For some time, we have created and perpetuated the belief that sexuality and spirituality are two very different boxes in our lives, along with the idea that sex is dirty, impure, and “ungodly” – only acceptable for reproduction. The treatment of this part of ourselves as forbidden and primal has led us to using the act of sex in many debasing ways and has greatly minimized, if not eliminated altogether, the idea that sexuality is actually one of the doorways to help us remember our Divinity.
When we shift to accepting its higher vibration, our sexuality becomes a sacred form of self-realization and opening to the higher self, as well as opening to full union of higher love and connection with another. In this way, it’s incorporated as a crucial part of our spiritual evolution!
Our guest this week is Kendal Williams (www.tantrictransformation.com), a Tantric practitioner whose lifetime journey to self-empowerment presented itself through the melding of her sexuality and spirituality.
Listen to the recorded talk via VoiceAmerica
Living the Shift: Our Evolution of Body, Mind, and Spirit
The Union Between Sexuality and Spirituality as Part of Our Evolution
Show date: 7/30/13
Key Notes from Kendal’s Interview
Angela: Please cover the highlights of your background, how your journey led you to finding your spirituality within your sexuality.
Kendal: Spirituality has been in my life forever. Sexuality was too, but I did not understand it as such. The world has always turned me on, everything about it. Even as a child I was fascinated and turned on my nature and by everything the world had to offer me. However it was not until my teen years that I was opened up to the possibilities. Love stepped into my life with a young man who was my first teacher. He brought a greater scope of spirituality into my life by introducing me to the concepts and practices of Tantra. Our lovemaking and deep connection opened me to life and the unity of spirituality and sexuality. My real lessons in love and in life happened though when he left and my heart crumbled into pain. This allowed me to experience the rawness of life and great beauty came from it. I turned and walked down the path of what I call the, “white picket fence life,” You could say I strived for the American dream. Success. Or what we are taught success is, the house, car, travel, money, etc. I married and had children. We went through much chaos and learning and grew spiritually even though neither of us were consciously aware of the lessons at hand. Over the course of 17 years our paths slowly separated and our lessons needed to manifest apart from each other. Toward the end of my marriage I called into my life a teacher. I started paying attention to the omens/signs around me and reconnected to the spirit that I had always knew. During this time of my life I was introduced to kabbalah and learned about the ego and how to expand our light body as well as the meeting of Duncan Knight (my tantra teacher and now dear friend). I knew three things at this point: 1) I needed healing personally, I was numb to life and if I felt anything it was rage and depression 2) I wanted my relationship to my husband healed but was not caught up on any given physical outcome of that, whatever healed meant was good for me and 3) I wanted to become a practitioner.
As I worked with Duncan my lower chakras started to awaken and heal, with this my desire for living life and feeling was summed back. I was horny. My kundalini was awakening and as it did I decided that I needed to explore sexuality deeper and expand out. This awakening brought reality into a clear picture, I wanted lovers in my life. I wanted sensual expression in my life. I wanted experience and I wanted the courage to do what was needed. I was scared to death of each step I had to take, but the universe provided me with many perfect souls that would become my guides, teachers of life, mirrors, lovers and friends and even a few that would come through to teach the hard lessons of pain and suffering. This time of life was full of miracles when I look back at it. Even as I worked through tough issues such as rape and the separation of a 17 year marriage I now can see the great beauty in what was being provided.
In the unity and healing of my sexuality and spirituality I opened the gateway to harmony, peace, unconditional love and acceptance of self and others and the ability to live unbound.
Angela: What is the difference between basic sexuality, as we generally know it today, and what sexuality can be (and provide) in its optimal state?
Kendal: Its ALL about integration. The integration of sexual pleasure and spiritual surrender. We do this when we learn to love and trust in life, not just in our intimate relationships. Openness is about the body opening up, our muscles relaxing, our hearts opening instead of hiding behind emotional blockades; where spiritual openness is fully feeling into each moment of life, feeling that there is NO separation between us and that precious moment of the present. When we do this we reach optimal bliss and passion not just in our lovemaking but in our daily lives. You see when we get turned on in the bedroom we are also getting turned on to life. Sex is a creative process that wants to manifest miracles. We are the ONLY species that has the ability to not only experience great pleasure from our “mating” but also not have it be mating, instead we have the great blessing of sex for pleasure and manifestation. This is where we need to start to except sex’s greatest gift to us. In our sexing we are able to expand our vessels and fill ourselves with an enormous amount of life force energy, if we open to this power of the creator and align our thoughts in the moment or orgasm to what we want to manifest in life then we can draw down these things, out of the quantum field of possibilities and have them materialize into our lives.
Angela: Does someone have to be in a relationship to explore this part of themselves? Please expound on this a little bit.
