WHEN I MAKE LOVE TO YOU.

WHEN I MAKE LOVE TO YOU.

 

I make love to me as well.

You open me to depths of my soul that no other has even come close.

I witness my joy,

my warmth,

my desire,

all in your arms,

and I feel carried in your presence.

 

As you look at me,

with eyes on fire with passion and admiration,

I feel the sweetness of your heart,

as well as its hunger.

 

When my breasts touch your chest,

and you pull me closer,

I feel decades passing through us.

There is no time nor space,

it is but only the here and now.

 

As you enter my body with yours,

I breathe deep with anticipation,

I feel athirst for your nectors that feed my soul.

My chest expands as I surrender,

softly, fiercely,

at your hand,

I am breathless with your touch.

 

My eagerness to be taken by you is never ending.

My body aches and yearns for your devouring.

And as you breathe,

my flesh tingles,

my mouth waters,

and I am wet.

 

I am now the ravenous one.

And you are my home.

 

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To all my followers who crave a relationship, a love that penetrates them to their core.

 

Yearning for the entwinement with “the one” that twin soul, that soulmate, that knows you beyond words or life memories of this time.

 

These are the images, the feelings and vibrations that we were born to expereince and we are in search for in our love, in our sex, in our relating. We do not hunger for surface level, superficial relationships, no matter how often we choose to settle for them.

What we desire is the fulfillment of what we know is our home.

And you my dear follower/reader can have just this.

 

But how you may wonder?

If you currently are not looking into the eyes of home, ‘then how can you call that sort of love in?

 

It’s all about authenticity and integrity with self.

It’s all about loving self beyond your darkness and mistakes.

It’s all about KNOWING that YOU ARE WORTHY,

worthy of this connection.

 

And in these things your vibrations will meet.

And you too my dear will experience home.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

2020 was a nasty year for relationships.

Couples and singles alike.

Hard to meet new people.

Difficult to do anything with your current partner.

The stress and worry exhausted many relationships,

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$1.4 MILLION AND YOU STILL DON’T VALUE IT!

A HEART COST $1.4 MILLION DOLLARS UNINSTALLED AND WITH ZERO ROOM AND BOARD.

 

And yet we don’t value them. We deny our hearts every f-cking day!And that is the sad truth.

 

Now you can say, well that heart that costs so much is because its primary function is to keep us alive and sometimes you need a new one to keep you going. Living is worth that much and more.

Yes living is worth that much and more. However, you are most likely not living. You are instead at best just getting by, surviving. And you are calling it living. Because while that heart of yours is beating you take it and this day for granted. Don’t you?

 

Let’s get serious.

 

You don’t even realize that you don’t value your heart. You think that it is serving its purpose just by beating and keeping the blood pumping through your veins.

 

But in truth…you are abusing it. You are not listening to it. You are actually denying it.You avoid it. You run from it. And you do it all in the name of “logic.”

 

Society and your upbringing hijacked your heart from you and you have bought it hook line and sinker ( big on the sinker part too) that you are to NOT LISTEN to your MF heart.

 

And then you wonder why sh*t don’t work out for you. Why you feel lost. Why you are never really happy. You may have fleeting moments of happiness, but you don’t really sink all the way into it do you. You may feel good here and there, but your “good days” require outside sources to act and do certain things. You don’t legitimately feel damn good.

 

Now you may tell a little lie here, I get it, you don’t want to actually surrender to the truth of your reality that you have allowed yourself to get a bit f-cked up through life. You want to feel like you are in control or perhaps that you are not in control, that life has caused all of this and you were not on board with it, but those are the cards that were dealt to you and you are doing the best you can with what you got.

 

The reality is that you are in control. You have allowed yourself to lose your heart. You may have not known that you were allowing it, you may have thought that it is just the way life is, you may have actually believed that if you listened to your heart that it would make you weak, lost or feeling stupid in someway. That it was not a good source of wisdom.

 

The opposite is true.

 

It is your GPS.

It is your path.

And it is far more valuable than $1.4 million.

It is worth EVERY F-CKING THING.

 

But you still don’t get it.

You still believe that it’s too dangerous to follow,

too uncertain to trust.

You still believe that it will get you into trouble and cause you pain and suffering,

because you “think” that those past painful events that you have lived through,

that some if not all of them were actually caused by your hearts poor judgment.

And so you deny it still.

And you have chosen to sit in agony for the rest of your days, avoiding life.

Turning away from bliss and joy, surrender to love and having all that you want for.

 

It’s sad.

Truly it is that so many choose this path of not discovering themselves.

 

And that is what the heart is all about.

Discovery of your truth.

It is your source of alignment to self,

to God.

 

It is through the soft words of our hearts and guidance that we can be led to everything.

 

It is said,

“The heart wants what the heart wants.”

 

And that is true.

It wants your joy.

 

But you must be willing to surrender to it.

To be unveiled and willing to drop your armour and feel.

It demands us to feel all of life,

the perceived good and bad.

 

Because it is through these things that we gain clarity and certainty in what our hearts crave.

 

Clarity.

Did you hear that?

Clarity, which is key to living a f-ck yes life,

key to having the love, the money, the well being that you speak of wanting.

You can strive for it through logic all your days,

and you can touch on it here and there,

but will never be able to maintain and keep it with joy without your heart.

You will find yourself struggling.

Fighting with others and self,

feeling lost and unseen,

while you fight to avoid what your heart already knows.

