$22,000 at 2:22-AM.

🔥🔥$22,000 at 2:22-AM with 22% on my phone.🔥🔥

 
Yes manifesting $22k in less than 12 hours is exactly the vibration I f-cking love having.
Don’t you?
 
Its an AMAZING feeling to wake up in the morning to this and know that this is ONLY the f-cking beginning.
 
I mean imagine if you believed that there were no limitations to the things that you could call into your life.
 
Imagine if all you ever had to do was allow abundance to flow to you,
 
by just keeping yourself in alignment to your soul.
 
Well that is where it is at baby.
It truly is that simple.
 
I am not going to lie,
you are not going to generate that sort of income or any income at all just laying on the couch thinking about it,
or feeling into how effing great it “would” be to have it.
 
No you will not manifest anything that way.
In order to get results of this kind or better,
then one HAS to not just allow abundance to flow to them,
but also, do the God damn f-cking work to have the doorways open for the abundance to flow.
 
I mean it would be crazy to think that you can call in any sort of blessing if you are closed down to the pathway of the blessing.
 
Just think about it…
Imagine you are wanting your ideal lover to come into your life,
yet you do not go on any dates,
you hardly leave your home,
you have no real social life,
or much of anything.
 
How the f-ck are you to CALL IN a lover?
Maybe if this is the sort of person that you are,
you are hoping that your mail man will deliver this lover to you,
or you will just get lucky and somehow they will end up lost on your doorstep…
 
Knock.
Knock.
OMFG! It’s Mr. or Mrs. Perfect.
Here on my door step.
Ready to be part of the rest of my life.
 
LOL….😂
 
Okay so that is ridiculous, right?
I mean no one actually thinks this can happen,
well I guess there is a possibility,
but let’s be real.
 
The odds are not in your favor no matter how much luck you have on your side.
 
So why the f-ck do you think that you can have a land fall of abundance or anything you desire come to you without the mother f-cking work.
 
That work is multi-folded too.
It is not JUST about actual work.
You know that building or going and doing something.
No it is not about that.
In truth that work most likely only equates out to maybe 15% of the actual work.
I know it is that way for me.
And for my mentors and other people who are living a freedom based life where they are just calling in their desires.
 
But when we do, do that work, we do it hard core.
We give our all.
We focus like there is no tomorrow.
And you know what?
One of the secrets to the work here,
is that it does not feel like work.
It just is.
 
It is part of who we are.
We cannot help but do the work.
Because it just is us.
It is what we would do whether we were paid or not.
It is the music in our being that has to be set free.
It feels good.
Good to do the work.
 
It is actually impossible to not do the work.
This is how you know that you have found your path….
Your calling.
 
But then there is the other 85% of the REAL WORK.
Now there is where you will meet resistance.
 
This is the land of resistance.
This is the internal, mindset work.
This is the work that your ego will have you believe is not the work and that you are not in need of.
It is where your doubt,
your fear,
your discomfort of whatever is not your norm,
holds you back from all of your mother f-cking dreams.
 
It is the internal work that is actually a game with your
CURRENT IS.
 
You must first recognize what you are accepting as your norm in your life so that you can change it to what you want it to be.
 
Then you must have the strength,
the desire,
and the courage,
to HOLD to that CHANGE.
 
Because the old norm that had you living the life you were unsatisfied with,
will call to you.
It will tell you that you are not deserving,
you are not worthy,
that you cannot repeat the greatness.
That you will loose it all just like blah…blah….blah.
It will tempt you to become lazy,
and it will remind you of how comfortable good feels.
 
because yeah you may be calling in all this GREATNESS,
 
F-ck NO!!!!
Greatness,
Abundance in the masses that your soul effing wants,
the revealing of who you really are,
and letting that light shine brighter than any lighthouse could try for,
is NOT COMFORTABLE.
No it is f-cking hard as hell.
 
But you know what?
YOU ARE WORTH IT.
You just have to love yourself enough to CLAIM IT.
Claim your life.
Claim your bliss.
Claim your abundance.
 
Take that step onto your path.

You got this baby!!!

 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 
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I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!

I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!
That was how I approached a group of 50+ people last night who have reached out to me about getting help with their sex, their relationships and their wantabe f-ck yes lives.

My lover read the title and said, I don’t know too many people who can get away with making that their subject line of an email and get a positive response back.

The truth is, not too many people can.
The reason is that most people, coaches included are masking their truth.

Are scared of saying something to piss someone off.
Of not appearing “professional“.

Then you have this .01% of us out there that are living our raw, authentic truth and have no shame for just being ourselves and stating the truth.

After sharing my thoughts with 50+ people last night and hopefully providing them with a good asskickery, it came to me that I should share with you as well. Because many of you too, reach out in many forms asking for help. Guidance and coaching but seem to never follow through for yourselves.

So here is an incomplete taste of what my message to these peeps was and now it is going out to you as well. 

Kendal’s Thoughts on Not Claiming Your Life. – The decisions we sometimes make and why.

Yes you reached out to me.

Maybe you have forgotten even that you wanted help around those delicate matters that cause you stress, make your life a little less pleasurable and you secretly wish you had not chickened out or copped some lame ass excuse for not taking by them by horns and dealing with them once and for all.

Maybe you simple believe that by ignoring your issues, they will some how magically just be gone and everything will fix itself.

