LOST IN EMOTION.
sweat rolling between.
Gasping for air.
deep within, my cervix shakes,
my pelvic floor quivers,
my chest cracks,
my g-spot ignites,
and I sigh.
It’s been hours of rolling in these sheets.
My muscles are like jello from all the orgasms,
the energy spasms and the release.
My legs are shaking and I feel like laughing and crying all at the same time.
It is hard to focus my vision,
the ceiling light is spinning as I lay there,
breathing in the intoxicating vibrations of this moment.
I AM DRUNK.
I am vulnerable.
I am raw.
I am open.
I feel so very alive and yet transcended into nothing.
Tears are streaming from my face.
My lover kisses and bites my neck,
grabs my hair at the base of my scalp and pulls me down onto him,
not just entering me but penetrating me.
Penetrating me to the core of my being,
as though he is witnessing my soul from within my very body.
My body quivers and shakes,
I have lost all reason,
I am without care,
here in this space of true bliss,
here in this place that has not been visited to these levels of depth for sometime,
I CAN SURRENDER.
Letting go of the fear,
the worry and the thought.
Letting go of my conditions,
of terms and agreements,
letting go of the physical and just floating in the abyss of nothing yet everything,
and discovering myself yet again.
Here I am .
Here he is.
And together we get lost.
We expand and we explore.
From this land anything is possible.
All can be desired and achieved.
This is the land of alchemy,
the place of magick.
Calling down the blessings from source,
realizing them into here and now.
As I open fully to the deep rowling thunders of each orgasmic wave,
my spirit aligns and I allow.
I allow all to manifest that I have craved for,
and I open my life to receiving it.
My body is awakened,
ignited and ready.
With each sip of air I call out to the universe my desires,
as my lover tousles me around,
pressing firmly inside of me,
pumping my g-spot in rhythmic cycles of ecstasy,
the juices roll from my lips and I pull his hand in further and further.
Fully engulfed inside my cavern,
his subtle moves of hand carry me deeper and deeper,
the pressure is building,
my body becomes tense.
And I see it.
I SEE IT ALL.
I feel the filling of my cup,
as it overflows with abundance,
with love and health,
as my life is changed,
altered for the better.
The shaking of my flesh subsides,
my breath deepens,
my muscles relax.
And I feel him again,
Intensifying my energy,
and I melt.
Dancing with my soul in this expression of truth.
Feeling an ignited calm,
a peace and hunger.
I know that this moment….
Like so many from my past is transformational.
And I am ready.
Let me surrender into you and become nothing and everything.
Yes this is the power of our orgasm.
This is the importance of our sex.
This has been hidden from you for centuries,
known by few.
And it is truth.
It is my truth as it is yours as well,
you can channel your energy and focus it on your desired life.
Manifestation at its finest.
First you must learn its secrets.
Do you dare?
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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THE ABSENCE OF WHO I AM, REALLY SUCKS! 🤯🤯🤯
Hating on self?
Or maybe you say that you don’t hate yourself.
You don’t dislike yourself even,
you are just frustrated.
Down on self because you are not feeling great in your skin.
And I get it.
I truly do.
We all go through these times.
And hey here is a little secret for you….🤫
I am currently in one of those moments in life where I am a bit down on myself. I am not in this moment in love with my body.
I am not in love with how I am feeling in my own skin,
and I am having issues looking myself in the mirror.
and even feeling sexy.
I sorta feel a bit grossed out by myself.
The way I got here is not really important.
And that is a tough concept to get through our human minds,
because we want to have our reasons, we want to analyze and figure out the reason behind the problem.
But that will never get the solving that we desire of the problem.
Because we are stating that we have a problem to begin with instead of just letting go of all this self-judgement and turning back to our truth.
Now it is important to be aware of habit changes,
of sabotaging thing that we have introduced into our lives,
into our thoughts and emotions,
that may be contributing to the support of this self-disgust.
The reality is that you can say that you love yourself all damn day long but if you are not loving your body enough to get it moving and consuming healthy foods, staying hydrated and getting enough sleep,
plus if you are choosing to stay in toxic relationship that are not feeding your heart and soul,
and you are not leaning into YOU…
then you simply are lieing your f-cking ass off to yourself about loving yourself.
