The Dance of Love

These feeling I have are not new to me.
They are but like a distant memory,
that is not distant enough for my heart to not recall the pain that they potentially can bare with them.
These thoughts I have of you,
that my mind, body, soul yearn to experience are not strangers either,
they too carry the distinct scent of surrender,
of love,
of commitment.
And they too hold a fear.
I find myself,
sitting here,
looking into your eye’s,
captivated by the light that dances through them,
mesmerized by the the turn of your lips and the soft smile you carry upon them.
I find myself,
looking away in hopes that you will look toward me in these moments,
so that I can feel your desire,
I can feel you taking in my essence.
And I do.
Each time our eye’s meet,
each time our lips touch,
each time you stroke my mind with inquiry,
each time you twirl my soul,
and tell me your desires.
I find myself being lifted.
I find myself feeling as though I am soaring.
Joy captivates my soul in these moments.
You demand my presence.
You demand my depth.
You demand my vulnerability.
My surrender.
And you do it fiercely.
With certainty,
and confidence,
and ohh so smoothly.
Like velvet, I find myself wanting to be touched more.
More with your words,
with your thoughts and ponderings.
I find myself wanting to be touched with the emotion that I see and is not fully spoken within your eye’s.
Your perfect eye’s.
Those perfect eye’s that carry me.
That shine the light of love on me.
A love that I have felt before,
a love that is so captivating,
so stimulating,
it stirs,
Stirs my being,
and makes me believe that more is possible.
This thought of more,
it terrifies,
it electrifies,
and it asks for me to choose.
I hear the sweet whisper of love,
I hear it revealing all that I know already,
it is uncovering,
what I fear to let be seen.
And I ask myself,
“Why do you fear this love?”
The raw truth is that,
I do not fear.
The shudder that quakes inside of me,
at the possibility,
is not fear,
it is settling.
Settling into all that I have asked God for,
that man,
that lover,
the moments,
and all the beauty that come with them.
Oh yes my love,
I do not fear what in being uncovered.
Instead I welcome it.
I crave it.
As I covet the sweet surrender,
as I melt into your strength,
into your passion and presence.
As I allow you to twirl me in this dance,
that we are becoming breathless in.
It is with this potency,
that I find myself,
Opening yet again,
to all that I fear,
all that I want.
I bare myself to you,
raw, real and with intent.
The intent to give myself over to this beautiful moment.
This dance.
And so it is,
and always has been,
when lovers meets.
The beauty of true love,
is not in the needing of it,
It is in the wanting.
Not the wanting of the love,
or even of a person,
It is in the wanting to be there.
Be there fully, authentically and ready to be penetrated.
here in this space,
with love,
true love, we find ourselves.
Communing in the moment,
rapturing into our own glory,
and embracing the dance.
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Don’t Go Soft On Me…

I have a thing for a man who can get into his primal nature.
A man who can make my heart flutter with his firm directive touch.
A man who knows his core.
Knows his desire, is comfortable in standing in his truth and let’s me feel it from his deepest soul expression.
I love the masculine who penetrates me with his hunger for life.
Who dives deeper into my feminine not just with his words or body but with his consistent stable energy.
A masculine who gets that the greatest adventure in life is the journey of discovery of self through the awakening of unconditional love.
A masculine who wants to rope the moon and stars not to prove his love but to conquer his purpose. To embrace his divinity.
I love a man who twirls my energy and opens my heart to believing that more is always possible.
A man is steadfast, secure and proactive.
A man who addresses his fears in love with a willingness to hear a deeper level of himself.
I love a man who loves my strength.
Not because he loves a strong woman who does not need him, or can take care of him or mother him, but because he wants my strength by his side to conquer the greatest dreams and turn them into a reality.
I love a man who sees my truth,
Embraces my heart, my sex and my soul as though it were the greatest gift ever given.
Never wanting to own, to harness or take for granted,
But instead knowing that by igniting it further that I will surrender fully to him and entwine and lift us both into the heavens of love.
I love a man that does not run from my fires but instead embraces them and smiles. Opening my heart further into his steadfast commitment and love.
I love a man who can read my heart with his tender looks and touches while leading me deeper into spaces that I have not discovered and would not without him by my side.
I love a masculine who does not need me,
But chooses me because we are bonded at an energetic level that his soul knows in certainly and love.
I love a man who does not go soft with me…
Not in his truth.
Not with his core.
Not in his desire.
Not in his words.
His primal passion,
His hunger of mind, body and soul,
It remains powerful and aligned.
No matter how the winds of life swirl and push, the storms that crash in,
He does not bow to them.
But chooses to kneel before my alter,
Opening himself to the treasures that my heart wants to give.
In certainty.
I love a man who knows and loves himself so much so that he will never go soft with me.
To all the men of the world looking for a powerful turned on woman,
This is your mission.
Your journey starts within.
In loving self.
Knowing self.
And being strong in your core.
Never let a woman be your purpose.
Never need her,
Choose her.
And she will surrender to your divine love.
As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
Coaching for Grown A*s Believers



