You Must Change Up Your Vibe Tribe.

Am I vibing with you?

I sure hope I am.

Or maybe I hope I am not.


It really depends on where you are vibing at.And I say this, because we often do not pay attention to our vibe, let alone other people’s vibe.
But I can tell you this. VIBE is where it is at baby!
If you want to have that F-ck Yes Life, If you want to call in THE ONE, If you want to have blessings wash all over you, then you better be vibing in the same frequency as them. The things we desire the most are often high hanging fruit, and this high hanging fruit will not come down to us.

And if it does…..
Then it has lowered its VIBE.And you most likely won’t want it so much anymore.
This happens in relationship all the time.
We humans have the power to increase or decrease our vibe in no time flat.
It all stems from the thoughts we are thinking, the emotions we are feeling, and thus the actions we are taking.
High vibing people, you know the one’s…

You may even be one of the one’s.
And I hope that you are luv.But either way, you may want to know how to determine if someone is high vibe or low vibe.
RIGHT?


High Vibe peep’s are radiant,

they are turned on to life,

they are self-motivated,

they do not mask life or the experiences that life offers them.

They are not living in a victim mentality.

They are proactive.

They love forward movement,

They value alone time.

They know that more is always possible.

They see the interconnectedness of things.

They are grateful.

They are grounded.

They bounce out of negative thinking quickly.

They smile – A LOT!

They are easy to be around.

They have healthy, strong boundaries.

They don’t give a sh*t what you think of them.

They are abundant.

Blessings flow to them with ease.

They are not needy, but they do desire much.

They are in integrity with self.


High VIBE is where it is at baby!

Living a high VIBE life is what you were born to do.


It is where you will discover everything that you want the most.
And you can get there.This you can.
But you are not going to get there, if you are still trying to get your needs met by everyone else who is low vibing it.
You won’t get there if you are caught in worry, or anxiety and fear.
You won’t get there if you are giving to many f-cks about everyone else’s opinions and judgements.


You won’t get there if you insist on hanging with low vibing friends, family and lovers.
And this can cause some mighty BIG issues in life, the main one being that you MUST realize that many of the people you have in your life RIGHT NOW,
won’t follow you up in VIBE.


And you will loose these people in some fashion.

So that alone may stop you.

You may not want to loose this person, or that one.

You may say it’s not worth it.

You may think I am wrong and try and drag their sweet ass along.

And you can for a bit, although the dragging of dead weight will certainly drain you at some point,

and then you will either drop them, or surrender to creeping back down into lower vibe, where life was…..


well….


BLAH.

And difficult.

Where you were not happy.

And you may say that it is worth it.

As long as you can keep these peep’s in your life, then it is worth it to be low VIBE.
And that is fine.

That is your choice.

And you will make this choice many, many multiple times throughout your life.
Just know though, that if you want to have that F-ck Yes! Lifestyle, you want abundance, deep love, and happiness.

That you will have to make changes in whom you choose to hang around.
Because the saying is so true,

“You become like those you hang around.”


So if you look at your top five people in your life, how are they VIBING?


And if we look just at the income of these five…how abundant are they?

You want to know where you are headed in the next 12 months.You will be about 50-70% of the median of these five in total.
Is that satisfactory to you?Then great.
carry on.
If not.

Time to change your VIBE TRIBE.


We all have to level up our relationships as we grow, some come back around as they grow with us in vibe, some we revisit and feel the constriction in our bodies.

While others are lost forever.
And still others Climb beside us.


What does your VIBE TRIBE say about you?


As always, Stop Existing & Start Living

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Admit It! – You Are F-cking LAZY.

Admit it…
Seriously JUST admit already.
 
😲YOU are lazy as F-ck! 🛌
You know what you need to do.
You feel it in your bones,
you have the know how,
the knowledge,
the ability.
 
Your soul calls out to you daily, and YOU HEAR IT. 🗣️🧘‍♀️
But when it comes right down to it,
catching up on the series on Netflix is more appealing.
Watching that football game is more interesting.
Cleaning your mother f-cking toilet is higher on your priority list than doing the thing that you know,
you know without a doubt that you MUST DO,
in order to have the life that you want to have.
 
But,
But you are too f-cking lazy to just step the f-ck into who you are meant to be to achieve those dreams and desires.
 
🔥🔥👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👠💍🥂✈️💃💃🔥🔥
 
You see having that freedom based life,
living according to your souls desire,
in alignment with exactly who you know you were born to be is not difficult.
 
Not difficult at all matter a fact.
 
The ONLY f-cking thing holding you back from being the person that your soul wants you to be is yourself. 💃💃💃
 
It’s all those things you have been told through your life experience so far.
 
Its all those logical, fear based things that you opt to buy into,
because buying into them is what everyone else is doing,
therefore that must make it right.
 
Your lazy because…
being part of the norm is more important to you than being authentically you.
 
getting along with the crowd is what you “think” will make you happy…
instead of saying F-ck YES to who you are and letting yourself shine.
 
Agreeing,
being a people pleaser seems like the best thing to do,
it keeps the peace.
Instead of claiming what you need/want and EXPECT from life.
 
But all of this,
does not solve any thing baby.
 
All of this only leads you to pain, suffering and not truly living.
Sure there is air in your lungs,
you are breathing still,
your heart is beating,
your body is alive.
 
But YOU ARE NOT LIVING!!!!!
 
🔥🔥👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨👠💍🥂✈️💃💃🔥🔥
 
and worst off you know it.
 
You know that life could be so much more.
And you want it to be more.
You want more than to just try to escape your pain,
your anxiety,
you want to not have it to start with.
You want happiness!
 
And you should.
 
