I HAVE DECIDED THAT MY NEW PROFESSION IS TO BE AN ENERGY DOMINATRIX.
I mean I know that it is fun,
because many of my “work” days….
if you can call them that…
they are more play days because energy is fucking fun,
are just about that.
Dominating people’s energy.
Manipulating it you could say,
and then teasing it,
playing with the quantum field that is all around all of us and that we are manifest from.
Energy is playful.
Energy does not react well to being forced into some tight container where it cannot flow.
Sure when you constrict energy you certainly create a surge,
but that surge often does not come out the way that we desire it too,
and it is most often not playful.
Let alone sexy.
We humans have been taught to hold our shit together at all cost.
To not feel because it will make us vulnerable.
To not reveal our emotions because we will not be taken seriously.
We have been taught, brainwashed into believing that we are to constrict our energy.
We have been told that this is the proper, safe and mature thing to do.
When in truth what this containment of our energy does is the direct opposite to the desired reaction.
IT CREATES ENERGETIC IMMATURITY.
We never learn how to manage our energy.
How to hold it.
How to feel it.
How to direct and guide it.
Leaving us feeling scared of who we are and our power.
Making us separate from our truth and feel lost, abandoned in life.
And all because we never were trained on the importance and power of our energy.
Let alone the simple fact that we are all energy beings.
Science today is finally catching up to ancient spirituality.
And it is proving that thought creates emotion,
it is proving that our consciousness directs events and actual energy flow.
We can heal ourselves and the world with our consciousness or we can destroy it.
Our desire to control the situation,
to control others and the end results,
our desire to have a timeline and know what to expect,
our desire to have problems and make logical sense out of everything,
is evidence of how disconnected we humans are still from our souls.
And thus from our truth.
And our truth is that we are fucking powerful.
The same consciousness that created universes moves through each of us and is wanting to expand.
Expansion of energy is not about forcing God into a human sized box of control.
Harnessing your energy has nothing to do with squishing it into some perfect package that society has told you it needs to be in nor avoiding your feelings and emotions,
avoiding your beautiful heart center.
Expansion and harnessing energy means to tap into your heart,
to feel your desires fully, accept where your life and vibration is at, look at what you need to do to bring your vibration into a matching frequency with what you desire,
and LET THE FUCK GO!
Play with your life.
Play with your power.
Let play and fun rule your world,
meaning ENJOY LIFE.
This is how you manipulate energy and design the life of your dreams.
You want that lover in your bed.
The money in your bank.
The freedom in your time.
Well the only way to get it is to learn how to enjoy the life that you are living today and to play with your day, your energy, and lean into letting go of your need to control everything and get it all right.
You will never be done.
Do you get that?
You are never going to be done until you are six feet under.
Then, then you will be released from this physical bondage where you are learning how powerful you are.
Once released from that bondage, you KNOW how powerful you are.
But this life that you are so terrified of living,
so scraed of fucking up in,
this life needs you to love it and enjoy it so that it can provide you with tons of opportunities to love it and enjoy it.
Otherwise you will exist all your days here on earth living with the energetic immaturity that keeps landing you into pain and suffering, loss and abandonment, fear and lack of worth, as well as not knowing how to deal with self and emotions.
You see when I say that my new professional title should be energy dominatrix,
What I am saying is that I help my beautiful fellow souls access their power through them learning how to surrender and trust me to guide the energy that they have held constricted and been fearful of feeling for years into a state of full being processing.
Where they get an opportunity to witness themselves in a fresh light,
Yes they move from the armoured up, tense, stressed and anxious soul who is hiding from their greatness into an individual who knows who the fuck they are and is in love with themselves, their lives, their past and sees the path before them because they finally get that they are the architecht who is designing it.
They learn to surrender to themselves.
Surrender to their truth.
Surrender to enjoyment.
and they smile more.
they laugh more.
they sex whole heartedly more.
they penetrate the world with who they really are and the world receives them fully and grants them that turned on, ignited fuck yes life where all those who are still blind to thier power and caught up in their egos and thoughts stand back and say,
“They are so lucky.”
But it is not luck.
It is creation.
And they learn how to do it by letting go of all that shit that they have been holding on to and that has been weighing them down.
They let it go on my integration table.
They let it go in our walks together.
They let it go in our conversations.
They let it go in our deep soulful eye gazing sessions.
They let it go in our holding sessions.
They let it go with tears and laughter,
by being vulnerable and letting me see them.
