I feel goofy!
I feel silly!
I feel like a BIG effing kid.
And that is what makes me,
Often my grammer sucks.
My spelling even worse.
I put exclamation points where they don’t go.
I LOVE comma’s! 😻
I am learning this whole emoji thing,
I hear it is a language in itself.
One I aim to learn,
but find myself a bit confused with. 🤨
I make up words on the spot,
can flip into weird accents without notice.
My mood switches more than the winds of Santa Anna.
I am up,
I am down.
I am complex,
and extremely surfacy.
I truly don’t give a F-ck what you think of me,
if I please you or not,
but goodness how I dislike confrontation and want nothing more than you to be happy with me.
I am pretty F-cked UP!
I got a whole universe of baggage.
My ego loves to dance on my SOUL.
I self- sabotage at any opportunity I give myself,
and I get caught in worry and overwhelm when it happens.
But that is what makes me,
I am a city girl.
I am a country girl.
A hick and a slut.
I am a saint and a teacher.
A mother and a cunt.
I am most certainly not everyone’s peach.
Many dislike my ways and looks.
But for each and every one of them,
there is a SOUL MATE that supports,
this crazy dance.
I see through the bullsh*t.
Your’s and mine a like.
I will be sarcastic, obnoxious,
bold and raw,
but bring peace to your heart,
as you will not feel judgement,
but love instead.
Did I mention I am goofy?
Well indeed I am.
It may be my BIGGEST or BOLDEST characteristic once you get to know me,
it stands right behind this EGO I have.
Which tries it’s damnedest to not let my light be seen,
my play be felt, and this BIG kid in me that is always wanting to enjoy.
I want to get it perfect.
This I most certainly do.
But I understand that perfection does not exist the way we think of it,
but instead its about FEELING.
We are all projects,
in this thing called life.
You and I alike.
It’s our purpose ,
our mission to support one another.
The best way to achieve this,
is not through criticism and or being right.
It’s through tapping into your GOOFY,
letting the KID come out and PLAY.
But you gotta love yourself enough,
be courageous and weird,
stand out from all the sheeple’s who flock in fear.
It’s not there that you will find me,
no I am over here.
In the land of goofy, strange and imperfect.
The land of acceptance.
It may be a bit confrontational to stand out in the crowd.
It may feel like a lifetime adrenaline rush,
not a walk in the clouds.
But I can tell you my fellow Goof.
Its what we are to do.
To tap the F-ck INTO,
and BE WHO WE ARE.
Not hide from our purpose.
Not run from the feelings.
Not bury our heads in the sand,
but look out and say,
“Here I AM!”
It’s your God given right,
you are worthy in deed you are,
to have all the abundance,
the house and the car,
your bank account over flowing,
your life abundant and rich.
Yes it is your God given right,
to be a BIG RICH KID.
Let that goofy out I tell you,
let it be felt and be seen.
It’s your ticket to greatness,
to not be so serious,
to not worry,
to not fear.
God has your back,
its always been that way.
Acceptance, love and silliness.
Your own version will get you on your way,
no one else really matters,
if you are not STRONG.
Realize the injustice you are doing,
to this world and the ones you love,
the dishonor you are showing,
when you shrink and hide who you are.
So be that BIG kid.
Be that GOOF that you are.
Let your LIGHT SHINE bright.
And Be Who Are.
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TO KNOW YOUR WORTH.
About 20+ years ago I started focusing in on the law of attraction.
I wanted to take charge of my manifesting and I wanted to create the life of my dreams.
Having always been spiritually focused,
and enjoying quantum physics for my pleasure reading,
it came to me that this thing known as the Law of Attraction might be worth investigating.
After all there was a history of exploration around it.
Anyone who has ever read Think and Grow Rich, or any of Napoleon Hill’s work as well Earl Nightingale, Dale Carnegie or Norman Vincent Peale just to name a few greats, I am sure would agree that there must be something to this law.
Through the course of time,
I have had many a positive and a negative experience with the law. The thing that I have had the toughest concept with was personal responsibility.
We are each responsible for what is coming into our manifestation zone.
What we are attracting to us.
It is difficult to take responsibility for the crap that manifests in our lives.
I am sure that you would agree.
It is hard to look at these things and say with certainty and even enthusiasm,
“Yes! I did that. – I attracted that. – I own it.”