Kendal: Absolutely NOT. Some of the best and most powerful, spiritually evolving as well as educational sex is provided in the presence of no one other then ourselves. Self pleasuring is mandatory weather you are in a relationship or not. And I highly recommend that if you are single that you take this opportunity to work on yourself both sexually and spiritually. With self- pleasuring in a spiritual sense you learn to become the shaman of your life, you learn about your body, what you like and don’t like, you learn about your energy and how it flows through you at orgasm and if you are wise you will allow yourself to be witness to not only the pleasurable events of energy flowing but how your energy flows when you are upset, depressed or otherwise. How do these times relate in energy flow to orgasm and how can you direct that energy for the greatest good instead of what normally happens, a short circuit and then exhaustion. Through the practice of spiritual sex (weather alone or not) you can acquire powerful tools of self control, self love, acceptance, healing and learn to open to your own personal vortex of abundance.
Angela: What would be your advice to someone who’s put sexuality low on the priority scale in their spiritual evolution?
Kendal: Leaving sexuality out of spirituality is like trying to be positive all the time in life, by doing this we abandon part of ourselves. We are not being authentic. And by doing that we remain at the level that the part of us that we abandoned is still sitting. Only through embracing all of ourselves, including our kinks and dysfunctions, our traumas and our desires, our angels, saints and devils will we ever be able to become the full expression of love that the creator wants us to be. This is true surrender and surrender is powerful for our spiritual/emotional and physical growth. You have to remember that the thing that all of us that consciously walk a spiritual path subscribe to is the power of love, well that love-force that moves through the universe is also the same love force that breathes our breath and enables our hearts to beat as well as our genitals to experience orgasm. The only reason we don’t accept sex as a spiritual force is because of 2500 years of fear being programmed into us. When this fear dissolves, we no longer separate ourselves from the creator, we become part of the infinite flow of life. Opening sexually is opening to this flow of life. When we are having sex we are (if we are a man) penetrating the world with our presence in the moment, with our strength, our passion, our purpose. We are guiding the energy of the universe into what we want to manifest. (if we are a woman) the more we open our legs and allow ourselves to be penetrated we open to abundance, creation, love and surrender. In this we women carry with us the infinite universe within our wombs where we can manifest our dreams into reality.
Angela: What would you recommend as the first step for anyone wanting to explore their sexuality in a spiritual way – both individually and in a relationship?
Kendal: There are two first steps.
Learn to breathe. Breath is not only the essence of our soul but in learning how to properly breathe you will gain great insight into yourself, as well as have the most powerful step toward connecting, maintaining and controlling your life force energy. In our breath we can connect our spirits and travel up the spiritual ladder to heaven, we can expand our orgasmic state out into the world and fill our physical bodies with a sustainable energy that will carry us for days. Breath is the gateway to higher consciousness and sex that can heal and transform us as well as our world.
The second step is:
Have more sex. Really get properly sexed open every day if you can. Single or in a relationship take the time each day to have an orgasm and when you do come, breathe it in and allow it to fill your body, relax your muscles instead of tensing up and envision in your minds eye what you want to create. Consciously surrender into this state of pleasure with the feeling, vision and desire of the life you want to have.
Recently I came across a post in a discussion group by a male who was expressing confusion and frustration on focusing on his pleasure. His question was also how to focus on his pleasure and hers at the same time There are many different ways that this can be answered. What I believe the core of the problem to be is more widespread than just the pleasure question.
In my experience there is a belief, by males, that there is no difference between orgasm and climax. This is not true, we are never taught the difference, because talking about sex is considered taboo. So let’s strip away the taboo and deal with the concept of orgasm does not equal ejaculation. You can experience orgasm without climax, you can experience climax without orgasm. In my mind and experience the former is preferable. If a man can learn to move the sexual energy that gets built up in the genital region before climax he can get to the point of experiencing multiple orgasms without approaching ejaculation. Most guys spill over the edge of climax for several reasons.
The first and most important reason is lack of being in the moment and experiencing the pleasure of the intimate act with the partner. I would hazard a guess that most guys are already focused on “getting some” before the act is even certain and with ejaculation being the end goal.
To experience complete pleasure requires retraining the body and the mind to experience the depth and nuances of pleasure without focusing on the end goal of e ejaculation David Deidarefers to this kind of friction sex as “pump, pump ooooh, goo” Once you have retrained the body and the mind not to see ejaculation/climax as the goal of sex you can start to learn new patterns and your body will let you know when releasing energy via ejaculation is necessary.
There is no clean cut answer on how often a male should ejaculate as each body is different and will require different levels of energy retention and recycling. It will also depend on environmental factors, age, weight, diet, & general level of health. When ejaculation becomes a conscious choice instead of an expectation the true experience of pleasure can begin to be understood and felt.
It is important to keep in mind we can’t unlearn the patterns that we’ve built up over our lifetimes to this point. We did not learn how to walk, talk, ride a bike in a day. This is no different. It is a process of learning your body and how to open up to the sensations of pleasure. As they stated in a class that I recently took. When we learn to expand the container of the experience the more you can fit into that container. This includes sensations, thoughts, perceptions etc.
