Is there “Life” in Your Years? Or Are You Just Shifting Paperwork?

Keeping it all together can be effing difficult,
can it not?
 
2020 has started with a BIG BANG,
and not the kind that equates to eye’s rolling in the back of your head as you gasp for air and claw at sheets while calling out OMG! in a state of orgasm or ecstasy.
 
The last ten days had been a roller coaster ride of emotions, events, must do’s, drama, hustle and a packed schedule plus a 23 hour road trip home from Tahoe to Dallas.
 
But I would not change it for the world.
And from the looks of my calander I would say that things are not going to chill out any time in the near future either.
 
Now I am a person who thrives in hustle and bustle.
I also thrive in calm and peace, with limited movement.
And I have learned that in order for me to be living at my maximum potential that I do best with a 70/30 split on these two.
 
Life has not always been like this though,
a little over a decade ago, maybe 13 or 14 years back,
(and thank you Facebook for your memories that you share)
I had more of the nothing happening then the hustle and bustle of todays busy schedule and family. What I also had more of was toxic thinking,
limited acting on goals and desires,
a feeling of lostness and emptiness,
a not knowing of self,
and limited “happy” moments.
 
Today, as I have been up since 5-AM and going strong,
I have been pondering this 70/30 balance of my current life and what it has to offer my desired dreams and lifestyle. What would I change? What do I crave more or less of?
Where am I not showing up the way that I want? Where am I allowing myself to be limited?
 
I was reminded by a quote I posted 9 years ago by Abraham Lincoln, ” And in the end, it’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your years.”
 
About the importance of remembering to LIVE.
 
It’s not even about the hustle and bustle as I call it,
because we can get caught up in this hustle and bustle and busy work and “think” that it is living when in fact we are just shifting papers on the desk of life and getting no where in a hurry.
 
Living is not about business.
Living is about breathing in the moments.
Feeling fulfilled, connected, happy, sad, orgasmic, empty, creative, adventurous.
 
Living is about FEELING life move through you.
And when we are just shifting papers on our desk of life,
we are not living.
Sure we may have a clean home and our bills paid.
We may have three masters degrees and all the fancy electronic devices known to man.
But can you say you feel fullfilled?
 
Most people cannot.
Most people feel lost and without life purpose.
Searching for the elusive thing called happiness.
And this is because they are not focusing on putting life into their years.
They are filling years with busy work.
 
So what can you do to not expereince this empty hustle and bustle but instead put life into your years?
 
You can start with these basic focal points:
🔥Get Clarity Into Who You Want To Be In Life-
Who do I want to become as a person, and what do I really want right now in my personal and professional life?
What areas of my lacking in and why?
Where do I feel certainty at in my life right now?
🔥Get Real About Your Energy Levels-
Do I have the physical stamina and vibrancy to accomplish my goals and feel energized about life every day?
What are major factors contributing to the way I feel?
🔥Check In On Your Personal Courage –
Where am I stepping up and leaning in on my edge right now in life? Wheree am I backing down?
🔥Get Real About What Your Productivity Really Is-
Where am I getting sucked into distraction?
Where am I holding my focus and crushing it with my dreams, desires and goals?
How can I get better?
🔥What Does Your Impact/Influence Say About Your Life-
Do I have the level of influence/respect/intimacy that I need and want to accomplish my goals and dreams with my family, lover, friends, business co-workers/partners or anyone that I need for support to make my dreams/goals happen?
What areas of my life am I lacking influence/impact/respect/intimacy in that I need to accomplish my desired life?
 
I don’t know about you,
but I want to CRUSH 2020.
I want to totally 💃💃💃 ROCK OUT the year!!!
 
And in order to do that I know that my CERTAINTY and CLARITY in myself and my desired outcome needs to be formulated.
 
That means that in reality,
there is no effing time for the busy work of shifting papers on my life desk.
There is ONLY time to focus on LIVING, EXPANDING and ENJOYING.
 
And the successful one’s know this.
We get it.
You may wonder how we do it?
How do we balance and harmonize family, business, spiritual, health, travel, romance and all the other little shiz,
it’s simple….
 
We focus on putting life into our years instead of getting caught up on the dust in the corners of the desk.
 
We focus on being present, active and taking NO EXCUSES.
Especially from ourselves.
 
We know what we want.
And we don’t just give it lip service.
We step the F-ck IN on our desires and MAKE THEM HAPPEN.
 
I want your 2020 to be effing AMAZING too.
 
🎉🎉Are you ready to make it a year full of living?🎉🎉
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Are you ready for a Year Of YOU?
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Let Your Metamorphosis Happen.

Are you scared of the permancy?
I know that I sure am in area’s of my life.
Let’s look at this topic of permancy.
You may be most familiar with it in the area’s of death and marriage.
 
Both seem so certain not to change.
One we enter into with the hope that it is a guarantee,
a commitment.
The other we fear happening because we “know” it is a guarantee.
 
And both feel like an ending point to most.
But many also feel like both or at least one is also a gateway to something new.
 
In truth,
both are gateways to something new.
A new existance.
Something that we cannot understand,
that we are uncertain about.
 
