YOU ARE THE MOTHER F-CKING BOSS OF YOUR WORLD!!!!

If your happy and you know it…

Oh baby you know it is exactly what you crave.

It is what your soul wants for you in every waking moment and with every breath you take.

It is your birth right.
It is how you were designed to be.

And yet you do not have it.

You instead choose to suffer.
You choose to ignore your truth.
You choose to say NO.

And you fall asleep at night wondering why this life does not support you the way you need or desire.

You wake in the mornings with thoughts of fear, stress, and frustration.

Never realizing that YOU,
Yes YOU…

have all the mother f-cking power.

You always have had it.
It has never been any other way.
You are the one.

You are the BOSS.
SO why do you keep allowing what you allow?

Why do you keep disapproving of everything that your soul craves,
that your heart wants.

Why do you turn away from what ignites you?

You know what I am speaking of,
that thing,

that thing that causes a great stir in your core,

that thing that makes your gut burn when you think about it,

that thing that if you leaning a little more into it and you admitted it,

TURNS YOU THE F-CK ON!!!!!

Yes that thing.
That thing that if you allow it to just f-cking sit there for the rest of your life like you have done since its conception so far, will LITERALLY
eat away at your soul.

So why are you willing to sacrifice your everything to avoid that which is your life mission?

Your calling.

Are you really the sort of person who is okay with walking away from your hearts truth?

Are you really good with dying with this sort of regret?

Are you really so f-cking content with your life of scarcity, fear and average and ordinary that you are going to continue to say no?

Or are you one of the .01% who decide to CLAIM THEIR LIVES?

I personally really don’t care what you decide,
I can hope for you,
like I do for everyone,
that you do what is best for your soul,
and in turn that will be best for everyone in your life,
and in our world.

But at the end of the day,
I know that there is no one that can get you to do it,

there is no one that can make a decision for you,

you can blame others,
you can sit around and say,
“Well if so and so had told me, had texted me, had spent more time with me, then I would have the passion, the drive, the knowing, the blah..blah..blah. that I need to embrace the life that I want. To do the things I know I need.”

The reality though is this:

YOU ARE THE MOTHER F-CKING BOSS OF YOUR WORLD!!!!

So start acting like it or don’t.
You can continue to sit around on your thumbs and blame, point fingers and cry in your whatever.

It won’t get you anywhere.
But you can certainly do it.

I can tell you that I won’t be there to support it though.

I won’t feel bad about it either.
I may empathize with you, as I have had plenty of moments like that myself,

but sympathy is a gift I will not bestow on you for your choice to remain a victim to your ego.

We all come into this world with the same opportunities.

You may disagree with me,
because you may look at the material world and think that just because someone is born into a life with money, more freedoms and liberties than another that they have some advantage over you.

But that is not so. 
That is not what I speak of this morning.

Sure those luxuries are nice and may help make one’s experience on the front side more pleasurable,
But they do not make a person

HAPPY.

And they do not guarantee that a person will live their

TRUTH
PURPOSE
or BLISS.

And these are the things your soul wants for you.

These are the things that keep you up,
make you feel the way that you do,
cause you pain, from not living.

Make you wonder if you know yourself,
or if happiness will ever happen for you,
have you feeling lost and though there is always something you must attain more of to try and fill this void that is with in you.

Baby you are wanting what all of us are wanting.

HAPPINESS.

And you are the only person who can provide it for yourself.

You must learn to allow it.
and here is another secret for you,
(since I like to share little secrets with you)

That happiness that you crave from a deep soul level is

THE THING

the very thing…
yeah remember that thing?

the thing that will give you all the abundance,

all the blessing,
that you desire as well.

You will not get the abundance and blessing first.

No you must first find your JOY.
Find your happiness.

And the money,
the sex,
the travel,
the material items,
the relationships,
will then follow.

It does not go the other way.
It is that simple.

SO why the f-ck are you denying yourself of what you were born to live?

Don’t worry, be happy 

Just be it.
Be it now.

And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

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$22,000 at 2:22-AM.

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Yes manifesting $22k in less than 12 hours is exactly the vibration I f-cking love having.
Don’t you?
 
Its an AMAZING feeling to wake up in the morning to this and know that this is ONLY the f-cking beginning.
 
I mean imagine if you believed that there were no limitations to the things that you could call into your life.
 
Imagine if all you ever had to do was allow abundance to flow to you,
 
by just keeping yourself in alignment to your soul.
 
Well that is where it is at baby.
It truly is that simple.
 
I am not going to lie,
you are not going to generate that sort of income or any income at all just laying on the couch thinking about it,
or feeling into how effing great it “would” be to have it.
 
No you will not manifest anything that way.
In order to get results of this kind or better,
then one HAS to not just allow abundance to flow to them,
but also, do the God damn f-cking work to have the doorways open for the abundance to flow.
 
