5 Steps to Let Go of Your Basic Bitch Mindset.

Stop being a basic b*tch in your limited thinking, showing up and all that whining that you are doing!

 
Seriously, it is never going to get you anywhere to just sit around and talk about it.
Sitting there and chit chatting with your friends about what you need to do,
complaining about your suffering,
your pain,
your frustration.
All the wrongs of this world and how you wish you had more of this or that,
but then NEVER effing do anything to change your experience,
is NEVER going to get you there!
 
I know that you are scared.
I know that you have fears and doubts.
I know that you are worried about so many things.
 
“What if I succeed and actually achieve that goal, that relationship, let loose and have that mind blowing sex, find my soulmate, make that million dollars?”
 
Yeah I get it.
 
We have just as much fear around our success as we do around our failure.
 
And this is the issue that you are having.
This is the DAMN THING that is holding you back,
keeping you stuck.
Giving you all those amazing reasons as to WHY you cannot take that step.
Why you cannot afford to leap.
Why you cannot take the time or find the focus.
 
The motivation.
 
Yeah I know.
You are sitting there being a basic b*tch moaning and complaining about all the stuff you have on your responsibility plate to deal with.
How can I be harping on you?  If I  just understood where you were coming from.
If i knew your struggles.
Then I would get why you sit there in that basic b*tch mindset.
 
Because your struggle is real.
 
And BABY I know that your struggle is real.
 
It is because you SAY IT IS REAL.
 
You are making it so beautiful!
 
You know what you SHOULD ( and I hardly ever say should) be worried about?
 
You should be more concerned about the what if I DO NOT EVEN TRY…..
 
Yeah.
 
What about that one BABY.
 
Because in your fear of not succeeding.
Your fear of succeeding,
and whatever other fears you may be holding on too.
You hold yourself back.
 
The ONLY effing one you should be concerned about is what you are guilty of doing.
 
Let’s be honest.
 
YOU ARE NOT REALLY TRYING THAT HARD!
 
Let’s be real,
let’s get very clear.
Up close,
in your face and effing personal now.
 
You know I love you right?
I may not know you personally but I love my tribe,
and if you are reading this,
if you follow me,
then you are my tribe.
And I want YOU to succeed.
 
I question sometimes if YOU want YOU to succeed though.
Because it feels like you are expecting success to come through in some osmosis fashion.
 
Like just by reading and following me you will go from where you are at to your dream state.
 
With no action needed.
 
And sure strangers things have happened.
And you most certainly can listen and change your thoughts a bit and reap some rewards,
but they will be microscopic if you keep acting like this basic b*tch who never gets the f-ck out of your own damn way and takes some effing action.
 
Oh beautiful,
there is so much on the table at stake here.
Maybe you do not see it.
Maybe its really just not that important to you,
but I believe that you are just blinded by your fear.
 
You are caught up in all the NOT HAVING that you have going on and ALLOWING THAT to be your norm.
 
But baby,
it does not have to be this way.
 

5 Step’s To Let Go Of Your Basic B*tch Mindset:

 
1). Your dreams and goals are NOT special! There I said it. They are not special beautiful. It is not even that big of a deal, yet you tend to make so much out of it. You make it sound like you have to go earn them, that you have to become worthy of them when in fact all you have to do is -CHOOSE! Yeah just make an effing decision and then get this — DO IT!
 
2). I love that you are doing the journaling, the meditating and the speaking it into creation stuff. That is AMAZING but the reality is that all the journaling in the world without you actually applying some ACTION to your dreams and goals will result in NOTHING happening. So the tip here is JUST DO THE DAMN THING! Stop procrastinating on taking the action, stop giving the reasons and excuses, no matter how great they are and DO THE DAMN THING! Nothing is going to manifest out of the thin air without you taking action BABY. And thinking and talking about doing the damn thing DOES NOT COUNT!!!!!! Got it? Good!
 
3). Stop using your ” I don’t FEEL like it.” as an effing reason to NOT step fully into being who you are and achieving your goals. I have heard you say so much, the cosmos has me off, my hormones are messed up, I am tired, I am not feeling creative, I am not feeling in the flow, I am blank, It’s too much of an emotional time for me right now. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Tell me something new please. Your goals and dreams don’t f-cking care what star you were born under!
 
4). Follow you SOUL GPS! What am I speaking of here? Well I am pretty sure you enjoy ease and and you like things to just come your way without much work, right? You can have more of that VIBE if you would just listen to your gut. Your intuitions and follow more of what you are called too instead of ignoring or trying to logically side step it all the time. Follow your SOUL GPS and get ready to see some miracles happen!
 
