Too busy livin’ to give a shiz!
And that’s the way it is supposed to be.
When the rest of this world is caught up in competing with the Jones.
When everyone around is pointing fingers in judgement and lookin’ with a critical eye.
You will find me laughing.
Doing what feels best to my soul.
Connecting with the wild ones like myself.
When you look at me and compare your life,
Compare your relationship and your sex,
When you wonder how I live out loud and keep smiling.
When you convince yourself that I must have chosen the rougher path
Or that I am crazy.
Or somehow not happy.
That I am faking it.
You will find me making love on the golf course under the stars.
Drinking fine wine in a meadow watching fireflies light up the woods.
You will see me speaking my mind with out care,
Writing my life story,
The way that I want it.
Not the way that you or anyone else believes it should be.
No my sweet critic,
I once was you and I know the sadness that this need to judge, to compare, to try and control another or worse to try and control my own soul brought me.
I feel you.
I get you.
This virgo knows how empty you most likely feel,
And how the critical ideas of knowing more or a better makes you feel fulfilled.
Feel like a person who cares.
Who wants a better world.
I also know the expanding darkness of not seeing your own light by hiding from your truth that this way of existing brings.
You are hiding luv.
You are avoiding your truth
Full of worry, wounds, and frustration.
This is the life you are choosing.
And all because you fear living.
You fear BEING YOU.
So you turn to me and you point your fingers in disgust.
You want to tell me how I should live.
Oh but honey,
I am too busy livin’ to give a shiz!
Too busy livin’,
Creating my moments,
Dancing into the masterpiece of my life and rolling in the wet paint to care what you think.
I may be messy.
I may have chaos.
I may show my feelings,
My highs and lows without remorse.
I may not be your version of perfect.
But there is something I have that you want.
I have my connection to SOUL.
I am livin’ my life.
In full expression.
And my advice to you baby,
Is to put down your judgements,
Your bitterness and your criticism.
Stop competing and comparing.
It only shows your seperation from self.
Step into love.
Step into compassion.
And give yourself permission to be YOU.
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”
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Here I sit working with clients today, the day after a yummy relaxing Christmas, where I find myself in total gratitude.
I sit here doing some marketing,
following up with my 1:1 clients,
signing a couple new 1:1 clients and getting them started with the onborading process,
when some misunderstanding soul,
reaches out and asks:
“So what do I get for the $197 that you are offering in your 12 Days of F-cking Awesomeness Bundle?”
Now you have to understand that we online coaches/marketers and educators welcome with open arms inquiry of all kinds,
and we love making sure that our followers are happy and getting exactly what they think they are.
Matter a fact today’s online world is ALL about giving away more in value then expected.
The smart online educators, coaches know the impact that they can have and offer up a massive amount of free or low cost education and content and are feeding their followers daily.
We aim to share massive value in our online courses and workshops. We want you expanding, learning, and being the best versions of yourselves and get that not everyone can afford our private rates.
So when asked the question above,
of course I shared that this was a massive savings.
I mean shiz, you are getting up to $1800 of value and then some, because the same content in private would cost you ten’s of thousands of dollars in coaching hours.
But RIGHT NOW you save even more and get it for ONLY $197.
It’s a no f-cking duh sorta thing!!!
Litterly you could take the next year to work through your chosen bundle and come out the other side with some massive shift in your:
and life in general.
But this sweet confused soul thought that I was offering up my private coaching for $197.
I would go broke and be homeless and a really shitty coach to boot for under valuing myself so much if I did that.
The reality of my private coaching practice is that I fall in love with my peep’s.
I get real, raw and authentically down to the core with them.
Knowing them at levels that they may have never been seen at before and teaching just how amazing they really are.
My clients become my friends,
I give to them random moments on any given day to lean on me.
We text constantly.
We talk on the phone through beautiful and tradgic moments.
share and are deeply intimate in our vulnerabilty.
And although I wish I could offer this sort of relationship for such a price of $197 or even free,
it is honestly priceless and those who work with me I am confident would second my statement here.
A coach who does not chage what they are worth,
simply does not value themselves and has not stepped into their power or self- love yet.
A coach who does not know the power of their words,
their stories and gudiance,
and offers it for free or for some rediculous price because they feel that servitude should mean being a broke a*s who is struggling instead of thriving,
simply does not believe in the value of coaching.
