Life Lives Through Us For No Other Reason Than This.

“Emotion rising up,
I can feel it strong in my chest.
Tears want to stream from my eye’s
and escape down my cheeks.
My heart is beating just a bit faster than before.
I am nervous,
I am excited,
I am feeling out of control of the situation.
I can do nothing to help truly,
but be arms to support
and words to hopefully lighten your heart.
Your fear.
My sweet,
I love you so dearly.
And all I can do is tell you this.”
 
It is moments such as this,
that I find myself being reminded of how powerful life is,
how it grabs hold of us and let’s us know it’s hunger.
It hungers for our depth.
It hungers for our passion.
It wants us to claim the moment.
To be present
and attentive.
 
This is where life LIVES.
 
These moments,
fleeting and yet lingering,
as they happen to each and every one of us.
We dance in and out of fear.
Even in the most beautiful space that we might find ourselves,
even in the moments when all that we have worked for
finally seem’s to be manifesting,
fear comes in.
It bares itself to us and makes us aware of how small we are.
How timeless each moment is,
how delicate each breath can be.
Our teacher.
Our conqueror,
it is there by our side.
A friend and foe.
 
And what must we do to escape it’s grip?
There is only one thing,
in any moment that must happen for us to awaken to our truth and lean out of the hold of fear in our life.
 
We must,
with certainty,
and no doubt,
we must feel deeply and know who we are.
For at our core,
at our deep soul level is where we discover all.
It is here in these caverns of our true self that we find all the armor that we need,
which is not armor at all,
but instead a revealing.
An allowing of our true divine selves to be unmasked and revealed, in true raw authenticity and truth.
 
Yes here,
here is where we rule.
Here is where we find our strength.
In all moments in life,
we are meant to expand,
we were born to breathe,
and to feel life living through us.
Only in our unmasking,
and accepting of our depth and truth,
can we do this and conquer fear.
 
But to step firmly into living a life on purpose,
one must consistently be getting ready,
to be ready.
 
And what does this mean?
 
To BREATHE.
To do the mindset work,
to consistently challenge ourselves to be all of who we are.
Not side stepping our truth,
not hiding from our feelings,
not masking our light.
 
No we might have been born to run,
but not to run away from life.
Only to run into its arms,
to have it wash over us,
and through us in each moment of our experience.
From our first breaths to our last,
life is here to cradle us and move through us.
Our only mission is to be it’s vessel in it’s eternal quest to feel what it cannot without us.
 
Yes,
moments such as the one that is breathing through me right now are what expands our potential,
opens our hearts,
teaches us our strength,
and reveals our soul.
 
Moments are all that we ever have.
And each moment is a footstep on our souls journey.
The end will be the arrival back to it’s beginning.
Full and complete.
Expanded into more.
Life living through us,
for no reason other than to feel.
 
And here my love,
is what you must remember,
the desire you feel in your heart,
deep down into your bones,
the passion,
the fear,
the certainty,
the courage,
the vastness and the tightening,
it is all your soul,
begging you to become your truth.
And just FEEL.
Allow yourself to FEEL GOOD NOW,
as your soul desires,
where all your dreams can be realized.
 

As always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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So You Want Me To Coach You.