5). Choose what pill you want to take! remember in the movie the Matrix where Neo is offered a blue or a red pill? He has to make choice. The same thing is true for you beautiful. You tend to get stuck in procrastination and this is not going to get you anywhere. You need to decide which pill you are going to swallow and then you have to swallow the damn pill to see the results that you are wanting. It is time that you stop turning your back on the things that you have been avoiding and just do the damn thing that you have been avoiding the most. Until you do this thing, you will have limited to no success in any other area of your life.
 
And there you have it BABE.
Some SIMPLE steps to Let Go of Your Basic B*tch Mindset. Now all you have to do is accept that you are in charge of your life and CLAIM IT!!!
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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I get paid the BIG bucks to eff you up!

I get paid the BIG bucks to eff you up!

Yes I just stated that. 
And the reality is just such. 
If your boat ain’t rockin’…
If your cage ain’t shaken’…
your heart pounding, 
and your gut churning a little, 
then I promise you this….

YOU ARE TOO COMFORTABLE.

And being comfortable is a wonderful thing. 
It is a thing that we all desire in a big way. 
However comfort also creates blindness and can steal our dreams away from us. 
Comfort can and will breed fear.

Fear of loss. 
Fear of not having.

And it will make us believe that if we are not comfortable that things are bad.
It will make us think that when our cage is rattled that it is a sign to not go that direction, 
that danger is on the horizon.

When in truth, that rattling is exactly what we need to transform our world into all that we want.

And this is what I do.

I rattle cages.
I flip boats upside down. 
I cause tornadoes.
And hurricanes. 
I reach into your soul and I dare ask it,
“What do you want?”

And soul speaks back with a commanding of the world around it saying,

” I want change. I want expansion. I want freedom. I want love. I want truth. I want to fly. I want it all!”

When this happens, 
the world shifts. 
It tips off its axle and and things get crazy for a bit.

Garbage starts to fly all over the place. 
And people get scared that they are going to loose themselves. 
They are afraid that things will change.
They are afraid of meeting their dreams.
Of seeing their truth. 
and loving themselves. 
FULLY.

This may sound crazy, 
after all that is what all of us want, right?

To have a deep connection to ourselves. 
To know who we are. 
And stop pretending. 
To just be ourselves. 
And love ourselves.
Create the life that we want. 
And to have it all.

And we do want this. 
At a SOUL LEVEL…

This is what you want.

But you are afraid of being unsettled to get it.
You are afraid to getting crazy, 
letting in the chaos, 
and getting a little messy.

You want all this beautiful transformation to happen neatly.
Keep it all tidy. 
Don’t show any mess, 
any pain. 
Things need to stay in bumper rails.

Don’t need to feel stretched, 
pushed or vulnerable.

Oh gosh no!
That cannot be part of the process to my SOUL ALIGNMENT.

Oh my love, 
But it is the process.

And getting good with your chaos, 
with the mess is exactly where you need to be.

In love with it matter a fact.
Manifesting this life that you want, 
is going to cause some upheaval. 
It is going to feel like pressure in moments. 
It is going to cause you nausea and fear, 
you will question if there are even steps before you to take.
You will feel challenged.
You will want to tap out.
And you will have a thousand excuses and good reasons as to why you cannot or should not say yes.

And this is all part of your unveiling of SOUL.
This is all part of the beautiful exposure of YOU.

The thing you must do my love, 
is soften to it.
Stop trying to control it. 
And instead find your joy. 
That control and need to have everything perfect is your RESISTANCE to your FLOW.

So LET GO.
And just receive. 
See your truth. 
Step into your alignment, 
CONSCIOUSLY.

And get rattled.
Shake your booty.
Rock your body. 
Open your mind. 
Dance this dance. 
Let go of your rigidness, 
and flow.

That’s why I get paid the big bucks love!
I lead you into this shimmy, shake, earthquake….
of SOUL ALIGNMENT.

Where your dreams and desires flow in ease to you.

You know you want it love. 
Now all you have to do is say YES.

Claim Your Life Today!

“Stop Existing & Start Living”
Coaching for Grown A*s Believer

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Is Your “WHY” The Reason for Your Loss?

We all got them. We all know how bad they are for us. We all still can’t help ourselves. And so we make them. We use them. And we feel like we are justified somehow most of the time.
You know what I am talking about. It’s the damn thing that keeps holding you back. It’s the damn effing thing that you know you need to push right past but don’t.
And why?
Because it’s your child.It’s your mate.It’s your health.It’s your time.It’s your finances. It’s your level of education.It’s yeah, yeah, yeah…..
Alright we get it….You have a great reason.
Don’t we all?