And this will be your ultimate suffering.

 

Not knowing the self.

Not living from alignment.

Not feeling life move through.

 

So what do you choose beautiful?

What will it be?

 

Continuing to live by other ideas, perceptions and judgement of who you are and what you should or should do or be?

 

Continue fearing the decisions that you make and what direction is best?

 

Continue wondering if you will ever be happy?

 

Or FINALLY surrendering to your divine GPS known as your heart.

Making it the most valuable tool that God has ever given you?

 

It’s time beautiful to acknowledge your truth, your power and your joy.

 

It’s time to say F-ck Yes! to your heart.

 

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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I CAN’T SEE PAST YOU.

 

I CAN’T SEE PAST YOU.

 

I am going to get real with you, raw with you, vulnerable and share something that scares the shit out of me today in this musing.

 

Ready?

I sure am not, but here we go anyway 🙂

 

I recently let down my guards.

I recently decided to just drop the fear of letting love penetrate me to my core,

I recently took down my shield that was protecting my delicate hungry heart,

and I allowed my soul to lead me right into possibly the last relationship of my life.

 

I possibly opened the floodgates to something that I have craved for, desired and sampled in ways in the past but did not actually believe was possible,

or thought oh that will happen in my golden years if I am lucky.

 

Folks, I can’t see past him.

WTF am I to do with that?

 

Never before have I not been able to see a life past someone.

Even my deepest loves in my past I could see life past them,

without them, it may not have been what I wanted for or desired but I could still look past them and know that there was more,

something greater, deeper, more elevating and penetrating.

 

And here I sit today with the realization that I can’t see past him.

I can’t keep ignoring the words and feelings that rise up in my core,

my soul screams them, my eyes communicate them, my heart shakes and makes me know its desire and to make matters worse he just keeps confirming all of it to me in soft ways and direct ways.

 

I am done with looking for the gotcha’s.

Done with trying to find what’s wrong, why it would not work, should not work, cannot happen. Done with giving a shit about what the world says….

 

Sorta taking a Bonnie Raitt approach to this and just going with,

“Let’s give them something to talk about.”

 

Because the alignment is too f-cking damn good to ignore and turn away from any longer.

 

I AM ALL ABOUT THE ENERGY.

 

Everything is energy.

It’s the most potent, important thing when we are looking at anything in our lives. Especially when we are looking at relationships and building a F-ck Yes! Life.

 

It’s not just chemistry.

Chemistry can fade.

There is New Relationship Energy (NRE) that we all have on the front side of getting together with someone, and it typically lasts anywhere from six months to 3 years if we are lucky, but then it fades and we start to see our partners clearly and as the humans that they are.

 

We can feel alignment when we are meeting in the wounds of our life and they are sinking up with someone else’s,

We can feel energy when we have physical attraction, mental stimulation, emotional bonding or a feeling that someone “gets us” but true energetic connection goes deeper than all of this.

Real soul alignment is more than that feeling like you are seen or understood.

 

Energetic Alignment in Intimate relationships is about elevation of the souls.

 

And it comes from a place of your core.

It comes from two individuals being aligned to who they are first without each other.

Not needing each other, but choosing to add the cherry of the relationship into their already damn good life picture.

 

True soul alignment is a feeling of coming home.

And when you reach that feeling of coming home you most likely will not be able to see a relationship past this one that elevates you into wanting so much more from life and yourself.

 

Soul based relating is about expansion in love.

It is about reaching your edge and knowing that you can go further because you are limitless and together you are limitless.

 

It’s a love that extends past time and space.

 

My experience over the last six weeks of my life is one of great momentum.

Going zero to 300 you could say.

A hundred years traveled in a little over a month,

the feeling of making up for lifetimes of lost time.

A merger of energy so great that I simply don’t have words to describe.

A shattering of my heart that is breathtaking and welcoming.

And here is something I have recognized in my work with thousands of people through the years who have been through this process of coming into soul aligned relationships of this depth and magnitude:

 

You can see the steps as to how you arrived right where you are at and how f-cking perfect everything is. How the synchronicities, the crazy little coincidences, how people, places and timelines guided you to this moment, to this relationship and how had you chosen differently you would have set things back or even missed it.

 

YOU HAD TO BECOME A MATCH TO THIS ENERGY.

 

And that is the truth.

 

We forget how WE,

Yes, we and only we can do this for ourselves. That we have to become a match to the person that we want to call into our lives.

All this talk about soulmates, twin flames, etc….

and the thing that we forget to realize is that we only get to have these powerful, dynamic fully turned on passionate and limitless relationships WHEN we choose to do our damn work and get rock solid in our core as to who the f-ck we are and what we want in life.

 

We have to be unwavering and selfish MF’s to get our energy aligned to this kind of empowered relationship.

 

Until we do so,

we spend our time learning about ourselves,

about what we want and what we do not want.

We take ourselves through the school of love and relationship and gain our education into SELF.

 

And then if we become self-aware.

If we become “woke” as some would say,

then without reservation, without even trying you find yourself just lined up to the most precious, yummy, juicy, fully absorbing, ignited relationship that you can imagine.

 

You will see how you were sampling pieces of it in previous experiences. You were being given the gift of being able to recognize this relationship quickly when you finally decided to become a match to it.

 

And when it comes for you,

there will just be a KNOWING.

 

The questions stop.