Both require faith.
Both require us to let go of our ego’s and to lean into the unknown.
 
And another reality is that we have permancy happening all around us,
all the time.
 
We also have this thing called death all around us, all the time.
 
We have many little deaths occure throughout our life times,
and they are requirements in order for us to expand and grow.
In order for us to become authentically US,
and stand in our power,
we MUST expereince lot’s of little deaths throughout our lifetime.
 
Your power is birthed in the running toward these deaths and the acceptance of them.
 
Instead of fearing the transition points of our life,
open yourself to them.
Allow yourself to get caught up in the current of them and enjoy the process of them.
Though some may be painful,
realize that the pain and the suffering that you are expereincing is not of the soul or even the heart.
It is of the ego and the constraights based in a concept of fear and control that is causing you the pain and suffering.
 
The SOUL knows your path.
The SOUL knows your truth.
The SOUL has no doubt.
The SOUL is not in pain.
 
But when we expereince pain and suffering,
when we fear the unknown,
when we fear the transition points and get caught up on the idea of permancy and it being some end point,
we are buying into the mirages of our ego.
 
This life you are living is far more than blood pumping through your veins,
or your lungs taking in oxygene,
or the thoughts that you say your brain or mind create.
It is far more than these limbs that you use,
or this body that you expereince.
This life,
is God moving through you.
And the permancy of this life is just that.
 
MOVEMENT.
CHANGE.
BIRTH.
BIRTH.
and more BIRTHING.
 
This process is of you brithing yourself,
you experiencing YOU,
experiencing your divine being at multiple levels of awakening.
And with each awakening you must let go of the old paradigm’s of self and understanding and you must allow for what you once percieved as YOU,
to become a carcass to be disposed of.
 
What you perceive as YOU,
is not really YOU.
 
YOU ARE MORE.
 
So much more.
And when you lean into this awareness of how bountiful and big you really are,
the fear of death is no more.
 
Instead you see it for it’s truth.
It is a birthing of your SOUL.
 
We expereince death in our relationships,
in our ways of being, relating, thinking, judging.
We expereince death of our goals, dreams, desires and beliefs.
We expereince death in actual physical states with loved ones and self.
 
And often we get caught up on these deaths.
We linger in the morning of them.
We weap and agonize ourselves about what has been lost.
We get trapped in our remorse,
in not speaking what we had wanted,
in not getting closure like we wanted.
We torment ourselves with death and its permancy of things not being the same any more.
 
We desiree to control what is not for us to control,
but instead for us to breathe into and feel life in.
This corridor of death,
is just that,
a transtioning space.
A door.
A gate.
 
Each transition point brings with it an exposure to newness,
to deeper understanding and expansion.
 
If we choose to view death as though it is birth,
the sadness is limited and potentially no more.
Not saying that one will not expereince morning,
as anytime we go through transition,
we mourn.
Mourning is natural and healthy.
But know that if you find yourself getting caught in the mourning,
that this is not of SOUL.
It is your ego at work.
Holding you in an old paradigm,
an old frequency,
and not allowing you to metamorphosis.
 
This is where the work then lyes.
To go deep into self and discover where you can unhinge your cages of the old and set yourself free.
 
You cannot avoid death.
You cannot avoid all the mini deaths within this human expereince that you will have,
they are hear to set you free and bring you closer to your soul aligned path.
 
But what you can do,
is stop allowing yourelf to just fade through this life.
You can realize that life is a choice.
Just because you are breathing,
with blood pumping through your veins and thoughts bouncing through your mind,
DOES NOT MEAN YOU ARE LIVING.
 
Living is a choice and with that living comes the movement and gateways of death.
 
And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Are you ready for a Year Of YOU?
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Your F-ck Yes Life Depends on Your Flexibility and Willingness to Lean Into Your Edge.

I am going to be a guest on The Union – Real Talk About Personal Growth next week (January 14th). It’s been two years since my last appearance on the show and so much has changed in the course of that time.
 
This morning I finally got a moment to sit down and review some of the questions that was posted for us guests to reflect on.
 
I found myself in so much gratitude for the inquiry that was being offered as it allowed me to dig into this moment in time and where I am at, what I am currently being challeneged with.
 
The question that touched me at a deeper level than others asked was,
 
“What edge are you leaning into?”
 
I ask this question of my inner circle peep’s often, but sometimes admittedly, I forget to stop and inquire with myself on this topic.
 
Leaning into our edge is where we grow.
It’s where we expand ourselves.
It’s where we meet our soul.
And feel our heart.
 
Leaning into our edge in any area of our lives is what we all hunger for,
and typically feel this call to do just this around the turn of the new year.
 
It’s why we make the proclomations and affirmations that we do.
 
We set our intent with the DESIRE to lean into our edge and expand ourselves because we understand that without the leaning into our edge,
we can never have the life that calls to us.
 
But that edge is scary as F-ck!
Is it not?
 
It sounds so easy often to make changes,
we have this burning desire,
we have expereinced the consequences of where our current actions have gotten us and how it makes us feel,
the life path that we are currently on based on our ideas, views, beliefs and actions of yesterday,
and often we are not happy with where we are at or who we are in this moment.
 
