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April 26, 2020

“I love You. Just As You Are.”

Bob Marley once said:

“You may not be her first,

her last, or her only.

She loved before she may love again.

But if she loves you now, what else matters?

She’s not perfect—you aren’t either,

and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh,

cause you to think twice,

and admit to being human and making mistakes,

hold onto her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break—her heart.

So don’t hurt her,

don’t change her,

don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give.

Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

And he was a wise man in his lyrics.

The Jamaican artist who grew up on the concept of One Love,

and to love without fear,

without reservation,

and condition,

spoke the truth in his words about loving a woman,

but his words ring true in general.

His words on love are words that we could all gain wisdom from when looking at relationships in general.

Can you imagine a world where we spoke our truth.

Where we told our feelings without expectation,

where we related because that is what humans do…

Can you imagine a world where love was not based on what you can do for me,

or I for you,

but on the actual feeling of love.

Can you imagine a world where love was not captivated and crucified at every upset in the day,

a world where loving each other was normal and not judged or shamed,

can you imagine a world where we each had respect for self,

compassion for self,

love for self,

and thus could freely offer the same to another.

Can you imagine a world where saying “I love you” did not bear with it the weight of marriage, commitment of a lifetime, legal documents or looks of concern.

Can you imagine being loved just for being you?

This is the love that Marley was speaking of.

This is the message that we all need to hear,

and this morning as I sit here and am blessed with the words,

“I love you.”

I feel called to share the importance that they actually hold.

I love you is a statement of acceptance.

A statement of respect and care,

I love you means that I do not want to control you,

that I appreciate you JUST AS YOU ARE.

I love you means that I am not expecting anything in return,

there are no conditions,

there are no rules or obligations,

I love you means that I SEE YOU.

JUST AS YOU ARE.

And when these words are uttered,

they should not hold the reins on our heart,

they should not be spoken in shame or in fear,

but instead be words that frees our soul.

I love you means that I love me too.

Because I could not feel this feeling,

pure and authentically,

if you were not mirroring the love that I feel for self.

That is what it is a message of.

When we feel deep love for another,

without control or possession of any sort,

without jealousy or fear of losing,

without expectation,

we are feeling true love.

And true love can only emerge when we feel the same for self.

Others that we feel this radiance for,

ignite the truth of our souls,

allow us to embrace our bigness,

our beauty, and truth.

When love is authentic and not based in need,

It is a sign of who we really are.

And at our cores,

WE ARE LOVE.

We taste it juiciness.

We bathe in its sweetness,

We dance freely in its light,

and we expand within its breath.

Without love life is empty.

And with false love,

control masked as such,

we hunger to hold on,

we fear its loss,

we hand over our power to whomever we deem our point of focus,

and lose who we are.

To love someone…

You may not be the first person to love them,

or the last,

not even the only one.

They have loved before,

they will love again,

But if they are loving you now,

What else matters?

They are not perfect – you aren’t either,

and the two of you may never have the perfect relationship together, no matter its label,

but if they make you smile and laugh,

cause you to think twice,

and admit to being human and making mistakes,

hold onto that love and give it the most you have.

They may not be thinking of you every moment of the day,

but that love will open you to your life,

that love will offer you something special,

something that you must respect, — your truth.

So don’t judge and shame your love,

don’t try and change it,

don’t analyze and

don’t expect more than what is shown.

Smile when you are happy,

let your feelings be known, even when mad,

let your words and actions be authentic.

Love with your whole being when you receive love,

Know that it is available at any moment,

it is your truth,

there is no such thing as perfect,

but there will always be love,

and it is all that matters.

How are you penetrating your life,

this world with your love?

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April 21, 2020

God Wants Open Relationships… But You Don’t! from Guest Author Addison Bell

You say that you could never do open relationship.

That you find it wrong and not natural.
You think it could never work and that it isn’t aligned with real intimate relationships.
You point to moral objections within your religious doctrines

Yet, you don’t see where you are already living and loving this way!

You are already in an open relationship baby!!!

Relationships are abound in our world. I’m guessing that you are in relationship with more than just one person in your life and most likely even have intimate emotional connections with more than one person in your life.

Sure, you might not be having sex with anyone else in your world but sex does not always equal intimacy.
I bet you have deep conversations and moments with other friends and family. Moments of sincere appreciation and vulnerability.

(If you don’t then that’s a whole other conversation and some intense coaching)

Are you telling me you aren’t intimate with anyone else?

Are you telling me that you don’t have an intimate relationship with God ?
God has set us free to have intimacy with others but you stand there claiming to desire to mirror God’s love…. preaching spirituality… and yet you don’t think it’s okay to set your partner free.

True freedom is giving your partner a chance to reject you! That is true love. That is true freedom. That is true openness.