Maybe you think that you got it all dealt with now, and you don’t need help.
Maybe you feel like:

You don’t have the time
You don’t have the money
You don’t have the energy
You don’t have the support
It does not matter anyway.
You will be FINE.

Okay, you keep telling yourself all that bull bunk, and the rest of us who instead have chosen to push the play button for our lives will go live.

Go have a F-ck YES! Life and enjoy the bliss that we want, not just fantasize about it.

Right about now you are most likely asking yourself:

Who the f-ck is this chick with attitude and why is she dropping in on my doorstep?

Well, if you recall or care to refresh your memory, 
my name is Kendal Williams.
You reached out to me because I have the ability to take you from where you are at, 
to where you want to be.

I am a coach that specializes in an intimate part of life, 
one of the parts of life that we all wish was better, or we had more going on in.

That would be,

SEX and Relationship.

Now granted over 2018, I have taken the last 20+ years of my coaching practice where I have helped countless people with many things from nutrition, parenting, body image, dreams, spiritual life, business, sex, relationship, to orgasm issues and have started converting my strategies, education and skills over to a passion of mine.

That being: 
Prosperity Coaching, focused on Abundance, Success, Money, Business + Sex and Play.

I call it F-ck YES Life Coaching and Freedom Based Life Coaching.

But you contacted me for the sex and relationship, ‘and sex and relationship is a vital piece of life and plays a significant role in all areas of our life including these above. That is why I can never stop coaching on it.

With that said, 
By the first of the year you will see my coaching totally merge over to the above and I will no longer be claiming the title of Sex & Relationship Coach.

That is WHY I am sending this email out to you.
RIGHT NOW – I am collecting my end of the year VIP clients to work with for the remainder of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019. These VIP clients will have the dedicated focus and attention around the above matters. Around what you originally reached out to me to discuss.

And after that?

Well you will have to work withing the new perimeters of my practice.

It’s NEVER to late to start. 
It is never too late to say YES to yourself, 
to your dreams.

The ONLY thing ever stopping any of us, 
Is OURSELVES.

So, yes I am tired of everyone’s bullsh*t of stating what they do not have and focusing in on the shit. I am exhausted from having hundreds of people reach out to me, but not TAKE ACTION.

How the eff do you expect to be happy, 
truly happy and to have the life that you desire IF you refuse to make the changes, get the help and lean in?

How?

Let’s get real. 
And tell ourselves the truth.

You got SCARED.
Doubt popped into your head.
Hopelessness stands at your gate.

And you are SETTLING.
Settling for what you have, 
It’s SAFE
It’s COMFORTABLE
You know what to expect.

But are you HAPPY?

This is the ONLY Question You need address.

If you answer it honestly, 
then you effing NEED TO message me back ASAP.

Before things have fully transformed over here in my green pasture of pleasure.

SO take that step to your desired life.
You are worth it.

Don’t be like so many poor saps out there that thinks you have time, 
thinks it can wait till next year, 
thinks its all okay and you don’t need help.

Those people never really live. 
They die long before their bodies ever give out on them.

I pray you will not be that person. 
But if you do,

God Bless.

If not….
email me back and let’s get you ROCKIN’ out your life now!!!!

LISTEN TO THIS NOW!

So where the F-ck Are You At?
Are you ready to claim your life, your orgasm, your abundance?

Or are you SETTLING?

As always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Stop Dishonoring God with Your Fear.

Standing at the cliff I looked down.
The water was brilliant,
radiant turquoise waters shimmering from the sun’s light.
Beautiful tropical fish swimming around in a flurry of delight as people swam by them.
The lush backdrop of tropical trees, brilliant colored flowers and the cool ocean air.

There I stood at the cliff,
desiring to jump.
Desiring to leap.
My lover watching from a distance.
Cheering me on.
Ready to snap a picture of me leaping.

There I stood.
Feeling my life.
Feeling the life I had not yet lived.
Looking into the crystal clear waters that just moments before I had been snorkeling in.
I desired to jump.
I desired to show myself and my lover,
everyone around me that I could.

There I stood,
my heart pumping blood more intensely then any other time.
My eye’s witnessing others leaping with delight off this cliff,
squealing with joy as they crashed into the cool water below,
laughter erupting from below from their joy.

THEN…

Then a woman,
she is fearful,
she is anxious,
she is nauseating in her energy.
She questions everything.
I could feel her.
All my fear,
all my hold back,
catching on her doubt and feeding itself.

Here I stood,
looking over this cliff,
wanting to jump.
Wanting to experience the joy,
the freedom,
the free fall into bliss.

Yet I handed my opportunity over to FEAR.
I leaned into this woman’s fears,
I took them on as my own.
I logically supported her words,
her doubts.
And I said, “No.”

No to myself.
No to opportunity.
No to growth.
No to the experience.
No to my desire.
No to the calling.

I said no, not based on my desire or heart,
but no based on a strangers fear and doubt.

Her reflection in me,
overcame my very desire.

Still today, I look back at this experience in Mexico as a game changer. I know that it was a lesson that I felt but did not get in the moment.

I know that it was a test of soul that I failed at that time.
All things happen for a reason,
and when we feel our fears at the cliff of any change,
we decide to either lean and leap toward our calling,
our bliss,
or
we decide to step away from them.