Your ego may try to put up a fight,

it may attempt to sabotage out of fear of getting hurt again,

but under that you will still have this undeniable feeling of CERTAINTY.

 

And the world won’t matter.

Your fears will not hold a candle to the power of your heart.

Other opinions, judgement, perceptions you will just turn away from without worry,

because you will just KNOW.

Like you know yourself,

you will recognize this soul aligned relationship.

And you will continue to run forward in faith and enthusiasm.

 

And you most likely will not be able to look past this relationship.

 

Beautiful isn’t it?

 

Intimacy share dear reader:

I sat here the other morning, alone, drinking my coffee, breathing in the crisp morning air, feeling this soul with me energetically even though we were not physically together. I closed my eyes and saw his. And with a breath I fast forwarded through this life,

I sat at the doorstep of death and I took it in.

I felt the goodbye of the physical and I felt his hand in mine.

And I welcomed it because it was a spectacular sharing of a lifetime,

and I knew that not even death could take this from us.

 

Soul alignment.

It’s powerful and pure.

It’s limitless and it is what we all crave and desire.

We may settle for logical, smart and fun.

We may settle for “good enough.”

But we always remain hungry until we access our core and get aligned and right with self.

With soul.

And then leap in faith into life and let ourselves be carried to what we KNOW is home.

 

“I can see the rest of my breaths in this lifetime in your arms.”

 

Yes I can.

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I encourage you today my love, to look deep within yourself and ask yourself if you are settling or contemplating settling for just “good enough” in your relationship, in your love?

 

How does that knowing that you are settling make you feel?

 

Sit with that for a second if you can.

Stop making excuses.

Stop looking for the reasons and focusing on the fear of what if…

 

Instead know that you are worthy of a great penetrative love.

You are worthy of accessing heaven and experiencing a soul merger that you know at your core can be so,

but you currently have no knowledge or relationship with.

 

You must be willing to meet yourself though.

You must be willing to let go of your ego based loving ways,

you’re codependent habits and desires,

and you must be willing to be complete and whole in WHO YOU ARE FIRST.

 

This is your work.

This is the only earning you will ever have to do.

Become elevated to who you are and that soul aligned relationship will magically appear overnight.

 

Trust me,

what you desire and want,

wants and desires you too.

 

It’s time that you say F-ck Yes To YOU Love.

 

Today.

 

Elevate your love.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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STOP AVOIDING THE GRAVITATIONAL PULL.

GRAVITY.

THE PULL OF SOMETHING THAT YOU CANNOT RESIST.

 

Gravity just is.

You can argue it,

you can try and fight against it.

Resist with all your might.

And much like mother nature,

the sea and the sky,

gravity does not care what is going on in your life, in your emotions, your bank account or with much of anything.

Gravity just is.

 

You can walk through life unconscious.

You can move with logic and reason,

creating the safest environment possible,

dotting all your “i” and crossing all your “t”

you can be smart AF and do it all right,

but no matter what,

gravity is always there,

and when it wants you to pay attention,

when your soul has had enough of your nonsense of ignoring your path,

denying yourself and your heart,

gravity will come along and quickly remind you of everything that you desire and long for.

 

Gravity is there pulling you back home.

 

We humans are really good at separation,

at stepping outside of ourselves,

away from our feelings and hearts,

We are great at saying that things don’t matter.

We do so with wonderful reason of not wanting to be selfish,

not wanting to be “that person” who is an asshole who disregaurds others for the sake of going after the life, the love, the wealth, the whatever we are being pulled toward.

And so we wonder our days shut down and closed off to the beauty of what life has to offer us.

We wonder in fear,

and we repress ourselves into spiritual starvation until we are diseased, depressed, lost and frustrated with no idea of who we are any longer.

 

And then gravity is there to catch us.

Into its grip we fall from our slumber of avoidance.

 

And we fall hard most often.

Often we don’t even see gravity coming for us.

It just happens one day.

 

BAM!

 

We wake one morning and we view life differently.

We meet people differently,

our hunger for who we are is just there,

in our face screaming at us and having us do things that we typically would not do.

Having us take action and make plans,

and we still fear the loss of our world that we have created,

but thanks to gravity we are strangely okay with whatever needs to happen, happening.

 

Gravity has us stop making excuses.

Gravity has us look in the mirror and say who the f-ck are you anyway?

Gravity awakens us to our next best step.

Gravity sets us on our path.

It puts us back to where we need to be.

 

Here, EMBODIED in self.

 

Because THIS life,

it’s not anyone else’s life but our own.

 

We are reminded by these gravitational points in life where we get our polarity adjusted to where it needs to be,

that we are here to live for self.

 

And in attempting to live for everyone else,

in putting ourselves on the back burner,

on turning or fires down,

on hiding our light,

our hearts, our passions and desires,

that we do no one any favors.

Because we live in a weakened state of being.

We give all our power over to others,

and we no longer remain.

All that we came here to be, to share, to experience in our life vanishes when we stop living for ourselves.

And with it we stay just out of the grasp of what we crave the most.

 

OUR OWN HAPPINESS.

 

Living for others and by others will and desires will never bring us happiness.

 

Living with the fear of the “what if I am who I am,”

no one will accept me here,

no one will love me here,

no one can handle me here.

 

Living in this fear,

where the only solution is to hide self.

Shrink self,

and pretend to be whatever we perceive will keep the peace,

make others happy in the pursuit to make ourselves feel safe and hopefully happy because we feel safe,

simply will not bring what we desire at the end of our days.