I mean it would be crazy to think that you can call in any sort of blessing if you are closed down to the pathway of the blessing.
 
Just think about it…
Imagine you are wanting your ideal lover to come into your life,
yet you do not go on any dates,
you hardly leave your home,
you have no real social life,
or much of anything.
 
How the f-ck are you to CALL IN a lover?
Maybe if this is the sort of person that you are,
you are hoping that your mail man will deliver this lover to you,
or you will just get lucky and somehow they will end up lost on your doorstep…
 
Knock.
Knock.
OMFG! It’s Mr. or Mrs. Perfect.
Here on my door step.
Ready to be part of the rest of my life.
 
LOL….😂
 
Okay so that is ridiculous, right?
I mean no one actually thinks this can happen,
well I guess there is a possibility,
but let’s be real.
 
The odds are not in your favor no matter how much luck you have on your side.
 
So why the f-ck do you think that you can have a land fall of abundance or anything you desire come to you without the mother f-cking work.
 
That work is multi-folded too.
It is not JUST about actual work.
You know that building or going and doing something.
No it is not about that.
In truth that work most likely only equates out to maybe 15% of the actual work.
I know it is that way for me.
And for my mentors and other people who are living a freedom based life where they are just calling in their desires.
 
But when we do, do that work, we do it hard core.
We give our all.
We focus like there is no tomorrow.
And you know what?
One of the secrets to the work here,
is that it does not feel like work.
It just is.
 
It is part of who we are.
We cannot help but do the work.
Because it just is us.
It is what we would do whether we were paid or not.
It is the music in our being that has to be set free.
It feels good.
Good to do the work.
 
It is actually impossible to not do the work.
This is how you know that you have found your path….
Your calling.
 
But then there is the other 85% of the REAL WORK.
Now there is where you will meet resistance.
 
This is the land of resistance.
This is the internal, mindset work.
This is the work that your ego will have you believe is not the work and that you are not in need of.
It is where your doubt,
your fear,
your discomfort of whatever is not your norm,
holds you back from all of your mother f-cking dreams.
 
It is the internal work that is actually a game with your
CURRENT IS.
 
You must first recognize what you are accepting as your norm in your life so that you can change it to what you want it to be.
 
Then you must have the strength,
the desire,
and the courage,
to HOLD to that CHANGE.
 
Because the old norm that had you living the life you were unsatisfied with,
will call to you.
It will tell you that you are not deserving,
you are not worthy,
that you cannot repeat the greatness.
That you will loose it all just like blah…blah….blah.
It will tempt you to become lazy,
and it will remind you of how comfortable good feels.
 
because yeah you may be calling in all this GREATNESS,
 
F-ck NO!!!!
Greatness,
Abundance in the masses that your soul effing wants,
the revealing of who you really are,
and letting that light shine brighter than any lighthouse could try for,
is NOT COMFORTABLE.
No it is f-cking hard as hell.
 
But you know what?
YOU ARE WORTH IT.
You just have to love yourself enough to CLAIM IT.
Claim your life.
Claim your bliss.
Claim your abundance.
 
Take that step onto your path.

You got this baby!!!

 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 
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NEWS FLASH!!! You Can’t Do It For ANYONE else but YOU.

You Can’t Do It For ANYONE else but YOU.

 
You really are the center of the universe.
 
I know that may sound like a ego based statement,
it may appear to be selfish, self centered and even “wrong” in some fashion to think this way about ourselves.
 
But leave it to me to be the
📢📢📢F-cking NEWS FLASH of reality….
 
If you make anyone else more important than you,
If you make anyone else’s business your responsibility,
If you worry more about anyone else more,
If you want it more for them then they do….
 
Then you are sacrificing your EVERYTHING.
 
I am always telling my clients,
” I am in this to level that you are.”
 
Meaning, if you think it is my responsibility as your coach to do/push or want your success more than you do, then you will be sadly let down and mistaken.
 
If you believe that you need someone else to push you,
Give you motivation,
Reason,
Courage,
or FAITH,
 
to take the steps that you need to take.

to REMIND you to DO THE Mother F-cking things that you know you need to do.

 
Then you are going to always have less than what you are worth.
You will always be a victim to life,
a victim to circumstance.
 
You will continually be lost,
feel unloved,
unseen,
and like you do not matter.
 
It is no one else’s job to make you
FEEL
or DO
ANYTHING.
 

This is your effing life.

🔥🔥🔥If you want it than CLAIM IT!🔥🔥🔥
 
What if….
 
What if you just finally started saying YES to yourself,
and stopped being the doormat to everything and everyone else?
 
What if you made yourself,
 

🙄WAIT FOR IT…..

 
 

…..THE F-cking Priority. 📢🎆🎆

 
WHOA!!!! What a concept.
 
So back to my original statement of today…
 
You really are the center of the universe.
YOUR Universe.
 
YOUR WORLD! 🌏
 

💯% of the TIME.

