Why Do Some Men Come Back Around?

Sitting here eating breakfast and my phone goes off…
It’s a text message from a man I have known for over a decade now.
A man that makes my pussy throb at his freakin’ text no matter how bad my day is going or how disconnected I feel.
I can hear his voice right now as I sit here and type.
That low, sultry Matthew Mcconaughey voice of his.
That smile,
that sparkle in his smiling eye’s.
Yes just his words in this text bring back so many a feeling of the past.
His words ignite a strange hunger at my core.
And have me in a stir of wonder.
 
And yet…
 
Yet I know.
yet I have tasted of the offerings that he has tempted me with for the last decade.
And that YES that I have given to him so many a time in the past has only taught me to say NO.
 
So what is it about this man.
What is it about many men in my world,
throughout time and relationship that makes them come check in on me and consistently check to see if there is a door open for them to explore a second or third round of temptation.
Why do they find a need or desire to see if they can now capture what they so easily let go of back then?
 
Perhaps it is regret.
Perhaps they have grown up some and realized what was being offered back then,
the beauty of what could have been.
 
Over and over again I hear from the men of my past,
about their deep love for me,
their adoration,
and how they wish things had gone differently.
They ask for just a coffee date.
Just a glass of wine and simple conversation.
They want to rekindle the friendship.
the connection.
 
They want to know that I am okay and happy.
 
and yes, they are hopeful.
Hopeful that I am hungry.
Hopeful that I seeking.
That I am open to what possibilities are on the path as it merges but for this moment in time.
 
Again, and again I am at fault for exploring this merging path.
Because the reality is that the majority of men of my past are pretty amazing men. I adore and love them still and am in deep gratitude for the moments and experiences that we shared.
And I miss those moments sometimes.
I miss their uniqueness.
 
I am always hungry.
My heart desires for its rapture once again,
and so yes it is always seeking for that soul that will ignite it and open it up to that that it has experienced in the past.
I find myself also thinking about this running theme of my ex’s.
And how the one’s who truly captivated me and still hold a piece of me in some strange way many a year later ALWAYS choose to re-explore the waters of relationship with me.
 
Or at least let their love be expressed verbally here and there.
They want me to KNOW their heart.
 
And this is beautiful.
This is a beautiful side of the masculine.
Scary though.
Because each of these men wake up skeletons in the closet of my heart,
and make me sit at the brink of “What now?”
 
Testing each breath as we exchange a moment yet again.
And I lean in and learn.
 
But wonder.
 
I here in my head as I type this these words of a man that I love deeply and is one of these gentlemen of my past that touches base with me to share his heart every now and then.
 
I see him with his handsome smile, his rich brown eye’s looking at me and explaining to me that when a man goes that deep with a woman and he feels touched by her like that, that he will always touch base again and a again in hope that perhaps the timing is right now.
 
I hear the words of another man that holds my heart share with me that he now see’s his fault,
he wishes for an new opportunity,
but he know’s that my trust is broken,
what can he do to prove himself?
 
I feel the heart beat of my first love as he holds me firmly in a hug. I feel him not wanting to let go. As though it is that moment in our parting 25 years back. He looks at me with a glimmer in his Irish eye’s and smiles because he know’s it cannot ever be. But his love is felt, his desire as well.
 
So why?
 
What about a woman ignites a man to this level to pursue for years?
 
Ladies, what do you think about the men in your world that you dated years back and are still holding on? Still testing the waters of connecting a decade or more later?
 
Guys, why do you chase for a decade?
Why do you come back around every so often if you chose differently way back then.
 
What is it that makes a man want for a woman he did not embrace and hold dear when he had her?
 
Thoughts from this morning as I sit here receiving texts from past lovers, who had a chance, who had an opportunity to create something beautiful with me many a moon ago.
 
It’s a running theme in my relationship world.
How about you?
 
Love to hear your thoughts.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers

This Is Why Your Woman Will Not Pursue You.

Can you imagine starving?
Can you imagine what it must be like to be so hungry and not have food available,
or to not be able to consume the food that is there close to you?
Now I have been hungry before,
there are actually many days that happen where I almost forget about eating. I get so caught up in what I am doing and who I am working with or enjoying,
that food does not cross my mind.
My body though is still hungry.
I might occasionally feel the pains and grumblings of my hunger,
but unless I focus in on it, I can resist it and carry on about what I am doing.
Over time though, my blood sugar get’s low.
My head starts to pound.
I get moody, feel light headed and tired.
I can’t keep focused.
And funny enough, in moments like this, the last thing on my mind is eating.
Instead I wonder about, wondering what’s wrong with me?
Because in the not eating, I forget about food.
 