You have a freakin’ great reason as to why you can’t. Why you should not.And how this or that is truly holding you back.Holding you still. You just need to pause. You just need to get out of debt. You just need to get ahead some. You just need your kids all in school. You just need to ease in before you approach your mate. You just need to make sure that you can make the time. You just…..
Yeppers…
That’s all so true.
NOT!!!
Its all bullsh*t.
You don’t need to wait for any of that to live the life you were born to live.
You don’t need any of that to create the abundance, the freedom, the happiness, YOUR DREAMS.
And you sure as f*ck DON’T need to WAIT.
But you are. And the waiting is getting old. The waiting is draining you. The waiting….will the waiting ever be over?
Or will life end before the waiting?
And that is what you should be worried about. You should not be worried about all these things. And if you are striving to have your dreams manifest for some of these excuses which are also your reasons, then why….
why my dear are you still sitting on your thumb waiting?
What do you think waiting will accomplish?
Will you wait long enough and suddenly have enough money to buy that business or write that book?Or will the money just come and go as money always does. And you will still be waiting, wishing you had not waited till now, but willing to wait till later still to do the damn thing that you know that you must do if you will live the life that your soul is calling you to live.
Or will you ever have the time or the energy to just add in another thing and build your dreams with the focus that you know it will take?
Or will you sit there, waiting for the time, waiting for the energy, waiting for the focus, and watch your life drift by. Just like it has been the last five years. The last ten, twenty or whatever the eff it has been…. Don’t you think, that if you had just said yes to yourself maybe somewhere back there, and done the damn thing, just got started that, maybe, maybe you might be closer to your dreams then where waiting has gotten you?
IDK, Maybe I am just being crazy. Maybe I am being irrational. I mean what do I know….
You know what I know…I know that my WHY can also be one of my biggest challenges to success. I know that if I allow my why to become my excuse, that it will quickly. and it will destroy the possibility of me manifesting the life that I want for myself, for my children, for all that I care for. I know that my WHY, can easily grow into a fierce darkness, stopping me from moving forward.
And I can tell you that I love my why enough to tell my why to get the eff out of my way and not hold me back.
I have chosen to make what feels like sacrifices in a way for a short period of time so that I can guarantee my success.
I have set my desires out, and I have written out my goals.I know that the excuses that I might have, and some of them are some damn freakin’ doozies at that, are not here to help me succeed. No matter how logical they may seem. No matter how heart jerking they might be.No matter how “in alignment” they may appear, they are still the DAMN THINGS that prevent.
Prevent us from living the life that God intended.Prevent us from SAYING YES! to ourselves.Prevent us from THRIVING.
So why do you keep allowing them into your world dear?Why do you keep making space for all that, that does not serve you?Why do you keep believing the falsities of this world and denying your power love?
You better figure it out.And when you do, hope you have not waited to long that your dreams became another’s and were lost to you this lifetime.
Because you my dear, came here with a purpose. And purpose was to SHINE.
You will never accomplish that by hiding underneath those beautiful excuses….
I mean reasons. 🙂
So as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Not Responsible for Your Emotions.

Oh love, why do you blame yourself for all that others have going on?

Why do you take responsibility for their emotions, 
their happiness, their joy?

Why do you stand there in all your power and let them deplete you so that they can feel stable yet again?

Oh love, this does nothing for you.
And even though it may appear for some split second that you are helping those you care about to be better, 
you are not truly assisting them.

You teach them nothing by your soothing of what is not yours to soothe.

And you know at your core how dangerous this soothing can be for your own well being, 
and for the relationship as well.

But, it is hard to not try and fix. 
It is difficult to say no. 
It feels harsh to state the truth, 
that it is NOT your responsibility for their whirlwind emotions. 
For their ebbs and flows. 
Their highs and lows. 
Their over thinking and worry.

Sure you can change who you are. 
You can say things as that they want to hear. 
You can pretend to be a way that is not in truth to your soul. 
And you can pretend. 
You can be that pretender and give them the “love” that they think is love and think they want from you.

That they deserve,
or that you should do if you truly cared. 
Truly loved them.

You could change every facit of yourself to meet the needs of another, 
and at the end of your attempts you would discover that they were still lost and now you are too.

And that is all that you would give them. 
The loss of who you are. 
The loss of your own soul
and direction. 
And you too my love, 
would then be like those that want this of us.
Lost, sad and masking.
Afraid to look deep within. 
And find what all of us must, ‘if we are to discover our truth, 
our happiness.

That my love is the simple, harsh reality. 
That no one on this planet is here to please another, 
other than the self. 
It is not your life requirement, 
to be responsible for another’s peace of mind, 
happiness or feeling love.

Just like it is not up to them to do this for you.
These things are ONLY found from within. 
And until they are found, 
by the seeker himself, 
deep within the caverns of their own mind and heart, 
they will never feel complete, 
never feel safe or without worry. 
They will continue to question the love offered, 
and look for every reason that it is not correct.