We know that we are so much more.
And that this life of ours has so much more to give us.
 
So we hunger for change.
We desire personal development.
We crave healing.
 
And at our core,
at our core we get that the US of today cannot remain if we are to have the US of tomorrow that we want so badly for.
 
And so we lean.
Scared out of our minds,
our hearts race,
our tummies churn with anxiety.
We cautiously or hastely step forward hoping that we survive the ledge that we are on.
 
We fear falling.
We fear loosing.
We fear getting it wrong.
We fear not being accepted in our new skin.
We fear so much and it feels like we could die.
 
Many people in this leaning in back down from the ledge.
They slow their roll and get off the raggedy edge that shakes their internal cage of normalcy.
 
They step back into comfort.
Supported by excuses and good reasons as to why it’s just not time yet to make these changes.
 
Others, step a forward and pray that they survive.
Thinking to themselves that they can do it,
but doubting every step and looking at the potential risks with a passionate focus,
causing themselves to focus on the pain of change and development instead of bringing their attention to the beauty of the birth of themselves.
The raggedy edge shakes them,
and spins them until they are dizzy and exhausted.
Trying to hold onto the wheel of life they try to maintain course and control the outcome,
and then one day say,
“It’s not working!”
and lean back into the comfort of what they have always known.
 
And then there are others,
these others are CERTAIN of their SOUL guidance.
They are confident that the path is perfect and always leading them to a greater version of themselves.
Teaching them about the ebb and flow of life and how constriction leads to expansion.
They feel into all levels of emotion that rise from their own awakening into themselves and even though they may need to pause on the path to catch their breath,
they NEVER stop or turn back.
 
Pushing forward,
leaning further.
 
Allowing life to teach them the power of flexibility.
 
This is what today I came up with while jotting down my answers to the inquiries asked of me for next weeks show.
 
My realization is that this last decade,
and especially the last two or three years has shown me with great intensity the imporatnce of flexibility.
Of not getting caught up on anything and becoming ridgit to how I wish for anything to manifest or develop,
but instead to just breathe in the beauty of the transformation with certainty that it is moving me to my highest and best.
 
I bring this inquiry to you today as well.
And I ask you to really sit with the question,
 
“What edge are you leaning into?”
 
And if you have no edge,
then ask why no edge?
What am I fearing from leaning in?
And how is this serving me to be the person that I know that I can be and to have the life that I want so badly for?
 
Your power will be birthed from your flexibility in your mind and thoughts, your heart and emotions, your physical body and how you choose to move in it.
 
Lean with faith.
God/Universe has your back.
Trust in that calling you feel.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Are you ready for a Year Of YOU?
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STOP EFFING AROUND WITH THAT THING THAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK! – LET GO NOW.

I know how much you want it.
That THING…
 
That THING that you crave at your core.
You can taste having it, right.
You body tenses from the idea of getting it.
Excitement.
Nervousness.
The WHAT IF?
 
What if I get it,
what if I achieve it?
 
But even more so surging through your core,
through your veins is the WHAT IF of NOT having it.
 
And this my love is causing you the resistance that you feel.
The holding back of all that is yours for the having.
 
Your intense interest in having it is actually leaning mores o into the NOT HAVING IT.
 
Have you been wondering WHY?
 
Why is it not showing up?
Why is it that no matter how much focus you apply,
no matter how much attention you give it,
alignment work that you do,
journalling, ‘meditating,
fantasizing,
and “trying” to make yourself believe that it is coming,
BUT STILL…
 
It does not show up.
 
Have you been wondering WHY?
 
And no matter how hard you work at getting it,
how much you “feel” in the flow,
its just not there.
It’s just not happening.
 
And that love is SCARY as shiz, right?
 
I mean this is something BIG AF.
This is something you feel passionate about.
That you can FEEL at your CORE.
And you see others doing it.
Having it.
And living it.
 
But for some reason it just is not happening for you.
And you cannot figure out what the THING is that you need to do to get it.
 
So what is the THING love?
 
Okay, come here…
lean in love,
let me share a secret with you.
It is the answer that you have been looking for,
it is the answer that you already know,
unfortunately.
And you most likely are resisting it,
because you don’t know how to do it.
 
It’s YOU LETTING GO.
 
Your interest and focus on gain this THING is what is keeping it away from you love.
 
You are so caught up on the MUST HAVE,
that the energy that you are putting out is NOT HAVING.
And because you are feeling the void of not having it,
you are getting NOT HAVING IT.
 
This is your FEAR.
Right?
 
You fear what life is going to be like if you don’t get your dreams and goals,
if you don’t succeed at your dreams.
You fear being told that you were wrong,
silly, stupid, naive even,
for “think” that you could do it, have it, achieve it.
 
Yes THIS IS THE THING that is holding you back love.
 
It is your intense focus on the NOT HAVING.
 
And your fear of not getting it.
 
You have GOT TO LET THIS SHIZ GO NOW!
 
Number one success rule to having your dreams come true:
 
FEEL THEM WITH YOU NOW.
 