 
No one else.
 
This is called having
DRIVE
DIRECTION
COMMITMENT
SELF-LOVE
 
PURPOSE!!!!!!!!
 
Very few people actually have these things.
Most people opt for average and ordinary.
They opt to remain in the confines of the beliefs that they are responsible for someone else’s thoughts, feelings, actions.
 
That it is their responsibility to try and control an outcome.
 
Many people SACRIFICE their lives
for others….
 
WHO never realize that they have done this,
and don’t even want them to do this.
 
Many people,
believe that this makes them ” a good person.”
 
A Godly person, even.
 
When in fact,
all it does is STEAL their JOY.
 
Want to know why you suffer so GREATLY?
Want to know why you feel lost?
Want to know why your always unhappy,
never satisfied,
have limited DESIRE 🔥🔥🔥
 
BECAUSE You are Living for Someone Else.
You are NOT LIVING YOUR LIFE.
 
You have made someone else your EVERYTHING.
And You have GIVEN Your Life for it.
 
So F-cking STOP!!!
 
Instead look in the mirror and start telling the most important person in your life how
 
AMAZING they are.
That YOU LOVE 💖 Them.
That they are WORTHY.
That they CAN HAVE IT ALL!!!!
 

Start with you Baby!

You were born for GREATNESS.

 
But You have to CLAIM IT for Yourself.
No One Else can do this for you.
 

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

 
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What is stopping you? You KNOW you are Worthy at your Core.

Can you say that you are living up to your worthiness?

 
This was a question that I posed to myself this weekend as I moved through some self-inquiry around my current blockages to to my desires.
 
Yes we all have blockages.
No matter who we are, we are still human and we fall prey to our ego’s, our fear, our doubt and the patterns and programs that we have lived thus far in this life.
 
The difference between so many people is not that some have privileged lives and others don’t.
 
It is not that some are smarter, better educated or better looking than others.
 
The one difference that makes ALL the difference is if we stand up to the CALL OF OUR WORTHINESS.
 
I often ask my clients to share a brag with me in their coaching appointments. I ask them to tell me something that makes them in AWE of themselves.
 
And the response is normally,
“WHAT?”
” Wow, this is strange. I don’t know what to say”
 
I watch them squirm.
I watch as they readjust their legs, try and get centered on the chair.
Look any direction but upward or into my eye’s.
I watch their face become flushed, their chest turn red.
 
So many little things happen as they start to grasp that the request is real.
 
F-CK YES!!!!! I want to know what you are PROUD of.
I want you to CLAIM IT.
CALL IT IN DAMN IT!!!!!
 
How do we ever expect to have anything that we are not calling in with passion, certainty and turn on.
 
You have to BELIEVE that you are WORTH it and the thing about worthiness is that we are consistently told that we are not worthy. That instead we are guilty. We should feel shame for this or that and all of our ancestors shit too.
 
Just pile on the bullshit.
 
Whatever you do,
DO NOT BELIEVE that God wants you BLESSED.
 
Our world and teachings have created a bunch of believers in God NOT FAVORING US,
 
FAVORING YOU.
 
We are repeatedly told not to think to much of ourselves.
To not own our power.
To not shine bringht.
 
Well ONLY do these things in the way that are socially acceptable.
 
Not the way that your soul calls you too.
 
The problem with this idea is that anytime we stop listening to our soul and try and follow anything other, we step out of alignment and favor with God’s desire for our life.
 
We say no to our WORTHINESS.
We prevent ourselves from STEPPING INTO OUR GREATNESS.
 
and no duh,
this my love is the reason you are not living the F-ck YES! Life that you claim you want so badly.
 
It is because you are attempting to live YOUR F-CK YES! Life according to someone else’s beliefs, desires, boundaries, ideas and blockages.
 
How are you ever going to CLAIM YOUR Life if you are ALWAYS living through someone else’s?
 
Now you may say,
“Kendal, I don’t do that.”
” I live for me and me alone. ”
” I know my worth. I know who I am. I know what I desire.”
” I believe that I am in God’s favor.”
 
I call bullshit to that statement,
and here is why…..
 
Because if you REALLY did all of these things then your life experience would be different.
 
The life that is showing up in your daily experience is the life that YOU and ONLY YOU are MANIFESTING in your HEART AND MIND.
 
So if you want to have that F-ck YES! Life then you need to start FEELING and THINKING about it ASAP like your Motherf-cking Life depended on it, BECAUSE it does!!!!!
 
And it all starts with your idea’s, beliefs around WORTHINESS.
 
It is not good enough to say that you know you are worthy.
It is not good enough to put in the actions to prove that you are worthy.
It is not good enough to examine why you are worthy.
 
The ONLY thing that matters is CLAIMING IT.
KNOWING IT.
 
UNDERSTAND love that you were born worthy.
You don’t have to act some special way,
look some way,
go to some special training,
or be this or that.
 