Like with anything else this will take conscious effort and practice.
You might have noticed that I have not mentioned to this point focusing on the woman’s pleasure. The reason for that is I don’t believe the posters confusion or frustration is centered anywhere other than himself. While it may be seen as chivalrous or forward thinking to focus solely on the woman’s pleasure first, by that very act you take away from the pleasure of the experience for both partners. So I am going to suggest that before any man asks the question of how to pleasure a woman, they first ask the question of accepting pleasure within themselves and what the intent they are taking into the experience is. Is it to share a beautiful moment of intimacy and deep connection with another human being, or are you focused on your climax?
ORIGINAL ARTICLE published on Authentic Living.com
Recently I did a talk for Daniel D’Neuville at the Harmony Wellbeing Center in Irving Texas. I found the center to be very peaceful and inviting as well as the modalities offered through them to be among some of the best in the Texas area from what I can tell. I strongly encourage anyone in the DFW area and even those who are not but looking for holistic alternatives to healing to explore the story of this wellness center. The founder has a powerful tale of overcoming Parkinson’s through the use of some of the services now offered at this location.
Now as for the topic of my talk the other night: Tantra as a Spiritual Path
Funny enough even though in recent times and mostly brought on by the closed mindedness of our society Tantra has been forgotten as a spiritual path, however when one researches it they will quickly see it primarily defined as just this; a spiritual path. Thus what tantra is known for in today’s western world is not primarily as a spiritual practice but as a way to infuse ones sexing with “hawt” moves and positions. It has also gotten a reputation as a sexual practice for those who do not believe in marriage, monogamy or any form of a committed relationship. These judgement’s on Tantra have led for much miseducation and even instilled fear in the common population, making it hard for those who honesty practice the spiritual nature of this beautiful art.
In truth the sexual practices of Tantra even though they do exist are the minor of the practice. Marriage, monogamy and committed relations are not something that those who practice Tantra avoid or discourage. These relationship forms are very much alive and active in the Tantra world, however as one expands consciousness and heals their physical, emotional and mental bodies they also experience a liberation of societal constraints, often referred to as openness. This openness allows for an individual to accept where they or their partner is at any given moment in a relationship and sometimes can lead to what is know as an open or polyamorous relationship. Do not be fooled to think that these forms of relationship are anything but committed. When one embarks on such a path with their partner they have to commit to a higher standard of trust, integrity and personal growth as well as love. Without these core things in place all will fall to the waste side. Such high consciousness relationships are based on COMMUNICATION and INTEGRITY. So much so that I have found the average “marriage” or committed relationship not open, trusting or even unconditionally loving enough to handle the truth of this deep heart based communication.
Tantra teaches sacred sexuality and this is what is marketed around the world for the most part. Humanity has struggled with sexuality and similar related topics, but interestingly enough there has always been arts and sciences devoted to the honoring of the sacred, sexual self. In fact all of the cosmoses origins are birthed in a sensual dance of lovemaking. These creative forces are found in all of cosmic and human manifestations. The Divine Masculine and Feminine are everywhere! Look at EVERY major religion and philosophy and you will discover a sect devoted to mysticism. Each sect of mysticism has a sector devoted to consciously comprehending and exploring the deeper concepts of sexuality and its sacredness as well as the integration of spirituality and sexuality.
So what does Tantra mean anyway?
Tantra is a Sanskrit word of two parts. The prefix, tan, means “to expand, to join or weave.” The latter part, tra, means “tool.” When placing these two together you get the definition — ” a tool to expand, liberate, and bring together.”
Tantra does this through the practice of many spiritual, emotional, mental and physical tools that assist in the development of our kundalini energy. Kundalini energy is our, as well as the universes essence or vital force. This 3 1/2 coiled serpent power that resides in our beings at the base of the spine is understood as the mechanism that awakens and expands. This “awakening” as you will hear it referred to the most is what leads to fulfillment, realization, liberation, and salvation. This awakening comes about through breath work, meditation, bodywork, ceremonies and rituals, yoga practices, as well as the presence and the weaving of all of life together and the ability to face and press through ones inner caverns where our ghosts and demons hide, allowing for spiritual light and healing to create a new reality.
The coils: Prana, Chitta and Para all have a separate role in our ascension process.
Prana kundalini which is essentially the energy that powers the fluctuation of the cerebral spinal fluid within the spinal column is commonly known as The Breath of Life. It is the fluctuation within the cerebral fluid that is considered within the spiritual tradition to be the essence of the three faze respiration process that powers ones physiology. With this coil of kundalini you experience all of your bodily functions and movements within this experiential world.
Chitta kundalini, which is Sanskrit for mind stuff is the vital energy of the mind. It is due to chitta that we are able to take in all the senses as well as information and structure it within as our personal history. This formation of personal history is how we manifest our instincts and our views of the world.