I have processed this moment over and over again,
I have examined the physical feelings that came up in my body. I have shamed myself, sat in regret, said many a mean thing to myself around this.

I have blamed this choice at that time for other events that took place to follow.
Seeing how my lack of not leaping into my fear, preventing me from standing strong in other desires.
Prevented me from moving forward when my soul called out to MOVE.

So I procrastinated.
So I waited.
Waited till God had enough.
Waited until I was thrown out of the nest,
and was forced to fly.

No matter what happens in life,
our lessons come for us.

No matter what happens,
we will be forced to face our fears,
and we will be given the choice to leap into our bliss,
or cower into our suffering.

God will continue to hold out his hands of opportunity.
God will continue to walk us up to these life changing cliff’s.
God will continue to tell us we can fly.

But WE must be the one’s to say YES.
We must be the one’s to OPEN OUR WINGS.

In choosing to allow other’s fears and doubts to over take us like I did in Mexico, we hemorrhage our power.

We bleed out.
And we loose ourselves to this world.

When we allow our feelings to be directed by other’s views, thoughts, opinions and feelings, we say no to the most important person in our life.

We say no to ourselves and we turn our backs on God.
This is why we suffer.
This is why we live with depression.
This is where our anxiety comes from.
This is why we are rageful.

When we deny ourselves,
when we step away from the cliff that is calling our soul to fly,
we dishonor God.

We condemn his greatness.
And we separate ourselves from his glory.

This is one of the greatest sin’s that we can allow.
Yet, here we are.
A society of wantabe obedient believers,
Casting ourselves out of heaven,
separating ourselves from God and all the blessing.

We live in a state of ego,
and ego blinds us to our TRUTH.

The TRUTH,
THAT WE CAN FLY!

So stop listening to the fear,
Stop bleeding out your power,
Stop allowing this world to steal your glory.

Leap Baby.
LEAP.

And feel the abundance.
Feel the JOY.
Feel the Blessings.

You are WORTHY.

I love you.
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Do you have a calling that is screaming at you?
Do you crave an authentic, blissed out life?
Do you have ton’s of creative energy but no clue what to do with them?
Do you feel like you have tried all these things but are still just standing at the side lines of your life?

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Sunshine and Thunderstorms

The weather outside is frightful.
Thunderstorms are brewing.
The winds of change blow through my world.
I look around and if I truly wanted,
I could get fixated on all the drama, 
the storms of my life.
I could focus in on my fears, my doubts and worries.
There is so much in this moment of my life that could easily carry me away like a kite in a storm.
Some days I wake and feel the pressure of all of this.
Other days my world feels light and full of sunshine.
No matter what the day starts like
I make the choice as to how i show up.
How i respond to the stimuli that life is providing.
These are the moments where i command in my blessings or i crash in the wake of the storms.

Today is like any other.
Sunshine and Thunderstorms.
So like any good abundance queen
I choose to lean into my pleasure.
I choose to breathe into my joy.
I choose to reap the blessings that are all around me.

And choose to share in the wealth.
When the storms of life gather around you.
Let them rain down and cleans you.
Find shelter in your pleasure
Shelter in your self love.

#fuckyeslife #laptoplifestyle #motherdaughterdates
#coacheslife #girltime

And as always
Stop Existing & Start Living

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You Are Effing Scared of This!

You are effing scared!

Aren’t you?

 
You must be.
Just look around at your life. Is it all that you want it to be or is it lacking somewhere?
 
Is your bank account as padded as you want it?
Is your sex as deep as you want it?
Is your orgasm as full and often as you want?
Is your health as vibrant as you want?
Are your relationships as connective as you want?
Is your work your passion?
 
Well is it?
 
If you are saying no to these things then it is VERY CLEAR that you are effing scared.
 
Scared of what you ask?
 
Your POWER.
Your Mother f-cking power, that’s what.
 
If you were not scared of your power than you would be enjoying a f-cking blissed out life.
 
You sure as F-CK would not be waking up dreading your day, looking forward to Friday and the weekend because it is all that brings you peace and joy in a few split seconds of living.
 
You would not be looking at your relationships, your sex and you money with dread and emptiness.
 
No, if you were not so effing scared of your power you would be be CLAIMING YOUR LIFE.
 
You would be hopping out of bed with enthusiasm for the day.
You would be caring for your body through worship and appreciation instead of masking and abuse.
You would be radiant and excited.
You would feel passion in your stomach.
You would feel a call like no other in your soul.
You would be UNSTOPPABLE, UNAPOLOGETIC and TURNED ON.
 
That is what you would be.
 
Can you imagine this feeling?
 
I hear a lot from people how they “wish” they could have it all but they know it is not a reality.
 
I hear a lot from folks how much they crave to live a life instead of just existing or surviving the day/month/year.
 
I hear from people all the time how they have no freakin’ clue how they can have it, but they would GIVE ANYTHING if there was a way.
 
Then I share with them a way.
And they say F-CK NO.
 
I cannot do it.
That takes too much time.
Too much energy.
It is to scary.
I don’t have the money.
What will people think?
 
So if you want it,
If you claim you will do anything for it,
If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired,
Then why the f-ck will you more than likely say NO TO YOURSELF?
 
Simple,
Your a Mother F-cking Scaredy Cat.
You are scared of your POWER.
 