It never fails though in these moments.
Someone comes along, with something that awakens me to my hunger.
 
I am sure you have had this experience.
You are hungry.
You get side tracked.
You get more hungry.
You ignore the hunger pain.
You dull your senses.
You feel off.
AND THEN……
you smell a burger and fries.
 
Yes, it’s that moment.
You can maybe even smell that burger and fries right now.
You pass that restaurant and you smell it.
 
YUM!!!!!
Your body ignites.
Your stomach yells at you.
Your gut gurgles and says, STOP.
EAT.
 
Okay,
so you can understand this right?
 
Now imagine these two scenarios.
 
1) You are hungry like this. Starving. You catch a whiff of something yummy. Someone walks by you with that burger or steak. You follow them. You smell its juiciness. You can taste it almost. You are so hungry all you desire is a bite. You wish to just taste it. And they look at you and say, “No – my food!”
What are you feeling? What do you do?
 
2) You are hungry like this. Starving. You smell that burger and you decide to run through the drive trough. You order it plus the fries and a soda. You inhale it without thought because of your level of hunger. It’s a piss poor quality burger. It lands in your gut like cement. You feel sick. You feel even worse than before you ate it. You know how bad it was for you and you start to overthink your haste. Now you are upset with yourself for doing what you know you should not have done. You should have waited and taken better care of yourself but the hunger was REAL. What are you feeling? What do you do?
 
In either of these situations,
you are not being fed.
You are not being fulfilled.
There is no real satisfaction.
You just get frustrated.
Irritated.
And want for more, but find yourself KNOWING that what you want is not what you got.
 
Many people when they make poor food choices that make them feel yucky, commit in that moment to not do it again. Or at least not do it to soon again.
 
Many people who are hungry like this, do not choose then to hunt down all the fast food that makes them feel less than good.
 
Many people when they see a link to something causing them issues, choose to either avoid it, or limit their exposure to it.
 
Right?
That seems normal and within logical reason, wouldn’t you agree?
 
Well, here is the thing love.
This tale of starving. Of fast food.
It is actually not about food at all.
It is about satisfaction. Desire. or lack there of.
It is about STARVING.
 
But what I speak of here is the starving of good sex.
The starving of gourmet fulfillment.
I speak here what almost every woman would agree upon if they were raw and real about it.
 
That they are STARVING.
Hungry for something that they hardly get.
 
Can you imagine that 75-80% of the time that you have sex that you do not feel good from it?
That you actually feel yucky.
 
Can you imagine that you feel 75-80% of the time like it was a waist of time, energy and you feel disconnected and more empty then before you went into the situation?
 
Can you imagine that 75-80% of the time that you had sex that you did not enjoy it, have an orgasm?
 
All of this and more is accurate when we truly look into female sexual experience.
 
Gentlemen,
You get fed every time you eat.
You eat what you want and you like it most of the time, because shiz,
it’s food and who does not like food.
 
Well us ladies,
75-80% of the time we eat,
we feel sick from it. And we are not really eating,
we are just getting that whiff of the food.
So who wants to sit in their hunger and just catch a whiff at best 75-80% of the time?
 
Who in their right mind would desire,
pursue, look for or even be excited in the least to have that experience?
 
Not too many people I am guessing.
Yet, our partners ( and I say this as a woman who has had a partner want me to desire just this that I speak on plus the hundreds of couple’s that I have worked with over time who have the male partner wanting to be pursued, desired and frustrated with the woman on not doing so)….
 
Our partners, want us to want this for ourselves.
And they wonder why…
why we women shut down.
Why the sex turns from hot to Anniversary, birthday and Christmas sex.
They wonder what is wrong with their female partner to not want such a wonderful, connective, fulfilling thing such as sexual intimacy.
 
And I tell you in my rawest truth here,
THIS IS ONE MAJOR CONTRIBUTING FACTOR.
 
So what is the answer?
How can you fix her issues?
How can you make sure that she get’s fed?
 
 
These are the questions that are asked in couple-hood.
 
First, it is a two way street.
Both parties need to work on it individually and together, communication MUST happen. Things must change in order to get the results desired.
 
Second, You cannot fix her. She is not broken. And she is not a toy for your fixing Mr. Fix It. So effing STOP! You can however become a better lover. You can gain presence, compassion. You can inquire with skill. You can slow the F-ck down. You can actually want her to enjoy and there fore not get irritated and bored with the time she needs to take. You can do your own internal work, emotionally and mentally.
 
