Today Give Yourself Permission to Fall In Love.

Giving myself permission to fall in love while in isolation.

Such a beautiful opportunity to come back to self.

To come back to what matters most in this life

and to fully embrace all that I have not yet allowed to manifest.

Can you do the same?

Imagine a world that took this time of solitude,

this time of silence,

this time of moving slower and not rushing here and there,

as an opportunity to fall in love.

To fall in love with SELF first.

To fall in love with all your own little quirks and those things you find fault in.

To fall in love with the things that you find challenging.

To fall in love with your DESIRES.

To fall in love with your hopes and your dreams.

Imagine if you sat with all the things that you think about and made a plan as to what steps you needed to take to open the doorway to you creating the life that you want.

Imagine if you did not JUST THINK about the steps but actually took action on all the ones that you could RIGHT NOW.

Imagine if you looked at the person that you “wish” you could be and that you know that you must become in order to have this life you desire and started to implement just three to five things into your daily practice that would support you fully stepping into this person who calls in those dreams and desires with ease.

Imagine if you took this time to reconnect to YOU.

To step away from the habits that you use to buffer yourself from feeling your truth.

Imagine if you looked past the things that you use to not feel and instead give yourself permission to feel your emotions, all of them.

Imagine if you allowed yourself to do some deep dive inquiry work with yourself to learn who you are right now and what your interests are without the expectations, needs or desires of others.

Imagine if you took some time today and each day to appreciate your body for supporting you the way that it does.

Imagine if you took time each day to connect to the people that you claim matter most to you.

Imagine if you slowed down even more,

and took time without any noise to really appreciate the sky.

The tree’s. The breeze. The sunshine. Nature.

Imagine if you took this time to learn something new.

Imagine if you took this moment that God is offering you and instead of focusing on the fear that the world is stuck in,

YOU…

YES YOU…

Realize your power.

Imagine what your life today could be like.

What your tomorrow would feel and look like.

Imagine with me now, a world of individuals doing just this.

Participating in a mass healing of consciousness.

A mass healing of embodiment.

A mass healing of self-love and appreciation.

A mass healing of community.

Because a better you,

is a better us,

is a better world.

But in order for this to be a real thing,

we each must do our part.

We must stop giving it only lip service and instead take action.

We must move forward with clarity in self.

This is how we turn the chaos into beauty.

Into peace.

But you must do your part, love.

You must know your worth,

know your value to today and to this world.

Knowing that in your actions,

your thoughts,

your embodiment,

you let your light be shown,

and with each light that ignites the darkness will be replaced with radiance.

We are a chosen people.

We are a people blessed by the hands of the creator.

We are a people that walk in the footsteps of greatness.

And how we progress forward is based on the choices that we each make.

SO if you think you have no power or say in the days and events to come,

THINK AGAIN.

You are the power.

You are the choice.

So live today in Self-Love and Awareness.

Dare to do something unique.

Dare to embody the self.

And As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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A Letter To My Mr. Forever.

A Letter To My Mr. Forever:
 
I already know who you are,
you have come to me in a dream long ago.
I have sampled our life together,
through relationships of the past.
 
I have felt your soft touch upon my skin,
the tickle of your finger tips as they profess their love,
I have felt your breath against my flesh,
breathing in the moments together.
 
I have felt your force,
your strength and determination,
your passion and hunger.
As you devour me with life itself.
 
I have watched you my love,
your heart expanding,
your kindness, compassion and fiercness.
I have laughed and danced with you.
Loving each twirl that you lead.
 
I have embraced the moments of powerful emotion,
sitting in your lap,
our hearts beating as one,
eye’s gazing into forever,
tears steaming from our blended joy.
 
I have felt you penetrate me,
holding me deep commanding my surrender to your presence.
I have witnessed the magic,
and felt it move through my veins in our loving of our flesh,
the loving that trandscends,
both time and space.
 
I have heard you sing to me,
eternal love songs,
smiling with your ocean eye’s,
and letting me know that I am your queen.
 
I have shuddered from your touch,
and pushed myself past boundaries I never knew existed.
I have explored raptures that only few will ever know.
 
I have witnessed the depth of your soul,
and felt the elation of my own,
united with yours.
Becoming one.
 
I have been blessed to feel the presence of heaven and of God,
in our union.
The scent of fresh roses wafting about the room,
as if manifest from thin air.
I have felt the magnitude of your love.
 
