I HAVE DECIDED THAT MY NEW PROFESSION IS TO BE AN ENERGY DOMINATRIX.
I mean I know that it is fun,
because many of my “work” days….
if you can call them that…
they are more play days because energy is fucking fun,
are just about that.
Dominating people’s energy.
Manipulating it you could say,
and then teasing it,
playing with the quantum field that is all around all of us and that we are manifest from.
Energy is playful.
Energy does not react well to being forced into some tight container where it cannot flow.
Sure when you constrict energy you certainly create a surge,
but that surge often does not come out the way that we desire it too,
and it is most often not playful.
Let alone sexy.
We humans have been taught to hold our shit together at all cost.
To not feel because it will make us vulnerable.
To not reveal our emotions because we will not be taken seriously.
We have been taught, brainwashed into believing that we are to constrict our energy.
We have been told that this is the proper, safe and mature thing to do.
When in truth what this containment of our energy does is the direct opposite to the desired reaction.
IT CREATES ENERGETIC IMMATURITY.
We never learn how to manage our energy.
How to hold it.
How to feel it.
How to direct and guide it.
Leaving us feeling scared of who we are and our power.
Making us separate from our truth and feel lost, abandoned in life.
And all because we never were trained on the importance and power of our energy.
Let alone the simple fact that we are all energy beings.
Science today is finally catching up to ancient spirituality.
And it is proving that thought creates emotion,
it is proving that our consciousness directs events and actual energy flow.
We can heal ourselves and the world with our consciousness or we can destroy it.
Our desire to control the situation,
to control others and the end results,
our desire to have a timeline and know what to expect,
our desire to have problems and make logical sense out of everything,
is evidence of how disconnected we humans are still from our souls.
And thus from our truth.
And our truth is that we are fucking powerful.
The same consciousness that created universes moves through each of us and is wanting to expand.
Expansion of energy is not about forcing God into a human sized box of control.
Harnessing your energy has nothing to do with squishing it into some perfect package that society has told you it needs to be in nor avoiding your feelings and emotions,
avoiding your beautiful heart center.
Expansion and harnessing energy means to tap into your heart,
to feel your desires fully, accept where your life and vibration is at, look at what you need to do to bring your vibration into a matching frequency with what you desire,
and LET THE FUCK GO!
Play with your life.
Play with your power.
Let play and fun rule your world,
meaning ENJOY LIFE.
This is how you manipulate energy and design the life of your dreams.
You want that lover in your bed.
The money in your bank.
The freedom in your time.
Well the only way to get it is to learn how to enjoy the life that you are living today and to play with your day, your energy, and lean into letting go of your need to control everything and get it all right.
You will never be done.
Do you get that?
You are never going to be done until you are six feet under.
Then, then you will be released from this physical bondage where you are learning how powerful you are.
Once released from that bondage, you KNOW how powerful you are.
But this life that you are so terrified of living,
so scraed of fucking up in,
this life needs you to love it and enjoy it so that it can provide you with tons of opportunities to love it and enjoy it.
Otherwise you will exist all your days here on earth living with the energetic immaturity that keeps landing you into pain and suffering, loss and abandonment, fear and lack of worth, as well as not knowing how to deal with self and emotions.
You see when I say that my new professional title should be energy dominatrix,
What I am saying is that I help my beautiful fellow souls access their power through them learning how to surrender and trust me to guide the energy that they have held constricted and been fearful of feeling for years into a state of full being processing.
Where they get an opportunity to witness themselves in a fresh light,
Yes they move from the armoured up, tense, stressed and anxious soul who is hiding from their greatness into an individual who knows who the fuck they are and is in love with themselves, their lives, their past and sees the path before them because they finally get that they are the architecht who is designing it.
They learn to surrender to themselves.
Surrender to their truth.
Surrender to enjoyment.
and they smile more.
they laugh more.
they sex whole heartedly more.
they penetrate the world with who they really are and the world receives them fully and grants them that turned on, ignited fuck yes life where all those who are still blind to thier power and caught up in their egos and thoughts stand back and say,
“They are so lucky.”
But it is not luck.
It is creation.
And they learn how to do it by letting go of all that shit that they have been holding on to and that has been weighing them down.
They let it go on my integration table.
They let it go in our walks together.
They let it go in our conversations.
They let it go in our deep soulful eye gazing sessions.
They let it go in our holding sessions.
They let it go with tears and laughter,
by being vulnerable and letting me see them.
They let it go and they end up feeling full on who they are.
This is where we all are to be my love.
This is the truth.
And in reality,
you don’t need me for any of this.