Third, you can do the above two.
And of course, if you need more help.
You still don’t know what to do,
to change.
You can seek outside help.
Like mine, ( Yes my shameless plug there…. but it’s true, you have been doing what you have been doing and you have been blind to what is happening until this moment or you have been really good at ignoring it all and hoping that it would just fix itself. That has not worked though. So… insert my shameless plug again please.)
 
And here are the facts,
sex is important. No matter how we try to discredit it.
Sex and money are the two major factors in relationship breakup and happiness.
 
Many people think they have a successful relationship because they look at the longevity of that relationship. The years spent together.
 
However, the truth is that relationship success is not about the years together,
it’s about the joy. The happiness. The over all feeling that the relationship leaves you with.
 
And most relationships under this mindset of success are far from successful.
 
So I ask you today,
are you content having and providing a fast food sex life at best to your relationship? The person you love and cherish?
 
Or is it time that you discover how to truly feed her?
 
Yes the gourmet variety.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
‘Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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Your Neediness Is Stopping Your F-ck Yes! Life.

I know that you want it baby.
I can see it in your eye’s.
I know that you desire for that F-ck Yes! Life.
You want the connection,
you want the passion,
you want the happiness and direction.
I can see your desire.
It washes across your face as you speak.
It is a hunger,
and you are starving for it.
 
But luv,
here is the issue,
here is the challenge that you cannot see for yourself.
This hunger that is pulling at you,
it has you blinded to what you are missing.
 
And that my luv,
is not what you hunger for,
NO.
What you are missing is the presence,
the release,
the surrender.
You are missing your own allowing,
out of the fear that you miss all that you hunger for.
You fear that by letting go,
you will loose.
And what you are causing is the very lose of what you want so deeply for.
 
You are desperate and hungry luv.
You are a ravenous beast.
You are dangerous.
You are pushing away everyone and everything,
because of your fear.
And this has you even more hungry, does it not.
 
The answer to what you desire,
the way to getting it for certain.
It is not in you chasing.
It is not in you demanding.
It is not in you threatening,
or shaming,
or manipulating.
No you will never achieve what you want in these futile attempts.
This sort of immaturity may make you feel powerful,
it may show you evidence of you getting for a moment,
but you will loose it all quickly,
if you do not allow yourself to have it through your true power.
 
And that power is felt in your love.
It is seen and experienced in your presence.
In your opening to understanding that your self-centeredness is holding your desire at bay.
 
You want to be seen.
You want to be felt.
Understood.
You want to be wanted.
 
And you can have all of this and more.
Life wants to give to you luv.
But in order to have it,
you MUST allow it.
And this will come when you let go.
 
Let go of your neediness.
Let go of your control.
Let go of your hunger.
In your trying,
you are resisting.
 
You are missing all that you can be.
You are missing all that you can have.
You are missing all that you can give,
can share.
 
Because luv,
yes,
it is all about you.
You are for certain the most important person in the room.
But your importance,
must rest assured in confidence not need.
You cannot demand the spot light at the cost of the room.
You cannot fear your own light to the point of hiding from your shadow.
 
The way to have it all.
The path to your F-ck Yes! Life…
It is through your release of the NEED.
 
Ask yourself today luv,
where am I holding on? Where am I resisting all that I can have by insisting on my need?
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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You Are Working With A Fake….

You are working with a fake!
Say what?
You heard me right…
 
You are working with a fake.
I know they told you all that hype.
I know you love them for just being who you think they are.
I know you have lofty dreams and goals,
you want it bad baby.
It’s so obvious.
 
But that desperation of desire that you are sharing with this world,
it has you vulnerable to deception.
It has you vulnerable and weak to making BIG time mistakes.
You may want what you want,
and you may want it to happen for you NOW.
I mean I get it.
 
You have been working for this THING for so damn long,
you are getting tired of it not manifesting.
You cannot figure out what most likely the oh so little tweak is that you need to make that pendulum swing over there into the promised land,
and so here they came,
the wolves in lion’s clothing.
They marched on in here,
confident and beautiful,
telling you EVERYTHING that you wanted to hear.
Telling you how if you do this,
and this,
and this,
things will be different.
And magically you will be making the money that you want,
living the life that you want,
having the relationships that you want,
living that freedom based life that you want.
 
And what did they focus you on?
Was it the money?
Was it the freedom that the money gives?
Was it the ease?
Did they tell you about the the BIG $30,000 dollar deal they just closed? And how they do that all the time…
Did they tell you that you can keep not showing up for your non-tribe and do the same?
Did they tell you to just increase your price point,
to focus on the numbers.
To focus on adds?
Funnels?
To go get another training in some field that you will never use in your practice?
 