Relationship creates a space where we want to fully submerge ourselves.
Loose ourselves in the love.
In the connection.
In each other.

It feels amazing as we come together with another soul,
And are greeted and held in this feeling of love and acceptance.

So much so that without realizing it we give away pieces of ourselves over the course of time.
We stop doing things that we once enjoyed,
We stop being around people even that filled us, stirred us or supported us in different ways because we feel that this relationship that holds our hearts is enough.

And the very idea that perhaps this relationship is not enough,
Not should it ever be enough even,
Seems ludicrous.

This is our home.
This is love.
And love means to put all your focus,
All your needs and hopes,
Into it.
Thats what commitment is.

To choose the relationship.

Yet here is also the demise of the relationship.
You see when we put the relationship before self,
We turn over ourselves and can easily get lost in the life of the relationship instead of the life that we are to be living.

This leads to anxiety, frustration, jealousy, worry, fear of abandonment and bitterness.

The more we focus on the CHOOSING OF US instead of the choosing of self,
The more empty and lost we will find ourselves.

Because we are no longer focused on aligning to our own soul,
But instead aligning to the picture and expectations of the relationship.

The strongest relationships are built on two individuals who are strong and confident in themselves without each other first.

Relationship helps us learn and heal different new and old aspects of ourselves.
Relationship adorns our lives with its beauty and connection,
But it is not to be the foundation, beams and walls as well of who we are and our happiness or confidence.

When a person is aligned first with self and God,
Then they can open and align into a relationship that fits who they are verses a relationship that needs them to be someone and something that they are not.

When we mold ourselves to a relationship we give away who we are.
We turn from our core,
From our soul and alignment of self and God,
In the belief that that is what love requires inorder to maintain.

However, the truth is that love recieves you just as you are.

Love focuses us on us first.
Love knows that it only exists when each individual loves themselves deeply,
Knows themselves,
Accepts themselves,
And that authentic love ( not need masked as love)
Is present in self first.

Authentic love is only present because of the love we feel for self.

Any other format of it is based in an attempt to feel solid in self based on anothers attention.


Authentic love always chooses the self first because it is there that alignment comes from.
It is there that love manifests from.

And without the self first you walk in the land of loss, emptiness and fear.

So I ask you today to look at your ” love based relationship” and ask yourself.

Do I choose US or ME?

Leaning into your truth and soul will lead you to the space that will fill you from a deep level of love, support and build your confidence in who you are so that you can give and recieve an unconditional love with your partner.

Choose you.
Love you.
Be you.