So you run from it.
You mask yourself from it.
You hide in fear.
 
Fear of all that you could become.
Of all that you ARE.
 
I get it.
Truly I do.
I do it too.
 
Actually all too much if I am truthful. Every day there comes a point where I look in the mirror and wonder how I am going to do it, what makes me believe that I can, or why I am worthy of it even.
 
Every day I look at myself and I criticize myself. I see all my faults,
All my failures,
All my shit and I say to myself,
 
“Kendal you are such an impostor. Your nothing more than this worlds BIGGEST LOOSER. Who the f-ck would ever follow you and what the hell makes you think that you are impacting this world in any positive way. You SUCK girl.”
 
I tear myself down.
 
And then I see the sparkle in my eye.
I see the hunger for a life worth living.
I feel the love in my heart.
I feel the passionate pull of my calling.
 
And I know.
I know that there is power in my being.
I know that there is purpose coursing through my veins.
I know that the reason I am having these feelings,
these desires,
Is because they are calling to me.
These desires want me too.
 
So I lean in a little further.
I smile at myself and and look in my blue eye’s,
With self-compassion I breathe a little deeper than before and I embrace my soul.
 
I follow.
I follow that call.
I follow that craving.
I follow that desire.
I follow that turn on.
I follow me.
The true me.
 
The powerful, radiant me.
I tap into that goddess in the mirror and I let her shine.
She may fear her power but she will not be trampled by that fear.
 
No she turns that fear into wings.
And she takes to the skies,
Rising above it all and embracing herself.
Loving herself.
 
Here,
here is where the power is.
I see,
I hear,
I witness,
I lean in.
 
You are effing scared.
You know you are.
 
But it is not of failure.
It is of success.
 
Your Success.
 
Feel those butterflies when I ask you to feel what it would be like if you knew you were limitless?
 
What are the questions and comments that come up for you when I say you are limitless?
 
See that fear that wants to hold you back,
cause procrastination,
tell you how you need a better plan,
how it cannot be because of this or that.
 
See that fear masking itself as a logical mind.
 
Yes that is you being so effing scared of your power.
So WTF.
 
When will you be worth saying YES to?
When will you stop settling for so much less in your life?
 
You may be effing scared,
but you still have a CHOICE.
 
Choose You.
Choose life.
Choose power.
 
 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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Carry Me Away

I am the woman who wants it all.
I want the Hollywood romance.
I want the worship.
I want the respect.
I want the abundance.
I want to be whisked away on along weekend to a surprise destination.
I want to be the center of someone’s world.
I want to feel the love streaming from his eye’s as much as his heart.
I want to be penetrated to my core in our love making.
I am a woman who wants it all.
 
I want to be carried away.
 
Yes, I want to be carried away like two lovers in a hot air balloon. Floating gracefully over the fields and houses below. Drifting off into the sunset, captured in an embrace that lives a lifetime.
 
I want it all.
 
As crazy as this idea sounds,
As scarce as it is in our world,
and as a coach who has spent years working with people who want the same, but never achieve it, never even taste of its sweetness,
I KNOW that it is possible.
 
I want it all.
I have tasted it before.
I crave its essence again in my life.
I KNOW it is possible.
 
The delicate moments of this hollywood romance may not be here forever, may only come here and there, but when they are here, I want to be embodied by them fully.
 
I want to open to them.
I want to be penetrated by them.
 
This morning as I sit out back writing in my journal,
casting my magical lyrics into the heavens, I heard the pressure of air being forced into a hot air balloon. There was a stillness in the energy, it was a peacefulness between the sound of the air pumps. Tapping into the rhythm of my heart and soul, I could feel the amazement, the love, the joy, the awe of being carried away in the balloon.
 
I stood and looked above the roof of my home, here a beautiful hot air balloon glided over my rooftop.
 
The ease.
The peace.
The flow of it.
 
They were being carried away.
The romance of the moment, even though it was not mine first hand dripped down on me as they drifted through the sky above.
 
Memories of my first hot air balloon ride fluttered up in me, bringing with it positive vibes of a moment in my past that brought a smile to my face and a longing in my soul.
 
I want it all.
I want to be carried away.
I want that flow.
I want that Hollywood romance.
 
I stood there in awe,
I stood there in bliss of a memory,
I stood there as my heart felt its joy,
I stood there as my heart felt it’s pain.
 
Breathing it in, I felt myself LONGING.
The wistful feeling of wanting.
 
A time that had past.
 
Was it lost forever?
Was the romance I craved gone forever?
 
I want it all.
Perhaps I am a crazy school girl,
innocent in her idea’s of love and life.
Believing that I can have it all and not settling for less than my soul’s desire.
 
Perhaps.
 
Perhaps not though.
 
Maybe this balloon drifting gracefully over my rooftop this morning was an awareness or a call to action of my soul. Perhaps it was something more than just me being a spectator to someone’s else’s joy.
 
Perhaps it was God saying, “Claim your life girl!”
 
What do you want?
What do you desire?
Find your flow and it is yours.
 
Ask and the door will open.
 
All that we desire, desires us as well.
I want it all.
I want to be carried away.
By my dreams.
By my lover.
By the romance.
By life.
 
I want to open to the rapture that this life is to be.
Romance is more than a Hollywood movie. Romance is about opening up and being penetrated by life in ALL WAYS.
 