You are working with a fake.
And that beautiful,
that should piss you off.
 
Because the more you buy into that illusion,
the more you allow yourself to be infected with the lies,
the more you will become like that.
And that WILL NEVER get you the life that you want.
 
People do things for just a few reasons:
Happiness
Freedom
Family
Money
Power
 
The umbrella item is happiness.
This is all of our WHY.
 
The interesting thing though is that we often will sacrifice our happiness because of comfort.
We will lean into comfort because happiness will challenge us to step out of what we have been doing and to do something that forces expansion, a.k.a CHANGE.
 
And the fake ass that has come along and sold you a pipe dream that you gotta change not much at all,
that you don’t gotta show the eff up,
that you don’t have to build a TRIBE,
not just numbers,
but an aligned TRIBE,
that wants to feel you,
know you and have you know them too,
is an effing fake who is ONLY in the hustle for the money.
 
Going after the financial reward will only serve you short term.
It will only build your business so big.
And if you are a person who wants to feel good,
feel in alignment to your SOUL,
and be a positive ripple in this world,
then you need to WAKE UP to the fake that is selling you that illusion over there.
 
Can they show you the numbers?
Do they have an aligned TRIBE?
Do they have the testimonies?
Do they message from SOUL?
How often do they show the eff up for their tribe?
Do they share authentically about life, themselves?
Can you feel them?
 
Or do they only flap their gums and type up words that are empty as F-ck?
 
Because baby,
anyone can play a good game.
Anyone can toss around numbers.
Anyone can speak about their up-lines successes like it’s their own.
But, if you are going to listen and do what they say,
in hopes that they have found the true path to making the SHIZ happen,
then perhaps you should verify that they are makin’ their own shiz happen first.
 
Because I gotta say,
there is nothing worse then spending time, energy and money on a fake.
 
It’s a trauma that can be avoided with a few questions,
with a little research and by opening your damn eye’s up.
 
I share these words with you,
because in my working with entrepreneurs and souls who desire to live a life of freedom over the last two decades,
that I have seen many a soul fall prey to false prophets.
And often they are lead astray because they themselves fear commitment, change and growth.
 
Those of us who know that we were born for something more,
that we are not the 99%,
but the 1%ers,
we know that we must CHANGE.
We know that this road less traveled will require us to face our shadow’s,
to expand our thinking and views,
to fully feel life.
We know that we can step in faith,
with ease,
and that giving ourselves grace is important.
We know that we have a purpose.
That this THING,
this THING that we cannot, not do –
is what breathes life into our soul.
 
And we know the power of showing the f-ck up.
We understand the value of calling in our aligned tribe, not just numbers,
we desire to be seen,
to be felt.
 
And we value AUTHENTICITY.
 
Not here to play games.
Not here to tell you lies.
Not here to paint false pictures that I heard from someones else’s lips or thought would convince.
 
Nope,
none of that crap here.
 
Just good old,
real world,
human to human,
sharing, educating, and experiencing,
with a desire to be a positive ripple in this world and faith that God will support that and the money….
 
The money,
that we all want and need to make sure that we can keep doing what we are doing and helping those we are helping,
yeah that money…
 
Well that money is the manifesting evidence as well as the lifestyle,
the vitality,
the health,
the well being,
the effing light in our eye’s,
that the universe is supporting of our efforts.
 
And that support,
it will easily be SEEN.
There will be no doubt beautiful.
 
Because those of us who do not desire to be fake,
those of us who just ARE,
you can feel our energy before we walk into the room,
you can see our glow a thousand miles away,
you can feel the connection in the words we write,
the words we speak,
our messages are unapologetic, clear of falsities and fear.
We stand in confidence,
we are stable in our energy,
because we KNOW.
 
And beautiful,
This is WHO YOU ARE.
 
You are worthy.
You are deserving.
You have a message to be shared.
 
But first,
you must wash that muck of falsity out of your energy,
clear it from your community,
and step into the desire of OWNING WHO YOU ARE.
 
Operate from Authenticity beautiful,
NOT FEAR.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers.”
 
Let’s get you to your desired F-ck YES! NOW.
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WHAT YOU WANT YOU CAN’T GIVE 100% OF THE TIME.

You know what you are looking for in your life?
You know what you are wanting in your relationships?
 
It’s the very thing that is so hard to give.
We all have trouble offering it 100% of the time.
And in truth we simply will never be it 100%.
 