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Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”

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Coming Together in the Wound



We meet our mirrors at different points in time on our life journey.
We are intrigued, even aroused by these meetings.
We sometimes catch the feels,
And get committed.
And often this is the exact case that creates a defined relationship in today’s society.
Two people living thier own life experiences,
Meeting and connecting from thier wounded selves. From a space of feeling broken, fearful, unworthy and incomplete.
And they find themselves drawn into another who is just this as well.
They find this other lost soul who has all these similarities and hopes.
They share thier pain, thier saga and desire to have something more.
And so like magnets they connect.
They feel supported feeding each other the understanding and love that they crave.
They feel seen, heard and like thier mate gets them.
And they do.
Because both are operating from the wound.

Time passes,
The wound remains to a degree for both,
It gets triggered here and there,
Bringing doubt and fear into the hearts of the couple.
But they come together and assure each other that they are there.

And then it happens…
One of them starts to feel better.
Stops masking thier pain,
Stops hiding in thier guilt and suffering and chooses to open up again.
Chooses to breathe life in again.
Choose to heal,
To grow and become whole yet again.
And when this happens thier mate is provided an opportunity to do the same or to burrow themselves into more sadness.
More frustration and fear.
And thus end the relationship.
Because you see when one grows and heals and the other does not then it is the destiny of the relationship to end.

Growth and healing increases your vibration.
It will have you feeling full, in love with life, good about yourself and have you desiring for more in all of your life.

When vibrations increase for one partner but the other does not match vibration any longer then the two will start to experience challenges in connection, understanding each other, there will become an irritation between them like sandpaper and unless one of them does something to change thier frequency then its inevitable that they will split.

Now granted the one who started to grow, heal, transform certainly could hault thier opening. They could work on shrinking themselves again, and grow slower but typically even though this is a possibility it rarely happens because the momentum of growth becomes intoxicating and neither party want a shrinkage to happen.

Even though it quickly becomes evident as to what will occur.

So obviously the best choice to maintain the relationship is for the other partner to take self- responsibility and lean into the scary land of transformation. But its tricky.
They have to lean in because they want the growth for self…
Not just to save the relationship,
Otherwise the vibration will become needy and cause even more irritation between the two.

You cannot lie about your vibration.
And you cannot manipulate your vibration.

On the other spectrum,
Coming together in healing…
Or in growing.

When we meet someone in this place,
Where we are each doing our work,
Learning to take responsibility for self, emotions and actions.
Leaning into our hearts and souls and catching the ego,
When we meet from a place of expansion we find ourselves again feeling deep connection, understanding, love and catching the feels for this other person who is meeting us where we are.

And it feels beautiful.
It feels supportive but not like the crutch of the wounded connection,
Instead supportive from a sense of freedom to be self and to be witnessed just as we are.
This sort of bonding,
As long as both parties continue to love self first, own thier emotions, thoughts and actions and keep leaning into thier individual expansions,
Then they together will connect deeper,
Be witnessed from a truly authentic level,
Experience a quickening in personal growth as well as a melding and accelerated joint growth and transformation which will with its individual vibrational increases also create a worm hole of momentum toward the couples unity.

Here a couple can experience the highest of relationship connectedness in vulnerability, intimacy and authentic unconditional love.

They will be able to cross through challenging waters together because they both built strong individual boats first and are sailing the choppy seas of life side by side, supporting each other but not trying to glue thier boats together in need which only creates instability and weakness in self and relationship.

True mature loving relationship understand and value self and growth first.
They choose to journey together because its a beautiful transformational path to share but they do not need someone by thier side to love the path they are on.
They do what they do because it feels good to them and for them,
Not because they aim to please anyone else.

Look at your relationships of today and yesterday,
Were they founded in the wound or in healing and growth?

What is your desire in your relationship story?
And how is the founding of your current expanding you or holding you back?

Time to get clear.
Time to be real.
Time to connect from strength.

As always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”

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Just for The Fun of It!


Thats all it is to be.
But you my love are afraid of your point of attraction.

You are afraid that you will be too much.
That you will stand out in the crowd of everyone else who chooses to deny thier happiness and blessing.

Why do you give so much attention to what you do not want?

Why do you go searching for problems and daydreaming about them?