YOU DO NOT!!!!!!
( I am screaming this at you now)
 

YOU MOST CERTAINLY DO NOT have to PROVE your worthiness.

 
Just ACCEPT it.
 
That is all God wants you to do,
is to step into your power by accepting your birth right and living up to your worthiness.
 
If you strive to live up to your worthiness, you WILL ALWAYS….
 
A-L-W-A-Y-S…
 
Be enough,
have enough,
share enough,
do the right things,
and live a F-ck YES! Life.
 
Baby you born for greatness!!!!!!
 

Just ACCEPT it.

 

And as always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!

I am F-cking Sick and tired of all your bullshit!
That was how I approached a group of 50+ people last night who have reached out to me about getting help with their sex, their relationships and their wantabe f-ck yes lives.

My lover read the title and said, I don’t know too many people who can get away with making that their subject line of an email and get a positive response back.

The truth is, not too many people can.
The reason is that most people, coaches included are masking their truth.

Are scared of saying something to piss someone off.
Of not appearing “professional“.

Then you have this .01% of us out there that are living our raw, authentic truth and have no shame for just being ourselves and stating the truth.

After sharing my thoughts with 50+ people last night and hopefully providing them with a good asskickery, it came to me that I should share with you as well. Because many of you too, reach out in many forms asking for help. Guidance and coaching but seem to never follow through for yourselves.

So here is an incomplete taste of what my message to these peeps was and now it is going out to you as well. 

Kendal’s Thoughts on Not Claiming Your Life. – The decisions we sometimes make and why.

Yes you reached out to me.

Maybe you have forgotten even that you wanted help around those delicate matters that cause you stress, make your life a little less pleasurable and you secretly wish you had not chickened out or copped some lame ass excuse for not taking by them by horns and dealing with them once and for all.

Maybe you simple believe that by ignoring your issues, they will some how magically just be gone and everything will fix itself.

Maybe you think that you got it all dealt with now, and you don’t need help.
Maybe you feel like:

You don’t have the time
You don’t have the money
You don’t have the energy
You don’t have the support
It does not matter anyway.
You will be FINE.

Okay, you keep telling yourself all that bull bunk, and the rest of us who instead have chosen to push the play button for our lives will go live.

Go have a F-ck YES! Life and enjoy the bliss that we want, not just fantasize about it.

Right about now you are most likely asking yourself:

Who the f-ck is this chick with attitude and why is she dropping in on my doorstep?

Well, if you recall or care to refresh your memory, 
my name is Kendal Williams.
You reached out to me because I have the ability to take you from where you are at, 
to where you want to be.

I am a coach that specializes in an intimate part of life, 
one of the parts of life that we all wish was better, or we had more going on in.

That would be,

SEX and Relationship.

Now granted over 2018, I have taken the last 20+ years of my coaching practice where I have helped countless people with many things from nutrition, parenting, body image, dreams, spiritual life, business, sex, relationship, to orgasm issues and have started converting my strategies, education and skills over to a passion of mine.

That being: 
Prosperity Coaching, focused on Abundance, Success, Money, Business + Sex and Play.

I call it F-ck YES Life Coaching and Freedom Based Life Coaching.

But you contacted me for the sex and relationship, ‘and sex and relationship is a vital piece of life and plays a significant role in all areas of our life including these above. That is why I can never stop coaching on it.

With that said, 
By the first of the year you will see my coaching totally merge over to the above and I will no longer be claiming the title of Sex & Relationship Coach.

That is WHY I am sending this email out to you.
RIGHT NOW – I am collecting my end of the year VIP clients to work with for the remainder of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019. These VIP clients will have the dedicated focus and attention around the above matters. Around what you originally reached out to me to discuss.

And after that?

Well you will have to work withing the new perimeters of my practice.

It’s NEVER to late to start. 
It is never too late to say YES to yourself, 
to your dreams.

The ONLY thing ever stopping any of us, 
Is OURSELVES.

So, yes I am tired of everyone’s bullsh*t of stating what they do not have and focusing in on the shit. I am exhausted from having hundreds of people reach out to me, but not TAKE ACTION.

How the eff do you expect to be happy, 
truly happy and to have the life that you desire IF you refuse to make the changes, get the help and lean in?

How?

Let’s get real. 
And tell ourselves the truth.

You got SCARED.
Doubt popped into your head.
Hopelessness stands at your gate.

And you are SETTLING.
Settling for what you have, 
It’s SAFE
It’s COMFORTABLE
You know what to expect.

But are you HAPPY?

This is the ONLY Question You need address.

If you answer it honestly, 
then you effing NEED TO message me back ASAP.

Before things have fully transformed over here in my green pasture of pleasure.

SO take that step to your desired life.
You are worth it.

Don’t be like so many poor saps out there that thinks you have time, 
thinks it can wait till next year, 
thinks its all okay and you don’t need help.