Ouch!
Ouch!
Ouch!
Alright.
I get it.
Really I do.
I know that I don’t act like I do.
I know that these lessons just keep knocking me in the head,
year after year,
but truly I get it.
I just cannot seem to act on it.
I try.
REALLY I DO.
I mean I do the work.
I do it daily.
I faithfully do it.
I think I am showing up.
I think I am in living in alignment to my soul.
I think I am authentic.
But ya know,
things just are not coming through the way that I hoped.
The money is not washing in like a great river yet.
My body still feels fatigued and overwhelmed.
My mind has a lot in it.
I mean look at all that is on my plate.
I have so much responsibility.
Half the time I don’t know what end is up.
I have success.
I have some really good sh*t in my life.
And I stay focused on my gratitude for it all.
But I feel like I really have to struggle to get anything to manifest.
I have to make it happen,
and if I pause to try and enjoy my life at all,
then everything that I have been working so hard at just crashes.
It is ridiculous really.
Why even bother.
Why do I work so damn hard if it all can be washed up into nothing overnight pretty much?
Oh gosh gally geeze,
I cannot help it though.
There is this pull inside of me.
This desire for something more.
It is like I am forever hungry and no matter how much I consume I wan for more.
I am being pulled this way,
but it scares me.
It terrifies me.
I don’t think that I am ready.
I mean do I know enough?
Am I good enough?
Can I really live that life?
You ask me what it would be like if I just stopped living in accordance to everyone else’s expectations and opinions of what I should be doing?
You ask me what I truly believe about myself and my life at my core?
And I shake inside.
And yet cannot grasp the sensation of what it would be like if I just let go of what everyone else wanted of me.
How could I do that?
Wouldn’t that be wrong in some fashion?
Make me a bad person?
Sh*t IDK….
It feels good.
It does.
But it also rattles me.
It feels so strange.
You make it all seem so simple.
It has to be harder than this.
Right?
I mean how can it be this effing simple?
And yet I watch you.
I watch so many others live,
no not just live but THRIVE and they seem to do it with hardly any effort.
No struggle.
It is just them.
To THRIVE.
Everything flows to them.
They have lady luck on their side without a doubt.
God favors them.
And then there are those of us who work our a*sses off,
day in and day out.
Living for the weekends.
Our holidays and bonuses.
And we wake up with struggle on our mind,
fearful of what will happen in our day.
With our work.
With our spouses.
Our children.
Our health.
and we fear the day.
But then,
I look….
I look out and I see you.
I see you in ease THRIVING.
How can this be?
How do you do it all with such grace,
such love,
in joy and abundance always.
Why do things just seem to come to you?
Is it really as simple as you share in our work together?
Can I really have it too?
And quickly?
Okay,
I get it.
Okay, not really.
But I want too.
I desire change.
I want to be coachable.
I will surrender to the process and I will not just do the work externally,
I will be absorbed by it.
I will breathe it.
I will soften into myself,
in faith and I will allow myself to be seen more and more each day as you tell me too.
No longer will I hide my greatness out of fear of others thoughts.
No longer will I move in the shadows of my ego.
I will take your hand and let you lead me to all that i want.
Applying with certainty all that you share.
Yes.
Yes.
I get it.
Coachability.
Surrender.
Certainty.
Authenticity.
Yes I am ready.
Lead me.
Sign Me Up.
I CLAIM MY LIFE TODAY!
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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Who’s Claiming You Love?

Well F-ck!
There you go again.
Chasing everything that you don’t want because you got caught up in everyone else’s stuff.

Thinking that, that is what you should do if you love them.

And what has happened to you love?
Oh, I know….
you lost yourself.

Yet again you forgot about the most important person in your life.

YOU.

You forgot to make time and space for you.

And look what has come of it.

Your world is in chaos.
Your exhausted and overwhelmed.
You are running on empty.

And as much as you want to point a finger outward,
and say that they made you do it.
Say that you had no choice.

You know that it is bullsh*t!

So what are you going to do about it?

You may want to put your head down and force your will.
You may want to fully retract yourself from everything and go into hiding.
You may think that you cannot stop this cycle and that you have to just keep on going.
You may still believe even that you need to do that.

But the reality,
is far from what you think it is love.
The reality is that it is HIGH time that you PAUSE and take a moment for YOU.

At all cost too.
Because the other cost’s are far too great if you let them manifest into existence.
I mean if you keep doing what you are doing,
what do you think will end up happening?

Suddenly things will change on their own?
Suddenly someone will stop everything and say, “Hey, no don’t keep doing all of this for me and everyone else, let me carry that for you, and you just go take a holiday for yourself…”

That is laughable.
And it won’t happen.
Because you are not allowing it to happen.
Because you somewhere in your crazy thinking and feeling believing that it cannot happen and that you don’t deserve it to happen,
even though at your core,
if you ask yourself what you truly want,
you may be shocked to discover that you believe and almost expect that someone will come save you from the choices that you are making and from the actions that you are taking and all that you are carrying.

And if you get really real with yourself you may even feel some anger or bitterness around this.
I mean look at all that you are doing for everyone else.
Right?

Seriously.
You do it all.
You carry all that load for everyone,
and surly they will notice.
Surely they will see it and want to say thank you.

Not just say thank you,
but REALLY say THANK YOU.

And then you will be happy!

Okay love,
this has got to sound a bit whacked to you.
I mean you know logically that it is not so.
You know that ONLY YOU can make the changes in your life that are needed.

I mean you get that you are responsible for your life.

I hope you do.

Because that is the only f-cking way out of this mess you have yourself in.
The only way out of it,
and the only way that you will be happy,
and feel confident, strong, and in love with your life and yourself is IF you,

YES YOU…

Claim your LIFE TODAY.
And claiming your life is more than just just talking about it.
It is actually meaning it at a deep SOUL LEVEL.
And then HONORING that and taking the steps that you are called to take despite everyone else.

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for grown A*s Believers”
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Patience is Bullsh*t.

Patience.
Never pray for patience because you will be given every opportunity to learn patience.

Right?
Man, I sure understand this. 
And have never prayed for patience because of that very statement that someone said as kid and I got even then.

