IT’S YOUR BITCHIN’ MOANING AND COMPLAINING.
Truth Time Baby!
I get that 2020 has been a rocky sorta year so far and it looks like the fun is not coming to a stop anytime soon.
I get that you have been just surviving up to this point,
that the news you are listening too has you scared shitless most days,
and questioning what is going on in our world.
Are these the end of days?
Is this how our world goes down?
How humanity comes to an end?
I get that you have been watching all the negative reports about COVID spikes,
about racial issues and wrong doings,
about possible wars,
and let’s not forget the horrors of child sex trafficing and Hollywood.
It’s all just a bunch of hopeless suffering that causes you upset and torment,
makes your heart crumble and makes you want to not believe that it is so.
And so it is that you are finding yourself in 2020 saying that it is a raging shit show of a year,
feeling like our economy is forever changed ( and it is),
and not knowing if you will make it through or if you will become one of the millions who find themselves drowning in the hysteria,
in the loss of a job, savings, house, car and relationship,
and maybe even health.
There is one thing though that can change all of this for you.
It’s something that no one can ever take away,
it’s something that you can always be in control of,
and it is the deciding factor if you are in SOUL ALIGNMENT or NOT.
And that is your ATTITUDE.
Your attitude dictates your emotional response patterns to outside events and to what you are thinking.
Most people react from an emotional level,
they live in a reactive state instead of a proactive state of living.
Most people never realize that they can choose their emotional response to situations,
Including how 2020 is manifesting for our world.
Choosing to focus on feeling good,
on living a life of thriving and love,
abundance and connection,
living your TRUTH is nothing more than a commitment to SELF and a TRUST in the universe/God to deliver it outside of what the world is moving through.
It is choosing to not fall prey to all the negativity.
Now, don’t get me wrong this is not saying to close your eyes and ignore the world topics that are at hand,
often we believe that positivity means to ignore pain, stress and issues and to just put our attention on the good or the desire for good,
but that is not realistic.
You can choose to have an attitude of love, beauty and good vibes and still be AWARE and even outspoken about issues and causes that tug at your heart and soul.
You can still spread knowledge,
be a crusader,
and see the changes that need to occur.
But you will find yourself coming at these things from a different space than those who are focused on complaining, bitching, moaning and fearing about life.
You will be able to stand strong in knowing that YOU…
you are the co-creator of your life expression,
that you get to choose your thoughts,
you get to choose what you apply your focus too,
you get to choose your reactions,
and your feelings.
And you will KNOW that by staying in SOUL ALIGNMENT that your life will be evidence that none of us were ever born to live a life of suffering.
Because you will be walking through this year,
seeing all of its horrors,
counting your blessings from a place of love and gratitude,
not from a place of fear.
You will be connecting to loved ones and strangers,
you will be exploring life as it was always intended in its newness of each day,
you will not be terrified to wake up and feel like you must hide from your life to survive,
but instead you will see the sun shining and breathe deep in the crisp morning air.
You will be making plans of travels and community,
looking at family events and business possibilities,
you will know that you are supported in your TRUST that God/Universe has your back and that by making your ALIGNMENT the most important thing,
that your life will be one of THRIVING in this time of chaos.
But the THRIVING only comes from the alignment to the soul.
And your state of mind and emotion tells you EXACTLY where you are at at any given moment in time.
If you are among the millions who are bitchin’, moaning and complaining,
who are pointing fingers and shaming,
judging and hating,
fearing their neighbours and relatives,
looking at anyone who comes within eyesight range as though they have a gun to your head,
then it’s time that you get real about where your alignment is actually at.
DO YOU FEEL THAT FEAR AND UNREST IN YOUR BEING?
That is a sign that your SOUL feels differently than your fear based ego mind.
That is a sign that you are calling to you all that you do not want for,
but what you fear instead.
That is sign that it’s time love to start TRUSTING in God,
trusting in the laws of the universe,
and in your deepest self wisdom.
It is a sign to stop the insanity and stop adding to the pot of chaos and suffering for 2020 and the future.
It is your bitchin, moaning and complaining that is keeping your desired life of abundance, joy, pleasure, connection and heath at bay.
And you love…
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN CHANGE IT.
Are you ready to take responsibility for your life and what your experiences are or are you content in the comforts of your suffering?
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“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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THERE IS A LIE WE BELIEVE THAT CHANGES ALL OF OUR UNDERSTANDING….