To live a F-ck Yes Life you must give up….
Yes give the f-ck up on being available to everything that is not fun.
Is not able to be done in ease.
Are you struggling?
In a piss poor mood?
Always searching, hungry but never happy.

These are signs that you believe that it must be hard. That you must struggle.
That life is not there to back you.

And so you refuse to leap forward.
You turn away from the heights of bliss.
You find reasons and excuses as to why…
Why you cannot do, be or have.

You argue love.
You argue for your limitations in all the things you want most for.
And then you blame.
You weep in the shadows of what could have been.

The sad truth is that all this constriction you feel,
All this lack you are standing in,
All this drama and trauma you point fingers of blame toward.

You attracted it to you because you BELIEVE that you cannot have the life you desire.

And you believe that if you actually allowed yourself to love life,
To stop and smell the flowers,
To laugh more,
Play more,
Make love more,
And do the damn things that make you happy,
That you would no longer be recieved by this world.

Seriously, how can you be happy in a world so caught up in pain and anger?
How can you be laughing and enjoying your days when so many others are miserable and suffering? When bad things, very bad things are occurring all over?

This would make you seem an uncaring soul.
Caught up only in self, not concerned about the world or whats happening. You must have no virtues.

But I ask you this love.

How is tainting your life with pain and scarcity truly helping to pull anyone else out of the swamp they are in?

How is your suffering and lack of abundance helping move our planet to a healthier state? Or doing anything good for anyone?

Just for the fun of it….
Just for this moment in time…

Take thirty seconds,
To close your eye’s,
Breathe deep into your gut,
Relax your whole being,
And smile.
Smile a happy thought.
And feel it fully.
Imagine it as though it already was.

Imagine if you starting playing this creation game daily.
Imagine what might occur.

Could it be so simple as to what you apply your thoughts and feelings too is what you reap in life as well?

And if it changes nothing,
Then you have risked nothing but thirty seconds of your day.

But if blessings start to happen.
Your thinking change.
Your emotional state level up.
And you start to allow yourself to enjoy this magical life of yours…

Well then my love you will be risking EVERYTHING.

Because your whole life will evolve.
And you my dear will be no more,
For you will become that person you have desired all these years,
Living, breathing, tasting, f-cking the way you have always dreamed.

And that…
That is a risk that 99.9% of humans are not comfortable taking.

So best off you just keep b-tching about your problems and drama,
Weeping about how hard life is.

So you don’t have to risk transforming.
Risking birthing who you truly are.

Just stay right there love.
Stay as you are.

And I will venture out and live in abundance.
You can watch me from afar.
Enjoy my journies and love making.
The smile upon my face.
Although I wish you were here.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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You Give Me Permission to Live




Here is something that I get told frequently.

Especially right now with everything that is going on in our world.

And it is amazing that people refuse to give themselves permission to live. I mean shit…. IT IS YOUR LIFE…

and it is the only one that you have to live.

“cuz even if pastlives are a real thing,

THIS LIFE is still the one you are living right now and will have memories of as you move through your years.

So you’re sittin’ on your pretty little or big ass dreaming about living,

but making up reasons as to why you cannot,

and maybe you are just simply scared of living,

because you believe all the propaganda going around right now to keep you in a state of fear,

the reality is still the same….


And you love,

you are the only one who can live it.

Therefore it is up to you and only you to give yourself permission to do just that.

All this fear that is being stacked up against you is bullshit.

Do you get that?

Interesting little fact,

you are more likely to win the lottery than to catch this popular newly spoken of virus that is going around.Yeah, according to recent updates from the CDC this virus that you are staying home for and have chosen to stop living your life over has only a 0.2% death rate. That means that you have twice the chance of catching it as you do getting struck by lightning depending on where in the world you live.

Maybe we should all stay on home arrest during thunderstorms and stop the world…

In truth, this share has nothing to do with COVID.

Or the crazy shut downs and world destruction that is happening because of it,

it is however about you using yet something else to make an excuse to not live your amazing life.