We only do this through our allowing.
Allowing ourselves to feel the romance.
Feel the joy.
Feel the pain.
Feel the connection.
Feel the disconnect.
Feel the bliss.
 
Allowance is CLAIMING.
Allow yourself to DESIRE.
Allow yourself to be the center of your universe.
Ask for your souls f-cking desires.
 
Allow yourself to be carried away by your soul.
God wants you to fly.
God wants to penetrate your life.
God wants you to impregnate the universe with your desires.
God wants you to CLAIM your life as a righteous child of his.
 
This means to NOT step away from yourself.
This means to STOP hiding from your worthiness.
This means to ACCEPT your greatness.
 
You want to have it all?
You want the romance?
You want the orgasm?
You want the abundance?
 
Then effing STOP the insanity of running away from it and simply JUST CLAIM IT.
 
It is there for you.
Just like it is there for me.
 
I am CLAIMING my life.
Will you Claim Yours as well?
 

Will you?

Stop Existing & Start Living

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I Do Me Daily.

How do you do it, I get asked all the time.
 
People are always inquiring how can I juggle or balance being a mom of 7, running my own business, taking care of my dementia mom, doing the community events that I do, creating workshops/courses, writing and vlogging daily and still have time for anything else?
 
Like:
Dating
Sex
Travel
Play
Relaxation
TLC Moments
 
The truth is I have ton’s of time for all of it.
I get to have all of this because I have decided to claim my life.
Claim my bliss.
My Joy.
My ORGASM.
 

I CHOOSE.

I get to have all of this and people pay me with a smile on their face and excitement in their hearts because I show them how I do this daily.
 
I feed their souls.
By feeding my soul.
 
Yes. That is all I do to have all of this and keep on having it BIGGER and more of it.
I just simply do me.
 
I make no excuses as to who I am and what my desires are.
I make no excuses as my VERY human moments where f-ck up.
I allow myself to be seen, Just as is, all the f-cking time.
 
So how do I do it all?
How do I have the time, the finances, the energy?
 
How do I call it in?
 
#1 – Gratitude is the foundation of ALL that I do.
I am always offering up a prayer of gratitude to God. Even when shit seem’s to be hitting the fan, I am thanking God for it. I know that it only appears as shit because of my perspective and if I were able to see my life through heavens eye’s that it would appear much different and these challenges that our life presents to us are here with purpose. So I thank God even for the pain, the struggle, the heartache. By doing this I experience fewer down points and I consciously keep myself focused on the light at the end of any tunnel.
 
Gratitude creates a certainty that God always has your back.
 
#2 – Worthiness is KEY to success.
I am not any different than you when it comes to worthiness issues. I struggle in every moment around my worthiness. My up bringing showed me that I was most likely not worthy, society reinforced it. My actions in my youth right up to my actions of yesterday even support my lack of worthiness consistently. The ONLY difference is that I recognize all of that as ego bullshit. I have done my inner work and I continue to do my inner work DAILY to overcome and show myself that I am WORTHY. I claim my worthiness just like I claim my life. DAILY.
 
#3 – I Get Turned On.
I allow myself to get turned on, matter a fact I look for opportunities to get turned on. If nothing is presenting itself, I create it. I ask for it. I look for it. My turn on is about all of life NOT just sex. I look for ways to experience ORGASM in life and when I find that warming tingle that ignites me, I dance with it. I play with it. I eat it up and I open myself to God to be f-cked wide open. I welcome the penetration through my surrender and joy.
 
#4 – I spread my body in surrender daily so that God can worship me and I God.
There is not a day that goes by that I don’t open myself up to God so that the universe can flow through me. I write my opening in my daily journaling, I ask for the universe to carry me and I look for the opportunities that present themselves to me to achieve this. I understand the power that resides between my legs. Yes I understand the power of my sex and even in times when I want to close and shut down, I CHOOSE to open. I CHOOSE to receive orgasm. If only a small taste, I accept it and open consciously to more. I do this by putting my SEX as a priority. I allow God to worship me this way through my surrender to orgasm. The deeper I surrender, the deeper God penetrates me and the more extreme the worshiping which allows me a deeper worship with God as well. Worship in this form manifests my desires speedily because I am NOT trying to control it, I am just opening to it with a clear intent.
 
#5- Unapologetic Authenticity.
This one “should” be number one perhaps, as it is just as important as gratitude. Knowing yourself is not enough. Pretending to know yourself is far from tapping into greatness.
Being a follower will NEVER achieve the results you want.
Making excuses as to why you did this or that or are one way or another will never grant you any miracle or beauty. The ONLY way you get what you want is to unapolgetically be YOU!!!!! This means NO FOLLOWING. You can look for leadership, but you still must DO YOU 100%. Listening to society, friends, church, parents, spouse or other will only create a false you. It will only mask who you really are and encourage you to remain in the state you currently are. I learned a long time ago that BEING ME was the only way to my HAPPINESS. It has been a long journey and it is one that I walk with myself DAILY. I meet myself in every moment, with every person I come in touch with. I embrace all my aspects and have learned that the more I just let go of what I think everyone wants of me, the more everyone loves me and the happier I am. The better my message is, the deeper I can go and the greater light I can share.
 

SO how do I do it all?