I see the man that you are,
and because I see you so clearly,
and feel you so deep,
I know the woman that you demand me to become.
 
And I am not yet your woman,
I am not yet the one for you.
I hold you close and yet at arms length,
because I know.
I know who I must become,
not for you my love,
but for myself.
 
You demand of me to become ALL of me.
You call me from the future,
reminding me of the woman that I truly am.
You lead me now,
in the moments that my heart awakens,
that my body explores,
you guide me with your patience,
and smile from afar.
 
I see you watching me.
Yours eye’s following my moves.
I see your pleasure in your witnessing of my birth,
waiting.
Waiting for me to relaize.
 
And this my love,
shows the man that you are.
 
You will never cave or be something that you are not.
You will never step out of your superiour masculine energy to beg me, or taunt me, or lead me to believe it is our time yet,
when it is not.
You get the value of trust and what it takes to have it truly with another.
You are not fearful of your desires,
you embrace them as you will one day embrace me.
You penetrate this world with purpose, passion, play and confidence,
and you wait to take my heart, body and soul in the same measure.
 
I can feel you here and now.
Your presence grows closer by the day,
and I foretaste of your love in my current.
I am in gratitude for the man that awaits me,
the man that holds me,
the man that guides from time and space.
 
I am coming.
 
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This musing goes out to all the ladies in waiting,
whether you be single or coupled in current,
if you are lacking or looking,
if you cannot find “the one” and wonder,
where is that man of my dreams?
If you are with a love, but it s not true,
you feel lost still to your core,
and you have tasted of the love that you desire,
this musing is for you.
 
Love my beautiful,
is for the expanding not the shutting down.
Love is for the healing and the recognizing,
not the wounding and the masking,
Love elevates not deflates.
Love holds your truth,
and smiles as you discover it.
 
Love does not fear loosing,
because it knows it has everything you need.
Love watches your dance,
embraces your play and your fear,
Love knows who you are,
and guides you just to that.
 
Love does not control.
Love does not run.
Love does not waiver.
 
And this my beautiful,
is who is calling you from the future.
This is your Mr. Forever.
 
But first my dear,
you must recognize,
the Queen that YOU ARE.
 
To unit with this sort of love,
the demand is for you to receive YOURSELF,
in all your emotion,
all your joy,
all your fear,
all your beauty,
seen and unseen.
You MUST be ready my beautiful,
to become the match for this man.
 
Go.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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What Being On A Wild Goose Chase Is Really About.

 

Running around like a chicken with its head cut off?

Feeling like you are always on a wild goose chase?
Always looking.
Always searching.
Never finding.

So very lost in this new life you are trying to carve out for yourself.
Uncertain exactly where your path is or if you are on the right one.

So much is changing and yet nothing that you want is manifesting.

Doubt.
Fear.
Anxiety.

You have been working so hard to keep your head down and get the shiz done that you know needs done. You have been pushing through those limiting beliefs and surpressing boundaries,
And what do you have to show for it?

Just whole lot of effed up emotions.
A big mess of newness that you haven’t the foggiest where to start the clean up with.
A feeling of will this ever get easier?
Will I ever feel happy or healed?
Will I ever have the life I want?

Is any of this struggle getting me any where?
Or am I just on a wild goose chase?

Cuz it sure as “F” is not showing up!
And I am exhausted.

Yeah baby,
I get ya.

I understand and have been here so many times on this journey.

But what I know today that I did not know before is worth it all.

What I know now is that I am the damn goose.

Go ahead scratch your head in bewilderment of WTF is that chick talking about?

Shes the goose.

If she’s the goose then she is claiming I am the goose in my own wild goose chase.

And that just can’t be.
How can I be the goose?

I am the hunter.
I am the one searching.
Craving.
I am hungry for the life that I want.

Its sure AF not chasing me.
I am chasing it.

I am chasing my dreams.
Just like all the great goal setters have said to do.
I set forth my dream boat,
And now I am in pursuit of my dreams.

I am just getting tired.
Thats all.
I will catch my hundredth wind.
I will.
I always do.
And when I do,
I will continue to pursue.

I sit every day and think about how great it will be when I have my dreams.

When I have my dream relationship.
My dream income.
My dream home.
My dream body.

Yes WHEN….
I can’t wait.

Its going to effing awesome.

I just gotta do the work.
I gotta have the patience.
I gotta just wait.
My dreams are coming.
I have most certainly paid the price for them.

So you see,
I am not the goose.