With all the worlds chaos and turbulence,
I am witnessing a massive amount of said “lightworkers,” christians, believers of faith and LOA, genuianly “good” souls fall prey to the misconception around a lie that they have bought full heartedly into,
and that lie is AWARENESS = ALWAYS BEING POSITIVE
It is funny how we humans are so eager to jump down one another’s throats in ego and pain,
we point fingers of blame and cuddle up in our victimhood statues of reasoning,
quick to accuse others of being blind, low vibe or even spiritually bypassing issues and feelings,
but then in the same turn of spewing out all these negative charges,
show frustration and even fear toward truth that does hurt.
Toward truth and awareness that does not fit into what we call “spiritual” or “high vibe.”
We shun the concept of awareness that is not always uplifting.
As if seeing the true pain, sorrow, or darkness that does mask each of us in it’s own way and the world in general can just be ignored fully and by ignoring and ONLY focusing in on the good that we will somehow make the evils go away.
It is sort of like the child who is afraid of monsters in the closet so they hide their head under the blankets of their bed and tell themselves as long as I think happy thoughts then there will be no monsters,
but in reality the monsters they are hiding from are their abusive parents fighting in the hallway.
We will never make the evils of this world go away.
That is the truth.
What we perceive as evil is here for a reason,
it is upon this planet to create contrast.
Without contrast in our world we can never know what we desire or want for,
we would not evolve and expand.
It is only through contrast that we fully experience living.
But here is the conundrum for humanity,
how are we to manifest good if we witness the bad and get caught in it?
The key is getting caught in it or not.
There is this concept that feeling sad, angry, upset or any emotion that is not even keel is not good, is not natural.
It is encouraged in many belief structures and in how we raise our children to hold in the pain and anger and not let it out unless we want to be perceived as weak.
This is a falsity and one of the most unhealthy programs that we teach.
WIth this we have enwrapped ourselves in the idea that AWARENESS ….
is only and always to be UPLIFTING.
And when we share awareness that is not uplifting that we are in turn trying to fear monger.
Now don’t get me wrong, what we are all witnessing in our world of current and for many generations is just that from our leaders and media,
we are for sure being programmed by our trust in them and through television programming systems,
just as planned by those that control.
I am not speaking of the agendas of those who crave more power and are corrupt to the core,
I am speaking about the rest of society waking up to the truths that these dark souls are hiding in plain sight from us.
I am speaking about the fact that in order for you to heal anything or make powerful uplifting changes that you must….
First, become AWARE of the issue. And this may not be uplifting to awaken to the reality of a nightmare.
And second, see what the contrast that this nightmare is offering to your level of desire.
From here we can make significant change.
And yes focusing in on it after this point,
getting caught in all its entrappings of fear and darkness will not change it to what you desire for instead but, rather help it to gain power through the momentum of your fear around any such troublesome topic.
Your awareness transformed to true sight of what the opportunity that is actually being offered,
which is a desire for something better,
for love and peace,
equality and safety,
can then be fully embraced.
It is here in this AWARENESS which is uplifting when we empower ourselves with our true heart,
that what we focus on grows.
Here we can now CONSCIOUSLY move ourselves from witnessing the nightmare to putting our focus on what is good in our world.
When we consciously choose to move our focus and experience onto good we create more good.
And we do not get caught in the nightmare although we are aware of it existing.
This is not spiritual bypassing or ignoring of any sort,
it is being proactive with our life expression, thoughts and feelings.
It is not just hiding our heads under the covers and “trying” to think good thoughts,
but in turn moving ourselves authentically into good feeling experiences which means to focus on the sun coming up each day, the people in our lives who love us, our dog excited we are playing fetch, our child hugging us, our lover desiring us, the food in our fridge, that our car works, our heart is beating, the birds are chirping, Ozarks has a season 4….lol
Whatever makes you genuinely feel good.
That is the ticket.
And to hold this good feeling though for just one minute each day without doubt.
Did you catch that?
Doubt destroys the feeling.
Doubt pulls us back to the fear and the hiding,
and from there we fall into our pain bodies and fight amongst ourselves which in turn keeps the fires of our world burning ever so more greatly.
To create the world and the life that we desire most for,
we must become AWARE and we MUST learn to find the beauty and empowerment in our own darkness,
When we can be grateful for our darkness we will then be able to see its truth in its offering to us and make conscious choices to breathe into life the world we crave most for.
Embrace the contrast.
And AS Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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Yesterday I learned something new about our pandemic….
Okay so it’s not really new.