Yes my love, 
it is the truth of this matter, 
that no matter how much you love another, 
no matter how much you show up in truth, 
no matter how much you give of self, 
that you can never heal another.

You can never save them from their own demons. 
As false as they may be to you, 
these fears will continue to arise, 
until they learn how to shine the light into their own darkness, 
to soothe their own fears without destroying the world around them, 
and embrace that love that they believe they feel for you, 
because that love is what is inside awaiting them.
That love for you my dear, 
is only a sign of the greatness of love that they have for self once uncovered and embraced in its glory.

And it is this love that must be triggered from within and seen for it’s truth.

It is this peace, 
this joy, 
this feeling of bliss and freedom, 
that we experience in our relating that we must see for what it is.

It is HERE.
HERE with us always. 
It has NOTHING to do with another. 
It has EVERYTHING to do with self. 
The relationship is but only awakening us to it.
But, we never loose it. 
We are never without it.

And we are most certainly never responsible for managing another’s emotional or mental state.

No, my love. 
It is not your concern. 
It does not mean you are bad. 
Or evil. 
Or not loving. 
It simply means that you hold priority for the most valuable person in your life. 
That person who looks back at you from the mirror.

So keep stating your truth. 
Keep sharing your heart ,
and your soul.

Never allow another, 
no matter how far they crash, 
to steal you from yourself, 
in hopes of saving them.

You are worth so much love my dear. 
You are worth all that you carry in your heart. 
A thousand lifetimes worth. 
So step forward in faith my love, 
Step forward and keep CLAIMING YOU!

As Always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

You Don’t Own My Sex!

You don’t own my sex!
You think that you want to own my sex. 
You believe that it is love based.
You have been told that if someone loves you that they will not need, desire or be with anyone else. 
You think that ownership is love. 

But since when is slavery of any sort love?
Relationship slavery, 
sexual slavery is no more love than is
to brand and tag another human being and sell them to the highest bidder as though they are live stock.

That may seem offensive to some. 
It may seem extreme to others. 
I am pretty sure that many are flabbergasted in this moment that anyone would say such a thing in today’s world. 

But seriously, owning someone else in any fashion or form is NOT LOVE.

And I can tell you that you have no right to own another persons sex.

It’s far more than the genitals that I speak of here. 
It is one’s core.
It is one’s creative energy.
It is one’s soul.
Their guidance system if they are tapped into it. 
Our alignment to life, 
to our path, 
and all that we can be stems from this place within ourselves. 

Our sex. 
It hubs all that we are. 
It is our primal, 
passionate, 
truth.

Our GPS.

And you think that it is loving to own. 
That it is loving to sign over the papers to such a thing.
That it is someones duty, 
or a rightful expectation to demand that one give this to anyone?

Really?

May I challenge those of you who read this and want to spout back some negative comment, 
some biblical quote, 
some moral statement as you believe it to be, 
may I challenge you to ask yourself this….

“What do I get out of owning another person’s sex?”

You need to get real here.
Because the truth of your desire and your fake love is found in the answer to this question IF….

IF you can be truthful in your answer.

And for those of you who cannot let me answer it for you.

Power.
Control.
Security.

And guess what?
All of these are fake.
Just like the love that you are claiming that “makes” you do it.

Love has nothing to do with ownership.
Love has nothing to do with having power over someones anything.
Love has nothing to do with security.
Let alone demanding and trying to force security.

Love is a risk.
Love is powerful.
Love is freeing.
Love is unconditional. 
And it has NOTHING to do with our sex.

Sure you have far better, 
more orgasmic, 
more connective and intimate, 
sex with love at play then without.

It takes you from two bodies rubbing against each other and enjoying some friction to a true opening, 
and blissed out state. 

But love has nothing to do with sex.
And it DOES NOT mean that we love someone more or less if we have sex with them or not.

Sex is not a barometer for love.
Sex is about feeling ones self in a most pure, authentic, real capacity. 
Through our sexing we meet ourselves. 
We feel ourselves.
And we expand in who we can be. 
Through our sexing we are offered a taste of intimacy into ourselves. 
That is what makes sex so damn intimate.

It is not intimate because we see another person naked.
It is not intimate because we are physically connecting.
It is not intimate because this other being is feeling anything or not.

It is intimate because we are experiencing all of this about OURSELVES with the assistance of another who is doing the same. 

But this form of intimacy. 
INTO – ME- I- SEE
only comes about when we are present with ourselves and no longer hiding from our shadows. 
When we are being responsible for ourselves and not looking for anyone else to fill us in any way. 
Not wanting to be completed by anyone else, 
not wanting to feel loved by anyone, 
or gain our happiness from anyone else. 
This sort of intimacy comes when we are NOT IN NEED.
But in LOVE.