They let it go and they end up feeling full on who they are.
This is where we all are to be my love.
This is the truth.
And in reality,
you don’t need me for any of this.
All you need is to love yourself enough to commit to letting all that shit go once and for all and dare to step out and trust that life has your back.
Dare to believe that you are the architect of your life.
Dare to love yourself in full abandon.
Because baby you are worthy of it all.
And YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN GIFT IT TO YOURSELF.
Now for anyone else out there,
who would like a little assistance,
well I am hear to smack you, kick your ass,
snuggle you as you blow snot in my hair,
watch tears fall from your beautiful eyes,
and build you up in love.
That just requires you being sick and tired of messing around and feeling the way that you do.
It’s time to level up your life and say FUCK YES TO YOU!
And let YOU BE SEEN.
I see YOU.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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LIVING FOR SELF.
One of the hardest lessons I keep learning in this lifetime is just this.
The constant reminder that we are truly not here for anyone’s else’s happiness but our own.
Its a difficult lesson,
Because we are trained from our birth forward that putting others feelings, well being and happiness “should” always come before our own.
However the reality is not so.
You will never find happiness or fulfillment in putting yourself on the back burner of your own life.
We are all here for the same reason,
To expand and thrive.
Through our wanting for more in our life experiences we expand the universe.
It is through our conscious creation and desire that life manifests and we create everything that is, that was and ever will be.
We grow this desire and our wanting by experience of all that we do not want for,
Such as lack in any subject area that we want abundance in.
But for us to have the life that we are desiring we MUST become the person who can take hold of it. Meaning WE have to grow ourselves.
We have to become our truest self and get into alignment with out desires.
As vibrational beings this means that we HAVE TOO PUT OUR HAPPINESS FIRST.
No more playing around and taking responsibility for everyone else’s joy while we sit in toxity of giving our last drop of us to this other who at the end of the day cannot even fully gain happiness through our exhaustion.
Sure we can offset anothers sadness or life issues to a degree,
But cannot eternally fix anyone else’s shit.
We cannot actually make anyone else happy for the long haul.
Just like gratitude, love and the feeling of abundance is an inside job. All we can do is assist someone feeling those things in the short term, but if they do not find it within and know thier own worthiness then at the slighted retraction of our energy,
They will fall the fuck apart.
This is how you know that someone has become dependent on your energy.
Not realizing it often when we are in this state of dependence we are actually being what is known as an energy vampire,
One you must feed on the kindness,
The love, the empathy, and even the sadness or anger of another to keep themselves stable in life.
Those who are not acting from thier authentic selves, who are out of alignment with God thus thier own soul and who do not know themselves, love themselves, often are guilty consciously and subconsciously of doing this.
And they can make those around them feel guilty for thier life misery. They will play and toil with others emotions, acting the victim and helpless lost soul just to get thier feeding.
But this is where we all must realize that NONE OF US are here to save anyone else.
And we cannot even help them save themselves if we do not care for self first.
Its just like the speech we have all heard on the airplane at take off about the oxygen masks.
“Put it on yourself first before helping anyone else, including your child.”
This is because you are of zero help if you can’t breathe, if you are passed out or worse dead.
And the same applies to our day to day life and relationships.
You are of zero use if you exhaust yourself to the point of fatigue, disease and illness, depression all under the belief structure that you need to put every other asshole on this planet in front of self.
You MUST LIVE FOR SELF.
You must get selfish and love yourself enough to say no to everyone,
Especially when they are playing on your emotions and hoping you will feed them.
They need to learn how to love themselves enough to align the fuck up to source and not need your beautiful ass anymore.
They need to take fucking responsibility for thier own lives and energy.
For thier emotions.
And stop handing over the reigns to each and every Joe that passes by.
And you my dear,
You need to just do the same.
Its time to take back your power.
Take back your life.
Take back your energy and LOVE YOU.
Because baby you are so worthy of being in alignment and feeling fucking awesome.
You are worthy of living the life that you desire.
You are worthy of happiness, love and abundance.
Well being and satisfaction of who you are.
But you will never get any of this as long as you keep sacrificing your energy for all the vampires that you love.
Stop enabling them,
And start being you.
With all my love on this transitional day.
Stop Existing & Start Living
Coaching for Grown A*s Believers
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LOST IN EMOTION.
sweat rolling between.