We can’t be it all the time,
because we are works in progress,
always getting to know ourselves a tad bit deeper.
And it is a scary ground to walk on.
But geeze do our souls desire it so.
 
What could I be speaking of beautiful?
 
Well its not more sex.
It’s not even love.
It’s not a pat on the back.
Or more money.
 
No.
 
The thing that we often desire is a little thing that you can not hold in your hands,
you can feel with your skin,
you cannot guarantee ever.
But you want it.
You want it, this I am sure.
 
That thing I speak of beautiful is:
 
TRUTH.
INTEGRITY.
HONESTY.
AUTHENTICITY.
 
So often I hear people say,
” I am an honest person.”
 
” All I want is to know the truth.”
” I hate drama and manipulation.”
” I am a person of their word.”
” I am just being me.”
 
Mmmm- Hmmmmm….
 
Is that so?
Is that true?
 
Perhaps it may feel that way to you.
And perhaps you may actually believe that you are.
And in many moments you most likely are.
But today I offer up the pondering of the possibility that maybe, just maybe you are not as authentically honest and truthful as you believe you are.
 
Perhaps you are human,
just like the rest of us out here.
Perhaps you are on a journey to discover who you are and even though you think you know,
you still find yourself waking up to new aspects of who you actually are each time the shiz hits the fan and you are triggered.
 
Every time someone asks something of you and you make an excuse.
Every time, someone shares something with you in confidence and you share it just once with this good friend over here.
Every time you get triggered and your words escape your mouth before you have thought them through.
Every time you blame and point that finger.
Every time you weep in feeling you are alone and story tell to yourself the lies that support.
Every time someone does not react the way that you desire and so you say something to make them change their mind…
 
Yes every time.
 
Every time you tell your lover something that is not true.
Every time you look down from yourself in the mirror.
Every time you shut down your heart from feeling what you said.
Every time YOU ARE ASKED TO STEP UP and speak your truth.
 
Oh, beautiful every time.
 
These are all moments when we choose to step back from that which we desire so deeply to have.
 
And by stepping back from our own truth,
we lean just a tad into that vibe of illusion.
And we lie to ourselves.
We lie to others as well.
It often feel’s so small,
it should not matter.
But each time we step away from our truth,
we close off AUTHENTIC COMMUNICATION.
 
We shut ourselves down to love.
Because often beautiful,
in moment like these,
love is there.
Just on the other side of our illusions,
where we choose to lift our head,
say no to the ego of trying to get out of something or to manipulate.
 
Yes on the other side we find love.
We find freedom.
We find confidence.
And we regain trust.
 
You will never be a trustworthy person if you cannot stand in your own integrity,
even when you have fallen,
to stand in integrity is to give yourself grace enough to say,
“I was wrong.”
 
Where have you stepped away from that which you desire so much?
 
And how can you step back into authentic relating with those you love and care for?
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Let’s get you to your desired F-ck YES! NOW.
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BURNING BRIDGES THAT DO NOT NEED BURNT IS A SIGN OF YOUR RESISTANCE TO RECEIVING ALL THAT YOU WANT

BURNING BRIDGES THAT DO NOT NEED BURNT IS A SIGN OF YOUR RESISTANCE TO RECEIVING ALL THAT YOU WANT
 
Here we go again!
Around and around,
the mood pool where you get mad and sad in some crazy eight pattern,
( hey, that is a real thing ya know – the crazy eight cycle).
 
But here we go again beautiful,
you are feeling insecure, irritated, anxiety ridden and abandoned,
you are feeling jealous, vengeful, angry and hurt.
And you have chosen that the way through your crazy eight is the same old pattern that you have always done,
its the same old system of crazy.
But once again you forget that you have visited these grounds so many times before.
 
You are lost beautiful,
and even though you feel it deep at your core,
the suffering is smothering to your life,
you refuse to take responsibility for things,
for YOU.
 
And here we go,
your anger pushes everyone away.
Your fear of loosing has you painting a mirage of fear and pain.
And you light the match.
 
It’s a match that you have lit before,
and so far when you come back to self you discover that the fire that you tried to set,
the scorching of the land that you wanted gone,
is still there,
and when you come back around and breathe,
you are grateful that nothing burned down.
 
But here is the thing beautiful,
you can only lite that match so many times,
You can only throw it down on this bridge and watch the smoke rise,
feel the heat,
and take pride in the false control that you are exhibiting.
Because baby,
you cannot control the fire that you have started.
And every match from the past,
has all the onlookers shook in their trust.
 
They see you darling.
They see your fear.
They see that you desire to control.
They see as does your SOUL,
that you are under some spell.
 