Love of self.
Happy with self.
Intimacy with self.
Whole in self.
Worthy in self.

If you believe that you “need” anyone else to do any of these things for you and that equates love then you are far, far away from true love my dear.

So one more question for you to ask of yourself….

“Do I feel more loved by my partner if they do not have sex with anyone but me?”

okay maybe two questions.

“And if yes, then what about them only having sex with me, makes me feel loved, or guarantees a greater love in your opinion?”

The reality is that we harbor a lot of judgement around our sex and the sex of others. 

We condemn people for wanting sex.
We condemn people for not wanting sex.
We judge and call names, 
label and make opinions into facts that do not exist, 
based on on our judgments to make ourselves feel safe.
Feel right.
Feel moral.
Feel better than.

And if you loved.
Truly loved. 
The way love is to be, 
which is unconditional. 
Than you would see that your judgments on another’s sex and your desire to control it for them, 
is not of love,
but of ego. 
And your own insecurities around your sex and heart.

You aim to protect yourself by controlling another’s actions.
You aim to protect and make sure that pain and suffering does not befall on you, 
as if you were meant to never feel the contrast of pain in your life, 
and as if pain and growth was wrong, 
when in fact when one can lean in, 
and love through the pain. 
Through the fear.
Through all that we paint in our illusions of our ego, 
and SIMPLY LOVE.
Unconditional, 
and allow for the reality that we are to love many in many forms of the word. 
That “relationship” in any aspect is all about LOVE.
And without love, the relationship should not even be. 

So to try and control one’s love or how they choose to connect in any relationship is nothing more than an insecurity based in fear and desire to hide from one’s own expansion and feelings.

It is a fear to experience the beauty of true unconditional loving.

I challenge you today my love, 
to feel your true heart and to expand yourself and do the inquiry work so that you can have relationship based not in need and thus control, but in the beauty of surrendering to unconditional love. 

This is not written to give permission to those who lie and cheat, 
who step out of integrity and say that they just cannot be themselves. No this is not written to give any such permission. 
This is written to challenge all who read it about what sort of love they have based their relationships in and to bring up the empowering discussions of truth and honesty, coming from a place of love and intimacy. 

Communicate in love. 
Not in fear.
Stop allowing your past pains to mask your current heart.
Step out of your desire to have what is not possible, 
that requires faith, grace and communication. 
Step out of that desire, 
the desire for security and guarantee’s, 
where your “love” remains the same and tidy in a box that it was never meant to be kept in.

Because my dear, 
relationship will never be something that does not cause you pain.
It will push you to your limits. 
It will challenge your core. 
It will make you question all that you have believed and known, 
and it will ask you to stand in who you are, 
not of who you were, or will be. 

Yes my dear, 
relationship is just this and nothing more. 
It is a place where we meet ourselves in all, 
where we get to embrace if we allow, 
our hearts and heal our wounds. 
Strengthen our love and KNOW our core. 

You do not own my sex.
And your sex is not owned. 
You are a free soul. 
A free being. 

Remember this my love. 
And….
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers.”

**FUN FACT – There are five loves in this picture. And even though some are still beside me and some are no longer active roles in my life. All are still unconditionally loved by me.**

Oh Girl…Stop Holding Yourself Back.

Oh girl you are so effing turned on. 
Its like you rounded a corner and now you are hot to trot for every yummie thing that presents itself to you. 
And damn girl you know that you are wanted too. 
You know that what you got is something special. 
You know that if you dare flaunt it just a little, 
you are bound to piss a few peeps off, 
but that’s how it works right?
You piss some peeps off by shining oh so bright. 
And the one’s who love that light of yours will be your tribe.

So why are you holding back girl?
Why are you still hiding there in your shadows. 
Afraid to step all the way out and just go, 
BAMB!!!!!!
Here I am world!
Here I am and you know what?
I am one turned on bad a*s woman. 
There I said it. 
I claimed it. 
I am powerful and I am no longer satisfied with just sticking my toe in the pool. 
I want to swim. 
I want to totally soak up that luscious experience of turn on. 
I want to shine, 
and mask no more. 
hide no more.

Oh girl! just let yourself fly. 
Trust in your wings. 
They are beautiful. 
They are bold. 
They will carry you and they will clear the darkness for so many others who need you to lead them.

You know what I am saying here. 
You can feel it at your core. 
Seriously love. 
Just pause for a moment from all your busy work, 
all that you aim to side track yourself with and effing PAUSE.