You have got to be in the vibration ALREADY,
in order to have the relationship of your dreams,
the money that you want,
the lifestyle that you desire, ‘the health and well being,
the JOY….
 
Yes,
in order to have anything that you want you have to be in the feeling of it already.
 
In simple terms,
you have got to NOT NEED IT.
 
Vibrationally,
you can not be in NEED.
 
NEED will keep you in resistance to having it.
 
That is why it is so easy to watch things that are unimportant to you JUST SHOW UP in ease and with speed.
 
Have you noticed that?
 
How quickly do the things that you just lightly want,
or toss around with no real attachment,
just show up?
 
You are manifesting them into existence all the time.
But these things show up because you are not in NEED of them.
 
You just felt them,
was in alignment to them,
and LET GO.
 
And THIS IS THE THING….
That YOU MUST DO….
To have the THING (s) that you WANT.
 
Start Today.
Let Go.
Play.
Laugh.
Enjoy Your Now.
DREAM.
 
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Just Another Day in Paradise… Or Is It? Not for all OBVIOUSLY. ( Is This YOU?)

Just another day in paradise.
Just another day living,
breathing.
Nothing happening here.
Or is there?
 
I think there is luv.
I think there is so much happening here.
 
And what is happening here is something that I know you long for.
I know that if you knew how to achieve it,
how to have more of it,
how to keep it,
YOU WOULD.
 
or would you luv?
 
Because maybe you would not.
Maybe you would say,
“yeah, yeah… that’s nice for her, but…..”
 
Maybe you just don’t think you can have it.
Maybe you believe that it is something you only capture small moments of in this life.
Maybe you think it requires ton’s of money.
Or sex.
or something else outside of yourself.
 
I don’t know.
But I wonder if I told you the God’s honest truth about it,
and I shared the secrets to obtain it,
would you go after it?
 
Or would you shrug your shoulders,
frown and carry on as is?
 
Here I am in paradise.
Here I am with an amazing man.
This resort we are staying is so beautiful,
the people are sweet and personable,
I have nothing to complain about except that I would like to say a few days longer than planned originally.
But that is always the case when you are enjoying a new destination and escaping all that troubles you, right?
 
Laughing and playing is easier here.
Lounging and letting go is simpler.
Smiling and being care free comes more naturally.
Connecting and just being present just is.
And is beautiful.
 
Or at least it should be.
But so many people I watch from a far,
and they frown,
they walk slumped and humped over,
they look bored,
stressed,
anxiety ridden still.
or even just dead.
They are not laughing and enjoying.
They are not connecting and letting go.
They do not look happy.
 
How can this be?
 
It just is because these folks who refuse to let the joy in here,
here in paradise,
have no idea how to open up to joy in any way.
They are so accustom to pain and suffering that even when attempting to enjoy life they still manage to not.
 
And then there is the crowd who is drinking themselves into laughter and letting go.
The one’s who are still running from their pain even here.
Who cannot let go of the stress,
they live in their minds,
in their fear,
and they drink to mask their worry.
They bake themselves mentally and physically,
they eat all the food they can,
to make sure they get their full dollars worth.
In scarcity they live and remain.
Even here in paradise.
 
This luv is not healthy.
This is not THRIVING.
This is far from living at all.
And it does not encompass joy.
 
I share with you this because today,
today my lover asked me while sitting on the beach watching the waves roll in,
he asked me if there was anything that I wanted to change in my life?
 
He said, ” I know you have goals on your income and stress level, your time and what you want to create, but outside of that do you want to change anything?”
 
My answer:
 
NO!
 
I love my life just as it is.
I love my life even if my goals are not met with my business, finances, time or physical body.
I am HAPPY just as I am and if I remain in these very shoes the next decade I am happy.
 
I want for so much and I am building with great intent and focus just for those dreams and desires.
Each day I feel my life moving the direction that I want.
Steady and strong.
I do not fear tomorrow.
I appreciate yesterday.
I adore today.
 
And no matter what,
TODAY I AM HAPPY.
 
Today my heart is full of joy.
Today my heart is in gratitude.
The new people that walk into my life,
the experiences,
the love,
the connection.
The opportunity.
Each and every day is a new day.
It is a new opportunity to have it all.
and all of it is not somewhere out there,
out there where I don’t have it…
 
No.
It is not out there at all.
It is RIGHT HERE.
In my mind,
in my heart,
it is soul lead.
And it is felt.
 
My eye’s radiate with this joy.
My face beams with it as well.
My calmness,
my flow.
It is all because,
I have committed to it.
But luv,
the answer to having it is not some riddle or maze through all of time and space,
it is not found buy the purchase of something great,
or by the search even of the very thing that it is.
 
No luv,
to have this JOY.
To have this HAPPINESS.
 
All you ever need to is commit.
It is here.
Here within you right now.
You must learn to feel it.
You must learn to love yourself.
To trust in this life,
in God and your SOUL.
 
Here you will discover all that you wish.
But you must commit.
 
COMMIT TO YOU.
To JOY.
 