That spell has you believing that you will loose and if you are to loose and be abandoned,
be stepped over in this life and forgotten then damn it,
you will control how you go out.
And drop the match you do,
watch the fire as they burn away your connections.
 
But somewhere down this path beautiful,
when you awaken from this slumber of your ego,
of your illusion,
you will see that no one is casting you aside.
That was ALL YOU…
believing your fear.
 
Instead what you were fearing was not at all the abandonment,
what you were fearing was the connection,
the growth,
the receiving.
And what you missed to realize is that you were on the cusp of something amazing.
The birthing of a new phase in your life.
You were leveling up!
You were elevating to a new you.
 
And it was uncomfortable.
It was a scary and strange feeling.
 
And THAT…
THAT is what activated this fire.
Your fear of success.
 
And so beautiful,
you drop that match.
You drop it and you run,
claiming that you are being attacked,
claiming that you are a victim to this life,
to those who cross your path.
Never recognizing that NOW you have started a raging fire.
And lost the trust,
lost the support,
lost the connection.
And in order for you to have any hope of regaining any part of what you scorched in the flames of your fear,
you will have to work 10x harder.
None will trust who have seen.
None will trust who you have poured your rage out on.
But beautiful,
the answer is always the same.
The answer is to recognize.
To see yourself.
To love yourself.
And to do your healing.
 
“If you don’t heal what hurt you, you’ll bleed on people who didn’t cut you” – Author Unknown
 
And this beautiful,
THIS is where your WORK BEGINS.
 
To all of us works in progress out there,
may these words sound truth to your core and bring to you awareness of the responsibility we each have on our lives and the impact that our suffering and fear of moving forward can have on those in our lives.
 
May you pause before you throw the next match.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Let’s get you to your desired F-ck YES! NOW.
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Stop Loosing Yourself In The Goodbye Beautiful.

Doesn’t F-cking Matter!
People say goodbye all the time, in so many ways.
People turn away from you,
some you feel,
some you don’t notice.

But at the end of the day,
It doesn’t f-cking matter either way.

They came into your life for a reason.
This you can be sure

How long someone hangs with you baby,
Well that is upto your spiritual contract with them.
What do I mean by that?

What kind of crazy new age concept is a spiritual contract anyway?

In this instance I am referring to the lessons you gain from the relationship. And EVERY relationship teaches us something.

Its important to realize that we are in relationship WITH EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in our lives too.
So get right with that RIGHT NOW gorgeous.

Those short meetups, hook ups, chatting and getting no where with people that pop through your life and wonder WTF was that about?
Was there to present some lesson or deeper understanding into your life,
Into who you are,
And how you are VIBING.

And when they leave.
You can say it doesn’t matter anyway.
And it doesn’t!

As long as you got from them what you were meant to.

Were you present enough in that relationship,
No matter how short lived it was or not,
No matter the drama,
The trauma,
The heartbreak.

Did you get your lesson beautiful?
Did you?

Cuz if you chose to get caught up in the ego of what happened,
and you missed the lesson,
Then baby,
You are going to have to rinse and repeat.

And that’s why you run into the same people over and over again just with a different face,
Different story.

And when you get caught up in the ego of the loss,
You loose something much more significant and valuable then that relationship.
You loose a piece of you.
When you sit a stare at the people who are unliking or unfollowing you on social media,
When you pay more attention to who is not paying attention to you,
When you wait for the lack of response from that person you went out on a date with,
Or hooked up with,
When you get caught up in the certainly that so and so will apologize or come back,
When you wait….

You loose yourself.
And at the end of your days beautiful,
It doesn’t f-cking matter anyway.

Their goodbye.
Thier shut down.
Thier blindness.
Thier disconnect.

None of it matters.
And you deserve so much better.
But here is the thing,
YOU have to allow yourself to have better.
YOU have to stop making yourself available for that shiz.
YOU have to stop resisting your beauty,
Your greatness,
Your value.
And you have to get THAT lesson.

Because baby,
The best is yet to come.

It is!
You just have to change what your looking for.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers ”

Let’s get you to your desired F-ck YES! NOW.
Applications for 1:1 available for a limited time. Message me for application.

GIVE YOURSELF THE DAMN PERMISSION.

GIVE YOURSELF THE DAMN PERMISSION.

It’s time beautiful to stop accepting so little for what you want.
It’s time to stop being available for all this shiz that is not serving you.
It’s time for you to OWN WHO YOU ARE and scale your life up to match that version of you.

But here is the thing gorgeous,
in order for you to do this,
to have that, that you so desire and feel that you cannot not do/have….