But it was certainly made very aware to me multiple times in a few hours of my day and adventure with family.
As you know,
This whole thing has not set off my go-go attitude or adventure and experience for self and my family.
My children will not recall this crazy time in our history as a time when they were trapped in the house, unable to play or see loved one’s.
But instead they will look at it as another year that mom was sharing life with them,
ton’s of adventures, laughter, fun and growing.
They will look back and be able to recall chasing crabs at midnight on the beach after a late night under the stars BBQ.
They will look back and recall the horseback riding and firefly catching in the Ozarks as well as facing their fears of jumping off 20 foot cliffs into rivers of water.
They will recall the late night backyard fires and roasting marshmallows,
the many camp trips where they fished, hiked and told shadow stories at bedtime,
they will recall all the outside roller skating, bike riding, gardening and building.
They will think on laughter with family and friends,
ton’s of social activity,
birthdays abound with joy.
My children will not understand what quarantine is,
nor the depression or fear of this world at this time.
But, yesterday I was made aware of the truth yet again,
and this truth that keeps ringing,
supports my freedom based views and living.
Adventures to waterparks and rides,
from some of Texas’s biggest amusement parks,
back to back playing in one day to learn all about this new covid way.
The truth on healing covid was made aware to me as I placed my mask on all my family to enter a burger place for lunch in the amusement park,
We stood in line 4 to 6 feet from anyone else,
table all around us with people eating, drinking and chatting ( no masks on at tables because that was a covid safe space),
Just 4 feet from where I stand in line, mask on face.
I get my food from workers who wear masks under their noses and chins,
and walk outside to sit down to eat.
I had been told by park attendants left and right to keep my mask on myself and my small children,
they hammered strong words of YOU MUST WEAR YOUR MASK…
and I abided (for the most part, except for when my children looked like they were going to pass out),
but here we were eating lunch,
passer bys looked at us as we sat in the middle of everything MASK FREE eating for 30 minutes.
Fellow people consuming beverages and food sat anywhere from 3 to 6 feet away as well MASK FREE eating for the same time frames….
Here in this space of eating,
WE WERE SAFE,
safe from contracting,
safe from passing,
safe in our open air eating space.
It was like as long as I sat here eating or drinking,
or as long as I had food or drink in my hand then I was safe to not wear a mask,
I was suddenly allowed and healed even from this illness that I could have and could kill some innocent person with unknowingly,
and then a few hours later I found myself and family at a large water park…..
Here we MUST WEAR A MASK TO ENTER….
and as soon as we passed the gates….
You are FREE TO GO WITHOUT.
Play in the water,
sit and eat,
stand in a line upon each other, float, swim, ride….
all mask free because here at the water park you are safe from Covid.
You cannot pass it,
you can not get it.
You are safe….
awe, but NO you are not.
If you need to pee,
now you may carry it,
you may catch it,
so grab that mask because it’s a must.
You may have sat a table for an hour next to that person in front of you mask free,
but now in this moment where you are toilets or showers apart you are suddenly ill and contagious.
The mandate is in place.
And so, the solution to curing Coivd is keep eating and drinking,
go to water parks abound.
You will never catch covid as long as you do this,
but if you are fishing on a stream by yourself,
or if you stand in your own back yard or walk in your community park or store,
lord help you luv,
because suddenly you are dangerous and weak,
You might kill an innocent stranger or obtain this illness yourself.
Perhaps we should all start to drink Starbucks while shopping so we are Covid safe.
And too all you fishermen and hikers, bikers and joggers…. Wear your masks and be safe.
Mother nature is out to get you.
Now I know that this little musing may have pissed some of you off.
And for this I do not apologize but instead ask you to question the reality of what I shared from my adventure yesterday.
Start to question the logic behind all the mandates and rules.
Start to ask yourself why this is okay, but this is not.
And if you find yourself feeling angry and hateful toward myself and this share,
Then please just delete me if you are not willing to see reason.
We can have different views and not be right.
For what is right for you,
Does not have to be for all,
Just as what is right for me,
You do not have to agree with or understand.
The point of my share is simple….
Question those that control your life experience,
Question your reality and the logic behind it.
And know that you are worthy of thriving,
And worthy of a life full of love, abundance and connection.
It is always and will forever remain your choice as to what you perceive and live.
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“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
WHAT IF ONE PERCEIVED BAD EGG CHANGED THE WORLD FOR THE BETTER?
Let’s consider this craziness for a second, shall we?