Now, I have also been told repeatedly that I must be one of the most patient people.

It is assumed that I am. 
And I am in many cases.

However, I do not think it is always patience at work. 
I think that it is understanding and compassion at work more than patience. 
Although they help me to have patience.

And I am sure that the same is true for you.

When we can understand where someone is coming from and why things are happening then we are more likely to have patience for them or the situation to change and do what “should” be happening.

And that is all wonderful and all, 
but today’s share is not on how important patience is in these instances.

No.

Today I want to share another side to patience.

Because everything has two sides, 
two personalities you could say and patience is no different.

The flip side of patience, 
is that patience is BULLSH*T!

You may be wondering why I am saying this or how I could even make such a statement, 
and don’t you fret, 
I am going to be sharing my take on this flipped other side of patience.

First I want you to feel into the statement,

“I am waiting on the right time.”

Yes feel that.
I know that you just like myself have said this so many times before. 
You may even be saying it about something right now in your life. 
Something that keeps nudging at you and has you wavering.

Has you going, ” Man I wish, I had the money, the time, the support, the education, the blah…blah…blah… to go forward on that.”

You may be saying, ” I am just waiting on when my kids are grown, when my body is in this shape, when I have enough money saved up, etc.”

Yes here is bullsh*t patience for you.

Here is where I am calling you out in pointing the blame of not doing what you need to do, what you actually feel called to do on patience.

And I am going to tell you the effing truth about this flip side of patience.

The truth is that the reason you are sitting there, 
oh so patient and happy about building your muscles and getting your lessons, just WAITING FOR THE PERFECT TIME, 
waiting for thing sto line up and somehow magically call to you that the time is NOW.

Is because, 
YOU ARE NOT IN ALIGNMENT.

It is not patience that has you in some holding pattern.

It is lack of alignment.

And the f-cking lack of alignment comes from your fear based scarcity thinking. 
From you still believing that you need to wait.
That you need to do something to be worthy of, 
or have sacrificed enough of to have what you want.

Your lack of alignment comes from the reality that you are focused on your problems and trying to fix them from a low vibe view, 
instead of just letting the f-ck go and getting into alignment and letting them get fixed.

And so you tell yourself, 
I just need to be patient and this too shall pass.

It soothes you to think that you are doing what is right, huh?
It soothes you to buy into this bullsh*t lie that you are telling yourself, 
that you must suffer and sacrifice just a bit more, 
and then alignment will naturally occur for you and all will be right again.

Well, here is one of my famous news flashes.

NEWS FLASH!

No amount of unalignment will ever bring you back around to alignment.

Yet, there you sit, 
believing that it will.

WTF! Are you doing?

You want to get into alignment?
You want to have blessing abound?
You want the F-ck Yes! Life?
You want to be a conscious creator of your world?

Then get conscious about the fact that while you sit there with all your patience, that you are nothing more than out of alignment.

And the ONLY way to get the F-ck back into alignment is to stop being so damn patient and get moving.

Take action.
Stop making excuses. 
Stop accepting so little for your life. 
Stop thinking you are not worthy, 
that you have to sacrifice.
That you have to WAIT.

You don’t.

Your alignment can happen RIGHT NOW.
You are in charge, 
in control of it. 
And when you are aligned, 
the RIGHT TIME is all the time.

It’s call flow baby.
ANd it can be all yours.

Thoughts to feelings, 
feelings to actions.

What you focus on grows, 
so put your focus on what you want.
Feel it.

And as always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living
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Never Stop Manifesting The Cup of Coffee

About 20+ years ago I started focusing in on the law of attraction.
I wanted to take charge of my manifesting and I wanted to create the life of my dreams.
Having always been spiritually focused,
and enjoying quantum physics for my pleasure reading,
it came to me that this thing known as the Law of Attraction might be worth investigating.
After all there was a history of exploration around it.
Anyone who has ever read Think and Grow Rich, or any of Napoleon Hill’s work as well Earl Nightingale, Dale Carnegie or Norman Vincent Peale just to name a few greats, I am sure would agree that there must be something to this law.

Through the course of time,
I have had many a positive and a negative experience with the law. The thing that I have had the toughest concept with was personal responsibility.

Yes responsibility.
We are each responsible for what is coming into our manifestation zone.
What we are attracting to us.
It is difficult to take responsibility for the crap that manifests in our lives.
I am sure that you would agree.
It is hard to look at these things and say with certainty and even enthusiasm,
“Yes! I did that. – I attracted that. – I own it.”

I mean how often do we want to own the random flat tire,
the hot water heater blowing up, the car accident, the personal injury, the job or relationship loss?

