The Soulful AF B*tch.

I AM A PROUD SOULFUL AF B*TCH AND DAMN BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE OF IT…
Don’t care what you got to say.
Your judgement.
Your criticism.
Your desire to rule my castle.
I will not serve you this way or that,
I serve only my beautiful soul.
That’s what attracts you.
That’s what makes you want to own me,
to harness these chambers.
That’s the lure,
the great appeal,
that causes your demise.
You may think I am b*tchy,
aloof and superficial.
You may look at me and call me names.
You may say I am childish and naive,
believing all the storybook lines.
But baby,
I know that magic exists.
I have seen it with my own two eyes.
It pours from my heart and soul,
when staying aligned.
So when I say “NO” to you,
It is an act of love.
Although it may cause you anger and pain,
I tell you no lie.
I am a proud soulful AF b*tch and damn beautiful because of it.
‘Cuz I am the magic in my life.
The great mothers womb is within my being,
I birth only my truth in each step I take and word I speak.
You cannot handle the reigns of my soul,
they will only burn you to the ground.
Unless you are willing to stand strong in whom you are as well,
and hear my passionate hearts desire.
Know that freedom is my quest.
Love is what sets its sails.
Love of self, so I can love you deeper and know who I am.
But only those who have the same mission,
who have tended to their gates,
who have been lost in the submission,
to the greatness of who they are,
will ever tread these waters,
Side by side,
hand in hand.
Baby I know magic exists.
But you may think me mean.
You may believe that I am unkind.
And that is something I will have to be alright with,
as you will see me as you portray from your desire.
Your illusion.
I am a proud soulful AF b*tch and damn beautiful because of it.
I will not serve you this way or that,
because I serve me,
perhaps you should venture out and discover your magic,
and know you are free.
Free to set boundaries,
Free to say an authentic yes or no.
Free to dance without bondage.
Because baby you are beautiful.
And you are your magic.
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To all the b*cthes, the as*sholes, the MF selfish peeps out there, who have big AF hearts, tons of compassion, love to serve the world communities and are bombarded with those who hunger for every last drop of you.
Know that you are worthy AF!
And in your boundary setting,
in your alignment to who you are,
that although you may not always please everyone all the time,
or even ever,
that you are beautiful AF!
It is because of souls like you that magic happens each day.
Your kindness, authenticity and joy is not forsaken or lost in these etimes of the hungry who cannot feed themselves.
Know that you owe no one anything,
only yourself the respect to be true to YOU.
So speak up with your boundaries.
Say loud and proud NO WAY.
For when you say NO to someone else and it is authentic and true,
you say YES to you and become magic in your life.
As Always,
Loving you from a soulful space.
And remember,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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A LOVE THAT DESTROYS AND MAKES YOU ALONE IS WHAT WE DESIRE AT OUR SOUL LEVEL…

A LOVE THAT DESTROYS AND MAKES YOU ALONE IS WHAT WE DESIRE AT OUR SOUL LEVEL….
 
“Immature people falling in love destroy each other’s freedom, create a bondage, make a prison.
Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages.
And when love flows with freedom there is beauty.
When love flows with dependence there is ugliness.
A mature person does not fall in love, he or she rises in love.
Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love.
Somehow they were managing and standing. Now they cannot manage and they cannot stand.
They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep.
They don’t have the backbone, the spine; they don’t have the integrity to stand alone.
A mature person has the integrity to stand alone.
And when a mature person gives love, he or she gives without any strings attached to it.
When two mature persons are in love, one of the great paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone.
They are together so much that they are almost one.
Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free.
There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate.
Only freedom and love.”
― Osho
 