So that you can feel. 
Feel that power inside of you. 
It feels like a dragon waking from its slumber does it not. 
Its beautiful.
Its bold.
Its fierce. 
Its strong. 
And it is YOU Baby!

You are that eruption, 
waiting to happen. 
You are that fierce fire that will conquer all those demons that you think are lurking in your shadows but are actually only illusions of others peoples fears that you have been available too.

You know what to do. 
So pause, 
stretch into yourself and FEEL your greatness.

Feel.

You are the light. 
But you must step into your own light before anything else happens.

Claim Yourself Today!
And Always Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

You Got This!

You got this!
You know you do. 
So why are you so scared. 
Why are your hands shaking, 
your gut tense, and your breathing so shallow.

You got this beautiful. 
You have had it from the get go.
You have done it before.

You know that you were not designed to just sit on the side lines and watch others live their dreams. 
No, you were made to run with the leaders. 
You were made to speak your truth. 
You were made to share that beautiful ass vision that you have in the pretty head of yours.

You have got this. 
And yet you still doubt. 
You doubt your ability. 
You doubt the time that you have. 
You doubt that you have the courage, 
the drive, 
the strength, 
the ability to get it all done and to do it right.

You fear that you will fail. 
And that makes you want to just cringe. 
That makes you want to cry. 
That makes you want to run away and hope that it all just does not follow you.

But at the same time you want it to follow. 
You don’t want to let go.
You don’t want to hide. 
You don’t want to not allow.

And that is what it is really is all about, 
is it not?

Allowing.

Allowing yourself to receive your own effing greatness. 
Allowing yourself to stand out in the crowd. 
Allowing yourself to be who you were born to be.

That f-cking amazing, 
powerful, 
dynamic, 
soul that was born to stand out. 
Born to run with the 1%. 
Those who know who they are. 
Who they want to be. 
How powerful they can be. 
And are not afraid to claim that sh*t. 
To claim all their dreams.

Yes you got this!

And if you just simply settle into having it, 
it will just happen for you.

You know that all you have to do is say mother f-cking yes to yourself.

So what are you waiting for?
What are you sitting around and hoping about, 
when it is all right there in your hands love?

You know what to do. 
So just go do it. 
Stop making those excuses. 
They are not becoming. 
There is no power in them, 
the power my love is all in you.

And you know you got this. 
So just LIVE IT.
Be IT.
And PROCLAIM IT.

Because you are a f-cking powerhouse. 
A bad a*s that knows her heart. 
That feels so much and knows how to claim it.

Nothing can stop you love. 
Unless you allow it too. 
And still the only thing that can stop you truly, 
is YOU.

You got this!
and have it you shall my love.

Because every time you look in the mirror, 
you see your greatness.
It haunts you.
It claims you.

You are not like everyone else, ‘who settles for average and ordinary.

No. 
You are a queen.
Not just any queen, 
you are a queen who knows her deepest truth, 
who desires her grandest heart to be revealed. 
You want to be seen.
You want to make an impact.
You know you have a mission love.

So realize this….
Realize that YOU are powerful.
Your focus is magic.
Your heart is your lead.
And the universe has your back love.

So leap.
Leap into that uncharted land, 
those waters that entice you. 
That you long to swim in. 
And let them carry you love.

Carry you to your dreams. 
You got this!

As Always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers.”

This is what you want in a partner.

From Guest Author Addison Bell

It’s all fun and games until you actually have to deal with the other side.

You sit and desire certain characteristics of those in your life, and especially out of a romantic partner. Yet, I daresay that many times you are asking for a mess of contradictions.

Its easy to look at some aspirational values and personality traits and think that this is exactly what you want to pull into your life but if you aren’t careful you will end up pulling in exactly what you don’t desire.

And the funny thing is that your Ego would probably throw a tantrum and say, “But I do do desire it, I do want that, I can hold that person” but in the end you really can’t handle it.

You might desire someone who is playful and has that flirty personality that makes you feel all bubbly inside… until they are flirty and playful with others and it smacks right into your jealousy and trust issues.

You might desire someone that knows how to act like a “lady” or “gentleman” when you are out in public and can hold the proper level of poise… until they are always poised and never able to let go of that persona (even in the bedroom).

You might desire someone that has their own life and is more free flowing with the relationship. Someone that isn’t that awful word “clingy”… until they can’t be there and support you the way that you need and you never truly feel held.

And really any trait that you desire in a partner is going to have the opposite side.

It is pretty commonly known from a psychological perspective that in relationships the aspects that often attract you to your partner are also the very same aspects that can cause the greatest struggle.

There is that old saying about how men should want a lady in the streets and a freak in the streets.

We want our partners to be both sides of a coin….
And most of the time it can mean the destruction of a relationship!