Take your friends. Or your kids.
Do you just have one?
Do you restrict your love for one because of another?
Or do you just take the relationship with one for what it is and still love and connect with the other in a different way?

Or does it come down to you verbalizing that you want your partner to have freedom
But really you are ultimately holding jealousy and a desire to control in your heart.
Keeping your heart un-Godlike

Wanting to control their sex.
Wanting to control their feelings.
Wanting to control their ability to feel intimacy and connection.

By holding onto your partners sex you are chaining them in their growth process. Our sex is a driving force in our lives and is a creative force. By holding your partners sex down you are holding their growth as a human being down. Shutting down their ability to experience themselves and the world at a new depth.

Take is from me… every lover provides something juicy yet different.
It is a learning about self.
It is a learning about my spirit.
It is a learning about energy and connection.

By controlling your partners sex you are placing a collar around them as a person.

Real love comes when you give your partner the ability to follow their heart and are trusting that your connection is strong enough that they will come back to you.

That is real love.

Just like God is always trying to woo us and love us… but at the same time has given us the ultimate open relationship.
We have full freewill to reject
We have full freewill to have other relationships
Because there is a faith that the love is strong enough that we will always return.

God didn’t want puppets and yet you stand their trying to create puppets in your own life and using your faith as an excuse.

Open relationships are a very personal decision.
And they aren’t for everyone.
But I ask you to look at the true reasons that it isn’t for you.
Get to the heart of the matter and get real with self.

Because hiding behind false reasons isn’t helping you to expand and grow, nor is it helping your partner.

Love, light, & blessings,
Addison

Learn more from Addison HERE

April 1, 2020April 1, 2020

Ignorance Is Not Permission

Most men cannot fathom what sex is like for a woman in any possible fashion.

The link between the emotional,

the mental and the physical is not something a man typically can understand to the depths of the feminine.

It is truly a rare masculine who obtains this sort of awareness and understanding and then adhears to it.

Most men are boys in their sexing,

allowing ignorance to rule thier love making and haphazardly moving forward in it.

Unfortunately this style of relating to the feminine only ends in the cause of severe trauma to the female and frustration and shut down to both parties.

In sexing it is often assumed that sex is just sex.

And it most certainly can be.

That is why one night stands can be fantastic,

we can walk into a sexual encounter,

being open, playful and wanting to simply have fun and a good orgasm. Typically both parties are very present in these moments and the ego nature of us humans being have us wanting to show what we can do, so we make sure to leave a promising memory with this person to that we feel proud about when they look back at this memory they will still carry a “Wow, that lover was great!” vibe.

Unfortunately we don’t bring this same sort of concept into our long term relationships.

Here we focus more on what commitment means to us and how we can best get our needs met over all.

Accepting mediocre connection time, intimacy and sex until it wears one or both parties out and empties the relationship of all the glue that was holding it together.

The allowance of mediocre sexing and intimacy in our relationships is the succumbing to hopelessness and thus the enabling of blind trauma to occur.

How is this possible if both parties seemingly agree to have the mediocre sexing though?

A few things are happening:

1) Most women do not know how to ask for what they need in sex and have ton’s of shame wrapped up around sex in general, believing that it is mostly for the man and his pleasure as well as a frustration to their own pleasure because it “takes too long” for her to achieve any result.

2) Most women will test their men, as the feminine does to see how present the man is and how much he really wants to give to her or how much she means to him so will not communicate what is needed because she wants and needs his penatrative inquiry.

3) If a woman has shared her needs and desires with a man, she is now looking for him to make the appropraite calibration and show that he was being present with her in his listening and has a desire to please her.

4) If mediocre sexing continues typically a woman will just give up. In her giving up she shuts down her sex even more as well as her heart to her man. Her trust in him has been so far breached from his haphazord pushing forward and ignorant resisance to listening and applying what has been shared that she knows now that he is untrustworthy of holding her heart and love. So even though she may remain with him physically he slowly and often quiet quickly looses her heart forever.

5) Men focus on the number of thrusts and the speed they can move in sexing, thinking that changing position every 3 minutes is an ideal, when in fact a woman needs her lover to slow down, focus in on certain spots with attention and care not force and speed. If men were to treat a womans whole body as a sexual organ then he would be able to bring her attention to openning up sexually and ignite her sexual juices

6) Men typically get focused on the genitals, especailly their genitals and forget all about the females body. Ignoring what the body reactions are and even block out what the woman is saying during sex whether with her voice or with her hands and body language. This is where he becomes blind to her requests to stay in one place, to keep that rhythm, to give more or less. In the ignoring of what her body and voice are asking for he often without realization ends up either hurting her phsyically or leaving her hanging on the brink of orgasm with no release causing female blue balls and over a time frame sexual shut down which leads to emotional distancing and hormone disturbance.