 

Gravity when we open ourselves to those things that pull us in,

calls to us from the wild,

and says,

 

“Come over here.”

“Over here.”

“Here”

 

And when we listen to the pull,

we move toward the pull,

we lean,

we fall,

we run toward the pull,

Those things are catalysts to the life and joy,

the sheer ecstasy that we crave.

 

Gravity is a sign of our path home to self.

Back to our power.

Back to our souls and hearts.

 

Pay attention to the gravitational pull,

it is there for a significant reason.

It is calling you home.

 

Few things in this life will have a strong gravitational pull,

but those that do are worth the attention,

the time,

the commitment.

 

Run toward them.

 

You will discover the life, the love, the wealth that you have always dreamed of here,

here in your home.

 

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

It’s time to receive the lover of your dreams.

 

It’s time to stop fearing the what ifs.

 

It’s time to say yes to your F-ck Yes Life,

 

Now and forever more.

 

 

Reach out to me for coaching opportunities globally.

THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS!

THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS! 🤯🤯🤯

 

Hating on self?

Or maybe you say that you don’t hate yourself.

You don’t dislike yourself even,

you are just frustrated.

Irritated.

Down on self because you are not feeling great in your skin.

 

And I get it.

I truly do.

We all go through these times.

 

And hey here is a little secret for you….🤫

I am currently in one of those moments in life where I am a bit down on myself. I am not in this moment in love with my body.

I am not in love with how I am feeling in my own skin,

and I am having issues looking myself in the mirror.

and even feeling sexy.

 

I sorta feel a bit grossed out by myself.

The way I got here is not really important.

And that is a tough concept to get through our human minds,

because we want to have our reasons, we want to analyze and figure out the reason behind the problem.

But that will never get the solving that we desire of the problem.

Because we are stating that we have a problem to begin with instead of just letting go of all this self-judgement and turning back to our truth.

Now it is important to be aware of habit changes,

of sabotaging thing that we have introduced into our lives,

into our thoughts and emotions,

that may be contributing to the support of this self-disgust.

The reality is that you can say that you love yourself all damn day long but if you are not loving your body enough to get it moving and consuming healthy foods, staying hydrated and getting enough sleep,

plus if you are choosing to stay in toxic relationship that are not feeding your heart and soul,

and you are not leaning into YOU…

then you simply are lieing your f-cking ass off to yourself about loving yourself.

 

You have to fall in love with yourself.

You have to own up to your power and stop making yourself so damn small.

Stop fearing the impressive, expansive person that YOU ARE.

 

And that my love is why you are so full of this yuckiness to yourself.

👉The reason that you don’t like yourself is because you’re not up to speed with yourself. 🛸🤯💃

 

You got that love?

YOU WERE BORN TO BE MARVELOUS.

You were created powerful, worthy and came into this world knowing such,

but it got stolen from you by the “good” lessons that your parents and the adults in your life taught you,

what society and school/church showed you,

and you started to believe that you were not powerful, worthy and abundant.

 

You started to believe that your light was dim.

and this means that you let go of being marvelous.

And that my dear was YOU.

 

So now the absence of you, really sucks!

It really does not have you feeling your best.

You are struggling to look into the mirror or make eye contact.

You are feeling frumpy and negative,

hating on your fleshy suit and hating on who you have allowed yourself to become.

 

When the answer to your problem…

if you want to call it that…

cause us humans love to solve problems, right?

 

Is that the reason that you are not liking yourself,

let alone in love with yourself ( an me too here),

is because you’re not ALLOWING yourself to be yourself.

You have cast your truth out.

 

And you sit back in your disgust over who you are right now,

and you maintain powerful focus on what needs to change, needs fixed, where you f-cked it all up at.

 

The worst thing that you can do though is just this.

Holding yourself in focus and finding a critical thought about you.

Because that action,

that manifestation that you are creating,

 

TAKES YOU AWAY FROM WHO YOU REALLY ARE.

 

And you are powerful AF!

You are deserving.

You are beautiful and strong.

You are courageous and loving.

You are intuitive and caring.

You are worthy and abundant.

 

That is who you are.

That is what you are to be living, RIGHT NOW!

 

And it is up to only you love to take yourself from this absence of self and get the f-ck lined back up.

Synchronize to your TRUTH.

YOUR SOUL.

 

GOD.

Here is where you will fall in love with you and become mesmerized by staring into your own eyes,

lost in the sea of you.

You will be captivated at your heart and your beauty and you will not just think that you are worthy,

you will KNOW without a doubt that you are,

because your soul knows.

Your souls never has questioned your worthiness or your power.

That is why you are feeling so bad love,

because you are questioning what your soul deeply is certain of.

 

And when you come back to YOU and who YOU REALLY ARE,

well that is when whatever the problems you are having with your body and life right now, will just wash away with ease.

 

Time to start loving on the most important person in your world wouldn’t you say?

 

And STOP trying to be all this or that for everyone else that is not you.

 

With all my love, beautiful.

Remember Who You Are.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN.

YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN.
Goodbye.
To you and you and you…..
“So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, good night
I hate to go and leave this pretty sight
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, adieu
Adieu, adieu, to yieu and yieu and yieu
So long, farewell, au revoir, auf wiedersehen.
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye
I leave and heave a sigh and say goodbye
Goodbye!
I’m glad to go, I cannot tell a lie
I flit, I float, I fleetly flee, I fly.”
THAT’S IT!
And so we must part.
And part repeatedly we do.
Yet you long to hold me here in this moment,
forever captured by your desires.
But, neither of us can expand as long as we hold so tight.
Our power, our freedom and happiness,
comes from letting go.
Each moment that we are alive,
we are always transforming,
expanding or shrinking,
longing to be close, to merge and entwine,
or push away and fly free in who we are in the moment.
Goodbye feels permanent.
It is like the feeling of death, is it not?
And so we strive to avoid it.
We fear it.
And we try our damndest to make sure that things remain the same.
However in our attempts to keep all the same,
we destroy the beauty of our lives,
of our relationships,
we squash what was so dear.
And we then sit back and wonder why we feel such suffering.
We question why things went the way they did,
and why those that we wanted to hold precious to us turned and walked away without notice.
The answer my dear is in your desire to control.
To prevent your own pain.
You fear goodbye.
You fear transformation.
You fear your growth and the expansion of others.
You are living so far from your truth and from God in this moment that you cannot feel the love that is in store for you.
Love does not fear change or growth.
Love knows that this is an attraction based universe,
not a universe based on exertion and force of your will over everything.
Love knows no suffering.
Love never feels alone or jealous.
Love does not point fingers of blame and hatred.
Love does not look for reasons to not be love anymore but in turn become anger or drama.
There are things that we can be certain of in this life of ours.
1) All things change. Movement and expansion is a guarantee.
2) Everything is energy and operating at a frequency of its own.
3) You attract and keep in your sphere of vibration ONLY those things that are the same frequency, all other things will cause disturbance and cause separation between you and them.
Put simply,
Goodbye simply means that the energy was no longer there.
And goodbye is one of the most beautiful blessings that we are given in our lives.
It allows for all parties to be true to themselves if open to it.
We get what we need from the time spent together and then when our energies no longer connect ( vibe at the same frequency) we are set free from the engagement.
This is far from a sad event.
No matter what we are speaking of, may that be an intimate relationship, a friendship, a job or career, a home or car, etc.
This letting go of anything is only creating an opportunity for ALL PARTIES involved to move forward toward their highest and best version and experiences instead of being forever trapped with something that no longer serves their best self.
Can you imagine being trapped as a twelve year old you? Just held in all time as that version of self, with all the bondage that you most likely felt from family and society? Having longings and desires, wanting for more but knowing that you would never be able to have any of it because here is where you are eternally?
Sounds like hell, right?
And your suffering would be far greater than that of saying goodbye to your greatest love even.
Every moment that you are living.
Every person that you come in contact with,
every thought that you think and feeling that you have.
Changes who you are.
And you are never the same person you were just moments ago.
Therefore you are always saying goodbye to a version of you and to a version of whomever you are moving through life with.
Although these changes are subtle,
over time they transform us.
And create the energy gorge between us and others.
Our holding on to old versions of self and of others only causes damage to our souls expansion.
Because it creates separation between our TRUTH which is linked to God, and our life experience ( what we are perceiving here and now). This is where our anger and pain will stem from.
When we are feeling such anger and pain, blame, jealousy, worthlessness and fear we are being offered the gift of realization that we are NOT IN ALIGNMENT TO SELF.
Self is God in essence.
God consciousness moving through us.
Spirit. The divine.
And to be aligned to self,
knowing self which is pure love,
shows our alignment to God.
We cannot be aligned to God when operating from ego/fear.
And this causes constriction in the physical body and world ( our life experience).
We will start to experience chaos,
negative events, frustration and suffering.
Signs of separation.
You are powerful.
We all are powerful and worthy.
And we access this power through letting go in love not fear.
We reconnect ourselves to self and God by looking the demons of fear in the eyes and telling them to be gone,
that they are not our truth.
They are not of God.
They are not of self.
And we turn our focus to love.
To appreciation for EVERYTHING that was shared with us in moments past.
We focus in on the beauty,
the expansion and the greatness of what we have learned.
All relationship…
All relationships transform and change and say goodbye.
We all will say goodbye to each other in big ways and small ways in this lifetime.
Nothing is forever.
It was not designed to be such,
and you would ultimately not be fulfilled and happy if it all remained the same.
Look at your life,
at those in your world,
in your vibrational sphere.
And ask yourself,
” Am I holding onto this energy in love or fear?”
“Am I grasping for it wanting to control it? Or am I breathing into it and allowing it to wash through me, whirl around me and carry me to my next highest level of self?”
One is ego based.
One is aligned to God and self.
You get to choose your path and write this chapter of your novel.
What does this chapter close like?
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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I Yearn For So Much More In My Life.

YEARNING.

CRAVING.

A hunger that you just can not fill.

 

This has been something that I have been playing with the last few months.

 

Shit…

that’s not true.

It’s been something that I have been dancing around with for years now.

And I am f-cking hungry!

 

Which makes me irritable.

Makes me depressed some days.

Makes me look out into my life and question all that I have and all that I want,

and makes me look at what I am blessed with and say,

“Is this as good as it gets?”

 

I sound like a spoiled rotten bitch though when I say that.

And perhaps I have become one.

And maybe…

maybe I am supposed to be one.

maybe you are too.

 

Maybe, just maybe we are all supposed to want for more in our lives.

In our love and in our sex.