Para kundalini, which is the highest form is the universal vital life force essence itself. I refer to it as the God Spark. It is the source from which all of experience is delivered. It is within this that we experience Spanda. Spanda is Sanskrit meaning to move a little. Better described as the extremely soft and subtle vibrations of the universe. This energy has been referred to as the Holy Ghost, that quiet still voice that comes upon us in certain times of awakening and communing with God that softly moves us. However it is commonly known as microwaves, discovered by Bell Labs back in the 1960’s. A microwave is a subtle vibration which at the time of the study seemed to be equal throughout the entire universe. This very subtle vibration was the residue of the Big Bang and the residual vibration of the energy that the whole universe was formed from.
This Para kundalini is what tantric body work helps to expand throughout a being. As all three coils open (awaken) they travel though the chakra system detoxifying a person on EVERY level. This detoxification process can sometimes happen quickly but often can take months or even years. Once complete an individual is basically born again. This time they find themselves in a new world, with new thinking programs and new realities birthing from the way the process and experience life. A beautiful but often painful struggle must be made to ascend to these deeper, more expansive forms of personal consciousness, but when ones does they learn to live openly full of unconditional love and acceptance in gratitude and humility. A life of Soul Integrity.
This is what Tantra as a Spiritual Practice focuses on. Unlike most other spiritual and religious practices tantra teaches that in order to awaken this higher state of consciousness one must be allowed and even encouraged to FULLY EMBRACE ALL of Life.
Throughout the annals of mythology and spirituality, the devi – Kunti – (the Yin/Shakti opposite Yang/Shiva) has taken many forms and faces; some of these are translated accurately, others are not. Many have become owned (over time) by some cannonisation, doctrine .. or set of dogmatic rules.
Wholeness and the first separation
At the deepest and most primordial, Yin and Yang .. deva and devi are the first separation but, they are never separate. In Hindi, she is Shakti, he is Shiva
deva : d’e’v’a is the primordial masculine principle; an essence or principle, originally; ‘a bright or shining one’ from *div– to shine; the “sign” or “omen” of the energy which pervades; bestowing, producing or imparting; as with hot fire or passion from “above” (as in Heavenly); sometimes seen as a “gift” with the concept of going inward, within or in; the life in-breath; as an aspect of Brahma
devi : dh’e’v’i is the primordial feminine principle; placement or holding; potential to go beyond or transcend; consciousness potential as in “hidden” or “the inner self” with wonder, awe; the energy which pervades ; bestowing, producing or imparting; as with cold fire or passion of receptivity; that which has the potential to ‘learn’ or evolve as the essence of compassion with the power to obtain or become something else
Yoga, itself, is the UNION of the deva and the devi — masculine and feminine — Yin and Yang — Shiva and Shakti
The Tibetans go one step further; they call it Tantra – describing it as the warp and weft of the cloth as in the “sacred” weaving
akin to Christianity’s “Divine Marriage” of the Heavenly Bride (Yin, the devi) and Bridegroom (Yang, the deva) .. for it is written:
Tao gave birth to One;
One gave birth to Two;
Two gave birth to Three;
Three gave birth to the ten thousand things.
The ten thousand things carry Yin and embrace Yang
The two primordial breaths blend and produce harmony.
The Tao or “The Way of All Things” is a flow, an inter-penetration, an omniscience and an omnipotence and a homeostasis of both masculine and feminine, positive and negative principles
7000 years of Kundalini and the divine marriage
The elements of the Force and the Field were inscribed on a tortise shell 5000 or so years ago; “k’un” is of the earth; the feminine; the energy of life.
Hindu’s derived the name Cunti/Kundi and all its variations that have formed the roots of Country, Kind and Kildare; Kundalini as it is propogated by the purveyors of “authentic Western Guru’s” is nothing more than a thought-form (Tulpa) far removed from the Sanskrit roots of the word.
But then, the Primordial Feminine the first separation from the void is something that the conscious mind cannot manipulate or control for the simple reason that this one bit computer is nothing more than the product of one’s dis-eased feminine .. a feminine that is separated from the Void.
The Divine Marriage — cross culturally
The feminine is the field in the pairing of the force and the field; she is sometimes represented as ‘of the manifestation‘ … ‘of the earth‘. In the Christian prayer, we find “Thy Will be done in Earth as it is in Heaven“.
To most, she is mysterious, deep, dark sultry ..
She is Serena (from the Latin serene) unagitated; without losing self-possession; calm; tranquil; fertile; she was a ‘Golden Hind‘ (female deer) in ‘Hercules: The Legendary Journeys‘
She is also Tara, the devi Hindu Mahavidya, the saving aspect of the Goddess who in Buddhist terms is the female deity (devi) representing enlightened activity and fearlessness.
In Polynesian Mythology, she is the ‘sea goddess’; the ruler of the element of water.