It is your birthright after all.
 
But happiness only comes from truly living in alignment to to you.
 
Happiness only is felt by owning your own joy.
By understanding that you,
YES YOU….
are the one that can make it happen.
AND MUST.
 
No pay raise at work will do it.
No bigger better orgasm will do it.
No change of relationship status will do it.
No weight loss or diet will do it.
No my kids are honor role students will do it.
No my retirement fund has so much money it will do it.
Not even the affirment from your pastor that you are saved will do it.
 
Nothing.
Absolutely NOTHING,
will bring you the happiness that your heart and soul desire,
that leads you to do everything that you do,
that makes you flip your world upside down,
or keep everything the same,
will make you happy.
 
The only thing that will ever bring you happiness…
 
Is getting up off your f-cking ass,
and LIVING!
 
Yes BABY!!!
this is what you must do to have what you want.
 
But wait!🖐️
 
That’s to easy!
 
If it were that simple,
then everyone would be happy.
 
RIGHT ⁉️
 
Wrong!!!!!
 
Because the hardest,
most challenging thing,
that we humans face is just this.
 
BE OURSELVES.
 
You are far from alone in your desires.
Or in your sufferings.
 
You are far from alone from kicking around the concept of just f-cking being yourself.
 
💩Sh*t! It sounds pretty appealing huh? to just be you.💩
 
I bet that if I asked you to write down a list of ten things you value the most that,
 
HONESTY
INTEGRITY
AUTHENTICITY
 
would rank among some of the highest on your list.
 
Yet, you cannot seem to LIVE that way yourself.
And you wonder why life keeps bringing you experiences and people that are NOT these things.
 
Hmmmmmm……
 
Well here is a thought for you…🤔
Maybe, just maybe,
Life is showing you what you are lacking yourself,
and what you need to get,
in order to have what you want.🤯
 
⁉️W-H-A-T!!!!!!⁉️
 
Yeppers,
 
Like I said….
you are too f-cking lazy!
 
It really is that simple.
It really is about you just being you,
loving you.
Enjoying you.
 
The truth is that you make it too f-cking hard….
ALL THE TIME!
 
And you do it mainly by over thinking it.
 
So STOP!!! 🛑
Stop the insanity.
 
And just take the path that you were meant to take in the first place…
 
still yourself,
listen,
and act from that place….
 
🔥🔥🔥YES! that place of soul.🔥🔥🔥
 
You have always KNOWN what to do!
It has always been with you.
There is no secret.
 
It is just about being you!!!!!
 
So what is stopping you?
 
Oh RIGHT!!!!
I forgot there is new series on that looks really amazing,
gotta catch that first…..
 
Well,
don’t bitch to me.
 
Cuz’ I will only send you this note baby.
 
Don’t you think it is time?
 
TIME TO SAY YES.
 
Yes to YOU.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
PS💃💃💃
 
You Say You Want The F-ck YES Life Do You?
Well what is stopping you?
I bet it is….
Time.
Money.
Belief you can have it.
Feeling Like You Don’t Know Enough.
Lack of Support.
 
Am I correct?
 
You want it, but there are so many things that get in the way of you having it.
And another year goes by.
 
Another year that you find yourself sinking further into the rut,
into debt and lack of freedom,
another year of wishing,
but not achieving.
 
Or you have decided to step forward onto the path,
you went and got your real estate license.
You signed up for a cool new opportunity that turns you on.
You took on the mission to build your own home based business.
Or maybe it’s not you, but your partner. Your spouse.
You are a team.
And you are going to get ahead of life,
enjoy some travel,
enjoy some extra cash flow,
and get your kids into the school you want.
OR
retire early!!!!
 
Whatever the reason,
it’s hard to find someone who is simply content,
well maybe content is not the right word even.
HAPPY.
 
Happy with their work,
their financial state of being,
their job-family balance,
the time they have,
or
the level of stress they have.
 
So many of us are searching for something more fulfilling these days.
So many of us understand that TIME is our most precious resource and it is very limited and we never know when our time will be up once and for all.
 
So we hold anxiety around it.
We look at our families,
our lives, our health, our bank accounts,
and we stress.
 
Can you say that your’s is all that you want it to be?
 
Or do you want more?
Need more?
 
Have you decided to FINALLY take your life,
your FINANCIAL PICTURE into your own hands?
 
What have you ventured out to do?
 
Entrepreneur you deserve the F-ck YES Life!
But how do you go from where you are,
to where you want,
and it not take you 2 years, 5 years, a decade or more?
How can you avoid some of the major pitfalls that can eat an entrepreneur up?
 
 
As the mama of seven babies, an entrepreneur myself for the last 20 years, who has done my fair share of failing, I can tell you it can be REALLY difficult to know what to do and when to do it, or it can be pretty effing simple.
 
If I had had accessible the mentor’s back in the day that I do now, I would have not spent so many years struggling. But the struggle taught me a ton and has enabled me to be able to share with you what it really takes in today’s social media world to become your own BOSS.
 
And do it BIG!!!!
 
Join me next Sunday November 18th, 2018
 

My False NEED to Control…

BOOM!!!! My Observation of the darkness and my truth…

“OMFG! Here is my ego. Here are my blocks.”