We never want to own these things.
yet this is where the power of our manifestation is seen and we MUST pay attention too.

I will even go to the level that we should be excited about the sh*t that manifests,
as it shows us that we are manifestors.
And damn good one’s at that.

Owning our power means that we do not ignore any manifesting that we have going on for ourselves.
It means that we have to be just as full of gratitude for the free random coffee that we manifested to the flat tire.

It is all us.
It all came from our thought vibration.
And this is where we learn our truth.

Are you sitting there, reading this and agreeing?
or are you disagreeing?
It does not matter BTW.
It just is.

That is the thing about universal laws.
they don’t care if we believe in them or not,
they still happen according to their design.
It is up to us to become conscious and start making use of them to our consistent benefit ( manifesting what we perceive as positive) or remain unconscious and just let the cards fall will they will.

It is up to each of us.

However, if we choose to CLAIM OUR LIVES,
if we choose to move forward toward the F-ck Yes! Life,
then we MUST become conscious of this law.
We must start to own all of our manifestations,
not just those that feel good to us.

I so often hear people say,
“So I started using the law of attraction 5 years ago.”

LOL….
This cracks my ass up.

“Started using…”
Honey, you were born using the law of attraction.
You use it every moment of your life.
You use it in your waking hours,
you use it in your sleeping hours.
You use it when you are pooping,
when you are eating,
when you are having sex,
or an argument.
When you are paying your bills,
or when you are on vacation.
There is NEVER a moment that you are not using the law of attraction.

It is about THOUGHT VIBRATION.

And if you “think” you are “thinking the right thoughts” but crap just keeps manifesting in your life,
then guess what?

YOU ARE STINKING THINKING.

It is not rocket science baby.
It is a universal law,
a law that is based on the frequency that your thoughts are sending out.
That is it.

The ONLY other component that matters to it,
is how you feel about these thoughts.

The emotions attached to these thoughts.

If you are sold hook line and sinker on the fact that you will always be living pay check to pay check,
or that you will never find love,
or you will never have the body you want,
or whatever it is that you are CERTAIN that you cannot have,
then guess what baby?
You are right.

And feel that feeling,
that sensation in your body as you think about not having it.
Feel that anxiety,
that sadness,
that disappointment,
that anger.

If you are waking with a subconscious thought that is affirming that you cannot have,
and you wake with one of these sensations,
then it should just make sense that you not manifest ANYTHING other than things that support these feelings.
So you pour hot coffee on yourself,
you break a dish,
you scratch the side of your car,
your shoes don’t feel right,
you feel bloated,
etc.
etc.

The opposite is true to though luv.

If you wake with a feeling of gratitude,
a feeling of love in your heart, ‘excitement for the day,
for life and all that you can make happen.

If you feel into how good it feels to wake up,
and KNOW that you are the CREATOR of your world,
that you are so supported.

So very supported.
The whole universe wants to give you what you want.
What you are VIBING TOO.
So all you have to do is BE HAPPY.
And more things that make you happy will manifest like magic into your world.

F-ck YES!!!!!!

This is the F-ck Yes!! Life that I coach on.
This is what I help people every day achieve.
This is the life that I wake to daily,
and if I don’t then I consciously make up my mind to change my VIBE ASAP.

Today,
today is like any other.
Today I woke,
I was tired, but I stretched and said my gratitudes before my feet hit the ground.
I moved on through my moments of motherhood,
of taking tired kids to school,
I dealt with my ex and christmas items,
I looked at some bills,
and I drove in rush hour traffic to take my daughter almost 2 hours away to state testing for homeschool.

And you know what?
I walked into the conference space that her testing was at,
fifteen minutes early,
I laughed and connected with the ladies who were setting everything up for the students and a few moments later,
one of the women said,
” Excuse me mam, would you be interested in a white mocha latte from Starbucks? It is untouched. I ordered it on accident for someone who is not here. Do you want it?”

F-ck Yes!!!!
A small manifestation.
But showing where my VIBE is.

I said yes and gave my thanks.
I opened to receiving.

I said yes.
And gave gratitude. (KEYS to receiving more)

often in the start of awaking to the law of attraction,
we are told to just go manifest a cup of coffee.

I want to say,
NEVER STOP MANIFESTING THAT CUP OF COFFEE.

Your belief of your power starts and is consistently supported here.

So what will you manifest today?

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Don’t Use Your Alignment As Your Excuse.

It’s all about alignment they say.
It’s all about just saying yes to the things that make you feel good, they say.
It’s all about flow, the law of attraction and the vortex they say.
 
Listen to your soul.
Listen to your heart.
And blessings will abound.
 