How can a mom of 7 children ROCK her shit, take no excuses and live the F-CK YES! Life?
How can I go from $17k a year, bankruptcy, foreclosure and depression to a multi-six figure business, travel, ton’s of play, doing what I love and loving what I do.
Having a life that everything is just about me being me and living and getting paid F-cking Fantastic for it?
 
I just do the above.
I just follow my heart.
I let my soul lead.
I listen to my pussy you could say, if it turns me on, I do it.
If it turns me off, I don’t do it.
I have CERTAINTY that God has my back.
I count my blessings and I openly brag about them.
I keep my focus on my JOY.
 
That is what I do.
I DO ME DAILY Unapologetically.
 
What are you doing?

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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Your Sh*t Will Set You Free!

Resistance is futile.
Our resistance to the life that we want is sheer craziness in itself.Yet we continue to do it.
We continue to just say NO,
to ourselves.
To our hearts and our souls.
We ask the question of , “Why do I not have this or that NOW?”
We insist that we are in alignment to it,
when we are far from it.

Wonder why the f*ck you have what you have?

It is because you are in alignment to this shit.
It is your shit.
The relationships that do not fully serve you.
The bank accounts that are not what you want them to be.
The debt and bills that seem to over take you.
The health that wavers.
The job that empties you.
The disconnectedness.

Yes.
It is ALL your’s baby.

Wonder why it is here?
Here in your life?

No matter how hard you resist it, it just keep showing up, huh?

Well that is because you are it.
Your inside world is manifesting and showing you EXACTLY where you are.

Not happy with it.
You say.
There is good news in the midst of this pile of shit.

YOU CAN change it.
But first you must STOP resisting it and just see it for where you are at.

The more you resist it, the more you call it in and jump in bed with it.
The more you connect to it and it feeds from you.

Fall in love with your shit.
This shit is the shit that your dreams are made of.
This shit is the shit that you need to get right with.
This shit is the shit that is in side of you.

It scares you.
It may even terrify you.
You may feel lost,
abandoned,
unloved and not worthy.
But this is here to help you through it.

God bless your shit!

We all have it.
We all don’t want it.
It is here though to serve a purpose.
To build our character, open our hearts, heal our souls and make us KNOW with certainty what we want and WHO we are.

Your soul is all that it can be, all that it can reveal up to this moment.

STOP looking for yourself.
You are HERE.
You are COMPLETE.

Your shit show’s that.
You are a GREAT manifester.
Look at all that you have called in.
Your life is reflecting your thoughts,
your fears,
your hopes,
your emotions.

Just look.
It is AMAZING.
Yes,
this shit.
It is all your’s.
It is here to help you meet you.
To show you where you are at.

STOP resisting.
Start loving.

Embrace your shit.
Find the JOY in it.
Find the perfection in it.
Find the ease in it.

Let go.

You know what you want.
The ONLY way to it,
is through your shit.

So STOP wondering,
Stop questioning.
Stop looking for the how too’s on getting what you want.
Just STOP the craziness of resistance.

You already have everything that you desire.
It is here.
It is coming.
Your soul know’s who you really are.
You are aligning more and more each day.

When you surrender.
When you open.
When you let go.

You will feel peace.
You will feel comfort.
You will feel certainty.
You will feel joy.
You will feel bliss.

You will JUST KNOW.
You will KNOW YOURSELF,

FINALLY.

Resistance is futile.
Resistance only slow’s you down.

Take your f*cking foot off the brakes BABY.

You deserve to have it ALL NOW.

LET GO.
Love your shit.

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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It’s F*cking Hard to Surrender.

It’s f*cking hard to surrender. And that’s exactly the problem that we all have.

We want the orgasm.

We want the connection.

We want the effing firework’s.

But we won’t just allow surrender to over take us and just blow our f*cking mind.

You know it’s true!

If your like many people, just reading the word surrender had you go into some sort of convulsions and excuses in your body. Maybe you said, ” I surrender all the time. I know how to go with the flow and just be.” Or maybe you felt some constriction in your chest, back or stomach. Maybe, just maybe you simply shook your head and said, “yep! that’s right, surrender is f*cking hard.”  No matter what your response was as you read the title to this musing, you know its right.

Surrender is f*cking hard.

Why?

Because it’s scary as shit, that’s why.

Let me share a small tale with you and sorta tattle on myself in the process.

In recent month’s I have been struggling with surrender. I know how to and I can do it damn good and pleasurably as well too. I fully understand the blessings that I will reap if I just let go and surrender however, since about last July I have been stuck in what one may call a holding pattern. Just trying to maintain my energy, my emotions, and carry on as things sort themselves out. The issue with this holding pattern that quickly became a habit was that it had me locking down all my emotions and feeling. It had me restricting myself from fully embracing life in all ways.

You see when we restrict ourselves from surrendering to life and living faith based, even if it appears that we are only doing so in this aspect of our life and not over there or there, we are in fact limiting the supply of blessings and preventing the fullness of our dynamic ability to connect to God.  You don’t get to say, ” I am not going to feel that, but I will feel this fully.” No, the universe does not operate like that. If you want to experience the highs of life and all the joy, bliss and beauty, then you have to be willing to experience and learn from the contrasting feelings and emotions that life offers up as well.

After all you and I are not here for life results. We are here for life experience.

You don’t get to take all the shit you gather up here with you. You get to take with you the emotion, the memory, and the experience of this life.