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Second, let’s chat today about this love that breaks bondages.
This love that sets you free.
This love that makes you alone.
Osho one of the greatest of teachers has clearly said it best above but then comes in the implementation of this concept into our very day to day lives and relationship.
Sure it sounds great to speak of terms such as elevated by love and maturity in love. Of loving from a place of no conditions, where we actually make each other more free then we were before.
But how do we do this in the face of our pain bodies?
With our ego’s in tack?
And with all of our triggering thoughts, emotions and fears?
Is it really possible to have that as a human?
I believe so.
And true tantra, like what Osho taught from, teaches us how to just do this. You see tantra is not about sexual practices, lasting longer, body rubs, better orgasms or some relationship dynamic that you feel you need to have to be “tantric.”
True tantra is about love.
It is about knowing that through our soul alignment and centeredness in the self, where we do not need from another that we gain everything, and that everything is woven together by this love.
Not sexual love.
But true MF love.
Soul love.
And it all starts with self.
We have to want to be self-sufficient.
We have to want to be emotionally balanced and mature.
We have to understand that we only gain our freedom in not needing to control or manipulate others.
We have to find happiness and peace, abundance and love within prior to being able to share it with another.
WE HAVE TO OWN OURSELVES.
Not others.
And being mature in love KNOWS this.
A mature love, see’s where growth can happen and recognizes conflict and contrast as directional signs for just this growth and deeper connection, not as a means to try to be understood or change the feelings, direction or thoughts of another.
WE HAVE TO HAVE PURPOSE, LOVE & WORTHINESS FIRST.
Our relationships cannot define us.
Only the weak and lost believe that their relationships are defining them. A mature love never makes the relationship the life purpose, they have life, direction, passion, joy, abundance and clarity without the relationship.
A mature love, loves themselves so much that they put themselves first and have boundaries and desires outside of any relationship. They love themselves so much that they are constantly working on becoming freer, more centered and having a greater awareness of self.
A mature love knows that they are MF worthy of greatness in all things especially in love. That it is their birthright to be loved and to give love, because at their core they operate from love.
This is called heart coherence.
They do not rely on a relationship to be fulfilled or complete.
And when two mature individuals in this energy come together they do not fall in love, they are elevated.
They unit their strength and they become closer than any other relationship, they prioritize each other and consistently work at themselves as well as the bond.
They push each other to be free.
To explore, to live and enjoy life without bondage.
Thus always calling out any bullshi*t that may appear.
They do not aim to fight through conflict, but to help their partner to release the shackles all the more and to fly.
And in their deep union they feel alone. Not lonely.
Because they are not needy and codependent.
They are not desiring to manipulate and control.
They do not require a partner,
they choose to be one and to have one.
And from this power position of true love they are bonded.
To have this sort of elevated, empowered mature love you only really need to seek one thing…
YOU.
And the alignment to you.
From this space of soul alignment all else stems.
And love is elevated.
As Always,
Loving You from Here. <3
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
 
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AND I CAME CRASHING BACK INTO MY HEART…JUST LIKE THAT.

AND I CAME CRASHING BACK INTO MY HEART… JUST LIKE THAT.

 

He grabbed me,

kissed me and pushed me back onto the bed.

I was rambling on and on about my frustration,

my anger. Lost in thought and the mind.

I was distant from him.

Distant from me.

And lost beyond measure.

I could not feel my heart,

in truth I did not even want to right then.

I had been triggered and I was pissed.

Not at him.

At life in general.

My flow had been disrupted,

I had allowed it to happen and I was out of control of my life in that instant. The chaos of kids, work, house and family stirred around me and I just wanted solitude and peace but had no way of obtaining it because inside I was a storm that I had not even slowed to recognize.

 

And that was what he did.

He slowed me.

He grabbed a hold of me and led me back to my heart.

That space that I was forced into feeling my truth.

That space where I knew I was not alone in this world,

that space where he was not going to let me run from him, from us, from me.

And he passionately took hold of me there.

He moved with clarity, direction and determination.

I tried to fight his lead.

My mouth was rambling, but he kissed me and would not take my ego based words.

I pushed up against him and ran from feeling him physically, mentally, emotionally.

But he tore off my clothes and laid me naked, vulnerable before him. Devouring my flesh like a hungry wild animal and forcing me to come back to him.

Pressing himself into me,

not letting me go.

I fought with myself to feel.

I fought with the urge to physically stop his love at that moment.

Where days before I found myself lost in a trance of our eyes gazing  during our sexing, here I lay closing my eyes and wanting to hide.

Hiding from the reveal of my soul.

Hiding from my pain in feeling lost and angry.

Hiding by throwing up my armour and not allowing myself to feel.

Not allowing his intensity to penetrate my core.

My armour was weakening.

And tears fell.

My chest became tense as I attempted to hold back my breaking,

the cracking of my armour, the cracking of my heart and the desire to fully open to his touch, his kiss, his presence, his love.

His breath softly moving across my breast,

my heart beat instensing,

I could feel him.

As I came back to him,

back to us,

back me,

he let out the affirming words of, “Yes. yes.yes.”

I knew that he too felt me dropping.

Felt me feeling him.

And as I laid down my armour my pleasure arose.

with mine his came too.

And I was drawn in.

I was seen.

I was held.

I was fulfilled.

And my trust grew.

 

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This is the taking of the feminine that the masculine must learn.

It is in deep love and devotion.

It is in divine leadership and surrender all the saame,

and it is based in soul consciousness.

Often mistaken for control or for a desire to have one’s way,

the difference is in the emotional investment in the moment, in the relationship and the centeredness in self.

The masculine is meant to lead the femeine home to her heart.