COVID is just your most current reason,

and you have the world craze and lack of logic to support your own lack of logic and fear of stepping up to the plate and breathing into your power.

You right now have media support,

telling you that you should stop living.

You should stop loving your life.

You should fear your friends and family,

your neighbors and the strangers at the store.

And that it is OKAY to not have courage.

Courage to live.

Courage to say yes to your life and your power.

But when COVID is gone….

and it will be gone at some point because with a 0.2% death rate it will not be in the frontlines of control forever,



Let’s talk about this reality.

‘Cus you know that there will be something.

You always find something,

don’t you.

and then you watch others out there living and thriving,

loving and growing,

and you feel your heart lower,

you feel your gut turn,

and your soul yell at you,

and you block them all.

It hurts too much to bear the pain.

That suffering of not living to your maximum potential.

It’s a MF B*tch!

I get it.

I use to walk through life like this,

and I made excuses daily for it.

Then one day I got sick and tired of my suffering and my weak ass approach to my own world.

I chose differently.

I woke up, you could say and realized that time did not care about my excuses and damn good reasons as to why I was waiting to live.

Time did not wait for me.

Time did not give a rat’s rear end about my fears.

And it does not care about yours either.

There is your reality check of the day.

So when I hear someone say to me,

“Kendal you live life to the fullest, I wish I could do that.”

I say,

“Just Do It Then.”

And when they say,

“I am waiting till the perfect moment to start living. I have this thing I am working on right now.”

I say,

“Stop That. You will work through whatever that is far quicker if you learn to say yes to living and yourself, and show yourself some f-cking love instead of replaying that negative record over and over again.”

And when they say,

“Someday, someday I will find the courage. Someday I will be ready to step out and do the things that I want.”

I say,

“What are you waiting for? Lighting to strike you. Because your chances of that happening is about 0.2% odds for every one million, if you live in Europe. You might have more luck getting struck in Asia or Africa, like in Zimbabwe, where it can be 100’s of times higher. Good luck!”

If you are one of these beautiful souls that is terrified to start living right now,

let this message today be a spiritual base bat,

Your life is not going to wait for you love.

Your life it is happening no matter how you feel about it,

no matter where your comfort is or not.

And the fact is the same for all of us on this planet.

We all are give the same amount of hours in each day,

what we choose to do with them is ours only.

And life…

Life is a risky game that we were each born into and play each day that we wake to our hearts beating and our lungs filling with air.

No such thing as risk free living.

Sheltered at home,

exploring the world,

opening to love,

or closing down our hearts.

It’s all a risk.

What matters is your happiness and fulfillment.

Are you happy?

Are you fulfilled?

If you died today would you be able to say you have no regrets?

But if I, Kendal Williams can give you permission to start living the life that God/Universe blessed with an opportunity to enjoy and live, well then so be it…

You have my blessing and permission to GO LIVE.

Be Gone.


Well Go On Then…

Oh wait…. You found another reason huh?

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You are scared shitless of letting go of control and therefore you cannot surrender to the flow of your life and all the beauty and blessings that are in store for you.


You crave the deep heart shattering love,

you want for the intensity of life to move through you in your most intimate spaces,

your hunger is strong for the avalanches of abundance,

but they will never be yours.


And the only thing standing your way to having EVERYTHING…


and I mean everything that you have ever wanted and desired is your FEAR.


That fear that has you believing that you are not worthy.

That fear that has you believing that safety is better.

That fear that is telling you that turning away from your dreams is better than suffering,

and that you will not suffer if you let go of what you want.

That fear that has you convinced that you should be/do/have some way that another wants, instead of JUST BEING YOU.


That fear that whispers in your ear at times of transformation and breakthrough,

just when you are getting to expand and says,


“You are not safe. You need to control this situation.”


Yes that fear.


It is keeping you from EVERYTHING.


And you just keep going back to its arms,

back to it’s false security,

and believing its lies.


And what are you actually getting from it?