You have to fall in love with yourself.
You have to own up to your power and stop making yourself so damn small.
Stop fearing the impressive, expansive person that YOU ARE.
And that my love is why you are so full of this yuckiness to yourself.
👉The reason that you don’t like yourself is because you’re not up to speed with yourself. 🛸🤯💃
You got that love?
YOU WERE BORN TO BE MARVELOUS.
You were created powerful, worthy and came into this world knowing such,
but it got stolen from you by the “good” lessons that your parents and the adults in your life taught you,
what society and school/church showed you,
and you started to believe that you were not powerful, worthy and abundant.
You started to believe that your light was dim.
and this means that you let go of being marvelous.
And that my dear was YOU.
So now the absence of you, really sucks!
It really does not have you feeling your best.
You are struggling to look into the mirror or make eye contact.
You are feeling frumpy and negative,
hating on your fleshy suit and hating on who you have allowed yourself to become.
When the answer to your problem…
if you want to call it that…
cause us humans love to solve problems, right?
Is that the reason that you are not liking yourself,
let alone in love with yourself ( an me too here),
is because you’re not ALLOWING yourself to be yourself.
You have cast your truth out.
And you sit back in your disgust over who you are right now,
and you maintain powerful focus on what needs to change, needs fixed, where you f-cked it all up at.
The worst thing that you can do though is just this.
Holding yourself in focus and finding a critical thought about you.
Because that action,
that manifestation that you are creating,
TAKES YOU AWAY FROM WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
And you are powerful AF!
You are deserving.
You are beautiful and strong.
You are courageous and loving.
You are intuitive and caring.
You are worthy and abundant.
That is who you are.
That is what you are to be living, RIGHT NOW!
And it is up to only you love to take yourself from this absence of self and get the f-ck lined back up.
Synchronize to your TRUTH.
Here is where you will fall in love with you and become mesmerized by staring into your own eyes,
lost in the sea of you.
You will be captivated at your heart and your beauty and you will not just think that you are worthy,
you will KNOW without a doubt that you are,
because your soul knows.
Your souls never has questioned your worthiness or your power.
That is why you are feeling so bad love,
because you are questioning what your soul deeply is certain of.
And when you come back to YOU and who YOU REALLY ARE,
well that is when whatever the problems you are having with your body and life right now, will just wash away with ease.
Time to start loving on the most important person in your world wouldn’t you say?
And STOP trying to be all this or that for everyone else that is not you.
With all my love, beautiful.
Remember Who You Are.
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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HAVE YOU EVER FARTED AND PEED YOURSELF?
For those out there who cannot believe that I just shared that…
Being authentic and true to the message that I feel needs to be shared in any given moment.
No matter what others’ perceptions are of me.
Now that’s not to say that the judgements and criticisms that get cast my way do not sting from time to time and sometimes make me question, ” Is that true?”
But I can assure you that 99.9% of the time my intent is to live and be authentically true.
So back to this farting and peeing thang that I started off today with. To be clear I did not actually pee myself. I was going to the bathroom when I farted really big and it forced me to pee some.
My initial thoughts were, ” I am so glad that I was not driving.”
Then I was like damn I need to get back on my yoni egg practice, then I thought no girl, you yoni egg faithfully and have great control, you were just not being as present and were very relaxed and so that’s what caused that.
No matter why it happened, what ended up coming from it was the idea that I should share this funny blurp because no one in my influence space would most likely share such a thing.
It’s too personal.
It’s too TMI.
It’s not professional.
It’s not spiritual.
And that last one is why I chose that I must share.
Over and over again I hear what is deemed spiritual and what is not spiritual. And I just roll my MF eyeballs back in my head at all the judgement that so many so called spiritual leaders have around being spiritual.
It seems that there are these things on a spiritual list somewhere that you must do/be/act like in order to obtain true spiritual enlightenment like the master teachers did.