Will you commit?
Let’s Go.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Ask me about 1:1 coaching to achieve you happiness and goals today.
Joy is waiting for YOU.
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Stop Loosing Yourself In The Goodbye Beautiful.

Doesn’t F-cking Matter!
People say goodbye all the time, in so many ways.
People turn away from you,
some you feel,
some you don’t notice.

But at the end of the day,
It doesn’t f-cking matter either way.

They came into your life for a reason.
This you can be sure

How long someone hangs with you baby,
Well that is upto your spiritual contract with them.
What do I mean by that?

What kind of crazy new age concept is a spiritual contract anyway?

In this instance I am referring to the lessons you gain from the relationship. And EVERY relationship teaches us something.

Its important to realize that we are in relationship WITH EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in our lives too.
So get right with that RIGHT NOW gorgeous.

Those short meetups, hook ups, chatting and getting no where with people that pop through your life and wonder WTF was that about?
Was there to present some lesson or deeper understanding into your life,
Into who you are,
And how you are VIBING.

And when they leave.
You can say it doesn’t matter anyway.
And it doesn’t!

As long as you got from them what you were meant to.

Were you present enough in that relationship,
No matter how short lived it was or not,
No matter the drama,
The trauma,
The heartbreak.

Did you get your lesson beautiful?
Did you?

Cuz if you chose to get caught up in the ego of what happened,
and you missed the lesson,
Then baby,
You are going to have to rinse and repeat.

And that’s why you run into the same people over and over again just with a different face,
Different story.

And when you get caught up in the ego of the loss,
You loose something much more significant and valuable then that relationship.
You loose a piece of you.
When you sit a stare at the people who are unliking or unfollowing you on social media,
When you pay more attention to who is not paying attention to you,
When you wait for the lack of response from that person you went out on a date with,
Or hooked up with,
When you get caught up in the certainly that so and so will apologize or come back,
When you wait….

You loose yourself.
And at the end of your days beautiful,
It doesn’t f-cking matter anyway.

Their goodbye.
Thier shut down.
Thier blindness.
Thier disconnect.

None of it matters.
And you deserve so much better.
But here is the thing,
YOU have to allow yourself to have better.
YOU have to stop making yourself available for that shiz.
YOU have to stop resisting your beauty,
Your greatness,
Your value.
And you have to get THAT lesson.

Because baby,
The best is yet to come.

It is!
You just have to change what your looking for.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”

Let’s get you to your desired F-ck YES! NOW.
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The Importance of Your Happy Place & Your #1 Friendship

I want you to close your eye’s and imagine yourself not wanting for anything.

Imagine yourself not stressing or worrying about anything that you may currently be focused on in your life.

Can you do that?

Many people have a tough time with this simple exercise.
Many people when I ask them to calm their fears and their thoughts around what they do not have look at me as though I have three heads and state,

” I can’t do that, it must be nice though for those who can.”

Is this what you are feeling at my request as well beautiful?
Or are you among the not so average and ordinary who understand and practice the calming of your hyperactive mind and fears?

If you are like the first option then this message is certainly for you. If you are the latter well this message is still for you and it will serve you well to get some extra reinforcement and confidence in your power.

Earlier today my thirteen year old son Levi came to me sharing his desire to learn meditation as he believes after much research and reading that it is the key to him being able to manifest the things that he wants quicker then what he has been doing and that it will also open him up to divine insight. He told me that it scares him to death to think about doing it because he does not know what he is capable of or what messages from soul will come through to him but he is committed to taking on this practice and exploring it.

How beautiful is that authentic truth share he offered to me today as well as the courage and commitment that he is showing to manifest his desires?

And he is thirteen!
I share this because I want you to know that his simplistic understanding and belief is all any of us ever need.
He is more then accurate in what he is believing around meditation and if he chooses as he states to apply himself with focus to the practice then he will reap rewards that he is not even aware of.

People ask me all the time what I do in a coaching session with someone? What they could expect for results in working with me.

The truth is the results depend on the person not on me.
My role in the scenario is to guide and to share what I KNOW works with application and commitment. How coachable someone is has nothing to with me.

One of the main things that I work with people on is the above. Helping them to realize how powerful their thoughts are and how those thoughts translate to feelings and actions.

You see, often what we do out of comfort in habit and false belief is the VERY THING that HOLDS US BACK from our success in having the life that we want.

If you feel unsettled around getting out of your comfort zone.
If you feel nervous about committing to something that is calling to you at a SOUL or CORE level.
If you get excited but then quickly move yourself into doubt about your abilities, worth, etc to make it happen.
If you find yourself with a million and one great reasons (a.k.a. excuses) as to why you cannot do it at this time.

Then beautiful it is time for you to GET REAL with yourself!
You are scared of your own success.

You are fearing your power.
You are fearing how amazing you really are.
You are terrified at what you can create.

And somewhere inside of you,
YOU KNOW that you can have it all.

But the fear of loosing it,
the fear of stepping up to the plate and owning that life that you want is trapping you.
And you are settling for comfort.
Settling for excuses and reasons.

And you because you are ALLOWING this way of living and being you will continue to have what you have.