Last night I sat in bed listening to training video’s and working through mindset practices and journaling to level up my work. I know that I am not in full alignment at this moment with who I really am and my desires. So there I sat till almost 2AM doing the REAL effing work. You know what I am talking about. The INTERNAL work.
And because I am a mom of a 5 year old and a 3 year old, I found my bed invaded by little people who were struggling with their sleep. This made me keep my room dim where I could barely see the words that I was writing in my journal.
I noticed quickly my struggle for control.
My need to make sure that my words were forming correctly.
As though my soul would form them wrong…lol
I noticed that I was struggling to just go with my flow,
and ALLOW.
As I moved more into this observation, I started to desire to just LET IT GO.
But my EGO,
my effing EGO.
It fought.
It wanted me to control.
To think I was doing something incomplete,
not good enough,
not right.
All because I could not see clearly the space I was writing in and the entirety of what I was calling in through my words.
How eye opening this was.
My lesson of the early morning.
Here was a major block.
Here was how my EGO had me by the balls currently.
It was happening not just in my journaling,
but in my life.
My false NEED to know the path.
To see the STEPS.
To try and control what is not mine to control.
My lack of FAITH….
WOW!!!!
Time to let that shit go!
If you relate to this intimacy share on your blockages around manifesting your #fuckyeslifestlye then Comment and share your observations of your ego. Message me about how best to become more aware of your ego and create that F-ck Yes! Life NOW.

And As Always, 

Stop Existing & Start Living

What is stopping you? You KNOW you are Worthy at your Core.

Can you say that you are living up to your worthiness?

 
This was a question that I posed to myself this weekend as I moved through some self-inquiry around my current blockages to to my desires.
 
Yes we all have blockages.
No matter who we are, we are still human and we fall prey to our ego’s, our fear, our doubt and the patterns and programs that we have lived thus far in this life.
 
The difference between so many people is not that some have privileged lives and others don’t.
 
It is not that some are smarter, better educated or better looking than others.
 
The one difference that makes ALL the difference is if we stand up to the CALL OF OUR WORTHINESS.
 
I often ask my clients to share a brag with me in their coaching appointments. I ask them to tell me something that makes them in AWE of themselves.
 
And the response is normally,
“WHAT?”
” Wow, this is strange. I don’t know what to say”
 
I watch them squirm.
I watch as they readjust their legs, try and get centered on the chair.
Look any direction but upward or into my eye’s.
I watch their face become flushed, their chest turn red.
 
So many little things happen as they start to grasp that the request is real.
 
F-CK YES!!!!! I want to know what you are PROUD of.
I want you to CLAIM IT.
CALL IT IN DAMN IT!!!!!
 
How do we ever expect to have anything that we are not calling in with passion, certainty and turn on.
 
You have to BELIEVE that you are WORTH it and the thing about worthiness is that we are consistently told that we are not worthy. That instead we are guilty. We should feel shame for this or that and all of our ancestors shit too.
 
Just pile on the bullshit.
 
Whatever you do,
DO NOT BELIEVE that God wants you BLESSED.
 
Our world and teachings have created a bunch of believers in God NOT FAVORING US,
 
FAVORING YOU.
 
We are repeatedly told not to think to much of ourselves.
To not own our power.
To not shine bringht.
 
Well ONLY do these things in the way that are socially acceptable.
 
Not the way that your soul calls you too.
 
The problem with this idea is that anytime we stop listening to our soul and try and follow anything other, we step out of alignment and favor with God’s desire for our life.
 
We say no to our WORTHINESS.
We prevent ourselves from STEPPING INTO OUR GREATNESS.
 
and no duh,
this my love is the reason you are not living the F-ck YES! Life that you claim you want so badly.
 
It is because you are attempting to live YOUR F-CK YES! Life according to someone else’s beliefs, desires, boundaries, ideas and blockages.
 
How are you ever going to CLAIM YOUR Life if you are ALWAYS living through someone else’s?
 
Now you may say,
“Kendal, I don’t do that.”
” I live for me and me alone. ”
” I know my worth. I know who I am. I know what I desire.”
” I believe that I am in God’s favor.”
 
I call bullshit to that statement,
and here is why…..
 
Because if you REALLY did all of these things then your life experience would be different.
 
The life that is showing up in your daily experience is the life that YOU and ONLY YOU are MANIFESTING in your HEART AND MIND.
 
So if you want to have that F-ck YES! Life then you need to start FEELING and THINKING about it ASAP like your Motherf-cking Life depended on it, BECAUSE it does!!!!!
 
And it all starts with your idea’s, beliefs around WORTHINESS.
 
It is not good enough to say that you know you are worthy.
It is not good enough to put in the actions to prove that you are worthy.
It is not good enough to examine why you are worthy.
 
The ONLY thing that matters is CLAIMING IT.
KNOWING IT.
 
UNDERSTAND love that you were born worthy.
You don’t have to act some special way,
look some way,
go to some special training,
or be this or that.
 
YOU DO NOT!!!!!!
( I am screaming this at you now)
 

YOU MOST CERTAINLY DO NOT have to PROVE your worthiness.

 
Just ACCEPT it.
 
That is all God wants you to do,
is to step into your power by accepting your birth right and living up to your worthiness.
 
If you strive to live up to your worthiness, you WILL ALWAYS….
 
A-L-W-A-Y-S…
 
Be enough,
have enough,
share enough,
do the right things,
and live a F-ck YES! Life.
 
Baby you born for greatness!!!!!!
 

Just ACCEPT it.

 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!

I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!
That was how I approached a group of 50+ people last night who have reached out to me about getting help with their sex, their relationships and their wantabe f-ck yes lives.

My lover read the title and said, I don’t know too many people who can get away with making that their subject line of an email and get a positive response back.

The truth is, not too many people can.
The reason is that most people, coaches included are masking their truth.

Are scared of saying something to piss someone off.
Of not appearing “professional“.

Then you have this .01% of us out there that are living our raw, authentic truth and have no shame for just being ourselves and stating the truth.

After sharing my thoughts with 50+ people last night and hopefully providing them with a good asskickery, it came to me that I should share with you as well. Because many of you too, reach out in many forms asking for help. Guidance and coaching but seem to never follow through for yourselves.