 

But the fear of being perceived as greedy,

as selfish,

and not appreciative stops us from going after what we want for.

 

The fear of what others will think.

That is the leading sabotager of our dreams.

And damn we are really good at finding reasons that we cannot be fulfilled in life.

Why we “should” settle,

and why we need to just shut up, sit down and stop searching, stop craving, stop wanting.

 

We are great at thinking that there is something wrong with us,

that we are bad people because we want for more.

Especially when we are a people of so many blessings.

 

 

The reality though love is something totally different.

The reality is that the way that this universe and God evolve and expand is through our wanting.

Our desires birth into existence everything that we currently have and everything that will ever be.

The issue with our desires is that they make those around us uncomfortable.

Especially when we start speaking about our sex and money.

These two things we are damned for no matter which way we turn.

If we want more of them then we are damned and greedy, we are sluts and only focused on gratification of self.

If we want for less of them or allow less of them in our lives then we are told that we are not worthy of everything else in life because we don’t have enough of these two things which means that we are unattractive, stupid, weak, disliked, etc.

 

So no matter what we do, when it comes to our sex and our money we are f-cked and not in a fun or good fashion.

 

So what can we do with these unholy hungers that we have and we run and try and hide from but that creep up and make themselves known in the most inopportune moments?

 

How do we curb our cravings to have the love, the sex, the money and abundance without feeling shameful and guilty for wanting more or better? Or any for that matter.

Or for wanting to change things up and play with what we have to try and create something more robust and expansive?

 

First we have to KNOW…

I mean truly KNOW with all the certainty that we can muster up that WANTING is natural and healthy.

The craving for something is a showing that our soul wants it for us as well and is already in pursuit for it and has found a path.

The negative emotions that stem from our craving of wanting something more and better reveals that we are out of alignment with our soul and with our power. We would not be able to feel this negative vibe if we were in alignment.

You see when we are in alignment we feel f-cking great.

We are focused,

we are clear minded,

we feel powerful and turned on to life,

We have confidence and are loose in our life, able to flow toward what we are wanting because we are allowing ourselves to be taken to it versus constricting ourselves and causing ourselves to get caught up in worry and fear.

 

Next we have to realize that ALL things…

Did you read that?

 

ALL THINGS CHANGE.

They must change.

In order for us to grow,

to heal,

to expand,

to gain what we claim we want,

in any subject area of life,

we must allow for evolution to occur.

We cannot have what we want by remaining the same person that we are today.

Even if we have a dynamic relationship,

fantastic sex,

a bank full of money,

great health and everything that we “think” that we can want for,

we still must allow for evolution to happen within ourselves and our lives as well as within any one of these areas if we want to maintain the area and/or expand/heal it.

 

You will never find happiness by insisting on things to remain the same.

 

Just like you cannot expect things to remain at the same level of connection,

the same level of turn on,

or anything else.

Life has its storms,

These storms are about you developing your ideal version of you.

These storms are something for us to learn how to move through in confidence and love,

and that in the storms of life,

we must expect that things will pull from us or push up against us and often this will feel uncomfortable.

But the discomfort is there to alert us to the areas inside of ourselves that we need to learn to lean more into,

speak more truth from,

see more authentically,

reveal in vulnerability more,

and to trust and love on.

These raw spaces that get revealed are the spaces that evolve us to our highest potential.

And thus create the life that we want.

Bringing our dreams into reality.

 

The yearning.

The craving.

It’s beautiful.

It’s powerful.

It’s revealing.

And it is saying that it is time that you start to pay mother f-cking attention to your SOUL.

 

It’s time that you start to take notice of that hunger before it becomes a ravenous beast that will destroy you and everything in its path to getting fed.

 

 

 

I am hungry.

I am craving more in all areas of my life and I have an amazingly full and abundant life.

My cup runneth over for sure.

And I want to keep it that way.

Because the truth of the matter is,

only with a full cup can you truly share without fear,

and help others.

Only by valuing yourself to the levels that God values can you give your gift in this world.

And only through the pursuit of evolution through love,

of self can you grow your soul and experience happiness.

Pure happiness.

Because happiness is not about the things that you have but who you become gaining the things that you have.

 

Who are you today and what does your tale say about your journey?

 

As Always,

Stop existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

 

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The Power of Facebook Memories….What it means to your F-ck Yes! Life.

You gotta love Facebook memories.
 
Don’t you?
I mean they make us laugh,
Make us smile,
Make us feel our hearts tug,
Bring up sadness,
Missing,
And appreciation.
 
Facebook memories….
This last weekend I have been off camping in a tipi out in Hawkins Texas. Its been a lovely experience with my youngest two children and boyfriend.
The pictures that are capturing all these fantastic and fun memories are something to be grateful for.
And if you are a scrapbooker like myself,
(Well in truth I have not scrapbooked for a decade, but I take pictures with the concept and image of one day getting them scrapbooked)
 
Then you can for sure appreciate the memories being stored for later creative projects.
 
And then there are those darn Facebook memories…
 
One year ago today….you were at this Jimmy Buffet Concert.
 
Four years ago today…. you were strolling down the beach in Jamaica with your ex.
And you were hiking Dunns Falls and eating lunch at Margaritavil.
 
Seven years ago today…. you were enjoying a romantic dinner and sexy time with another ex that you thought the relationship would last a lifetime with for how in love you were.
 