‘Cuz there is no security in fear in truth.


You are getting to to remain a victim to life,

that’s what you are getting.

You are getting to remain weak in your thoughts,

weak in your emotions,

and weak in life.

You are fulfilling the prophecy of that fear has been telling you all your life.


So what is your fear giving you?





So good job!

Good job listening to what will be the thief of your life and thinking its your “smartest” option.

Good job for lying to yourself and telling yourself that you would do anything for your dreams,

for your personal growth and well-being,

for love.


Good job, ignoring your soul and instead living from your ego.

Good job for cowering before the offerings of soul and God,

and turning your back to EVERYTHING that you want for.


There is a saying that it is always darkest before sunrise.

And somehow, you have been believing that the darkness is a sign that you cannot have the sunrise,

that it is not coming for you,

that you are not worthy,

and so you sit there believing that what you are witnessing is a message from soul to go back,

to stop the pursuit.



And this is sheer f-cked up thinking!

I can tell you one thing,

and this I had to learn the hard way many times over,

but it’s the truth,



Suffering is a choice.

Not having is a choice.

And we decide if we are going to thrive or suffer when we choose to lean into FAITH or FEAR.


If you have been doing your work internally,

and you have been dreaming your dreams of all that you want to call in, ‘and then you have seen some of the things start to manifest in your life,

but in their manifestation you shun them,

you hate on them,

you gain disgust or bitterness for them not being exactly how you wanted or showing up exactly when you wanted, ‘then know that your ego is running your life not your heart and soul and that you have turned your power over.


Because what you want for is coming for you, ‘and it can get here quickly if you stay focused on feeling good about what is showing up.

If you stay focused on how f-cking awesome the journey is instead of how you don’t yet have yada-yada-yada.


You gotta find your strength though.

You have to have the ever loving courage to turn away from your fear and if you talk about about living from faith and walking in faith,

then you need to stop talking about it and



Because words don’t matter.

Your actions,

your attention to what you want from a place of faith,

that’s what matters.


Faith is the true sign of surrender.

And right now love,

you don’t got it.


But you can shift in 30 seconds if you truly want to.

All it requires is you putting down your armour of fear and need to control.


Just 30 seconds and you can get the momentum of faith and the power of surrender moving in the direction of your desired life and dreams.


Are you ready to say YES to YOU?

Are you ready to surrender to well-being and love?

Are you ready to put down all the false illusions of your lack of worthiness?


I sure hope so.

The world needs you to shine.


As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”


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Baby I Need Your Love, But You Don’t Love Me.

Oh baby I need your love.
Got to have all your love.

Can I pay you for?
Why don’t you really love me baby?
I bought that fur,
Those diamond earnings.
I paid off your student loan,
And put a down on your house.

What more can I do baby to prove my love?
I want you to desire me.
I want you to want me.
I want to look into those big eyes,
And feel your love.

It hurts to feel you not fully with me.
It pains me to see you texting others.
It makes me jealous when you say you have a date with someone else,
Your other daddy.
Your other man.

Oh baby,
Why do you make daddy feel this way?
Don’t I take good care of you?
Don’t I give you good love?
Good orgasm.
And all your heart wants for.

Why baby.


And THIS is modern relationship.

But there is NOTHING new about it.

If we go back in time,
We find tales of true love and connection.
We find tales of authentic loving.

And then,
We find the selling off of daughters to kings and princess to make peace. To secure the lands. To gain protection or finances.
And we see families throughout time doing the same with other families for a certain amount of cattle or swine.
We see fathers handing off daughters with a dawery of plenty and telling his daughter to honor the family and do what is needed.

And today….
Today we have sugar daddies,
Sugar babies,
And trophy wives.

Different names.
Same vibe.
Today there are still families selling thier children off for all the same reasons they did in the past,
But what we see more so is the self prostitution that so many women are doing.
We see young women being sugar babies or trophy wives to men older than their fathers.