Oh but you are!

I use to think and feel just like you.
I was waiting for my dreams.
I was building my story
I was willing to wait.
Willing to pursue.
I was searching.

And then one day it was like the heavens opened and God spoke…

“You are the goose you are chasing.”

And I suddenly got it.
I was the goose.
Because I was chasing the void of my dreams not being here.
I was 1000% certain that I had to wait.
That I had to pay some price.
That I was not happy.

I was certain that I had to chase my dreams.
And so….
The universe gave me just that.

I manifested EXACTLY what I was certain about.
Day in and day out.
Where I consistently put my focus,
Is what I consistently recieved.

And I wondered why?
Why was I always on this wild goose chase?

Yet I was just chasing the goose that I had created.
So on this blessed day that God spoke to me about my goose I decided that I would do one simple thing….

STOP CHASING.

And so I did.
And now my dreams are not dreams I am chasing,
But instead realities I am living.

What are you chasing love?

As Always Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers “

Let Your Metamorphosis Happen.

Are you scared of the permancy?
I know that I sure am in area’s of my life.
Let’s look at this topic of permancy.
You may be most familiar with it in the area’s of death and marriage.
 
Both seem so certain not to change.
One we enter into with the hope that it is a guarantee,
a commitment.
The other we fear happening because we “know” it is a guarantee.
 
And both feel like an ending point to most.
But many also feel like both or at least one is also a gateway to something new.
 
In truth,
both are gateways to something new.
A new existance.
Something that we cannot understand,
that we are uncertain about.
 
Both require faith.
Both require us to let go of our ego’s and to lean into the unknown.
 
And another reality is that we have permancy happening all around us,
all the time.
 
We also have this thing called death all around us, all the time.
 
We have many little deaths occure throughout our life times,
and they are requirements in order for us to expand and grow.
In order for us to become authentically US,
and stand in our power,
we MUST expereince lot’s of little deaths throughout our lifetime.
 
Your power is birthed in the running toward these deaths and the acceptance of them.
 
Instead of fearing the transition points of our life,
open yourself to them.
Allow yourself to get caught up in the current of them and enjoy the process of them.
Though some may be painful,
realize that the pain and the suffering that you are expereincing is not of the soul or even the heart.
It is of the ego and the constraights based in a concept of fear and control that is causing you the pain and suffering.
 
The SOUL knows your path.
The SOUL knows your truth.
The SOUL has no doubt.
The SOUL is not in pain.
 
But when we expereince pain and suffering,
when we fear the unknown,
when we fear the transition points and get caught up on the idea of permancy and it being some end point,
we are buying into the mirages of our ego.
 
This life you are living is far more than blood pumping through your veins,
or your lungs taking in oxygene,
or the thoughts that you say your brain or mind create.
It is far more than these limbs that you use,
or this body that you expereince.
This life,
is God moving through you.
And the permancy of this life is just that.
 
MOVEMENT.
CHANGE.
BIRTH.
BIRTH.
and more BIRTHING.
 
This process is of you brithing yourself,
you experiencing YOU,
experiencing your divine being at multiple levels of awakening.
And with each awakening you must let go of the old paradigm’s of self and understanding and you must allow for what you once percieved as YOU,
to become a carcass to be disposed of.
 
What you perceive as YOU,
is not really YOU.
 
YOU ARE MORE.
 
So much more.
And when you lean into this awareness of how bountiful and big you really are,
the fear of death is no more.
 
Instead you see it for it’s truth.
It is a birthing of your SOUL.
 
We expereince death in our relationships,
in our ways of being, relating, thinking, judging.
We expereince death of our goals, dreams, desires and beliefs.
We expereince death in actual physical states with loved ones and self.
 
And often we get caught up on these deaths.
We linger in the morning of them.
We weap and agonize ourselves about what has been lost.
We get trapped in our remorse,
in not speaking what we had wanted,
in not getting closure like we wanted.
We torment ourselves with death and its permancy of things not being the same any more.
 
We desiree to control what is not for us to control,
but instead for us to breathe into and feel life in.
This corridor of death,
is just that,
a transtioning space.
A door.
A gate.
 
Each transition point brings with it an exposure to newness,
to deeper understanding and expansion.
 
If we choose to view death as though it is birth,
the sadness is limited and potentially no more.
Not saying that one will not expereince morning,
as anytime we go through transition,
we mourn.
Mourning is natural and healthy.
But know that if you find yourself getting caught in the mourning,
that this is not of SOUL.
It is your ego at work.
Holding you in an old paradigm,
an old frequency,
and not allowing you to metamorphosis.
 
