LOL… I have these so often.
It truly is not funny.
Okay, so it is pretty effing funny.
I laugh at myself ALL the time.
Today I was out to lunch with a friend who is part of my KW Team. I was sharing with her my appreciation for her support and friendship and simply all she does for me.
And then I had to share this little diddy with her about my blond moment at 6AM yesterday.
So if you did not know, I am a horrible control freak.
I really have a tough time delegating in my business.
I have for years done it all myself and built almost everything BUT the info structure and SEO of my website by myself.
I have had help along the way for technical things, but quickly took it upon myself to learn what was happening and then booted my helper and did it myself.
Well, I could feed you some bullshit line here and say that I could not afford the help or we had some disagreement and just needed to split.
But like I said, that would be a bullshit line.
The truth was, I dumped the help because I felt like it made me weak to ask or need help.
It made me feel like someone else was in control of my life instead of me.
And I simply DID NOT TRUST.
I did not trust that they would do what I needed or wanted.
I did not trust that I could release my stuff to them.
I did not trust that God would provide me with the means to pay them.
And the BIG one:
I did not trust that I was worthy enough to have help.
Anyway, this has been a long running battle for me.
Anyone, close to me and is reading this right now is shaking their head YES.
Well, a few weeks ago I committed to take myself to the next level of coaching and grow my business. Which means that I would have to grow and learn how to expand myself more.
And one of the first things I am being faced with is that I am DOING TOO MUCH.
I am trying to CONTROL IT ALL.
And I need to just LET GO.
You would think I would know that.
And I do.
But here is my shit.
My shit is that one of my tweaks to go to the next level is to delegate and ASK FOR HELP.
Ask for what I need.
And then ALLOW myself to RECEIVE it.
Okay so fast forward to 6AM today….
I am jumping on Facebook to do my daily 6-AM Conscious Coffee LIVE and I decided after three sips of coffee with one eye open that I was going to take the first minute to share my LIVE from my business page to my personal profile where I have over 4k friends and followers. I was thinking it would touch more people and would make a bigger impact.
So I do it. I go LIVE, I make the announcement that I am sharing this and doing a quick tech thing and then I get into my talk.
I go through a few moments of sharing on the topic- But You Said You Wanted It.
When I have a TOTAL Blond Moment.
And to make matters worse from just being blond, I freak myself out internally like the zombie apocalypse is happening…
Mid sentence, I am sharing a point and think to myself,
” I need to share the Feel Good Now Course” under this live.
Like magic, the course pops up under my LIVE.
And that is not the magical part,
It was shared by ME.
Except, I DID NOT share it.
So, I was like, “W-O-W! That was cool. and Thank you God.”
But that wow moment quickly crept into, “WTF! How did that happen and who hacked my account?”
My friend I was having lunch with today, I had given permission to edit and admin my coaching page to.
I had asked for her help to run things and support me.
I had asked her to join my team and do just what she was doing.
Supporting me on a LIVE.
Yeppers, This crazy blond here, forgot she asked for her needs.
And freaked the f*ck out from getting what she was asking for.
I guess that could be called a Blond Dementia Moment?
Anyway, moral of my tale this afternoon…
Stop trying to control everything.
Let go of what you can, so you can BE-DO-HAVE more.
Open up and ASK for your NEEDS to be met.
Then DON’T forget to allow yourself to actually RECEIVE them.
Oh, and ALWAYS….
Remember to Laugh.
Laugh at Life.
Laugh at Yourself.
Laugh at your Ego.
Find the Humor in your life and it will get easier,
and flow better.
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