And we see women of all ages and backgrounds prostituting themselves to maintain a certain lifestyle.
The house.
The car.
The travel.
All the girly desires of hair, nails, eyelashes, tans, shoes, jewels, clothes.

And in return for all of this,
They offer thier bodies for tribute.

They rape themselves and close thier heart to love,
To truly feeling.
And they close themselves off to thier truth.

Both parties say, ” I love you.”
Both parties build lives around this mirage.
And both parties are typically shocked when the relationship crashes or when a partner cheats.

They cannot believe that thier partner would do such a thing.

But here is the thing….
There was NEVER LOVE there.
It was a relationship mirage based on the selling of a body to bring pleasure to one and to provide safety and luxury to the other.

the whole relationship was based daily on transaction.

Not love.
Might sound crazy.
But the majority of relationships today are just this.

Not love.
And authentic relating….lol, not a thing.
These couples truly believe they are friends with thier partners,
These couples believe that they are healthy and happy even,
But at the end of the day,
There is a drastic void in thier life.

They know they are not desired.
They know they are not in love.
They know that its all fake.
And they carry on,
Because believe that’s all they are worth.
That they have to sell themselves or buy another in order to have the life picture or the sex, the family that they picture.

Silly right?
If one could love self enough,
Value self enough,
And know at ones core thier worthiness,
Then they would feel far more confident in seeking for something true.
Something real and authentic.
A relationship of INTEGRITY.

But that too hard for most.
And maybe you are among the most.
Maybe you are one side or the other of the buying and selling of body and sex,
And maybe you feel that void.
Maybe you crave for integrity and love.
And you know what?


but you must check yourself first and know that your actions reveal your truth.

So how are you loving you?
How are you leaning into the vulnerable place of integrity in your life? Your loving? Your sex?

And are you truly ready to start saying f-ck yes to authentic relating. To you?

Now is happening.
Life is happening.
Its time baby.

To let ho of your fear of not being good enough,
Or of being too much.
And to step up in confidence and say,




And As Always
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”

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Imagine Giving Yourself Permission.


I give myself permission to live my best life NOW.

The best is not coming.
The best is right here with me now because I allow myself to recieve it now.

This may sound simple
It may sound like something that you believe you already do,
However I assure you that you most likely do not.
And here is why I assure it.

Look at your life right now in this moment.
Is it everything that you desire it to be?
Does it provide you with the feeling you want consistently or are you feeling lost, in a void, empty, hungry, etc?

Are you truly happy with the life you have right now?

If you are not, then the honest truth is that you have constricted yourself and have made your ability to recieve to small of a channel for the life you want to manifest through.

You are shutting yourself off from your blessings by:
–> trying to get it all correct before you feel you are ready to recieve
–> trying to be fully healed before you are ready to recieve
–> worrying about not being enough
–> worrying about being to much
–> thinking that you need to have all your ducks lined up before you can recieve
–> thinking that you need to earn it
–> believing you need to prove yourself
–> consistently looking for the evidence of your desires life not to show up… focusing on the void of it not being there
–> keeping a timeline or calendar on how long it’s taking

None of these above things are giving yourself permission to open up to life that you desire.
None of these things are about allowing blessing to flow to you.

They are all about constriction.
About putting a cap on how, when and to what limit you can recieve instead of opening up the flood gates.

Yet you claim to want it all.
You talk the big game about making the changes,
Doing the work,
And tapping into flow

But you still have not gotten it baby

You still hinder yourself by trying so hard to direct everything and this freaking resistance you show by demanding yourself to be some sort of perfect before you will allow yourself to actually live your desired life is sheer stupidity if you ask me…

But there you go anyway.

And to make matters worse,
You believe that you should restrict all blessing in as many ways as you can fathom to keep proving to yourself that there is still more work to do, more healing to get, more proving you can before you can even accept small tastings of the life you desire.