This is where the work then lyes.
To go deep into self and discover where you can unhinge your cages of the old and set yourself free.
 
You cannot avoid death.
You cannot avoid all the mini deaths within this human expereince that you will have,
they are hear to set you free and bring you closer to your soul aligned path.
 
But what you can do,
is stop allowing yourelf to just fade through this life.
You can realize that life is a choice.
Just because you are breathing,
with blood pumping through your veins and thoughts bouncing through your mind,
DOES NOT MEAN YOU ARE LIVING.
 
Living is a choice and with that living comes the movement and gateways of death.
 
And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Commitment to Your Nightmare or Your Dream?

There are moments in our lives that we just KNOW without a doubt that its TIME.
 
It’s time to shut up and CHOOSE instead to SHOW up.
It’s time to STOP putting in empty action but instead CALL from within our truth,
our deisre, our KNOWING.
 
Yes these are the times that we encounter repeatedly in our lives in so many areas.
 
However, only a small chosen few actually realize these moments. The rest choose to ignore what their inner knowing has to say and completely disregard the urges from SOUL.
 
Thus, leading them down a bleak and dim life path filled with anxiety, fear, doubt, shame and discord. They turn and avoid the images of their dreams,
they make light and joke about the horrors that they are facing,
they gossip and get caught up in immaturities,
they finger point and focus on what is wrong.
And they do it because they are afraid.
Afraid to say YES…
 
Yes to SOUL.
 
Instead choosing to beleive the bogus tales of keeping themselves so busy that they have no time to expand,
to grow, to enjoy the life that is offered them,
and they beleive that by remaining so busy that they will lessen the pain of not having the life that they desire.
When in truth what they are accomplishing is the very creation of more pain.
Vaster seperations.
Deeper versions of bondage.
And they are sacrificing themselves,
their dreams,
their SOULS to Average and Ordinary.
 
They are committing to NOT HAVING.
And they are committing with all the best intentions and ideas.
The self emposed limitations that they have been raised to be their truth,
hold them in captivity from everything.
They believe that life is unsafe and non-supportive to what their hearts desire might be.
They fall prey to the beliefs of their parents,
thier grandparents and society,
both church and state.
Picking up the shakles and locking them on themselves,
in the effort to do what is right.
To be responsible.
Mature.
A good citizen.
A good parent, friend, partner, daughter, brother, etc.
They establish the boundaries that have always been there,
committing to this old paradime,
and closing their eye’s to all other possibilities.
 
KNOWING what they know,
believing what they know.
They look to the future as something outside of themselves,
they look at thier dreams with a light huff,
a tad bit of hope,
and a deep knowing that it won’t happen,
at least not NOW.
 
In this they are committing to never having.
Because SOMEDAY never comes.
and the reson they want what they want is to make themselves happier, feel more complete,
feel free, connected, joy, satisfied.
 
The commitment is intense.
The belief of what IS is powerful.
And the creation of their nightmares is real.
 
But here it is beautiful,
YOU are in charge.
You get to commit to what you want,
if you will only choose to focus your energy and your actions on what your SOUL is leaading you too,
instead of what your fear is dictating to you,
you will realize quickly that you are POWERFUL.
 
Because You Are!
So I ask you today beautiful….
Are you committed to your dream or your nightmare?
 
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time for you to say yes to who you really are beautiful. It s time for you to commit to who you are,
to your soul and say YES.
 
Let’s work together 1:1 to bring you into the next decade of your life, the next year of your life fully embodied and activated.
 
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Exhaustion is a CHOICE.

YOU WORK FOR YOURSELF SO YOU HAVE ALL THE TIME THAT YOU NEED.
 
 
And other statements that show that you have no comprehension of life or the power of manifesting.
 
My entire life I have dealt with people telling me something.
Assuming something.
And thinking that they have it worse or better than I do.
 
The reality is that no matter where you are at in life,
there will ALWAYS be someone in worse shoes,
and someone in better shoes,
than yours.
 
You cannot go through life concerned about other people’s shoes.
 
Or choices.
Or time.
 
But to look at another person’s situation and use it to show WHY YOU CANNOT do what you need is crazy AF!
 
Yet this is a common occurrence.
 