I mean how often do we want to own the random flat tire,
the hot water heater blowing up, the car accident, the personal injury, the job or relationship loss?
We never want to own these things.
yet this is where the power of our manifestation is seen and we MUST pay attention too.
I will even go to the level that we should be excited about the sh*t that manifests,
as it shows us that we are manifestors.
And damn good one’s at that.
Owning our power means that we do not ignore any manifesting that we have going on for ourselves.
It means that we have to be just as full of gratitude for the free random coffee that we manifested to the flat tire.
It is all us.
It all came from our thought vibration.
And this is where we learn our truth.
Are you sitting there, reading this and agreeing?
or are you disagreeing?
It does not matter BTW.
It just is.
That is the thing about universal laws.
they don’t care if we believe in them or not,
they still happen according to their design.
It is up to us to become conscious and start making use of them to our consistent benefit ( manifesting what we perceive as positive) or remain unconscious and just let the cards fall will they will.
It is up to each of us.
However, if we choose to CLAIM OUR LIVES,
if we choose to move forward toward the F-ck Yes! Life,
then we MUST become conscious of this law.
We must start to own all of our manifestations,
not just those that feel good to us.
I so often hear people say,
“So I started using the law of attraction 5 years ago.”
This cracks my ass up.
Honey, you were born using the law of attraction.
You use it every moment of your life.
You use it in your waking hours,
you use it in your sleeping hours.
You use it when you are pooping,
when you are eating,
when you are having sex,
or an argument.
When you are paying your bills,
or when you are on vacation.
There is NEVER a moment that you are not using the law of attraction.
It is about THOUGHT VIBRATION.
And if you “think” you are “thinking the right thoughts” but crap just keeps manifesting in your life,
then guess what?
YOU ARE STINKING THINKING.
It is not rocket science baby.
It is a universal law,
a law that is based on the frequency that your thoughts are sending out.
That is it.
The ONLY other component that matters to it,
is how you feel about these thoughts.
The emotions attached to these thoughts.
If you are sold hook line and sinker on the fact that you will always be living pay check to pay check,
or that you will never find love,
or you will never have the body you want,
or whatever it is that you are CERTAIN that you cannot have,
then guess what baby?
You are right.
And feel that feeling,
that sensation in your body as you think about not having it.
Feel that anxiety,
If you are waking with a subconscious thought that is affirming that you cannot have,
and you wake with one of these sensations,
then it should just make sense that you not manifest ANYTHING other than things that support these feelings.
So you pour hot coffee on yourself,
you break a dish,
you scratch the side of your car,
your shoes don’t feel right,
you feel bloated,
The opposite is true to though luv.
If you wake with a feeling of gratitude,
a feeling of love in your heart, ‘excitement for the day,
for life and all that you can make happen.
If you feel into how good it feels to wake up,
and KNOW that you are the CREATOR of your world,
that you are so supported.
So very supported.
The whole universe wants to give you what you want.
What you are VIBING TOO.
So all you have to do is BE HAPPY.
And more things that make you happy will manifest like magic into your world.
This is the F-ck Yes!! Life that I coach on.
This is what I help people every day achieve.
This is the life that I wake to daily,
and if I don’t then I consciously make up my mind to change my VIBE ASAP.
today is like any other.
Today I woke,
I was tired, but I stretched and said my gratitudes before my feet hit the ground.
I moved on through my moments of motherhood,
of taking tired kids to school,
I dealt with my ex and christmas items,
I looked at some bills,
and I drove in rush hour traffic to take my daughter almost 2 hours away to state testing for homeschool.
And you know what?
I walked into the conference space that her testing was at,
fifteen minutes early,
I laughed and connected with the ladies who were setting everything up for the students and a few moments later,
one of the women said,
” Excuse me mam, would you be interested in a white mocha latte from Starbucks? It is untouched. I ordered it on accident for someone who is not here. Do you want it?”
A small manifestation.
But showing where my VIBE is.
I said yes and gave my thanks.
I opened to receiving.
I said yes.
And gave gratitude. (KEYS to receiving more)
often in the start of awaking to the law of attraction,
we are told to just go manifest a cup of coffee.
I want to say,
NEVER STOP MANIFESTING THAT CUP OF COFFEE.
Your belief of your power starts and is consistently supported here.
So what will you manifest today?
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We were not born to sacrifice them at all!
You were born for THIS SHIT.