Many years ago, I was studying the ancient spiritual science of kabbalah, it was a powerful tool of deep revelation that I still use daily today and have based much of my works on.
I recall my teacher sharing a tale that went something like this:
“There was a man whose son was dying. He went to the doctor and the doctor told him there was nothing more that could be done for the boy, all he could do was pray. The man being a wise man and understanding the power of the light
(good), decided that there WAS SOMETHING MORE that could be done and he set off that very night to find three men to pray with him.
Now you may think he ventured out to find three holy men, wise and religious men, men who believed and did good daily,
this is not at all what he chose to do.
He went looking for three men who were rugged and lost in their ways, who were considered “bad or evil even.”
And he found them.
to each man he pleased to come sit and pray over his boy,
and somehow he convinced these men who were robbers, rapists and murderers to come and sit by his dying son’s bed and pray with him.
And they did.
All the towns people thought him crazy,
a fearful, sad and desperate man of a dying boy.
They believed that he had totally lost his mind.
The bad men and the father sat that very night by the boy’s bed, they bowed their heads and they focused on their prayers for healing for the boy.
The night grew into day and the men stayed with the father and his son praying.
When the sun rose,
the boy awoke as well from his slumbers of illness.
He stood and he walked about, hugged his father,
he was saved.
The prayer had been answered.
The boy was healed.
He was going to live.
And the men who prayed over him were forever changed as well.”
The moral of this tale that was shared with me some many years ago is simple.
When one, two or even three bad eggs who find it natural to do evil and sin turn toward the light and choose to do good,
no matter the reason in that moment,
they open themselves up to be a humongous vessel of good.
They are a powerful catalyst to change, to healing and growth.
You see for all those who do good in this world,
their ego or darkside is just as large as that brilliant good side that they choose to live in,
and the same is equally true for those who live in their ego or shadow self, the light that can be revealed from them is GREAT.
And when they do so they become a great moment of positive force.
In our recent world times we are witnessing just this.
There is massive destruction happening in one way and there is massive healing and awareness in another.
Due to one man.
Now the message that he has highlighted for not just the USA but the world at this time is a message and awareness that has needed to be brought into the light for centuries.
But if we look at this man who seems to be a catalyst for world change and awareness about racism and violence against color,
we will discover a man that is less than a good doer.
No this man who is changing the world for the better with his life that was taken and his final statement of,
” I can’t breathe.”
He was certainly no Martin Luther King Jr.
He served much time in prison and jail.
He did many very bad things to good people.
And none of this is being spoken of at great length.
And you know what?
Because it’s not about his track record.
It’s about the purpose of his life that is greater than what of us can fully understand in the midst of this chaos and rage.
The message that is being sung around the world today,
it is about him being a catalyst to change,
even though he most likely had no clue about what his life was actually going to do.
His death is SAVING LIVES.
Making changes to our world for the better.
And although his death is wrongful in every way, due to it, our world has hit a tipping point.
God works in mysterious ways they say.
And perhaps this is evidence of one of those ways.
We have a grander purpose then we realize,
no matter our history,
our race, religion, sex, wounds, income or education.
We all have a mission in this game of life,
and if you think that someone died without meaning,
Change is upon us.
Awareness is happening in multiple subject areas of our lives.
And with awareness grows understanding, love, compassion, freedom, connection, humanity.
We as a world GOT THIS.
Amended due to comments shared from readers who misunderstood my intent and words and missed my direct statement.
In ABSOLUTELY NO WAY am I condemning Floyd’s wrongful death nor any other. Nor am I trying to spiritually bypassing anything.
If you choose to read above fully,
You will see clearly that I am saying that it’s awesome that his past is not coming up for debate as much as one might expect it too, considering everything that has been shared about it.
That this matter is NOT about his track record.
I am simply seeing the truth of our world being at a critical point, similar to what we had happening in 1968, where we have in our face the realness that what should no longer be an issue, still is. And that is wrong and sad.
No one should have to fear their day to day lives as I witness so many black Americans doing. Skin color should never be a deciding factor for anything, and police brutality has skyrocketed yet again toward blacks especially
I am also not saying that his purpose was to die to make this happen nor that he chose it. But instead stating that, at least his death is the straw that broke the camel’s back for us in 2020. Positive transformation seems to be coming from his death, and if one is killed or died of unnatural causes then at least let’s see that there can be something positive rise from the wrong doing.
I stand by my statement of awareness is happening.
It is greatly needed.