And it is the masculine that must remain strong in these moments, strong in love. Not cowering to the feminines fires but standing firm in who they are and in their purpose beyond their mate, beyond their fear or ego or desire to control her fires, but in turn they must handle her with care and passion, clarity and direction. She must feel his leadership as well as his surrender to his own heart to be able to trust him to lead her back to her  own.

 

This is the dance.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

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NEVER HAVE I EVER BEEN EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN A MAN…

NEVER HAVE I EVER BEEN EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN A MAN…
Until now.
And this is the sad reality of so many relationships, marriages even of today and perhaps of all time.
We want for connection, unconditional love, trust, respect and union of our hearts, minds and souls but when we get down to brass taxes on relationships and our commitment to our said primary partners it is often revealed that the primary is not the primary. The person that we refer to as our primary partner or significant other, our lifemate, or our soulmate typically gets the short end of the stick with our emotional investment.
We give them time,
time that we designate for the relationship such as “date nights” or dinner. We may attend church or concerts with them, we may go to social functions or sit and watch TV.
We give them sex,
mainly because this is what is believed to make primary or significant other just that. Our sex is the piece that no one else gets (unless we are in an open relationship or we are having an affair). And so we rub our bodies together and we give it up. Because that is what we are to do to show our relationship commitment.
We give them support,
typically this is financial support from one partner and house/family/orderly support from the other. However in today’s times most relationships both contribute to finances and even though both try to support the labors of child rearing and chores, one partner will feel as though they carry more of the load then the other.
We give idle conversation and listening.
Simply meaning that we pretend to listen and share.
We talk to our partners about surface level items or responsibilities and we step away from the deeper conversations. The one’s where we are forced to inquire about who we are as a couple and what our long term visions are or what our current challenges are.
And so we have the average and ordinary union of today.
Where emotional investment is at a low, however our understanding of relationship is that it is more about commerce than love and connection. We live in a free trade society where we no longer sell off our daughters and sons to create peace between nations or for the survival of family but instead we barter our own flesh for the best opportunities and then wonder why we are not happy with our outcomes.
We trade our emotional happiness for the richest, hottest, youngest, strongest version of a partner, brainwashing ourselves that we are deeper than this and that we truly love them. However the truth is quickly revealed when we run into any amount of conflict in life.
When this happens we see where our emotional investments really lay and often we discover them with our children, our work, our bank accounts, and even our friends. We will make up excuses and we will point fingers. The blame game will quickly occur and with it couples will turn away from each other. They will apply focus to everything that their partner has ever done wrong, to the mistakes and how they have never felt loved or supported by them. They will make painful statements about how the sex always sucked, they were just doing it out of duty, how they have not been attracked to their mate forever and they will slaughter their partner without hesitation.
All the while saying, “If they really loved me…”
But here is the thing, long before we ever get to this conflict state you can be witness to exactly where one’s emotional investments are.
It’s in the little things.
*Do you make your primary relationship primary every day?
*Do you opt for friends over your partner?
*Do you make your partner feel safe?
*Do you consciously listen and share?
*Do you inquire about your partner’s life outside of you?
*Do you make them feel supported in the little things or when they are not feeling well or feeling stressed?
*Do you laugh together frequently?
*Do you share common goals/dreams/morals/values?
*Can you authentically say that you are the most vulnerable with your partner outside of anyone else?
These questions and many more are insights into a couples bond.
And emotional investment is all about the emotional bond that you consciously are creating.
This bond is not created based on what someone can offer us in finances, prestige or even in how they look or how smart they are, it is based in our heart centers and the heart and soul alignment that we have to someone. It is then supported by the coming together as friends not just lovers. It is enhanced and a foundation is created through the common grounds of united dreams/values/morals/beliefs and goals on all levels of life not just one or two.
And from this space the emotional investment is maintained from both individuals desire to go deeper with their primary partner then any other relationship they have. Both partners must desire to surrender without emotional armour and in total trust and vulnerability to each other.
Otherwise, the relationship will remain surface level and will never be able to solidify trust, commitment and unconditional love.
 
An emotionally invested couple moves together as one unit in life on all fronts, making very aware that they are the center point of gravity for each other and it is their alignment from their cores that does just this.
How does your love rate?
What are some of the areas that you feel challenged in with relationship and how can you best lean into your partner today?
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*S Believers”

TATTOOS, GUNS, TENSED MUSCLES… THE SECRET TO DESIRE.