Now, thankfully we are complex beings and so are not one thing or the other. If you take the above example of having a lady in the streets and a freak in the sheets… I know many women that are able to present one aspect of themselves when out at dinner parties and then turn around and have a mind-blowing sexual evening with a partner. Both are authentically them and both are aspects of who they ae.

Though these women have also worked through the stereotypes that come with both sides of the coin and know where they are authentically.

Though, lets be honest, yes I mean really honest here…

Most people are NOT doing deep personal work on a daily basis. And most people are not willing to look at when their ego’s arise in relationships. So when an aspect that is a turn on in one sense becomes a turn-off… we blame that other person. We don’t look at ourselves and where WE might be the ones that have unspoken expectations.

Many times we even struggle to admit where we struggle in relationships and where our ego’s simply can’t handle something.

You want a partner that is free, playful, open-minded but then when this pushes on your jealousy, your need for attention, and your belief that there is a certain way to “do” relationships…

Can you actually look yourself in the face or actually look that other person and say, “I don’t want you to be so free”. “I wish you weren’t so playful”, “I want you to be open-minded but just not about this topic”.

Most would look at the other person as the issue and not be able to truly say… “I am not able to hold this aspect of you”.

Again, we are complex and hold so many intricacies. Each person, situation, and experience will present a different expression of self. So what fits and is a desire with one partner or relationship could be entirely different than what fits and is a desire in another relationship.

In truth it all comes back (as always) to self and looking deep within ones self authentically. What are we desiring in our relationships? And then looking at if we truly could hold that characteristic in another if it presented to us. Where would our ego get shaken? What are non-negotiable in our relationships?

If you want freedom… how free?
If you want play… how playful?
If you want stable… how stable?
If you want sexy… how sexy?

What can you truly, honestly, at your core hold?
Get honest with yourself! And start doing your inner work to help you be able to look within when situations arise.

And more than even that…
Get honest with self when someone presents something that truly won’t fit with you and your life. Don’t pretend to be okay with something that is a hard NO. This will only push you further and further out of alignment from self.

Most importantly LOVE self first and foremost. When we do this we are most able to be authentic, honest, and love another. Even if the way we are loving that other is by letting them go and be who they are authentically.

Sending you all…

Love, Light, & Blessings,
Addison

Clarity and Space.

Clarity and space. 
Sometimes you just need one of these to get the other, 
and the other to get one. 

The thing we must acquire in life in order to manifest all that we desire and want is a feeling of satisfaction. 

How do we achieve this though?

Through clarity and space. 

I don’t know if you are anything like me, 
but I often find it difficult to ask for what I need. 
Not for what I want, 
but for what I need. 

There is a difference. 

I have a difficult time asking for what I need because I don’t want to be a bother to those I care for. 
I tend to mother all over everyone in my life and big sister the rest. 
Call it only child syndrome?
Or oldest daughter syndrome?

But I tend to find myself in moments where I am so full that there is no room for God to give me any more. 
I find myself in spaces where I can take on no more. 
My mental, emotional and even physical space is dangerously low. 

Kind of like my cell phone and computer like to tell me frequently about their space too. 
Hmmmm….. maybe that is the universe telling me something huh?

And the issue with being so full in life is that it is hard to have clarity. 

It is harder to find satisfaction with things. 
And it is even harder to manifest the things that you want because simply put….

there is no effing room for them!

Well, here is where I have been the last 90 days. 
OMFG!

I am so full. 
I feel like I have eaten Thanksgiving dinner in every breath I take. My body feels heavy. 
My energy feels stagnant. 
I am in a spiritual food coma. 

Or an abundance coma. 
Where things are now knocking at my door and then looking in and saying, oh no,
No….no….no….. 
you are a hoarder of all that energy. 

You hoard giving too much .
You hoard not saying no when you need to or want to. 
You hoard not asking for space. 
For time. 
For this or that. 

So, now you get to sit there and feel full. 
Oh, so full and unsatisfied. 

So like any good manifesting queen, 
I go after what I want. 
I am a smart woman. 
I know how to do this thing.

And so I go ask for what I want some more. 
And I ask some more. 
And I “claim to be taking time for myself” 
but instead I am really off giving time and energy to someone I care about. 
Putting my focus on them. 
Giving a sh*t too much. 
And allowing my time. 
My energy. 
My space. 
My boundaries. 
To just get trampled for the sake of love….

Or so I claim it to be that. 

But truly its not about love. 
It is about me not wanting to look greedy. 
Not 100% believing that I am worthy of asking for my needs. 
Not wanting to let anyone down. 
“Cus God forbid that I let someone else down, right?”

And then after all of that, 
you know what happens?