Every week I work with people who come and sit down with me for coaching,
they tell me their tough stories on how they got to where they are at,
they paint pictures of suffering, fear and anxiety.
They paint pictures of how hard life is.
And how much they hope for.
They tell me their grand faith and love they have,
about their desires and dreams.
They affirm a strong commitment.
 
And then….
 
They say,
“Yeah, but how long is this going to take?”
 
“You just don’t understand, I have kids and a corporate job. I don’t have the time or the energy. I am exhausted.”
 
And they say this as though they should get some medal for living an exhausting life.
 
They believe that this is just how success is.
How life is.
and what is to be expected.
They also assume that the anxiety, depression, frustration and constriction…
 
the sacrificing of their dreams and selves is what a smart, responsible person should do.
 
NOTHING could be farther from the truth though.
 
This way of thinking and feeling holds you in a scarcity mindset and thus keeps you living a life of poverty. You may have money, but if you are exhausted and empty you are actually POOR AF.
 
As Brene Brown would say,
“It takes courage to say yes to rest and play in a culture where exhaustion is seen as a status symbol.”
 
And exhaustion leads you to anxiety.
It leads you to depression and hopelessness.
 
Exhaustion creates a massive void in who you are.
 
It is no status symbol,
it is a premature death sentence,
and you don’t have to be 6 feet under to be dead baby.
 
What you get is an UNLIVED LIFE.
 
Just think about that one for a second if you have the mental focus to do such after this long ass day.
 
Are you among the norm out there of this world?
 
Like most people who have two lives…
 
The one you are living and the one you keep denying?
 
The Unlived Life.
 
The reality is babe…
 
YOU GET TO CHOOSE.
 
The reason I have the energy and vitality for the life that I am creating is simply because I have chosen to LIVE not just get by and exist.
 
I have had years,
even a decade or two that I chose otherwise and that shiz almost killed me.
 
My SOUL was like WTF! We are outta here if you keep this shiz up girl.
 
And I had to CHOOSE LIFE.
Or say goodbye.
 
Sure I work for myself,
I make my own schedule,
I decide my value in my fee’s.
I have no thumb on me.
I have freedom and flexibility.
TIME.
 
And with all of that comes responsibility.
Dedication.
Commitment.
Desire.
 
I choose to focus on what I want to create and therefore it gets created.
 
A long time ago I said that I wanted to be a full time mommy.
That I did not want my children to have to go to daycare and be raised by someone else.
 
I also said that I wanted to provide home cooked meals for my children 80-90% of the time.
 
I also said that I valued dating my children, all 7 of them.
Spending 1:1 time with them.
I also said that I wanted to take them on experiences,
to adventure together, to laugh, read, play…
 
And that I wanted this frequently.
 
Now on the other side of things I said that I wanted to make a multi-six figure income.
That I wanted to build an empire.
I wanted to teach masses of people.
I wanted to work with the 1%.
 
I said that I wanted to look good and feel great as I age.
I said that I wanted to be healthy.
That I wanted to travel – A LOT.
 
I said that I wanted all of it and desired for more.
Knowing that my desires would grow as I created more and more of the life that I wanted.
 
I share this with you to make the point that I get busy.
Busy life.
Ton’s happening.
Chaos.
Drama.
It’s all part of the picture.
And being center hub for a bunch of people can be EXHAUSTING…
 
LOL.
 
The thing is that any of us can have a truly amazing, fulling life if we DECIDE to actually commit to LIVING.
 
This means to put the focus not on always working,
not making all those bills and creditors,
your boss or employee’s,
your clients,
the football game or candy crush,
more important than your Mother-effing Life!
 
Because that is just being average and ordinary.
And you are NOT THAT LUV!
 
You are EXTRAORDINARY.
 
So Own It!
 
And Live accordingly.
 
Are you living in alignment to WHO YOU REALLY ARE?
Or are you settling for something less than…
 
Be Real…
 
And Remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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STOP EFFING AROUND WITH THAT THING THAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK! – LET GO NOW.

I know how much you want it.
That THING…
 
That THING that you crave at your core.
You can taste having it, right.
You body tenses from the idea of getting it.
Excitement.
Nervousness.
The WHAT IF?
 
What if I get it,
what if I achieve it?
 
But even more so surging through your core,
through your veins is the WHAT IF of NOT having it.
 
And this my love is causing you the resistance that you feel.
The holding back of all that is yours for the having.
 
Your intense interest in having it is actually leaning mores o into the NOT HAVING IT.
 