TATTOOS, GUNS, TENSED MUSCLES…
Just a few things I viewed while brushing my teeth this morning.
Watching my partner kneeling in the closet, taking ammo out of a shotgun, his tattoo partially showing.
His focus.
The look on his face.
All so perfect.
So protective, loving and strong.
I stood there simply appreciating him.
And it is these appreciative moments that build our turn on,
our desire.
Those moments where you take someone in when they are not knowing that you are,
like watching your partner shower or cook.
Watching them radiate when they are doing something that they enjoy or are so very good at.
Watching them parent,
laugh or sleep.
Often these are not “big moments,” they are not things that are out of the norm or uncommon to any given day. However, when we slow down and they strike us in our witnessing of our partners we are captivated by the soul.
They take us to new levels of deep love with our partners.
They ignite us and create desire.
These snapshot moments allow us to see our partners in a brilliant light outside of our relationships and all the ebbs and flows of it.
Research has shown that couples feel more drawn toward their partners at times like these because we are allowing ourselves to truly see the soul expression of our mates instead of just getting caught up in the day to day grind of life, family and responsibilities.
This space that is created in these times is where desire often stems from.
And desire is something that so many couples long to restore or to captivate once again but have no understanding of how to achieve.
You see when we first come together there is space between us.
We live our separate lives, we have times and experiences apart where we are creating life and who we are without our partner right by our side consistently.
Then when we get more serious and committed with a partner we have a longing to eliminate the space. We want to experience everything we possibly can with this other soul and we hungrily try to do what we can to achieve just that because we want to know them at a deep cellular level, we are fascinated by them and at the same time want to allow them to see all of us as well.
However as time goes on, this lack of space often creates a complacency in the relationship. We start to take our partners for granted because we know them so well, and our nature as humans is to get settled into a pattern in our lives and create habits around them. We stop looking at our partners as though they have anything new to share with us or we with them.
And desire diminishes and fades.
Add In children, work, bills and many other sidetracking things that exhaust us as individuals and as a couple and you can easily see how and why so often couples start to question if their partner desires them any longer or where their turn on went for their mate.
The common belief is that if we were to just have more sexual intimacy then things would be better and more connected. That desire would creep back in.
The issue is that to have penetrative heart centered sex you must first desire each other and want for the depth of connection.
You must look at your partner as a wonderland of new experience in that moment, not assume that you already know everything there is to know about them and just think that quantity of engagement is the key.
Desire is a mental and emotional longing first.
It comes from our hunger to explore our partner in all facets.
Then from that space the primal nature and physical desire to connect is birthed.
Much the same as our desire to get healthy.
Our desire to be successful or wealthy.
Or anything else.
At first we look at the thing we are desiring with awe, because we do not have it or we do not understand it fully. So we know that we must educate ourselves about it, explore possibilities of how to remove the space between where we currently are and having the thing that we desire.
And like anything of this nature,
once we obtain it it’s shiny newness wears off and our desire to play with it, enjoy it, delve deeper into it over the course of time and experience starts to dwindle.
UNLESS…
We consciously become aware of how desire is kept strong and prevent ourselves and our partners from falling into this common ground of relationship complacency.
But to do this we must want for an empowered relationship with our partner.
We must desire depth.
We must desire truth and honesty.
We must desire playfulness and trust.
We must desire heart centered alignment,
and we must understand that desire at its core will only be able to hold strong if our partner KNOWS that they are primary in our lives.
From this foundation we can create the space required for the embers of desire to once again be harnessed and emerge.
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As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