Yeah, yeah, f-cking yeah!
 
Okay folks,
you all know that I preach the same thing that leader and visionaries,
game changers, guru’s and greats have preached for ever.
 
There is no f-cking secret.
The secret is that we are responsible 💯% for the way our life manifests.
 
Yes there is the SECRET!
But we don’t like taking that sorta responsibility,
do we?
 
No.
We don’t.
I sure the f-ck have an issue with this wake up call,
like every damn morning,
and sometimes and noon and bedtime too.
Sh*t I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes,
freaking out about stuff.
 
Wondering why this is happening?
How am I going to get through it?
And what did I do to deserve such crap?
 
And THEN….
then I get smacked by spirit. 👊✝️🕉️✡️☯️💥👀
And I realize that I am laying there freaking out about stuff that I have no control over,
stuff that is other people’s business,
or stuff that more than likely will never happen.
 
All I am doing is increasing the odd’s of it happening because I am setting a tone in my thinking and feeling,
I am loosing sleep,
over crap.
 
And so I am aligning myself to a bad day.
And crap on the horizon.
 
or……………
 
What about we only do everything that is in alignment to ourselves.
 
What about,
we “pray” about it.
“Meditate” on it,
and “feel” into it.
 
To make sure that it aligns with us fully.
 
Yes, that is what we need to do to feel good,
have success, and get into flow.
 
This is where we manifest our greatness.
Yes!
 
Yes,
this is the answer.
After all….
 
This is what all the who’s who of flow, greatness and abundance do and always have known to work and be true.
 
RIGHT?
 
Yes.
 
So ya’ know what?
Putting my head down at 12:15am to write that article post that I do daily and missed the the time or focus to write the twelve hours prior, but don’t really feel like writing now either, I should skip till tomorrow.
 
Sitting down and putting together those course training pages after a stressful day of running around, dealing with drama, and feeling a little under the weather, sure does not feel in alignment with me right now either, so SKIP.
 
Doing that follow- up work with possible clients, researching a condition that I have never heard of but have a client with, figuring out new systems for my website, or writing that promotional email or page, just seem’s like too much right now. I sorta feel like I just don’t have the motivation, or the creative flow to do it….
I mean I want it to be in flow,
so I need to wait till I feel like I am in flow,
in alignment so that it comes together right,
and that is not right now,
so SKIP.
 
Man, I am so effing tired and sore,
no time for anything.
Exhausted. Feel like crap.
I sure don’t have time for yoga class today or that walk.
It won’t hurt if I take a day off.
SKIP.
 
Oh baby, I love you.
Oh baby, you complete me.
Oh baby, you are so perfect.
Fast forward 18 months…. 5 years… or what have you.
I just think we are no longer in alignment.
I mean, I know that she/he is still the same person of yesteryear, and we said that our dreams and goals were this, but I have now found myself and I know that you are not in alignment to me anymore.
Oh you want to talk,
you want to work on the relationship,
you are willing to change, grow,
sorry I am not in alignment to it.
BYE.
 
Get where I am going with this alignment idea?
 
Here is the reality,
the reality is that we tend to use alignment as an excuse to get out of the things that we don’t want to do.
 
Isn’t it funny that when we REALLY don’t want to do something,
when we REALLY feel lazy,
when we REALLY just want out of a situation,
that God/Spirit ALWAYS answers us with
 
that’s not in alignment,
 
when we pray or meditate on it.
when we feel into it.
 
OMFG!!!!
 
Really.
Just grow a f-cking pair and say that you don’t want too.
Don’t use God/spirit and alignment as your f-cking excuse
 
If you want to be in alignment and have all the wonders of your heart,
then one of the first things you need to achieve is to be in integrity with who you are, what you want, what your boundaries are, what your desire is, and where the f-ck your VOICE is located.
 
That is what God gave you a voice for.
To speak your TRUTH.
 
No matter what anyone else thinks about it,
when you stand strong in your needs, desires, and heart,
when you stand in authentic integrity with yourself
and with others,
then guess what?
 
Yep you nailed it.
 
Then you are in ALIGNMENT.
And you will align to your abundant life.
You will align to your blessings.
 
Anything else is a lie.
 
So it is your choice,
stay average and ordinary,
and speak lie’s to avoid your own fear of rejection and pain,
or
speak from your soul’s alignment,
which mean’s…..
 
BE TRUTHFUL.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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You Say You Are in Alignment.

You say you are in alignment,
but you are broke.
You say that you are in alignment,
but you are fatigued and ill.
You say that you are in alignment,
but your life is in shambles and has you down.
You say that you are in alignment,
but nothings aligning to you.
 
 
Sound familiar?
Sound like maybe you personally have experienced?
 
