I just want to say that our system is F-CKED!!!!
I mean seriously f-cked.
Today I write with a heart that is frustrated, upset and emotional.
Today my heart goes out to all those who have experienced or who know that abuse is happening and can do nothing about it.
The one’s who want to protect, but find their hands tied.
Yes I feel you.
I see you.
I know the troubled heart that you carry.
There is nothing worse then to witness abuse of any sort happening and be told you cannot do a damn thing about it.
To hear the cries.
To see the bruises.
and be told that its not real.
Sit down and brace yourselves.
I am going to share an intimacy from my day,
an intimacy that is not fun,
is not humorous,
and most certainly not just.
I have family that is being abused.
Three little boys,
age 2, 4 and 5 who are being physically abused,
sexually abused, starved, beaten, left with a known predator and their cries are IGNORED.
By their mother,
Attorneys just want money,
no care as to child well being.
Everyone who knows says, ” I don’t want to get involved.”
And so the abuse continues.
And so the trauma continues.
And these boys,
these boys now hide with their horror that their uncle brings to them each week.
Now they learn that it is okay,
“He is your uncle, we love him, he can do what he wants.”
Our system is F-CKED!!!!
And for those who think this could not happen in this day and age,
I promise you this is a true story.
This man who is doing this has a record,
it was before he was 18 years old so no one knows of it.
It is ignored.
As if by some miracle that when he turned 18 things would change his sick mental state of being.
His distorted hunger.
Who the f-ck plays “the penis game” with kids?
What sort of adult man,
or any adult for that matter,
takes little boys and bites their penis as a f-cking game?
It is rare that I find such disgust for anyone,
but today I sit here after such great hope that CPS would see the light with this being a third report,
sweep in and do something.
At least prevent further abuse till the judge could settle things between the parents,
They choose to disregard.
To claim there is no abuse.
That its crying wolf.
I guess bruises on a 5 year old’s penis and stories of uncle playing the penis game are normal.
I guess that the signs that the boys show of abuse are imagined.
I guess that the only thing that matters is what?
The attorney’s and the money.
The let’s avoid paperwork, its Thursday, too close to the weekend.
And then, you know what I know is that in 15, 20, 30, 40+ years from now, when these boys are men, that they will have so much inner work to do to heal.
They will have to work through idea’s of suicide,
murder, not knowing their sexual personality.
They will have to learn even more than the rest of us about love and what it is and what it is not. And hopefully will not follow down a path like their uncle.
We wonder where the predators come from.
We wonder why our youth has the hate crimes,
why abuse is climbing and not spoken about until it’s too late. We wonder why mental health states is tipsy, questionable. Suicide rates are high.
This is why people!
We choose to take the easier path on almost everything we do. No matter the harm that it may cause.
We choose to ignore.
We choose to hide.
We choose to NOT SPEAK OUT!
We choose to shut down.
We choose to not stand up for hose who cannot stand up for themselves, because it’s not our problem.
We choose to have misguided loyalty.
We choose to not do the freaking paperwork.
We choose to let lives be destroyed.
We have created a system that support the expansion of trauma.
And we think it’s great!
Because it’s not our kid.
It’s not our family.
It’s not US.
It’s not YOU.
And sure this topic today is one that is too effing close to my heart and daily life right now.
But I have clients that have lived through this abuse.
I work with men,
who spend a lifetime trying to overcome the damage that was caused by such events and worse.
The stories that I have heard from adults about their youth,
I cannot tell you how my heart goes out.
The crusade to save our children,
If we ever want a world that is peaceful,
healed to any level.
We need to look at all human rights.
And stop treating children like they have no f-cking rights,
like they are just good story tellers.
Sexual Abuse for our youth is more real than what any of us want to admit.
And our system is F-cked to a point that it is almost hopeless.
Because it’s not about the children.
It’s not about safety.
It’s not about rights.
It’s about money, bottom lines and keeping it easy on those who don’t care and are not being effected.
I believe that there is HOPE.
I believe that our WORDS matter.
Our VOICES need to be heard.
The children need a voice.
And their voice comes from YOUR awareness.
Hope is awakened by more adults doing the inner work that they need to do to not be fearful of speaking out, speaking up and standing up.
Our children would be safer if the VILLAGE protected them instead of ignored them.
Yes today’s message is one of a CALL to ACTION that if you know of abuse happening to not turn the other cheek, to not ignore. To not hide your f-cking head in the sand and disregard.
Your hiding will never save anyone, including yourself.
But your voice,
your voice could save multiple lives.
Will you STAND, SPEAK UP, SPEAK OUT?
Or will you continue to ignore?
It’s starts with you not ignoring your SOUL.
It starts with you eliminating your own SHAME.
It starts with you communicating your NEEDS.
It starts with you getting COMMITTED to YOU.
So pull that beautiful head out of the sand,
and let your voice be heard.
Your message felt.
And As Always,
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This is WHY I love my haters, nahsayers and skeptics….
I just want to say that I love you!
I truly do.
Without those of you who live for the fight,
for the ego, for the anger and the sadness,
there would be no mission to bring light and love into this world.
Without all of you who are super critical,
who find more value and worth in trying to be right then focusing on beauty and truth.
For all of you who feel the need to judge, criticize, make fun of, and attempt to squash,
there would be limited exploration into self,
into deeper awareness and understanding.
Without you who adore darkness and hatred,
who live for the putrid thoughts and ill feelings,
there would not be contrast,
showing what love is and what love is not.
Revealing what walking on the path of soul is and what it is not.