You know why this is so effing bad?
Because one of the quickest ways to manifest the life you want is to give yourself permission to try sample bites of the things you want so you have the flavor of it in your mouth.
When we sample something we can better describe it.
We can always go back to the feeling of it.
We have an emotional response to it and therefore we can reattach to its energy and call that item in quickly.

But we have to attach to the feeling of having it NOT the reverse,
Which is what you most likely typically do.
I know you do.
Because if it’s not with you right now,
If you are not happy right now,
Then you are focusing on not having it.

And one more thing…
Whatever your norm is,
Is what you will continue to attract

If you want to change that norm,
Then you need to consistently sample new bits of life.
Of pleasure.
Of blessing.
And allow yourself to get comfortable with what you say you want.

I challenge you today to look at where you are not allowing yourself the permission to have the life you want.

I challenge you to inquire with self as to why you are choosing to not give yourself permission?

What do you fear about saying yes to your dreams?

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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I Show My Rightousness through Standing In WHO I AM.

Always wanting for more and NEVER satisfied with what we have.
Can we ever consume all that we hunger for?
Is it healthy to want for so much and never to be satisfied?
These feeling of hunger for life,
for love, for abundance, for sex, for pleasure, for happiness, connection, support, health…
What is one to do with them if one gains them and quickly discovers how fleeting any of it was to gain?
As we manifest all that we desire,
we also move speedily toward more.
The desire to be more,
have more,
do more.
These desires come as we open ourselves to our divine potential as co-creators of our lives.
And we have been trained to think of them as evil.
We have been programmed to fall into shame and guilt for our hungers.
Believing that it is unholy to have such thirst for life and all that it has to offer.
That the only true rightous thing is to not want.
And that there is a thing called “your fair share.”
As well as another thing called, ” you must prove yoruself to acquire this desire.”
Yet the scriptures even speak of blessed are those who hunger and thirst for the rightousness.
I believe that we have muffled ourselves to rightousness by buying into the imprisoning fears of our egos that keep us based in pride. Thus we step away from our true power and alignment with God,
we step away from who we really are.
We inturn, pride ourselves in the not having,
in the suffering,
in the creation of our saga’s.
We pride ourselves in being “good people” by not having.
And often we look at desire and gaining the riches of this world as something for either the VERY blessed – AKA the chosen few or the wicked who have gained through unfavorable messures.
Either direction we lean away from the truth.
We proclaim that in order to be very blessed,
you must prove your worthiness,
this is spitting in the creative hands of God and saying that God makes unworthy things.
Or we proclaim that in order to have,
one must do be willing to in an essence sell their souls to the devil.
Again saying yet that there is a belief of unworthiness to being a creator.
Yet we state that we are children of God.
That we are co-creators to the manifesting of our lives and world. Speaking words about being the artist of our lives.
And acting as though we know that we can have.
That we are worthy.
That we are meant to create.
Somehow though,
we loose ourselves with the concept of rightousness.
And it is because we do not underwstand this word.
And here my sweet is where we fall.
We can be good people,
we can do amazing works,
we can speak the words and we can take the actions.
But when we do it from a place of pride instead of integity, we fall.
And we create our saga.
There is no wickedness to desiring,
to wanting and even in the manifesting of what we want for.
There is not needing to prove yourself to be worthy to gain what you want.
There is no fair share,
as there is an unlimited amount of blessing.
All any of us ever have to do though is get into alignment with God. The universe. The creator.
When we step into integrity with ourselves,
we step into integrity with others,
and we increase our vibration because we become aligned to God.
God is never out of integrity.
God is always in flow.
It is our ego and our belief that we can have through control, fear and pride that puts us into bondage.
Ask yourself today my sweet,
Where am I not in integrity with self?
And know that you are out of integrity in the same space with others and God.
These are the cahins that must be removed in order to access all that you desire.
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
It’s time for you to say yes to who you really are beautiful. It s time for you to commit to who you are,
to your soul and say YES.
Let’s work together 1:1 to bring you into the next decade of your life, the next year of your life fully embodied and activated.
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