YOUR INTIMACY AND CONNECTION IS LESSENED BECAUSE YOU NEGLECT PLAY…

YOUR INTIMACY AND CONNECTION IS LESSENED BECAUSE YOU NEGLECT PLAY…
There I said it!
One of the major contributing factors to your shitty relationship with your significant other is the fact that you forgot to play.
You have made light of our need as humans to laugh, to enjoy life and to be light in spirit.
Instead you have turned your relationship into something of responsibility, duty, and “adulting.”
And that is what you deem mature.
Healthy even.
However, nothing could be further from the truth.
Intimacy, vulnerability, connection and even trust is supported through play.
Finding the humor in our life, relationship and small moments where we put focus on just those things that make us smile and laugh.
So often I work with couples who say that they are married to their best friend. They speak of days when they felt utterly connected to their partner and they wonder what changed. Then they share about life and how life just sorta took over and they had to “grow up,” they had to get real and be responsible because they had a baby, they bought a house and had more debt so life became about duty and taking care of business.
Life got stressful.
And with the stress the play went away.
They stopped courting each other.
Stopped dating and enjoying adventures.
And the relationship along with the sex and intimacy got drab and boring.
Well no shit Sherlock!
You take the laughter out of relationships and you lose a vital nutrient to connection and intimacy.
You also decrease polarity between the masculine and the feminine and the juicy primal energy that creates desire.
Now let me clear here with you.
Some of you may be thinking that I am referring to sexual play.
That I am reffering to BDSM, or some format of adventure sex or exploring non-traditional relationships even, and sure any of this can fall under play and is fine and dandy for a healthy relationship when both parties desire the same, however THIS is not what I am speaking of at all.
When I say PLAY I am actually referring to childlike play and/or healthy competition.
I am speaking of humor, laughter.
An ability to laugh at ourselves and even joke.
An ability to go past our ego and dare I say GOOFY.
Yes this is what I mean.
Adult play is not always of the sexual nature,
although even the most innocent of play and competition can and will create a primal hunger for each other and expand our sexual connection.
When we tap into our playful primal nature we get more turned on to our partner and to life.
Laughter, movement, the engaged actions of play help to move emotion and energy in our physical bodies as well as help restore a more sound mental state.
Science has proven that those individuals who create space for play, who step outside of the comfort zones of what they deem normal and push themselves to explore deeper aspects of self have healthy mental and emotional states of being.
It is well documented how healthy laughter is for our moods and clarity, even our immune systems.
Smiling triggers certain receptors in the brain that can change a person’s perspective of a moment and significantly help us to feel more positive in life in general.
So if this is all proven then why do we choose to diminish its value in our primary relationships. In our sex. In our intimacy building?
How is it that we cannot see the importance of play in general and laughter in our intimate lives? To help maintain a healthy happy connection?
The majority of women when polled,
“What is a characteristic that you value in a partner?”
Will say, ” Someone who can make me laugh.”
At our core we understand the value,
but as relationships develop and life happens we get forgetful and we stop applying the focus needed to sustain a healthy connected and turned on relationship.
Play being one of the primary gifts of intimate relationships that we turn away from with such ease.
I ask you today to look at your primary relationship.
And if you currently do not have one, I ask that you look at the last relationship(s) that you have had and really explore this vital nutrient.
How are you at play?
What does play mean to you?
What do you find uncomfortable about play?
Doing the inquiry here with self and then discussing what you can do that might be adventurous or playful with your partner can help to re-establish connection, intimacy and desire in your love life and in the bedroom.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
 
 
❤ Another Valentine’s day Is Upon Us… ❤
And some ladies in the house are ALONE.
Well no Queen is ever alone in spirit, because we effing love ourselves,
right ladies?
But we may not have the man of our dreams in bed next to us.
That man who is consciously aware,
emotionally intelligent,
spiritually sound,
committed,
passionate,
makes us laugh,
and when he looks at us has us melt.
Yeah that guy.
Well to all you single queens in the house,
make 2021 the last year that you wake up without your soulmate next to you.
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A BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE TO ALL THE BETWEENER RELATIONSHIPS…

A BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE TO ALL THE BETWEENER RELATIONSHIPS…

 

I am sitting here this cold dreary day in North Texas in total utmost gratitude for all those men that have graced my life with their energy, time, connection, sex and more.

Those men that I have laid in bed with enjoying what seemed like endless pillow talk, laughter and life shares.

Those men that made my heart sink from the loss of their presence in mine.

And for those men that infuriated me, made me feel crazy, were narcissistic, power hungry control freaks but also made me laugh and believe in the moment.

The men who caused me bodily harm.

The men who tried to destroy my dreams, my relationships and my self-esteem.

 

Yes to all these masculine, I give thanks and honor.

For without them I would not know what I want today in a man, in a life partner.

I would not be aware of my worthiness.

I would not be woken to my greatness as a woman.

And without these men,

I would continue on a path of dancing with “betweeners.”

 

First let me explain what I mean by “betweener.”

 

BETWEENER: A relationship that you know is not long lasting or “the one” but you choose to play with for a certain period of time while you figure your shiz out.

 

Betweener relationships help us heal.

They help us clarify what we want and need in a relationship.

They are educators.

 

And we ALWAYS, yes always know that they are between “real” relationships because there is something, just something that just does not fit.

 

Often this comes up in the feelings of:

*not being able to fully commit

*a nagging sense that they are not 100% with you

*insecurity in the relationship

*lack of turn on or passion

*our bodies will act shut down sexually

*we won’t feel safe stating our truth or just doing us

*there is a feeling of this is short term, a second guessing

 

These are betweener relationships.

Anytime, we know that we are not ready or able to jump into the deep end with someone, then we should get real with ourselves that we are not really aligned to this other person either for a lifemate sorta situation.

 

Often betweener relationships are lower vibration relationships.

Meaning that we call them into our relationship experience when we are wounded, heart broken or feeling lost in our lives, in who we are as individuals.

They are relationships asking us to accept less than what our heart and soul is desiring for and that most certainly reveals itself in the heart centered connection that we DO NOT have with a betweener.

 

But thank goodness for these relationships.