Those people never really live. 
They die long before their bodies ever give out on them.

I pray you will not be that person. 
But if you do,

God Bless.

If not….
email me back and let’s get you ROCKIN’ out your life now!!!!

LISTEN TO THIS NOW!

So where the F-ck Are You At?
Are you ready to claim your life, your orgasm, your abundance?

Or are you SETTLING?

As always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Never ask me to do this…

My mentor recently wrote about how if you ask her to give up her art then you will never know her heart, because without the art there is no heart.
 
I sat with this thought all day yesterday after reading her words ( which I will share in full shortly for you). I sat with it because as I read them, my heart gasp in enthusiasm of being understood FINALLY.
 
So often I find myself being asked to sacrifice my work,
my writing, my sharing with you for something else. For a relationship. For false stability.
 
I find my art getting smashed down and hidden under rugs and in corners because it is not perceived as IMPORTANT or it is “just my j-o-b.”
 
I find these same things that request I sacrifice my art, to also desire to become closer to me, to take up valuable space in my life, in my days and weeks. They want time and energy from me, they want my attention but they deny my art and the love I have for it.
 
As I read her words, I realized that out of all the things and people that have pushed my art to the side, that I was by far the worst. It is ONLY me who ever say’s yes or no to my art.
 
It is only me who ever set’s the boundaries around my time, my energy, my life….
 
My art.
 
And it is my doing that at points in life that I allow it to be stolen from me. Hidden and handicapped.
 
I want to share my heart.
I want to share my passion.
I want to reveal all that I know at my deepest core.
At my soul.
 
So why do I allow it to be ignored and put on the back burner?
For the same reason’s that you do!
 

FEAR.

 
Fear of loss of all those that take it’s place.
Fear of not being worthy.
Fear of being too much.
 
Yes that is why we hide from our art at times and allow the loss of it to form in my life until we feel like our lives are no more.
 
Until we can no longer breathe,
because our heart has been squished.
Has lost its life.
 
My art is not my j-o-b.
I do not have a j-o-b.
My message, my mission, my sharing and teaching.
My writing and speaking,
this is all my art.
 
My art comes from my heart.
It comes from that centered place deep withing my soul where I feel the divine speaking and calling out.
 
Using my hands,
my mouth,
my whole being….
 
for not my art.
but God’s Art.
 
If you ask me to choose between my art and you, I’ll choose my art
 
And if you think it’s not a big deal to speak to me or draw my attention in any way while I’m in that art, you break my heart
 
Soon enough then, there’ll be nothing left to give you anyway, because my art is my heart and only from my art beats my heart so if you break it –
 
And you continually show you don’t get that it’s always art first –
 
I have to remove myself or there will be no more art
 
And no more heart
 
For anyone” — Katrina Ruth
 
So why the f-ck ever choose ANYTHING other than your art?
 
That becomes the question.
There is NEVER a reason good enough if you look at it like this.
 

What is your art?

Choose it today.

Claim Your Life.

 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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Allowing Your ORGASM.

Orgasm.
I love a good orgasm.
I crave a good orgasm.
I need so desperately a good orgasm.

How about you?

Lately I have been challenged though with orgasm.
And I am noticing that it is increasingly becoming more and more difficult for me to drop down and open up to ORGASM.

I find myself with my lover,
attempting to open up,
attempting to receive,
attempting to lean more in to all that he is offering me.

I know that my pleasure increases his pleasure.
I know that it is not his responsibility to get me to orgasm.

The reality is that ONLY I can give myself an orgasm.
I do not say this as to say that only I can “rub one out.”
No I mean that only I can give myself an orgasm by allowing it to happen.

So why am I preventing myself from this pleasure?
Why am I limiting my experience?

Fear.
An Issue with Worthiness.
An Issue with Trust.
An Issue with Self- Love and thus love in itself and even toward my partner.

Here is the reality of why one does not open to ORGASM.

Instead I find myself,
laying there closed off in frustration.

I find myself craving more,
but not asking for what I need or want in the moment.

I find myself not speaking about it in general.
I find myself a prisoner in my mind during sex.
Disconnected from my body,
disconnected from my sex.

Instead of spreading my whole being more open,
Instead of saying, “Hey, I need this touch… or this position.. or this time…this kiss.” I say nothing and go into analyzation of the mechanics of what is happening, of what is wrong with me, of a technique or I just find myself drifting off into some other place that is non sexy in my mind and getting lost there until a nerve is teased and brings me back to my body for a second.

Pretty disappointing.
Especially because my partner is being present, loving, supportive, taking his time and really applying himself to my pleasure.

I see all of his greatness.
I just cannot feel it.

And this reality has NOTHING to do with him,
and everything to do with me.

So here I sit after a ton of good sexing,
with female blue balls. ( Yes that is a thing, us ladies get blue balls just like men. And we get bitchy as hell from it.)