7) Women often tell their man that they would never say no to him sexually. On the front side of a relationship this is stated in playfulness and is meant full heartedly. But the woman is also most likely getting fed orgasm by her man as well. Once the tides turn and she is no longer being cared for sexually, she may adhear to this statement but every time a man assumes that it is okay to just push for sex in this way he is causing physical/emotional and mental trauma to his female partner.

8) If your woman is not having real orgasms, not just a few clitorial ones, but real deep G-spot or cervical orgasms blended with the clitorial ones then it is pretty simple to assume that at some point she will start to feel like a masturbation tool for you, and that she does not matter to you as a person or as your woman. Every sexual encounter will turn into a rape trauma for her no matter how great it felt for you as the man. The more this happens, the deeper she will burry herself from you to protect her heart. No amount of flowers, trips, gifts or sweet “I love you’s and you are world to me.” will matter, because the evidence of how much she really matters shows between the sheets in your sexing.

So what is the solution?

How can Mr. Fix It – fix it?

Listen to your woman.

–>Inquire with the questions that your ego is scared to ask.

–>Don’t accept the answer,

“I am fine, we are fine/good.” – “Our sex is good.”

If you think your woman is having an orgasm in sex, question what orgasm really is and what it looks and feels like when you are with her.

–>Read my article – 90 Days Without Orgasm https://www.tantrictransformation.com/90-days-of-no-orgasm-say-what/

and pay attention to the list of 29 things that happen to women when they don’t have reeal orgasm in their life, if your woman has these things or just some of them, do the reeality check with yourself as to what the truth is no matter what she says to save your delicate ego, ( because yes, all of us women believe that men cannot handle the truth in this department and that if we tell them the truth then love will be retracted from us or that our man will become distant or anger, guilt or shame us and that its just better an easier if we go along without sharing the truth.)

–> Slow down in the bedroom.

–> Make love to her vulva and breasts first.

–> Always, always, always get permission for sex!

–> Make sure she cums first and if possible multiple times.

–> Be present with her whole body not just what face she is making, her face can lie to you.

–> Listen to her requests and do as directed.

–> Don’t make everything about the sex. You woman needs communication, connection and your time and presence outside of sexing as well.

–> Check your ego FREQUENTLY.

–> Stop accepting average and ordinary sexing in your life and relationship.

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

Want to learn more about female sexuality and how to achieve deep connective states of being with a woman? Want to learn the secrets of superiour love making and relating? Reach out to me for individual or couples coaching now. It is a perfect time to save your relationship and reignite the passion. I work with people globally.

March 30, 2020

Are You Hiding From The Truth In Your Relationship?

Retraction.

The holding of the breath.

The gripping of one’s fist.

Fidgetting.

What we expereince when something is shared that we don’t want to hear.

It can be hard to hear our partner speak about what they are feeling. How they are thinking. Or the challenges that they are having in the relationship.

It can be terrifying at times and make us question if the relationship will survive.

It can make us feel weak,

defeated, not enough, lost even.

When our partner throws a verbal dagger at us,

whether they know it or not,

it hurts.

And we find ourselves tossed between gratitude for finding out and a desire to not know any more.

To just make it go away.

The gratitude is our soul telling us that this is what is needed,

if our partner had not openned up and shared then that would mean that the relationship was already dead and it was just a matter of time till we discover its corpse.

This is what happens frequently however,

so often couples carry on and one partner is blind and deaf to the truth of what state the relationship is in, until it is too late and then they scratch their head in confussion of , “How is this possible, I thought everything was good?”

If we lean into the desire to make this pain go away and to not hear it anymore,

we may find ourselves retracting our love to our partner.

We may find ourselves just simply disregaurding what they are sharing and moving along as though it never happened.

Hoping that if we don’t talk about it or give it attention that it will change on its own.

This is detrimental to the releationship, however.

Making excuses up as to why you cannot focus on this right now, saying that this is the wrong tme to bring it up, saying that its all in our partners head or that thats not true, are all statements sharing that you do not value your partners feelings, thoughts or heart and that you are more caught up on the gut punch and how bad it was of them to make you feel this or to ask for something.

This is also detrimental to the realtionship.

The ONLY path to choose in this instance “IF” you desire to keep the relationship that you have and to make it strong and happy again is to PAUSE and listen without denial, without hiding, without excuses or fighting.

This is what is referred to as

“holding space.”

Coaches and therapist’s do this all the time for their clients.

The answers are often formed through the venting,

the sharing, the allowance of the feeling.

As a couple, if you desire to take some bad news shared and turn it into gold, then this is the sapce to start in.

If you close the door to the communication,

if you get angered or bitter about the sharing,

if you go into attack mode,

or allow your fear to control,

then you will find yourself pushing your partner further away.