So here is an incomplete taste of what my message to these peeps was and now it is going out to you as well. 

Kendal’s Thoughts on Not Claiming Your Life. – The decisions we sometimes make and why.

Yes you reached out to me.

Maybe you have forgotten even that you wanted help around those delicate matters that cause you stress, make your life a little less pleasurable and you secretly wish you had not chickened out or copped some lame ass excuse for not taking by them by horns and dealing with them once and for all.

Maybe you simple believe that by ignoring your issues, they will some how magically just be gone and everything will fix itself.

Maybe you think that you got it all dealt with now, and you don’t need help.
Maybe you feel like:

You don’t have the time
You don’t have the money
You don’t have the energy
You don’t have the support
It does not matter anyway.
You will be FINE.

Okay, you keep telling yourself all that bull bunk, and the rest of us who instead have chosen to push the play button for our lives will go live.

Go have a F-ck YES! Life and enjoy the bliss that we want, not just fantasize about it.

Right about now you are most likely asking yourself:

Who the f-ck is this chick with attitude and why is she dropping in on my doorstep?

Well, if you recall or care to refresh your memory, 
my name is Kendal Williams.
You reached out to me because I have the ability to take you from where you are at, 
to where you want to be.

I am a coach that specializes in an intimate part of life, 
one of the parts of life that we all wish was better, or we had more going on in.

That would be,

SEX and Relationship.

Now granted over 2018, I have taken the last 20+ years of my coaching practice where I have helped countless people with many things from nutrition, parenting, body image, dreams, spiritual life, business, sex, relationship, to orgasm issues and have started converting my strategies, education and skills over to a passion of mine.

That being: 
Prosperity Coaching, focused on Abundance, Success, Money, Business + Sex and Play.

I call it F-ck YES Life Coaching and Freedom Based Life Coaching.

But you contacted me for the sex and relationship, ‘and sex and relationship is a vital piece of life and plays a significant role in all areas of our life including these above. That is why I can never stop coaching on it.

With that said, 
By the first of the year you will see my coaching totally merge over to the above and I will no longer be claiming the title of Sex & Relationship Coach.

That is WHY I am sending this email out to you.
RIGHT NOW – I am collecting my end of the year VIP clients to work with for the remainder of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019. These VIP clients will have the dedicated focus and attention around the above matters. Around what you originally reached out to me to discuss.

And after that?

Well you will have to work withing the new perimeters of my practice.

It’s NEVER to late to start. 
It is never too late to say YES to yourself, 
to your dreams.

The ONLY thing ever stopping any of us, 
Is OURSELVES.

So, yes I am tired of everyone’s bullsh*t of stating what they do not have and focusing in on the shit. I am exhausted from having hundreds of people reach out to me, but not TAKE ACTION.

How the eff do you expect to be happy, 
truly happy and to have the life that you desire IF you refuse to make the changes, get the help and lean in?

How?

Let’s get real. 
And tell ourselves the truth.

You got SCARED.
Doubt popped into your head.
Hopelessness stands at your gate.

And you are SETTLING.
Settling for what you have, 
It’s SAFE
It’s COMFORTABLE
You know what to expect.

But are you HAPPY?

This is the ONLY Question You need address.

If you answer it honestly, 
then you effing NEED TO message me back ASAP.

Before things have fully transformed over here in my green pasture of pleasure.

SO take that step to your desired life.
You are worth it.

Don’t be like so many poor saps out there that thinks you have time, 
thinks it can wait till next year, 
thinks its all okay and you don’t need help.

Those people never really live. 
They die long before their bodies ever give out on them.

I pray you will not be that person. 
But if you do,

God Bless.

If not….
email me back and let’s get you ROCKIN’ out your life now!!!!

LISTEN TO THIS NOW!

So where the F-ck Are You At?
Are you ready to claim your life, your orgasm, your abundance?

Or are you SETTLING?

As always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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It’s all a f-cking head game!

It’s all a f-cking head game!

Have you noticed?
Have you come to this conclusion?

I sure the f-ck have.
Here i sit on this sunny Dallas afternoon,
listening to music on the patio of some little cafe eating artichoke dip, having a glass of chardonnay.
The day is beautiful.
I have been blessed with amazing client appointments today.
Blessed with more support than I feel worthy of from family, friends and my lover.
I have been allowed and HAVE allowed
myself to simple just drop the effing reigns
of my life, the last month.

It feels like a lifetime has past.
I have fear.
I have doubt.
I have shame.

In sharing.
In writing this very musing to you.

Yet I know IT IS TIME.

I hear the call of my soul
Saying that I MUST.

I must take the step.
I must take the breath.
I must LET THE F-CK GO.

So very much has taken place the last month.
My world once again,
Has been shaken, rocked and flipped every which way.
Fear has penetrated my inner being on many days.
Causing me to hold myself back.
Back from being a f-ck yes to myself.
Back from doing what i know.
Back from being vulnerable and just revealing myself.
Back from CLAIMING my life.

2018.
Lord hold my hand and carry me sweet Jesus through this year.
A year that i KNOW i must find gratitude for.
A year so full of lessons.
A year from this VERY mortal human place I reside in at this moment has been perhaps the best and worst year of my existence.

I have shared some with you on the drama and trauma.
But this is a rabbit hole that keeps going.
I find myself questioning everything.

Trusting not anything.
I feel lost most days.
YET in the same breath i have great PEACE and a strange CERTAINTY.

How can i be both?

This is where it is folks.
Its all a f-cking mind game.