All you need is to love yourself enough to commit to letting all that shit go once and for all and dare to step out and trust that life has your back.
Dare to believe that you are the architect of your life.
Dare to love yourself in full abandon.
Because baby you are worthy of it all.
And YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN GIFT IT TO YOURSELF.
Now for anyone else out there,
who would like a little assistance,
well I am hear to smack you, kick your ass,
snuggle you as you blow snot in my hair,
watch tears fall from your beautiful eyes,
and build you up in love.
That just requires you being sick and tired of messing around and feeling the way that you do.
It’s time to level up your life and say FUCK YES TO YOU!
And let YOU BE SEEN.
I see YOU.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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LOST IN EMOTION.
sweat rolling between.
Gasping for air.
deep within, my cervix shakes,
my pelvic floor quivers,
my chest cracks,
my g-spot ignites,
and I sigh.
It’s been hours of rolling in these sheets.
My muscles are like jello from all the orgasms,
the energy spasms and the release.
My legs are shaking and I feel like laughing and crying all at the same time.
It is hard to focus my vision,
the ceiling light is spinning as I lay there,
breathing in the intoxicating vibrations of this moment.
I AM DRUNK.
I am vulnerable.
I am raw.
I am open.
I feel so very alive and yet transcended into nothing.
Tears are streaming from my face.
My lover kisses and bites my neck,
grabs my hair at the base of my scalp and pulls me down onto him,
not just entering me but penetrating me.
Penetrating me to the core of my being,
as though he is witnessing my soul from within my very body.
My body quivers and shakes,
I have lost all reason,
I am without care,
here in this space of true bliss,
here in this place that has not been visited to these levels of depth for sometime,
I CAN SURRENDER.
Letting go of the fear,
the worry and the thought.
Letting go of my conditions,
of terms and agreements,
letting go of the physical and just floating in the abyss of nothing yet everything,
and discovering myself yet again.
Here I am .
Here he is.
And together we get lost.
We expand and we explore.
From this land anything is possible.
All can be desired and achieved.
This is the land of alchemy,
the place of magick.
Calling down the blessings from source,
realizing them into here and now.
As I open fully to the deep rowling thunders of each orgasmic wave,
my spirit aligns and I allow.
I allow all to manifest that I have craved for,
and I open my life to receiving it.
My body is awakened,
ignited and ready.
With each sip of air I call out to the universe my desires,
as my lover tousles me around,
pressing firmly inside of me,
pumping my g-spot in rhythmic cycles of ecstasy,
the juices roll from my lips and I pull his hand in further and further.
Fully engulfed inside my cavern,
his subtle moves of hand carry me deeper and deeper,
the pressure is building,
my body becomes tense.
And I see it.
I SEE IT ALL.
I feel the filling of my cup,
as it overflows with abundance,
with love and health,
as my life is changed,
altered for the better.
The shaking of my flesh subsides,
my breath deepens,
my muscles relax.
And I feel him again,
Intensifying my energy,
and I melt.
Dancing with my soul in this expression of truth.
Feeling an ignited calm,
a peace and hunger.
I know that this moment….
Like so many from my past is transformational.
And I am ready.
Let me surrender into you and become nothing and everything.
Yes this is the power of our orgasm.
This is the importance of our sex.
This has been hidden from you for centuries,
known by few.
And it is truth.
It is my truth as it is yours as well,
you can channel your energy and focus it on your desired life.
Manifestation at its finest.
First you must learn its secrets.
Do you dare?
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS! 🤯🤯🤯
Hating on self?
Or maybe you say that you don’t hate yourself.
You don’t dislike yourself even,
you are just frustrated.
Down on self because you are not feeling great in your skin.
And I get it.
I truly do.
We all go through these times.
And hey here is a little secret for you….🤫
I am currently in one of those moments in life where I am a bit down on myself. I am not in this moment in love with my body.
I am not in love with how I am feeling in my own skin,
and I am having issues looking myself in the mirror.
and even feeling sexy.
I sorta feel a bit grossed out by myself.
The way I got here is not really important.
And that is a tough concept to get through our human minds,
because we want to have our reasons, we want to analyze and figure out the reason behind the problem.
But that will never get the solving that we desire of the problem.
Because we are stating that we have a problem to begin with instead of just letting go of all this self-judgement and turning back to our truth.
Now it is important to be aware of habit changes,
of sabotaging thing that we have introduced into our lives,
into our thoughts and emotions,
that may be contributing to the support of this self-disgust.