Have you been wondering WHY?
 
Why is it not showing up?
Why is it that no matter how much focus you apply,
no matter how much attention you give it,
alignment work that you do,
journalling, ‘meditating,
fantasizing,
and “trying” to make yourself believe that it is coming,
BUT STILL…
 
It does not show up.
 
Have you been wondering WHY?
 
And no matter how hard you work at getting it,
how much you “feel” in the flow,
its just not there.
It’s just not happening.
 
And that love is SCARY as shiz, right?
 
I mean this is something BIG AF.
This is something you feel passionate about.
That you can FEEL at your CORE.
And you see others doing it.
Having it.
And living it.
 
But for some reason it just is not happening for you.
And you cannot figure out what the THING is that you need to do to get it.
 
So what is the THING love?
 
Okay, come here…
lean in love,
let me share a secret with you.
It is the answer that you have been looking for,
it is the answer that you already know,
unfortunately.
And you most likely are resisting it,
because you don’t know how to do it.
 
It’s YOU LETTING GO.
 
Your interest and focus on gain this THING is what is keeping it away from you love.
 
You are so caught up on the MUST HAVE,
that the energy that you are putting out is NOT HAVING.
And because you are feeling the void of not having it,
you are getting NOT HAVING IT.
 
This is your FEAR.
Right?
 
You fear what life is going to be like if you don’t get your dreams and goals,
if you don’t succeed at your dreams.
You fear being told that you were wrong,
silly, stupid, naive even,
for “think” that you could do it, have it, achieve it.
 
Yes THIS IS THE THING that is holding you back love.
 
It is your intense focus on the NOT HAVING.
 
And your fear of not getting it.
 
You have GOT TO LET THIS SHIZ GO NOW!
 
Number one success rule to having your dreams come true:
 
FEEL THEM WITH YOU NOW.
 
You have got to be in the vibration ALREADY,
in order to have the relationship of your dreams,
the money that you want,
the lifestyle that you desire, ‘the health and well being,
the JOY….
 
Yes,
in order to have anything that you want you have to be in the feeling of it already.
 
In simple terms,
you have got to NOT NEED IT.
 
Vibrationally,
you can not be in NEED.
 
NEED will keep you in resistance to having it.
 
That is why it is so easy to watch things that are unimportant to you JUST SHOW UP in ease and with speed.
 
Have you noticed that?
 
How quickly do the things that you just lightly want,
or toss around with no real attachment,
just show up?
 
You are manifesting them into existence all the time.
But these things show up because you are not in NEED of them.
 
You just felt them,
was in alignment to them,
and LET GO.
 
And THIS IS THE THING….
That YOU MUST DO….
To have the THING (s) that you WANT.
 
Start Today.
Let Go.
Play.
Laugh.
Enjoy Your Now.
DREAM.
 
 
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When My Dreams Show Up To Quickly – I Get Scared!

How dare you give me what I want so quickly!
 
There has got to be some sorta catch if what I want is just showing up without me having to earn it.
 
I mean how is it possible that I speak about something and then not days later it reveals itself in my life?
 
I know that it is possible but it just does not feel right.
I truly believe that I need to work for this or its not real,
I will loose it for sure.
I am really afraid of saying YES…
What if I say yes and it all goes wrong?
What if I say YES and it’s the wrong choice to make?
 
I think I am better off just saying NO.
Even though I really want it,
and its wonderful that it has shown up like this so quickly,
I think I am going to have to pass.
 
It’s just not for me,
right now.
 
Thinking about saying YES to this has my stomach in knots.
There is just something off about it.
I know that this is not right for me,
because I can feel it in my gut.
 
When something shows up like this and it’s too good to be true,
well life has taught me that it most likely is,
so I don’t want to feel those pains again.
I am a NO.
 
I just don’t have the time right now to take this by the horns and do what I want with it.
So I think I will have to pass.
 
These and so many more EXCUSES are what we speak out loud or in our own heads to ourselves when we allow fear of stepping forward into our dreams to control us.
 
Don’t you get it luv?
That uneasy feeling that you got in your gut,
that’s not always your gut telling you that its a bad choice or that something is going to go wrong,
that uncertainty and anxiousness that you have is not always telling you that you are a no, or that it is a no for you.
That feeling of overwhelm or disbelief,
those feelings of I have been stun before and so I am not going to have it happen here,
this can all be signs that you need to step away from something,
YES.
 
They can be signs that you are a NO.
 