Gasping for air.
deep within, my cervix shakes,
my pelvic floor quivers,
my chest cracks,
my g-spot ignites,
and I sigh.
It’s been hours of rolling in these sheets.
My muscles are like jello from all the orgasms,
the energy spasms and the release.
My legs are shaking and I feel like laughing and crying all at the same time.
It is hard to focus my vision,
the ceiling light is spinning as I lay there,
breathing in the intoxicating vibrations of this moment.
I AM DRUNK.
I am vulnerable.
I am raw.
I am open.
I feel so very alive and yet transcended into nothing.
Tears are streaming from my face.
My lover kisses and bites my neck,
grabs my hair at the base of my scalp and pulls me down onto him,
not just entering me but penetrating me.
Penetrating me to the core of my being,
as though he is witnessing my soul from within my very body.
My body quivers and shakes,
I have lost all reason,
I am without care,
here in this space of true bliss,
here in this place that has not been visited to these levels of depth for sometime,
I CAN SURRENDER.
Letting go of the fear,
the worry and the thought.
Letting go of my conditions,
of terms and agreements,
letting go of the physical and just floating in the abyss of nothing yet everything,
and discovering myself yet again.
Here I am .
Here he is.
And together we get lost.
We expand and we explore.
From this land anything is possible.
All can be desired and achieved.
This is the land of alchemy,
the place of magick.
Calling down the blessings from source,
realizing them into here and now.
As I open fully to the deep rowling thunders of each orgasmic wave,
my spirit aligns and I allow.
I allow all to manifest that I have craved for,
and I open my life to receiving it.
My body is awakened,
ignited and ready.
With each sip of air I call out to the universe my desires,
as my lover tousles me around,
pressing firmly inside of me,
pumping my g-spot in rhythmic cycles of ecstasy,
the juices roll from my lips and I pull his hand in further and further.
Fully engulfed inside my cavern,
his subtle moves of hand carry me deeper and deeper,
the pressure is building,
my body becomes tense.
And I see it.
I SEE IT ALL.
I feel the filling of my cup,
as it overflows with abundance,
with love and health,
as my life is changed,
altered for the better.
The shaking of my flesh subsides,
my breath deepens,
my muscles relax.
And I feel him again,
Intensifying my energy,
and I melt.
Dancing with my soul in this expression of truth.
Feeling an ignited calm,
a peace and hunger.
I know that this moment….
Like so many from my past is transformational.
And I am ready.
Let me surrender into you and become nothing and everything.
Yes this is the power of our orgasm.
This is the importance of our sex.
This has been hidden from you for centuries,
known by few.
And it is truth.
It is my truth as it is yours as well,
you can channel your energy and focus it on your desired life.
Manifestation at its finest.
First you must learn its secrets.
Do you dare?
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS! 🤯🤯🤯
Hating on self?
Or maybe you say that you don’t hate yourself.
You don’t dislike yourself even,
you are just frustrated.
Down on self because you are not feeling great in your skin.
And I get it.
I truly do.
We all go through these times.
And hey here is a little secret for you….🤫
I am currently in one of those moments in life where I am a bit down on myself. I am not in this moment in love with my body.
I am not in love with how I am feeling in my own skin,
and I am having issues looking myself in the mirror.
and even feeling sexy.
I sorta feel a bit grossed out by myself.
The way I got here is not really important.
And that is a tough concept to get through our human minds,
because we want to have our reasons, we want to analyze and figure out the reason behind the problem.
But that will never get the solving that we desire of the problem.
Because we are stating that we have a problem to begin with instead of just letting go of all this self-judgement and turning back to our truth.
Now it is important to be aware of habit changes,
of sabotaging thing that we have introduced into our lives,
into our thoughts and emotions,
that may be contributing to the support of this self-disgust.
The reality is that you can say that you love yourself all damn day long but if you are not loving your body enough to get it moving and consuming healthy foods, staying hydrated and getting enough sleep,
plus if you are choosing to stay in toxic relationship that are not feeding your heart and soul,
and you are not leaning into YOU…
then you simply are lieing your f-cking ass off to yourself about loving yourself.
You have to fall in love with yourself.
You have to own up to your power and stop making yourself so damn small.
Stop fearing the impressive, expansive person that YOU ARE.
And that my love is why you are so full of this yuckiness to yourself.
👉The reason that you don’t like yourself is because you’re not up to speed with yourself. 🛸🤯💃
You got that love?
