will literally give you wings of courage to stand the storm of life and not just FLY above the clouds like and eagle, but to fly all the way into the heaven’s and find the peace, strength courage and guidance of God.
Yes, this is my WHY.
As any other mother on this planet would say.
My babies are my world, my delight and my WHY.
That is why I REFUSE to settle for AVERAGE & ORDINARY.
That is why I REFUSE to not listen to the call of my soul.
That is why I REFUSE to have my life dictated to me by the way’s of this world.
That is why I REFUSE to believe anything other than I was meant to live a F*ck YES! Life.
Just like my HOME TEAM was.
Just like YOU are too.
What is your WHY?
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