The reality is that you can say that you love yourself all damn day long but if you are not loving your body enough to get it moving and consuming healthy foods, staying hydrated and getting enough sleep,
plus if you are choosing to stay in toxic relationship that are not feeding your heart and soul,
and you are not leaning into YOU…
then you simply are lieing your f-cking ass off to yourself about loving yourself.
You have to fall in love with yourself.
You have to own up to your power and stop making yourself so damn small.
Stop fearing the impressive, expansive person that YOU ARE.
And that my love is why you are so full of this yuckiness to yourself.
👉The reason that you don’t like yourself is because you’re not up to speed with yourself. 🛸🤯💃
You got that love?
YOU WERE BORN TO BE MARVELOUS.
You were created powerful, worthy and came into this world knowing such,
but it got stolen from you by the “good” lessons that your parents and the adults in your life taught you,
what society and school/church showed you,
and you started to believe that you were not powerful, worthy and abundant.
You started to believe that your light was dim.
and this means that you let go of being marvelous.
And that my dear was YOU.
So now the absence of you, really sucks!
It really does not have you feeling your best.
You are struggling to look into the mirror or make eye contact.
You are feeling frumpy and negative,
hating on your fleshy suit and hating on who you have allowed yourself to become.
When the answer to your problem…
if you want to call it that…
cause us humans love to solve problems, right?
Is that the reason that you are not liking yourself,
let alone in love with yourself ( an me too here),
is because you’re not ALLOWING yourself to be yourself.
You have cast your truth out.
And you sit back in your disgust over who you are right now,
and you maintain powerful focus on what needs to change, needs fixed, where you f-cked it all up at.
The worst thing that you can do though is just this.
Holding yourself in focus and finding a critical thought about you.
Because that action,
that manifestation that you are creating,
TAKES YOU AWAY FROM WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
And you are powerful AF!
You are deserving.
You are beautiful and strong.
You are courageous and loving.
You are intuitive and caring.
You are worthy and abundant.
That is who you are.
That is what you are to be living, RIGHT NOW!
And it is up to only you love to take yourself from this absence of self and get the f-ck lined back up.
Synchronize to your TRUTH.
Here is where you will fall in love with you and become mesmerized by staring into your own eyes,
lost in the sea of you.
You will be captivated at your heart and your beauty and you will not just think that you are worthy,
you will KNOW without a doubt that you are,
because your soul knows.
Your souls never has questioned your worthiness or your power.
That is why you are feeling so bad love,
because you are questioning what your soul deeply is certain of.
And when you come back to YOU and who YOU REALLY ARE,
well that is when whatever the problems you are having with your body and life right now, will just wash away with ease.
Time to start loving on the most important person in your world wouldn’t you say?
And STOP trying to be all this or that for everyone else that is not you.
With all my love, beautiful.
Remember Who You Are.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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LOVE SHOULD BE PERFECT.
And yet it never is.
A long time ago when I was living in Seattle, Washington I was attending a church in Kent with a pastor that I adored. I learned so much from Pastor Jack. He was focused on teaching the congregation about blessings, about our glory and how that translated into the law of attraction.
I still make use of his teachings today with my clients almost daily and in my shares here with you as well.
Among my favorite things he shared were,
“More than enough with plenty left over.”
Which always commanded in the belief and feeling that we are always provided for,
that we always have more than enough in the things that we need with plenty left to share.
And that the leftovers are there for us to do just that …..SHARE.
And then his other reminder of truth that I have kept in my heart and mind all these years was focused toward relationships….
The relationship of marriage.
And in today’s world,
which even though greatly different than that of just 15 years ago when Pastor Jack was preaching his wisdom to me,
is still all the same.
His words of truth were simple.
“Marry your best friend.”
Those words made me look at my marriage,
and perhaps were words that supported me to divorce a few years later. Although back then I would have felt the need to confirm that I was best friends with my then husband,
the reality was not that we were best friends.
We got along on a ton of items,
but I found that I had to restrict myself in so many ways,
and that was not friendship,
and certainly not best friends.
When I am working with couples today in my coaching practice many come to me troubled and on the cusp of a breaking up because of so many things…
*Not enough sex or bad sex.
*Abuse of one kind or another.
*Lack of sexual desire.
And most couples will start off their tale by telling me that they are best friends with their spouse,
that they can tell them anything,
that they have fantastic communication.
fill in the blank from above list here.
They believe that if they had more sex/better sex or a stronger desire for their partner,
if they were physically attracted more to them,
if they had more money in the bank,
or what have you that their marriage would be perfect.
