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I AM POWERFUL… But I Can’t Do THAT.

I AM POWERFUL.
I AM THE CREATOR OF MY WORLD.
I AM MY OWN BOSS.
I AM ALIGNED.
 
BUT….
I can’t do that.
 
Yeah THAT thing that you suggested.
THAT thing that scares me a little, that shakes my soul.
THAT thing that is calling me.
THAT thing that is appealing, that pulls me, but cost money.
THAT thing where I step out of this comfort.
THIS comfort of all that I AM.
THIS comfort that holds me right here, in the NOW.
THIS eternal NOW.
This eternal NOW that I desepratly crave to change,
because it does not feed me.
It does not satsify my soul.
It is NOT me.
And yet, I AM.
 
I AM…
 
I cannot say it.
I will not admit it.
I will avoid it at all cost.
Instead let’s discuss my limitations.
Hear my plea for these beautiful, justifiable limitations.
You see them.
You see my struggle.
You know I am not making these up.
 
Yes these are what rule me.
These are my obstacles.
These are my burdens, my wounds and my chains.
Yes, that is the comfort that I cannot let go of.
That is the comfort that I will argue for.
That is what I CHOOSE for my NOW.
 
BUT…
I can’t do that.
 
I can’t do this.
I can’t.
 
Do you understand?
Do you see my struggle.
Do you feel my soul, my heart.
 
I want so badly to be aligned.
I crave to have the life that I know is for me.
I want to feel my power.
My worthiness.
I want to love myself.
I want to be SEEN.
 
THIS expression of me that I AM right now,
THIS is not me.
And yet, it is.
 
Because I allow it.
Beacause I am use to it.
It is familiar.
It is safe,
even in its misery,
it is still all I know.
And therefore I believe that it is so.
When you tell me that I can be so much more than THIS.
When you look through to my CORE,
and you witness my light and smile,
I want to run and at the same time I want to strip myself further down,
to be fully revealed.
To embrace ALL THAT I AM.
 
And this finite version of me that I am familiar with and allow all to see,
this version it needs to be embraced and expanded.
I do not long to run from this version,
to hide it, or destroy it,
but to encorporate it into all THAT I AM.
 
It’s funny is it not?
But it is already so.
I AM already every piece of what I desire to be.
There is no encorporation to achieve.
But instead all that is required,
all that ever is required,
is to ALLOW.
 
And to KNOW….
THAT I AM POWERFUL.
 
But in order to fully become what I already AM….
I must let go all the practicle defiance of all THAT I AM.
 
And that means I must STOP making excuses.
I must own WHO I AM.
I must FEEL my worthiness without a need to prove anything.
I must step forward and push these false boundaries of time, money and space.
Of health, support and focus.
 
Yes.
I must command my universe to open itself to my expansion.
I must step forward into trusting all THAT I AM.
And NOW…
NOW I KNOW.
 
I must make what is familiar unfamiliar,
and what is unfamiliar familiar.
 
THIS…
THIS is my path.
 
I AM POWERFUL.
NO MORE EXCUSES- JUST ACCEPTANCE.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time for you to say yes to who you really are beautiful. It s time for you to commit to who you are,
to your soul and say YES.
Let’s work together 1:1 to bring you into the next decade of your life, the next year of your life fully embodied and activated.
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Commitment to Your Nightmare or Your Dream?

There are moments in our lives that we just KNOW without a doubt that its TIME.
 
It’s time to shut up and CHOOSE instead to SHOW up.
It’s time to STOP putting in empty action but instead CALL from within our truth,
our deisre, our KNOWING.
 
Yes these are the times that we encounter repeatedly in our lives in so many areas.
 
However, only a small chosen few actually realize these moments. The rest choose to ignore what their inner knowing has to say and completely disregard the urges from SOUL.
 
Thus, leading them down a bleak and dim life path filled with anxiety, fear, doubt, shame and discord. They turn and avoid the images of their dreams,
they make light and joke about the horrors that they are facing,
they gossip and get caught up in immaturities,
they finger point and focus on what is wrong.
And they do it because they are afraid.
Afraid to say YES…
 
Yes to SOUL.
 
Instead choosing to beleive the bogus tales of keeping themselves so busy that they have no time to expand,
to grow, to enjoy the life that is offered them,
and they beleive that by remaining so busy that they will lessen the pain of not having the life that they desire.
When in truth what they are accomplishing is the very creation of more pain.
Vaster seperations.
Deeper versions of bondage.
And they are sacrificing themselves,
their dreams,
their SOULS to Average and Ordinary.
 