You MUST give yourself the damn permission.
You must give yourself the permission to receive the success,
receive the love,
receive the healing,
receive the lifestyle,
the joy.

Until you stop settling for suffering and lack,
until you commit to having what you want and you KNOW that you are worthy of,
you will never achieve it.
You will not call in what you want until YOU,
no one else make it so.

And you do this by giving yourself permission to be the damn person that you know that you are.

You do this by not accepting your reasons and excuses anymore and calling out your own bullsh*t.

You do this by applying not harder or more work,
but by applying your SOUL – led callings and heart to your life.

You do this by no longer closing your eye’s and hoping that ignoring it, that it will magically go away, all the while you sit around and fantasize about the horror that will happen.

STOP THAT SHIZ!

When you have decided that you are sick and tired of being sick and tired of not living up to the person that you know that you are,

when you have had enough of the not having the life that you want,

when you are FINALLY exhausted enough,
and gotten to the point of done,
and realized that NO ONE else on this planet is going to ever
come in and say,

“Hey you… yeah you with the big dreams and goals. You who deserves to have it all… you who has been working your ass off for so long and struggled so much… yeah you…. I GIVE YOU PERMISSION to have it now.”

Yeah that is not going to happen beautiful.
People may support you in different ways.
Your tribe will pat you on the back and love on you.
Your mentors will love you with some deep inquiry work and a smile of knowing.

But NO ONE ELSE will ever be able to give you permission to step the f-ck up to who you are meant to be and JUST BE IT!

That is all you BABY!

There is nothing that anyone else can do to get you to shift,
to scale up your life, your business,
to get you to heal quicker, love more open, trust again…

NADA…
NOTHING…
NO ONE!

The only person who can give you the damn thing that you need RIGHT NOW…

Which happens to be permission to be unstoppable.
Permission to have it all.
Permission to BE YOU – unapologetically.

IS YOU!

So what is stopping you?

When will you have had enough of your own bullshit?
When will you finally be tired of accepting so little for your life and your joy?
When will your suffering no longer serve you?

Because as long as you accept your suffering as something that is giving you the attention that you need,
as long as you keep leaning in on your reasons, worries, doubts and excuses,

the one thing you will be guaranteed is that you WILL NOT have what you want in work, love or life.

But you have to get to enough being enough.

You have to want for your own joy more than your suffering.
You have to embrace the reality that there is another way to connect other than through drama and pain body.
You have to want to release the bondage that you have put yourself in.

And when you reach this pivotal point on your path to CLAIMING YOUR LIFE…

You will give yourself the damn permission.

And then baby,
it’s LIGHTS OUT to all that holds you back.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Ready to say yes to your life,
to claim the lifestyle that you want.
Ready to love yourself.
To have the money, time, love, freedom that your soul craves for?

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The Importance of Your Happy Place & Your #1 Friendship

I want you to close your eye’s and imagine yourself not wanting for anything.

Imagine yourself not stressing or worrying about anything that you may currently be focused on in your life.

Can you do that?

Many people have a tough time with this simple exercise.
Many people when I ask them to calm their fears and their thoughts around what they do not have look at me as though I have three heads and state,

” I can’t do that, it must be nice though for those who can.”

Is this what you are feeling at my request as well beautiful?
Or are you among the not so average and ordinary who understand and practice the calming of your hyperactive mind and fears?

If you are like the first option then this message is certainly for you. If you are the latter well this message is still for you and it will serve you well to get some extra reinforcement and confidence in your power.

Earlier today my thirteen year old son Levi came to me sharing his desire to learn meditation as he believes after much research and reading that it is the key to him being able to manifest the things that he wants quicker then what he has been doing and that it will also open him up to divine insight. He told me that it scares him to death to think about doing it because he does not know what he is capable of or what messages from soul will come through to him but he is committed to taking on this practice and exploring it.

How beautiful is that authentic truth share he offered to me today as well as the courage and commitment that he is showing to manifest his desires?

And he is thirteen!
I share this because I want you to know that his simplistic understanding and belief is all any of us ever need.
He is more then accurate in what he is believing around meditation and if he chooses as he states to apply himself with focus to the practice then he will reap rewards that he is not even aware of.

People ask me all the time what I do in a coaching session with someone? What they could expect for results in working with me.

The truth is the results depend on the person not on me.
My role in the scenario is to guide and to share what I KNOW works with application and commitment. How coachable someone is has nothing to with me.

One of the main things that I work with people on is the above. Helping them to realize how powerful their thoughts are and how those thoughts translate to feelings and actions.