Now the reality is that if you are in an abusive relationship ( no matter what that looks like) that chances are you need to get out of it because an abusive partner often does not see their wrong and change,
if you are in a relationship that has suffered from infidelity,
There can be work done and you can repair it and even come back stronger than ever before if love and communication/friendship is at the front stage of both parties minds.
The desire for more sex, better sex or having more desire for your partner… .these things can be detrimental if the friendship and love are not there first and if both parties are not open to raw, real discussions based in truth and love to work on these challeneges,
but if both parties are wanting the connection and can be emotionally mature to take responsibility for self and speak their truth and work together on these items,
then you can have a deeply strong bond and the sex and desire can grow from it.
The relationships that come to me wanting these things,
often have one MAJOR obstacle however…
One partner is stubborn and refuses to see the truth.
Refuses to take the matter seriously or take the time and effort required to build this part of the relationship. They don’t believe that it is their problem and that the other partner is to blame for it and needs the fixing.
However that is never the case.
Relationships are always a two way street.
It always requires both people to want to connect and come together. It requires both parties to take responsibility for themselves and to not get caught up in their old wounds from the past.
Unfortunately, this is where the relationship breaks down.
People often don’t want to do this.
They want the easy street and they say,
“Love should be easy.”
“Love should be perfect.”
We are all human.
And there is no such thing as the perfect human.
If you have a list of fifty qualities that you want and count highly important in a mate,
and you believe that you will get ALL of these qualities in one person and until you get them all that you will not settle,
I ask you to look in the mirror and ask of yourself if you exhibit all fifty of them yourself?
You are never going to find someone who is 100% of those qualities a hundred percent of the time.
They are human.
You are human.
And life changes and transforms us.
Some qualities can be developed over time.
Some are just there and a natural part of who we are,
some are based on energetic connections,
while others have everything to do with our gene pool.
If you are counting any of these qualities as love though,
you are mistaken.
Qualities do not define love.
They add to love.
They sweeten the pot.
Love is something that you cannot explain,
nor does it need to be explained.
It just is.
And when it is felt on both sides now you have something special.
LOVE COMES FROM BEING ABLE TO BE YOURSELF WITH SOMEONE ELSE, UNMASKED.
When we can do this with someone,
we feel acceptance and love for self and it translates to “loving someone else” because we see the reflection of what we are feeling for self as what we see coming or going toward another.
When we “fall in love” or catch feels for someone,
what is actually happening is that we are witnessing ourselves in love. We are falling in love with self and this other person is simply helping us see our own beauty.
That is why the best friend statement is so powerful.
In friendship there is an acceptance, an unconditional love.
It goes past all that life can change for us,
like our physical bodies appearance,
our health or financial status,
it looks past our ups and downs and even past the chemical connectors that we have on the front side of a romantic relationship that over the course of three to five years diminish and change.
But for some reason, we humans believe that love should be perfect.
That these connecting chemicals should ALWAYS be there,
that the energy and excitement of the first kiss is the way that we will remain throughout all of time,
that the person who is standing before us perfect in their skin of today will never change,
that the feelings that we are having will just remain unwavering.
Or that if we do not have all these sudden rushes of ignition but that we do deeply care and connect in all other ways that this is not or cannot be real love.
That it is “ONLY FRIENDSHIP” and we in turn lower it to that level and get frustrated that we cannot find Mr. or Mrs. Perfect that checks all of our boxes on our list of fifty all of the time.
And so we remain living in search of something that has been offered to us repeatedly. Believing that if we explore,
if we open ourselves to the love that is there before us and go as deep as we can with it that we are settling,
we are giving up,
that if they don’t have everything that they are not Mr. or Mrs. Perfect and instead are a waste of our precious time.
What we are doing to ourselves in this is denying ourselves the beauty of discovery of love.
Love is a quest of self.
Love is about finding out who we really are through our relating with another.
It is about meeting all aspects of self,
and without relationship we will never meet our authentic selves at any depth.
When we continue to look for perfection in a mate,
What we are actually saying is that we ourselves are not worthy of our own love until we become PERFECT as well.
So how will you ever find Mr. or Mrs. Perfect if you prevent yourself from growing into your whole beautiful self by denying love to be birthed through a relationship with another imperfect human who is there as your teacher of self love?
Chances are your relationship with anyone will not last in a forever sense.
That reality although harsh is still a reality.
We outgrow each other,
and as we change sometimes our mates choose a path of slower or limited growth that creates a breaking point in the relationship,
but if we have come together in friendship and love,
then even the parting is done in the same fashion.
And we each can gain what we need for our own development.