It all starts with you finding your happy place.
It all starts with you being able to laugh at yourself and show yourself some compassion.
It all starts with you being able to make friends with yourself.
To find the stillness within and let it wrap its peace and flow around you.

Without this…
STRUGGLE will prevail.

So what do you say beautiful?
Are you ready to claim your life?
Your happiness.
Your joy.
Your pleasure.
Your DREAMS!

I sure AF hope so.

But its starts with YOU GETTING OUT OF THE COMFORT ZONE and tapping into your mystery.

Let Go and Let Flow Baby!

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

TRAUMA GREW MY ROSE GARDEN AND GRATITUDE WATERS IT.

TRAUMA GREW MY ROSE GARDEN AND GRATITUDE WATERS IT.

Today is a really interesting day for me.
It marks my one year of one of the most traumatic events I have had happen in a relationship so far. It also marks my one year of a massive transformation period, new growth and opportunity blended with trauma and needed healing.

Today I sit here at Starbucks after dropping my youngest son off to his father ( the man I fell out of relationship a year ago today).
It was brutal to drop him off today.
My heart actually still hurts from this mornings exchange.

Our son age four, ran to the back seat of my car as we pulled into daddy’s driveway and he screamed, “I don’t want to go to daddy’s house.” he got so frustrated, clung to the rear seat with all the force his little body could muster and screamed, “No Mommy.”

I grabbed him up, hugged him. Told him that I loved him and that I would see him later today and then he would be back at mommy’s house on Wednesday. He clung to my neck and fought profusely to hold on to me as his father took him out of my arms.

I never wanted any of this for my baby.
I don’t believe that any of us parents ever want this sort of emotional pain on our children. I don’t believe that my ex desires this trauma to come up on our son either.
And yet it still falls here.

Today, I find myself sitting here upset at my son’s pain.
Wishing I could do more for him.
Wishing that us adults who have brought this on him could have communicated better about what we wanted from each other and how we wanted out of our relationship before it came to violence as it did and a nasty, terrorizing breakup that will last a life time for our children emotionally not to mention the physical repercussions that are still being dealt with for myself.

I sit here still wondering how I could not have realized more so as to where my ex was at.
Wondering why he had to act out in violence and rage the way he did one year ago today.
Why it was so important for him to push me and all the children away with such extreme measures.
Why could he just not simply say that he wanted out and we move onto separate paths in peace and harmony, working together for the greatest good of all the children and each other.

I knew he was unhappy in our relationship.
I knew he wanted out.
He did not even desire to want to spend 30 minutes a week with me alone even though this had become a consistent request and desire of mine. He could not stomach to sit by me and watch TV, he wanted nothing to do with cuddling or sex that was two sided, only wanted to get off and be done. Would roll away in disgust after pushing me away like trash after he had reached climax.
He became rageful with friends and emotionally and physically aggressive toward his step-children. He was hateful and I told myself that he was stressed about work, money, health, anything but the truth was what I proclaimed.

The signs were there.
They were in front of my blind eyes and desire to make it all work for us.
The more committed I became to our relationship and requested time and connection,
the more he pushed away in anger.

And now,
a year later I see the truth.
I see his pattern that he had to enforce.
I see the pain that he must be in.
And I am grateful that even though that was a brutal time and experience,
even though there is still much healing that needs done for self and children.

I am grateful that I never lost who I was,
I never lost love,
I never lost my family or friends,
and I can do the healing and I understand at a deep level the power of emotions,
the importance of knowing self and NOT hiding from myself and feelings.
I am grateful that I was given a powerful opportunity last year to stand up and be 100% me.
The last year has offered me so many blessings that would have never come about had he not caved to his patterns and needs to push love away, to push so hard that he was the one to be abandoned in the experience by everyone. To repeat the trauma from his youth. And to create an experience that supported his belief that the feminine always leaves him.

I see now how he had to push that hard.
I am too stubborn to leave when I still love.
I believed it could be fixed,
I believed that he was not lying when he said that he loved me more than anyone else.
I strangely believed in us and in him.

But today,
today I stand in gratitude for the 7 years of learning,
of experience and growth,
for the birth of my two youngest angels that i would not trade for anything.

Today I stand here in gratitude for his push.
Busted up body and everything,
it was worth it.
Because I found my true strength.
I found my heart.
My SOUL.
And tapped into allowing myself, to be me without needing another.
There is great beauty in the darkest of clouds if you allow yourself to see it and you allow time to step you back far enough to see the whole sky and it’s beauty.

Life is one BIG TRUST EXERCISE.
And today,
I am reminded of the trust and faith that I had to muster up at one of my lowest, scariest points in life so far.
Today, I choose to focus on that reminder.
To focus on the gratitude and the opportunities that have come from this event, like any event in our lives.
Today I choose to look at my blessed life.
The steady massive love that I experience from family, friends and the wonderful man I have in my life currently.
The AMAZING tribe that I have developed and all the growth that I am seeing in my business and life.
The wealth of connection, joy and the laughter that resides in my home daily that was not there a year ago or before.
My creativity at an all time high.
The beauty and bounty that is in each step on this journey.