Communication is the key to holding a relationship together.

Communication is the key to healing a relationship.

Commincation is the key to building trust, intimacy and love.

But communicating means listening without judgement or a need to be right or change what someone else is feeling or thinking.

Comminucation also means presenting a safe space where your partner feels permission and safety in speaking what they need and that their words will be heard and acknowledged.

Commincation means sharing your truth.

Sharing what you are feeling, fearing, troubled with, needing, not liking, liking, loving.

If you want a turned on, empowered relationship then you have to move away from surface level relating.

You must be willing to hear it all and hold that space for self and your partner.

You must be willing to offer what is going on with you and INQUIRE about what your partner is expereincing,

Most relationships today do not do this.

They believe that they do,

but they don’t.

Most relationships accept the answer of,

“I am good. I am fine. We are good.”

The simple truth is that relationship requires work, time, energy, truth, compassion,communicating, stepping back from a need to be right.

If you don’t take the time right now to share with your partner or to hold space for your partner to share and actually listen to what they are sharing, understanding that every share is valuable, then what you will discover is that your relationship will end.

If you claim that you love your partner.

Claim that you love your relationship.

Claim that it is the most important thing to you.

That it and them matter.

Then let it be witnessed through your actions of taking the time and making it priority.

Without shame.

Without guilt.

Without anger.

Without retraction.

Without accusations.

But with LOVE.

If you think you don’t have time to do this,

then I promise you that you will find a time that it will not longer beasking for your time.

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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February 22, 2020

Why Women Don’t Trust Men.

Tears that cannot be seen are still tears felt.

Often I meet people in some of the most difficult spaces of their lives.

They come to me in thier wounding,

in their fear,

in their bitterness and revenge.

Trauma masks them from their truth.

They are lost.

And with thier lostness they have comfort.

It is this way for anyone who has experienced pain.

And the pain much of the time is rooted in our thoughts of ego,

which continues to trap us in a nasty loop of past fears, thoughts, feelings and expereinces.

Due to this loop we feel comfort, but we never feel fulfilled or happy as well.

Abandonment is one of the the major culprits to this pain.

To these tears that are unseen.

Abandonment happens when we least expect it too, does it not?

Last night I was having a discussion with a close friend about this very topic. We sat over a bottle of guava rum and had some deep dives into vulnerable shares around relationships and how we could each see a pattern in our past relationships with men. The men that touched us in such a power way, the one’s who openned our hearts, expanded our thinking and taught us incredible lessons about our lives and who we are as women.

I sat there and shared about the four past relationships that I find most significant and that I can say that three of them I was deeply and still am today even (if I am real with you and I in this moment) in love with. These men awakened the woman that I am today. And I am ever grateful for them blessing my life as they had.

All four of these relationships, professed their undying love for me.

They all asked me to marry.

They all went deep into my heart and soul and penetrated me like no other. Each built on the one before,

taking me into new relams of love.

Oh the stories I could share, and have in other musings.

These four men,

they changed my world forever and taught me to love.

They also crushed me in ways that I am sure none of them ever intended of.

Their words of, ” I will fight for you.” – ” I love you unconditionally and want nothing more than your happiness.” – “I can see forever with you.” – “I would NEVER do anything to hurt you.” – You are my world.”

Yes, these words as if from a storybook romance,

so lovely, so enticing.

So real for the moment they were spoken,

were the words that also crushed me after a period of time.

These words became poison and what they all loved – me,

they tried to kill in their own way by severing through retraction, removal, disposal and even physically action down the road of our relationship.

Now, here is the thing I want you to get from this musing:

Was there pain? yes.

Is there still pain? In moments, yes.

But I am more in gratitude than pain at this point, some of these relationship I speak of were from 20 years past even.

Some just a few years back.

It is the lessons, the patterns that I see and want to share with you today.

All four men chose to say good bye.

All four shared this pattern in that good bye,

the pattern of not speaking their integrity.

They chose to hide from me,

from thier hearts truth.

They chose to lie to my face day in and day out,

even when I inquired directly about what I was feeling from them.

They chose to run and hide instead of face me and say goodbye with clarity and heart.

They chose to abandon.

And this lack of integrity,

caused unfinished business between us,

and shame for them.

They supported my programs of:

” I am not good enough.”

“I am unlovable.”

” I am disposable like trash.”

“I am not worthy of true love or even truth.”

“I am not worthy to have someone fight for me.”

“I cannot trust men.”

“I am not safe.”

What I see often in my couples work with clients are all these programed statements and beliefs in women and the men not underestanding why she feels this way or what he has done to cause it.

I tell you sweet men of the world,

it is your lack of integrity.

When you do not stand in your truth to your core,

when you waiver,

when you hide like a little boy behind your mother’s skirts,