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You are not being real with yourself.
Seriously you are not.
You may have some ego pop up in you from reading these words, you may want to argue it and fight it and point to all the ways that you are authentic and truthful, but in reality you are not showing up as your radiant authentic self.
How can I make this bold statement?
Because none of us are.
We are all hiding from aspects of ourselves, we are all in denial of our truth.
We mask ourselves from these flaws, these nasty little monsters that we keep locked away in the closets of our personality and mind. The shadows of our soul’s light.
Yes none of us are authentically us.
I was having a conversation with a man a few weeks ago and the topic of authenticity came up. He asked me why I colored my hair and why I put extensions in my hair. He told me he thought that I was beautiful just the way God created me and he wondered why I would not just authentically be me the way God intended at my birth.
I attempted to explain to him that I did these things with my hair because I wanted to. It was not for anyone but myself and it was all about how they made me feel.
His response was one based in his care for me and his adoration for who I am and what I share that helps him understand his life and relationships with more clarity and ease. But the energy that it met me with felt like control.
The more I found myself explaining my choices, the more I felt like I was dealing with my father and was somehow in a position of explaining myself and getting his permission. Which is sheer craziness for this particular relationship for sure, however the energy that was there was still the same. And it was met by my frustration of having to explain when I find no need to explain myself.
But here I was EXPLAINING.
I do what I do, for me not anyone else.
It is that simple.
Yet here I was in this conversation. This man’s big brown eyes looking at me like a curious little boy with a desire for me to know that I did not need to do anything in his eyes to be better. I was perfect as I was.
He took my actions of coloring my hair and having extensions as a lack of authenticity.
Asking me, ” How can you advocate authenticity so much but then not be the you that God created? Why do you have to change yourself?”
The reality is that I am being very authentic in my actions of coloring my hair, having fuller, longer hair with my extensions, by decorating my body with the tattoo’s, the perfumes, the makeup or lack of makeup that I choose. I put on the clothes that I feel best in each day, whatever that may be. I do not dress because of some dress code or how I believe I want people to perceive me, I dress how I desire based on my mood in the moment. I make choices for my body and how I choose to show up physically in the world based not on what someone is telling me or how I will be perceived but on who I am in that day.
Some days I feel like a stay at home mom who just wants to stay in her PJ’s and not care about her hair or looks.
Some days I feel like a sultry seductress who wants to wear no panties, a skirt with a slit up to my mid thigh and a revealing top.
Some days I feel like an outdoor adventurer and grab my jeans and a tee shirt and hiking shoes.
Some days I feel like I want to put on my professional hat and be very of the mind and structures so I put on more traditional business clothes.
Then there are the days where I look like a total biker bitch.
The days where I could give Princess Diana (bless her soul) a run for her money on beautiful dresses.
No matter what the day, I guarantee I am showing up as me in the moment.
You may be shaking your head in agreeance right now, or wonder why the eff I am even writing about this.
The message of this brief share is to say that none of us are 100% authentic.
All we can ever do is try and show up as authentic as we can in any given moment.
And our hair, clothes, makeup or anything else that we choose to add to our physical being is not a masking of our truth.
There are plenty of us who use these things to hide from ourselves or choose what we do with our physical beings based on what society, work, family say we should do, but when you get right down to it. If you feel deep into yourself, you will see that the way you choose to express yourself is yours and only yours.
The more in alignment you are to who you truly are,
the less likely you are to make decisions based on anyone other than yourself.
There is never a need to explain who you are or why you are choosing what you are choosing.
You do you.
The ONLY thing you ever need to realize is that the expression of you that you let be seen needs to come from your soul, not your fear of others.
True authenticity is about your heart and soul.
It is about alignment and revealing just this.
The most outwardly made up person, with plastic surgery, pounds of makeup, expensive clothes, the most expensive car and a fancy resume can be one of the most authentic people you will ever know if they are expressing their soul’s creativity for the growth and connection to their soul.
Or they can be one of the most masked people you will ever meet if they are only trying to look a certain way and be a certain way because they don’t believe they are enough or that this is the only way they will ever get love or connection.
Either can be true.
I CHOOSE me.
I CHOOSE honoring my soul’s creative flow in life.
I CHOOSE showing up without apology for who I am every day.
I CHOOSE self love, which means doing what feel’s good for me.
Authentically loving myself and doing what turns me on.
Can you say the same?
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