Today I want to say THANK YOU to the man that tossed me to the side last year, who tried to destroy me and all that we had built together.
From that rubble grew a rose garden.

MY ROSE GARDEN.

Thank you for my pain.
Thank you for my suffering.
Thank you for the trauma.
Thank you for the goodbye.
I am so effing happy with my life TODAY!

My question to you that I share this with today is,
what are you doing with your trauma, drama and pain? Does it hold you back or build you up?

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

It’s time that you start to say YES to the most important person in the room beautiful. It’s time that you accept your worth, and step onto this path that your SOUL is calling you too.

I know how hard the steps may appear.
I know that you are fearful, that you doubt if you have what it takes to make this shiz happen for you or not.

But I promise you that YOU can do it.
You can have it.The first step though is to recognize that you must let go and have faith in your process of getting there.

Listen to your SOUL and follow it’s lead.

Imagine having a coach who has been on a similar path guide you, help you discover the deeper meanings of what soul is wanting you to know.

What would it feel like to have that sort of support and guidance?

You can have this.
Message me for deet’s on 1:1 Private mentoring and coaching today.

This Is What Men Have Taught Me About Money, Abundance, Goals and Happiness.

This Is What Men Have Taught Me About Money, Abundance, Goals and Happiness.

Years ago, I was married.
I was married at age 18.
I had five children.
Struggled, lost homes, was burred under debt, my health suffered, my marriage suffered, my sex was nothing but duty. I hated my life! I was focused on the NOT having and I was buying into the concept of this is just how it was. This was normal and I had to just suck it up.

My husband then was in financial services, he worked for Primerica which was part of Travelers Group, originally Art Williams created the company back in the 1970’s and it was known as A.L. Williams Life Insurance Group. It was about term insurance and investments.

I met my husband in the company as I was working on my licenses to become a representative to sell for them and was interested in the structure of the system.

Well, fast forward past all that and the wedding and the child birth stuff and you found us BROKE. Chasing our dreams of becoming financially free. Our goal back then was to become Vice Presidents of the company and make a six figure income. Get the ring to show how great we were and the rewards of trips and such.

And so we listened to ALL the motivational stuff.
We went to the seminars.
We made the cold calls and followed the sales scripts.
We worked, worked , worked.
And occasionally made some sales.
Some would charge back, which put us in debt with the company and had to be taken out of future commissions.
some would stick.

For years we chased the DREAM.
For years we struggled.
We comforted ourselves with the concept that we were building a beautiful tale of overcoming the feats and obstacles but in the end succeeded.
We imagined walking on the stage and telling the story.
OUR STORY.

And we struggled.
Living on what averaged out to be $17,000 a year.
Raising children, scrimping buy.
Food Stamps, Evictions, State insurance, borrowing whatever we could from family to make ends meet and even sleeping on families couches when things got REALLY bad.

But we kept chasing that dream.

Until one day, I could not chase it anymore.
I was burned out. I hated my life.
I wanted it all to end.
And I spent the next two years of my life in the middle of deep dark depression, that still today I wonder how I made it through alive. I acted out, I drank too much alcohol. We fought like wild raging animals.

It was toxic.
It was unhealthy for everyone.
And it had to come to an end.

Fast forward.
I decided I was done.
I decided that I wanted a divorce.
I decided that we had too much water under our bridge.
And I chose to burn the bridge.

I decided that if it was up to me, it was going to be my freedom, my way, my flow, my self-discovery, my healing.

And so it was.

I had to let go of all the old ways though.
And I did, for the most part.
I dug in and started to do the inner work.
I decided that I was the most important person in the room.
In my life.
That if I wanted to be an AMAZING mom, I needed to feed my SOUL.

I reinvented myself.

So I started my practice,
it was nothing like it is today,
but it was my foundation grounds.
My learning grounds.
My healing grounds.
And with my practice came a desire to date and explore the masculine because I had never done that before.
I only had explored three men intimately up to this point and I knew I had a bunch of shame, guilt, self-image and fear wrapped around this area of life.

I was not overly caught up on dating.
It was just a desire that I had and if it came along,
then it came along.
I created some doorways for opportunities to happen and I did not really apply my focus there too much. I just knew what I wanted and let it be.
Something about dating and men felt easy to me.
Even with my fear.
I had a fascination, a curiosity that overcame the fear.
Men and dating felt playful to me.
It was a game,
new ground to explore.
An adventure.
My ONLY expectation was to enjoy it and learn.

And so I decided in that moment that I would NEVER chase men. There was no need. Because I wanted it to just be FUN.

And so it was.

As with men, I quickly discovered that money, abundance, goals and happiness were no different.

If I chased them.
They ran from me.

If I turned them into a fun game,
an adventure and let my curiosity run free,
then they flowed.

My advice to you today BABY is simple.

Stop chasing everything!

Wonder why it is running from you?
Well it’s not rocket science BABY.
It is running from you because you are chasing it.

I know that you have been told to chase your dreams.
I know that you have been told to make your goals happen.
I know that you have heard that there is no gain without the pain.

Yeah I understand.
I lived that way for so many years.
I still have those nasty lies pop up in my mind today and try and take me down.
Try and steal my joy.