YOU WERE BORN TO BE MARVELOUS.
You were created powerful, worthy and came into this world knowing such,
but it got stolen from you by the “good” lessons that your parents and the adults in your life taught you,
what society and school/church showed you,
and you started to believe that you were not powerful, worthy and abundant.
You started to believe that your light was dim.
and this means that you let go of being marvelous.
And that my dear was YOU.
So now the absence of you, really sucks!
It really does not have you feeling your best.
You are struggling to look into the mirror or make eye contact.
You are feeling frumpy and negative,
hating on your fleshy suit and hating on who you have allowed yourself to become.
When the answer to your problem…
if you want to call it that…
cause us humans love to solve problems, right?
Is that the reason that you are not liking yourself,
let alone in love with yourself ( an me too here),
is because you’re not ALLOWING yourself to be yourself.
You have cast your truth out.
And you sit back in your disgust over who you are right now,
and you maintain powerful focus on what needs to change, needs fixed, where you f-cked it all up at.
The worst thing that you can do though is just this.
Holding yourself in focus and finding a critical thought about you.
Because that action,
that manifestation that you are creating,
TAKES YOU AWAY FROM WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
And you are powerful AF!
You are deserving.
You are beautiful and strong.
You are courageous and loving.
You are intuitive and caring.
You are worthy and abundant.
That is who you are.
That is what you are to be living, RIGHT NOW!
And it is up to only you love to take yourself from this absence of self and get the f-ck lined back up.
Synchronize to your TRUTH.
Here is where you will fall in love with you and become mesmerized by staring into your own eyes,
lost in the sea of you.
You will be captivated at your heart and your beauty and you will not just think that you are worthy,
you will KNOW without a doubt that you are,
because your soul knows.
Your souls never has questioned your worthiness or your power.
That is why you are feeling so bad love,
because you are questioning what your soul deeply is certain of.
And when you come back to YOU and who YOU REALLY ARE,
well that is when whatever the problems you are having with your body and life right now, will just wash away with ease.
Time to start loving on the most important person in your world wouldn’t you say?
And STOP trying to be all this or that for everyone else that is not you.
With all my love, beautiful.
Remember Who You Are.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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HAVE YOU EVER FARTED AND PEED YOURSELF?
For those out there who cannot believe that I just shared that…
Being authentic and true to the message that I feel needs to be shared in any given moment.
No matter what others’ perceptions are of me.
Now that’s not to say that the judgements and criticisms that get cast my way do not sting from time to time and sometimes make me question, ” Is that true?”
But I can assure you that 99.9% of the time my intent is to live and be authentically true.
So back to this farting and peeing thang that I started off today with. To be clear I did not actually pee myself. I was going to the bathroom when I farted really big and it forced me to pee some.
My initial thoughts were, ” I am so glad that I was not driving.”
Then I was like damn I need to get back on my yoni egg practice, then I thought no girl, you yoni egg faithfully and have great control, you were just not being as present and were very relaxed and so that’s what caused that.
No matter why it happened, what ended up coming from it was the idea that I should share this funny blurp because no one in my influence space would most likely share such a thing.
It’s too personal.
It’s too TMI.
It’s not professional.
It’s not spiritual.
And that last one is why I chose that I must share.
Over and over again I hear what is deemed spiritual and what is not spiritual. And I just roll my MF eyeballs back in my head at all the judgement that so many so called spiritual leaders have around being spiritual.
It seems that there are these things on a spiritual list somewhere that you must do/be/act like in order to obtain true spiritual enlightenment like the master teachers did.
Among them is to:
*always speak softly with limited expression
*to not be too sexual and for sure do not speak about it
*to make known that you have read a library full of literature and have a cabinet full of certifications and understand ALL the technical terms of any spiritual manual
*to dance uninhibited tossing your body about however you feel fit
*to be vegan or at least vegetarian
*to have massive crystals everywhere and adorn yourself with as many of them as you can at any one moment
*to be broke or at least struggling, because money is not spiritual
*to act a martyr and strangely be okay with it
*to wear “hippie” clothing
*to make little of the physical body, do not be unhappy with any body part and God forbid that you think of surgically doing something to that body part
*to be el naturel
*to make exaggerated use of words from “spiritual texts” and other languages
*to refer to a sexual partner as beloved or my divine
*to make clear that we are all gods and goddesses and the creator is the divine
*oh yeah and to judge anyone who is actually just fucking being human and has come to terms with self and witness life from a perspecitive that we are all here to live, learn and expand no matter our beliefs or backgrounds, our desires or challeneges, and those who just speak up and say real shit…. let’s judge them hard core cuz that aint spiritual
*And one more item, spiritually evolved people make a lot of use of the words spiritual bypassing and point fingers to all who are doing it EXCEPT self because they are too enlightened to be human and do that, also they would never make socially ill statements.