They are committing to NOT HAVING.
And they are committing with all the best intentions and ideas.
The self emposed limitations that they have been raised to be their truth,
hold them in captivity from everything.
They believe that life is unsafe and non-supportive to what their hearts desire might be.
They fall prey to the beliefs of their parents,
thier grandparents and society,
both church and state.
Picking up the shakles and locking them on themselves,
in the effort to do what is right.
To be responsible.
Mature.
A good citizen.
A good parent, friend, partner, daughter, brother, etc.
They establish the boundaries that have always been there,
committing to this old paradime,
and closing their eye’s to all other possibilities.
 
KNOWING what they know,
believing what they know.
They look to the future as something outside of themselves,
they look at thier dreams with a light huff,
a tad bit of hope,
and a deep knowing that it won’t happen,
at least not NOW.
 
In this they are committing to never having.
Because SOMEDAY never comes.
and the reson they want what they want is to make themselves happier, feel more complete,
feel free, connected, joy, satisfied.
 
The commitment is intense.
The belief of what IS is powerful.
And the creation of their nightmares is real.
 
But here it is beautiful,
YOU are in charge.
You get to commit to what you want,
if you will only choose to focus your energy and your actions on what your SOUL is leaading you too,
instead of what your fear is dictating to you,
you will realize quickly that you are POWERFUL.
 
Because You Are!
So I ask you today beautiful….
Are you committed to your dream or your nightmare?
 
 
And as always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
It’s time for you to say yes to who you really are beautiful. It s time for you to commit to who you are,
to your soul and say YES.
 
Let’s work together 1:1 to bring you into the next decade of your life, the next year of your life fully embodied and activated.
 
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Exhaustion is a CHOICE.

YOU WORK FOR YOURSELF SO YOU HAVE ALL THE TIME THAT YOU NEED.
 
 
And other statements that show that you have no comprehension of life or the power of manifesting.
 
My entire life I have dealt with people telling me something.
Assuming something.
And thinking that they have it worse or better than I do.
 
The reality is that no matter where you are at in life,
there will ALWAYS be someone in worse shoes,
and someone in better shoes,
than yours.
 
You cannot go through life concerned about other people’s shoes.
 
Or choices.
Or time.
 
But to look at another person’s situation and use it to show WHY YOU CANNOT do what you need is crazy AF!
 
Yet this is a common occurrence.
 
Every week I work with people who come and sit down with me for coaching,
they tell me their tough stories on how they got to where they are at,
they paint pictures of suffering, fear and anxiety.
They paint pictures of how hard life is.
And how much they hope for.
They tell me their grand faith and love they have,
about their desires and dreams.
They affirm a strong commitment.
 
And then….
 
They say,
“Yeah, but how long is this going to take?”
 
“You just don’t understand, I have kids and a corporate job. I don’t have the time or the energy. I am exhausted.”
 
And they say this as though they should get some medal for living an exhausting life.
 
They believe that this is just how success is.
How life is.
and what is to be expected.
They also assume that the anxiety, depression, frustration and constriction…
 
the sacrificing of their dreams and selves is what a smart, responsible person should do.
 
NOTHING could be farther from the truth though.
 
This way of thinking and feeling holds you in a scarcity mindset and thus keeps you living a life of poverty. You may have money, but if you are exhausted and empty you are actually POOR AF.
 
As Brene Brown would say,
“It takes courage to say yes to rest and play in a culture where exhaustion is seen as a status symbol.”
 
And exhaustion leads you to anxiety.
It leads you to depression and hopelessness.
 
Exhaustion creates a massive void in who you are.
 
It is no status symbol,
it is a premature death sentence,
and you don’t have to be 6 feet under to be dead baby.
 
What you get is an UNLIVED LIFE.
 
Just think about that one for a second if you have the mental focus to do such after this long ass day.
 
Are you among the norm out there of this world?
 
Like most people who have two lives…
 
The one you are living and the one you keep denying?
 
The Unlived Life.
 
The reality is babe…
 
YOU GET TO CHOOSE.
 
The reason I have the energy and vitality for the life that I am creating is simply because I have chosen to LIVE not just get by and exist.
 
I have had years,
even a decade or two that I chose otherwise and that shiz almost killed me.
 
My SOUL was like WTF! We are outta here if you keep this shiz up girl.
 
And I had to CHOOSE LIFE.
Or say goodbye.
 
Sure I work for myself,
I make my own schedule,
I decide my value in my fee’s.
I have no thumb on me.
I have freedom and flexibility.
TIME.
 
And with all of that comes responsibility.
Dedication.
Commitment.
Desire.
 
I choose to focus on what I want to create and therefore it gets created.
 