What do I mean by that?
I mean everyday.
Every f-cking day we make choices.
We choose if we let all the garbage of our lives suffocate us or if we plant our feet in the sunshine and sand and connect deeper to our SOUL MESSAGE.

We all have 10,000 reasons 
As to why the eff we allow ourselves to be destracted.
Distracted from what really matters.
And sure those crazy, emotional, emergency items that take up our days bang on our mind and hearts.
Sounding off like they should be primary focus.

But I ask you this.

Is that true?

For me at least,
When I really hone in on my TRUTH
I know the reality is that I am AVOIDING
MY Mother F-cking Calling.
I know that i am blocking my desires.
I know that I am resisting my GREATNESS.

I am doing this by letting myself get caught up in everything else.

By putting my attention on the things I don’t desire to manifest and claiming I have no choice.

I say I am tired.
I say I am out of my flow.
I say I am distracted.

Thats all BULLSHIT.

The reality is that I hit a new level of ME.
AND it scared the shit out of me.

How can I.
Little ol’ me.
Shine that bright.
Say that much.
Smile through the storm.
Laugh and orgasm,
While chaos runs around disrupting the world.
Wanting to disrupt mine.
Like a spoiled little 3 year old
Throwing its tantrum.

Who am I?
I need to just drop out of this light.
This flow.
This love.
And be NORMAL.

Do what is expected.
And just give in.

Well its been a month of that shit.
I fell.
I FELL F-CKING HARD.

And I FORGIVE myself for falling.
Now is the moment.
Take my hand
Lets fly together.

You got your shit.
I got mine.
Sure it stinks.

But it does not have to hold us back.
It does not have to be us.

Its all a f-cking mind game after all.
And I am making my mind up to CLAIM MY LIFE.

Rock it out and realize there is a reason for everything.
So LET IT GO.

AND 
As Always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living 

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Trust, Faith and Soul Alignment

Tears are on the cusp of escaping my eye’s today.
I feel this heaviness on my chest,
my heart feels constricted and tight, like it is being held in a metal clasp with daggers penetrating it.

I want to cry.
I want to be washed clean of this pain.
My mind keeps running through all the memories,
all the experiences. Those seemingly precious moments where intimacies were shared. Where I felt like I was being held in a new place of truth and love.

Those moments where I found myself exploring adventures and concepts that I never would have thought up on my own.
I find myself in gratitude and disgust.
I find myself in fear and disbelief.

How is it possible that two people can come together,
experience such beauty, and at the end of the cycle wish to destroy?

How can love and friendship turn to hatred and rage?

How can you one moment proclaim that you love someone more than you have ever loved before and then moments later turn around and speak disgust about them behind their backs.

Telling lies,
creating false realities and condemning,
all the while pretending that you want to be with them?

Why?
Why?
Why?

This is my morning of tears.
This is my morning of reality as I uncover the truth of all that I thought that was,
that NEVER was.

The issue with these events is not the break up.
The issue is not even the lies and pain that they cause.
The issues is not the physical damage that we may take on from it or the new reality that we are thrown into at the awareness that the love was all fake.

No the issue is TRUST.
And the trust breech that we face and fear even more when we come face to face with things is OUR OWN.

How could we not see it?
How could we be so blind?

If we could not pick up on this then how will we protect ourselves from it in the future?

The writing is always on the walls. And if I am horribly honest with myself then even I have to admit that in my case, I KNEW.

I knew the sort of man he was.
I new his need to control.
I knew his closed down heart.
I new his disrespect for emotions.
I knew his hatred toward women.
I knew his insecurities as a man.

But I believed that I could love him through it.
I believed that he just had never been given the opportunity to heal these things before and that I was STRONG enough, OPEN enough and PATIENT enough.

All of these things only made him feel weaker.
All of these things only back fired on me and made him hate me more, destroy me more.

And so the rumors fly.
And so he attempts to crush what he hates in all the ways his ego directs. Standing firm in his right to make a point, be right, to control the situation, he alpha dogs yet again.

remaining true to his character.
True to his past.
True to all that he believes of himself.

And I….
I remain in LOVE.
STRONG.
OPEN.
PATIENT.

And I dig a little deeper into my pain.
And yet deeper into my fear.
And even deeper into my wound.

This wound that keeps being carved open further as the days go by and the lies make themselves known.

At the bottom of it all still remains my TRUST.
Do I allow this moment…
this lost soul…
this realty….

to destroy the beauty of my FAITH in God?
Or…
Do I CHOOSE to allow it to take me further into a DEEPER TRUST?

A fuller FAITH.

It is always our choice what we do with the drama and trauma of our lives.

Many of us choose to allow it to harbor us from the joy and bliss that is on the other side.

Many of us choose to allow it to mask our hearts and souls.
Many of us choose to pretend it never happened even.
Hoping that if we just ignore it will somehow magically go away.

This never works.
It only turns us into what we are fearful of.
It turns us into those that create this sort of shit.

Life is about owning your own crap but KNOWING what is ours and what is not.

Every event in our life is an OPPORTUNITY to get closer to God or to turn away from God.

It is in our CHOOSING that we decide our futures.
It is our CHOOSING that we manifest our curses or our blessings.

Choose TRUST.
Choose LOVE.
Choose STRENGTH.
Choose PATIENCE.
Choose GOD.

This is SOUL ALIGNMENT.
This is where you decide what you want to call into the next chapter of your life.

Falling into the arms of HATRED, ANGER, EGO and CONTROL will always only lead you one place….

The DARKNESS.
A land of self made misery.
One’s own inner hell where no one can help you escape but yourself.

Ask yourself this:
“Am I happy with whom I am TODAY?”

Now look into your eye’s in the mirror and ask:
” Is this true?”