I am familiar with this false alignment.
I have lived it.
Breathed it.
and been taken down by it.
 
It’s never fun to want so badly to be in alignment,
and turn around and see that you are not.
Fearful that if we admit that we are out of alignment that we will be leaning even more into all that we do not want,
so we just keep denying reality.
 
Yet, reality stares us in the face.
As we get asked to do something that we cannot afford,
we find ourselves wanting or needing something that we have to say, ” I am sorry, I cannot afford that, it’s too much.”
 
We wake up feeling like we were run over by a train,
day after day.
Or our bodies just cannot seem to feel good.
Illness bogs us down.
There is limited energy.
 
We look around our world,
and drama,
and trauma,
seem to be what makes up our existence.
 
Lady luck does not favor us,
even though we proclaim she does.
 
We know we are lying to ourselves,
we feel it in our bones.
we see it in our reflection in the mirror.
And we cringe.
 
There is a holding onto the fear.
You know that feeling.
 
That grasping in your chest.
That tightness in your gut.
That anxiety.
That melancholy feeling that just lingers.
 
And we hide.
We drink.
We eat all the wrong foods or nothing at all.
We smoke.
We “bake” ourselves.
 
And we hide.
We say its to help us let go.
It’s to help us decompress.
To help us sleep.
To help with this or that.
 
And sure it is.
 
But it is also there ,
and it is mainly this,
there to hide us from our pain.
From our lack of alignment.
 
The lies we tell.
The stories we make.
The masks we wear.
 
They do nothing but paint a picture of pain.
A pain that will devour us, if we do not get REAL.
 
Real with who we are.
Real with what we want.
Real with life.
And just open to the glory that is all around us.
Stop holding the fear,
stop practicing the thoughts,
the thoughts that kill us.
That steal from us our joy.
Our truth.
Our Abundant Life.
 
You say that you are in alignment.
But what does your alignment say about your vibration?
 
Today is a blessed day.
Or so it can be,
for you,
for me,
for all who claim it.
 
Today is a day,
that you can decide to say yes.
YES to yourself.
YES to your Abundant Life.
 
And this all stems not from the words that you speak in lies to your friends and family,
 
NO.
 
It comes from within.
The thoughts you think between the words.
The feelings you attach to those words and thoughts.
The love that you give,
not to others,
but to SELF.
 
Are you ready?
Are you ready to say YES?
 
I sure the f-ck hope you are.
This world needs you,
needs you to STOP your crazy self sabotage,
STOP your scarcity beliefs,
STOP your stinking thinking.
 
And JUST SAY YES!
 
Yes I am powerful.
Yes I am worthy.
Yes I am abundant.
Yes I am beautiful.
Yes I am vibrant.
Yes, yes, yes.
 
 
Look at that worthy, amazing soul in the mirror.
Look, really look.
And love them.
 
They need your love more than anyone else on this planet.
 
Many blessings to you this Sunday.
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
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Morning Alignment & Other Gratitude’s

 

Today I wake feeling so effing blessed.
So loved and supported.
So incredibly excited.
Vulnerable and open.
Today I wake fully alone in my bed,
in my home.
Not another human is here.
First time in almost a decade that I have had this experience at home.
My home is quiet,
Still and at peace.
The smell of sweet orange and cassia drift through the air,
The sun makes it way through my partially opened blinds as is greets me for this day,
Saying you are aligned.
Feel.
Feel your alignment by feeling how good you feel in this moment.
Notice your turned on, tapped in sensation.
The awe and gratitude of this morning.
You can almost feel heaven smiling as your heart says YES.

Mmmmmmm…..
Yes.

This is alignment.
This is a moment.
A moment to cherish.
To lean into and expand.

And so,
I stand in my kitchen,
Drinking my morning coffee,
Listening to Abraham Hicks,
And smile.
As the message is that of support.

Mmmmmm…
Mushrooms and onions saute in coconut oil.
Spinach wilting.
Eggs frying.
Sprinkle on some herb goat cheese and enjoy.
Side with something naturally sweet,
Strawberries.

Mmmmmmm…..
Yes.

Yes here is the moment.
Breathe it in.
Savor it.
Enjoy it.

And allow it to be the moment that carries.
Into the next.
And the next.

This is alignment.
It is the feeling.

That’s all it is.
All it ever is.
That pulls us into what we want.

The savory.
The sweet.
The rich.
The complex.
The bubbly.
Everything.

And when you want it all.
And know with certainty that is always available.
Then these seemingly small moments are no longer insignificant but instead powerful.

Because they share our truth around our alignment.
There is no hesitation.
There is so frustration.
There is no edginess.