That’s it.

Your fancy car’s, houses and wardrobe won’t do you a damn bit of good in the after life. Neither will being the most responsible, dutiful citizen. Sure these are all wonderful things, and certainly make life more enjoyable and pleasant, but the reality is that ultimately THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU ARE HERE FOR!

You are here to learn to connect.

Yes that is what you are here for. What I am here for and everyone else.

It is that simple.

No matter what your faith or religion is, the truth is still the same.

Connection is ALL THAT MATTERS.

Think about it. What are we searching for when we are “looking for God,” or sitting in silence to pray or meditate? What are we wanting when we read scripture and ask for guidance from God?

Connection.

Connection to God.

Connection to something greater than self.

Connection to ourselves.

Connection to others.

Without connection, no other goal matters, because if we are not leaning in and surrendering to God’s love and direction by becoming the witness within ourselves and embracing our own love for self as well as the love that is given FREELY by God/Universe then we can NEVER achieve any of our dreams, goals or desires long term.

We may get a taste of them for a fleeting moment but without the full embrace of our worthiness of receiving them and this means SURRENDERING to what our spirit knows at its core and living from our truth instead of this fictitious mask that we all love to try and play some role in, then we will never truly be blessed with all that is stored up in heaven for us and is right here waiting to be enjoyed in this lifetime.

Yet, here we are still arguing in so many ways about why we cannot or should not surrender.

Maybe it’s trust issues.

Maybe it’s a belief that you cannot have what you are desiring.

Maybe you are fearful of being abandoned by whomever or even God if you just get the f*ck out of your head and allow yourself to drop down into your body.

Maybe you are scared you will be too much, show to much or even that you may enjoy it to much.

Who the effing cares what the reason is that you are choosing NOT to surrender to your greatest and highest orgasmic life, the fact is that I am willing to wager that you are NOT!

Unless you can sit there and say, “Kendal, my life is so amazing, I cannot imagine anything being better. I have all my life in perfect order, I am living on purpose and am a total F*ck YES! to every day.  I have all the abundance and well-being that I could ever desire.” And here is the kicker to that statement, you may say, yeah Kendal, that’s right and I am damn good at surrender.

Well, what does you life picture show?

Is that true?

What would your spouse, lover, friend, or family say?

No?

I admitted a bit ago that I have been having surrender issues since back in July.  The rest of the story is pretty simple.

There was this boy and this girl and they were fiercely in love, until one day when one of them was not. That day the world came to a STOP for the girl and her surrender give a shit button BROKE. Try as hard as she might to recover it from the damage that it under took, she found herself running from the pain her heart felt and the anger it held.  She shut that shit down, because it was not good or productive and she focused in on the blessings in her life. She focused in on what she could CONTROL and dedicated herself to family and career.

Month’s passed and the girl tried repeatedly to pull that band aid off her bleeding heart and just surrender to life again and have faith that things would get better. That it was okay for her to open herself up and feel connection to someone again other than her family. Day after day, she tried everything possible, but always came back with the same result, a meh experience.

Almost hopeless, she decided that she had no choice but to just allow and see what would happen. Because in all of her trying she was actually pushing herself away from the thing that she desired so much. Her focus and dedication to “make it happen,” was creating resistance to surrender and preventing her from enjoying the rapture of connection, joy, and orgasm that was being presented to her repeatedly.

But then it happened!

Just like that, she had broken to a point where she no longer had the strength to hold the resistance and try and force something to happen.

There she lay, under her new lovers body, his focus completely present with her. Penetrating her not just to fantastic physical levels of depth, but as well to her heart and soul. Stroke after stroke, he lead her to go deeper inside herself where she had no choice but to meet up with her heart and just experience what it had to offer in this orgasmic surrender. The physical feelings were lovely and deep, but the emotional sensation brought tears to her eyes and as she found herself trying to hold them back, she could now feel her own resistance to her surrender heavy on her chest and tight in her pussy.

Here was the threshold that no one could carry her across but herself.  Here, she had to make a choice and either stand strong in her resistance to receive or open and surrender her physical body more so that her emotional, mental and spiritual bodies could be penetrated and carried to the alter of God once again.

Her choice was a most delicious one.

A life altering one.

She chose to go deeper.

She chose to lean into love.

Lean into her orgasm, her abundance, her radiance.

She chose to STOP Surviving & Start Living.

What will you choose?

The Lie You Have Been Told and Believe

 

You know the lie.

It’s that lie that you tell yourself everyday of the week, sometimes twice on Sunday because your dreading the following morning.

Yes that lie.

The lie that all you have to do to be happy is:

  1. Work Hard
  2. Get Good Grades
  3. Get into a Great College
  4. Get a Job
  5. Make Money
  6. Buy a House and Car
  7. Get Married

And Voilà Your HAPPY!

I am writing this article because I have a son graduating this year from high school. He is feeling such a tremendous amount of pressure from his peers, teachers, and counselors around HAVING to have his whole life planned out. None of them understand how he can not have a life plan yet. Some are even deeply concerned about his future and ability to do anything “worth while” because he has no plan other than to survive the rest of this school year.

I suppose they are all right, after all he is considered an adult now at age 18. He has had a sufficient amount of years on this earth to know who he is, what he wants and how to go about getting it.  All the other seniors are making their life plans and sending in college applications for education in the industry of their hearts desire or at least have decided on a career path that will pay them well and they will be successful at.