Among them is to:
*always speak softly with limited expression
*to not be too sexual and for sure do not speak about it
*to make known that you have read a library full of literature and have a cabinet full of certifications and understand ALL the technical terms of any spiritual manual
*to dance uninhibited tossing your body about however you feel fit
*to be vegan or at least vegetarian
*to have massive crystals everywhere and adorn yourself with as many of them as you can at any one moment
*to be broke or at least struggling, because money is not spiritual
*to act a martyr and strangely be okay with it
*to wear “hippie” clothing
*to make little of the physical body, do not be unhappy with any body part and God forbid that you think of surgically doing something to that body part
*to be el naturel
*to make exaggerated use of words from “spiritual texts” and other languages
*to refer to a sexual partner as beloved or my divine
*to make clear that we are all gods and goddesses and the creator is the divine
*oh yeah and to judge anyone who is actually just fucking being human and has come to terms with self and witness life from a perspecitive that we are all here to live, learn and expand no matter our beliefs or backgrounds, our desires or challeneges, and those who just speak up and say real shit…. let’s judge them hard core cuz that aint spiritual
*And one more item, spiritually evolved people make a lot of use of the words spiritual bypassing and point fingers to all who are doing it EXCEPT self because they are too enlightened to be human and do that, also they would never make socially ill statements.
Yes these and many more are on the must do/be/act like list for REAL SPIRITUAL FOLK.
Well, some of that shit is me and some is not,
as you know.
The point however to today’s post is that WE ARE ALL SPIRITUAL BEINGS.
We are all here having a spiritual experience whether you recognize it as such or not.
And the reality is that EVERYTHING is energy.
Matter of fact money is one of the most spiritual things that we have. It shows us EXACTLY just how aligned to the universal flow of things we actually are.
So to all those beautiful spiritual peep’s out there who claim that they are showing off just how aligned and how much understanding they have because they are broke AF,
well all I can say is that you my dear have not figured it out.
As a spiritual people, it is among our mission of the soul to learn our worthiness and value ourselves so much so that we truly know that we are the creators of this world and our lives. That life is reacting to us.
And it is our ability or inability to receive the abundance that we all have through the multitude of desires that we are storing up in the heavens to manifest into this experience that shows just how much we actually value and love ourselves.
Recently I was speaking with a beautiful woman who is in the spiritual healing field. She came to me asking for guidance as to how she could quit her full time corporate job and actually make a living doing what her passion was.
I asked her if she was marketing her services?
How much she charged?
And a few other items.
She responded with,
” I have been working with people for years off and on and they refer people to me. I love what I do so it’s hard to charge a fee. “
So again I asked,
“So what do you charge?”
” I just ask for a love offering.”
OMFG! That’s another thing on the must be/do/act list of spiritual people……
You must accept love offerings.
Please someone shoot me now.
Doesn’t it sound so romantic and spiritual,
good hearted and not needy at all to say “love offering”?
It just sounds like you have more than enough with plenty left over.
You are entrusting the universe to dictate your worth and the universe always takes care of you.
At least this is the perception that you are trying to put out there,
but when you don’t have your electric bill money let’s see if they will take a MF love offering.
After all energy is spiritual, right?
End result here is that I told this woman that she was not loving herself or her passion.
I shared with her that if she really valued and found worth in her abilities and passion that she would be more than happy to ask for what it was worth and put a price on it.
Instead her choice of asking for a love offering sent out the vibration of,
“Please pay me something decent because my power bill is due in three days and I do not have it.”
You can put forth whatever action,
speak with whatever softness that you feel correct,
dance carefree all damn day,
eat all the vegan meals and recycle your heart out,
study under the greatest of current teachers,
and claim that you have no shadow side, no ego.
But the truth my dear is still the same.
All that hiding that you are doing from being human,
it is just that,
and your true spiritual path is to learn to love your human expression.
Sometimes that means that you end up coloring your hair,
having fake nails, eyelashes and boobs.
Sometimes you are all crunchy and choose to not shave or bath.
But no matter what your human expression is,
when you are in alignment you are open to receiving in your life the abundance that is here for you.
You are open to compliments.
You are open to love.
You are open to your anger and your fear.
You are open to making money, good money.
You are open to sex and orgasm.
And you want to enjoy it all because it feels good and it feeds your soul. It supports your powerful self, and you can see how your thoughts and your feelings are manifesting right before your eyes because you, you my dear love yourself.