Frustration. 
Fear. 
Loss of energy. 
Loss of focus. 
Clarity.
Sanity. 
And I find myself feeling lost. 
Feeling hopeless. 
And feeling like none of it matters anyway. 

And so what is the answer?

How can one in these shoes get back to stable?
How can one move from this overfull state and get into satisfaction?

Pretty simple love. 

Just demand SPACE.

Move yourself into a state of space. 
Away from all who are calling on you, 
even if they mean the best by their checking in, 
even if they are sharing love, 
even if they are concerned and wanting to help. 

Move the F-CK AWAY from them and get some SPACE. 

Realize that that is the ONLY way that you will be able to have what you want. 

And to feel satisfied and get manifesting your dreams. 

You don’t have to step away forever. 
You just need a vacation. 
A detox. 

Space.

So just ask for it. 
And if you suck at asking like I do. 

Then let that only child syndrome that some of us have surface in another way and stamp your feel and pitch a fit and DEMAND IT!

Because darlin’ you are worth it. 
And your dreams are too. 

As Always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

My Lessons Did Not Start Here.

Lessons from today. 
For every day and all of life. 
I look at today like any day,
as a day filled with lessons. 
I ask myself in moments that I struggled what I would want myself to learn had I been the one to give this challenge as a lesson. 
I looked deep into the souls of those I shared time and space with and desired more connection. 
I listened to those that touch my heart, 
as they spoke and my heart yearned to hear more.

Yes the lessons of today.

My lessons have never ended. 
Just like yours. 
They did not randomly just pick up at 1-am this morning when I woke to my four year old son having a nightmare, calling for me. 
As I realized that I had fallen asleep in the arms of a lover on my couch in front of a raging fire.

No they did not start there.

They did not start as I came to the realization that I had so much I wanted to share with this man, 
what my heart was feeling,
or what I wanted to stand in integrity with before him, 
but lost to sleep.

No they did not start here.

They did not start as I felt like opportunity for a perfect communication moment, 
a heart to heart had been escaped without a desire to escape it. The comfort of spirit sharing with me as I looked at the clock and saw 2:22 am. ( All is as it should be).

Snuggling between my youngest two. 
Connected, close and nurturing. 
Sleeping with moments of being shook awake from the fear of what I could not see. 
My babies scared of lands that only they would travel.

The reality that I can only do so much. 
I can only hold space and love.

No they did not start here.

They did not start when I looked at my morning texts and saw beauty in words shared. 
The claiming of one that I am his queen. 
The claiming of another his love.

No they did not start here.

They did not start as I drove my kindergartner to school and he exclaimed, ” Madriella’s (that’s what my boys call me), I am always so excited to make money. Getting money is fun!” and I shared that he should never loose that feeling, that that is how we keep money flowing to us.

No they did not start here. 
They did not start as I sat with my client, looking into his eye’s and looking directly into his intrigued little boy, the part of him that was scared, excited and so open to grow. As I realized that he hungered for love, he desired to set down his fears and shame, 
and JUST BE.

They did not start when I eye gazed naked with another. Revealing all of ourselves, holding sacred space, with no need for anything more. This moment, this moment that we allowed ourselves to JUST BE, and to see deep into soul. Where we had no thought. We had no intent. We just escaped into nothing.

It was not any of these moments that were the start. 
It was not the witnessing of my kindergartner getting his first awards, his pride that shone so bright, that we adults hide from as to not be seen in ill light of loving ourselves too much.

It was not the moments when I watched my ex try and connect to our youngest, only to be shunned and pushed away. Witnessing my sons anger. Witnessing my ex’s pain. My ego laughed, my heart hurt. Although not my lesson, it is still the same.

It was not the sweet moments spent, watching my children light up at a surprise treat of ice cream or running and screaming without thought at the park. Arms open wide, hearts filled with joy, laughter turning to a fist fight between brothers.

What could the lesson be?
But what it always is, 
and always will be, 
a lesson to JUST BE.

No it did not start here or anywhere in today, 
or yesterday. It is a lesson that keeps on ticking along, 
with every breath my soul takes in this body.

The lesson of just being, 
being free, 
being true, 
being in the moment.

Not judging but observing. 
Not thinking but accepting. 
Not hindering but opening.

Yes these are the moments, 
the moments that we are called to enjoy. 
The moments that we often miss.

We even try to escape them, 
because to JUST BE is among the most difficult of tasks God has given to each of us. 
To be and to receive?
How can this be what we are meant to do?

Our lessons are many. 
And each day holds a ton. 
But our lessons always come back to love.

And the LOVE of self should never be forgotten, 
for it is the one thing that will heal us. 
It is the one thing that will unit us to the divine.
And THRIVE we shall as we BECOME.

As Always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers.”