I sit here after a bunch of good sexing,
frustrated, throbbing, achy, moody, disappointed in myself, tired and in fear.

Fear of sharing my truth.
Fear of what is going on with me inside my heart and mind.
I know my body is fine, my heart and mind though are struggling to open back up to love and connection and feel overwhelmed from all the stresses of life.
Fear of what my lover may think or feel if I share my truth.

With all of that shared, I KNOW the path I must take.
And if you are challenged with finding your ORGASM as well,
if you are experiencing a moment like what I am,
where you are having good sex,
with a good partner,
and you are enjoying the sex,
you just are NOT GETTING THERE.
You just DO NOT FEEL the release.
The CONNECTION.
The ORGASM.
But it is still good.

Then listen up!

Take it from someone who has been educating and coaching on SEX and ORGASM for the last decade and can be multi- orgasmic.

If you are feeling non-orgasmic and wonder will I ever get through this?

If you are questioning what is wrong with me?

You can get through it.
You can access your “O”
You can feel again.

The steps to pleasure are not about a better stroke.
Are not about deeper penetration.
Are not about more sex.

What you have to do is simple but not easy.

LET GO.
OPEN UP YOUR HEART.
GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD.

Stop focusing on the mechanics of sex.
Sex for us women is so very much more than mechanics.
We will NEVER access true orgasm if we are just focusing in on our genitals and the mechanics.

ORGASM is not about the “in and out”

It is about the CONNECTION.
First to self.
Then to partner.

It is a meditation.
It requires us to let go of our fears, our concerns,
our thoughts about everything else.

And JUST BECOME ONE
with our PUSSY.

As we open our hearts and soul in our sex,
we open our pussy’s ability to feel more,
to experience more.

This WILL REQUIRE our love of self,
and our understanding that we are WORTHY of pleasure and of LOVE.

We must support our ORGASM by asking for what we need.
By guiding in love our partners hands, mouths, cocks and attention.

We cannot just LAY THERE.
No.
If you craving ORGASM the way that I am, then you have to COMMIT to CLAIMING IT.

You have to ASK for IT.
DEMAND IT.

Therefore it is high time BABY,
that you speak up.
Show if you have too.
Try new things.
Get PLAYFUL.
OPEN YOURSELF.

Stop beating yourself up for not having an ORGASM.
For feeling like a shitting partner, because you cannot achieve what you and your partner both want for you,

but instead OPEN to it.

IT IS TIME YOU LOVE YOURSELF.
KNOW YOU ARE WORTH IT.

WORTH IT ALL!

No one else can do this for you.
No one else can get you to open up.
To receive.
To ORGASM.

And here is just one more reality ladies,
When you finally open to the “O” between your legs,
and it comes from your core, not the mechanics of sex.

You will be on the path to EMBRACING YOUR LIFE “O”
as well.

You will start to tap into ALL OF YOUR beautiful abundance.
You will STEP INTO YOUR POWER.

Your Goddess.
She awaits you.
She is you.

“The Goddess between my legs, makes mouths water.” – Rupi Kaur

May your rivers flow endlessly.

And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

Low Vibe Peeps – Goodbye.

Low Vibing Peeps.
You know who you are.
But what you may not know is that you are in charge of your VIBE.

I hate when I am low vibing,
And I must say I can be AMAZING at it
Cause when I low vibe
I go all the effing way to the bottom
Of my well.
I drown myself in that shit
Until I cannot breathe.
I bath in the muck
Until i feel destroyed
And have blown up my own world.

I really hate myself when I go there.
Yet life has taught me that we all go there,
It is part of our cycle.
No one can remain HIGH VIBE ALWAYS.
Because shit happens.
And shit piled on shit can most certainly send our vibe crashing.
Its moments of total overwhelm that can draw us down the low vibe rabbit hole. Its when fear sets in and convinces us that life is against us.
Its moments when we question our faith.
Question our hearts.
Question who we are
And discover we are lost.

This LOST feeling causes us to low vibe.
And once we set up camp…

OMFG!
Now we are f-cked.
And we have done it to ourselves.
In these challenging times of life we walk hand in hand with our self for filling prophecies.
We discover what our core beliefs
And expectations are.

Because what manifests in our world?
Exactly what we truly believe and expect.

And as our prophecies manifest before our very eyes we find ourselves embracing with a nod of certainty the evidence that we know at our core.

The evidence that
I am not good enough
Not lovable
Not worthy
Not pretty enough
Not smart enough
Not…
Not…
Not…

And our head lowers
And our heart sinks

Our frustration grows as we witness another negative event manifest in our lives.
We feel sorrow and pain.
We suffer and we cry.
We grow angry and point fingers.

All in a pursuit to understand
But still hiding from the REALITY that all our pain is ONLY caused because of our LOW VIBE.

VIBRATION.
It is the cause of all that we experience.