For those who speak of their belief,
their faith and their loyalty,
to something greater and grander,
how they live the words of masters of our past,
yet weld the words of inner demons and sadness.
This void that you choose to bless the rest with,
is a blessing sweet soul.
It is a blessing,
and for this I love you.
I love you,
the skeptics that choose to follow,
and cast stones that are not yours to cast.
I love you for showing the path that hatred and self-contempt can take any of us down,
for sharing the void that you must feel,
the lostness that eats at your soul.
I hear your pain sweet one.
I see your pleas,
Your desire to be recognized,
to feel some sort of worth.
If even from a negative source.
Much like a small child,
who acts out to receive attention,
you too act out to be seen.
I tell you here,
I tell you from my heart and my soul,
although you may not want to believe,
to hear or to receive.
I tell you now,
I LOVE YOU.
You are worthy.
You are beautiful.
You are deserving of happiness and abundance.
No matter how lost,
or sad or traumatized you may be.
YOU are worthy.
One day your soul will speak,
and you will choose a different path.
You will choose to hear the words,
the words of your worth.
You will realize that in order to fill that void,
that gaping hole that resides inside of you,
you will have to lean away from hatred,
away from judgement,
away from the casting of the stones.
You will have to embrace that we are all part of the same race.
We are HUMAN.
And we have our misguiding’s.
Our ego catches the best of us,
but still God wants for nothing more,
then EVERYONE of us to LOVE life.
To love thy neighbor as thy self.
To know that none walk without sin.
To know that we are loved.
To know that we are worthy.
And to OWN the very truth that LOVE,
Love is the answer.
This is why I love my haters, my nahsayers and the skeptics that choose to follow me.
That choose to condemn.
That choose to hate as they preach.
I love you sweet haters.
Thank you for supporting my mission.
Thank you for supporting my soul work.
Thank you for the opportunities to share,
and from this authentic space,
that as I sit in stillness,
and listen to the calling.
I know who I am .
I know how important it is…
to STAND firmly,
to speak in love,
to share the message of a life worth living.
The life that we are all here to LIVE.
A life of THRIVING.
For anything other is not giving praise to our creator.
I love you haters, nahsayers and skeptics.
Thank you! Thank you for your sharing.
Without YOU there would be no reason.
I share with you now one of my favorite messages,
the one that most aligns…
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.” – 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
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Low Vibing Peeps.
You know who you are.
But what you may not know is that you are in charge of your VIBE.
I hate when I am low vibing,
And I must say I can be AMAZING at it
Cause when I low vibe
I go all the effing way to the bottom
Of my well.
I drown myself in that shit
Until I cannot breathe.
I bath in the muck
Until i feel destroyed
And have blown up my own world.
I really hate myself when I go there.
Yet life has taught me that we all go there,
It is part of our cycle.
No one can remain HIGH VIBE ALWAYS.
Because shit happens.
And shit piled on shit can most certainly send our vibe crashing.
Its moments of total overwhelm that can draw us down the low vibe rabbit hole. Its when fear sets in and convinces us that life is against us.
Its moments when we question our faith.
Question our hearts.
Question who we are
And discover we are lost.
This LOST feeling causes us to low vibe.
And once we set up camp…
Now we are f-cked.
And we have done it to ourselves.
In these challenging times of life we walk hand in hand with our self for filling prophecies.
We discover what our core beliefs
And expectations are.
Because what manifests in our world?
Exactly what we truly believe and expect.
And as our prophecies manifest before our very eyes we find ourselves embracing with a nod of certainty the evidence that we know at our core.
The evidence that
I am not good enough
Not pretty enough
Not smart enough
And our head lowers
And our heart sinks
Our frustration grows as we witness another negative event manifest in our lives.
We feel sorrow and pain.
We suffer and we cry.
We grow angry and point fingers.
All in a pursuit to understand
But still hiding from the REALITY that all our pain is ONLY caused because of our LOW VIBE.
It is the cause of all that we experience.
I hate it when I am low vibing.
But in the same I am grateful for it because it shows me where my work still resides.
It shows me my ego.
And it blesses me with the opportunity to LIFT MYSELF UP.
Because at the end of the day
No one is going to come to the bottom of my well and pick me up. Make me do anything. Or think successful thoughts. Or feel good.
No one can get me to love myself.
No one can help me know myself.
Or have the intimacy i need with self or God.
No f-cking soul on this planet can save my ass but me.
So here is my question to you.
You knew at some point I was going to loop back to YOU.
Why are you expecting others to lift you up?
Why are you still acting in fear of loosing anything?
Why are you allowing yourself to low vibe?
You are effing looking to be correct.
You are wanting to prove your point.
You are wanting to wallow in your ego’s shit so you can play the victim yet again.
Well NEWS FLASH!!!
You can have all of that.
But without me.
Without any high vibe peeps.
Without the high vibe things you crave and claim you want.
Don’t f-cking lie to me or yourself anymore.
STOP with the effing lip service.
Your vibe says it all.
You can’t have both.
You cannot low vibe and live a F-ck YES! Life.
It truly is that simple.
Its just an effing decision.
But you have to want it more than what you have experienced thus far in life, more than what makes you feel comfortable.
We all low vibe here and there.
It is normal.
Setting up camp there and claiming you did not that, that my dears is denial of your truth.
It’s time to get REAL.
It’s time to decide.
I don’t f-cking care what way you go.
I KNOW MY PATH.
I KNOW MY DESIRES.
I will NEVER low vibe for long periods.
But if thats what you truly want
Than God bless.
I wish you well.
I love you.
But I will not join you.
Claim your life beautiful one.
Claim your beauty.
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living