My False NEED to Control…

BOOM!!!! My Observation of the darkness and my truth…

“OMFG! Here is my ego. Here are my blocks.”

Last night I sat in bed listening to training video’s and working through mindset practices and journaling to level up my work. I know that I am not in full alignment at this moment with who I really am and my desires. So there I sat till almost 2AM doing the REAL effing work. You know what I am talking about. The INTERNAL work.
And because I am a mom of a 5 year old and a 3 year old, I found my bed invaded by little people who were struggling with their sleep. This made me keep my room dim where I could barely see the words that I was writing in my journal.
I noticed quickly my struggle for control.
My need to make sure that my words were forming correctly.
As though my soul would form them wrong…lol
I noticed that I was struggling to just go with my flow,
and ALLOW.
As I moved more into this observation, I started to desire to just LET IT GO.
But my EGO,
my effing EGO.
It fought.
It wanted me to control.
To think I was doing something incomplete,
not good enough,
not right.
All because I could not see clearly the space I was writing in and the entirety of what I was calling in through my words.
How eye opening this was.
My lesson of the early morning.
Here was a major block.
Here was how my EGO had me by the balls currently.
It was happening not just in my journaling,
but in my life.
My false NEED to know the path.
To see the STEPS.
To try and control what is not mine to control.
My lack of FAITH….
WOW!!!!
Time to let that shit go!
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And As Always, 

Stop Existing & Start Living

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