You see, often what we do out of comfort in habit and false belief is the VERY THING that HOLDS US BACK from our success in having the life that we want.

If you feel unsettled around getting out of your comfort zone.
If you feel nervous about committing to something that is calling to you at a SOUL or CORE level.
If you get excited but then quickly move yourself into doubt about your abilities, worth, etc to make it happen.
If you find yourself with a million and one great reasons (a.k.a. excuses) as to why you cannot do it at this time.

Then beautiful it is time for you to GET REAL with yourself!
You are scared of your own success.

You are fearing your power.
You are fearing how amazing you really are.
You are terrified at what you can create.

And somewhere inside of you,
YOU KNOW that you can have it all.

But the fear of loosing it,
the fear of stepping up to the plate and owning that life that you want is trapping you.
And you are settling for comfort.
Settling for excuses and reasons.

And you because you are ALLOWING this way of living and being you will continue to have what you have.

It all starts with you finding your happy place.
It all starts with you being able to laugh at yourself and show yourself some compassion.
It all starts with you being able to make friends with yourself.
To find the stillness within and let it wrap its peace and flow around you.

Without this…
STRUGGLE will prevail.

So what do you say beautiful?
Are you ready to claim your life?
Your happiness.
Your joy.
Your pleasure.
Your DREAMS!

I sure AF hope so.

But its starts with YOU GETTING OUT OF THE COMFORT ZONE and tapping into your mystery.

Let Go and Let Flow Baby!

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
” Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

Denial Is Preventing You From Living Your F-ck Yes! Life.

Do you feel like you are missing something?
 
I watch you daily beautiful and I see that you want a life full of reward,
full of joy and abundance,
full of connection and a life where you can just BE YOU unapologetically.
 
I watch you sharing your heart about things,
posting pictures of your babies,
putting out your desires of travel and not having to worry about making ends meet,
but in turn having more than enough with plenty left over.
 
I see you.
 
I also see your lostness.
I see your fear to step away from what is so familiar.
I see you sharing from a place of desperation.
I see your words that you paint but you cannot stand behind energetically.
I see you making claims and wanting to believe them,
but feeling like you are an imposture in the same.
 
I witness your gifts daily beautiful.
I have witnessed the beauty in your heart.
 
But you are still missing something.
You know the THING.
The thing that you are missing,
that you just cannot seem to fully surrender too.
The thing that keeps calling your name,
grabbing your attention,
and you say no too.
 
Yet you KNOW.
Don’t you?
 
You KNOW, that if you keep ignoring it that you will never accomplish what you want.
 
You seek,
you search,
you gain more education,
and you stumble forward on this path of yours.
Every time you fall to your knees,
you look around and wonder why…
 
Why have you not yet made it happen?
Why does all this hard work not get you to where you want?
Why does it seem that no one see’s your efforts or cares?
Why does it work for so and so, but not for you?
How much longer can you keep pushing like you are before you really crash and can give no more?
 
 
It’s this THING beautiful.
It’s just this THING…
You keep turning away from it.
You keep ignoring it’s existence in your life.
You keep saying that it is not so even though your SOUL leads you to it consistently.
 
But it is missing from your life.
And you keep allowing it to be missing.
You search for it and act as though you don’t know what it is.
 
Your lies do not become you beautiful.
These lies to self,
they do not serve you but to keep you in what is familiar,
what is comfortable and safe.
 
The average and ordinary that you claim that you do not desire to be living,
you stick too like glue by denying the realness of what you ignore.
 
The THING beautiful that you are looking for…
The THING that you are missing….
The THING that is holding you back and keeping your dreams at bay.
 
This thing,
it’s your BELIEF.
Your conviction.
Your commitment.
It’s all about you BEING YOU.
 
The THING that you are missing and looking so hard for is YOU.
 
Your dreams are not manifesting because you are denying yourself.
 
Your desires are cast away from you and replaced with worry because you are not listening to your SOUL.
 
And the reason you cannot find yourself is because you are insistent that you are lost.
 
As long as you proclaim that you don’t know…
As long as you state your reality to be one of not having…
As long as you continue chasing something that you believe you do not currently posses…
 
YOU will remain out alignment with EVERYTHING you want.
 
YOU will remain out of alignment with EVERYTHING you want.
 
It is time beautiful,
to pull back the curtains on your truth.
It is time own who you are.
But you will have to change what you have been focused on.
You will have to rattle your own cage,
and step fully into the responsibility of being you.
 
Are you ready?
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
I know that you may be scared.
I have been in those shoes before all too many time.
But that fear is not going to stop you.
You are powerful.
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