But, she is also Diana the virgin, the equivalent of the Greek Artemis born with her twin brother Apollo.
And so, before it was corrupted, we have the story of the Virgin Mary — so much a parallel to the story of Kunti in the Mahabaratra
She is Ishtar .. the Assyrian and Babylonian counterpart to the Sumerian Inanna and to the cognate northwest Semitic goddess Astarte
Divine mysteries of Islam
Before Muhammad brought the religion of Islam to Arabia, the Arabs polytheistic (many gods) people. Hindu merchants frequently passed through Makkah, (now Mekka) a major trading hub.
Ancient Indian Vedic texts refer to Makkah as a place where Alla the Mother Goddess was worshiped. In Sanskrit, Alla means “mother.”
This name was connected to the Hindu Goddess Ila. She was the consort of the Hindu God Sivain his form known as Il, and this form of Siva was known and worshiped in pre-Islamic Makkah. A great deal of cultural and spiritual interchange took place between the merchants of Makkah and India.
Rumi (1207 – 1273) writes:
“Woman is the radiance of God; she is not your beloved.
She is the Creator—you could say that she is not created.”
So, once again, we have a whore word .. Alla as the divine feminine, the “moon”, the goddess of Fertility, the symbol of womanhood .. transliterated from Ancient Aramaic as “sin“. Moon was worshipped in its threefold existence – waxing, (maiden), full (pregnant mother) and waning (old wise woman). The Virgin was the New Moon.
Muyiddin ibn al- ′Arabî (born 1165) wrote,
“To know woman is to know oneself,
Whoso knoweth his self, knoweth his Lord”
“man′s supreme witnessing of Allâh
is in the form of the woman during
the act of sexual union ..”
In the Kabbalah, just below the first Sphere (sefirah) of divine emanation known as Keter(crown; summit; pinnacle), lie the two roots of masculine and feminine, known as Hokhmah andBinah.
Binah is the Kabbalistic feminine symbol for Understanding, a prelude to wisdom. “Binah, the Great Mother, sometimes also called Marah, the Great Sea, is, of course, the Mother of All Living. She is the archetypal womb through which life comes into manifestation.”
Fatima (the daughter of the Prophet Muhammad) was considered to come from the level of angels. She is considered by many Muslims as divine in origin and several variations of a major hadith describe how she was conceived on the night of Mi′râj (ascension).
On this night Gabriel took Muhammad to Jerusalem and then to Heaven. While up in Heaven, he was offered some heavenly fruit, the seed of which was responsible for her conception, after the Prophet′s return on the same night and making love to his beloved wife Khadija.
Mohammad, in referring to Fatima as “The Mother of her Father”, understood that his gnosis was bestowed upon him from the Divine Feminine. Fatima’s own words,
“There is no God beside me, neither in divinity nor humanity, neither in the Heavens nor on earth, outside of me, who am Fatima – Creator.”
and what would all of this mean to a Rule whose sole purpose was the control and manipulation of all of its people through the establishment of a Patriarchal “God” — of course, you’d have to be born of original sin.
Isis and the Throne
Isis is the Greek form of more ancient names (Aset or Eset), and the name Isis is represented in hieroglyphics with a picture of a “throne”.
The throne represented the Feminine power of the Goddess, and the King when he ascends the throne, is actually drawing power from the throne upon which he sits.
To the pre-Christian Irish, water was the source of all life. Eire, after whom the country was named, was the superior Goddess of water and fertility, the island of Ireland being the body of the goddess. The Irish language has no word for the coronation of a king. This is because Irish kings were not crowned; they were married to the goddess in a ceremony called An Bainais – the wedding.
Therefore, we see the Divine Feminine, as the Source of Life, being expressed first by the means that humans may understand the Divine Feminine, in other words, Wisdom, being a feminine word, second, by the most holy names which express in a universal way (spanning cultures as varied as Egyptian, Hittitie and Celtic) that the Source of Life is the Divine Feminine.
Rumi again writes ..
“On Resurrection Day, the sun and moon are released from service:
and the eye beholds the Source of their radiance,
then it discerns the permanent possession from the loan,
and this passing caravan from the abiding home.
If for a while a wet nurse is needed,
Mother, return us to your breast.
I don′t want a nurse; my Mother is more fair.
I am like Moses whose nurse and Mother were the same.
The basic tenet of Tantrism is that matter, and therefore the body, is also a manifestation of Sakti power, that is, the power emanating from the feminine aspect of Divine Reality. In the domain of the spiritual life, the same term Sakti signifies the devi that allows one to enter into contact with Enlightenment.
She is both the key and the mystery;
who can be decoded only through Muladhara …
The child is Brahma; the Goddess is Dakini
Muladhara bears the Sanskrit letters va, scha, sha, and sa and the seed sound in the centre is lam
I am … the mother of my father and the daughter of my son
I had chosen for 8+ years to be single. Shutting myself off from the external world as much as I could. The reasons for this are largely irrelevant at this point. Suffice it to say I was shut down, scared, and frankly withering away. Close friends were trying pull me out. Then I met Kendal, through her Ecstatic Life Coaching program.