Wait for the response from your soul.
That soul that is quiet and meek, but strong and truthful.

Here is your path.

Stop Existing & Start Living

The Epidemic of “Most Likely Not.”

Most likely not, but who the f-ck knows, right?

 
Most likely not the right time.
Most likely not the right person.
Most likely not the right opportunity.
Most likely not the right energy.
Most likely not the blah, blah, blah.
 
I am speaking to you today about just this epidemic of, “Most Likely Not.”
 
It is an epidemic.
I shit you not.
It has taken over your mind.
It has stolen your hearts desires.
It has cast fear into your soul.
 
The epidemic of most likely not.
It is what makes the one’s who actually do,
so f-cking rare.
It is what makes so many so ill in their lives.
 
Most likely not my time.
Perhaps I “should” just wait a little longer,
get a better plan,
be smart about this move,
stick it out and see what happens,
be responsible.
 
Are you one of those people who need a plan for everything.
Need to have your ducks lined up first before making a move.
 
Are you one of those folks who always see’s everything that could go wrong with a choice, a situation.
Examining all possible roads before making a commitment to something.
 
Are you one of those peep’s who is always saying that you want something or are going to do something, but then has no clue where to start or how to get there so takes months, maybe years to ever act on your hearts desires, and when you FINALLY take the f-cking leap crash because you really did miss your timing.
 

Well are you?

 
Let’s be real here.
Let’s get down to the nitty gritty truth of why the f-ck you are not living the life that you were born to live.
 

Are you ready?

Are you?

 
Are you sure you want to hear this?
 
Well, even if you don’t that is just TOUGH SH*T BABY,
because I will yell it from the roof tops as to the reason you are not living your life the way you want.
 
I have no issue standing before you and writing it out for you to examine, ponder, try to figure out a way around and cringe over.
 
I love you.
I want to see you become the shining start that God wants you to be.
I want to see you in all of your glory.
You were born for greatness.
 
We all know it.
You can feel it.
 

Stop what you are doing RIGHT NOW.

S-T-O-P!

 
Seriously, pause a moment and take your right hand and place it on your chest. Put your effing hand on your heart.
 
Don’t worry, yeah sure this is one of those love yourself, catch the feels for yourself moments. Tap into your emotions.
 
Yep I said that.
Tap into your effing emotions.
Now, I want you to take your left hand and place it on your groin.
 
You know down there.
On your crotch.
Your junk.
Your genitals.
 
No not to masturbate, silly.
Take your hand off from doing that and just let your hand comfortably rest on your genitals.
 
Now close your damn eye’s.
 
Close them.
And BREATHE.
 
Deep into your stomach.
Not your f-cking chest!
Your stomach.
Relax your tight ass and allow your stomach to expand.
Stop worrying about how you look right now.
 
Just BREATHE.
Feel that heart beating in your chest.
Feel that breath filling your body.
Feel the warmth in your groin.
 
Feel your f-cking self!!!!
 
Does this scare the shit out of you?
Are you feeling uncomfortable in your own skin right now?
Wondering WTF you are suppose to be getting from this little exercise?
 
Find yourself in your head?
That is you running from your TRUTH.
 
Want to know WTF you are not living that life that you really want?
 
Why you cannot seem to ever have the relationships you want?
 
Why your bank account is always less than what you want?
Why you are not happy?
 
Well are you ready now?
Yeah most likely not.
 
It is so f-cking simple you don’t want to accept it.
You want it to be hard.
That is the truth, you want it to be difficult to achieve because then….
 
Then you have an excuse,
a reason,
as to why the f-ck you don’t have it.
 
So you are going to continue to create difficulties in your life to make sure you have lot’s of excuses and reasons as to WHY you cannot have, do not have the life that you claim you desire and want.
 
But the truth is having all that you want is easy as hell.
It does not take much at all.
It is just about getting into your mother f-cking flow.
 
That is it.
And does FLOW sound like it should be difficult?
 
No, of course not.
If it was difficult then it would not be flow.
 
Does a river have a difficult time flowing.
Nope not unless someone damns it up.
 
Well you are the one,
the only effing one who is damning up your flow.
 
You have no one to blame but you baby.
 
So are you ready to hear the truth now?
Are you ready to receive the answer that you do not want, because hiding is so much more comfortable than actually stepping into your flow.
 
You are comfortable with your suffering,
that is why you still are living it.
 

O-K-A-Y…..

 
We are ready, not really but I am going to share it now anyway.
Here is the reason,
Here is the thing that you don’t want to hear.
Here is the mother f-cking truth of your life.
 
Ready….
 
#truthbomb
#realitycheck
 

Your lazy as f-ck and don’t believe it is for you.

 
There I said it.
You are lazy as f-ck and don’t believe it is for you.
 
Now the lazy as f-ck thing is really not the problem’
I am lazy as f-ck,
that is why I designed my life the way that I have.
That is exactly why I created my mother f-cking F-ck Yes Life!
(WOW! that was a bunch of the f word there, oh well, not very professional of me or Godly of me, huh. Oh, well, get the f-ck over it baby, it is just me being authentically me and preaching the f-cking truth to you on WTF you are tired, disillusioned, depressed, sick, angry and fearful of living your f-cking life.)
 
The TRUTH is that lazy is NOT your issue.
 
No the TRUTH is that you don’t believe that you can.
 
Therfore you are trying to control everything instead of just LETTING GO and LETTING God’s Flow Happen.
 
You claim you believe in something greater than yourself.
You claim you believe that God has your back.
You claim that you believe that you are saved.
You claim that you believe that God can move mountains.
You claim all this stuff.
 