It’s time that we start to view relationships and even marriage as the opportunity to explore self and learn to love deeply through the witnessing of another that rivets us deeper into our truth.
Love is always perfect.
It is always perfect for the moment that the relationship is in.
It is never easy,
but it can always be in flow with who we are.
We create our own obstacles to feeling it by trying to make it perfect in every moment and getting irritated with the reality that love, true love requires each party to grow in connection with self first.
Where does your love stand?
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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CAN WE JUST F-CKING STOP WITH BEAUTIFUL.
you say that word so often I do not think it is achieving the results that you think it is achieving.
On any day of the week,
I get the comment of “Beautiful” at least ten times from random people ( mostly men) who want to share it with me.
And the reality is this,
The statement of “Beautiful.”
Is a surface AF statement.
It will get you nowhere in a hurry with a woman who values herself,
who understands that her true beauty is not something you appreciate just from her skin that is barred or the clothes that she has on,
it has nothing to do with the smile on her face,
or if she is nice to you.
Beauty is something so much deeper.
It comes from a place of knowing oneself.
Of loving oneself,
even the shadow lands of our character.
Beauty comes from feeling good in our own skin,
and when someone over uses such a compliment,
it actually starts to rub raw,
and cause you to not take in the compliment.
Every human being NEEDS to have words of affirmation.
Every human being needs to learn how to breathe into compliments and own their worth,
but surface AF statement that are easy to say and show that you know NOTHING about the person,
are not anything to sport about saying.
Especially with a woman.
SO this musing is going out to all you gents who tell me and other amazing AF powerful women that you find us BEAUTIFUL.
That you would love to show us what you can do with your whatever you desire to touch and taste us with,
That you love how our hair looks,
our clothes fit us,
or the angle we opted to take a picture from.
Yeah those comments that you believe will land you in our panties and hearts,
HA! We think not.
For a true compliment is spoken from a place of presence,
it is stated about a person’s depth and light.
A compliment that makes you stand out in the crowd of all those fools who think that some cartoon dog blowing random AF kisses, or I love you’s is going to get somewhere other than an eye roll and quickening in our scroll,
if you truly desire to make an impression…
THEN SLOW THE F-CK DOWN….
and pay some attention.
You need to actually listen,
watch and read,
you need to make statements that show that you were into what that person was sharing,
you need to let yourself absorb who you are watching,
and not from a place where she gets me off to watch.
This also applies to anyone who is taking a woman to bed,
if you are so lucky to have her open herself to you,
then remember this….
You can leave a good impression,
a bad impression ,
or a F-cking Spectacular impression.
The choice is yours.
And it all comes down to how you slow the f-ck down and get present with her.
If you think you know a woman,
and how to f-ck her wide open,
awesome…. but I question your cockiness.
Because I know women,
and we bore easily and rarely want to hurt your delicate ego’s, so we let you believe that you know,
and then roll our eyes and share our frustrations with our friends about how clueless you are,
and how surface AF our sex is with you.
A woman who loves herself and knows her value,
will not keep around a man or partner for any amount of real time who cannot prove that they can go deep with her.
If our partner is not willing to slow the f-ck down and value us the way that we know we should be,
then “bye, bye… don’t let the door hit you on your way out of my life.”
A woman who keeps a surface level lover around,
is a woman who does not know herself yet and has not learned her value.
The facts are simple and they start with how we relate outside the bedroom.
Ladies if you feel all fluttery and excited about that want to be average joe who said beautiful on one of your pictures,
then I question how much love you have for self.
Because that man… that man is a little boy who has not learned how to be with a woman yet and cannot handle his own depth or the light that you have to offer.
if you are one of these dudes that offer up easy to spell one word comments, but then turn around and ask a woman a question that you already have access to the answer of…
(by taking the time in our social media world… and I mean like maybe 2 minutes of time….you can discover how old someone is, where they are from or live, if they are single or coupled, open or not, kids, what they do and even their likes)
THEN JUST F-CKING STOP ALREADY.
Your words are wasted on those of us who value ourselves.
We do not need your statements of beautiful or what you desire to do to us or with us,
we laugh at you,
we shake our heads at your silliness and we keep scrolling.
You don’t have a chance,
so go find someone who may better suit you.
There is someone for everyone,
or so they say.
I am not the one who will fall prey to your mediocre compliments with no depth or care.
Just like all the other queens out there who get what I am sharing here in this musing today.
Level up your relating guys!
Level up who you are.
You want to attract a MF Queen….
Then you cannot just pretend to play King….
You gotta be one.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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It’s about embracing your worthiness and loving yourself.
male or female,
This is where our power comes from.
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