No matter how long they last for,

some we end up marrying,

some we date off and on for years,

and some are just flashes in the pan.

However, all of them bring forth great beauty and lessons to us if we so choose to receive them as such.

 

Knowing that we are co-creators to our reality and life experiences,

taking the responsibility for just that can allow us as individuals to see why each of these people walked into our lives when they did.

 

Perhaps they were there to help us get firm in a boundary.

Maybe they were there showing us such great beauty and love so that when our soulmate manifested that we could recognize them with greater ease.

Some betweeners, ask us to speak up louder, shine brighter or see our ego’s in more light.

Others ask us to learn how to guard our hearts and honor our truth with self-compassion and respect.

 

No matter the lesson.

They are powerful educators.

And today I just want to applaud all the “betweeners’ ‘ of my life,

because thanks to you bloaks I know who I am and what I want in a man.

 

Thanks to you I have done the clarifying of my heart’s desire and learned to slow down and listen with my heart and my intuition.

Which is exactly how we avoid betweeners and recognize “the one” that is right for us.

That soulmate love.

 

Loving you from this overcast day in Texas.

Remember that you are worthy of a great love.

A true connection of heart, mind, body and soul.

 

And to have that,

you MUST LISTEN to your Soul GPS.

Your heart and stop disregarding its directional offerings because you fear a life of being alone.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

And Queens who want a Conscious Man 🙂

 


Conscious Coffee with Kendal – Passion, Commitment and Betweener’s

 

<3 Another Valentine’s day Is Upon Us… <3

 

 

And some ladies in the house are ALONE.

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emotionally intelligent,

spiritually sound,

committed,

passionate,

makes us laugh,

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ON BECOMING ONE… A PAST LIFE AWAKENING

ON BECOMING ONE…A PAST LIFE AWAKENING

 

Gazing into his steal blue eyes,

tears streaming from his and mine alike.

We were caught in this moment. It was a timeless replay of memories. Ones that we didn’t know existed but felt deep into the very core of our beings.

There we were once again in love, in war, together and fearing the loss of one another.

As I stared deeper into his soul I was taken to a time when we were not who we were in this current moment.

My chest started to ach as though a spear had punchered it.

My breath quickened and I wanted to just move closer to him.

I could feel the storm of a warring nation around us, I could feel the fear of what was to come.

I could feel the penetration of his love from so many lifetimes ago, here now in this moment.

And I could feel our joint pain and suffering. This space between us did not even exist.

My hand wanted to reach out to that spot on his chest that I knew he had tried to protect me with.

That spot where we became one and lost each other in the same moment.

Where the spear had cursed through the bone, through his being and into me.

I could feel him holding me,

his tears streaming down.

His apology that he could not save me.

Save us.

And I thought to myself as I came back to this current moment,

still locked in his loving gaze,

 

“We will not lose one another in this war that is about us. We will not. Our destiny does not have to be replayed through our lifetimes. No matter how many a tale we have that supports, today here in this moment, in this lifetime, in this love we can just become one. We can make love and we can unit. We can hold each other without the fear. Without the regrets. And we can let go of the pain of a thousand years.”

 

I realized that everything that we are moving through is us healing our past lives (and perhaps you don’t believe in such things, but I do and could share many an intriguing story that may change your mind.)

The karmic debt of then,

that must be washed away.

The recognition of our souls and the uniting of our paths.

We are here today in this moment,

entwined in each others arms and souls,

because we are meant to be one.

 

The unity of a soulmate,

a twinflame,

where opportunities throughout lifetimes were lost,

but here and now,

they exist.

And it is our expansion in self,

our learning of our hearts,

our recognizing of our egos,

and the letting go of what has held us back from each other,

that we are here to fully take hold of.

To fully learn from.

 

The concept of becoming one,

the ceremony of marriage is to create this timeless bond,

the coming together before God is to strengthen it.

However the reality is that the majority of marriage,

unity is not true.

It is a forced unity where we commit to someone based on resumes, looks, and ideas.

Where society, family, and friends all tell us that this is good and this is bad, choose him/her or heck no don’t get with them.

And so often we follow the call of others,

so often we base our lives, our commitments and our very marriages on these things that do not create unity.

We choose to ignore our hearts.

We choose to turn away from our intuition,

and we make what we feel are “wise choices” in our lifemates,

only to find ourselves a few steps down the path of the relationship wanting for something more.

Wishing that we had listened to our hearts call that would have taken us another direction,

wondering if we missed that true love.

That soulmate.

But justifying our choices because of society, family, friends, property, safety, religion, etc.

And sacrificing our happiness.

Sacrificing our truth.

 

Here is where so many a marriage resides and what I believe is a culprit to so much unhappiness in the relationship.