But that is the issue.
It is STUFF.
And you don’t really believe it.
You are faking your belief.
 
If you REALLY had a drop of belief you would just simply step into your flow and stop resisting it.
 
But you don’t.
 
Which is why those of us who choose to step into the river of blessings and just open ourselves up are so f-cking rare.
 
This river is ever flowing.
There is more than enough with plenty left over.
We could jump and frolic, laugh and play in this abundance together.
 
But you don’t believe you can have it.
You are to caught up on everything else that you are trying to control instead of just reaping the blessings that this phenomenal life has to offer.
 
I wish it were different.
And it is for some.
About 0.01% of some that is.
 
But is that 0.01% you?
You may feel that stir in your gut.
Butterflies in your tummy.
Warmth in your chest.
Pulsing in your genitals.
 
But is it REALLY you?
Only YOU can answer this.
 
Until you get around to answer it,
I am going to be over here in the sparkling, cool, relaxing waters of abundance.
Enjoying my life.
My day.
My blessings.
I am going to bask in the sunshine of this life and just breathe it in.
Follow my bliss and get lost in life’s rapture.
 
I will be here.
Waiting for you to come join.
 
Say yes to you.
You deserve to live.
 
I love you.
 

And remember,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 
PS – Yesterday I launched my newest online workshop.
It is 10 days of alignment asskickery for anyone who wants to leap into their desired life.
 
Stop F*cking Around launched yesterday and Live training kicks in on July 18th, 2018.
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/
 
You will not want to miss this event.
 
Here are some of the thing s that people are saying who have sampled the workshop so far.
 
” Wow, it is like magic. I accessed the pre-work and instantly felt the changes in my thinking. So powerful.”
 
“I love your style, you teach and share with such ease, it’s like working with your best friend. I feel like you just get me and where I am at.”
 
“You make it so easy to just embrace life. I have followed you for years and having this opportunity to work with you is so exciting.”
 
Stop F*cking Around – 10 days of Alignment Asskickery!
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/
 
Grab your spot TODAY and get started on creating that F-ck YES! Life Now.
 
STOP saying you want it, but NEVER take any solid action to GETTING IT.
 
STOP bouncing around with ton’s of great ideas, but no clarity as to what you really desire.
 
STOP making excuses, instead CLAIM your AWESOMNESS.
 
Do you have a calling that is screaming at you?
Do you crave an authentic, blissed out life?
Do you have ton’s of creative energy but no clue what to do with them?
Do you feel like you have tried all these things but are still just standing at the side lines of your life?
 
Well ….
 
The answer is simple.
 
Stop F*cking Around!
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/
 
SIGN UP NOW.
Start living your Truth.
Start Calling in your blessings.
You deserve it.
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/

Just Show the Eff Up in Your Life – You Deserve It.

You are not being real with yourself.
Seriously you are not.
You may have some ego pop up in you from reading these words, you may want to argue it and fight it and point to all the ways that you are authentic and truthful, but in reality you are not showing up as your radiant authentic self.

How can I make this bold statement?
Because none of us are.
We are all hiding from aspects of ourselves, we are all in denial of our truth.

We mask ourselves from these flaws, these nasty little monsters that we keep locked away in the closets of our personality and mind. The shadows of our soul’s light.

Yes none of us are authentically us.

I was having a conversation with a man a few weeks ago and the topic of authenticity came up. He asked me why I colored my hair and why I put extensions in my hair. He told me he thought that I was beautiful just the way God created me and he wondered why I would not just authentically be me the way God intended at my birth.

I attempted to explain to him that I did these things with my hair because I wanted to. It was not for anyone but myself and it was all about how they made me feel.

His response was one based in his care for me and his adoration for who I am and what I share that helps him understand his life and relationships with more clarity and ease. But the energy that it met me with felt like control.

The more I found myself explaining my choices, the more I felt like I was dealing with my father and was somehow in a position of explaining myself and getting his permission. Which is sheer craziness for this particular relationship for sure, however the energy that was there was still the same. And it was met by my frustration of having to explain when I find no need to explain myself.

But here I was EXPLAINING.

I do what I do, for me not anyone else.
It is that simple.
Yet here I was in this conversation. This man’s big brown eyes looking at me like a curious little boy with a desire for me to know that I did not need to do anything in his eyes to be better. I was perfect as I was.

He took my actions of coloring my hair and having extensions as a lack of authenticity.

Asking me, ” How can you advocate authenticity so much but then not be the you that God created? Why do you have to change yourself?”

The reality is that I am being very authentic in my actions of coloring my hair, having fuller, longer hair with my extensions, by decorating my body with the tattoo’s, the perfumes, the makeup or lack of makeup that I choose. I put on the clothes that I feel best in each day, whatever that may be. I do not dress because of some dress code or how I believe I want people to perceive me, I dress how I desire based on my mood in the moment. I make choices for my body and how I choose to show up physically in the world based not on what someone is telling me or how I will be perceived but on who I am in that day.

Some days I feel like a stay at home mom who just wants to stay in her PJ’s and not care about her hair or looks.

Some days I feel like a sultry seductress who wants to wear no panties, a skirt with a slit up to my mid thigh and a revealing top.

Some days I feel like an outdoor adventurer and grab my jeans and a tee shirt and hiking shoes.

Some days I feel like I want to put on my professional hat and be very of the mind and structures so I put on more traditional business clothes.

Then there are the days where I look like a total biker bitch.
The days where I could give Princess Diana (bless her soul) a run for her money on beautiful dresses.

No matter what the day, I guarantee I am showing up as me in the moment.

You may be shaking your head in agreeance right now, or wonder why the eff I am even writing about this.