Yes these and many more are on the must do/be/act like list for REAL SPIRITUAL FOLK.
Well, some of that shit is me and some is not,
as you know.
The point however to today’s post is that WE ARE ALL SPIRITUAL BEINGS.
We are all here having a spiritual experience whether you recognize it as such or not.
And the reality is that EVERYTHING is energy.
Matter of fact money is one of the most spiritual things that we have. It shows us EXACTLY just how aligned to the universal flow of things we actually are.
So to all those beautiful spiritual peep’s out there who claim that they are showing off just how aligned and how much understanding they have because they are broke AF,
well all I can say is that you my dear have not figured it out.
As a spiritual people, it is among our mission of the soul to learn our worthiness and value ourselves so much so that we truly know that we are the creators of this world and our lives. That life is reacting to us.
And it is our ability or inability to receive the abundance that we all have through the multitude of desires that we are storing up in the heavens to manifest into this experience that shows just how much we actually value and love ourselves.
Recently I was speaking with a beautiful woman who is in the spiritual healing field. She came to me asking for guidance as to how she could quit her full time corporate job and actually make a living doing what her passion was.
I asked her if she was marketing her services?
How much she charged?
And a few other items.
She responded with,
” I have been working with people for years off and on and they refer people to me. I love what I do so it’s hard to charge a fee. “
So again I asked,
“So what do you charge?”
” I just ask for a love offering.”
OMFG! That’s another thing on the must be/do/act list of spiritual people……
You must accept love offerings.
Please someone shoot me now.
Doesn’t it sound so romantic and spiritual,
good hearted and not needy at all to say “love offering”?
It just sounds like you have more than enough with plenty left over.
You are entrusting the universe to dictate your worth and the universe always takes care of you.
At least this is the perception that you are trying to put out there,
but when you don’t have your electric bill money let’s see if they will take a MF love offering.
After all energy is spiritual, right?
End result here is that I told this woman that she was not loving herself or her passion.
I shared with her that if she really valued and found worth in her abilities and passion that she would be more than happy to ask for what it was worth and put a price on it.
Instead her choice of asking for a love offering sent out the vibration of,
“Please pay me something decent because my power bill is due in three days and I do not have it.”
You can put forth whatever action,
speak with whatever softness that you feel correct,
dance carefree all damn day,
eat all the vegan meals and recycle your heart out,
study under the greatest of current teachers,
and claim that you have no shadow side, no ego.
But the truth my dear is still the same.
All that hiding that you are doing from being human,
it is just that,
and your true spiritual path is to learn to love your human expression.
Sometimes that means that you end up coloring your hair,
having fake nails, eyelashes and boobs.
Sometimes you are all crunchy and choose to not shave or bath.
But no matter what your human expression is,
when you are in alignment you are open to receiving in your life the abundance that is here for you.
You are open to compliments.
You are open to love.
You are open to your anger and your fear.
You are open to making money, good money.
You are open to sex and orgasm.
And you want to enjoy it all because it feels good and it feeds your soul. It supports your powerful self, and you can see how your thoughts and your feelings are manifesting right before your eyes because you, you my dear love yourself.
You love your human expression.
And you get…
THAT WE ARE ALL SPIRITUAL BEINGS LIVING A SPIRITUAL PATH.
And if you are not living from THIS truth,
then I ask you one thing….
“How is your lack of receiving showing any respect or value to your passion?”
Would you want to work, get healing or learn from someone who does not value their skills, connection/alignment or thier practice enough to charge for it?
Would you feel that they are the best or even good?
If you were having a baby,
Would you want to go to the doctor that charged you what they are worth for help and care or would you rather just take this bloke over here who says that he is a doctor that you can trust with your life and childs but will do it for a love offering?
Who are you more likely to trust?
TO ALL MY SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENED PEEPS OUT THERE,
THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU TO VALUE YOURSELF AND CHARGE WHAT YOU ARE WORTH.
Now more than ever.
You need to know your worth and let others know it as well.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown *A*s Believers”
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