From the very first time I spoke with her on the phone I was struck by her ability to listen calmly to what was being said and ask questions to get a deeper understanding of where I was coming from even though I wasn’t sure myself. That is a theme that has continued through every meeting/session I have had with Kendal. She expertly and delicately invites to look deeper into a thought or feeling. I have never felt pushed, pulled, or dragged as friends are sometimes want to do under the guise of “your best interest”. The most I’ve ever felt from Kendal is the gentle, loving touch of reassurance. If I choose not to accept the invitation that is honored and accepted, but not to be forgotten.
There are times that I remember not accepting an invitation during a meeting/session only to have that same invitation appear at some later time. When she re-invites me it is always done from a loving place. There have been times where I have accepted the re-invitation, and other times where I have not. Either way my decision is always respected without the slightest judgement.
After several coaching sessions Kendal extended an invitation to experience a QCE session. With some level of nervousness and very little understanding of what I was really being offered, I accepted. During the first QCE session Kendal was very attentive to every shift that was happening. To the point where my energy levels were raised sufficiently to experience, for the first time in my life, a full body energetic release. To which my response was “what the f*** was that?” while laughing and settling into the feelings and sensations it evoked. Kendal laughed with me and quietly explained what I had just experienced. Just as she has at every step along the journey she has chosen to accompany me on.
Through both the coaching sessions and the QCE I have been able to push through some major blocks that have kept me from truly experiencing life and all it has to offer. The transformation I continue to see has amazed me. First and foremost the transformation in the relationship I have with myself, and also with the rest of my world. Since working with Kendal I have developed a relationship with an absolutely lovely woman and I know that would not have been possible where I was before I started working with Kendal. Kendal continues to guide and actively share in every session I have with her, as a coach, as a friend, and as a fellow traveller through this amazing world we share.
Kendal’s focus on healing both on a personal and energetic level has been exactly what I needed in my life. Everything has not been what I expected, however, even when my reactions have been centered in fear, not love, Kendal has been there without judgement to allow me to work through that fear and push through back to a space of love. I suggest Kendal’s coaching or QCE sessions, if like me, you are feeling cut off from the world, stuck in fear or stagnant. I would suggest that whichever you choose that it be from a place of open understanding not egoic expectation. The experience for both you and Kendal will be so much better for it.
Kendal, my deepest respect and thanks for choosing to guide me on this journey.
So many people that I’ve had conversations with have told me that they are seeking balance in their life. I decided to go look up the word balance on dictionary.com. It read a state of equilibrium. Searching further equilibrium means a state of rest due to the equal action of opposing forces. When you have two or more opposing forces that are exerting equal action you can develop balance. As we move through our daily lives we have more than 2 opposing forces at any one time. Rarely do these forces exert equal action or force. So if you can only have balance with opposing forces exerting equal force then the realization of balance never develops.
How many times have we been faced with opposing thoughts(forces)? Here’s an example that we’ve all faced. I have to go to work, however, I’d much rather stay home and spend time with a loved one. These are not applying equal action on us. If the need for money is greater it will exert greater force. If the need for connection with the loved one is greater than the need of money then taking the day off would be exerting greater force. Balance or equilibrium needs opposing forces to be created. Opposing forces create a duality within us. That duality rarely ever has equal action on both sides, there for balance is missed and our lives are lopsided. Like that shopping cart with the one flat spot on the wheel that goes clunk clunk clunk as we walk through the grocery store.
Whats the alternative then? Harmony.
Again going back to dictionary.com harmony means a consistent, orderly, or pleasing arragment of parts. When we move away from trying to get opposing forces to exert equal action at the same time, we can start to build harmony in our lives. Instead of dealing with the duality of opposing forces, build your life so there is agreement with all the different forces in your life. I will go to work today and then take my loved one out for a nice dinner, or make a nice dinner. Even when something is out of balance it can still be in harmony. That shopping cart that I mentioned earlier. If you are out of balance and out of harmony with your life that constant clunk might push you to the point of madness.
However, if you are out of balance AND in harmony you might notice that that clunk is in perfect time with the music playing in the store and smile. Some that I have talked to want to find balance for every aspect of their life. This is mostly impossible. Just take gender as an example I hear people all the time state they want to balance their masculine and feminine energy. These are opposing forms of energy. Very complementary but opposite. Whether you are male or female you have both energies within you. However they are rarely ever to the point that they are applying or exerting equal action in your life so then how can you balance them. Working to get the masculine and feminine to be in harmony though, that’s beautiful. They no longer have to be exerting equal action. You could be 75% feminine and 25% masculine and still be in harmony. The energies working in harmony to create the consistent, orderly, or pleasing arrangement of parts or energies in this case. You give up the battle of duality of trying to be 50% feminine and 50% masculine.