A long time ago I said that I wanted to be a full time mommy.
That I did not want my children to have to go to daycare and be raised by someone else.
 
I also said that I wanted to provide home cooked meals for my children 80-90% of the time.
 
I also said that I valued dating my children, all 7 of them.
Spending 1:1 time with them.
I also said that I wanted to take them on experiences,
to adventure together, to laugh, read, play…
 
And that I wanted this frequently.
 
Now on the other side of things I said that I wanted to make a multi-six figure income.
That I wanted to build an empire.
I wanted to teach masses of people.
I wanted to work with the 1%.
 
I said that I wanted to look good and feel great as I age.
I said that I wanted to be healthy.
That I wanted to travel – A LOT.
 
I said that I wanted all of it and desired for more.
Knowing that my desires would grow as I created more and more of the life that I wanted.
 
I share this with you to make the point that I get busy.
Busy life.
Ton’s happening.
Chaos.
Drama.
It’s all part of the picture.
And being center hub for a bunch of people can be EXHAUSTING…
 
LOL.
 
The thing is that any of us can have a truly amazing, fulling life if we DECIDE to actually commit to LIVING.
 
This means to put the focus not on always working,
not making all those bills and creditors,
your boss or employee’s,
your clients,
the football game or candy crush,
more important than your Mother-effing Life!
 
Because that is just being average and ordinary.
And you are NOT THAT LUV!
 
You are EXTRAORDINARY.
 
So Own It!
 
And Live accordingly.
 
Are you living in alignment to WHO YOU REALLY ARE?
Or are you settling for something less than…
 
Be Real…
 
And Remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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YOUR NEGATIVE FEEDBACK SHOWS JUST HOW OUT OF ALIGNMENT YOU TRULY ARE.

YOUR NEGATIVE FEEDBACK SHOWS JUST HOW OUT OF ALIGNMENT YOU TRULY ARE.
 
But thank you anyway for sharing it.
 
Many moon’s ago I learned this little bit of spiritual wisdom and it has made all the difference in how I deal with others and has helped me to soften my reaction to other as well.
 
After learning it,
I became more compassionate as I simply saw their judgments, opinions, criticisms and ideas about my life and ways,
even who I was or was not,
as a message as to how they actually saw themselves and just did not recognize it.
 
It is always so much easier to witness in others,
that, that we have challenges with ourselves on the most.
 
We see this all the time while driving.
People with road rage,
or people who quickly get defensive or frustrated on the road typically are the one’s who are not wanting to drive,
believe that people are bad drivers always,
believe that there is always way too much traffic,
that people don’t know how to merge.
And you catch these individuals yelping about everything negative on the road.
They also are the one’s who will get right up on your ass and honk,
will flip you off for no good reason,
will pass you quickly and push their way in to exit instead of just moving with the flow of traffic.
 
They enter the experience of driving with an energy about them.
 
It is the energy of pissed off frustration.
And they drive accordingly.
And they see it in all their fellow drivers even more so.
 
And it is just this way,
because THIS is what they are FOCUSED ON.
 
Focused on the negativity.
Focused on the anger that they feel.
They will say, ” I just don’t like crowds or people.”
But what they are saying is, ” I don’t like myself.”
or ” I am nervous, insecure around people.”
 
And their focus on the negativity,
on the fear,
the uncertainty,
the control that they desire,
makes them judgmental of everyone around them and keeps their eye’s open to only THAT that they are looking most for.
 
WHAT IS WRONG IN THIS WORLD.
 
What is wrong with you.
What is wrong with anyone.
 
And to make matters even more worse,
these fine folks with their critical eye want to help FIX IT.
And they KNOW they have the answer needed,
because they have been on the outside looking in and they see how to go about it.
 
They see the TRUTH.
Your TRUTH.
They have it all figured out.
And they WANT TO HELP.
 
Never realizing that they cannot help from the place that they are witnessing from,
because they are witnessing an illusion,
or at best an old version of the situation or of you.
They are witnessing the events from a place of scarcity, doubt,
a need to control.
They are witnessing from a place that is not whole.
That place being themselves.
And because their focus in on the negative and a need to fix, control, change things,
they are revealing just how they feel about themselves at the deepest of levels.
 
Because you see a person who LOVES THEMSELVES,
a person who is connected and aligned to SOUL,
a person who is respectful of being human,
a person who is compassionate,
a person who has true confidence and self-esteem,
who know’s how powerful they really are,
that sort of person has…
 
NO DESIRE TO JUDGE OR CRITICIZE.
 
When we judge.
When we criticize.
When we try and change or tell another how or who they are.
When we try and convince another that they are wrong on their path.
We in fact are attempting to CONTROL them.
And not loving them for just who they are, as is.
 
When we do these things,
we may use tactics such as guilt, shame or fear to get the results that we feel are right,
and in so doing so,
we cut down the heart and soul of the other person.
And if you get right with yourself,
you will realize just how crappy that actually feels to bring someone down.
 
No matter how good your reasoning may be,
it does not feel good.
 
And that is because
YOU ARE OUT OF YOUR OWN SOUL ALIGNMENT
in these moments.
 
So what do you do when you find yourself wanting to fix, judge or change someone?
 
You breathe and look at what is really coming up for you.
Instead ask yourself,
 
” How do I truly feel about myself right now?”
 
I mean really go there.
Don’t take that first response of,
” I feel great!”
That your ego will spout off.
 
If you want to connect to people.
If you want to enjoy life.
Be happy.
Be received from others.
If you want to know yourself and feel good about who you are.
To be loved and to love.
 
Then you owe yourself the TRUTH.
 
How do you feel about the person you are right now?
How do you feel about the life that you have right now?
 
Start there beautiful.
And take your focus off of everyone’s challenges.
Because whether they have them or not,
it does not matter.
 
Those challenges and issues,
those problems and wrong doings or beings,
that you perceive.
Are NOT YOURS to fix in any other than YOURSELF.
 
Start There.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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TO BE SOFT… What Does It Mean To Your Happiness?

TO BE SOFT IS TO BE POWERFUL. – Rupi Kaur
 
Last year I went out with my second oldest child, my daughter Rebekah to get tattoo’s. She had this beautiful quote that she was getting putting on the inside of her arm that her boyfriend had ended a love letter with. It was such lovely, powerful words of encouragement and I could easily understand why she desired to keep them for her lifetime.
 
I love ink. And getting inked is a THING.
If you are into ink, you get it.
If not, oh well, I am sorry.
 
SO I decided that I would get a tattoo as well, but I always want my tattoo’s to have meaning of some sort and I had not given much thought to this moment. There we were driving to the artist discussing what I should do. When Bek says mom,
“To be soft is to be powerful. – This is so you mom.”
 
I was bewildered, I do admit.
I felt like I sucked at being soft.
I felt like soft was scary.
I felt like soft was bad somehow, that I should be ashamed of it even.
I questioned what she meant by this.
And she explained,
“Mom you are always there for us. You always let us see you and you are always working on yourself. You make mistakes and you allow for our mistakes. You are the strongest person.”
 
What she was expressing to me was that I ALLOWED MYSELF TO FEEL LIFE.
 
The good.
The bad.
The painful.
The joy and orgasm.
The sweetness.
The bitterness.
The meh.
The void.
The fear.
The fullness.
 
I feel it all.
And I KNOW the BEAUTY of it, because I allow myself to experience it all.
 
And so, she was correct in her statement and much like her that day, I needed to keep with me the reminder of my power in my FEELS.
 
Through the course of this lifetime,
I have wanted so badly to run and hide from what I was feeling.
I have wanted to mask it,
cover it up and not allow it to be seen by self or others.
And when I did allow it to be seen or felt,
I was shamed of my humanness around my fears, my joy, my pain and void.
Something always seemed amiss in my feeling,
it was this voice in my head,
telling me that I should not be feeling this way.
It was this same voice telling me I was weak, pathetic and hopeless.
That it was this sort of crap that kept me disconnected from people.
That I was too much to handle.
I was broken.
 
 
And so I worked ever so hard to toughen up.
I focused on breathing in my emotions and “building a strong house” to hold them in.
In the belief that by not revealing them,
by holding them,
that I was being emotionally mature.
 
LMAO!!!!!
 
Looking back at this I feel silly.
Sweet in my desire to be mature with my emotions,
strong for the people in my life,
true.
But so wrong in truth,
this way of being,
of living was not LIVING.
It was hiding from life.
It was avoidance of who I was,
it was a shrinking of my heart center,
a closing to the one’s that I love.
It was a hardening or callousing of my ability to connect,
to be seen and to see another.
In this stifling of feeling,
I lost my ability to have intimacy with life, with others and with self.
I SHRUNK as a human.
 
And in this I lost.
I was the BIGGEST looser.
Because all I wanted was the intimacy,
the love,
the connection.
To be received and to hold space for another.
And what I gifted myself with in my “strength of holding my emotions so tight” was to shield LIFE.
 
The end result outside of loss of intimacy and ability to relate, connect and love, let alone be authentically compassionate or forgive self or others,
also led me to a shut down in my allowance to self to open and receive abundance.
 
My lesson in feeling,
was that in order to have my desires manifest in any fashion,
I needed to allow myself to “SOFTEN INTO THE FLOW OF FEELING LIFE.”
 
That my power came from this space,
You see in order for you to be able to KNOW YOUR PATH,
to FEEL what is right and good for YOU,
in order for you to be able to TRUST your judgement on any decision,
You must FEEL Your emotions, your physical reactions, your truth about it.
 
This means that if you are calloused to FEELING LIFE,
you will consistently make wrong choices for YOUR LIFE.
 
And this is not what living is about.
This is just existing.
 
And that is the WHY that you have been questioning.
WHY AM I NOT HAPPY?
Why does nothing make me happy?
 
Simple….
You are not FEELING LIFE.
 
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As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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WHY I DO SEX DAILY.

WHY I DO SEX DAILY….
 
I have sex almost daily.
It’s just my THING.
I do sex daily yes because I love sex,
but more so for what sex gives me.
And I am not referring to the mind blowing orgasms that only happen here and there.
 
Okay so it’s truth time folks,
yes ME,
the sex expert and coach that helps thousands of people have better and more sex DOES NOT have mind blowing, earth shaking orgasm daily.
Actually most days, its pretty meh…
The sex is just normal,
and even boring at times.
But I still do sex almost daily,
and some days if the opportunity presents itself two or three times.
 
Just a week ago I spent about 7 hours out of 24 having sex.
Now that was yummy.
But why was it yummy?
Why did I want to have 7 hours of sex?
or have it daily, especially if I am not having mind blowing sex or even an orgasm most of the time?
 
The simple truth is that SEX ignites my creative juices.
Sex allows me a medative state, no matter the outcome to work on embodying myself,
sex allows me practice time to get out of my head and FEEL myself at a deep level.
I get to practice letting go,
I get to practice vulnerability,
I get to practice surrender,
I get to see where I am challenged and through the rhythm of my sex,
the consistent allowance of letting myself feel and stepping away from the idea of cumming,
but just BEING instead,
I get to connect to my CORE and thus feel my partner at a deeper level.
 
I have discovered through the years,
that our SEX is linked to so many things.
Self-confidence,
self-love,
boundaries,
ability to receive and give,
thinking patterns,
fear,
DESIRE,
passion,
VITALITY,
a feeling of freedom,
a feeling of peace,
centeredness,
physical well-being,
mental well-being,
and expanded spiritual depth.
 
To just name a few.
Yet we are taught to shame our sex,
to hide from it,
to ignore it,
to STARVE IT.
We are taught that our sex is evil.
And that it should only be used to make babies, or relieve stress QUICKLY.
 
And this way of thinking about our sex,
has us shut down,
fearful,
and not having sex.
It has us feeling disconnected from life, ourselves and the people we love.
It has us feeling insecure and angry,
depressed and lost.
And it has us trying to achieve what we have a void in through any means possible.
It has us acting out and traumatizing ourselves and others.
 
Instead of loving ourselves,
being responsible,
compassionate,
mature people,
we are like caged, starving, beaten wild animals.
This is what our world has become when we DO SEX.
And it’s all because we have such a limited, repressed view and understanding of this beautiful gift from God.
 
Sex and finances are the top two reasons marriages break up.
Sex actually out weights money,
because when the sex is crap,
when the sex is disconnected and toxic,
when sex is just about the get off,
then you have a partner being used and abused.
You have trauma setting in and the relationship is TOXIC.
No amount of money can heal that.
That is all about embodiment.
That is all about connection.
 
And you can ONLY CONNECT to your partner if you know how to connect to yourself first.
 
THAT IS WHY I DO SEX DAILY.
 
The consistent practice of leaning more into ME.
 
How does your sex feel to you?
Connected and deep?
Expansive and full?
or shallow, empty and about the release?
 
Want to learn how you have beautiful sexing all the time and access these states of peace, joy and connection.
Enjoy intimacy no matter what is going on in your life?
Reach out to me for information on my 1:1 coaching available globally today.
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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#AWOMANLIKEYOU – I want that!

I am so effing hungry.
I want for so much.
My body desires to open.
To feel,
to have,
to be taken.
I long to be dominated and ravished.
To surrender.
To be FREE.
 
This is the desire of a turned on sensually confident woman.
 
Do not try and control me though.
Do not think you own me.
 
If you want me,
then have me.
 
JUST AS I AM.
 
Your desire is beautiful for me.
But your focus on creating me into something that I am not,
irritates my soul.
 
You claim that you want this sexual seductress,
but in your wanting you do not fathom what it will require from YOU.
 
You cannot have me sweet man.
And here is where your issue resides.
You will never contain that essence that you want so badly for.
You will never have me.
You must always be comfortable with letting me go.
 
I am wild and I am free.
I am independent even when you carry me.
I am passionate and powerful,
hungry and emotional.
You love my wild woman,
You crave to penetrate her so.
But in the enveloping,
you will loose yourself,
and if you allow this to happen,
you will loose me as well.
 
You see this woman that you desire…
she will only be with you,
if she wants you.
 
She will only remain,
if she is free to be herself.
She will only go deeper if she can trust that you can handle her fire,
her dance,
her love,
her passion and thirst for life.
 
She will play with many,
but hold out for only the few.
 
The few that are confident in themselves.
Expansive and strong.
Who want for her like she wants for life.
 
This confident seductress,
she is I my love,
but you can and never will have her.
 
Can you handle that knowledge my sweet?
Can you love and trust with the knowing that you will never contain that, that you desire to keep so close?
 
Can you muster up the courage my love to step further into who you truly are and witness all the depth of your soul,
unmasking your fears,
unraveling your truths,
and letting go of all that holds you back away from,
to feel you and her in totality?
 
Can you my love?
 
It will be required.
It will be sought after.
And for you to keep her,
you must do this at very least.
 
Many a warrior has walked on her grounds,
many a man who believed that he was King enough to hold her attention,
carry her heart,
open her soul,
and expand her sex.
 
Many have believed that they touched something special.
Many have thought that they captivated her.
But in truth,
it is not such.
It is but only a few.
 
Enjoy your dance my love.
Enjoy this dance while it is here.
Do not get caught up in the ideas and visions of owning her lands,
do not believe that she will employ you for more time then she feels fit,
the goddess on her knees before you,
with her intoxicating smile and scent,
her eye’s glimmering with fire,
her touch that ignites your core,
making you want to be a better man.
 
Yes that goddess will always adore you.
She will always appreciate you.
But the moment you reach out to hold on…
 
SHE IS GONE.
 
This is the dance of the of a turned on sensually confident woman.
 
A woman who KNOWS herself.
A woman who LOVES herself.
A woman who is OPEN.
A woman who is EMPOWERED.
 
The seductress you hunger for,
who makes you crave for more,
she is unattainable,
even if you bask in her love for a lifetime.
 
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
 
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
This poem was inspired by all the men who have shared their desire to have me in some fashion,
or to find me within another woman some way.
 
All women are seductresses.
All women deserve a KING.
And to call out this empowered, turned on Queen,
YOU must be a fit KING.
 
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STOP EFFING AROUND WITH THAT THING THAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK! – LET GO NOW.

I know how much you want it.
That THING…
 
That THING that you crave at your core.
You can taste having it, right.
You body tenses from the idea of getting it.
Excitement.
Nervousness.
The WHAT IF?
 
What if I get it,
what if I achieve it?
 
But even more so surging through your core,
through your veins is the WHAT IF of NOT having it.
 
And this my love is causing you the resistance that you feel.
The holding back of all that is yours for the having.
 
Your intense interest in having it is actually leaning mores o into the NOT HAVING IT.
 
Have you been wondering WHY?
 
Why is it not showing up?
Why is it that no matter how much focus you apply,
no matter how much attention you give it,
alignment work that you do,
journalling, ‘meditating,
fantasizing,
and “trying” to make yourself believe that it is coming,
BUT STILL…
 
It does not show up.
 
Have you been wondering WHY?
 
And no matter how hard you work at getting it,
how much you “feel” in the flow,
its just not there.
It’s just not happening.
 
And that love is SCARY as shiz, right?
 
I mean this is something BIG AF.
This is something you feel passionate about.
That you can FEEL at your CORE.
And you see others doing it.
Having it.
And living it.
 
But for some reason it just is not happening for you.
And you cannot figure out what the THING is that you need to do to get it.
 
So what is the THING love?
 
Okay, come here…
lean in love,
let me share a secret with you.
It is the answer that you have been looking for,
it is the answer that you already know,
unfortunately.
And you most likely are resisting it,
because you don’t know how to do it.
 
It’s YOU LETTING GO.
 
Your interest and focus on gain this THING is what is keeping it away from you love.
 
You are so caught up on the MUST HAVE,
that the energy that you are putting out is NOT HAVING.
And because you are feeling the void of not having it,
you are getting NOT HAVING IT.
 
This is your FEAR.
Right?
 
You fear what life is going to be like if you don’t get your dreams and goals,
if you don’t succeed at your dreams.
You fear being told that you were wrong,
silly, stupid, naive even,
for “think” that you could do it, have it, achieve it.
 
Yes THIS IS THE THING that is holding you back love.
 
It is your intense focus on the NOT HAVING.
 
And your fear of not getting it.
 
You have GOT TO LET THIS SHIZ GO NOW!
 
Number one success rule to having your dreams come true:
 
FEEL THEM WITH YOU NOW.
 
You have got to be in the vibration ALREADY,
in order to have the relationship of your dreams,
the money that you want,
the lifestyle that you desire, ‘the health and well being,
the JOY….
 
Yes,
in order to have anything that you want you have to be in the feeling of it already.
 
In simple terms,
you have got to NOT NEED IT.
 
Vibrationally,
you can not be in NEED.
 
NEED will keep you in resistance to having it.
 
That is why it is so easy to watch things that are unimportant to you JUST SHOW UP in ease and with speed.
 
Have you noticed that?
 
How quickly do the things that you just lightly want,
or toss around with no real attachment,
just show up?
 
You are manifesting them into existence all the time.
But these things show up because you are not in NEED of them.
 
You just felt them,
was in alignment to them,
and LET GO.
 
And THIS IS THE THING….
That YOU MUST DO….
To have the THING (s) that you WANT.
 
Start Today.
Let Go.
Play.
Laugh.
Enjoy Your Now.
DREAM.
 
 
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
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That where God moves through me,
helping people like you who get that they are worthy AF and want to be conscious co-creators with God in the painting of a beautiful life but are still uncertain as to how to fully tap in and surrender that that they feel at their core.
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When My Dreams Show Up To Quickly – I Get Scared!

How dare you give me what I want so quickly!
 
There has got to be some sorta catch if what I want is just showing up without me having to earn it.
 
I mean how is it possible that I speak about something and then not days later it reveals itself in my life?
 
I know that it is possible but it just does not feel right.
I truly believe that I need to work for this or its not real,
I will loose it for sure.
I am really afraid of saying YES…
What if I say yes and it all goes wrong?
What if I say YES and it’s the wrong choice to make?
 
I think I am better off just saying NO.
Even though I really want it,
and its wonderful that it has shown up like this so quickly,
I think I am going to have to pass.
 
It’s just not for me,
right now.
 
Thinking about saying YES to this has my stomach in knots.
There is just something off about it.
I know that this is not right for me,
because I can feel it in my gut.
 
When something shows up like this and it’s too good to be true,
well life has taught me that it most likely is,
so I don’t want to feel those pains again.
I am a NO.
 
I just don’t have the time right now to take this by the horns and do what I want with it.
So I think I will have to pass.
 
These and so many more EXCUSES are what we speak out loud or in our own heads to ourselves when we allow fear of stepping forward into our dreams to control us.
 
Don’t you get it luv?
That uneasy feeling that you got in your gut,
that’s not always your gut telling you that its a bad choice or that something is going to go wrong,
that uncertainty and anxiousness that you have is not always telling you that you are a no, or that it is a no for you.
That feeling of overwhelm or disbelief,
those feelings of I have been stun before and so I am not going to have it happen here,
this can all be signs that you need to step away from something,
YES.
 
They can be signs that you are a NO.
 
OR….
 
if you dig a little deeper,
can be signs that FEAR has you by the balls and if you let it run you will steal your dreams from you.
 
How can you know the difference?
How can you be certain that if you take that leap that you will be safe and that it will not be a wrong move in your life?
 
Number one,
you may never be certain that its right.
Number two,
you could make the wrong move.
 
But what I can promise you is that if you keep letting yourself be a NO to things that you will never gain the life that you want.
 
If you keep letting this crazy ass fear of yours run you silly and blind you from the opportunities that knock,
that you are making a wrong choice,
Then you definitely have something to fear.
because you are choosing to not live,
to not expand,
to not experience.
 
Well not experience anything but FEAR.
 
And if fear floats your boat baby,
well then have at it.
But if you hungry and wanting for more,
then maybe its time that you start to say YES.
 
Yes to opportunity.
Yes to experiences.
Yes to love, no matter how long it hangs out.
Yes to joy, play, laughter.
Yes to trusting that God has your back baby.
 
Because God does.
And your SOUL knows this.
 
Those feeling of not feeling right,
are VERY right.
They are telling you that your SOUL knows differently about something then what you think you know.
 
Your SOUL is 100 steps down the path before and has been through all that stuff and knows the steps that you need to take to get the the life that you want,
the quickest,
the smoothest,
and in flow.
 
But baby,
when you question why your dreams are just showing up in ease and with speed,
when you sit back and look for the gotcha in your goals,
realize that you are now questioning the power of God’s hand in creating.
 
You think that God has some timeline that he is following?
You think that if our creator wants to create something that it cannot just happen with a swipe of a hand.
 
You are the co-creator of your life and you are moving with speed because you are partnered up with the most powerful, potent force out there.
 
And God/Universe is all about speed.
 
You may not think it possible.
You may think that you gotta earn this shiz,
become worthy of it by serving your time and paying your dues.
 
Buy baby,
that’s all human made beliefs that are locking down the creative time and force that God has given you.
 
So stop the crazy ideas of questioning everything.
Stop the distrust of listening in past the fear.
Quit numbing yourself to your power by fidgeting around with such doubt.
 
Baby you got this.
But you gotta believe that you got this.
You gotta understand your power.
And CLAIM IT TODAY.
 
Say YES!
 
And As Always, Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
Want some extra support in co-creating your masterpiece?
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helping people like you who get that they are worthy AF and want to be conscious co-creators with God in the painting of a beautiful life but are still uncertain as to how to fully tap in and surrender that that they feel at their core.
 
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Do You Feel Worthy Of Your Dreams?

NO ONE GETS TO DECIDE IF YOU ARE WORTHY! YOU JUST ARE ALREADY.

Worthiness.
Your worthiness.
Yes that thing that you may think you are lacking in or don’t even have any of.

But the reality love is that you were born with a massive amount of it.
So much so that it’s not in question,
not even a smidgen in question.
Not by God love.

ONLY BY YOU.

And that is what is holding you back.
It’s your lack of belief in your worthiness.
You for some reason think that your worthiness is up for debate,
that you have to earn it somehow.
That if you run around like a chicken with its head cut off that you will get more of it.
That if you live for everyone else,
and put yourself behind them all that THEN ,
then you will be a step closer to earning a little worthiness.
But even then,
even after you have buried yourself in commitments and exhausted yourself in the keeping of everyone else’s expectations and idea’s of you and for them,
YOU STILL FEEL without it.

I get it love.
I truly do.
It’s a daily battle you could say,
to wake the f-ck up and KNOW YOU ARE WORTHY without question.

But if you want all that you want.
If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired.
If you are READY to BE READY.
Then it time that you accept that you were born WORTHY AF!!!

Don’t you get it love?
God moves through you and I.
God creates with your hands.
Unfolds the evolution of this planet and its people through you and I.

This world moves forward because of what we manifest into existence.
And we can only create what we do with the guidance of SOUL.
And soul is the voice of God in us.

Together we create all that is and all that ever will be.
But is a joint work.
And because of this very factor and the nature of you and I being co-creators with God,
makes us worthy of all of our desires.

The desires that you want to manifest into existence were put there by the creator.
It is your hands,
your attention,
your focus,
your voice and eye’s,
that make it happen though.

It is through you that God has concentrated focus.
It is by your viewing of the world,
your world,
and you feeling of life,
and how it unfolds,
that desire is birthed.
And opportunity is seen.
As you move through this existence,
and you feel the ebbs and flows of all that can be created,
you gain a hunger for something beautiful to unfold.
You crave more.
You smile and you cry.
You get frustrated and you excited.
These are the emotions of creation,
because they birth desire.
And in the desire becoming aware in YOU,
God see’s it,
and evolution happens.

YOU WILL NEVER BE CONTENT.
You will never reach a point in your life where you desire for no more.
You will always want to create MORE.
This is the desire of God,
to CREATE.

The greatest artist.
Working with you,
through you,
to paint a breath taking picture,
called….

YOUR LIFE.

And because you are breathing love.
You need not ever question your worthiness.

Because you are hungry,
you need not ever question your potential.

Because you are feeling pushed and pulled,
you need not ever question your footing.

God is there love.
You just need to surrender to the path that is before you.
It is yours.

And in your stepping forward,
God will paint the path.

God does not make unworthy things.
And God does not work hand in hand or through unworthy things.

God is working through you,
FOR YOU.

So stop questioning so much.
Allow your blessings to flow.

BREATHE.
FEEL.
FOCUS.
STEP.

And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living – YOU ARE WORTH IT!

Want some extra support in co-creating your masterpiece?
That where God moves through me,
helping people like you who get that they are worthy AF and want to be conscious co-creators with God in the painting of a beautiful life but are still uncertain as to how to fully tap in and surrender that that they feel at their core.

Yes here is where I assist YOU.
Want to connect and say YES to YOU?
Let’s go! – You are worthy.
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