I hate it when I am low vibing.
But in the same I am grateful for it because it shows me where my work still resides.
It shows me my ego.
And it blesses me with the opportunity to LIFT MYSELF UP.

Because at the end of the day
No one is going to come to the bottom of my well and pick me up. Make me do anything. Or think successful thoughts. Or feel good.

No one can get me to love myself.
No one can help me know myself.
Or have the intimacy i need with self or God.

No.
No f-cking soul on this planet can save my ass but me.

So here is my question to you.
You knew at some point I was going to loop back to YOU.

Why are you expecting others to lift you up?
Why are you still acting in fear of loosing anything?
Why are you allowing yourself to low vibe?

You are effing looking to be correct.
You are wanting to prove your point.
You are wanting to wallow in your ego’s shit so you can play the victim yet again.

Thats why.
Well NEWS FLASH!!!

You can have all of that.
But without me.
Without any high vibe peeps.
Without the high vibe things you crave and claim you want.

Don’t f-cking lie to me or yourself anymore.
Just STOP.

STOP with the effing lip service.
Your vibe says it all.

You can’t have both.
You cannot low vibe and live a F-ck YES! Life.

So choose.
Just choose.
It truly is that simple.
Its just an effing decision.
But you have to want it more than what you have experienced thus far in life, more than what makes you feel comfortable.

We all low vibe here and there.
It is normal.

Setting up camp there and claiming you did not that, that my dears is denial of your truth.

It’s time to get REAL.
It’s time to decide.

I don’t f-cking care what way you go.
I KNOW MY PATH.
I KNOW MY DESIRES.
MY EXPECTATIONS.

I will NEVER low vibe for long periods.
But if thats what you truly want
Than God bless.

I wish you well.
I love you.
But I will not join you.

Claim your life beautiful one.
Claim your beauty.
Your light.
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living

Living Your Insanity.

Reality is THIS.

Look at your world.
Look at your experiences,
RIGHT NOW.

What are you living?
How are you feeling?
Who are you associating with?

Are you happy?
Are you thriving?

Or are you feeling
dull,
irritable,
depressed,
angry,
lost?

Reality is THIS.
What you think about you become.

What you consistently feed your mind,
your mind will feed your body and emotions,
and you WILL become it.

So what are you consuming TODAY?

In this moment.

If you claim you have no effing clue, then look no further than your life.

Your own back yard.
Whatever is showing up is what you are focusing in on in some fashion.

And by fashion I mean energetically.
You may not be conscious of your fears, your worries, your negativity,
but if that is what you are being shown in your life expereinces THEN GUESS WHAT?

That is exactly what you are focusing on.

That is where you are vibrating.

It really is not that difficult.
So many times we make life harder than what it was ever intended on being.

We try to hard.
It is not about the trying.

It is ALL about the DOING.

Just remember that ACTION is what makes things move.

You want more:
JOY
HAPPINESS
SEX
Better Relationship
MONEY
HEALTH

or whatever those desires are,
well all you need to do to get them is to focus on FEELING GOOD NOW!

And go do just that!!!

How is feeling bad,
being a victim to your life,
looking at what is always wrong with your life serving you anyway?

I mean have you ever REALLY asked yourself this?

You may say that you are a realist.
And reality is that life is shit right now.

Well woohoo! I am so happy that you have discovered that your life is shit right now.

Is focusing on the shit helping you move through it any quicker?

Is worrying on why the shit is there or if more is coming preventing you from having more shit show up?

Has being a realist and fixating on the shit EVER been the action that was required to get you to the life that you actually DESIRE?

Or is the truth that when you allow yourself to feel good,
to feel love,
to laugh,
to play,
to smile,
to enjoy,

when good shit happens?

I want you to really look at the actions or lack of actions that you are taking in your life today and see how they are supporting your desired life?

If you want to get real about something, get real about THIS.

Living a F*ck YES! Life is no harder than the food you feed your vibration.

STOP the INSANITY of focusing on the negative and expecting positive.

It WILL NEVER HAPPEN this way.

N-E-V-E-R

Take the actions that will carry you into abundance and joy.

By allowing yourself to get into the flow, you will never go hungry for anything again.

But the trick to any of this F*ck YES!! Lifestyle is ALLOWING yourself into the FLOW through YOUR OWN JOY.

Start there.
Or stop complaining.

And as always, 
Stop Existing & Start Living

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Don’t Get Pissed About Being Treated Like A Dog If Your Acting Liking A Puppy.

Don’t Get Pissed About Being Treated Like A Dog If Your Acting Liking A Puppy.
 
We all know people like this.
And in many cases we have all been puppy dogs at some point in our lives.
 
I know I sure have.
Years back, when I was in my teens and early 20’s I was for a sure a puppy dog in some instances.
I felt horribly insecure.
I felt like I was stupid and silly.
I felt like I was not worthy of anything in my life and that I NEEDED approval.
I NEEDED a pat on the head telling me that I was doing good.
That I was seen.
That I was loved.
 