But today I see them for the wolves they are.
And I know what to do to get back into my FLOW.

That is the power of doing the inner work.
That is the purpose of having a mentor.
That is why we who crave the f-ck yes lifestyle that is so much more than money,
its all about FREEDOM and HAPPINESS.

It’s about SOUL.

Yes we know the power of saying YES to ourselves and taking the ACTION to do the things that must be done.

Those things are internal 80% of the time.
Those things are the things that we AVOID.
We hide from.

But as long as you keep choosing to chase your dreams the old fashioned way, you will remain the predator to that, that you so desire and it will keep running from you.

Sure you can succeed this way.
You can keep chasing.
You can capture your dreams and goals and MAKE THEM HAPPEN.

But at what cost?

How much of YOU will be left?
And will you be truly happy, fulfilled and healthy?

There is an easier way BABY.
It’s called Ease and Flow.
It’s called SOUL Guidance.
But first you must learn to listen.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

It’s my specialty beautiful!
It’s my purpose work.
My calling and my passion.
When I chose all those years ago to step into who I was and step into my ease and flow,
I chose to live a life of service and help YOU find your ease and flow.

But to do that you have to want it.
You have to be ready to get ready to RECEIVE it.
And that mean creating doorways for it to come through and releasing you from the predatory chains of your current beliefs and habits.

You can keep doing what you are doing.
Or you can grab a consult with me and make a different choice.
You can reinvent YOURSELF.
Which is actually just unveiling YOURSELF.

Claim Your Life Today.

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You Must Change Up Your Vibe Tribe.

Am I vibing with you?

I sure hope I am.

Or maybe I hope I am not.


It really depends on where you are vibing at.And I say this, because we often do not pay attention to our vibe, let alone other people’s vibe.
But I can tell you this. VIBE is where it is at baby!
If you want to have that F-ck Yes Life, If you want to call in THE ONE, If you want to have blessings wash all over you, then you better be vibing in the same frequency as them. The things we desire the most are often high hanging fruit, and this high hanging fruit will not come down to us.

And if it does…..
Then it has lowered its VIBE.And you most likely won’t want it so much anymore.
This happens in relationship all the time.
We humans have the power to increase or decrease our vibe in no time flat.
It all stems from the thoughts we are thinking, the emotions we are feeling, and thus the actions we are taking.
High vibing people, you know the one’s…

You may even be one of the one’s.
And I hope that you are luv.But either way, you may want to know how to determine if someone is high vibe or low vibe.
RIGHT?


High Vibe peep’s are radiant,

they are turned on to life,

they are self-motivated,

they do not mask life or the experiences that life offers them.

They are not living in a victim mentality.

They are proactive.

They love forward movement,

They value alone time.

They know that more is always possible.

They see the interconnectedness of things.

They are grateful.

They are grounded.

They bounce out of negative thinking quickly.

They smile – A LOT!

They are easy to be around.

They have healthy, strong boundaries.

They don’t give a sh*t what you think of them.

They are abundant.

Blessings flow to them with ease.

They are not needy, but they do desire much.

They are in integrity with self.


High VIBE is where it is at baby!

Living a high VIBE life is what you were born to do.


It is where you will discover everything that you want the most.
And you can get there.This you can.
But you are not going to get there, if you are still trying to get your needs met by everyone else who is low vibing it.
You won’t get there if you are caught in worry, or anxiety and fear.
You won’t get there if you are giving to many f-cks about everyone else’s opinions and judgements.


You won’t get there if you insist on hanging with low vibing friends, family and lovers.
And this can cause some mighty BIG issues in life, the main one being that you MUST realize that many of the people you have in your life RIGHT NOW,
won’t follow you up in VIBE.


And you will loose these people in some fashion.

So that alone may stop you.

You may not want to loose this person, or that one.

You may say it’s not worth it.

You may think I am wrong and try and drag their sweet ass along.

And you can for a bit, although the dragging of dead weight will certainly drain you at some point,

and then you will either drop them, or surrender to creeping back down into lower vibe, where life was…..


well….


BLAH.

And difficult.

Where you were not happy.

And you may say that it is worth it.

As long as you can keep these peep’s in your life, then it is worth it to be low VIBE.
And that is fine.

That is your choice.

And you will make this choice many, many multiple times throughout your life.
Just know though, that if you want to have that F-ck Yes! Lifestyle, you want abundance, deep love, and happiness.

That you will have to make changes in whom you choose to hang around.
Because the saying is so true,

“You become like those you hang around.”


So if you look at your top five people in your life, how are they VIBING?


And if we look just at the income of these five…how abundant are they?

You want to know where you are headed in the next 12 months.You will be about 50-70% of the median of these five in total.
Is that satisfactory to you?Then great.
carry on.
If not.

Time to change your VIBE TRIBE.


We all have to level up our relationships as we grow, some come back around as they grow with us in vibe, some we revisit and feel the constriction in our bodies.

While others are lost forever.
And still others Climb beside us.


What does your VIBE TRIBE say about you?


As always, Stop Existing & Start Living

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