Or the value of who they are and what they have to offer.
They themselves don’t get it and most likely don’t have a real mentor or coach in their lives pushing them up.
And I don’t know about you but,
but who would you follow?
The person selling you snake oil because they themselves don’t get it and don’t value it.
The person who leads by example,
has evidence of it and
is not afraid to value themselves.
Their education and experiences.
And demands that in order for you to work with them that the first step is to do the value yourself enough to INVEST.
We all need to start somewhere when we decide that we want to work on ourselves.
We have to choose where we can start.
And aultimatley it does not matter where you start.
What matters is:
1) you start somewhere
2) you value yourself enough to invest in YOU
3) you are coachable
Everything else will follow.
My question for you today is simple.
Do you value YOU?
If you are in business for yourself are you charging what you are worth? Or are you scared of your value?
If you are wanting change in your life in any area do you value that area of your life enough to say YES to the change?
And the helping hand that you most likely will have to hire in some format to guide you to your desired outcome.
You are worth the life that you want.
You are valuable in this world and to the people you share your message with and yourlife with.
Never undervalue the work that you do.
The art that you make.
The message that you share.
Or the changes that you need tomake to have the life that you want.
When we under value anothers help,
we thus under value ourselves too.
And KNOW You Are VALUABLE.
I love you.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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He asked if I would get on birth control for him.
We were really clicking.
OMFG! it was hot and I wanted him so badly.
I wanted to move forward and I wanted to explore the sex.
But I did not want any more children.
I had five children already and I was not interested in having any more at this point,
especially not risking it this early in the game of a new relationship.
Plus, even though something inside of me truly trusted that this man was clean,
I knew that you just never know,
and disease is a serious thing.
Weeks went by and the desire for each other grew as the days passed. Finally I decided that I trusted him enough to go bare with him in sex and that I “should” just make sure that no babies came from this,
so I went and got myself on the pill.
I had not been on birth control for the last 5 plus years, my system was clear of anything of the sort and I was feeling good. I felt emotionally stable after having one of the lowest points in my life in a deep dive into depression prior to getting off of birth control. My body was strong and I felt great in my skin. My health was awesome.
What could go wrong?
I wanted this man.
I wanted this sex,
The intimacy of bare sex.
And so why not make sure to guard us against the one thing that I knew we did not want.
I got on the pill.
Everything seemed normal enough for a few months.
No big red flags waving.
My moods were normal, nothing too rocky.
No weight gain or fatigue.
But then I crossed over the 90 day mark.
Then I felt weepy.
Depression was setting in again.
Weight started to slowly come on,
just a few poundss but I noticed it.
And my desire for sex,
the reason I had decided to start taking birth control again anyway,
yeah the desire for it was dwindling.
I was feeling each day more lost in who I was.
I felt the mask I had worked so hard at letting go of,
being picked back up again.
Now instead of laughing authentically and enjoying my life,
I found myself working ever so hard just to maintain composture and not get mad or cry for no reason.
My emotions were out of control.
I felt like I had time lapsed back a decade and I could not figure out what was happening or why.
Never did I think it was the birth control.
Months went by.
My sex dried up.
I was no longer the woman that he met,
and I also found myself to not be attracted to him any longer.
It was like we were completely different people,
and I for one was for sure.
The once beautiful possibility of a lovely relationship came to an end and I found myself bouncing around with a few other quick flings,
searching for the woman that I had lost somewhere along the line and wondereing why I was attracting these men that I really did not care for but seemed drawn too.
then I stoped taking the birth control.
I committed to my health and well being and I decided that if I were involved with someone sexually that I could just use a condom and not rely on this hormone imbalancer.
Not long there after I went in for my pap-smear and was told of cells on my cervix that were irregular.
The doctor let me know her concern of what this could mean.
I did some deep detoxing and investigating on what I could do to naturally irradicate these irregular cells.
I discovered that there was ton’s of studies done on birth control and the links to different types of cancer and cell mutation.
In my research I found out that it took up to 2-years to clear your system of birth control. To my plesent surprise I I was blessed with a clean bill of health again after crossing over the two year mark from taking the pill.
PLUS, guess who was back in her own flesh.