You love your human expression.
And you get…
THAT WE ARE ALL SPIRITUAL BEINGS LIVING A SPIRITUAL PATH.
And if you are not living from THIS truth,
then I ask you one thing….
“How is your lack of receiving showing any respect or value to your passion?”
Would you want to work, get healing or learn from someone who does not value their skills, connection/alignment or thier practice enough to charge for it?
Would you feel that they are the best or even good?
If you were having a baby,
Would you want to go to the doctor that charged you what they are worth for help and care or would you rather just take this bloke over here who says that he is a doctor that you can trust with your life and childs but will do it for a love offering?
Who are you more likely to trust?
TO ALL MY SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENED PEEPS OUT THERE,
THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU TO VALUE YOURSELF AND CHARGE WHAT YOU ARE WORTH.
Now more than ever.
You need to know your worth and let others know it as well.
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JUST FOR THE FUN OF IT.
Thats all it is to be.
But you my love are afraid of your point of attraction.
You are afraid that you will be too much.
That you will stand out in the crowd of everyone else who chooses to deny thier happiness and blessing.
Why do you give so much attention to what you do not want?
Why do you go searching for problems and daydreaming about them?
To live a F-ck Yes Life you must give up….
Yes give the f-ck up on being available to everything that is not fun.
Is not able to be done in ease.
Are you struggling?
In a piss poor mood?
Always searching, hungry but never happy.
These are signs that you believe that it must be hard. That you must struggle.
That life is not there to back you.
And so you refuse to leap forward.
You turn away from the heights of bliss.
You find reasons and excuses as to why…
Why you cannot do, be or have.
You argue love.
You argue for your limitations in all the things you want most for.
And then you blame.
You weep in the shadows of what could have been.
The sad truth is that all this constriction you feel,
All this lack you are standing in,
All this drama and trauma you point fingers of blame toward.
You attracted it to you because you BELIEVE that you cannot have the life you desire.
And you believe that if you actually allowed yourself to love life,
To stop and smell the flowers,
To laugh more,
Make love more,
And do the damn things that make you happy,
That you would no longer be recieved by this world.
Seriously, how can you be happy in a world so caught up in pain and anger?
How can you be laughing and enjoying your days when so many others are miserable and suffering? When bad things, very bad things are occurring all over?
This would make you seem an uncaring soul.
Caught up only in self, not concerned about the world or whats happening. You must have no virtues.
But I ask you this love.
How is tainting your life with pain and scarcity truly helping to pull anyone else out of the swamp they are in?
How is your suffering and lack of abundance helping move our planet to a healthier state? Or doing anything good for anyone?
Just for the fun of it….
Just for this moment in time…
Take thirty seconds,
To close your eye’s,
Breathe deep into your gut,
Relax your whole being,
Smile a happy thought.
And feel it fully.
Imagine it as though it already was.
Imagine if you starting playing this creation game daily.
Imagine what might occur.
Could it be so simple as to what you apply your thoughts and feelings too is what you reap in life as well?
And if it changes nothing,
Then you have risked nothing but thirty seconds of your day.
But if blessings start to happen.
Your thinking change.
Your emotional state level up.
And you start to allow yourself to enjoy this magical life of yours…
Well then my love you will be risking EVERYTHING.
Because your whole life will evolve.
And you my dear will be no more,
For you will become that person you have desired all these years,
Living, breathing, tasting, f-cking the way you have always dreamed.
That is a risk that 99.9% of humans are not comfortable taking.
So best off you just keep b-tching about your problems and drama,
Weeping about how hard life is.
So you don’t have to risk transforming.
Risking birthing who you truly are.
Just stay right there love.
Stay as you are.
And I will venture out and live in abundance.
You can watch me from afar.
Enjoy my journies and love making.
The smile upon my face.
Although I wish you were here.
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A hunger that you just can not fill.
This has been something that I have been playing with the last few months.
that’s not true.
It’s been something that I have been dancing around with for years now.
And I am f-cking hungry!
Which makes me irritable.
Makes me depressed some days.
Makes me look out into my life and question all that I have and all that I want,
and makes me look at what I am blessed with and say,
“Is this as good as it gets?”