There is just allowing.
Embracing.
And enjoying.

Of the moment.
And so it is.
And always can be.

When we let go.

As always,
Stop Existing & Start

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Crazy F-cking Gratitude + One Wild Ride.

I am so f-cking grateful.

Are You ⁉️⁉️

I sure the f-ck am.
Today I was driving home from the furniture store where I was buying a new couch for my front room plus bedroom furniture for my munchkins jungle themed room that if I can swing will look like a mini Rainforest Cafe,

And as I was driving I found myself in total gratitude for so many things.

I also found myself laughing out loud,
alone in my car,
over how crazy my year has been.

I mean really f-cking crazy.

Anyone who has been following me know’s the tales of this year but if you are new to the story line,
LET ME CATCH YOU UP…..

Started the year tripling my income after coming out of 2017 with massive emotional stress of figuring out how best to support my aging mom with dementia and all that comes with that.

Then entered the month of love (February) with my heart getting crushed from a man I never thought could ever take me to the low’s that he did in saying good bye abruptly.

Turned around and got my heart and body crushed by my other main man ( as you may have figured out, I am a polyamorous sorta girl on some days or years, and these two gents were my two leading men).

Had a pushed move into a new home, which I manifested in less than three days.

Found myself in a new neighborhood.
New home.
72 hours after a shocking experience.

Then had to deal with a summer of custody issues,
legal battles.

And had to buy a new car.
Furnish a home.
Heal my body.
Stay afloat.
And keep on coaching my beloved clients.

In the process of all of this,
my three eldest children ( age 23, 21 and 19) who were living in Maui moved home and needed to stay with me.

My eldest daughter conceived her first baby while in Maui,
So through all of this,
walking my baby girl through pregnancy as well.

Friendships have been tested.
Intimate relationships have been tested,
some new ones have been birthed,
some old one’s have been reignited in different ways.

And at the end of this day,
I find myself sitting here at my new breakfast nook table,
with my house under construction,
furniture being delivered tomorrow,
my baby boys coming home to me tomorrow,
my house not upside down,
but merging with the energy that I want.

I find my romantic life,
not healed or longing for what was,
but ignited to what can be.
And excited about the souls that have entered my world.

I find myself looking at my family,
as it shrinks in one way,
and expands in another.
Some children move out,
some are here,
some come and go according to a schedule that just is right and best for them and the situation,
while a grand baby ( a baby boy 😊) grows in my daughters womb.

I look at my business,
in its ebbs and flows of this year,
that impress and scare me.
Not because of a low,
but because the low is far higher than my high of last year. 🔥🔥🔥

I look at my life.
I look at my life.
Awe..
Yes in awe.

And my eye’s tear up.
I still feel all of the pain,
all of the trauma.

There is still much to heal.
Much to let go of.

And I SMILE.
In gratitude.
I sit here.

Knowing how f-cking blessed I am.
In gratitude I sit here.
Because sometimes the path to something better,
is painful beyond measure.

Sometimes the path to what we truly desire,
Is birthed on a road of loss and turbulence.

Sometimes the things that will bring us fully into who we are meant to be,
only come about because we had to grow ourselves through the storm that we were lost in.

Sometimes,
Yes, sometimes….

(and so it is in life, that the sometimes is actually most of the time.)

But you know what makes it all better?
You know what can set one out from the crowd?
You know what keeps you in alignment to all that you want,
all that you desire,
all that you know is on the other side?

GRATITUDE.

#1 KEY SECRET to manifesting miracles.
Living a happy life.
Being turned on.
And having it all, even in the storm.

IS GRATITUDE.

I had gratitude the morning I looked in the bank and my account had $32k in it – OVER NIGHT.

I had the same gratitude when the man I was deeply in love with said his goodbyes.

I had the same gratitude when my partner physically assaulted me.

I had gratitude when I paid the attorney.
I had gratitude when an old lover said he wanted to see a smile on my face.
I had gratitude when a new lover shared his heart with me.
I had gratitude when a dear friend told me I am the reason he is alive.
I had gratitude when my friend screamed in her pain at me.
I had gratitude when my daughter told me I was going to be a grandma.
And I had gratitude as I crumbled under the stress.
As I looked in my kindergartner’s eye’s as he screamed how he hated me, when I told him he had to change schools.

And so many more moments over this year.

GRATITUDE.
I am f-cking grateful.

Are you?

I encourage you to take a moment RIGHT NOW,
write down 20 things that you are grateful for.

Read them 3x.
and then repeat this process every morning and every night for 30 days.

See what manifests in your life.
See how you feel about your life.

And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Why Saying No to $60k May Keep You In Soul Alignment.