I wanted the pat on my head so badly that I ran behind foot of my friends, my teachers and even my husband.
 
I recall him telling me how insecure I appeared.
He pointed out my pigeon toed stance.
He pointed out my slouching shoulders.
My inability to make let alone keep eye contact.
My fear to go out and be too social.
I clung to his arm like a lost little girl.
I feared being seen for who I was because I did not know who I was and I was scared that who I was was not good enough for this world.
Or for him.
I could not understand why he loved me.
Wanted to be with me.
And why he said he was not worthy of me.
 
This then.
This was a Kendal that was scared of her life.
Scared of her choices.
Scared of her own shadow.
 
Perhaps hard to believe.
But still true.
 
Even though I made my whole existence about my husband and family,
Even though I begged for approval,
begged for that pat on the head like a good puppy.
 
I was irritate when he treated me like a child.
When he scolded me.
When he fathered me.
When he would basically pat his knees and say, “Come here puppy. Aren’t you a sweet girl.”
 
Granted he never actually did this, but it was an energy that was passed between us.
It was him trying to reassure me that I was doing good,
asking for what he wanted, expecting to get it, without realizing guilting me in different ways, and treating me the way you would your pet.
 
I felt often like I was a trophy.
Not a human.
Not a woman.
Not his wife.
But an object.
 
The sick thing is that I asked for this treatment.
I encouraged it even.
 
It was the way I believed I could feel loved.
I was lost and uncertain.
I had no clue who I was and therefore I needed him to tell me who I was and to pat me on the back for being what he said.
 
I wanted to know I was doing good.
Making him happy in my efforts to be what he needed/wanted.
 
But I hated the belittling feeling that came with it.
I hated how I felt inside.
I hated not really being me.
But being something for someone else.
 
SO I bitched about being treated like this,
NEVER realizing until years later that I had done it all to myself.
 
Crazy huh?
 
The thing that I figured out about 10 years into this experience was that I always knew who I was.
 
I was just afraid to express myself.
I was just afraid that if I allowed myself to be seen that I would scare off people in my life that I currently had and I did not want to loose.
So instead of being me,
I hid me from the world and myself,
until I could no longer cope with the pain.
 
My physical body decided one day that I was going to STOP the insanity of hiding from myself or I would be in physical pain.
 
I developed Chrones.
 
Let me tell you, Chrones is not a fun dis-ease.
I spent a few years in horrible pain,
struggling to figure out how to naturally heal myself,
struggling to gain my stamina back for life,
I lived a fatigued existence,
where I started to question if I wanted to go on.
Thank goodness for my babies.
They have always been my reason for everything.
My joy.
But the pain of living with Chrones,
the uncertainty of what it would lead too.
The unstableness of my body EVERYDAY.
I felt like a prisoner in my own flesh.
 
I tried everything to heal myself.
And at the end of it all, I sat there hopeless.
Here I was in my early thirties.
Mom of five.
The prime of my life.
And I was feeling dead.
 
Lost.
Dead.
Hopeless.
Sick.
 
I felt ugly in every sense of the word.
 
But here, here is where God came in.
I knew there was something I was missing.
And one day I ended up at a church event,
it was a book release for a female author that my church was hosting. I went to the talk and listened to this woman share her story.
 
She shared her drama of finding herself.
She shared her trials and tribulations.
She shared that she realized that after the blessing of motherhood that God was offering her the most prize of all possessions.
The most joyous experience of anything.
 
And that was the birthing of herself.
 
This was what I was needing to hear.
Needing to accept.
 
This pain that I was feeling.
This struggle that I was in with my body.
With my mind, my heart, my soul.
 
It was JUST THIS.
 
I was BIRTHING MYSELF.
 
My soul was COMMANDING ME to stop being a puppy dog to others and to start being my own WOMAN.
 
My soul wanted me to CLAIM MY LIFE.
Wanted me to STOP trying to always please others,
stop looking for approval,
but instead give myself approval.
 
The more I stepped into my
POWER,
my STRENGTH,
my TRUTH,
and just allowed myself to be revealed no matter what that meant. No matter if that meant I was going to loose people in my life or not, the quicker my body healed.
The more I embraced myself, the more my SOUL acknowledged me by healing my physical body.
 
Such gratitude I hold for the woman who spoke that day at that event.
 
She made me aware of the bitch I was being.
She made me aware that my neediness was killing me.
She made me aware that I was better than what I had accepted for myself.
And she made me aware that the pain I was experiencing was an opportunity to connect,
to myself.
to God.
To my truth.
 
It was a birthing process.
 
So throw yourself a bone today.
Look at your life,
and see where you may be guilty of being a puppy dog.
Look and see how you are holding yourself back by begging like a hungry dog,
and instead of begging,
FEED YOURSELF.
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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