I sound like a spoiled rotten bitch though when I say that.
And perhaps I have become one.
maybe I am supposed to be one.
maybe you are too.
Maybe, just maybe we are all supposed to want for more in our lives.
In our love and in our sex.
But the fear of being perceived as greedy,
and not appreciative stops us from going after what we want for.
The fear of what others will think.
That is the leading sabotager of our dreams.
And damn we are really good at finding reasons that we cannot be fulfilled in life.
Why we “should” settle,
and why we need to just shut up, sit down and stop searching, stop craving, stop wanting.
We are great at thinking that there is something wrong with us,
that we are bad people because we want for more.
Especially when we are a people of so many blessings.
The reality though love is something totally different.
The reality is that the way that this universe and God evolve and expand is through our wanting.
Our desires birth into existence everything that we currently have and everything that will ever be.
The issue with our desires is that they make those around us uncomfortable.
Especially when we start speaking about our sex and money.
These two things we are damned for no matter which way we turn.
If we want more of them then we are damned and greedy, we are sluts and only focused on gratification of self.
If we want for less of them or allow less of them in our lives then we are told that we are not worthy of everything else in life because we don’t have enough of these two things which means that we are unattractive, stupid, weak, disliked, etc.
So no matter what we do, when it comes to our sex and our money we are f-cked and not in a fun or good fashion.
So what can we do with these unholy hungers that we have and we run and try and hide from but that creep up and make themselves known in the most inopportune moments?
How do we curb our cravings to have the love, the sex, the money and abundance without feeling shameful and guilty for wanting more or better? Or any for that matter.
Or for wanting to change things up and play with what we have to try and create something more robust and expansive?
First we have to KNOW…
I mean truly KNOW with all the certainty that we can muster up that WANTING is natural and healthy.
The craving for something is a showing that our soul wants it for us as well and is already in pursuit for it and has found a path.
The negative emotions that stem from our craving of wanting something more and better reveals that we are out of alignment with our soul and with our power. We would not be able to feel this negative vibe if we were in alignment.
You see when we are in alignment we feel f-cking great.
We are focused,
we are clear minded,
we feel powerful and turned on to life,
We have confidence and are loose in our life, able to flow toward what we are wanting because we are allowing ourselves to be taken to it versus constricting ourselves and causing ourselves to get caught up in worry and fear.
Next we have to realize that ALL things…
Did you read that?
ALL THINGS CHANGE.
They must change.
In order for us to grow,
to gain what we claim we want,
in any subject area of life,
we must allow for evolution to occur.
We cannot have what we want by remaining the same person that we are today.
Even if we have a dynamic relationship,
a bank full of money,
great health and everything that we “think” that we can want for,
we still must allow for evolution to happen within ourselves and our lives as well as within any one of these areas if we want to maintain the area and/or expand/heal it.
You will never find happiness by insisting on things to remain the same.
Just like you cannot expect things to remain at the same level of connection,
the same level of turn on,
or anything else.
Life has its storms,
These storms are about you developing your ideal version of you.
These storms are something for us to learn how to move through in confidence and love,
and that in the storms of life,
we must expect that things will pull from us or push up against us and often this will feel uncomfortable.
But the discomfort is there to alert us to the areas inside of ourselves that we need to learn to lean more into,
speak more truth from,
see more authentically,
reveal in vulnerability more,
and to trust and love on.
These raw spaces that get revealed are the spaces that evolve us to our highest potential.
And thus create the life that we want.
Bringing our dreams into reality.
And it is saying that it is time that you start to pay mother f-cking attention to your SOUL.
It’s time that you start to take notice of that hunger before it becomes a ravenous beast that will destroy you and everything in its path to getting fed.
I am hungry.
I am craving more in all areas of my life and I have an amazingly full and abundant life.
My cup runneth over for sure.
And I want to keep it that way.
Because the truth of the matter is,
only with a full cup can you truly share without fear,
and help others.
Only by valuing yourself to the levels that God values can you give your gift in this world.
And only through the pursuit of evolution through love,
of self can you grow your soul and experience happiness.
Because happiness is not about the things that you have but who you become gaining the things that you have.
Who are you today and what does your tale say about your journey?
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“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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