No human being of any race, sex, belief should live in fear of doing life’s simplest everyday events. Our police are here to serve and protect and although many officers are good, many have lost their way and are not serving and protecting but using their badges in a sick power play on civilians.
It is time for change.
You wouldn’t do what I did.
Or would you?
Some would believe that they would do it.
Some would state with certainty even that they would.
Others would say well, I would do some of that,
but is all of it really necessary?
And others would simply drop their head and say, ” I wish I had the courage.”
And at the end of the day,
perhaps 1% would actually do what I have done.
And what is this that I am even speaking of?
This is spoken of in many self-growth paths.
Spiritual teachers of all time have told of the importance of becoming self- actualized.
But what does it mean?
Why is it so important?
And how do we go about achieving it?
Self-actualization refers to the achievement of one’s potential while self-realization refers to the achievement of one’s personality.
We must become self-realized to become actualized.
To truly understand ourselves, we must gain a grander scope of our personality. Something that many people today avoid, change to fit in with those around them and even fully abandon so that they can feel accepted. Creating a void within themselves and a distancing from their truth.
We must get right with our personality.
Our true personality that is.
Not the mask we wear.
And once we have done that then we can move forward and work on self-actualized.
Now we can have what would appear to be a successful life from the outside world. We can achieve fortune, family, health and experience. But if it is not achieved from a state of our truth then we will forever feel lost and empty.
Never truly happy.
We will remain in the void of who we were born to be and the potential of our SOUL.
So how do we become self-realized?
In short we have to step out of our comfort of the masks that we wear.
If we are to discover who we truly are we have to STOP being dependent on others for our safety, our happiness, our feeling of connectedness, worthiness, purpose, etc.
We have to start to learn ourselves.
And here is where I confidently state,
You wouldn’t do what I did.
I recall the time frame that I moved into my rebirth of self.
It was a time that my soul decided that I needed to realize who I truly was outside of everything that I had become for the world around me.
And with this I went on a mission to great measures to learn myself.
I knew that if I kept acting, speaking, thinking and doing the way that I had been for this time,
that my life results would never change.
I would remain lost in who I was.
I would continue to feel empty.
I would continue to search.
So I went on a mission of self-discovery.
I dove deep into my shadow lands.
I faced anything that scared the crap out of me.
I genuinely looked at my relationships,
all of them.
I asked if they truly made me happy or if I felt like I was just serving the other people so that I did not get abandoned?
I asked if I was living the life that I truly wanted?
Knowing that I was not.
My family life was not in harmony.
My health was having challenges.
My sex sucked.
My intimate relationship was not even a friendship any longer.
My finances were lacking.
I was struggling in every department.
And ignoring it and thinking that just putting my head down and pushing through was not working any longer.
Instead I was suffocating.
I had to make a change.
I had to know my truth.
And so I pushed my boundaries.
I stepped off the curb of life that I had myself on and I walked with blind faith into the uncharted territory of ME.
In this moment what I discovered was the very fact that I had been guilty of self-abandonment for my entire adult life.
I had fully stepped away from me.
And this was the only step I needed to take to become in alignment to my true personality.
Speak from a place of my authentic YES/NO.
This was the empowerment I was needing.
This was the learning of my true likes/dislikes.
This was where I found my courage.
It was where I realized my own style of genius.
It was the land of ME.
And guess what formed from this space?
Through no longer abandoning myself for others wishes,
for no longer ignoring my truth,
for no longer leaning on others to tell or prove to me that I was lovable, worthy, beautiful, etc. I also tapped into my SOUL.
I danced with divine inspiration,
and the more I allowed myself to just be me,
feel me and do me,
the moree inspired thought came,
and the more inspired action happened,
and the more I felt my full potential being achieved.
Today, I know when I get into phases of my life where I am feeling bored, lost or indifferent that all I am being guided to become aware of is that I have leaned out of this state of self-actualization and that in order to step back into it,
I need just look at where I am looking for the outside world to feed me instead of turning inward and KNOWING MYSELF in the now.
Because we are ever changing.
We are evolving,
and we must not abandon this new version of who we are in this moment just because it presents a different desire, a different view or feeling about life, love, or anything.
By receiving our new version of self,
we put worth on it.
Thus realizing our worthiness for the life that we have and the life that we are creating.
Where have you abandoned yourself?
If you are feeling lost in life, in love or any subject of life, it is time to ask this of yourself and to realize that you soul is requesting you to step out of the comforts of what is no longer serving you and embrace the magic of the unknown.
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“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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