Eleven years ago…. your children were calling you a hippie mama and you were proud of the title.
 
Lol… just some memories from my life on today.
 
But you know what I noticed?
As I looked through all the pictures….
 
The authentic smiles and connection.
The joy and laughter.
The love.
 
Although fleeting,
And ever changing,
It was there and it is here today as well.
And for this I am grateful 🙏.
 
The people in our storyline tend to change,
As humans can be quiet fickle and our egos and hearts tend to whisk us all about.
 
But when you choose to focus on what matters most,
The love and connection.
The beautiful memories and moments shared,
Then the players in our stories are always perfect.
They are there for a reason in that season of our lives.
And when we can embrace that truth,
It makes our lives so much more fluid and enjoyable.
 
As I looked back on the memories of today over the last decade,
I felt a host of emotions.
I felt my heart expand and sink.
I looked into the eyes of these now strangers,
And asked silently,
What happened here?
I also saw clearly that it was not all bad,
It was not all fake,
It was not time, energy, love, LIFE wasted.
 
Not at all.
It was time shared in love.
And this is my message to you today,
See the beauty of your past and the players in it.
See the love and the life we’ll spent.
Because when you do this…
You capture more of this.
You allow more good times.
You make yourself more available to living in love.
To receiving joy, connection and love.
 
And doesn’t that sound better then looking at those years gone by from a feeling of bitterness, anger and loss?
 
I mean think about what you desire.
Look at what you want for.
Are you living in the energy of it now?
Can you feel it present in your past?
Do you know how to manifest it into your tomorrow?
 
By seeing and feeling it ALIVE in you now.
And looking for the evidence of it in your memories and in the makings of today.
 
Be in gratitude for your memories.
For your storylines and for those who danced the dance with you.
 
It is perfect just the way it is.
As are you.
 
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”
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The Only Question You Ever Need Ask Yourself to Create Your Dream Life.

How do you define your reality?

 

Many years ago I was attending a study group consistently focused on the technology of the soul.

In my study, I was consistently asked to witness my ego,

to see my shadow side and to know that I could never destroy it. That it was going to grow and expand side by side to my light, to my soul.

 

It was revealed to me in this four year in depth training that all of my suffering was by my choice. That I could let my ego feel the pain and recognize it as such,

or I could have soul damage and wounding by not letting my soul shine and speak its truth.

 

Now this may be a difficult conversation for some to understand. And this particular musing is not going to go into depth on it as I would do with a private client of mine,

However, the point that I wish to share with you here is one of great importance if you are among the many in the world who crave for a better life.

 

We get to choose.

The bible referred to this as free will.

And what is meant by this is that we have the creative ability, the power to define our reality through our will.

 

To define our purpose through our will means to focus our desire.

To understand that we are the co-creator of the life that we are living and that our consciousness and perspective on our life experience is what creates it.

 

The life that you are living right now,

did not occur right now.

It was created by the thoughts you have been thinking,

and your feelings toward those thoughts.

The pictures that you have been day dreaming or day nightmaring about.

 

Your reality has been manifested by your focus.

By your will.

 

And here is where the tough shiz happens.

It’s the reality check about your reality.

 

If you want to have a flowing, life based in ease,

in beauty, and love.

Where you are not attracting the drastic contrasting situations and experiences, but instead perhaps work out your contracting visions quickly with a thought or inner conversation that you let go of quickly,

then you MUST get real about who is creating your reality.

 

So back to the question of today.

 

How do you define your reality?

 

If I were to ask you to list three to five words or sentences that define your reality what would you say?

 

Perhaps you should take a moment right now to jot those down. And once you have them in writing, in front of your face where you cannot argue what your words are,

I want you to ask if this reality that you are defining is:

 

👉 Real – are you living it now. Are you feeling it at your core if it is not currently manifest.

👉Is this reality supportive of your best life.

👉your truth and beliefs or someone else’s.

 

 

A Lot of the time we lie to ourselves.

We look at inquiry like what I have given you here today,

and we know what we “should” be answering and so because we view it as a test,

and everyone wants to do good on the test,

we answer what we know or think the “right” responses are instead of what our truth is.

 

And here is how you can tell if you are doing this.

Look at what is showing up in your world consistently.

If what you are writing and what you have showing up are polar different,

then guess what?

 

It’s time for a REALITY CHECK,

because the last one you did was not real.

You were telling fibs to yourself love,

because it hurt.

It hurt to see your truth. It hurt to see the brutalities that you may have been painting for yourself.

It hurt that what is showing up is not as bad as what you keep painting and you just don’t feel worthy of a good life so you gotta create some drama,

so you paint some tales in your head about struggle.

Perhaps, you have a bunch of people in your life that are struggling and you just don’t fit in with them,

so you shrink yourself and make up a shitty tale to match,

to fit in.

Not realizing that if you keep telling yourself these crap tales that you will over time start to believe them at a core level and manifest them.

 

Or….

 

Maybe you are painting a beautiful picture,

one where you have the love,

the money,

the health and opportunities that you want,

but what keeps showing up is nothing of the sort.

And you wonder why.

And the why is simple luv,

You don’t believe that you are worthy of the pictures and statements that you are creating.

 

And what you have materializing is what you believe you are worthy of.

 

This is that shadow self that I was speaking of earlier,

this is where we have to let ourselves feel the pain,

but let it be held by our ego’s.