OR….
 
if you dig a little deeper,
can be signs that FEAR has you by the balls and if you let it run you will steal your dreams from you.
 
How can you know the difference?
How can you be certain that if you take that leap that you will be safe and that it will not be a wrong move in your life?
 
Number one,
you may never be certain that its right.
Number two,
you could make the wrong move.
 
But what I can promise you is that if you keep letting yourself be a NO to things that you will never gain the life that you want.
 
If you keep letting this crazy ass fear of yours run you silly and blind you from the opportunities that knock,
that you are making a wrong choice,
Then you definitely have something to fear.
because you are choosing to not live,
to not expand,
to not experience.
 
Well not experience anything but FEAR.
 
And if fear floats your boat baby,
well then have at it.
But if you hungry and wanting for more,
then maybe its time that you start to say YES.
 
Yes to opportunity.
Yes to experiences.
Yes to love, no matter how long it hangs out.
Yes to joy, play, laughter.
Yes to trusting that God has your back baby.
 
Because God does.
And your SOUL knows this.
 
Those feeling of not feeling right,
are VERY right.
They are telling you that your SOUL knows differently about something then what you think you know.
 
Your SOUL is 100 steps down the path before and has been through all that stuff and knows the steps that you need to take to get the the life that you want,
the quickest,
the smoothest,
and in flow.
 
But baby,
when you question why your dreams are just showing up in ease and with speed,
when you sit back and look for the gotcha in your goals,
realize that you are now questioning the power of God’s hand in creating.
 
You think that God has some timeline that he is following?
You think that if our creator wants to create something that it cannot just happen with a swipe of a hand.
 
You are the co-creator of your life and you are moving with speed because you are partnered up with the most powerful, potent force out there.
 
And God/Universe is all about speed.
 
You may not think it possible.
You may think that you gotta earn this shiz,
become worthy of it by serving your time and paying your dues.
 
Buy baby,
that’s all human made beliefs that are locking down the creative time and force that God has given you.
 
So stop the crazy ideas of questioning everything.
Stop the distrust of listening in past the fear.
Quit numbing yourself to your power by fidgeting around with such doubt.
 
Baby you got this.
But you gotta believe that you got this.
You gotta understand your power.
And CLAIM IT TODAY.
 
Say YES!
 
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Do You Feel Worthy Of Your Dreams?

NO ONE GETS TO DECIDE IF YOU ARE WORTHY! YOU JUST ARE ALREADY.

Worthiness.
Your worthiness.
Yes that thing that you may think you are lacking in or don’t even have any of.

But the reality love is that you were born with a massive amount of it.
So much so that it’s not in question,
not even a smidgen in question.
Not by God love.

ONLY BY YOU.

And that is what is holding you back.
It’s your lack of belief in your worthiness.
You for some reason think that your worthiness is up for debate,
that you have to earn it somehow.
That if you run around like a chicken with its head cut off that you will get more of it.
That if you live for everyone else,
and put yourself behind them all that THEN ,
then you will be a step closer to earning a little worthiness.
But even then,
even after you have buried yourself in commitments and exhausted yourself in the keeping of everyone else’s expectations and idea’s of you and for them,
YOU STILL FEEL without it.

I get it love.
I truly do.
It’s a daily battle you could say,
to wake the f-ck up and KNOW YOU ARE WORTHY without question.

But if you want all that you want.
If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired.
If you are READY to BE READY.
Then it time that you accept that you were born WORTHY AF!!!

Don’t you get it love?
God moves through you and I.
God creates with your hands.
Unfolds the evolution of this planet and its people through you and I.

This world moves forward because of what we manifest into existence.
And we can only create what we do with the guidance of SOUL.
And soul is the voice of God in us.

Together we create all that is and all that ever will be.
But is a joint work.
And because of this very factor and the nature of you and I being co-creators with God,
makes us worthy of all of our desires.

The desires that you want to manifest into existence were put there by the creator.
It is your hands,
your attention,
your focus,
your voice and eye’s,
that make it happen though.

It is through you that God has concentrated focus.
It is by your viewing of the world,
your world,
and you feeling of life,
and how it unfolds,
that desire is birthed.
And opportunity is seen.
As you move through this existence,
and you feel the ebbs and flows of all that can be created,
you gain a hunger for something beautiful to unfold.
You crave more.
You smile and you cry.
You get frustrated and you excited.
These are the emotions of creation,
because they birth desire.
And in the desire becoming aware in YOU,
God see’s it,
and evolution happens.

