Never ask me to do this…

My mentor recently wrote about how if you ask her to give up her art then you will never know her heart, because without the art there is no heart.
 
I sat with this thought all day yesterday after reading her words ( which I will share in full shortly for you). I sat with it because as I read them, my heart gasp in enthusiasm of being understood FINALLY.
 
So often I find myself being asked to sacrifice my work,
my writing, my sharing with you for something else. For a relationship. For false stability.
 
I find my art getting smashed down and hidden under rugs and in corners because it is not perceived as IMPORTANT or it is “just my j-o-b.”
 
I find these same things that request I sacrifice my art, to also desire to become closer to me, to take up valuable space in my life, in my days and weeks. They want time and energy from me, they want my attention but they deny my art and the love I have for it.
 
As I read her words, I realized that out of all the things and people that have pushed my art to the side, that I was by far the worst. It is ONLY me who ever say’s yes or no to my art.
 
It is only me who ever set’s the boundaries around my time, my energy, my life….
 
My art.
 
And it is my doing that at points in life that I allow it to be stolen from me. Hidden and handicapped.
 
I want to share my heart.
I want to share my passion.
I want to reveal all that I know at my deepest core.
At my soul.
 
So why do I allow it to be ignored and put on the back burner?
For the same reason’s that you do!
 

FEAR.

 
Fear of loss of all those that take it’s place.
Fear of not being worthy.
Fear of being too much.
 
Yes that is why we hide from our art at times and allow the loss of it to form in my life until we feel like our lives are no more.
 
Until we can no longer breathe,
because our heart has been squished.
Has lost its life.
 
My art is not my j-o-b.
I do not have a j-o-b.
My message, my mission, my sharing and teaching.
My writing and speaking,
this is all my art.
 
My art comes from my heart.
It comes from that centered place deep withing my soul where I feel the divine speaking and calling out.
 
Using my hands,
my mouth,
my whole being….
 
for not my art.
but God’s Art.
 
If you ask me to choose between my art and you, I’ll choose my art
 
And if you think it’s not a big deal to speak to me or draw my attention in any way while I’m in that art, you break my heart
 
Soon enough then, there’ll be nothing left to give you anyway, because my art is my heart and only from my art beats my heart so if you break it –
 
And you continually show you don’t get that it’s always art first –
 
I have to remove myself or there will be no more art
 
And no more heart
 
For anyone” — Katrina Ruth
 
So why the f-ck ever choose ANYTHING other than your art?
 
That becomes the question.
There is NEVER a reason good enough if you look at it like this.
 

What is your art?

Choose it today.

Claim Your Life.

 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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