 

That simply means to step out of the comfort of doing what you always do which is, make excuses and come up with reasons,

and in turn have the will to move toward what you want for.

This will require you to consistently witness your ego,

witness your fear,

witness your desire to control,

witness your foul concepts of self and others,

watch the words that you speak and that you chatter on with in your head and how they make you feel,

and consistently ask yourself if it is true or not.

 

You must be willing to call yourself out of the darkness and into the light.

 

And it is going to hurt like a motherf-cker luv.

It is.

 

But you are worth it.

 

Your other choice is to let your soul suffer and carry with it the wounds of not living the life that you were called to live,

to continue to shrink yourself,

no matter the reason,

and to never taste the glory that you were born to enjoy.

 

How do you define your reality?

 

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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The Realness of What You Are Living.

What is it that you want?
What do you want for in relationship?
 
You want for ease.
You want for connection.
You want for this thing called love.
 
And perhaps you are not feeling these things today in your relationship.
 
Perhaps when I ask you the question of, “what do you want?”
You have an increase sense of pain, frustration, loss, fear, anger even.
 
These emotions rise up not because you are focusing in on what you want. They are present because you are actually looking at what you do not want.
 
You are looking at the void. The void you see of not having the relationship that you want. Of not having the ease you desire. Of not having the connection you crave fullfilled. Of not having the love you want for.
 
But knowing what you don’t want makes it easier to know what you do want too.
 
Think about it for a moment, close your eyes. Lets feel into the love that you are wanting for.
 
Its that kind of love that sweeps you off your feet, right?
Its that kind of love that makes you feel at peace, right?
It’s that kind of love that makes you feel good about yourself, right?
 
Its that kind of love that asks you to just be you.
You don’t have to try and be or act any certain way.
You just are accepted for how you are.
IT JUST IS.
 
What if I told you that you are looking for this in ALL the wrong places.
 
You are looking for this love to come from an individual. In doing this you are stepping out of your truth and power.
 
You are now a victim to another fickle human being who may change at any given moment.
When the answer is to go within and to God/Universe/Source.
 
When you look to another person as the cause of the love, for that feeling of love what you are doing is giving them credit for your alignment to SOUL.
Alignment to God.
Alignment to your TRUTH, your CORE.
 
What we humans do in our search for alignment through the feeling of love is that we keep searching for the “ONE” who will make us feel all that.
And so we keep replacing people in our lives to try and get this love that we crave so badly for,
when in fact what we need to be doing is not necessarily replacing people but finding true connection with God, with our TRUTH and from this place of being,
of living and feeling in love,
the person we have always drempt for will come.
 
The realness of what we are living,
the IS’NESS of our reality and us focusing in on just that is what keeps us from having the connection that we crave for.
 
The more we relate the lovely expereince of being in love,
and being loved to a person,
it leaves us in a place of searching for that state of well being,
and yumminess,
beauty in life and love, when we no longer have that person in our life.
Leaving us feeling lost,
empty, and abandoned.
And we sometimes choose to close our hearts to love.
We hide from it because it scares us of the potential of getting hurt from it. So we go into avoidance.
We numb ourselves,
we use detachment from relationship and our heart,
to protect us from the evils of loosing love.
Yet we do not cease to desire it still.
 
This is us looking in all the wrong places for love, and not understanding what love really is.
 
When we are feeling love from someone or for someone,
what we are being gifted is the ease of being in alignment.
It is our alignment to God though that is making us feel love.
Our alignment to our truth and core.
 
When we place responsibility on another for this feeling,
we are now living in a state of need for them to BE in order for us to expereince what is always with us.
 
The way it is for most people is that we need another person to act, to be, to show us love in just such a way and then we FEEL LOVED. And when they stop doing this or change how they are doing it, we feel unloved, undesired.
 
And when we are feeling loved we feel in alignment to life,
like you are walking on sunshine.
 
But it can all quickly change if the fickle human we have given all our power to changes directions or focuses and relates to us differently.
 
The truth is this:
When we find our alignment to God and SOUL, here we find love. True love that is sustainable and without question or need of anyone else.
 
And when we are in alignment and hold course,
the things we desire the most will manifest quickly and with ease.
 
They must.
 
Because this is the purest state of creation.
 
When we want for something with such passion in this state,
when we feel what we want prior to it manifesting in the physical, it does not take long for us to start allowing it into our physical life expereince so it can hosw itself. As we allow for it to be revealed to us with more and more ease, we create an avalanche effect of energy.
 
And life become blissful.
 
Here is where food tatste so delectable,
the world is bright and cheery,
we meet friendly people with smiles and helping hands in just the right moments around every corner,
we feel ignited and turned on to every breath we breathe.
We are living in a state of fulfillment with a consistent desire to expereince more.
 
And in this place of being,
we can have EVERYTHING we want for in relationship.
 
You are not being requested to stay in the emptiness of relationship that you may be in right now.
 
You are not being requested to be happy with this the relationship status that you have.
 
But if you truly want for the relationship of your dreams,
then the first tsep to achieving it is to find your alignemnt and love for life,
love for self,
and connection to God.
 
You can tell a person who is turned on to life.
Who love’s self,
loves life,
and is connected to God.
 
This persos radiates love and beauty.
This person glows.
And is magnetic.
You may think of them as lucky.
 
But all they have discovered is the secret,
the secret of alignment.
 
Where are you restricting yourself from love?
 
Let Go and Lean In.
Breathe and Allow.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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