As you start to apply the harmony principle to your life you will start to find that things may come into balance naturally. Harmony allows us to take a step back from the constant battle of duality. It allows us to build ONE life that flows by taking these forces and into a simultaneous combination. Where each force becomes a note on the music of your life. A piece of music that you are the author of.
What do you want the music of your life to sound like?
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Love a Woman
If you want to change the world…love a woman….really love her. Find the one who calls to your soul, who doesn’t make sense. Throw away your check list and put your ear to her heart and listen. Hear the names, the prayers, the songs of every living thing…… If your eyes aren’t filled with tears, if you aren’t bowing at her feet, … you haven’t ever grieved having almost lost her.
If you want to change the world… love a woman…..one woman beyond yourself, beyond desire and reason. We have given ourselves so many choices we have forgotten that true liberation comes from standing in the middle of the soul’s fire and burning through our resistance to Love. There is only one Goddess. Look into Her eyes and see…..really see if she is the one to bring the axe to your head. to severe you from the old life so that you can enter the new.
If you want to change the world… love a woman. Love her for life….beyond your fear of death, Don’t tell her you’re willing to die for her. Say you’re willing to LIVE with her, plant trees with her and watch them grow. Be her hero by telling her how beautiful she is in her vulnerable majesty, by helping her to remember every day that she IS a Goddess through your adoration and devotion.
If you want to change the world… love a woman in all her faces, through all her seasons and she will heal you of your double-mindedness and half-heartedness which keeps your Spirit and body separate- which keeps you alone and always looking outside your Self for something to make your life worth living.
If you want to change the world… love a woman, just one woman . Love and protect her as if she is the last holy vessel. Love her through her fear of abandonment which she has been holding for all of humanity. No, the wound is not hers to heal alone. No, she is not weak in her codependence.
If you want to change the world… love a woman all the way through until she believes you, until her instincts, her visions, her voice, her art, her passion, her wildness have returned to her- until she is a force of love more powerful than all the forces that seek to devalue and destroy her.
If you want to change the world, lay down your causes, your guns Lay down your inner war, your righteous anger and love a woman… beyond all of your striving for greatness, beyond your tenacious quest for enlightenment. The holy grail stands before you if you would only take her in your arms and let go of searching for something beyond this intimacy.
What if peace is a dream which can only be remembered through the heart of Woman? What if a man’s true love for Woman, the Way of the Feminine is the key to opening Her heart?
If you want to change the world…love a woman to the depths of your shadow, to the highest reaches of your Being, back to the Garden where you first met her, to the gateway of the rainbow realm where you walk through together as One, to the point of no return, to the ends and the beginning of a new Earth.
Shortly after entering her suite, Kendal smiled and said she had something special for me that day. I am a long-term Kendal fan and client, and have learned to always trust her intuition as I’ve found I’m never disappointed with the outcome. My world changes drastically when I am received into her sessions. I leave chaotic traffic and my busyness and am enabled to slow down and feel immense peace and tranquility. Frankly, Kendal’s sessions are among the very few places I go where I can remove myself for a short time from the hectic craziness of my world.
She’s always warm and friendly, free with smiles and brief casual conversation – all sincerely intentioned to give me relief from my cares. Although I know it’s just her way, she can’t help but make me feel like I am the most important person to her while I am in her sessions. Her room, as usual, was lit only by candlelight. My eyes adjusted as we talked and I noticed that a sheet-covered mat on the floor replaced her usual massage table.
Facing me, she took my hands in hers and placed them at the center of her chest. She asked me to take ten deep breaths as she used her other hand to check my chakra by gently touching my neck, chest, diaphragm and stomach. While I don’t understand the science behind this (I don’t feel I need to), I find it pleasing and comforting. And it seems to set the mood for her therapy, which I have found to be very centering.
She received permission to remove my shirt, pants and other clothing, hanging them neatly on hooks. The room was still with peace and anticipation as she led me to the mat and leaned back against some pillows along one wall. She asked me to lie with my back against her. As I rested myself against her warmth, she began to lightly touch my face, shoulders, arms and chest. I could feel her soft breath against my neck and had the sensation that I was melting into her and into a world that I would not want to leave.
After several minutes, she asked me to lie on the mat face down. What I felt next was not only surprising, but also uniquely different than anything I had ever experienced before. Her hand held a palm full of cool powder, which she began to spread over my skin. All at once there was a cool, almost liquid-like sensation followed by the smoothness of her skilled hands rubbing the powder onto my body. It was exquisite – sensually arousing and nurturing all at once. I have had many Kendal massages using oil, but this treatment with powder transported me to a new level of sensitivity. Just when I thought it couldn’t get any better, she asked me to lift up onto my knees and elbows. She then smoothed more soft powder over my buttocks, inner thighs, stomach and elsewhere sending me into an even higher state of arousal – one that I hadn’t thought possible.