YOU WILL NEVER BE CONTENT.
You will never reach a point in your life where you desire for no more.
You will always want to create MORE.
This is the desire of God,
to CREATE.

The greatest artist.
Working with you,
through you,
to paint a breath taking picture,
called….

YOUR LIFE.

And because you are breathing love.
You need not ever question your worthiness.

Because you are hungry,
you need not ever question your potential.

Because you are feeling pushed and pulled,
you need not ever question your footing.

God is there love.
You just need to surrender to the path that is before you.
It is yours.

And in your stepping forward,
God will paint the path.

God does not make unworthy things.
And God does not work hand in hand or through unworthy things.

God is working through you,
FOR YOU.

So stop questioning so much.
Allow your blessings to flow.

BREATHE.
FEEL.
FOCUS.
STEP.

And As Always,
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Your Criticism Enables My Scarcity Mindset.

 

Your criticism enables my scarcity mindset!

Why can’t you just be happy for me?
Why can’t you just smile and let me live my life?
Why do you have to always try and fix what you deem broken,
when perhaps….

Just perhaps its not broken at all.

I get that your intent is not to slice me to the bone.
I get that you have no concept of the shame, the fear, the lack of worthiness that you trigger each time you aim to fix what you think needs fixing.

But honey beware.

Your words are powerful.
although you do not control me.
Ultimately it is my choice to fall prey to your desire for my brokenness,
be warned that these words you cast upon me and others,
be warned that these judgements,
these criticism’s have power.
And even the strongest in nature,
those of us who rebel from the control,
yes even us can be penetrated after time,
with these words of fear.

As time passes and you search for more weakness in me,
as you look for how you can save me,
teach me,
heal me,
support me,
your words become like Chinese water torture,
like nails on a chalk board.
They make me cringe,
they set me on defense.
They steal away my ability to feel you.

And now I stand here guarded.
Ready to take my punishment.
Now before I even start to share,
before I take any step forward or to the side,
I already hear your words of criticism,
and I know…
I know that no matter what I do,
no matter how turned on I am to my life,
no matter how much in flow and a state of passion I might be,
no matter the creative genius that wants to stem from my core.

I know.
I know that in your eye’s I am broken.
I know that in your mind I need to learn.
I know that you see me as this child,
this silly naive thing that needs your saving,
needs your fixing.
And so why bother?
Why even try and speak my truth?
Why try and do anything,
because I already know.

And so I settle into the average and ordinary.
I settle into the surface level relating.
Depth and being seen is too painful.

I feel stupid.
I feel dumb.
I feel ugly.
I feel unlovable.
I feel like no matter what,
it does not matter,
because I am wrong.

Or I will get it wrong.
Or it will be messed up by my touch,
by my words,
it’s just me.
And I should just not be.

Your criticism enables my scarcity mindset!
You enable me to not step up and be all that I can be.
You enable me to fear my power.
You enable me to fear my creative soul.
You enable me to keep hating myself.
You enable me to see all my lack of worth.
You enable me….

AND FOR WHAT?

Do you really believe that your words of judgement will entice me into becoming more?
Do your really believe that you know my calling,
my purpose,
my heart better than I or God?
Do you think that your need to fix me is inspiring?

Because it is not!
And lucky for me…
I will never listen.
And when I feel these chisels from you to cut me down,
to make me fear,
to make me become logical.

Yes lucky for me,
I am a F-CK YOU!

and I will move away.
I will step back.
I will turn around.
I will not listen.

Instead I will laugh.
Because you,
you are the lost one.
You are the broken one.
You are the one that needs me.

But honey,
that you will not ever have.
Because the tribe I run too,
is a tribe that is wild.
A tribe that is free.
A tribe that is supportive through love.
Supportive through the building up.
Through the appreciation.
Yes that is my tribe.

And so I encourage you to stop this ridiculous need of cutting down, and finding fault, of looking for what is broken or wrong.
I encourage you to instead step into your power.

I encourage you to look for what makes you happy with me.
What makes you happy with life.
What makes you happy with you.

Because all this criticism although seeming pointed at me,
it is not I that you actually have issue with,
it is not I that frustrates you so,
it is not I who needs your saving…

But it is YOU.

So look in that mirror my dear.
Look closely in your eye,
and tell yourself something positive.

Then continue to speak those words.
Because what you focus on grows.

I love you.
You are worthy.

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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