Emotionally stable again.
And turned on,
plus able to have good orgasms again.
Yes! I was back.
And for the first time in my adult years I had fully digested the connection between how delicate my hormones were and how easily they could be set off,
causing massive issues from depression and lack of desire, to actual cancer.
PLUS, I discovered the science showing how birth control can and does change who we are attacked too. Explaining why so often we find ourselves with someone that we typically would not be attracted too without the extra hormones in our system.
And my question came,
“Why would a man who loves a woman ever desire to put her into this situation just so he did not have to wear a condom?”
“Why woudl a woman take this sort of risk with her health?”
“Why would we willingly put something in our bodies that could change who we are attacted too and expect it not to make that big of a difference in our relationship success?”
“Why is this never spoken of? Not made public knowledge when the facts are out there and not that hard to discover?”
The answer is simple,
We just don’t know.
We have not been informed.
And we have been focused on population not on health.
An educated person will gaurd against having unwanted children and at the same time will want what is best for their own health and well being as well as their partners, as well as wanting to be attracted to people that are a match for them verses the opposite.
But the education is not there.
And the desiree to inquire,
to seek out the truth is spoken of often but hardly ever followed.
Today I ask you to STOP the insanity of living blind in your sex and relationships and to actually inquire, witness and do your work or learning yourself, and knowing what is good for you as well as those you merge with.
This is maturity.
As Always Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers’
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It’s not your NORM.
But it feels like it is.
It may be common,
it may be abundant in your life,
But I swear to you…
It’s not your NORM.
And what am I referring too?
I am referring to that feeling of anger.
That feeling of fear.
That feeling of judgment, bitterness, shame, guilt,
Or even questioning.
Your worry is not normal.
Your suffering is not normal.
No matter how prevalent it may seem,
It’s still is not your NORM.
I tell you this with certainly,
That when you feel out of sorts,
when you are caught in negative emotion,
When you feel rageful, vengeful and vindictive.
This is not normal.
This is not who you are.
You sit in such comfort with your chronic ideas of what just is. Accepting life for how you have been told to view it. You watch your life drift by never fully engaging with ALL that you are.
Always searching for happiness,
But only ever gaining small morsels of it at best.
Believing that the drama is normal.
That its just how life is.
But you KNOW at your core its not true.
You know because you are looking for who you are always. You feel the seperation from your truth.
From your SOUL.
There is this strange calling inside of you.
A feeling of something more.
A sensation of your greatness.
But you are trapped under the misery that feels like the reality you must live.
It’s not your NORM.
Your norm is that of love.
Of feeling good.
Now that may sound a bit 60’s flowers child for you.
A little too new age even.
But its the actual truth of who you are and what your state of normal is to be and always is at your SOUL level.
The discord you feel is simply because you are not looking at any given situation through the eyes of God or SOUL. You are viewing it from the disadvantage point of forgetfulness of who YOU ARE.
You have turned your back and closed your eyes to love and THIS is what is causing your worry, fear and suffering.
But there is blessing in your pain
The blessing is the lesson of learning what you do mot want from life and the building of desire for what you do want.
All you need do to embrace the life you want so badly for is to STOP ACCEPTING this ill state of feeling.
Stop allowing yourself to fall prey to what you have always perceived as normal and instead see it for the blessing that it is.
There to reveal to you that you are out of alignment with SOUL.
That you are buying into a faulse reality instead of what is true and you are putting value on things that do not matter nearly as much as you believe.
Soul is not upset about that car cutting you off on the highway.
Soul is not upset that your child drew on the wall.
Soul is not upset that your spouse is not acting the way you want or think you need.
Soul is not upset that the government is doing what it is doing or that your friends said the things they said.
Soul knows that all happens for a reason.
That each event in life is stepping you closer to what you want and that the ONLY thing holding you back is this crazy concept of what you call normal.
Are you ready to embrace the truth?
Are you ready to finally say YES TO SOUL?
Then take the step needed.
The only step ever needed and let go of upur suffering.
Your worry and fear.
Your regrets and your shame.
Let go of your needing someone or something to be different then what it is.
Let go of your you negative vibe.
And JUST LET YOUR HEART BE FELT.
Your soul lead.
You know who you are.
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers “`