I HAVE DECIDED THAT MY NEW PROFESSION IS TO BE AN ENERGY DOMINATRIX.

I HAVE DECIDED THAT MY NEW PROFESSION IS TO BE AN ENERGY DOMINATRIX.

 

Sounds fun.

I mean I know that it is fun,

because many of my “work” days….

if you can call them that…

they are more play days because energy is fucking fun,

are just about that.

 

Dominating people’s energy.

Manipulating it you could say,

and then teasing it,

playing with the quantum field that is all around all of us and that we are manifest from.

 

Energy is playful.

Energy does not react well to being forced into some tight container where it cannot flow.

Sure when you constrict energy you certainly create a surge,

but that surge often does not come out the way that we desire it too,

and it is most often not playful.

Let alone sexy.

 

We humans have been taught to hold our shit together at all cost.

To not feel because it will make us vulnerable.

To not reveal our emotions because we will not be taken seriously.

We have been taught, brainwashed into believing that we are to constrict our energy.

We have been told that this is the proper, safe and mature thing to do.

 

When in truth what this containment of our energy does is the direct opposite to the desired reaction.

 

IT CREATES ENERGETIC IMMATURITY.

 

We never learn how to manage our energy.

How to hold it.

How to feel it.

How to direct and guide it.

Leaving us feeling scared of who we are and our power.

Making us separate from our truth and feel lost, abandoned in life.

 

And all because we never were trained on the importance and power of our energy.

Let alone the simple fact that we are all energy beings.

 

Science today is finally catching up to ancient spirituality.

Thank heavens.

And it is proving that thought creates emotion,

it is proving that our consciousness directs events and actual energy flow.

We can heal ourselves and the world with our consciousness or we can destroy it.

 

Our desire to control the situation,

to control others and the end results,

our desire to have a timeline and know what to expect,

our desire to have problems and make logical sense out of everything,

is evidence of how disconnected we humans are still from our souls.

From God/Source.

And thus from our truth.

And our truth is that we are fucking powerful.

The same consciousness that created universes moves through each of us and is wanting to expand.

 

Expansion of energy is not about forcing God into a human sized box of control.

 

Harnessing your energy has nothing to do with squishing it into some perfect package that society has told you it needs to be in nor avoiding your feelings and emotions,

avoiding your beautiful heart center.

 

Expansion and harnessing energy means to tap into your heart,

to feel your desires fully, accept where your life and vibration is at, look at what you need to do to bring your vibration into a matching frequency with what you desire,

and LET THE FUCK GO!

 

Play with your life.

Play with your power.

Let play and fun rule your world,

meaning ENJOY LIFE.

 

This is how you manipulate energy and design the life of your dreams.

 

You want that lover in your bed.

The money in your bank.

The health.

The freedom in your time.

 

Well the only way to get it is to learn how to enjoy the life that you are living today and to play with your day, your energy, and lean into letting go of your need to control everything and get it all right.

 

You will never be done.

Do you get that?

 

You are never going to be done until you are six feet under.

Then, then you will be released from this physical bondage where you are learning how powerful you are.

Once released from that bondage, you KNOW how powerful you are.

But this life that you are so terrified of living,

so scraed of fucking up in,

this life needs you to love it and enjoy it so that it can provide you with tons of opportunities to love it and enjoy it.

 

Otherwise you will exist all your days here on earth living with the energetic immaturity that keeps landing you into pain and suffering, loss and abandonment, fear and lack of worth, as well as not knowing how to deal with self and emotions.

 

You see when I say that my new professional title should be energy dominatrix,

What I am saying is that I help my beautiful fellow souls access their power through them learning how to surrender and trust me to guide the energy that they have held constricted and been fearful of feeling for years into a state of full being processing.

Where they get an opportunity to witness themselves in a fresh light,

and feel.

 

Yes they move from the armoured up, tense, stressed and anxious soul who is hiding from their greatness into an individual who knows who the fuck they are and is in love with themselves, their lives, their past and sees the path before them because they finally get that they are the architecht who is designing it.

 

They learn to surrender to themselves.

Surrender to their truth.

Surrender to enjoyment.

 

PLAY.

 

and they smile more.

they laugh more.

they sex whole heartedly more.

they penetrate the world with who they really are and the world receives them fully and grants them that turned on, ignited fuck yes life where all those who are still blind to thier power and caught up in their egos and thoughts stand back and say,

 

“They are so lucky.”

 

But it is not luck.

It is creation.

And they learn how to do it by letting go of all that shit that they have been holding on to and that has been weighing them down.

 

They let it go on my integration table.

They let it go in our walks together.

They let it go in our conversations.

They let it go in our deep soulful eye gazing sessions.

They let it go in our holding sessions.

They let it go with tears and laughter,

by being vulnerable and letting me see them.

They let it go and they end up feeling full on who they are.

 

This is where we all are to be my love.

This is the truth.

And in reality,

you don’t need me for any of this.

All you need is to love yourself enough to commit to letting all that shit go once and for all and dare to step out and trust that life has your back.

 

Dare to believe that you are the architect of your life.

Dare to love yourself in full abandon.

 

And play.

 

Because baby you are worthy of it all.

And YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN GIFT IT TO YOURSELF.

 

Now for anyone else out there,

who would like a little assistance,

well I am hear to smack you, kick your ass,

snuggle you as you blow snot in my hair,

watch tears fall from your beautiful eyes,

and build you up in love.

 

That  just requires you being sick and tired of messing around and feeling the way that you do.

 

It’s time to level up your life and say FUCK YES TO YOU!

And let YOU BE SEEN. 

 

I see YOU. 

DO YOU?

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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PUMP UP THE VIBE ESPECIALLY WHEN SHIT IS HAPPENING.

GIRLS ON FIRE!!!
Are you though?
Here is the thing,
Today could have gone a TOTALLY different direction.
Today could have been stressful AF.
Today could have been a day where everything,
And I mean EVERYTHING went wrong.
Today could have been about me chasing my tail.
But instead of it spiraling that negative not so fun direction,
I opted to spin it into a fun, flirty day of abundance and joy.
I chose to PUMP UP THE VIBE,
of the day,
The week,
The NOW.
And I did it pretty simply too.
You see yesterday at waking I discovered that in my crazy busy life,
I totally assumed that I had paid my car payment last month,
I recall pulling it all up early in the month,
Paying it before it is due is sorta my thing,
Makes me feel good.
So I recall doing this,
But somehow I guess I never hit submit on my payment and in the process whatever I did click stopped my auto pay….
LMAO I am so blond some days.
Anyway, yesterday I got a nasty gram on it saying that I was behind and my auto pay for September was going through too.
Then I looked in my bank to figure out where August payment had gone.
Wanting to believe it was not my fault of course.
And instead I discovered a bunch of charges from my Florida girls weekend I just got back from that I did not know about.
At the end of it I sat with about $2000 spent that I had not accounted for.
Not horrible by any means,
But still $2k I was not expecting to have out of the bank.
I admit, I was feeling frustrated.
I felt pressure to deal with it all and not pull money from savings to cover this unexpected amount of deductions.
So I thought to myself,
“You can run with this vibe of frustration and anxiety. You can fall into old you from a decade ago and feel scarcity a d fear. You can.
OR….
You can breathe and play.
Get your energy flirt on.
And love on your day. “
And so I texted a picture my daughter did recently of me to a male friend. I knew he would like it and respond in love.
And he did.
Then I reached out to a few other playful souls whom stir my energy as well,
I conversed with them,
Played energy tag and got some laughs in.
I casually in flow got all my business accomplished. I focused on laughter.
I focused on doing things that made my body feel good. I stepped away from anything that felt like it was pressuring me.
I got creative and I just ran with what came out of my heart in that creativity.
And then I turned away from everything and put my focus on my children. On being hundred percent present with them, laughing and snuggling. Connecting.
It felt good.
It felt easy.
And that’s when all that resistance that I felt earlier in the day LET THE FUCK GO.
I had successfully got momentum on my side.
On flow, fun, ease.
Away from resistance, anxiety, frustration.
And my little goal of ,
” I am going to manifest $2000 before the day is out,”
Boosted itself into where I am actually aligned.
I manifested instead, $10,600 in less than 24 hours.
And you know what as I sit here at Kumon,
Waiting on my kids to get done with tutoring,
My text messages are popping up with more people asking me to send them invoices for hundreds of dollars.
Thats being in flow baby!
That’s what living a fuck yes life is about.
That’s the ease we are to all have.
But we have to choose what direction we allow our emotions,
Thus our energy and manifestations to spin in.
Choose what you build momentum around.
Choose by listening to what feels good.
Cuz’ if its causing frustration, fear, anxiety, scarcity thoughts,
Then its not in alignment to who you really are.
Its not what God wants for your life.
If you are caught in these low vibe emotions,
Then you are not knowing your worthiness.
Life is to be about love.
JOY.
EASE.
FLOW.
ABUNDANCE in all good things.
That’s what you are to be living.
Are you?
Realize that what you focus on expands.
Your focus creates the momentum.
Choose wisely and in fun.
AS Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
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The Secret Power Of Your Sex.

SWIRLING.

LOST IN EMOTION.

Bodies engaged,

sweat rolling between.

Gasping for air.

 

Release,

deep within, my cervix shakes,

my pelvic floor quivers,

my chest cracks,

my g-spot ignites,

and I sigh.

 

Ahhhhh…

 

It’s been hours of rolling in these sheets.

My muscles are like jello from all the orgasms,

the energy spasms and the release.

 

My legs are shaking and I feel like laughing and crying all at the same time.

It is hard to focus my vision,

the ceiling light is spinning as I lay there,

breathing in the intoxicating vibrations of this moment.

 

I AM DRUNK.

I am vulnerable.

I am raw.

I am open.

I feel so very alive and yet transcended into nothing.

 

Tears are streaming from my face.

My lover kisses and bites my neck,

grabs my hair at the base of my scalp and pulls me down onto him,

not just entering me but penetrating me.

Penetrating me to the core of my being,

as though he is witnessing my soul from within my very body.

 

My body quivers and shakes,

I have lost all reason,

I am without care,

Full abandon.

 

And here,

here in this space of true bliss,

here in this place that has not been visited to these levels of depth for sometime,

I CAN SURRENDER.

 

Letting go of the fear,

the worry and the thought.

Letting go of my conditions,

of terms and agreements,

letting go of the physical and just floating in the abyss of nothing yet everything,

and discovering myself yet again.

 

Here I am .

Here he is.

And together we get lost.

We expand and we explore.

 

From this land anything is possible.

All can be desired and achieved.

This is the land of alchemy,

the place of magick.

 

Sex Magick.

 

Calling down the blessings from source,

realizing them into here and now.

As I open fully to the deep rowling thunders of each orgasmic wave,

my spirit aligns and I allow.

I allow all to manifest that I have craved for,

longed for,

and I open my life to receiving it.

My body is awakened,

ignited and ready.

 

With each sip of air I call out to the universe my desires,

as my lover tousles me around,

pressing firmly inside of me,

pumping my g-spot in rhythmic cycles of ecstasy,

the juices roll from my lips and I pull his hand in further and further.

Fully engulfed inside my cavern,

his subtle moves of hand carry me deeper and deeper,

the pressure is building,

my body becomes tense.

And I see it.

 

I SEE IT ALL.

I feel the filling of my cup,

as it overflows with abundance,

with love and health,

as my life is changed,

altered for the better.

 

The shaking of my flesh subsides,

my breath deepens,

my muscles relax.

And I feel him again,

swirling,

teasing,

licking.

 

Intensifying my energy,

and I melt.

 

Dancing with my soul in this expression of truth.

Feeling an ignited calm,

a peace and hunger.

 

I know that this moment….

Like so many from my past is transformational.

Awakening.

And powerful.

 

And I am ready.

 

Take me.

Let me surrender into you and become nothing and everything.

 

Yes this is the power of our orgasm.

This is the importance of our sex.

This has been hidden from you for centuries,

known by few.

 

And it is truth.

It is my truth as it is yours as well,

you can channel your energy and focus it on your desired life.

Manifestation at its finest.

 

But first,

First you must learn its secrets.

 

Do you dare?

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS!

THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS! 🤯🤯🤯

 

Hating on self?

Or maybe you say that you don’t hate yourself.

You don’t dislike yourself even,

you are just frustrated.

Irritated.

Down on self because you are not feeling great in your skin.

 

And I get it.

I truly do.

We all go through these times.

 

And hey here is a little secret for you….🤫

I am currently in one of those moments in life where I am a bit down on myself. I am not in this moment in love with my body.

I am not in love with how I am feeling in my own skin,

and I am having issues looking myself in the mirror.

and even feeling sexy.

 

I sorta feel a bit grossed out by myself.

The way I got here is not really important.

And that is a tough concept to get through our human minds,

because we want to have our reasons, we want to analyze and figure out the reason behind the problem.

But that will never get the solving that we desire of the problem.

Because we are stating that we have a problem to begin with instead of just letting go of all this self-judgement and turning back to our truth.

Now it is important to be aware of habit changes,

of sabotaging thing that we have introduced into our lives,

into our thoughts and emotions,

that may be contributing to the support of this self-disgust.

The reality is that you can say that you love yourself all damn day long but if you are not loving your body enough to get it moving and consuming healthy foods, staying hydrated and getting enough sleep,

plus if you are choosing to stay in toxic relationship that are not feeding your heart and soul,

and you are not leaning into YOU…

then you simply are lieing your f-cking ass off to yourself about loving yourself.

 

You have to fall in love with yourself.

You have to own up to your power and stop making yourself so damn small.

Stop fearing the impressive, expansive person that YOU ARE.

 

And that my love is why you are so full of this yuckiness to yourself.

👉The reason that you don’t like yourself is because you’re not up to speed with yourself. 🛸🤯💃

 

You got that love?

YOU WERE BORN TO BE MARVELOUS.

You were created powerful, worthy and came into this world knowing such,

but it got stolen from you by the “good” lessons that your parents and the adults in your life taught you,

what society and school/church showed you,

and you started to believe that you were not powerful, worthy and abundant.

 

You started to believe that your light was dim.

and this means that you let go of being marvelous.

And that my dear was YOU.

 

So now the absence of you, really sucks!

It really does not have you feeling your best.

You are struggling to look into the mirror or make eye contact.

You are feeling frumpy and negative,

hating on your fleshy suit and hating on who you have allowed yourself to become.

 

When the answer to your problem…

if you want to call it that…

cause us humans love to solve problems, right?

 

Is that the reason that you are not liking yourself,

let alone in love with yourself ( an me too here),

is because you’re not ALLOWING yourself to be yourself.

You have cast your truth out.

 

And you sit back in your disgust over who you are right now,

and you maintain powerful focus on what needs to change, needs fixed, where you f-cked it all up at.

 

The worst thing that you can do though is just this.

Holding yourself in focus and finding a critical thought about you.

Because that action,

that manifestation that you are creating,

 

TAKES YOU AWAY FROM WHO YOU REALLY ARE.

 

And you are powerful AF!

You are deserving.

You are beautiful and strong.

You are courageous and loving.

You are intuitive and caring.

You are worthy and abundant.

 

That is who you are.

That is what you are to be living, RIGHT NOW!

 

And it is up to only you love to take yourself from this absence of self and get the f-ck lined back up.

Synchronize to your TRUTH.

YOUR SOUL.

 

GOD.

Here is where you will fall in love with you and become mesmerized by staring into your own eyes,

lost in the sea of you.

You will be captivated at your heart and your beauty and you will not just think that you are worthy,

you will KNOW without a doubt that you are,

because your soul knows.

Your souls never has questioned your worthiness or your power.

That is why you are feeling so bad love,

because you are questioning what your soul deeply is certain of.

 

And when you come back to YOU and who YOU REALLY ARE,

well that is when whatever the problems you are having with your body and life right now, will just wash away with ease.

 

Time to start loving on the most important person in your world wouldn’t you say?

 

And STOP trying to be all this or that for everyone else that is not you.

 

With all my love, beautiful.

Remember Who You Are.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN.

YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN.
Goodbye.
To you and you and you…..
“So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, good night
I hate to go and leave this pretty sight
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, adieu
Adieu, adieu, to yieu and yieu and yieu
So long, farewell, au revoir, auf wiedersehen.
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye
I leave and heave a sigh and say goodbye
Goodbye!
I’m glad to go, I cannot tell a lie
I flit, I float, I fleetly flee, I fly.”
THAT’S IT!
And so we must part.
And part repeatedly we do.
Yet you long to hold me here in this moment,
forever captured by your desires.
But, neither of us can expand as long as we hold so tight.
Our power, our freedom and happiness,
comes from letting go.
Each moment that we are alive,
we are always transforming,
expanding or shrinking,
longing to be close, to merge and entwine,
or push away and fly free in who we are in the moment.
Goodbye feels permanent.
It is like the feeling of death, is it not?
And so we strive to avoid it.
We fear it.
And we try our damndest to make sure that things remain the same.
However in our attempts to keep all the same,
we destroy the beauty of our lives,
of our relationships,
we squash what was so dear.
And we then sit back and wonder why we feel such suffering.
We question why things went the way they did,
and why those that we wanted to hold precious to us turned and walked away without notice.
The answer my dear is in your desire to control.
To prevent your own pain.
You fear goodbye.
You fear transformation.
You fear your growth and the expansion of others.
You are living so far from your truth and from God in this moment that you cannot feel the love that is in store for you.
Love does not fear change or growth.
Love knows that this is an attraction based universe,
not a universe based on exertion and force of your will over everything.
Love knows no suffering.
Love never feels alone or jealous.
Love does not point fingers of blame and hatred.
Love does not look for reasons to not be love anymore but in turn become anger or drama.
There are things that we can be certain of in this life of ours.
1) All things change. Movement and expansion is a guarantee.
2) Everything is energy and operating at a frequency of its own.
3) You attract and keep in your sphere of vibration ONLY those things that are the same frequency, all other things will cause disturbance and cause separation between you and them.
Put simply,
Goodbye simply means that the energy was no longer there.
And goodbye is one of the most beautiful blessings that we are given in our lives.
It allows for all parties to be true to themselves if open to it.
We get what we need from the time spent together and then when our energies no longer connect ( vibe at the same frequency) we are set free from the engagement.
This is far from a sad event.
No matter what we are speaking of, may that be an intimate relationship, a friendship, a job or career, a home or car, etc.
This letting go of anything is only creating an opportunity for ALL PARTIES involved to move forward toward their highest and best version and experiences instead of being forever trapped with something that no longer serves their best self.
Can you imagine being trapped as a twelve year old you? Just held in all time as that version of self, with all the bondage that you most likely felt from family and society? Having longings and desires, wanting for more but knowing that you would never be able to have any of it because here is where you are eternally?
Sounds like hell, right?
And your suffering would be far greater than that of saying goodbye to your greatest love even.
Every moment that you are living.
Every person that you come in contact with,
every thought that you think and feeling that you have.
Changes who you are.
And you are never the same person you were just moments ago.
Therefore you are always saying goodbye to a version of you and to a version of whomever you are moving through life with.
Although these changes are subtle,
over time they transform us.
And create the energy gorge between us and others.
Our holding on to old versions of self and of others only causes damage to our souls expansion.
Because it creates separation between our TRUTH which is linked to God, and our life experience ( what we are perceiving here and now). This is where our anger and pain will stem from.
When we are feeling such anger and pain, blame, jealousy, worthlessness and fear we are being offered the gift of realization that we are NOT IN ALIGNMENT TO SELF.
Self is God in essence.
God consciousness moving through us.
Spirit. The divine.
And to be aligned to self,
knowing self which is pure love,
shows our alignment to God.
We cannot be aligned to God when operating from ego/fear.
And this causes constriction in the physical body and world ( our life experience).
We will start to experience chaos,
negative events, frustration and suffering.
Signs of separation.
You are powerful.
We all are powerful and worthy.
And we access this power through letting go in love not fear.
We reconnect ourselves to self and God by looking the demons of fear in the eyes and telling them to be gone,
that they are not our truth.
They are not of God.
They are not of self.
And we turn our focus to love.
To appreciation for EVERYTHING that was shared with us in moments past.
We focus in on the beauty,
the expansion and the greatness of what we have learned.
All relationship…
All relationships transform and change and say goodbye.
We all will say goodbye to each other in big ways and small ways in this lifetime.
Nothing is forever.
It was not designed to be such,
and you would ultimately not be fulfilled and happy if it all remained the same.
Look at your life,
at those in your world,
in your vibrational sphere.
And ask yourself,
” Am I holding onto this energy in love or fear?”
“Am I grasping for it wanting to control it? Or am I breathing into it and allowing it to wash through me, whirl around me and carry me to my next highest level of self?”
One is ego based.
One is aligned to God and self.
You get to choose your path and write this chapter of your novel.
What does this chapter close like?
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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Peeing Yourself Ain’t Spiritual.

HAVE YOU EVER FARTED AND PEED YOURSELF?

 

I have.

 

 

For those out there who cannot believe that I just shared that…

oh well.

That’s me.

Being authentic and true to the message that I feel needs to be shared in any given moment.

 

No matter what others’ perceptions are of me.

Now that’s not to say that the judgements and criticisms that get cast my way do not sting from time to time and sometimes make me question, ” Is that true?”

 

But I can assure you that 99.9% of the time my intent is to live and be authentically true.

 

So back to this farting and peeing thang that I started off today with. To be clear I did not actually pee myself. I was going to the bathroom when I farted really big and it forced me to pee some.

My initial thoughts were, ” I am so glad that I was not driving.”

Then I was like damn I need to get back on my yoni egg practice, then I thought no girl, you yoni egg faithfully and have great control, you were just not being as present and were very relaxed and so that’s what caused that.

 

No matter why it happened, what ended up coming from it was the idea that I should share this funny blurp because no one in my influence space would most likely share such a thing.

 

It’s too personal.

It’s too TMI.

It’s not professional.

It’s not spiritual.

 

And that last one is why I chose that I must share.

Over and over again I hear what is deemed spiritual and what is not spiritual. And I just roll my MF eyeballs back in my head at all the judgement that so many so called spiritual leaders have around being spiritual.

 

It seems that there are these things on a spiritual list somewhere that you must do/be/act like in order to obtain true spiritual enlightenment like the master teachers did.

 

Among them is to:

*always speak softly with limited expression

*to not be too sexual and for sure do not speak about it

*to make known that you have read a library full of literature and have a cabinet full of certifications and understand ALL the technical terms of any spiritual manual

*to dance uninhibited tossing your body about however you feel fit

*to be vegan or at least vegetarian

*to have massive crystals everywhere and adorn yourself with as many of them as you can at any one moment

*to be broke or at least struggling, because money is not spiritual

*to act a martyr and strangely be okay with it

*to wear “hippie” clothing

*to make little of the physical body, do not be unhappy with any body part and God forbid that you think of surgically doing something to that body part

*to be el naturel

*to make exaggerated use of words from “spiritual texts” and other languages

*to refer to a sexual partner as beloved or my divine

*to make clear that we are all gods and goddesses and the creator is the divine

*oh yeah and to judge anyone who is actually just fucking being human and has come to terms with self and witness life from a perspecitive that we are all here to live, learn and expand no matter our beliefs or backgrounds, our desires or challeneges, and those who just speak up and say real shit…. let’s judge them hard core cuz that aint spiritual

*And one more item, spiritually evolved people make a lot of use of the words spiritual bypassing and point fingers to all who are doing it EXCEPT self because they are too enlightened to be human and do that, also they would never make socially ill statements.

 

Yes these and many more are on the must do/be/act like list for REAL SPIRITUAL FOLK.

 

Well, some of that shit is me and some is not,

as you know.

 

The point however to today’s post is that WE ARE ALL SPIRITUAL BEINGS.

 

We are all here having a spiritual experience whether you recognize it as such or not.

 

And the reality is that EVERYTHING is energy.

Including money.

 

Matter of fact money is one of the most spiritual things that we have. It shows us EXACTLY just how aligned to the universal flow of things we actually are.

 

So to all those beautiful spiritual peep’s out there who claim that they are showing off just how aligned and how much understanding they have because they are broke AF,

well all I can say is that you my dear have not figured it out.

 

As a spiritual people,  it is among our mission of the soul to learn our worthiness and value ourselves so much so that we truly know that we are the creators of this world and our lives. That life is reacting to us.

 

And it is our ability or inability to receive the abundance that we all have through the multitude of desires that we are storing up in the heavens to manifest into this experience that shows just how much we actually value and love ourselves.

 

Recently I was speaking with a beautiful woman who is in the spiritual healing field.  She came to me asking for guidance as to how she could quit her full time corporate job and actually make a living doing what her passion was.

 

I asked her if she was marketing her services?

How much she charged?

And a few other items.

 

She responded with,

” I have been working with people for years off and on and they refer people to me. I love what I do so it’s hard to charge a fee. “

 

So again I asked,

“So what do you charge?”

 

She responded.

” I just ask for a love offering.”

 

OMFG! That’s another thing on the must be/do/act list of spiritual people……

 

You must accept love offerings.

 

Please someone shoot me now.

Doesn’t it sound so romantic and spiritual,

good hearted and not needy at all to say “love offering”?

It just sounds like you have more than enough with plenty left over.

You are entrusting the universe to dictate your worth and the universe always takes care of you. 

At least this is the perception that you are trying to put out there,

but when you don’t have your electric bill money let’s see if they will take a MF love offering.

 

After all energy is spiritual, right?

 

End result here is that I told this woman that she was not loving herself or her passion.

 

I shared with her that if she really valued and found worth in her abilities and passion that she would be more than happy to ask for what it was worth and put a price on it.

 

Instead her choice of asking for a love offering sent out the vibration of,

 

“Please pay me something decent because my power bill is due in three days and I do not have it.”

 

You can put forth whatever action,

speak with whatever softness that you feel correct,

dance carefree all damn day,

eat all the vegan meals and recycle your heart out,

study under the greatest of current teachers,

and claim that you have no shadow side, no ego.

 

But the truth my dear is still the same.

All that hiding that you are doing from being human,

it is just that,

hiding.

and your true spiritual path is to learn to love your human expression.

Sometimes that means that you end up coloring your hair,

having fake nails, eyelashes and boobs.

Sometimes you are all crunchy and choose to not shave or bath.

But no matter what your human expression is,

when you are in alignment you are open to receiving in your life the abundance that is here for you.

 

You are open to compliments.

You are open to love.

You are open to your anger and your fear.

You are open to making money, good money.

You are open to sex and orgasm.

 

And you want to enjoy it all because it feels good and it feeds your soul. It supports your powerful self, and you can see how your thoughts and your feelings are manifesting right before your eyes because you, you my dear love yourself.

 

You love your human expression.

And you get…

 

THAT WE ARE ALL SPIRITUAL BEINGS LIVING A SPIRITUAL PATH.

 

And if you are not living from THIS truth,

then I ask you one thing….

 

“How is your lack of receiving showing any respect or value to your passion?”

 

Would you want to work, get healing or learn from someone who does not value their skills, connection/alignment or thier practice enough to charge for it?

 

Would you feel that they are the best or even good?

 

If you were having a baby,

Would you want to go to the doctor that charged you what they are worth for help and care or would you rather just take this bloke over here who says that he is a doctor that you can trust with your life and childs but will do it for a love offering?

 

Who are you more likely to trust?

 

TO ALL MY SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENED PEEPS OUT THERE,

THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU TO VALUE YOURSELF AND CHARGE WHAT YOU ARE WORTH.

 

Now more than ever.

You need to know your worth and let others know it as well.

 

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown *A*s Believers”

 

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EVERYTHING THAT EVER WAS STILL IS.

EVERYTHING THAT WAS STILL IS.
Yesterday was magical.
It was tranquil.
It was adventurous.
It was testing.
I had technical difficulties left and right,
and then the ocean tide came and tried to steal my romantic lunch.
There we were sitting on Ruby Beach just off of Hwy 101 in the Olympic National Forest in Washington. Home to me in so many ways. My lover kept shaking his head in amazement.
I could see his breath being taken from him as we ventured around the corners to see yet another immensely beautiful site.My heart was filled with excitement and appreciation to be sharing my Washington with him.
He would look at me in love and smile.
Ask again the question of the day,
“Why did you ever leave here?”
And I would chuckle.
SPIRIT.
Spirit took me from here,
spirit guided me to someplace so opposite of here for a reason, and now that place ( Dallas) is home.
Lacking perhaps in many ways from the natural beauty that Washington State offers in each moment,
Dallas is now home and I was called there with a purpose.
But today’s lesson was not so much about spirit taking me from the majestic tranquility of the great Northwest,
but more so about the realness of how everything that ever was still is.
Yes everything.
There has never been anything new created.
The life that was here manifesting and creating itself so many millennia ago is still all here.
As the years pass and things change,
as we perceive life to die and go away,
we in our limited human understanding get caught up in the ending,
and by doing so we miss the reality that life…
life never goes away.
It never ends.
We never end.
We transform.
We get rebirthed into something new.
Our atoms and molecules are still here carrying our essence with them.
They may break down repeatedly and get divided into smaller particles,
all the way down to a quark,
however contained in each one of these quarks is consciousness.
The consciousness of all time.
You and I.
We are here.
Inside each of these,
inside of each other,
and we have been here forever.
And we will remain in consciousness forever more.
Your memories of today,
the love that you feel,
the memories of fullness and the magnitude that life can have on us,
those feelings of being so small and yet so powerful,
those are forever you.
Life is forever.
Life transforms.
It moves through us and God/universe experiences life through our eyes, touch and feelings.
It is what we are here to do.
LIVE.
Sitting 20 feet up on the roots of a very old and extremely large cedar tree in the Olympic National Rainforest,
I breathed in this reality.
And once again heard spirit.
LET GO OF FEAR.
LET GO OF CONTROL.
We get caught on the ending.
And this getting caught on the ending holds us away from thriving.
It prevents us from fully living,
because we fear life and we think we need to control it.
When in truth all we ever have to do is feel into life and get into alignment with spirit.
Into alignment with God/universe and let it carry us to a magical experience.
Where we transform.
Where we expand as life moves through us.
This Is terrifying to us humans however.
If we just let go and let God,
if we release our need to control outcomes,
if I dare say….
TRUST.
Then we could be left with nothing.
Or worse yet,
we could die.
And cease to exist.
This is where we truly do not pathom our power in alignment.
By releasing ourselves from the fear of death,
we gain not just life, but we gain beauty in life.
We gain the full support of the universe.
We tap into our desires,
and as we appreciate and enjoy the moment RIGHT HERE,
life will grant us with more moments of equal and greater beauty for our enjoyment.
Bad things will still be happening,
storms will still be rolling around,
however when we are in alignment and are not available for such disturbances in our vibration,
we somehow as if magically just miss them and they miss us.
And this is how it has always been intended.
This is what THRIVING is all about.
It starts however with the reality that death is an illusion.
That even though this body of yours and mine will most certainly not be here in a thousand years,
and perhaps not even for the rest of this year,
but the consciousness that is who we truly are,
it will forever be here as it always has been .
and it will rebirth itself through the merging of quarks and molecules, through the new dance of atoms,
and it will remember itself.
It will look out into this universe,
into this world and the existence that is living and will see itself everywhere.
And it will feel its power.
The question today my love is can you feel your power for this manifestation of you?
Can you embrace your life and stop making excuses as to why you cannot breathe in the moment and LIVE?
Or will you just smile at my share and wish me a beautiful life or curse me for living and keep arguing with your limitations?
It is all up to you beautiful
Namaste.
I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth and of peace. When you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, we are one.
And As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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Wanting To Be Washed Over and Scared To Death Of It.

One of those days when my energy goes to left field…

 

 

Or maybe it’s right field.

Or maybe right at the pitcher.

IDK.

It’s always interesting though on days like this where I feel the arousal of life moving through me,

I feel the hunger to devour every moment,

and the tugs of the past that will always sway around in my soul, reminding me of what I thirst still for.

 

On days like today,

the universe is quick to remind me of my energetic connections,

of how those fleeting yet powerful thoughts evoke response,

and how quick I can manifest many opportunities into my life to experience everything that I am thirsting for.

 

This quenching comes through multiple sources however,

and me being human just like you want it the way I want it and all in one package.

 

Even though I fully understand, appreciate and even value the multiple packages that can show up in my life,

There are some things that I crave for that I JUST WANT IN THE WAY I WANT.

 

And I know without a doubt that I can have them too.

I have tasted of these delicacies before.

I have been overtaken by the depth of fulfillment that can be experienced all from one source.

And it is truly intoxicating.

 

AND I WANT THAT!

 

I don’t really have a ton of patience to wait for it.

I question if I am just wasting time,

settling,

or if I just imagined it before.

Or perhaps the truth is that those sorts of things only come once in life,

and when gone they leave us with this beautiful suffering of knowing that it will never be again.

 

Perhaps they are only so lovely as to walk through our lives because of the deep pain that they bare on our soul.

 

Or perhaps,

they are there to make us question ourselves, or to learn how to be better. As if to present a lesson for us to spend the rest of our days unraveling.

 

IDK.

 

I truly don’t know.

But what I do know is that these blessed little and big moments  in my life are a feast that I will always run toward and sit at the table of.

 

I know that when presented I am eager and hungry to explore IF….

 

and perhaps, this is yet another one of those life moments that  will forever leave its mark,

and no matter how deep it may scratch into my flesh and heart,

I know for sure one thing.

IT IS WORTH IT.

 

How can something that can be such an achilles heel to us be worth anything other than pain and cause us anything other than a major stumbling block in our life?

 

These things can be like quicksand to us if we get to caught up in them,

and yet we dive in,

head first.

and we search for them.

 

It is because without them,

without the knowing and the deep dive into the ravines of everything that they offer us,

we will NEVER KNOW OURSELVES FULLY.

and with that we can never know love.

We can never feel that true sense of abandon,

where we surrender into nothingness that is everything.

Where all that we are is seen and unraveled like the lessons that we gain from these moments and people who allow us time to bask in the enjoyment of the experience of life with them.

 

And so we wander through our days,

lost in search for yet this experience again. Ever so hungry to find it,

ever so thirsty to be drowned by it,

and we find our hearts feeling broken.

We find our minds screaming at us in dissatisfaction,

that we are so silly as to be hunting for yet another moment.

 

Trying to convince ourselves that, that was all the sampling of happiness, connection, love and joy that we get for this lifetime.

Giving all of our power over to just this one moment.

And feeling like we have been shredded into a million pieces and no one cares,

no one sees,

no one hears our pleas to be held yet again in this beauty,

this agonizing beauty that we fear and hunger for all in the same.

 

And then,

What do we crazy fickle humans do?

 

We manifest into our lives….

That is what we do.

We call it in and we choose to disregard it.

Because we fear its wrath on our lives.

We fear the pain.

We fear the heartache and the loss.

The death of something.

And so we deny allowing it into formation.

We say no to the very thing that we hunger for.

 

And we choose to sit in agony that we have chosen out of the fear of if we said yes to our dreams and our desires,

if we allowed ourselves to transform and become everything that we need to become to fully merge with this new exploration and blessing,

and we convince ourselves that this sort of suffering is better than the having of yet another altering beautiful moment  that we run the risk of losing somewhere down the road.

And so we sit idle in our today,

and stay that way,

hungry.

 

Never allowing our thirst to be quenched by the waterfalls that can carry us away to our own divinity.

To the uniting of self and love.

To the potential of who we are and how we can dance in the currents of our transformation.

 

Yes this is the journey of the fickle human being.

That you and I  both are.

We will forever be captivated by our hungers,

our wanting and earning,

and to those we must awaken to our nature to torment ourselves in the not having.

 

Because when we seek…

when we ask…

It is always granted.

It is never denied by God/universe.

 

The denying is all up to us.

 

So what will we choose?

 

To have?

Or to have not?

 

It is up to you and it is up to me,

and this is how powerful we truly are.

We have the power to shackle ourselves from EVERYTHING,

yes everything that we want for.

 

What do you choose?

I know my answer.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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the abundance and health that you crave so deeply for.

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or experience.

 

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Are You Falling Prey To This Lie Like Millions?

 

THERE IS  A LIE WE BELIEVE THAT CHANGES ALL OF OUR UNDERSTANDING….

 

With all the worlds chaos and turbulence,

I am witnessing a massive amount of said “lightworkers,” christians, believers of faith and LOA, genuianly “good” souls fall prey to the misconception around a lie that they have bought full heartedly into,

 

and that lie is AWARENESS = ALWAYS BEING POSITIVE

 

It is funny how we humans are so eager to jump down one another’s throats in ego and pain,

we point fingers of blame and cuddle up in our victimhood statues of reasoning,

quick to accuse others of being blind, low vibe or even spiritually bypassing issues and feelings,

but then in the same turn of spewing out all these negative charges,

show frustration and even fear toward truth that does hurt.

Toward truth and awareness that does not fit into what we call “spiritual” or “high vibe.”

 

We shun the concept of awareness that is not always uplifting.

As if seeing the true pain, sorrow, or darkness that does mask each of us in it’s own way and the world in general can just be ignored fully and by ignoring and ONLY focusing in on the good that we will somehow make the evils go away.

 

It is sort of like the child who is afraid of monsters in the closet so they hide their head under the blankets of their bed and tell themselves as long as I think happy thoughts then there will be no monsters,

but in reality the monsters they are hiding from are their abusive parents fighting in the hallway.

 

We will never make the evils of this world go away.

That is the truth.

What we perceive as evil is here for a reason,

it is upon this planet to create contrast.

 

Without contrast in our world we can never know what we desire or want for,

we would not evolve and expand.

It is only through contrast that we fully experience living.

 

But here is the conundrum for humanity,

how are we to manifest good if we witness the bad and get caught in it?

 

The key is getting caught in it or not.

 

There is this concept that feeling sad, angry, upset or any emotion that is not even keel is not good, is not natural.

It is encouraged in many belief structures and in how we raise our children to hold in the pain and anger and not let it out unless we want to be perceived as weak.

 

This is a falsity and one of the most unhealthy programs that we teach.

 

WIth this we have enwrapped ourselves in the idea that AWARENESS ….

 

AKA Consciousness,

is only and always to be UPLIFTING.

 

And when we share awareness that is not uplifting that we are in turn trying to fear monger.

 

Now don’t get me wrong, what we are all witnessing in our world of current and for many generations is just that from our leaders and media,

we are for sure being programmed by our trust in them and through television programming systems,

just as planned by those that control.

 

I am not speaking of the agendas of those who crave more power and are corrupt to the core,

I am speaking about the rest of society waking up to the truths that these dark souls are hiding in plain sight from us.

 

I am speaking about the fact that in order for you to heal anything or make powerful uplifting changes that you must….

 

First, become AWARE of the issue. And this may not be uplifting to awaken to the reality of a nightmare.

 

And second, see what the contrast that this nightmare is offering to your level of desire.

 

 

From here we can make significant change.

And yes focusing in on it after this point,

getting caught in all its entrappings of fear and darkness will not change it to what you desire for instead but, rather help it to gain power through the momentum of your fear around any such troublesome topic.

 

Your awareness transformed to true sight of what the opportunity that is actually being offered,

 

which is a desire for something better,

for healing,

for love and peace,

equality and safety,

etc.

can then be fully embraced.

 

It is here in this AWARENESS which is uplifting when we  empower ourselves with our true heart,

that what we focus on grows.

Here we can now CONSCIOUSLY move ourselves from witnessing the nightmare to putting our focus on what is good in our world.

 

When we consciously choose to move our focus and experience onto good we create more good.

And we do not get caught in the nightmare although we are aware of it existing.

 

This is not spiritual bypassing or ignoring of any sort,

it is being proactive with our life expression, thoughts and feelings.

 

It is not just hiding our heads under the covers and “trying” to think good thoughts,

but in turn moving ourselves authentically into good feeling experiences which means to focus on the sun coming up each day, the people in our lives who love us, our dog excited we are playing fetch, our child hugging us, our lover desiring us, the food in our fridge, that our car works, our heart is beating, the birds are chirping, Ozarks has a season 4….lol

 

Whatever makes you genuinely feel good.

That is the ticket.

And to hold this good feeling though for just one minute each day without doubt.

 

Did you catch that?

 

Without doubt.

 

Doubt destroys the feeling.

Doubt pulls us back to the fear and the hiding,

and from there we fall into our pain bodies and fight amongst ourselves which in turn keeps the fires of our world burning ever so more greatly.

 

To create the world and the life that we desire most for,

we must become AWARE and we MUST learn to find the beauty and empowerment in our own darkness,

When we can be grateful for our darkness we will then be able to see its truth in its offering to us and make conscious choices to breathe into life the world we crave most for.

 

Embrace the contrast.

 

And AS Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR EVOLVING PAST PEOPLE’S COMFORT ZONES.

NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR EVOLVING PAST PEOPLE’S COMFORT ZONES.

It’s challenging to stay the course of your truth.
Our human nature is to want to “fit in” and to be “normal.”
But that is not our soul course.

The soul desires truth, expansion and freedom.
We human’s get caught in our perceptions and ego and want to keep everything in a safe little container where it is easily explained, accepted and does not rattle the cages of our fellow human beings.

Here we feel normal and safe.
And when we see things differently,
we may feel guilty for our views and thoughts as they do not correspond to the majority. People will call us names, accuse of being crazy, nieve, under educated or even fear based.
They will shun and mock,
shame and want to contain you.
But this only show’s their uncomfort in your evolution.

When we step out on the limb of personal evolution we bring forth in other’s their lack of evolution,
we shine a bright light into their darkness and fears,
and by just being ourselves we make them question the reality that they have been raised to believe is truth.

The majority of people will step away from you at this moment.
They will tell you that they can no longer walk alongside you because of a difference of opinion,
because your views are too far out there,
because your lifestyle does not align to what they believe is right,
and that you should care that they are cutting you loose.

Many will argue with you in a pursuit to change your mind and educate you as to “WHAT IS” and want you to listen to their understanding and CHANGE so that you will be living in accordance to what they perceive ass truth,
thus allowing them to feel safe and right once again.

But I tell you this,
to limit your growth and hinder your evolution to make another comfortable will NEVER make you happy,
and it will not prevent people from walking away from you.

All it will ever accomplish is to limit your full potential and create a life that was not lived by soul guidance,
but instead by the judgements, opinions, ideas, and beliefs of others.

You own no one a reason,
and most certainly not an apology for being authentically you.

No matter your beliefs,
no matter your views and fears,
if they feel aligned and good,
if they build you up and make you happy,
then they are in YOUR SOUL ALIGNMENT.

And to be in soul alignment means that you are in alignment with the universe and God as well.

You will never feel good, happy or joyous about any other path.
All other paths will bring about fear, anxiety, frustration,
a desire to control others, hatred,
and have you sitting in your ego,
where you feel trapped by the ways of the world around you.

Our emotions are our GPS to our true path. To our most rewarding, abundant and happy state of living.

If you are happy,
truly happy,
then you know that you are in soul alignment,
and through your joy you will create the life of your dreams.

This will make others extremely uncomfortable though.
And this will pull many away from you.

As you walk in ease and flow,
as you show that you can be aware of the world as they perceive it without getting caught up in it,
and as you continue to thrive,
you will make them extremely uncomfortable,
and most will choose to criticize you,
attempting to break you back down to where they feel comfortable again.

NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR YOUR EVOLUTION AND UNDERSTANDING OF THE LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE OR YOUR ABILITY TO BE AUTHENTICALLY YOU.

This is your life.

Live it for you.

Anything else is you giving your life to another,
and existing through their fears and wounds.

If you are reading this musing today then you are already awakening more to your divine nature,
you are starting to see clearly the truth of how our universe works,
and you are questioning your reality.
You have desires,
and you know that there is a power inside of you that wants to be unleashed.

I want you to know that all you need to to tap into that power is to start to say yes to you.

And thank those who turn away and challenge you,
be in gratitude for the naysayers,
they are revealing to you that you are stepping away from average and ordinary thinking and feeling,
they are showing you your evolution,
that you are rising above the norm and stepping into your power.

They are also showing you upfront if they are truly your tribe or not.

Those who evolve past the majority’s comfort zones are always perceived as crazy.

But all great leaders, game changers and visionaries over the course of human history have broken free from the common mindset of their time,
they did not look at the world through average and ordinary eyes.
They chose to be different,
because they knew somewhere inside of them that that was what they must do to achieve their soul’s happiness and do what they came here to do.

LIVE.

Today is your day love.
It’s time for you to step onto your path and say yes to your soul.

As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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