The message of this brief share is to say that none of us are 100% authentic.
All we can ever do is try and show up as authentic as we can in any given moment.
And our hair, clothes, makeup or anything else that we choose to add to our physical being is not a masking of our truth.
There are plenty of us who use these things to hide from ourselves or choose what we do with our physical beings based on what society, work, family say we should do, but when you get right down to it. If you feel deep into yourself, you will see that the way you choose to express yourself is yours and only yours.

The more in alignment you are to who you truly are,
the less likely you are to make decisions based on anyone other than yourself.

There is never a need to explain who you are or why you are choosing what you are choosing.

You do you.
The ONLY thing you ever need to realize is that the expression of you that you let be seen needs to come from your soul, not your fear of others.

True authenticity is about your heart and soul.
It is about alignment and revealing just this.

The most outwardly made up person, with plastic surgery, pounds of makeup, expensive clothes, the most expensive car and a fancy resume can be one of the most authentic people you will ever know if they are expressing their soul’s creativity for the growth and connection to their soul.

Or they can be one of the most masked people you will ever meet if they are only trying to look a certain way and be a certain way because they don’t believe they are enough or that this is the only way they will ever get love or connection.

Either can be true.

I CHOOSE me. 
I CHOOSE honoring my soul’s creative flow in life.
I CHOOSE showing up without apology for who I am every day.
I CHOOSE self love, which means doing what feel’s good for me.

Authentically loving myself and doing what turns me on.
Can you say the same?

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

PS – Today is the launch of my newest online workshop. 
It is 10 days of asskickery for anyone who wants to leap into their desired life.

Stop F*cking Around launches today and Live training kicks in on July 18th, 2018.
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/

You will not want to miss this event.

Here are some of the thing s that people are saying who have sampled the workshop so far.

” Wow, it is like magic. I accessed the pre-work and instantly felt the changes in my thinking. So powerful.”

“I love your style, you teach and share with such ease, it’s like working with your best friend. I feel like you just get me and where I am at.”

“You make it so easy to just embrace life. I have followed you for years and having this opportunity to work with you is so exciting.”

Stop F*cking Around – 10 days of Alignment Asskickery!
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/

Grab your spot TODAY and get started on creating that F-ck YES! Life Now.

STOP saying you want it, but NEVER take any solid action to GETTING IT.

STOP bouncing around with ton’s of great ideas, but no clarity as to what you really desire.

STOP making excuses, instead CLAIM your AWESOMNESS.

Do you have a calling that is screaming at you?
Do you crave an authentic, blissed out life?
Do you have ton’s of creative energy but no clue what to do with them?
Do you feel like you have tried all these things but are still just standing at the side lines of your life?

Well ….

The answer is simple.

Stop F*cking Around!
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/

SIGN UP NOW.
Start living your Truth.
Start Calling in your blessings.
You deserve it.
https://www.tantrictransformation.com/stop-f-cking-around/

Your Sh*t Will Set You Free!

Resistance is futile.
Our resistance to the life that we want is sheer craziness in itself.Yet we continue to do it.
We continue to just say NO,
to ourselves.
To our hearts and our souls.
We ask the question of , “Why do I not have this or that NOW?”
We insist that we are in alignment to it,
when we are far from it.

Wonder why the f*ck you have what you have?

It is because you are in alignment to this shit.
It is your shit.
The relationships that do not fully serve you.
The bank accounts that are not what you want them to be.
The debt and bills that seem to over take you.
The health that wavers.
The job that empties you.
The disconnectedness.

Yes.
It is ALL your’s baby.

Wonder why it is here?
Here in your life?

No matter how hard you resist it, it just keep showing up, huh?

Well that is because you are it.
Your inside world is manifesting and showing you EXACTLY where you are.

Not happy with it.
You say.
There is good news in the midst of this pile of shit.

YOU CAN change it.
But first you must STOP resisting it and just see it for where you are at.

The more you resist it, the more you call it in and jump in bed with it.
The more you connect to it and it feeds from you.

Fall in love with your shit.
This shit is the shit that your dreams are made of.
This shit is the shit that you need to get right with.
This shit is the shit that is in side of you.

It scares you.
It may even terrify you.
You may feel lost,
abandoned,
unloved and not worthy.
But this is here to help you through it.

God bless your shit!

We all have it.
We all don’t want it.
It is here though to serve a purpose.
To build our character, open our hearts, heal our souls and make us KNOW with certainty what we want and WHO we are.

Your soul is all that it can be, all that it can reveal up to this moment.

STOP looking for yourself.
You are HERE.
You are COMPLETE.

Your shit show’s that.
You are a GREAT manifester.
Look at all that you have called in.
Your life is reflecting your thoughts,
your fears,
your hopes,
your emotions.

Just look.
It is AMAZING.
Yes,
this shit.
It is all your’s.
It is here to help you meet you.
To show you where you are at.

STOP resisting.
Start loving.

Embrace your shit.
Find the JOY in it.
Find the perfection in it.
Find the ease in it.

Let go.

You know what you want.
The ONLY way to it,
is through your shit.

So STOP wondering,
Stop questioning.
Stop looking for the how too’s on getting what you want.
Just STOP the craziness of resistance.

You already have everything that you desire.
It is here.
It is coming.
Your soul know’s who you really are.
You are aligning more and more each day.

When you surrender.
When you open.
When you let go.

You will feel peace.
You will feel comfort.
You will feel certainty.
You will feel joy.
You will feel bliss.

You will JUST KNOW.
You will KNOW YOURSELF,

FINALLY.

Resistance is futile.
Resistance only slow’s you down.

Take your f*cking foot off the brakes BABY.

You deserve to have it ALL NOW.

LET GO.
Love your shit.

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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