When we choose to disregard all those outside influences,

when we choose to look past the resumes, the looks and the ideas of what it should or should not be and just slow down and listen to our intuition with someone,

We are blessed with our truth and what spirit wants us to know about the path with any relationship.

As a society we have trained trust in our gut feelings out of ourselves.

We have brainwashed ourselves to not take heed to our hearts guidance or to how someone makes us feel.

We ignore those soft little nudges that something is wrong in a relationship as well as ignoring or even fearing when something feels so perfect.

 

If you ever wondered what makes a happy couple happy?

What makes some people stick?

What is the secret to having that storybook romance for a lifetime,  where you are turned on, tapped in and fully engaged at all levels of life with someone?

Well here is your answer.

 

When our souls meet another they KNOW if they are a yes or a no to that other soul.

If we are wanting to find “THE ONE” then it is our mission to listen.

 

To our hearts guidance.

To our intuition.

To the soft nudges from our core.

 

And it is our responsibility in love to know that although others may have all the best intentions for us and our lives,

that they cannot feel what aligned to our soul for us.

 

Therefore they have no place trying to direct our path.

 

Love respects the path.

Love yourself,  love your family and friends.

Listen to your soul and mind your tongue with others.

 

As Always,

Stop Existing & Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

 

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101 DAYS OF PSYCHO AND THE GIFTS GIVEN…

101 DAYS OF PSYCHO AND THE GIFTS GIVEN…
You know those moments in life where you just wonder,
“Why the ‘F’ me?”
When you question what is happening and cannot see the purpose behind it. Perhaps even wonder if it will ever stop,
because it seems like a storm that has no end.
Well that has sorta been where my last 101 days have been.
And when I say that Hollywood would kill for some of the storyline,
‘cuz you just cannot make this stuff up, I mean it.
I guess you could also say,
when it rains it pours.
And often that is the case.
Or maybe,
Things come in threes – and to that I would say the same as I do to all these statements.
“TIME TO WAKE THE F-CK UP!”
And that is exactly what God is wanting us to do in situations where it feels like we are being pushed through a keyhole with immense force. We are indeed required not requested to WAKE UP.
To get clear.
To look at our lives.
Our inner realms and how they correspond to our outer worlds.
And to know that these things that are occurring, no matter how crazy they may seem…
No matter how much pain and suffering they may bring…
No matter how many restless nights you may have,
nor how high your blood pressure may get…
THESE THINGS are happening perfectly just for you.
If it was supposed to be any other way,
well guess what?
It would be doing that,
but it is not,
and therefore it is perfectly designed for you even though it is uncomfortable AF.
And that is the hard reality that I have been reminded of over the last 101 days of my life.
That is also the beauty in the crazy.
The light in the suffering.
And the reason that I keep putting my armour down even though I hold it so close when an attack comes my direction.
There is always a gift being given.
The only question for any of us in moments like these is if we can receive the gift.
And receiving it simply means being aware that it is there and allowing ourselves to feel past the pain and fear,
past the discomfort and exhaustion,
and feel into the love of who we truly are.
And into our internal GPS.
OUR SOUL.
The gifts given in psychotic moments of life,
when a hurricane of what feels like certain destruction is up on us,
are always about waking up and clarifying our lives.
For me I am referring to this period as a time of housecleaning on all fronts. It is requiring me to get in there and put some good old elbow grease into getting the results that I want and need, it is requiring me to sort and sift through a bunch of old things that no longer serve me, from actual furniture and household items to relationships and pathways in business as well as personal affairs.
It has clarified who I can trust and who is a wolf in sheep’s clothing. It has allowed me to analyze my desires for my future and get more aligned to my core in the process of doing so.
It has revealed to me all the little and not so little trappings that I have placed on myself, where I am overly passive and where I am too strict. It has shown me, that I am the creator of my own destiny and that I have a strong powerful soul, but in order to tap into it and call down my blessings in even greater capacity that it is up to me seeing the blessings in THIS moment and not getting caught up in the bondage of what others perceive of me.
In times of struggle,
we are being told that our old world is over.
That it is time for us to embrace our BIGNESS.
And see that up to this point we had grown too comfortable in what was thus keeping us small.
God does not want any of us to live small lives.
We were born to THRIVE.
And just like in the making of a diamond,
there is great pressure on all things that must be transmuted,
for our clarity, beauty and radiance to emerge.
Loving you from the darkness and into the light of the birth of your new life and world.
As Always,
Stop Existing & Start Living
“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”
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WHEN SOMEONE WANTS YOU TO BE SOMETHING THEY REFUSE TO SEE WHO YOU ARE…

WHEN SOMEONE WANTS YOU TO BE SOMETHING THEY REFUSE TO SEE WHO YOU ARE…

Over and over again I am reminded of just how blind we humans can be in our relationships.