What would you give to make an extra $60,000 a year?
What would you sacrifice for this?
Would you be willing to step out of soul alignment for a good chunk of change?
 
Last week I was offered just this.
An extra $60k a year for really minimal time on my part.
It is an amazing opportunity to boot.
And I feel blessed to have it knock on my door.
 
But as I sit here over the week and feel into my heart.
Into my gut.
Into my core.
My soul…
 
I feel disgusted in truth.
I have been dancing around with this feeling all week,
telling myself this or that.
 
Telling myself that it was fear.
That maybe I had worthiness issues,
or even that I was being lazy.
 
However,
my gut feels nasty gross at the thought of saying yes to this opportunity.
I feel like my boundaries are being pushed on before they ever are.
I feel like I might have to fight for my boundaries and end up in a piss poor situation that could not only break open old wounds that I have done so much effing work around, but perhaps scar me even deeper.
 
I keep hearing certain statements made in my inquiry process that just do not sit well in my body and if I lean in to those feelings, I find myself being a f-ck no to the opportunity.
 
I feel edgy.
I feel nauseated.
I feel fear.
 
So what do I do?
Do I lean into a situation,
and opportunity,
because it appears to be so financially rewarding and even will help me in building my brand better potentially and gaining further exposure to potential clients and other opportunities?
 
OR…
 
Do I listen to my soul.
Listen to the reality that no matter how great it may appear from the outside, that my soul is not in alignment to it?
 
I tend to pause in moments like this.
I pause.
I do research.
And I sit with it a few days.
I understand the power of the ego,
and how it wants to raise havoc in our lives, preventing us from not stepping into all that we can be-do-have,
by getting us to embrace fear, shame, guilt, uncertainty or scarcity thinking.
Making us believe that something is something more or less than what our soul knows it to be.
 
The truth is simple.
Soul alignment is ALL that matters.
 
Whether,
you are looking at a relationship,
a job opportunity,
a new business,
a diet or workout,
or any life change or event,
right down to deciding on what you want for dinner.
 
Because even your dinner should be in soul alignment.
If you are willing to sacrifice and not be in alignment with the food you put into your body,
then where else are you willing to say yes or no when you mean the opposite.
 
When it just does not feel right,
but you feel shame, guilt, fear over stating your authentic answer?
 
Soul alignment at all cost is where it is at.
 
It can feel like the most challenging thing to do.
Which should,
when you think about it seem silly.
 
Silly because,
since when is saying yes to our soul,
yes to what we know to be right and good for us,
yes to alignment,
something that should be challenging?
 
It should not be challenging.
It should just be.
It should just be a no duh sorta thing.
 
RIGHT?
 
But it is not.
Reality is that ego has us all by the balls quiet frequently.
It has us jumping through hoops of fear and doubt,
acting from a place of scarcity and unworthiness,
instead of faith, love and abundance.
 
The things that feel good.
Even when they give us butterflies in our tummies.
 
The things that make our hearts smile.
And make our souls proud.
 
For me,
soul alignment is my only focus.
 
I won’t take on a new client even if I do not feel aligned to them.
 
And I certainly will not allow anyone into my personal life,
or my bed that I am not feeling aligned too.
 
If I step out of soul alignment,
which I do all too often on accident and because I am but only human at the end of the day,
I quickly look at where I stepped away from soul,
and do whatever it takes to get back into my flow.
 
If soul alignment is not your cup of tea,
you believe that it is just a pot a crap that all us new agey peep’s and supporters harp on because it is the hot topic,
bu that the real truth is that you just gotta compromise, shut up and bend over and take it, or that you have to spend all your time and energy doing what you don’t feel like doing because that is how life works and that is how success is achieved,
 
well then…
 
I am sorry.
 
Not really.
But I know that I cannot change your mind on this.
And that that very belief makes you out of alignment with my soul,
 
so why bother?
 
Back to the point of this share,
Soul Alignment.
 
You are either in it or you are not.
 
I can tell you that when I wake up to my munchkins jumping into bed with me,
snuggling up and saying, “Mommy, mommy I love you.”
And I feel good about who I am,
all that I do,
and all that I can provide.
I know that this feeling is what matters most.
Because as soon as I start to ignore my soul and the emotions and feelings that is guides me with,
I actually loose myself.
 
And in loosing myself,
I sacrifice my life.
In this sacrifice,
I also potentially sacrifice all that I can be-do-have,
and say no to the f-ck yes life that I desire.
 
So what are you willing to sacrifice for an opportunity,
a relationship,
or anything else that is not a f-ck yes to your soul?
 
Look at the true price of it.
 
It’s always your choice.
 
Praying you decide wisely and in favor of soul alignment.
 
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
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