So WTF is wrong with my kid?

Such a looser he is.  Not having any of this stuff figured out.

Funny thing ya know, he is actually planning on packing his bag and moving to Maui, planning on hiking, diving, surfing and enjoying his feet in the sand. Planning on reading books he loves, and just hanging out and embracing life as it comes to him, moment by moment.

The ONLY issue with this plan of his, is that is DOES NOT fit the societal norm of SUCCESS.

And how the hell can anyone be happy if they don’t have a college degree? or 100k in debt? or are not getting up five days a week working for the man?

There is no freaking’ way someone can be legitimately happy just living life without ALL that!

No instead of all that my son has decided that he will work in the food industry while he learns more about himself and life. While he discovers what his passion is. He has decided that he would make some small investments into crypto currency and learn about flipping properties.  Although he does have a passion for art and could easily also look at becoming a tattoo artist if he desired as well. Maybe he will do all of it? Maybe he will do none?

What he does know is that the way the average minded person works hard, goes into debt and gives away their life is NOT what he wants.

He knows that although his passion is with the ocean and marine life that what he really wants to do would take him until he was 40 to get the position he wants and he most likely would end up settling somewhere along the line for something much less than his hearts desire because he “had too.” After all life happens and with it come responsibilities.

Then life becomes all about duty.

Duty to pay the bills.

Duty to take care of the house and car.

Duty to get up and go and make someone else rich.

Duty to be a good person.

Duty to get into a serious relationship.

Duty to make your spouse happy.

Duty, duty, duty!

And then you die!

That is it. That is all this whole existence is about. Doesn’t that sound wonderful. Yes, so I guess he had best have that life plan in order in the next 8 weeks, before life comes charging after him and making him surrender to it’s will of living without passion, without true love, without purpose and without happily ever after.

Yep he had best just stand up and be a man and do what all young men do. Make their parents proud by doing what they are told and getting into the right college and then the right job. The job that will suck the very life from his vein’s and make him wish Monday would never come  again.

Well NOT MY KID!

Guess it is the curse of having a mom who parents like God. I will love him no matter what he chooses to do and I know for certain that he can do anything he puts his mind too. I also know for certain that the lie that we have all been told is just that: A LIE.

I know this because I thought it was truth and I beat myself up for many years not feeling worthy because I had not done what the world said I should do. Instead I ended up becoming a young mother, married early and struggling. It was not a shock as to why I was struggling. I had not followed the plan above.  And then, then I started to paint the picture of the plan and follow it some and guess what?

I was still struggling.

I was still unhappy.

I had the job. The house. The husband. The car.

And the debt.

I was being a  good citizen. A good friend, daughter, mother, and spouse.

So why was I not happy yet?

I was not living for me.

I was not being me.

I was FAKING it all!

Just Like you are. Yep I am calling you out on this RIGHT NOW. I bet that you are within the 85%-90% of the population that is faking their lives. I bet that you dread going to bed on Sunday and getting up on Monday. I bet that you live for the 5 o’clock hour. You live for weekends, vacations and holidays.  I bet that you have your responsibilities taken care of and that you feel like a ATM machine for your kids and family. I bet that you wish you could do something else, but  believe that you could never do it because it would not pay the bills.

Last thing you want is to be irresponsible.

I bet that even though you have that debt, that you are pretty comfortable with it because that debt is a sign that you went to school, got a degree and did it right. It is a sign that you bought the house and the car. It is a sign that you bought the furniture and have credit! Woohoo!!!! for credit.

It is a sign that you are a effing ADULT and your adulting the right way too, damn it!

But does this mean your happy?

Seriously, ask yourself this now.

AM I HAPPY?

Am I happy?

Am I?

Well, are you?

I feel you. I feel that stomach ache. The tension in your neck and shoulders. The mild headache coming on and the fear and the desire for happiness.

Face it you were designed for more.

That is why your not happy with just settling for paying your bills and being responsible.  You were designed for greatness!

The only thing  STOPPING you from this greatness.

Is YOU.

Yes, actually NO. That is the issue, you keep saying NO to yourself. You keep saying that you can’t, that your not worth it, that your not smart enough. That you should not want more. That it is stupid to want more. To be more.

The issue is that you BELIEVE the lie still and you are WAITING for happiness to come from this lie.

The TRUTH BABY is this, that if you want happiness, then you are going to have to CREATE it.

And it DOES NOT come from living a small life, where you have settled for the lie. No it comes from you EMBRACING who you are.

Embracing that you were born WORTHY.

Embracing that you are POWERFUL.

Embracing that it is NOT what you choose to do as a career, but who you choose to be as a person.

Embracing your joy.

Embracing your YES!

And consistently asking yourself, “What makes me happy?”

Consistently,  seeking out new layers of yourself and being curious in life.

Buying the Bullsh*t Lie that we have all been told since we were small, buying into the pain, the suffering, the “worker bee” mentality of average and ordinary, will NEVER make you happy.

So when will you start to say YES to your dreams?

To your heart?

To your joy?

To your happiness?

When will you START to be a F*ck YES to the Most IMPORTANT person you know- YOU?

I hope you say that today is your lucky day.

Because I believe in you.

And so does God.

Stop Existing and Start Living!