And then we wonder why people shut down, walk away or get upset with us.

But it is often because we are blinded by our own desires and beliefs of who people are and how we want them or expect them to show up in relationship with us that creates this disharmony.

Recently I have been blessed with the opportunity to witness numerous people in my life sharing with me how they perceive me. Who they think I am, how they think I should react or expect me to react, what they believe my desires are in life, work, and even in my intimate relationships and more.

And it is interesting and saddening to witness these people do just this because I sit here realizing that the reality is that no matter how much I show up differently then what they believe,

no matter how much I communicate who I am RIGHT NOW, or what my desires are, what my boundaries are that they simply cannot hear me and actually believe often that it is not them but me with the communication issues.

Now granted,

I have served my fair share in the land of not communicating well.

I have had my issues with boundaries and stating what I am a F-ck Yes too and what I am a F-ck No too,

and I have moments in my current as well where I drag my feet and try to read between the lines or make the best decision that will cause the least amount of hurt feelings, be the best for someone else and put myself on the back burner….

(I am human and all and get caught in my own crap. Shhhhhh…. I get it…. I know better. I do.)

But at the end of the day,

I have looked my shadow self in the eye many a time,

I have felt into my ego and called it out of the darkness and see it for what it is more frequently then not,

and when it comes to speaking up and out on things,

well often I don’t give two sh*ts and just state it as it is.

So in this understanding of the timid young woman that was the wall flower just a little over  decade ago who would get trampled by many, to the woman that I am today that has a deep understanding that I am only responsible for my emotions, thoughts and actions and I cannot make anyone else happy,

I find myself in awe of so many people in my life who simply refuse to see who I am.

Old lovers, spouses, friends, children and even clients have recently revealed how they are stuck in an older version of me.

To the point that they REFUSE to see or allow any sort of change in my pattern, even when it is so vastly different right in their face.

But WHY IS THAT?

Why do we humans refuse to allow others to change?

Why do we ignore who someone is, trying to become or even acting on being in any area of their life?

The answer in my opinion is pretty f-cking simple…..

BECAUSE IT DOES NOT SERVE OUR BEST INTEREST IN OUR MIND OR DOES NOT GRANT US WHAT WE WANT FROM SAID INDIVIDUAL.

If our drinking buddy who has been our wing man for the last decade suddenly sobers up and gets married,

then where does that leave us?

In our life and choices?

If they start to make changes and different choices that do not support what we are wanting then no matter how happy we may be for them, we find ourselves feeling lost and lonely suddenly.

And the reason is that we are looking for some form of our happiness, our fulfillment to be met by this other person.

And in order for us to have what we want THEY NEED TO STAY OR BE SOMETHING THAT SUPPORTS THIS VERSION of who we want.

It has nothing to do with the other person and everything to do with us.

We can say that we want the best for someone else,

and I have heard that statement a lot over the 100 days,

but when it comes down to it we will tell our loved one that they are overreacting, that they are not seeing things straight, that they are having a midlife crisis, going crazy, are no longer fun or are now being anti-social. We will find fault in their actions, demeanor, thoughts and feelings and when they share who they are and what they want from life we will unconsciously plug our ears, close our eyes and act like a four year old by chanting nah-nah-nah in our heads and never notice that we are doing any of the sort but instead turn around and tell our loved one that they got it all wrong, it’s this way and not that. That they want this or that instead.

To take it to extreme levels,

its like we are raping our loved one’s.

And what I mean by that is that it is like the rapist that tells the woman that she is wet when she is dry and that she is turned on when she is terrified and then thanks her for making him feel so good.

Now granted that I know that this is an extreme,

but the truth is that anytime when we refuse to see who someone is showing up as,  refusing to hear their words and tell them that they are the ones who are not communicating or saying something else, or tell someone that they are just this or that when they are not,  what we are doing is denying that person in totality.

We are making our desires and views of who they are more important than who they really are and we are forcing our will on them.

We all are guilty of doing this in life and in relationships.

First we must recognize this fact.

We are all blind to the people in our lives and we get caught up in who we perceive them to be.

That is why it is so true that perception is reality.

When perception becomes so strong often the person who is making the change falls weak after time and just gives into what “everyone” is saying and believing and the only true way for them to get away from said perceived reality is to fully disconnect from those who are stating it.

So I ask you today,

Where are you believing that you really know someone and in truth are actually not allowing them to be them?

Where is your blindness in the relationship?

And As Always,

Stop Existing And Start Living

“Coaching for Grown A*s Believers”

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