I then rolled over onto my back as Kendal used a soft cloth to gently wipe away the powder residue. She continued by cupping warm oil and pouring it over me. The warm oil in contrast to what I felt with the cool soft powder was delicious. Kendal worked her skillful magic, paying attention to every detail and bringing me to a place where I was removed from all of my concerns, relaxed and completely fulfilled. As I lay quietly in the soft, warm glow with this beautiful woman attentively caring for me, I couldn’t imagine being in a better place.
Anyone who knows her and has experienced her treatments knows that everything Kendal does, she does with loving care and attention. Never does her therapy feel clinical. I continue to admire her deft touch and her immense creativity. And it’s impossible to ignore the beauty of her mind, body and spirit. This therapy that she calls “The Caesar” is a must-try. Enjoy!
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Let me start by telling you a bit about me, I’m a shy person by nature and have spent my life giving to others. I love helping other people out so much that it has become what I do for a living. I manage a help desk helping customers and employees all day everyday. I also support or help support 4 different families in my personal life. So let me assure you I was not prepared for the precious moments with Kendal where this amazing, beautiful, loving woman focused entirely on me. Even from the first time I met her at our consultation I was relaxed and comfortable. She has a way of making you feel OK to just be yourself without expectations.
When I first arrived at her office I was tense with a lot of anxiety about our session, stepping into the sacred space she created it washed away almost instantly. We talked for a brief time which put me further at ease. She then invited me to place my hands on her Heart Chakra while she did the same to mine, the breathing exercises we did inspired a deep trust in her and that she really was interested in helping and healing me fully.
I have been diagnosed with Guillain-Barre Syndrome which makes any contact to my feet extremely painful. Which I was very nervous about since the next step in our session was a ceremonial foot bathing. I was pleasantly surprised at how warm and loving her touch was, at the slightest touch I felt as if my entire foot were surrounded by warm energy that soothed the pain and for the first time in 8 months my feet were not hurting. The energy felt like it extended a few inches off all sides of my feet and was warm, almost globular, it was like nothing else I have ever experienced.
At this point I stood again and she asked permission to remove my clothing she did so softly and with incredible grace. Once disrobed she invited me to lay face down while she checked my chakras. Even this was an experience worth having. Once she had the energy information she needed she worked on freeing up tense blocked energy spots through out my back, legs and feet. I’ve had my fair share of massages and I must say that the overwhelming intent to heal makes an amazing difference, it was the greatest massage I have ever gotten. Her hands worked with such love and skilled precision. She then asked if I would like to roll over onto my back, once comfortable again she worked on the energy of my chest, arms, legs, and feet again.
Just when I did not think I could get anymore out of the time with her, she asked if it would be ok if I rolled back over and she removed the drape that was over me. At this point the session got more sensual but not in the typical way you might think,
it was about love and caring not about lust and sex. If you have not experienced this type of compassion I can assure you that you are missing out on one of the greatest things we as humans can offer each other. As she was working in freeing up the flow of my energy through my entire body I sensed what I can only categorize as a burst of energy that filled the room and was impossible to ignore. I knew something had changed and it didn’t come from within me. As I lay there soaking in this new energy her upper body came in contact with me and I felt the warmth of her skin on my body. It drove me deeper into the sensations she was bringing out of me already. As the energy she was radiating and the energy welling up in me combined I fell a state of complete peace and acceptance.
She asked if I was ready to roll back over onto my back. She again skillfully, lovingly worked the energies in the room, both mine and hers to bring me to a new understanding of the being that I truly am. As she massaged my lingam I could feel the energy coalesce, building and building till I was almost on the verge of releasing it, just before I did; as if that energy was some physical substance she could capture in her hand and direct she motioned her fingers up the center of my chest making it radiate through out my entire being. I felt as if I could feel every tiny cell in my body and they were all electrified with my sexual energy. My body vibrated with new life and the only way I can think to describe it would have to be complete and total full body bliss! As this sensation started to dissipate (although it never completely did) she started it building again and once again as a true master of her arts she assisted me in letting it release thorough out my body once again. This time however I was overcome with it and my body literal started shaking with the pleasure. When I finally did release that energy from my being I was in total awe of not only her and her abilities but of the truly amazing energy I had just been shown that I have within me and always have. She finished our session with more body work to help calm the energy and ease me into a state of bliss.
If you are considering visiting with Kendal the best advise I could think to give you would be to go into it with an open heart and give yourself permission to relax and enjoy the time you have with this amazing, beautiful woman. Do not place yourself into a confined box, you may not have the same experience I had but if you are truly open to your session you will have the experience you need and I really do believe that.
In closing I would like to say; Kendal you are a beautiful, loving, and energetic soul and thank you from the bottom of my heart, I will never forget my first experience with tantra.
With love -John