The last two weeks of my life have been a roller coaster of life changes. Some have a direct impact on my world, some not so much but do because they effect my children or my extended family.
Two weeks ago my eldest daughter gave birth to her little boy.
Last week, my youngest two son’s grandfather passed away.
Today I sit and desire nothing more than to just continue being authentically me.
I look at the changes, the life, the death and I know it is all beautiful. But there is this sense that I get that I am expected to be more emotional about things then what I really am. As though I am not putting on a grand enough show for my world.
Silly as that may sound, it does come in to me from outside sources and these little obnoxious voices that sound off in my head here and there that want me to focus on things that really have no significant impact on my life joy or happiness or fear for that matter.
Since the birth of my grandson two weeks ago I have been hit with the question, ” How does it feel to be old enough to be a grandma?”
And “Wow! Top of the totem pole. Enjoy him while you have the energy.”
It is like because I am a grandmother now,
even though there is the blessing of this sweet baby in my life that society believes that life is all down hill when this milestone happens. That you are almost around the corner from the grave.
last week my kids grandfather passes away unexpectedly from heart failure.
The thing society worries about.
And as a grandparent one must add this fear to the daily worry list I assume….
I think NOT!
But if we did not fear death enough as it is,
such events as a birth and then a death can bounce it around a tad more than normal.
It is my opinion that the reason we fear death so much is because we do not believe in who we really are. We give lip service to this thing called SOUL or SPIRIT and to the desire to believe in something greater than ourselves such as source, divine or God. But when we really get into it,
when we are faced with it, we question our belief and we find ourselves in a negative vibe of “hope.”
Now many believe that hope is a positive.
I not so much so.
To me hope is a negative word,
with negative energy attachments.
It is disempowering.
Just feel these statement-
” I hope I get a new job.”
” I hope I overcome this illness.”
” I hope she graduates school.”
“I hope nothing bad has happened.”
“I know that the perfect job for me is around the corner.”
“I know I just need to support my body and take some time for me.”
“I know she is working hard to achieve her goals.”
“I know that things always work out for everyone’s highest and best good.”
Which side of the fence feels better to you?
Which side feels stronger?
More like it is focusing good vibes toward something vs. negative vibes?
We do this in so many ways.
Bring ourselves down.
Bring others down ( often without realizing the power of our words)
and focusing in on the negative all the while BELIEVING we are giving our best wishes or highest vibrational thoughts and focus.
But it ain’t true.
If we really believed we had a SOUL.
If we really believed that there was a God or something greater than self and it has a plan,
then we would only desire to live our life to the fullest and that has nothing to do with living in fear of death.
Fearing death disables us from being present in our life.
It has us act from a place of scarcity.
A place of disembodiment.
We tap out and try and hide from life.
All in the pursuit to live longer.
To not feel pain.
To not suffer.
To not have bad things happen.
But this is sheer craziness.
These suppose bad things are here to help us clarify what we want in life and from life.
These “bad” things help us discover who we are, want to be and they are blessings.
Not all blessings come in pretty little boxes.
Not all are sweet and sugar topped.
Without the contrast we never truly authentically get a chance to meet who we are.
Avoiding the contrast is for the weak.
It is for those who believe that they can somehow outsmart death.
They think that death is an ending.
When what if….
Croaking just was another step on our life path for our soul?
But hoping for survival in our current state of experience is silly.
What one can do,
is COMMIT to LIVING presently.
To loving this moment.
To expanding into their fullest potential and giving this amazing world their VERY BEST.
You will never achieve that,
living in FEAR.
You will never have that presence if you are trying to avoid death.
But you will miss out on all your BLESSINGS.
No matter how you perceive them.
And the even worse part is that you will never taste the raptures of your AUTHENTIC SELF.
You are beautiful.
You are powerful.
You are amazing.
You have so much to give this world.
Don’t let fear and worry of what you cannot avoid,
what you have no control over hide your light any longer love.
It is time for you to step up.
Claim Your Life.
And Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
Are you ready to commit to your SOUL?
Desiring something more in your life?
If you are someone who looks in the mirror every day and knows that you have so much more to offer this world, but feels stuck in how to go about revealing it, then perhaps we should speak.
If you feel a call in your gut and you know you need to just get the tools and find the support to step the eff up in your life once and for all and let your light shine in…